Love Him To Ruins (Folded Book)
Finally! After two weeks of folding pages and who knows how many paper cuts, Iâve finished my entry.Â
And below is a lengthy insight to it.
I remember when I first read this line, it was 3 something in the morning and I was reading with the lights on (I meanâŚThe Evolution was scary as fuck). I recall the shiver that ran through my body and the sense of doom it left in its wake. Iâve chosen that quote not only becuase it shattered my heart five years ago, but for the way in which words strung together in the appropriate order can completely overwhelm you. Iâll never not be fascinated by how an immensity of feelings and stories may be contained within four words.Â
Considering the immensity of those four words, I found it only fitting to convey it by building them from a story. Because thatâs precisely what the words mean to me (an here I get all insightful ans shit, I am an english major, after all), the point around the story that builds up to the consciousness of what Noah Shaw chooses to be. During The Evolution, that quote was akin to Sarah walking through the Oubliette (Iâll never miss a chance to make a Labyrinth reference) and hearing the rocks claiming her certain death. However, once she makes it through, the result is most favourable, for she is once again in the right path to save TobyâŚI digress.Â
My point is, Iâve chosen to follow the same path with that quote. Weâve always considered  âLove Him To Ruinsâ as a reflection of Noahâs inevitable death. But after reading the Retribution I began to wonder if it didnât point towards something else. When Noah receives a letter from his mother (I neednât inform you how I wept), he finds sheâd writtten âDo not find peace, find passionâ. And I believe it holds close relation to loving someone to ruins. We are aware of just how numb Noah could feel before meeteing Mara. So, couldnât it be that Loving him to ruins isnât but a reflection of how, if he is to live with the one he loves (passion,) the person he used to be, is about to be destroyed? Only for it to be replaced by an improved version. After all, how many times havenât we done the same thing; anihilating those aspects we despise within ourselves and create new foundations.
Or it might just mean that Iâm using this as a coping mechanism and Mara is destructive as fuckâŚoh well.
Anyway, I consider thatâs the essence of Noah Shawâs development in the Mara Dyer trilogy, and the reason why he will certainly struggle in The Becoming. All within those four words.
Iâm off to sing Magic Dance.
First category entry.
