Ritsu Onodera RP Blog

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insert a random breeze when onodera confesses to make the scene even more dramatic

okay but how about takano starts sobbing once he confesses because it took him this long to say he actually loves him back

August 5th - Day 6 - Takaritsu Day/Confession

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

3. The person you would never want to meet?

4. What is your favorite word?

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

7. What shirt are you wearing?

8. What do you label yourself as?

9. Bright room or dark room?

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

12. Who told you they loved you last?

13. Your worst enemy?

14. What is your current desktop picture?

15. Do you like someone?

16. The last song you listened to?

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? 

29. What is your favorite expletive?

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

34. What was your last dream about?

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

38. What is the color of your socks?

39. What type of music do you like?

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

43. Do you have any scars?

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

46. Are you reliable?

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

48. Do you hold grudges?

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

51. Are you a good liar?

52. How long could you go without talking?

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

56. What do you like on your toast?

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

58. What would be you dream car?

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

60. Do you believe in aliens?

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

64. What do you think about babies?

Ritsu&Takano 💞

1. 19 Days

Comment: We’re finally getting some development.

2. Junjou Romantica

3. Sekaiichi Hatsukoi

4. Ten Count

Comment: WHY ARE YOU TWO CRYING? WHY AM I CRYING?

5. Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai

Comment: RYUZAKI MY BOI I PROTECT U

6. Seito Kaichou ni Chuukoku

7. Otokonoko no Koto wa Shiranai

8. Ote o Haishaku

9. Kashikomarimashita, Destiny

10. The Same Time As Always, The Same Place as Always

11. Oya no Kao ga Mitai Family Affair

Comment: Oya no Kao ga Mitai has been completed! Everything moves up!

12. Pink to Mameshiba

13. Ashita wa Dochi da!

14. Ore to Joushi no Kakushikoto Kurui Naku no wa Boku no Ban

Comment: Ah, another great series has been completed. Anyway, BOIZ THERE ‘GON BE A SEQUEL FOR Kurui Naku!!!! UTOU NEEDS A MAN FOR HIMSELF.

15. Mitsumei Youchi na Koi wo Doushiyo

Comment: I’m having a hard time accepting that Mitsumei has been completed. It had a promising start but, the hype gradually lowered as it neared the end. I thought there would be more drama to it so I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t disappointed.

16. Nibiiro Musica

17. Ore no Kaikata Shikarikata

18. Life Senjou no Bokura

Comment: Wow, just wow. Now, only one chapter is out for this series but I can tell you as early as now that this is going to be one heck of a story. No, there aren’t any explosions, omegaverse, drama (YET please spare me), and societal struggles but, I think that what this promises to bring to the table is its lightness and realism. It’s just about boys who’re having the time of their lives by being boys. And I think that this particular series can appeal to those who don’t read Yaoi as they’re bound to relate to it somehow.

That was long.

19. Seifuku wo Matoeba, Umaku Uso ga Tsuketa no ni

What this is: Pilots boiiii

Comment: God damn. Kusabi Keri, you genius! What can I say? Kusabi Keri is at it again with her 10/10 Art and who better to scanlate it? Exiled Rebels Scans! Friends, if you don’t know who they are, they’re like a sub-unit of omegaverseaddicted who scanlate non-omegaverse series (Read: Angels).

20. Eto Irokoi Zoushi 

What this is: Onii-chan and homie can be possessed by the zodiac animals in their care. Onii-chan takes care of the 12 as well as other animals while homie is the shrine maiden of the cat. But did they bang doe?

21. Batsu Game *is by Conro like Family Affair

What this is: Kouhai kisses senpai because of a dare but senpai later rides kouhai and takes a picture of his o-face to black mail him. Punishment games are so fun~

22. Akai Ito no Shikkou Yuuyo

What this is: Red string of fate seer’s red string finally gets attached to someone. Spoiler: it’s a dude.

23. Kore ga Koi na Wake ga Nai

Comment: Susuki Sonoichi is back it again with KKWN which is a sequel to Kore wa Koi ni Fukumaremasuka?. I’m not really sure what I feel about senpai getting his own story ‘cause he was a huge dick in the parent story that I never wished for him to be happy (’cause I usually wish side gays happiness). However, when I see him legit hurt when confronted with the harsh reality of Tsukasa and Iori’s relationship, I felt my heart legit clench. His love for Iori wasn’t an excuse for him being such a dick to him but I guess he deserves happiness too.

