Twiggy Stardust

I thought I’d share exactly how I was able to get Taylor Swift Lover Fest East tickets. Thank you to anyone who watches and supports my channel. 

PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU’RE GOING TO LOVER FEST EAST TOO!!!!

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My review on the new Lover album is up! <3 Check it out https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Mo0DYGbm3Y 

For everyone who is feeling left out of the secret sessions. Please let me exaplin how unalone you are. I AM HERE FOR YOU ALL!

June. 22nd. 2019

If I could describe myself in one movie, it might just be Party Monster. Ugh. I love it so much. I’m watching it for the first time in so long and I still remember every word. Ahhhh the memories. When I was 13 I was shown this movie for the first time in my life by my gay bestfriend Patrick. I became obsessed with rave culture and set out on my mission to attend my first rave. And man oh man, was it worth the two year wait.

I attended my first of many raves when I was 15. I did it all. I took the ex. I rolled. I kissed strangers. I danced all night. It was magical. My only regret is that I didn’t record any of it because it was like 2007 and that wasn’t really the thing yet. If I could go back, I’d find some way to document it all again. It was insane and incredible. The things we did that summer of 2007 was truly unforgettable. I wish I could go back and relive those nights now. I really do. I’m 27 but there is just a huge part of me that has really been missing partying like that.

The drugs. Staying out until sunrise. Not knowing who I was going to meet or where I was going to end up that night. How I was even going to get a ride home. I miss it all. I miss Arielle always being the sober bestfriend I needed to guide me through too. 

I wish I could relive it all. But I don’t even know if places like The Silo even exist anymore. I’ve never been one for burning man because FUCK camping. But it seems to be close. I’m not into big music festivals like Cochella, ACL, or anything else like that. It’s just not fun for me to be half a mile away from the artist surrounded by a sea of girls getting the perfect selfie, not like I wouldn’t be one of them......

Hey. It’s me. It’s been awhile...as the title would suggest. But man oh man. am I feeling it tonight. 

So basically I have spent the last week trying to wrangle a crew of over 50 people to coordinate a surprise going away dinner for my friend because I’m such a ~*GoOd FrIeNd*~ but of course it got ruined by someone; as in some bitch swapped shifts with her, WHO KNEW ABOUT THE PARTY BTW, so now it’s all ruined because the party girl herself can’t go....but like I was coordinating with her husband so this wouldn’t happen and it still happened so I’m like lvl 10 annoyed right now. Like listening to a MySpace playlist on spotify annoyed. 

So I thought I’d come back to Tumblr where I used to write big blog post about how annoyed I was and talk about my feelings because NO ONE I know in real life is on here anymore and also because it’s just nice being anonymous on a website and being able to vent 100% honestly. 

Speaking of being a good friend; wow oh wow have I learned a lot about what being a friend to adults/as an adult means to me in this year. I had some lessons coming my way I straight up did NOT see coming but hey, they were valuable. I stayed the bigger person throughout the whole thingsss and it all paid off.

I’m thinking about making a journal entry about it still though called, “10 things having shitty friends taught me;” I was going to make a youtube video about it, but the people it was about would totally watch it and it would start the drama all over again. So I’ll just have to journal about it. 

I love journaling. It’s something I’ve always really loved ever since I had no one to talk to as a teenager and hated all my friends back then. It has always really helped me learn a lot about myself as a person but now I’m old AF and my wrist hurts after writing for more than 10 minutes. Yay. 

Is tumblr dead now? Because honestly that makes it so much more appealing to me. I love having a site I can come and just vent into the void. I mean don’t get me wrong; my husband is nice enough to listen to me for hours and hours but I don’t want to annoy him. I want him to still want to listen to me in 20 years so I have to cut myself off at some point. 

Okay it’s late as fuck but hear me out.

Taylor as SABRINA from CAOS in a music video for I Did Something Bad. Like Taylor in the red dress with the red lip singing, 

“They’re burning all the witches even if you aren’t one, so light me up.”