; all this time

who wants a bite of me?

listen babe, nothing is as it seems.

god, you sound like you want to wear her skin.

do you think I did too much?

do you want me to push her in the pool? do you want me to light her hair on fire?

you look incredible tonight.

how could you do this to me?

baby, come on. I would never do this.

channel that anger into getting what you want.

why would he do this to me?

I hated myself for letting my guard down.

peaking in high school is cringe.

you have a really weird energy.

I don’t need your pity.

you insufferable cunt! I know you did this!

I don’t even do cocaine!

you think I framed you?

do you still not want my pity?

I know what it’s like to get screwed over by someone you thought you could trust.

you really had that pent-up, huh?

you look like you want a grilled cheese. let’s get you a grilled cheese.

I thought you were gonna put out a hit on me or something.

okay, I’ll just go fuck myself.

to be honest, I’m still recovering.

I just want to say how sorry I am for what happened to you last year.

oh, I’m sorry ‘school house rock’, are you dragging my sentence structure right now?

we won’t get caught, that’s the whole point.

I don’t want to make her pay. I want to burn her to the ground.

you’re giving off some serious glenn close in fatal attraction energy right now.

I can ruin her in my sleep.

I’m Frankenstein, and you’re Frankenstein’s bad bitch.

your new vibe is high-status cunt.

sometimes you have to pretend to be someone else to get what you want.

oh my god, don’t be so dramatic.

you called me a human birkenstock.

I’ve always been very intrigued by what you do here.

cool.

my ex-girlfriend is mad that I hooked up with my ex-boyfriend.

make revenge mommy proud.

are you stalking me?

I like your shirt. did it come with a bag of granola and a matching pair of Tevas?

what are you doing here?

that’s the exciting part of getting to know someone; you’re a mystery until you’re not.

the orgy usually starts around sundown.

can we talk about it, please?

well, we’re not having sex. you can go fuck yourself.

tell me something nobody knows about you.

I’m interesting, and you want to impress me.

what do you want to be?

we’re all just performing.

this feels illegal.

I want her to hit me with her Tesla and then reverse back over me.

I want her to stuff me like a taxidermy doll and then mount me on her wall like a prize.

I want her to hide my body in the woods and then start the search party trying to find me.

I am so proud of you. this is going to be the best night ever.

I feel like a little butterfly!

it’s called double assurance, sweetie. look it up.

are you on mushrooms?

your instincts were right.

you know you don’t have to be brave with me.

this sucks. it’s allowed to suck.

do you think I’ll feel better?

I’m just so angry all the time.

sometimes it just hurts to exist, you know?

I just want to feel normal again.

I like you; you’re just like me.

I didn’t know you were an artist.

rude… but fair.

don’t equate your worth to some archaic idea of what the best means.

can I say something that might make you very uncomfortable?

I’m shocked! this is shocking news!

we’re casting spells tonight, bitch.

ban men!

get in there and eat that ass, is what I’m saying!

don’t do that! don’t pity me, and definitely don’t touch me!

I lost everything! fucking everything!

they need to feel the consequences of what they did to me.

they have to pay. all of them.

I feel like I’m being eaten alive from the inside, actually.

do you ever look around and just think, how did I get here?

all this shit, it’s just armour.

I really like you. I wanna tell you everything.

everything I thought I hated was exactly what I always wanted.

what’s going on in that head of yours?

I just need a little distraction from all the stress.

can’t we put all this ugliness aside?

I think you handled that very well.

nice entrance.

what do you think you’re doing?

you don’t even answer my texts!

those people do not care about you.

they’re not your friends.

oh my god, you’re pathetic.

none of this is real!

are you any different from them?

are you sure? there’s never been any evidence.

I mean this from the bottom of my heart: fuck you.

did you overhear that?

you said some pretty messed up stuff out there.

someone was probably messing with you.

from the bottom of my heart, I wish you nothing but the worst for the rest of your miserable fucking existence.

I love your ear balls.

sleep with one eye open, bitch.

I’ve had the upper hand the entire time.

you made this pretty easy, I gotta say.

you’ll never get away with this.

I didn’t eat. I didn’t sleep anymore.

where does this game end?

there is nothing else you can take away from me.

I’m going to make sure that you’re stuck with your pain forever, because I am stuck with mine.

if you want to ruin me, go ahead. I’m not helping you.

I promise I can explain.

I had no choice!

do you ever think about anyone other than yourself?

I really wanted this to work, but it just doesn’t.