24. Dakaretai Otoko Ichii Ni Odosarete Imasu

Comment: It would be unfair if I didn’t put this up ‘cause I’ve legit been following this series ever since Junta-kun’s POVs started. I have to admit that I sort of nikushimied, if that’s a word then, arigathanks gozaimuch, the series because the second part of the drama cd hurt me really bad #justiceforGiulio but yeah, the series have been showing promise as of late and I highly recommend reading it.

Completed:

1. Kataomoi to Parade

Comment: It’s been officially declared as COMPLETE. I wanna cry, tho. I mean, they got to bang in the end but I wanted senpai to make love to him with more passion than that ‘cause a little jealousy got in the way.

2. Ano ko to Juliet

Hello! From June 12th to June 18th, we will be holding Trifiesta once again to celebrate the birthdays of Kirishima and Yokozawa! 

We have different prompts this year, and each day has a couple of them to choose from. Feel free to interpret the theme. Once again, any art form is acceptable. This includes but isn’t limited to art, writing, and graphics!  

Day 1: June 12th: Firsts/New 

Day 2: June 13th: Date/Leisure 

Day 3: June 14th: Summer/Travel 

Day 4: June 15th: Sleepover/Reconciliation 

Day 5: June 16th: Kirishima’s Birthday/Free Prompt

Day 6: June 17th: Hiyori/Sorata

Day 7: June 18th: Yokozawa’s Birthday/Father’s Day

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Junjou Mix 5: Online / Download

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[LINKS] mediafire | mangago (still waiting)

@ritsuluvstakano

Ritsu was uncounsiously getting paler.

Ritsu looks at KISA. His eyes were glassy- more than usual by the end of the cycle.

He had an overwhelming urge to cry, and he didn’t even know why. Well there were many reasons, but he couldn’t pinpoint any of them.

Ritsu nods his head, waving a hand through thin air to prove his point. “Yes! Of course! Just drained is all..”

“Onodera.” Takano called, loud enough for Ritsu to hear, voice showing his concern.

“Kisa! Come here!!”

The loud call of his name startled him from his position, chair unbalancing itself in odd spins as he tried to sit back up. “Okay..” he replied quietly, not really wanting to face the wrath of his evil boss. He stood from his seat, heading towards the ravens desk. “Wassup boss..?”

Ritsu ran to the bathroom, and locks himself in one of the stalls. Ritsu hugs himself, and tried to fight the urge to cry and listen to the voices.

“What…. Is happening to me?” Ritsu mumbles to himself.

Ritsu tears up and then squeezed his eyes shut, tears running down his face.

He blinks the obvious tears from his eyes, taking a big gulp and swallow his pride.

More and more frequently he wonders the same thing: ‘why am i still here?’ It is no suicidal ideation, but it is no feeling to be misunderstood as anything insignificant. And it is this fact that keeps him awake at night and shifts his awakening during the day. “….” Thoughts somehow trace back to a certain man who seemingly begins to consume his thoughts more and more each passing day. Surely, but uncertainly, he knows that his facade of ‘jaded’ has began to finally wear off. After a decade of the same routine of attempted lies and fleeing from emotion, the past has began to latch onto his tail-taking strong hold and slowly gaining more access past his barriers and into his soul.

Emerald eyes clench shut, small nibbles on the lips help distract him from whatever it is that is twisting him uneasily alone.

“Hatori, you’re in charge until I get back.” Takano says before walking out, looking for Onodera.

“Onodera?” Takano called out, right by the bathroom.

“Onodera..?” he calls out, not exactly loud, but still, not quiet enough to be dismissed. With this call, the said man forces a palm over his mouth, muffling any small cries that could slip from his dried throat.

Takano glances between both ends of the room, stepping inside to gain more access of the sight. Ritsu listens to the small sounds from the older man’s shoes, breathing as quietly as he can until the other leaves.

Takano lets the bathroom door close itself, knowing that possibly the ‘missing’ brunette was possibly in there. He lets out a deep sigh.

Stressed wasn’t particularly the word he used to describe how he felt in moments as these. Perhaps the situation could be described as an unexplainable wave of emotion he couldn’t tame.

He leans his back upon the cool marble counter where the freshly cleaned sinks lay, and folding his arms. “Onodera.. I know youre in here. Whats wrong with you?”

