Universal Obervant (& Mental Art)

They are always hidden with good intentions because people  have a responsibility to survive. It’s only natural for a person to think of themselves first  before moving toward others around them. However, where the problem spirals out of control is when those insecurities are constantly being place on you. You might just be the friend or family member who is trying to be understanding and never really asked to be told anything. Unfortunately, this could result in a situation that you were not involved with in the first place, being your fault. Depending on how many times that circumstance takes place it can really start to wear down a person’s understanding of identity. It can often be found surprising to realize that the person doing the blaming is surprised that you have low self esteem or lack of confidence. This can be your own doing, but its not just your fault in having that lack of strength, its also the blamers fault because no one can find that negative path with out someone to show them the way first.

When nothing occurs many are left to their own devices, and in this society which we hold today many of us are unaccustomed to how to understand that nothing-ness. In order to combat what many may consider nothing-ness classifying with words such as boredom, laziness, and so on. Can leave a person uncomfortable in a place by themselves, to deal with the nothing-ness around them. The way that a person deals with that nothing-ness all lye’s on the way that the person was raised. One could ask if they were even allowed to be bored or if they received too much alone time? What incident led them to believe that being alone was the only way to accomplish what needed to be done? One cannot just judge a person’s character based the first meeting because their constant environment may be filled with toxic people or events many may not have the ability to understand. 

What do you do when this happens? Most of the time this creates an atmosphere of hostillity for the one who is not being taken seriously. At many times it leaves them with determination to get the others to understand their situation, sometimes even by force. Unfortunately this will leave them in failure because people only understand to the lenght of their own perception. So, if they don’t believe they did anything wrong there is nothing you can do to change that mindset. The same goes for other people’s mindsets, such as those who believe they aren't wrong, or those who believe they can make it through any situation. Many times this personal understanding will be tested by others to see if what you are feeling is an over-exaggeration. And if you believe what is happening to you is real your ideas about the issue should remain constant. Human beings are curious creatures who adapt to their emviroments, if that enviroment is filled with deception, then their actions will justify their character.

Its not funny when someone sounds off and seems to be screaming at the world. They aren’t playing the victim, they are asking for help. The problem is they don’t know how to ask for it, so that plea for assistance comes out in erratic forms of violence, that can either be subtle or dramatic. Sending positive vibes or talking positively around the person are not enough. One needs to physically confront the person and say that they are taking their situation seriously. That they believe the words and situations that are happening to them  as a serious event. Many are so easy to brush things off and count external  issues as anothers responiblity, but it honestly is not. If you know about it you’re responsible. if you care enough about a person to gossip about them, you should care enough to know their side of the story. When people say, be the change they want to see in the world, one has to be confrontational  in order for this to be achieved. If the person doesn’t know how you feel about them, one can count themselves as just another toxic person to be removed. And with all respect your responsibility then becomes to move out of the way so that person who is in pain can find their way of coping with the situation. 

One arbitrary fact that is consistently true is that life sucks and you can’t do anything about it. As misfortunate as this may seem people don’t seem to understand that it is in fact true. They may get stuck on the basis of the beauty of life and that it should be enjoyed the majority of the time, that they often forget that life does have some hardships attached to it. I think the only reason why many delight in the suffering of others is because, its as if we are witnessing this event of the understanding that life can suck at different times and multiple times through out the year without discrimination. Most of us who understand that life is hard make it seem as if it is an truth that should be understood, but can be played as a game altogether. Which can lead many to believe that life is not exactly as hard as it is made out to be. This in some cases, can lead to what many may consider a “softening” of the generations where more explanation is needed and understanding is vital to the progression of future societies.

We go from one toxic thing to another. At many times this seems unfair and can almost feel as if it is following you. Unfortunately, it is, life moves in this circular motion in which both happiness and hardship coincide and flow at an even, constant pace. There is no getting rid of it, it never ends and the horrible apart about it is that people feel entitled to all of it , meaning it can be your experience but they are entitled to its progression and dismissal. Oxymoronic, right? 

I was going to make this a super long facebook post and decided to express myself elsewhere. The phrase hurry up and wait is a crucial part of human existance because it defines our ability to react to different situations. I believe that it may be taken out if context in a way that may be less usefull that it can be. I heard this term first time from an active duty army officer while I was doing ROTC while I attended univesity in California. The phrase, from my understanding, is meant to explain how things in military life work. Where one can work either for a long or short time with either a lot or moderate activity taking place, then there is inevitably is a long wait time. The wait is probably by the most pain staking portion of the process, where nothing feels like anything is going to change and one can find themselves getting bored. How this phrase isn't helpful because you get addicted to the activity when it is produced and hate the boring wait parts of the whole process. When in fact the waiting is the most defining moment. This wait can set you up for a more succesfull less stressful active time. There is always work to be done, but if one wants to become something great they have to get used to mundane life with tiny sparks of action in what they love to do. At many times the phrase hurry up and wait is meant to determine the action needed to create progression, however in many instances this doesn't allow for a healthy life style. Making you fixed on a high, where there is no understanding of a constant consistant progress that is meant to maintain long term progress. You can wait as long as you want if you feel like your not ready to progress with new adventures as long as you feel you are taken care of. You don't have to be exciting all the time, you can like being boring. Finding joy in what is ordinary is the ultimate form of creativity, there is nothing wrong with that. You can choose when to make a decision, how fast you want to go, and what you want to tell people. A person doesnt always have to be quick about it.

