#twilasthoughttrack

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲. Hi! How are you? I'm sorry if we haven't had a proper conversation in months. I'm trying. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B_zXM_RA_ni/?igshid=1nqpajwsm1hvl

𝗞𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. I'm not very good at protecting my own heart so thank you to those who continuously show me how to be kind to myself. I love you. You know who you are. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B-cOpqJAv-e/?igshid=12tn6hhvdtc5m

𝗛𝗼𝗽𝗲. D-14: Did you know that in order for the sun to shine, the tiny amounts of matter in the sun's core need to be converted into a bigger energy through extremely high pressures and temperatures? Did you know that for it to be called a "sunshine" the light of the sun needs to be unhindered by clouds? I find it ironic when people describe me as "a ray of sunshine." I smile through it, and I appreciate it, and I know people say it because they love me, but deep down it makes me sad. When people tell me they find it hard to believe that I am living with depression and anxiety, it's hard not to blame myself and wish I could go back to the same cheerful person they knew. Yes, I was clinically diagnosed. I sought help. I'm taking medications. I didn't think that it was necessary to announce this on social media because I know that everyone felt depressed at some point in their lives. We are all battling quiet wars within ourselves and it does not feel right for me to talk about my experience alone when in fact depression is something that's more common than most people think. But lately I've been getting lots of messages of support, of people randomly checking in on me, of people who are feeling lost and lonely, of people who are confused and in need of help. I try to answer as best as I can. I'm trying to live for as long as I can. But I'm sorry because I'm not always going to be your sunshine. I cannot always be on the phone, talking to you. I'm fighting too. My therapist told me that there is no limit on what I could do and that I should never use my mental health issue as an "excuse." So I'm posting this to remind you that there are people like me who have felt what you're feeling. There are little people out there too who are trying to get better and live their lives as best as thet could. Cling to it. Hold it close to your heart and breathe. These heavy feelings are transforming us into litttle rays of sunshine and someday the clouds will move and the rays will come through. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B8q_oPcA-4o/?igshid=kkaueo9pqjeq

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲. D-32: Still alive. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B793iNTgyUc/?igshid=1ujbhkqcg60ei

𝗙𝗮𝗶𝘁𝗵. Stuck in Cagayan de Oro but grateful that I'm safe in a city that feels like home. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B7RJlldjDjo/?igshid=9bmqwnzva3s7

𝗞𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. One cannot give from an empty cup. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B6-7y0cAqZS/?igshid=195vvuhmqa3q5

I'm sorry. Please be patient with me. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B6SastyA07U/?igshid=ooc1xpaegfwz

Thank you @ehlygarcia. I love you. #TwilasThoughtTrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B54KxE9g03R/?igshid=1whai78k3kk31