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And here you have to be careful. Because now women start to look like the right shape to fit your absent bed. But they do not have names and you don’t want to hear it if they do. You tell them where you are so it is understood and if you’re using them they’re using you just as much. Winter doesn’t end. You don’t meet anyone, not even a shape with no name. You don’t talk, for hours every day you don’t say a word out loud. You barely notice it and when you do it makes you want to cry. But I can’t cry. It’s been taught out of me. So I don’t cry and I don’t speak and sometimes I see a picture of her and it’s okay. I’m not mad. I’m barely sad. It isn’t about her anymore. But it’s too soon to be about anyone else. So there’s the interim. And in that space you find your family and friends. And you feel what it's like when your lungs don’t work and you’re grateful when they do again, and you know what it means to be healthy, which you were in the first place then forgot. And now you see you are not as broken as you thought. It is just a moment. Because winter will end, and though you can’t see it yet, you believe it, because it’s ended before, and you were there. Remember that now, have faith in what you can’t feel. Believe in the Sun.

A callous heart is a living scar. It is a no, where there was once a yes. It is faith proved wrong.

SessionsX Podcast, an anthology of the unexplained. 

Wanting my sorrow to be cinematic. Listening to sad songs. Writing poems. Sick all the way to Sunday.

The following is the first document compilation effort by The Massachusetts Town & Counties Historical Society. Unlike previous volumes regarding Woodland’s history, the following book consists mostly of pages from personal diaries, unpublished memoir excerpts, police statements, and newspaper clippings found abandoned in the town of Woodland, MA, as well as correspondences and other writings submitted from outside of the town. As always, great care has been taken in the effort to collect the following documents. The Massachusetts Town & Counties’ Historical Society does not make any claim regarding the incident itself, the following is only an effort in preserving history, with an unparalleled look into life prior to the tragic events which took place in Woodland in the winter of 1994.