Your power, whether that be universal or social, is increased and decreased daily because people believe that it is easier to push their own beliefs on each other to dictate what is true. This unfortunately may be true about our own truths, but the truths of others is not as it may seem. Social processes are constantly changing, and in many ways we have to move along with them. This is a hard truth to follow however, if one finds themselves suck in a situation one must remain calm and feel what needs to felt in order to move on. This is not possible if others try to interfere within a affair, or attempt to input their own understandings of the situation into another problem. If feelings must be spoken, then they should be said, if some action needs to be done, it should be done. Every person with an issue does not need to have it addressed, the understanding of the issue should be acknowledge, space must also be given in order to allow the individual to heal properly. This can vary in lengths of time, and coming forward with the issue should be left up to the individual.  

That shame that is placed on us for having feelings, getting a head, or enjoying life is all situational and is not unique to just you. Our societies make these different situations obscurities that can either hold power or reduce one's social influence. It still doesn't make your situation or anyone's situation unique.

(0 o 0) This goopy stuff is weird but in some cases is can actually be analyzed in a case by case scenario. Unfortunately, now that dating has become more capitalistic and people can benefit from the understanding of what love is, its honestly lost its meaning. Women have become more proactive and men have, for the most part lost, their luster. This is a whole different concept of what identity is, because identity when encapsulated with the ideologies of capitalism is hard to maintain due to the constant need for progression. You can’t take that same mentality into dating. Dating/romance is a “hurry up and wait” sense of thinking, and most of the time people take too long to react to this. Its like people believe that all humans are all synced up and understand each others vibes, but that’s just crazy. Last I heard different people could read certain frequencies others give off. Only that doesn’t mean they can understand whole heartedly what the other person’s intentions are. We are children of our environment and our environment predominantly dictates that the male counter parts are meant to take the lead.

Backlash from entitlement can take place at anytime; a football game, a car show, a concert, a school, a protest or even a political convention. Problematic areas in government should be understood by what backlash in civil communities is being presented. Unfortunately,people are too up in their feelings and to busy showcasing their own entitlement to actually think about the entire problem. Its not just you who lives in country, the people that you don’t agree with live there too. And if that does hit you in the right spot let me illustrate it further. With peace there always is fire, think of how amazing it would be for everyone to not only go along with, but also understand your manner of thinking. Then understand that at some point you will get bored of people who constantly agree with you, you’ll soon find yourself searching for what isn’t there, and it manifests in the form of senseless drama, anarchy, civil unrest, and political degeneration. Listen to what’s going on and make the appropriate decisions to benefit all.

always remember

This idea of suffering also explains why so many people get stuck in memories of event, people, and relationships that they believed occurred in one way, but ended up being another form of truth for another.

How is it inconceivable for the living to accept death and for those who are dying to see it as an inconvenient truth? Part of me wants to believe that its like a sport, where you can only run around for so long until you start to realize that you’re tired. The moment that you accept you’re tired is when you actually die. There may be hiccups and delayed starts, but those areas express what needs to be addressed and taken care of. You can’t become less tired, one chooses the amount of stress that they want to impose on themselves and accept it for what it is. We can feel our lives growing smaller and many believe that by accepting the fact that we’ve already been  through hell, we can do anything. The fact of the matter is, we can enjoy anything, but a person can’t really withstand everything. 

Could a person honestly help too much? I know helping too much can come off as condescending and critical, resulting in a person feeling less than valuable. But how can you tell when helping is honestly too much for someone to handle? There has to be a balance.

When you hurt someone there are levels of pain that someone can handle. Sometimes people can brush off an altercation with out batting an eye, others may fight back and confront the problem, but more than often people will usually retreat to something thatvis familiar bevause they understand that there is no changing the situation at hand. The idea of retreating to something can seem cowardly upon first thought but in most cases that can actually be the most strength that a person can bestow upon a situation. Many may stay in a situation but say nothing usually coming off a stubborness, others may find something that has always brought them joy such as an art form ,a sport or food. Even though one may catagorizes this initially as a problem many may find this as the only way tocounter balance a problem in which they may not have any control over. This can lead to obsession if a person stays in a toxic situation long enough creating a more than harmful habit. The idea of levels of hurt in its innocence is strength.

I'm trying to take what happened to me in stride, by saying it was an eye opening experience, even though it was probably the most horrible thing that could have happened. I write, I try to express myself, but its all different now, I'm difderent now. And the sucky part about it is I get to see the faces of people who knew me before thiss happenned,all the time. Those few who had the power to literally change my scope of thought by just asking me how I was doing , but decided to ignore everything until they saw me in person. Don't try to make it up now, you've already completed your shitty person training why make it worse. I was trying before, but now I'm not. Fuck you guys I was just a fad to you, you don't deserve me.