I was deciding between this and elsa, but I kind of thought you weren’t an elsa person, although you are a frigid bitch.

I’m sorry that I hit you with my car.

there’s nothing vapid people love more than making other peoples’ tragedies about them.

don’t cry. it’s alright.

I wish it could have been different.

what should have felt exhilarating just felt rotten.

how did you know I’d be here?

I miss you.

it shouldn’t have taken an accident for me to realize that, and I’m sorry.

I think you’re lucky.

I don’t feel free. I feel like I got hit by a car.

I give up. I’m done.

show everybody what a bad bitch looks like.

I created you, and I can just as easily destroy you.

I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.

we can’t erase what we did to each other, but I don’t want to hurt you anymore.

you might be the only real friend I’ve ever had.

I will regret what I did to you forever.

I’m sorry…. for everything.

did you just enter doing a slow clap, you cliché piece of shit?

you really are the devil.

I thought we had a whole will-they, won’t-they thing going on.

where are you going with this?

I know all your secrets now.

no one would’ve given a shit about you if it wasn’t for me.

why the fuck are you laughing?

goddamn do I love you right now.

I think we might be fucked-up soulmates.

you are a very lucky girl.

fuck you. we’re over.

I think you should leave.

I don’t want to be that person anymore.

everything you’ve done, everything that’s happened to you, has brought you to this moment.

fuck figuring out who you’re meant to be. stay lost as long as you can.

what did they mean when they said ‘i can’t trust you’?

for months? you’ve been putting me through this for months?

how can you come back and even look me in the eye after all you’ve done

you didn’t mean that, right? please tell me you didn’t mean that

you swore you wouldn’t leave, you promised

after everything we’ve been through? seriously?

did i ever even know you?

please don’t do this, you’re all i’ve left

it wasn’t like that, it was us against you from the beginning

i was never on your side to begin with, don’t you get that?

but i’m doing this for you, for us, doesn’t that count for anything?

i know what you did, don’t even try

wait, how do you know about that

was it you? did you tell them? did you tell them the one thing i begged you not to?

i trusted you with my life, i trusted you with everything i had!

fuck, i regret ever having even met you

so, it was all a lie? nothing of what we went through mattered to you?

you could have stabbed me at least a thousand times before this, why now?

why didn’t you just kill me when you had the chance, huh?

did you have fun? did you enjoy yourself, pretending to be my friend?

i don’t want to hear it, i don’t care why you did it

we took you in, we cared for you, and this is what you were after the entire time?

i should have listened when they told me to stay away from you

the people i cared about… gone, all because of you and some stupid plan

you don’t get it, this is the only way, okay?

maybe if you learnt how to prioritise better, you would actually understand why i had to do this

i never meant to hurt you, it may have been a lie at first, but please, you have to believe me

tell me i imagined you leaving, tell me none of this happened and i’ll believe you

i’d rather die than be stuck with a traitor any moment longer

we all depended on you, how could you do this to us?

is it my fault you trust so foolishly and willingly?

i’m sorry, i know it’s meaningless now, but please, know i’m sorry

you’ll understand one day, you’ll understand i never actually meant to hurt you

you don’t even look dejected, do you enjoy playing with other people’s lives?

you took everything from me, you fucking bastard

i wish i’d have killed you when they told me to

you’re meant for so much more, why cry when you could join me?

i had to make you trust me, you would have never come this far, otherwise

there are far bigger things at stake here than your broken heart

why do you even care so much? you were using me just the same!

so i was right about you after all, i’m glad i never fully trusted you

you know what? you’re nothing more than a lesson to me now, so fuck off

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all i used to do was pray.

we survived the great war.

we were supposed to be just friends.

karma’s gonna track you down.

i don’t dress for men.

‘cause i care.

i feel you, no matter what.

i told you none of it was accidental.

i vowed i would always be yours.

someone told his white-collar crimes to the fbi.

'cause it’s all over.

i’m only cryptic and machiavellian.

we were somewhere else.

you handle it beautifully.

let’s dance.

what’s a girl gonna do?

what could’ve been, would’ve been you.

i lost you.

it turned into something bigger.

that’s a real fucking legacy to leave.

do i really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?

you’ve got no reason to be afraid.

did you leave her house in the middle of the night?

i wake up screaming from dreaming.

i’m damned if i do give a damn what people say.

i can’t let this go.

i prefer hiding in plain sight.

i end up in crisis.

my hand was the one you reached for.

checkmate, i couldn’t lose.

you’re talking shit for the hell of it.

every single one of your friends was making fun of you.

draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man.

