✭nova✭

so few days ago I went to a party with my coworker I was so out of my comfort zone … we met a girl there she was everything I actually had a good time . I danced with some guys and hated every part of it like I want to throw up just thinking about it but besides that the music was good we had fun

some guy (really cute ) said i have pretty eyes when i was work yesterday and at first i was happy ? but then i kept thinking maybe it was a joke, no way he really thought my eyes were pretty plus i was really ugly that day so surely he didn’t mean it …its exhausting i want to look so hot and be so confident in myself that ill never doubt my look

tomorrow im going clubbing!! I don’t know what to wear ?? I don’t even know how to act …… I’m going with one of my coworkers and her friends I don’t think that’s a good idea to go with ppl i don’t know but people I do know don’t go to club so …

just saw the girl I call my bestie and had nothing to say to her …I want to cry

when I was living in Canada and spent my time alone thinking I was a boring lonely freak I promise to myself that if I had the opportunity to do some twenty something years old activities with ppl i won’t let my anxiety take it away from me…but today I had an opportunity and I didn’t do anything about it …and I know it’s bc of my body issues

i was so much skinnier when I was depressed, I’m watching video of myself when i was 20 and I remember being unhappy with the way I looked…i can only laugh now

i am waiting for more chapters of a legend that begins with a crush and idk I have nothing to read now 🫩

no amount of makeup can hide the fact that I have a lot of weight to lose