I feel so lost. Recently lost my job and just feel like a loser. Burning throw my savings and don’t know what I want to do next. Tired of working jobs I hate. Just tired of life.

I would like to die. Please and thank you.

I must really hate myself. I always love people who will never love me the same way. Then I spend the whole time knowing the person, trying to make myself okay with them never wanting me. It never work. It’s always hurts. But I always lie and says it works. Waiting around hoping I’ll be their next choice when things go south. Don’t get me wrong I want them to be happy. I just sometimes wish I was a good enough option too. I always think to myself “ I’ve been around longer” what don’t you see in me that you see in them. They always break your heart. I won’t do that. I just want my chance. I just want to be loved the same. I’m tired of always being second. Hell, I don’t even know if I can be second if I never get picked. I just want to be an option. Someone that someone sees as a choice. I’m so tired of being enough to fuck but never enough to love. I’m so lonely and it’s exhausting.