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im back! back with the depression, lonliness, and just wanting to die!! cant wait for it to finally happen! 

Actually makes me smile seeing this.

Sorry munchkin, sorry i cant take away all of your pain that me and u have endoured all of our lives. Sorry i cant make ur life better. Sorry when i try that it just cant be helped either way. Sorry i cant make our lives better here. Sorry that i cant take away the burden. Im trying but as usual. Im sorry. If i kill myself soon, just know. Im sorry. The reason i always say u choose is because, i want u to kno that your life matters, it has and always will. I want u to be happy and in charge. If u want something, i do it for u, sure i yell and im sorry, but i want u to feel the supoort that weve never had growing up. I want to be the big brother that u go to when ur sad, or when u have a problem. Sure people need stress to grow, but uve already been through so much that i want ur anxiety to go away. I want u to be happy. And if im not here long enough to see it. I just want u to kno im proud of u for getting though this rough patch called life. Im sorry if i really kill myself. U r the msin reason ive been alive to this point. So if i do quot my job, kno its so u can relax and focus on ur own life!!

Part 4

Hi Tita, thank you for being a positive at work. and im sorry i cant do much to get you a better time there. I hate who leads us and wish i could do more for you. you are my mentor there and forever a tita to me so i want to thank you. sorry i cant be your itco anymore so i hope somebody can fill the void of a foolish little kid to you as i once was.

hey bro, sorry for always being annoying and shit. I know for sure that you were one of the people that were just annoyed of me and i really do apoligize. thanks for putting up with my shit at work and hope everything turns out the best for you in the end. you were always a bro and i cant wait to see what life has for you because you for sure a bro and one of the realist people i know. so thanks and sorry again

Hi one of my fav people to learn from. sure other people didnt understand your ways, but i was definitely one person to understand your ways. I am truely greatful that i did as it really help me understand more about design and just how the work world is out there. sure i didnt make it there but im happy to know that you did believe in me. So i want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, and hope you inspire many more kids as you did for me.

ever since the start of highschool we be friends all because of choir. so thanks. you are an awesome person inside and out. being a close friend throughout all of this has been awesome. i think this is the first time im apoligizing for this but sorry for not going to ur debut. i kno im super rude for that and i really am just a bad person so thats one reason by the time you're reading this, that i will finally be gone. so thank you for all the support you've given me but sorry that i cant continue. hope you understand. so sorry

to one person who i was really close with during highschool, thank you. we even shared a locker together. you mean alot to me so i hope you do big things as ive known you for always pushing through. even when im gone i want you to remember that im always rooting for you no matter what. so thank you.

to one friend who has suprisingly always been with me, whether is was out first year of high school, to having the same job twice in which you followed me to both ahah. thanks for being a chill friend who was chill with me no matter what. for sure i was never as sporty or athletic as you but thats what made you you. so keep goin bro. you an awesome bro. youve even been to my house multiple times even when it was to work with my mom at one point. like even when im gone, you a bro for life so i wanna thank you.

my bro!! having you in my life was awesome! somebody who i could talk to bout pree much anything. kpop, games, life. you are one of the realist out of that group we used to have so thank you!! i want to persevere as you are a strong person goin thru shit!! so my dream for you when im gone is to just keep going. i couldnt so i would hope you would for me!! for the dream of success and prosperity that both me and you want. HOPE YOU MEET TWICE ONE DAY!!

to a girl that i always LOVED to randomly see at work!! i want to thank you for being just a geniune friend. you are so beautiful inside and out that i hope you will let the world know just how important they are. so thank you girl, for everything

dear jer bear. thanks for pree much being legit a brother from another mister. lol. especially how our boss at the time was pree much racist and thought that we were cousins. ahaha. but in the end of that , its all history as weve pree much being cousins ahah. so i want to thank you for beng that cousin figure and for no moment being a non memorable one. thank you

you a really hard bitch who knows what they want, and thats what ive wanted from myself but just could never have that confidence and direction that you did. i always knew you could be good in school. thats why you are a person i had high expections for. i know you will do big things. so keep going. you a boss as bitch so yeah. thanks for everything!! especially the lanyard!! lol