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In the arc where Ahsoka get’s kidnapped and hunted by lizard people we see this very subtle selfish quality of Anakin’s. When Ahsoka comes home from her traumatizing ordeal what is the very first thing that Anakin does? He makes things about himself. He makes things about his failure to protect her, his  concern, his worry, his fear for her, his own shortcomings. He is obviously coming from a place of genuine love and concern for Ahsoka, but it’s still about him. There’s nothing evil about that kind of selfishness, seeing a situation from your own point of view doesn’t mean you don’t care, anyone who says that they don’t make things about themselves is almost definitely a liar but you can’t deny it. In that moment Ahsoka had to comfort Anakin. That moment is beautiful and poignant regarding their bond and their friendship, but it’s also very telling if you look at it through a slightly more cynical lens.

It reminds me of in AOTC when Anakin kneeled at his mother’s grave and talked about himself and his feelings of inadequacy rather than his mother herself. Or in ROTS when Anakin was concerned for Padme’s life and committed to saving it in a way he knew that she wouldn’t approve of. When he pledges himself to Palpatine he doesn’t say he wants to save her life because she deserves to love or anything that has to do with her. It’s because he couldn’t live without her, he needs her, he loves her, she can’t leave him because he couldn’t take that. It’s about him. 

Anakin’s feelings of selfishness don’t mean that he doesn’t actually love or care about these people, his possessive nature and selfishness actually come from his love for these people. He just can’t separate the way he feels about these people from the individuals themselves. He always makes it about himself and his needs and desires, not theirs. It’s possible that the first person that Anakin really loved in a nonselfish way was Luke by the end of ROTJ.

Posting my She-Ra cosplays during pride month>>>

I love Perfuma so much! I made a costest for her pretty much as soon as I watched the show. Soon after I completed this look. Watching queer characters exist in cartoons without their plot centering on their queer existence is so refreshing. I loved watching her relationship with Scorpia, and was so excited to hear her creator confirm she is meant to be read as a transgender woman.

Fun fact! This costume is made with (almost) all plant yarn! The clothes are bamboo and cotton yarns, although if I remake her I will pursue better plant based yarns, as these aren't the most sustainable. However, a good bit of it was thrifted! The petals in my hair were acrylic yarn unfortunately :,(

remember everyone...

thursday watch: the conditions for thursday are here, but a thursday incident has not yet been confirmed

And okay, imagine a few years post-canon, the first time Scorpia and Perfuma disagree on something important. And Scorpia genuinely gets a little angry and frustrated about it.

And how long did you know?

These months have gone by so fast

and did you really think this was going to last?

Well, did you?