unicorn castiel 🦄

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blog where i talk/rant about my life, yearn, and post other stuff 🦄

i yearn for friends and human connection so bad after being isolated for so long but im terrible at being friends and talking with people ( ;´ - `;)

i dont really feel connected with anyone i meet and i never know what to say. its hard for me to talk about anything besides things im interested in too. and no one i talk to is similar enough to me .. like they have vastly different personalities so it just makes talking difficult

i end up ghosting people just because talking feels like a chore or because id rather be alone or not do the thing i promised to do ages ago. but yet i still desperately want friends !! i didnt used to be like this but i dont know.what happened ☹️☹️

theres a lot of things id love to do with a friend but its hard for me to actually keep them.sigh. and when i do they dont really get it :(

yayayya i fixed up my layout !!!! im much happier with it me thinks. new layout for posts / diary entires too and a new tag ^_^

today was pretty boring and i just suffered lwk ALL DAY. my stomach has been giving me problems and ive been feeling so alone with them. idk wut to do though or why i feel so gross and bad . i wish it would stop already (╥﹏╥)

i havent done anything special today besides play dbd for like 2 seconds and deltarune 💗💗🤞 i hope tomorrow will be better

　 — cas　🦄

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i dunno if its just me but i feel disingenuous whenever i try to act a way id like to be. like thats not me even if i wish it was :(((

and i dont wanna not be me

but its really appealing ti act this other way

and maybe id be happier ????

ok acrually idk if im really thinking this

do i really feel like this

worlds greatest mysteries

am i just acting like this and being quirky ????? or is that me ??

i might just be excited to be here

am i trying to be like eeveyone else?????? gaahhidk

maybe im tryou gro be like people in scenarios i see bcuz i can only imagine being i n them if i imagine someone else that isng me

is that me ☹️☹️

ikeep overthinking this. do i really use :(

i wanna be myself i think but idk who that is

idunno wut to post yet.i am contemplating redoing my intor actually ok i double lied it is bad 😡😡