Will's Wishes

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(Signora e regina di tutto....la ragione)

The Emasculation

Ringed / Emasculated / Deseeded

My Owners set me an appointment with a "doctor". they tell me i’m to come shaved, and prepare to be examined naked in a chair. this is to take measurements and note down observations to see how it will affect my body and make sure everything is going well. 

NO! i am not going to deliver myself to a so called "doctor" and a treatment i do not know anything about. This goes too far. No. i am not going to submit to this.

They remind me of the video tape they have of the rape play we had few weeks ago in a hotel room. If they would accuse me of rape, would anybody believe me that this was a consensual game we played? They could destroy my life by making this video public or giving it to the authorities. They had me in their hands and i was at their mercy unconditionally and helplessly unless I did not want to be publicly exposed as a rapist.

"You have fallen, ALPHA, and we won’t let you get up again. The sooner you accept what happened to you the easier it will be to bear for you. But it is up to you to end it. We’ve heard the inmates in the prisons like rapists."

So i made my appointment with the so called “doctor” at the prescribed time. 

After doing all the paperwork like declaration of consent (haha) etc., and changing into the provided gown, what meant i was stripped naked and collared with the collar my Owners usually mark me with, i am brought to a gyno chair, where i am sat down or more laid down than sat, and the chair reclined. I can see my Owners sit on chairs opposite of me, about two metres apart from me, watching me but not saying a single word to me. My arms are stretched above my head and securely cuffed to remain like this. my legs are tied into the stirrups of the chair, and then my legs are spread wide apart. 

I lie there naked in front of my Owners on this chair as we are waiting a long time for the "doctor" to appear. i feel helpless, vulnerable, weak and in a strange way filthy.

the doctor is understanding and patient, assuring me that it is normal to feel vulnerable, but after what i had done, this procedure was necessary to keep me from doing something like this again. (What does he mean? i did not do anything. Have they shown him the tape?) Then explaining each step as his assistants move me into position. 

they take a bunch of measurements; my length, my circumference, diameter… a few other more intimate areas. my foreskin is gently moved and brushed as they work. they tell me that they next need to note down how my body responds to certain stimuli, as this should change with the ring. "What ring" I wonder.  i am feeling flustered, having never been seen or touched this way before, let alone so intimately. i ask if it will hurt, and the doctor assures me all discomfort will be avoided as far as possible. 

the next hour is spent teasing my shaft (as my Owners told me i am not allowed to call it cock anymore. i must refer to it as "shaft") with gloved hands, making me hard and needy, exploring my body. they use at first just their hands to edge me, using my own surprised wetness and medical lube, stroking my shaft, circling it, one and then two fingers in my hole. the doctor stops now and then to take down a note or maybe speaks it out loud to an assistant. 

eventually they stop touching me, of course without making me cum. i’m sweaty, shaky, and needy like i’ve never known, and shocked still at the turn of events. i ask the doctor why he didn’t finish me, that i feel crazy. they assure me that’s normal, and this is part of the "therapy". 

I feel something cold enclosing the root of my shaft including my testicles. I sense it is a metal ring. Then i hear a click and the ring comes a bit tighter. Again and again i hear the clicks and feel the ring tightening around my shaft and testicles with every click i hear. Now it is uncomfortably tight, and my shaft is extreme hard and pulsing.

"The ring around his shaft is really tight. Does it hurt him when he gets hard?" I heard my Owner ask.

"Yes, an erection becomes painful by the time. Unpleasant but at the same time all the more arousing because that pain reminds him of what he misses and what he can no longer get. That’s why we call the device ’Torture the Sinner’. And look: his hard shaft shows that he still has selfish desires. He needs continued and consistent education and humiliation." said the "doctor". He stepped toward me and took my shaft in his hand, encircling it with his hand. I felt the pulse beating in my shaft, it was getting harder and harder. The ring hurt but that only excited me more. i began to move my hips. It was a desperate attempt to fuck the doctor’s fist. After a few thrusts, he opened his hand. My shaft twitched, but it was impossible for me to come to an orgasm. The result of the ring i was no modified with.

"You are so greedy." said my Owner. "Like a mangy bitch."

