noah

im in pain broooo someone listen to me

im a communist now

i have everything i have ever wanted, yet the despondency remains buried in my chest

I feel like I'm dying and viewing the last 7 minutes of my life except it's results day and I'm getting flashbacks of everything that went wrong in the exams

god isn't real and if he is then he is not all loving because I don't deserve ANY of this "oh he's testing you and your devotion to him!! jesus loves you!" THE ONLY THING THAT CUNTBAG IS TESTING IS MY LAST NERVE

I think the most embarassing part of attempting to jump out of a moving car is forgetting the door is locked and having to slowly turn around to your father with no explanation

is it immoral to no longer care if my parents are physically or mentally hurt

using the same tactics to remember as my parents used to make me forget? heavily ironic if you ask me

i think being so ignorant of other issues I have because I have bigger problems is so funny because yes sometimes I see and hear shit but im in pain all the time and chronically anxious so idgaf??

every year I wait and see if there's an update on the progressive chronic illness I may or may not have and every year I feel relieved when I walk out of that hospital room

waking up in a cold sweat, throat sore from screams i didn't know I held

used to be so scared of love and now I literally don't know why

mj's "I don't love you" to I don't love you by my chemical romance. I'll see myself out

feeling like penelope

flinching at my bones but i did this

i drink and learn im barely holding it together but it stays hidden under the thousand plans I already have