💫 Hoshi/Mars’ Star Cluster

And look what happened.

Like, sorry, I get there was drama and controversy. I don’t support that. But this game comforted me for years- and man, you’ve known me since middle school. Are we serious? Let me like what I like.

I’m working on attacks this year, trying to battle against my annual blast of drain that always hits the second the game starts. They may be slow, but I’m trying.

So. I’ve been twenty for a little over a week. I… don’t feel any different. I’m starting to think the pandemic slowed my mental development in some way, because I still act 16 or 17 most of the time. I… think. Most of the people I connect to online are younger than me, and a part of me thinks that makes me a creep or a weirdo (unintentional nod to Radiohead).

I feel like i should have things figured out, and im back in the hell-slop that is self discovery again. For about the tenth time in my life. Mid life crisis…? Twenty… life crisis? I don’t know.

I’ve thought about taking college courses, but I am genuinely afraid of the sheer stress that the education system that I’ve experienced thus far gives me. And is an art major really worth it with the rise of genAI? If anyone that follows me, sees this post and has been through college, PLEASE DO SHARE EXPERIENCE IF YOU CAN, I AM VERY SCARED.