Chin up, Kid

I’m so tired of being sick. Every days for years on years and still I’m caught by surprise every day. I don’t think I’ll ever get used to this kind of suffering. I spent so long in fight or flight that now I’m dealing with autoimmune diseases. My body waited for the scary things to stop to then turn my own body into the scariest thing. I just wish for a break from being sick. I’m tired.

I have no where to talk about this so I’m coming home to my safe place. I’m 26 and just finally lost my gay virginity tonight, during pride month too oh man. I’m overwhelmed. It was everything I made it out to be in my head, and more. I’m glad to have confirmation after all this time that I am actually queer and not just pretending to be. I also broke my 15 year vegetarianism last week but that’s a whole different story.