Unfortunately, ritsu does not wish to be discovered in the least-in addition to this fact, it is the formation of the question and tone his boss used that pisses him off to an extend where the tears turn to angry ones.

No matter, he does not wish to be seen. And he does not wish to be heard. He is not ashamed of his current condition-oh no.

Takano walks up to the stall and leans against it. “Onodera, please let me in.” Takano says, his voice sounding tired and stressed, a subtle double meaning to the statement. Let him in to the stall, and his heart.

Ritsu lets out a small gasp, catching the double meaning, and covers his mouth tighter, tearing up again.

“On– RITSU. Please. I’m begging you here. I need to know if I even have a chance with you. If you would allow me to make everything right. To have a second chance. To love you again.” Takano says, his voice full of emotion.

Ritsu sniffles and starts crying again. Ritsu knew Takano heard, and cursed himself mentally.

The words echo through his mind. Faintly and pleadingly they repeat their notion for mental embrace.

When the crack of the ravens voices bounces off the bathroom walls, ritsu begins to wonder again, ‘what comes after happily ever after..’

Ritsu tenses up slightly before slowly hugs back.

“What’s wrong?” Takano asked gently.

Ritsu shook his head before hiding his face in Takanos shoulder. Takano rubs Ritsus back and hugs him tighter.

“Shh… I’m right here.” Takano says.

“S-sorry…” Ritsu apologizes, his voice cracking from crying.

Ritsu looks away slightly, unable to keep the eye contact. “Just…. I don’t even know. Nothing?…. Everything?” Ritsu says, the last word a whisper.

Ritsu knows it’s a stupid explanation, but he seriously doesn’t know the specific reason his heart hurts.

Work. Sleep. Work. Avoid. Work. Deny. Work. Run. Work. Energy drinks. Work. Work. Work.

It is a cycle of the same old, same old. And perhaps, its this very reason that he has this sudden damage inside. It is nothing that anyone hasn’t dwelled upon at least once in their life, and still, he cannot help but feel eager for something so much more.

“….” He knows what it means to live. It means to work to survive and perhaps become someone great. But if you do not do so, then you are ridiculed as nothing-a failure. And you stay that failure until you rise to the top. But he knows he is nothing close to special.

He carries the name of people who have done great things and continuously hold up to those standards. And then comes he, slythering behind great shadows because he is fearful of those high expecatations. He dreams to small for someone so big.

But maybe, there is more to this scene. Looking up, he notices bronze orbs, caredully studying his trembling and weak form. Here he stands, strongly embraced inside a man’s arms he’d promise he’d never be entangled in again. But still, he is weak.. Too weak for his own good. Buckling knees and knotted stomach, he knows this man has complete control over him. Hell, he knows the man knows the fact.

“….” Here he stands, embraced in this man’s arms. A man he SHOULDN’T love. A man he CANNOT love. But still, he daren’t push the other away. He NEEDS him at a distance… But he WANTS him at arms reach.

Small, shaky hands clutch almost desperately onto the other’s shirt, in silence, he shakes his head, another thought passing its way through.

’..whats my purpose..?’

He doesnt realize his current question has escaped his lips in sound, catching the raven by surprise. Bronze eyes widen momentarily, before saddening into a sigh.

“….” neither exchange any words. Takano cannot begim to fill the void with false answers. He has none. Who is he to know what the other’s purpose is? But is it right to remain silent when the man he loves is indeed needing an answer?

Ritsu lets his fingers unhold their grip on the other’s shirt, letting his hands fall at his sides bwfore taking a small step back. He is not weak.

..He will not be weak..

“..im going to go back to work. Thanks anyways.” Ritsu gives a forced smile, noticing Takano frowning with his change in deamenor.

“..Oi.” the older speaks, sliding his hands in the pockets of his blue jeans. “For what its worth.. You are very important in this world.”

Thudump. Thudump.

“..h-huh..?.” A blush invades his cheeks, emeralds wide with questions.

“Well i mean, everyones got a reason to be here. I mean, why be here if youre just going to be useless..?”

Thudump. Thudump.

Ritsu turns his head, a small blush forming on his cheeks.

“Thanks-” Ritsu said, but Takano continued over him.

“I don’t know what goes on in your head… Hell, I wish I did sometimes, but anyways… Everybody has those days where they question themselves. A ‘why am I here?’ kinda thought. So… You’re not alone.” Takano says, which makes Ritsu gasp slightly and looks at him again.

“H-have you?” Ritsu couldn’t but ask.

