you leave me humming

Are

My

Worst

Nightmare

Standing

In

The

Dark

Shirtless

Turned to me

Your spine

Spoke

I

Think

It

Wants

with my eyes open sometimes

closed them to type

and hope it comes out

did i read that word

i don't know which

damn 

typing without looking

can be a bitch

not trying to be funny anymore 

i thought of 

and when i press against you

your hair comes up 

around my head

and we float around the room

i wanted to sleep like this

holding you 

and nothing else

but i woke up from the dream

disappointed to see

the temperature was two hundred degrees

below 

the wind was slight

as we entered the night

/

on the soft cratered surface

we shined down on our home

bewildered 

and free

/

you and me

isolated

on a rocky lunar island

/

we pulled on waves

danced on graves

explored each other's caves

/

the spaceship broke

left us here

for a year

i can't remember really

/

but now i know

what it's like

when i'm sad

sometimes

i'm sad

when i'm with you

but i want

to be there

every time

and i promise

it's true

but i might not talk

i might feel blue

we could always go for a walk

try something new

we don't have to drink

but i'd like to

and you know i'll kiss you

but maybe i want you

to kiss me

light 

in the grass

the sun is almost hiding

behind the trees

now your hair

is dancing golden

the air sings to us

and this field is engulfing 

our bodies

i think i saw the sunset 

but maybe we've been eaten

it's dark now

and i can't see any stars

but i looked over at you

and saw two full moons 

air could do that to me

your breath was hot

on my neck

i felt you move

and whisper in my ear

my hand was free

so i felt for you

your skirt

invited me

when i'm waking up

or looking at the sky

i'll be in the shower

or getting real high

and you'll break through

you always do

and i know

in the dark

around us

armored 

the night

wakes

and i rise

resurrect 

and reflect

it was hot

in the dark room

window open, door unlocked

the cold metal

filled my mouth

i was shaking, excited

the gun is loaded

eyes burning

wash them out

with your golden faucet 

birds fly out

struggling inside the pipes

i turn on the water

i know you like to feel my body against yours

my hands are under your dress now

they are inside your skull

unbuttoning the back

touching your soul

and i will never ever tell you so

wouldn't want to scare you

it's troubling regardless

i want you to know it all

but fear that would be the downfall 

so instead i'll lay in your presence

in the backseat of cars

talking about something

between breaths and touching

We got lost trying to find nowhere

and this worried me.

Anxious alone with three 

Reasons weren't needed 

I completely ruled them out

and my friends agreed

I took a hit

of black

Didn't exhale

or come back

Hard reset

Booting up

Body is loading

my brain has started showing

thoughts without ground

Free flowing ideas without sound

No images or external influence 

Absolute Physical Death

and then the white appears and 

my thoughts loop

and loop

and my thoughts loop and loop

and loop

my thoughts loop 

and loop

and my thoughts loop and loop

and I am biting my hands trying to wake up 

Wait what are hands?

Here comes something inside of me, somewhere south

It's coming up quick, it's coming out of my mouth

With the expulsion of acidic waste