no one wanted to play with me as a little kid.

you would break your back to make me break a smile.

now that i know, i wish you’d left me wondering.

i hosted parties and starved my body.

i vow i will always be yours.

you said i have to trust more freely.

sadness became my whole sky.

it’s just a question.

i’ll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror.

it’s like snow at the beach.

there were pages turned with the bridges burned.

if i was a child, did it matter?

what if i told you i’m a mastermind?

i think it’s time to teach some lessons.

i see you every day now.

i’m the wind in our free-flowing sails.

the system’s breaking down.

i keep my side of the street clean.

the jokes weren’t funny.

did some force take you bеcause i didn’t pray?

somewhere in the haze, got a sense i’d been betrayed.

do you wish you could still touch her?

i remember.

a diamond’s gotta shine.

it’s me, hi.

i will always be yours.

maybe it was her.

you know there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love.

some guy said my aura’s moonstone.

you wouldn’t know what i mean.

he was sunshine, i was midnight rain.

i don’t dress for villains.

we were born to be the pawn.

you were on something.

i saw something they can’t take away.

you’re on your own, kid.

i wake with your memory over me.

if clarity’s in death, then why won’t this die?

yeah, all you did was smile.

yeah, you can face this.

by the way, i’m going out tonight.

you were bigger than the whole sky.

i saw flecks of what could’ve been lights.

pierced through the heart, but never killed.

you said i was freeloading.

how’d we end up on the floor, anyway?

turns out, it was that guy you hooked up with ages ago.

lately, i’ve been dressing’ for revenge.

my pennies made your crown.

he never thinks of me.

did you see the photos?“

i feel the lavender haze creeping up on me.

do i really have to tell you how he brought me back to life?

i just wanna stay.

ain’t that the way shit always ends?

time can’t stop me quite like you did.

i think i’ve been too good of a girl.

did all the extra credit, then got graded on a curve.

i really thought i’d lost you.

saw a wide smirk on your face.

life is emotionally abusive.

don’t get sad, get even.

god rest my soul.

i broke his heart 'cause he was nice.

i miss you.

i’m on my vigilante shit again.

you’re a crisis of my faith.

seemed like the right thing at the time.

you might have to wait in line.

i could still say, "i don’t remember”.

you should be doing more.

i have this thing where i get older, but just never wiser.

i didn’t choose this town, i dream of getting out.

i just may like some explanations.

i just may like to have a conversation.

they said the end is coming.

we can plant a memory garden.

one day, i’ll watch as you’re leaving.

best believe i’m still bejeweled.

life will lose all its meaning.

we lost track of time again.

it’s okay, we’re the best of friends.

i’d go back to wanting dudes who give nothing.

i think there’s been a glitch.

i’m not even sorry.

you know how scared i am of elevators.

sometimes i wonder which one’ll be your last lie.

i was taken by the view.

karma’s a relaxing thought.

can i ask you a question?

it’s fine to fake it 'til you make it.

it must be counterfeit.

i’m unglued, thanks to you.

maybe it was egos swinging.

that’s nice, i’m sure that’s what’s suitable.

she’s laughing up at us from hell.

you should find another.

he wanted it comfortable, i wanted that pain.

i can still make the whole place shimmer.

diesel is desire, you were playing with fire.

this is the first time i’ve felt the need to confess.

no one sees when you lose when you’re playing solitaire.

'cause i’m a mastermind.

they’re bringing up my history.

you don’t ever say too much.

now that i’m grown, i’m scared of ghosts.

i could’ve gone on as i was.

putting someone first only works when you’re in their top five.

i’ve never seen someone lit from within.

i don’t dress for friends.

there’s no morning glory, it was war, it wasn’t fair.

i play it cool with the best of them.

sit quiet by my side in the shade.

never trust it if it rises fast.

i touch my phone as if it’s your face.

addicted to betrayal, but you’re relevant.

i chose you.

i never think of him.

this happens all the time.

you got tired of my scheming.

i knew i wanted your body.

but for him, it’s every day.

it might just have been you.

she needed cold, hard proof, so i gave her some.

i fight with you in my sleep.

i don’t remember who i was.

ladies know what people want.

ladies always rise above.

that means you did it right.

you don’t have to answer.

i think i’ve been a little too kind.

i’m so in love that i might stop breathing.

i gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this.

everything you lose is a step you take.

maybe it’s the past that’s talking.

get it off your chest.

all the stars aligned.

it can’t last.

we almost forgot it.

it only hurts this much right now.

i’ve got a lot to pine about.

