fuck

i believed every word you said

one day ill get the love i imagine

never been more electrified by someones touch. the feel of her kiss on my forehead is still lingering like a bad burn and i find it so comforting. i’ve never been so scared. So nervous thinking about the unknown future. I feel like I’ve been awoken brushing off the numbness just to deal with the possibility of more pain. In the end I don’t think it matters because in the moment I finally feel my shoulders relax. And i’m not quite sure if her fingers trace my skin out of love, pity, or maybe just friendship but it’s worth it. In the end, it doesn’t matter how slow my heart beats because feeling how fast it went for you is enough for me.

Like seeing the true depiction of an angel in real life. Terrifying and breath taking while being in awe all at the same time. You looked beautiful standing perfectly underneath the only streetlamp illuminated. Anxious because of the cars driving past but the most at peace I’ve ever been by looking into your eyes. Your lips tainted red from the Whitney and my eyes painted the same color. I wish our chemistry crossfaded but I don’t regret a thing. Everything has fallen into place and I know exactly why I’m in this moment.

goodbye to that part of myself

im so fucking upset