Takano watches as Ritsus tensed shoulders untensed. A small smile formed on Takanos lips.

“I-I… We should go back to work.” Ritsu says, a small blush forming.

Ritsu was slightly mad that he had to be helped to feel better by Takano, of all people.

Takano looks carefully at Ritsus face. “Yeah…… Wanna come over later?” Takano couldn’t stop the question from leaving his lips.

Ritsu blushes deeper and walks past Takano, out of the stall. “I-I’m going to have to pass.” Ritsu miraculously denies.

Takano sighs, and walks out too. “Fine.” Takano says, voice showing tiredness and impatience.

He let out a breathy sigh. How long were they going to continue in this game?

’…well it is kinda my fault..’ Emerald eyes widen at the sudden thought, then close tiredly with the realization.

It was a productive day. At the end of the day, they were the only two in the room.

Takano stood before him, one hand on hip and the other lingering on his side with a stack of papers.

Takano finally sighs and puts the papers on Ritsus desk.

"Once you finish these, you can go." Takano said, his arm still on the papers.

Ritsu cleared his throat. He didn't like when he can tell Takanos acting strange.

"O-okay....." Ritsu said, and watched as Takano slowly turned to look at him.

"C-Can you make love to me?" Ritsu asked quietly, nervously, but surely.

@ritsuluvstakano

Ritsu was uncounsiously getting paler.

Ritsu looks at KISA. His eyes were glassy- more than usual by the end of the cycle.

He had an overwhelming urge to cry, and he didn’t even know why. Well there were many reasons, but he couldn’t pinpoint any of them.

Ritsu nods his head, waving a hand through thin air to prove his point. “Yes! Of course! Just drained is all..”

“Onodera.” Takano called, loud enough for Ritsu to hear, voice showing his concern.

“Kisa! Come here!!”

The loud call of his name startled him from his position, chair unbalancing itself in odd spins as he tried to sit back up. “Okay..” he replied quietly, not really wanting to face the wrath of his evil boss. He stood from his seat, heading towards the ravens desk. “Wassup boss..?”

Ritsu ran to the bathroom, and locks himself in one of the stalls. Ritsu hugs himself, and tried to fight the urge to cry and listen to the voices.

“What…. Is happening to me?” Ritsu mumbles to himself.

Ritsu tears up and then squeezed his eyes shut, tears running down his face.

He blinks the obvious tears from his eyes, taking a big gulp and swallow his pride.

More and more frequently he wonders the same thing: ‘why am i still here?’ It is no suicidal ideation, but it is no feeling to be misunderstood as anything insignificant. And it is this fact that keeps him awake at night and shifts his awakening during the day. “….” Thoughts somehow trace back to a certain man who seemingly begins to consume his thoughts more and more each passing day. Surely, but uncertainly, he knows that his facade of ‘jaded’ has began to finally wear off. After a decade of the same routine of attempted lies and fleeing from emotion, the past has began to latch onto his tail-taking strong hold and slowly gaining more access past his barriers and into his soul.

Emerald eyes clench shut, small nibbles on the lips help distract him from whatever it is that is twisting him uneasily alone.

“Hatori, you’re in charge until I get back.” Takano says before walking out, looking for Onodera.

“Onodera?” Takano called out, right by the bathroom.

“Onodera..?” he calls out, not exactly loud, but still, not quiet enough to be dismissed. With this call, the said man forces a palm over his mouth, muffling any small cries that could slip from his dried throat.

Takano glances between both ends of the room, stepping inside to gain more access of the sight. Ritsu listens to the small sounds from the older man’s shoes, breathing as quietly as he can until the other leaves.

Takano lets the bathroom door close itself, knowing that possibly the ‘missing’ brunette was possibly in there. He lets out a deep sigh.

Stressed wasn’t particularly the word he used to describe how he felt in moments as these. Perhaps the situation could be described as an unexplainable wave of emotion he couldn’t tame.

He leans his back upon the cool marble counter where the freshly cleaned sinks lay, and folding his arms. “Onodera.. I know youre in here. Whats wrong with you?”

Unfortunately, ritsu does not wish to be discovered in the least-in addition to this fact, it is the formation of the question and tone his boss used that pisses him off to an extend where the tears turn to angry ones.

No matter, he does not wish to be seen. And he does not wish to be heard. He is not ashamed of his current condition-oh no.