did you hear my covert narcissism i disguise as altruism?

pick somewhere and just run.

i vowed not to fight anymore.

the wound won’t close.

i’ve got a lot to live without.

make sure you don’t miss.

you and i ended up in the same room.

i picked the petals, he loves me not.

meet me at midnight.

ask me what i learned from all those years.

i swear that it was something.

all the outfits were terrible.

it must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero.

i’ll be gettin’ over you my whole life.

it’s all over now, all out to sea.

i’d pay if you’d just know me.

no deal.

i waited ages to see you there.

i regret you all the time.

all that you ever wanted from me was nothing.

i made you my world, have you heard?

now you’re mine.

every single thing i touch becomes sick with sadness.

i don’t even dare to wish it.

to you, i can admit that i’m just too soft for all of it.

that was the night i nearly lost you.

i’m the problem, it’s me.

i thought the plane was going down.

every single thing to come has turned into ashes.

so i justified it.

i wrote a poem.

we will never go back.

you tried to erase us.

tonight feels impossible.

i have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money.

you wouldn’t take my word for it if you knew who was talking.

he was sunshine, i was midnight rain.

aren’t you envious that for you it’s not?

give me back my girlhood, it was mine first.

i bent the truth too far tonight.

my town was a wasteland.

you were more than just a short time.

you should find another.

she looks so pretty.

he wanted a bride, i was making my own name.

they said the end is coming.

can this be a real thing?

did you wish you’d put up more of a fight?

i took the money.

if you never touched me, i would’ve.

i should not be left to my own devices.

the god’s honest truth is that the pain was heaven.

you knew the entire time.

i find myself running home to your sweet nothings.

i damn sure never would’ve danced with the devil.

never take advice from someone who’s falling apart.

i polish up nice.

you can try to change my mind.

my friends from home don’t know what to say.

you don’t live in my part of town, but maybe i’ll see you out some weekend.

she thinks i left them in the will.

you made me feel important.

i wanna brainwash you.

i’m a monster on the hill.

i’m falling in love again.

i’ll run away.

don’t put mе in the basement.

me and karma vibe like that.

i miss who i used to be.

midnights become my afternoons.

get it off my desk.

picture me, thick as thieves, with your ex-wife.

i keep on waiting for a sign.

i don’t dress for women.

memories feel like weapons.

i’m fastening myself to you with a stitch.

i been under scrutiny.

then what did you do?

we had one thing going on.

my flight was awful, thanks for asking.

i find it dizzying.

all of me changed like midnight.

you weren’t even listening.

what could’ve been, would’ve been.

she was on your mind with some dickhead guy.

everybody just expects me to bounce back.

it’s coming back around.

i’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since.

i spy with my little tired eye..

do you really wanna know where i was april 29th?

i don’t start shit, but i can tell you how it ends.

i thought we had no chance.

ask me what i earned from all those tears.

i hear it in your voice, you’re smoking with your boys.

all this shit is new to me.

you knew that i’m a mastermind.

had to do it this way.

if i’d only played it safe.

romance is not dead if you keep it just yours.

it only feels this raw right now.

nothing was gonna stop me.

was what i was thinking the whole time?

i can’t speak, afraid to jinx it.

they say looks can kill and i might try.

you did some bad things, but i’m the worst of them.

do i really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?

it’s never enough.

but for some, it was paradise.

i didn’t know you were keeping count.

everyone’s up to something.

there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love.

i vowed not to cry anymore.

what if i told you none of it was accidental?

how the hell did we lose sight of us again?

it was one drink after another.

i would’ve stayed on my knees.

don’t you know that cash ain’t the only price?

big city, wrong choices.

living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts.

based on: this cookout is a nightmare

“Aya, you’re doing too much.” Tristan informs her, a hand on each of her shoulders to still her as his larger body being placed as an obstacle between her and the door she tried to walk through that led out to the back of the clubhouse – exactly where he had seen August disappear to twenty minutes ago, followed by Cash not long after. 

He hates that his loyalty to Cash keeps putting him in this situation, where he finds himself lying to Aya either directly or by omission and sometimes he thinks just blurting out to her the truth of it all might just serve his best friend right.

( Except he couldn’t do that because that would hurt her as much in the process, maybe more than Cash, and he couldn’t live with that. ) 

As long as everyone she loves is having fun, then she’s enjoying herself. 

Though, Tristan certainly looks more stressed than happy, at the moment. If her constant juggling is what’s causing it, she supposes that she can take a breather for a few minutes.