cyn

haha it’s 2am rn and i’m sobbing but for good reason i think? i’m not too sure, but my fyp on tiktok likes to show me videos of families and all the happy memories and it just really reminds me how life is too short. i have this horrible fear of time and death and that’s inevitable. i just really hope the future is okay for everyone around me!

okay, goodnight! i do love everyone in my life. they keep me grounded.

i think i just really hate the concept of time

i get this sad/painful feeling in my chest when i reminisce about myself in kindergarten. i distinctly remember sitting at the tiny tables eating the bologna sandwich my mom would pack me for lunch. actually, it makes me a little emotional because im just getting older. time moves fast and to be honest, it’s really terrifying. maybe thats why nostalgia for me is a little bit painful because im just scared of the future.

this year has been a handful so far