Twila Bergania

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲. https://www.instagram.com/p/CDVN_MmgfWc/?igshid=dv6rjg2eurja

𝗞𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. May your mind be at peace tonight. Good night. https://www.instagram.com/p/CDJaUu8greU/?igshid=1gq7ru8t7xa9d

𝗞𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. May your mind be at peace tonight. Good night. https://www.instagram.com/p/CDJaUu8greU/?igshid=1gq7ru8t7xa9d

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲. Challenge Accepted. @lei.amarie @ianburr https://www.instagram.com/p/CDJZecvgGzb/?igshid=172qpiwzmtpgp

𝗛𝗼𝗽𝗲. Some dreams aren't meant to be and that's okay. Everything is going to be okay. https://www.instagram.com/p/CCXKj-kgoKu/?igshid=145cwk9ba7loy

𝗞𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. It's the most random acts of caring that can make people like me want to live a little longer. So thank you for the kindness. https://www.instagram.com/p/CA95USsAvr6/?igshid=1dzaxdpjwvxf1

𝗞𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. Please. We need Kindness now more than ever. #blacklivesmatter https://www.instagram.com/p/CA1bnmmgcLl/?igshid=rocstalyvoe0

𝗛𝗼𝗽𝗲. Sleepless at 3. https://www.instagram.com/p/CAD0Aw1A97-/?igshid=4jvl15pgnr5v

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲. She's the person I miss the most during these times. Happy Mother's Day, mommy. I love you so much! ❤ https://www.instagram.com/p/B__l_wMghJf/?igshid=1pvagl5qt1zf1

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲. It's past 12 and my insomnia is hard at work again. Being in quarantine with you left me with no room to miss you, but you've been taking care of me so well that I actually feel bad I couldn't get you anything. So here's a pic of you fanboying over Pugad Baboy comics. I hope you know that I love you--not that I don't say it every hour. Happy 13 years, love. https://www.instagram.com/p/B_2kytOA6oy/?igshid=1ua08xmyyubkx

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲. Hi! How are you? I'm sorry if we haven't had a proper conversation in months. I'm trying. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B_zXM_RA_ni/?igshid=1nqpajwsm1hvl

𝗙𝗮𝗶𝘁𝗵. Lord, have mercy on us and on the whole world. https://www.instagram.com/p/B-yrLYzAVLq/?igshid=1tfq6m48s3kob

𝗞𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. I'm not very good at protecting my own heart so thank you to those who continuously show me how to be kind to myself. I love you. You know who you are. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B-cOpqJAv-e/?igshid=12tn6hhvdtc5m

I'm still sad that I didn't get to visit you one last time. Sad that I'm stuck here with nothing to do but hope. But after finishing Hotel Del Luna to distract myself, I now feel at peace knowing that I've kept really fond memories of you in my heart. I'll still save a seat for you and Amang on my wedding. At least I got to do your makeup for this wedding (Eunice and Mark's) and I'm hoping you'll be there with us in spirit. I'll pray for you. Please pray for me too. I love you. Rest in peace. https://www.instagram.com/p/B-C5rfHgYCG/?igshid=19gsdg301i0jn

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲. I don't have many words to express my grief or my gratitude. All I know right now is that I love you and that I regret never saying it out loud. I've tried to show you multiple times, and you've always been proud of who I am and what I've become, but my heart aches because I know I could do more for you if only we had more time. I love you Inang. Have a nice reunion with Amang in heaven. 💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/B91PcdLAqq-/?igshid=17yt0tm3sojwo

𝗛𝗼𝗽𝗲. Happy Independence Day, yah girl is still alive somehow. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9UBbjpAiZA/?igshid=1u3pneh2bp88v

𝗛𝗼𝗽𝗲. D-14: Did you know that in order for the sun to shine, the tiny amounts of matter in the sun's core need to be converted into a bigger energy through extremely high pressures and temperatures? Did you know that for it to be called a "sunshine" the light of the sun needs to be unhindered by clouds? I find it ironic when people describe me as "a ray of sunshine." I smile through it, and I appreciate it, and I know people say it because they love me, but deep down it makes me sad. When people tell me they find it hard to believe that I am living with depression and anxiety, it's hard not to blame myself and wish I could go back to the same cheerful person they knew. Yes, I was clinically diagnosed. I sought help. I'm taking medications. I didn't think that it was necessary to announce this on social media because I know that everyone felt depressed at some point in their lives. We are all battling quiet wars within ourselves and it does not feel right for me to talk about my experience alone when in fact depression is something that's more common than most people think. But lately I've been getting lots of messages of support, of people randomly checking in on me, of people who are feeling lost and lonely, of people who are confused and in need of help. I try to answer as best as I can. I'm trying to live for as long as I can. But I'm sorry because I'm not always going to be your sunshine. I cannot always be on the phone, talking to you. I'm fighting too. My therapist told me that there is no limit on what I could do and that I should never use my mental health issue as an "excuse." So I'm posting this to remind you that there are people like me who have felt what you're feeling. There are little people out there too who are trying to get better and live their lives as best as thet could. Cling to it. Hold it close to your heart and breathe. These heavy feelings are transforming us into litttle rays of sunshine and someday the clouds will move and the rays will come through. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B8q_oPcA-4o/?igshid=kkaueo9pqjeq