Sugar Free, Vogue Says Thinner Is Better

In other news I was scheduled for weight loss surgery 02/16/21 but cancelled it, I just didn’t think it was the right path for me.

So now it’s back to trying to lose the weight on my own again. I have a plan for rapid weight loss which should let me fly out of certain number brackets.

Foods on the menu

80 oz of water daily

Breakfast:

Boiled eggs

Canadian bacon

Oatmeal

Fruit ( 🍎, 🍇, 🍌)

Yogurt (carbmaster)

Sugarless cereal (Cheerios, Kix, Wheaties, Rice Crispies etc.)

Protein shake

Lunch:

Protein shake

Rice cakes

Jello

Salad

Tuna

Noodles

Dinner:

Noodles

Chicken (boneless skinless)

Fish

Wrap (tuna, chicken)

Veggies (broccoli, corn, cauliflower, carrots, baked potato)

Veggie burger/substitute

Beans (black, pinto, green)

Protein shake

This is after the liquid diet which is a minimum of 1 week but up to three.

I never started that liquid diet. I’ll try again once the holiday food is gone, just in time for New Years

My weight is only increasing. I’m going to log my moods and appetite on here tomorrow so hopefully I can better understand the process and how it affects me. Anywho stay tuned

There are four stages to to readiness of change and they’re really simple

Stage one is when you make change because you are compelled by authority to do it. Nobody makes change then.

Stage two is to escape criticism.

Stage three is when you’re intellectually motivated. You know in your mind that you should do it.

Monday I’ll be switching to OMAD, One Meal A Day. I’ll eat all my calories within an hour and a half. This seems like a good route for me atm.

Later I had 5 fried chicken wings w/ chipotle ranch, and followed it up with my disgusted yet patented triple decker Pb & j. 3918/3590. It was a bad day.

Met with my psychiatrist, the scale there said I was 499.8. I was baffled but didn’t let myself count it as my true number since Monday I weighed in at 502.0. I told her that I stopped taking my Rexulti because I felt it was increasing my appetite. We had a pretty tense back and forth, she did not think it was the Rexulti. But said we could try abilify but it might have the same effect. I declined. Offered to reduced the Rexulti, I declined. Offered to switch my fetzima to something else, I decline. It was a rollercoaster.

She finally convinced me on the reduced dosage and switch to taking it at night. I’m not particularly pleased with this but I’m willing to give it a go for the next two weeks. The issue is that once I stopped the Rexulti my depression increased 10 fold, and it obviously showed in that session.

I’m down 0.8lbs. Wtf is that!? I busted my butt last week and couldn’t even manage a full lb!? I hate it.

This morning a gobbled down 1,600 calories of sugar. If I eat nothing else. I’ll be fine, but I’m feeling so discouraged and self-destructive.