UHF

i overate

i know; don’t come back at all. it’s not that appealing. i recognise it’s not that appealing. i don’t think you’re a good person at all. i don’t think. i don’t … i don’t think that . i know . i don’t know if that if that it did or if that anything. but i think that it wouldn’t be so. like so it would itw wouldn’t be so it . if you think it could be then please let me know

i don’t have much of a . i don’t have much of a whatever the word is but basically if you tempt me enough or push me enough i will cave. is it that hard? is anything that hard? i’ve pushed harder for less

don’t tempt me to because i will

oh and so i forgot it’s accessible to those who i’ve ever told and so if you see this i am perfectly well adjusted and everything you’ve seen was a reenactment of something. i am doing the most well and dear please stay the same

okay so if i do that and then what. then now am i closer? am i closer to you? am i closer to it? what is it? it’s there? should i be chasing those things or my tail. i miss when i didn’t have to believe in anything. i want to breathe in n smell. i miss when you said those things to me so i wonder how many times i felt the same without recognising. i go crazy over the simplest things and everything i do to better myself is just untrue. it is all a cover up for something that cannot be fixed. i don’t get this linear thing and it’s not going to help for it to not be. i don’t think it’s fair . i don’t think I am fair. i don’t think at all. i don’t think i see the words lining up. they are they are

it’s not like you understand. i don’t think it’s fair to live in that way but you had your chances. i suppose it’s the best way you’d thought or so you’d like so you can’t understand. but i don’t want to and it’s not fruitful. it’s not my fruit. it’s not my planet . and i don’t care! i don’t care! i don’t want to pretend! i hate it! i hate pretending . i can’t keep on. and there’s no point to it. i’d . i am reverting . how does my mind refresh? it’s the same is it and i’d forgotten because my mind is so blank. so so blank. why’d it go away. what is it filled with at this point becsuse i know it’s not right for me to yave let it be so empty and i’m sorry

i don’t want my dreams catching up to me all at the once but i’m not getting to choose it. not even at all. and i don’t want to go to work and but it’s not the thing that i can choose choicefully. it’s not what - i meant. and i tjink that if i kept at it at that at the same way then i would. would get to the point of where i wish i hadn’t or maybe i’d wish i’d done sooner. it’s not fun to live life that way. i make stupid choices. or i want to mke stupid choices. i want the stupid consequences? they worked out favorably for me. but i am not someone that can take much. why would you care ?

wht music makes life worth living

:(

I don't wanna keep pretending :(