It’s kinda funny. I knew our time together was coming to an end. But honestly, I wasn’t expecting it so be so bluntly. Truthfully it’s kinda funny. You’re flirting with a girl I knew you would like. I mean, the first screenshots I already had a clue. It’s not new, I mean you always wanted to see me with another girl, but honestly I thought it was nothing.
It’s funny, isn’t it? When things you thought were nothing turns out as a sign for something bigger?
I got nothing to say. Honestly, it’s funny. If you asked me months ago what would I do if something like this would have happened, I probably would’ve had a whole meltdown. But now? I mean it hurts, yes, but….i honestly just want him to find someone else other than me, someone that can give him what he desires.
Sometimes, I wonder if relationships are for me. I don’t like sex, my first sexual experience turned into a crisis for me. I wanted it over. I even said no, though I was laughing so it wasn’t non consensual I guess. He wants to do it again, and I guess I’ll let him. I feel….like hollow. But it’s different now, my body feels hollow. Like it’s not really…me.
I wonder if little me all those years ago would’ve thought this would happen.
It’s funny. It’s not funny, actually but…what else is there to do but laugh? Cry? I’ve cried enough. I’m tired of crying. Why cry about something I knew would happen? He wanted this. And I know he likes her. Honestly, it’s cute. They’d be cute together.
I don’t think I ever was a person for relationships. Maybe I’m someone who gives the advice instead of using it.
6 months I wasn’t on the account. Yet…here I am again. I got nothing, no one to talk about with this. Even if I tried to, I’d just get bullied about it.
It’s okay though, I know who I am. I’m TvStstionVhs, my role in life is to be someone for people to come to for comfort, advice, to laugh, to cry on, to vent…
But that’s it. And they leave. Some stay but, they shouldn’t. My role is to help people where they need to go. I’m not their stop.