"A permanent steel cock ring," the doctor started to explain "enclosing the root of his shaft and his testicles and very tight so that it cannot be removed without being cut open or by using special tools. The tightness can be adjusted with this special screwdriver. The variance of the ring is ten clicks or ten millimeters. Even when it is at the most loosely setting, no body fluid can drool out of the shaft when it is erect. The shaft then is so pumped up that even the foreskin cannot be pulled back. The glans will be constantly locked when he is erect. This way he is permanently prevented from masturbating or having orgasms by stroking or fucking. He is not able to shoot his load, sorry, ejaculate, anymore and to have the feeling of an orgasm but he still can be used as a human dildo without achieving any pleasure as the ring keeps up his erection very long. Let me demonstrate the effects of the ring to you:"

A ”nurse” came to me and started stroking my shaft after she had lubed it with oil. She stroked my shaft but the foreskin did not move, like the doctor had explained before. I realized that because of the ring i cannot really be stroked because it gets so tight. And he was right: the foreskin does not move anymore… also with lube then it is even more impossible to move the foreskin. I felt that my shaft was not as sensitive as it usually was, i think because of the blood pressure caused by the ring’s constriction of blood circulation. Blood went in but not out anymore. It felt a little numb but still also exciting. It took me about seven minutes to have the first NOrgasm. I heard the assistant announce it to the doctor who writes it down on a notepad.

My shaft spasmed like it does with an orgasm but to my disbelief, nothing else that happened. i was not able to ejaculate or have any release because the ring is so tight. The pleasure feeling of an Orgasm was totally missing, instead a feeling that is hard to explain, like phantom pain, like imagining the feeling that should be there.

But the shaft stays hard after the NOrgasm and they say this way i can be perfectly used as a human dildo, being ready to be used for as long as a Lady deserves.

The doctor explains that by touching me, stroking me, even "riding" me nothing really happens then. it only would make me more eager and wanting. It was to keep me hungry … only arousal but no pleasure or release. just desire. Nothing else.

When i am finally released from being used or played with or however it might be called what they were doing to me, my balls are constantly aching. They are so full and tight because the ring is so tight and i cannot masturbate or be masturbated to empty them and the ring makes me feel it even more how full they are and keeps up the erection for very long while i am lying there without getting much attention now. i am more eager now than i was before the treatment and the erection still holds. i start praying for my shaft to get limp or at least semi erect.

After a while they come back to me, looking down on me. i am blushing because i am still erect and displaying my arousal while i lie on the chair with my legs spread wide open.

They gag me with a ring gag, i open my mouth wide voluntarily as i am too humiliated to offer resistance. They then slip on something the “nurse” has been working on: a cylinder with a rod in it made to my exact measurements. The rod has an opening, like a catheter for peeing. I am scared by the sight of it.

But my shaft is still hard, twitching and erect like asking to be covered by the cylinder, impaled by the rod. 

"The Seed Extractor. Or call it milking machine. Or de-seeder" I hear the doctor explain to my Owners "What a wonderful device! Seed can be extracted without allowing the slave only the slightest pleasure. And you see … when it drools out through the rod it can be collected here in the test-tube. And the best thing: When I use it on a slave the slave will not be given the slightest pleasure of stimulation. The process lasts clearly longer than a conventional milking by anal stimulation but the effect of granting him no pleasure may definitely be worth it."

Then it is very humiliating and degrading as they bring the cylinder and the rod in place. Also, a bit painful when the rod goes in and through the tightened root of my shaft where the ring is to keep it shut when it erects. The vacuum is a strange feeling then arousing in the beginning but uncomfortable after a while and it takes a long time since the seed comes out. 23 minutes, 52 seconds as the “nurse” announces and the “doctor” writes it down.  i did not feel any sensation or stimulation, I really felt nearly nothing but knew when it was drooling through the rod. i felt very ashamed somehow. i heard them say that the amount was quite not very much and I should be trained and treated to increase the amount. "It is less than 2.5 ml of semen." I heard the doctor say. 

Afterwards i was still hard and maybe more eager and aroused than before. Though it felt uncomfortable and a bit painful i was more excited and sensitive afterwards than before. But at least the pressure and ache in my balls had gone.

i heard that i am to return weekly for my maintenance, where also my ring will be removed for cleaning and maintenance.

Suddenly I become aware of the sight of me i am presenting to them:  My arms and legs fully outstretched and the ropes already cutting into my wrists and ankles. I can’t move at all. I am suspended meat. My shaft is exposed and i am gapingly open. I’d never felt so naked. Or so defenseless. Or so humiliated. i start sobbing uncontrollably.

For a while they are looking down on me, my Owner looks me into the eyes and says:

"Thats what is left of you strong, proud alpha. Emasculated. Reduced to a Human Dildo. Or a fuckdoll. Depending on the way you are going to be used in the case. Used constantly. Relentlessly. You can’t accept this. You don‘t welcome it. Yet feel that what you accept, or welcome is of no matter."

She brings the test-tube to my mouth and pours the milky liquid through the ring gag into it.

I feel tears run down my face. I am sobbing in silence while they are walking out of the room, leaving me alone, still strapped to the chair. My shaft still hard. The taste of my own seed lingering in my mouth.