Underscore198

I just need a dedicated space to.. um.. express myself differently without being weird to any of my mutuals' feeds.

So, this is mostly a place to post about my experience with male loneliness (and I guess the term is yearn for affection?? But like hopefully not creepily?? I have trouble telling if that stuff is creepy sometimes)

To be close to a girl and give her all the affection in the world. To lay on her chest and be truly able to say that she makes me feel as if I weren't so lonely.

To be able to run my finger through her hair. I would learn how to braid it just so that not only does she not have to do it herself, I have all the more reason to be close to her.

And I just held her hand, softly, quietly?

I would like to wear cat ears for my partner one day. I already behave a lot like a cat anyway:

I am sensitive (both good and bad) as to people touching me but mainly show affection through cuddling.

My face remains relatively expressionless, but if I had a tail you would be able to see every emotion in it (maybe that's more puppylike but that's okay!!)

I do practically purr whenever someone runs their fingers through my hair

I'm there, tripping over my words and stammering, "H-hi, I though you were uhm, really.. pretty.. Could I maybe possibly sit here for a while and talk to you maybe?"

Because she IS really pretty and she's sitting there, looking at me with a calm, collected gaze, thinking aww, this guy can't even speak to me properly!! he's cute, I should at least give him a chance.

Outside everyone sees the guy and how he defends his girlfriend. Nobody could imagine him bending or giving way to anyone who comes his way.

But she knows.

I'll tease her for being short all the time but then one day she'll just be there in my doorway with a purple leather collar in one hand and a leash and the other and I'll freeze.

Then she'll walk over and run her hand along my jaw and then guide my head down so that I'll kneel and she can put it on me. And when she finally had control, she'll turn the teasing around,

"What's wrong, baby? You never see me from below before? You should get used to it. After all, you're going to be spending a lot more time between my legs, especially in the next hmm.. 2-3 hours. You better get to work, sweetheart ❤️."

I just need somebody who will see me, an awkward giant, and think "oh yeah that guy is a big softie. I bet his sleepy face and bed hair is super pretty and cute. I can't wait to pull him into bed and hold him there until I can see it." and suddenly my life will be so much better?