TwistedTales

If only you knew how much I prayed to God every single day for your wishes to be granted cause I missed seeing that smile of yours

If there's one thing I genuinely believe in..is 'Destiny'. If you're too afraid of finding out what that is, life has a funny way of kicking your ass forward with fate. Once you're there, when you manage to connect the dots, your entire perspective on life itself changes. You start to have a life mission. A soul purpose. I can't even begin to describe that internal satisfaction when you start to feel that everything is aligned again. You will feel that you're right on track towards whatever your soul's end goal will be.

It looks dreamy I know. As an idealist, it's no surprise that such thoughts exists within me. However, being blessed with a non-boring colourful life, I have met various gifted individuals who expresses the same exact notion that ' destiny was already written before we came here' and that same exact thinking and statement kept appearing and being told to me numerous time throughout my entire lifetime. How can you ignore such uncommon pattern of beliefs from random people who don't even know each other right?

I honestly don't know why I'm writing this but I'm being strongly guided to because maybe someone out there is looking for a sign from the universe about this topic. Someone out there is having doubts about their life. All I can say is...clear your head, follow your heart. It already has the answers you're looking for.

If you're really searching high and low for that deep knowledge of your inner knowing and destiny in this life, I'll recommend reading about Numerology. Overtime, knowing my number, i found the connection on how every single aspect on this universe are connected. Religion, personality, cosmology, the birth of the calender , the beginning of humankind, our ancestors' beliefs and culture down to who we are today and our destiny. Everything is connected. This world never fail to amaze me.

I've learnt something these past couple of weeks. Maybe it's the effects of taking some time for reflection and meditation. I'm calling it the universe's answer to the puzzling things about human nature that I've always wondered.

We are so quick to judge others by their mistakes and wrong deeds. We stick to 'justice has to be served regardless' motto like honey is to pancakes. We did not stop to think what made them that way? Why are they doing what they did? What goes on their mind when they decided to act on it? What kind of internal struggle did they have to deal with? How long and torturous the emotional turmoil must have been? How alone and afraid they must have felt at that point of time? How painful it is dealing with that regrets that serves as constant reminder throughout their life?

What is empathy? To me, it's more than just putting on their shoes. For me, it's about really feeling on the core level all these experiences they had to deal with without letting your own perspectives contaminates the authenticity of that empathic connection.

It wasn't until I reflected on all these did I accept down at my inner deepest core of my soul the real truth about forgiveness. It's not just about blurting the words to whoever did you wrong just for yourself. It's about truly understanding that they are also hurting for doing you wrong. It's about forgiving them because not doing so makes you feel like a shitty person because just like how you wish they didn't do what they did, they are also wishing the same thing too.

Everyone reacted the wrong way when they are emotional but what kills us is the after-thought process and if both party can understand that, then that's where healing begins.

Througout the day, it is always there

Blending amongst the lights affair

Follows promises of hope's prayers

See, it was tasked to be a watcher

Its purpose is to become the soul's analyzer

The highest of souls feels its affinity

It shines a different kind of entity

Serving its purpose for humanity

Bringing beings the light's sanity

you wanna know what is the one thing that irks me about labels? Pre-assumptions. This is not just about identity but rather every single labels that humanity can place on the other. 

Here's a thought..how many of you once you decide on a label and finally feels like you are one step closer to knowing about yourself, society - with its fiery passion on ripples of words, decides to put together strings of characteristics about that one label you chose? Oh, not forgetting mr/ms stubborn the annoying people who is so stuck on their narrow-minded beliefs that constantly fills your head with doubts. 

That is not the way to have a proper conversation. Just because someone is different, does not give you the right to put all the baggage of your thoughts with it without letting chances of clearing the air. 

Sure you can say you did give them a chance to speak out, but are you really listening? Can you listen without passing any judgement whether intentional or not? 

“The only thing I know... is that I know nothing.” - Socrates

if there's one philosophical quote that i adhere to in the way I think, it's definitely this. This explains why i believe that there is always something to learn from the universe. Even the non-important things like cosmology is enough to attract my curious mind. Someone once asked me 'why do you read about all this?' or ' if you know then why does it even matter?'

This puzzles me. My perspective is that if a belief system or a theory was created after some of us uses an enormous amount of time gathering facts and evidence about, then as fellow humans, we should respect it enough by paying attention to it. To understand the reason why such beliefs are created in the first place. Some will definitely disagree with me on this.

Which leads me to question one word- curiosity.

I have always wondered why some are naturally curious more than others. It wasn't until yesterday afternoon that I got my answer.

See, curiosity is a desired form of a thought which sourced from the mindset. There are two categories- fixed mindset vs growth mindset. Each one of us has either one. Which explains why some of us have different level of priorities on different facets of life. It took me awhile to figure out why humans in general have different views on why certain things matters. This discovery explains why some reacted differently from others in turbulent times.

I do not know why I am thinking about this. Sometimes life is filled with mystery. Maybe someone out there needed this. Perhaps this is the key to solve your life's greatest questions, but whatever it is, it does not matter whether you have a fixed mindset of growth mindset. What matters is that the universe/creator/god created two mindsets for a reason. To balance each other out.

So let's be open to learning about each other. Each one of you have an experience in life that others can learn about. Speak out. Let your voices roar. Maybe a spark can be ignited for the people seeking some hope.