s’aimer

It feels good to have some safe space. It was my four corner walls and finding myself to discover parts of me that is still undercover. Being alone made me think deeply about what I am about too. This feels good. 

Baby, I’m back and this time I will write about myself--- how I am slowly falling in love with myself. 

I found myself typing again. Typing endless words that is going in my head. Anxiety can be really a bitch, going back to this page made me realize how broken I am in those days and those days that even words cant express how hurt I am . Now I can hear myself typing again it feels euphoric to be back writing again. 

Enough, please I’ve had enough.

It’s about trying to live on my own. Gago ganto pala yon, its a painful process. Pero its about me keeping myself out sa mga bagay na alam ko namang di ko deserve. I know gustong gusto ko siya right now, pero pagod na ako maghabol pa sa kanya. I’m tired of begging for his time and attention. sure he do love me, I know he have his own priorities. Siguro at this point I should change my priority, I’m choosing myself this time. I think I chose kung anong tama ngayon, and I think I’m happy bout it.