Takano walks up to the stall and leans against it. “Onodera, please let me in.” Takano says, his voice sounding tired and stressed, a subtle double meaning to the statement. Let him in to the stall, and his heart.

Ritsu lets out a small gasp, catching the double meaning, and covers his mouth tighter, tearing up again.

“On– RITSU. Please. I’m begging you here. I need to know if I even have a chance with you. If you would allow me to make everything right. To have a second chance. To love you again.” Takano says, his voice full of emotion.

Ritsu sniffles and starts crying again. Ritsu knew Takano heard, and cursed himself mentally.

The words echo through his mind. Faintly and pleadingly they repeat their notion for mental embrace.

When the crack of the ravens voices bounces off the bathroom walls, ritsu begins to wonder again, ‘what comes after happily ever after..’

Ritsu tenses up slightly before slowly hugs back.

“What’s wrong?” Takano asked gently.

Ritsu shook his head before hiding his face in Takanos shoulder. Takano rubs Ritsus back and hugs him tighter.

“Shh… I’m right here.” Takano says.

“S-sorry…” Ritsu apologizes, his voice cracking from crying.

Ritsu looks away slightly, unable to keep the eye contact. “Just…. I don’t even know. Nothing?…. Everything?” Ritsu says, the last word a whisper.

Ritsu knows it’s a stupid explanation, but he seriously doesn’t know the specific reason his heart hurts.

Work. Sleep. Work. Avoid. Work. Deny. Work. Run. Work. Energy drinks. Work. Work. Work.

It is a cycle of the same old, same old. And perhaps, its this very reason that he has this sudden damage inside. It is nothing that anyone hasn’t dwelled upon at least once in their life, and still, he cannot help but feel eager for something so much more.

“….” He knows what it means to live. It means to work to survive and perhaps become someone great. But if you do not do so, then you are ridiculed as nothing-a failure. And you stay that failure until you rise to the top. But he knows he is nothing close to special.

He carries the name of people who have done great things and continuously hold up to those standards. And then comes he, slythering behind great shadows because he is fearful of those high expecatations. He dreams to small for someone so big.

But maybe, there is more to this scene. Looking up, he notices bronze orbs, caredully studying his trembling and weak form. Here he stands, strongly embraced inside a man’s arms he’d promise he’d never be entangled in again. But still, he is weak.. Too weak for his own good. Buckling knees and knotted stomach, he knows this man has complete control over him. Hell, he knows the man knows the fact.

“….” Here he stands, embraced in this man’s arms. A man he SHOULDN’T love. A man he CANNOT love. But still, he daren’t push the other away. He NEEDS him at a distance… But he WANTS him at arms reach.

Small, shaky hands clutch almost desperately onto the other’s shirt, in silence, he shakes his head, another thought passing its way through.

’..whats my purpose..?’

He doesnt realize his current question has escaped his lips in sound, catching the raven by surprise. Bronze eyes widen momentarily, before saddening into a sigh.

“….” neither exchange any words. Takano cannot begim to fill the void with false answers. He has none. Who is he to know what the other’s purpose is? But is it right to remain silent when the man he loves is indeed needing an answer?

Ritsu lets his fingers unhold their grip on the other’s shirt, letting his hands fall at his sides bwfore taking a small step back. He is not weak.

..He will not be weak..

“..im going to go back to work. Thanks anyways.” Ritsu gives a forced smile, noticing Takano frowning with his change in deamenor.

“..Oi.” the older speaks, sliding his hands in the pockets of his blue jeans. “For what its worth.. You are very important in this world.”

Thudump. Thudump.

“..h-huh..?.” A blush invades his cheeks, emeralds wide with questions.

“Well i mean, everyones got a reason to be here. I mean, why be here if youre just going to be useless..?”

Thudump. Thudump.

Ritsu turns his head, a small blush forming on his cheeks.

“Thanks-” Ritsu said, but Takano continued over him.

“I don’t know what goes on in your head… Hell, I wish I did sometimes, but anyways… Everybody has those days where they question themselves. A ‘why am I here?’ kinda thought. So… You’re not alone.” Takano says, which makes Ritsu gasp slightly and looks at him again.

“H-have you?” Ritsu couldn’t but ask.

Takano watches as Ritsus tensed shoulders untensed. A small smile formed on Takanos lips.

“I-I… We should go back to work.” Ritsu says, a small blush forming.

Ritsu was slightly mad that he had to be helped to feel better by Takano, of all people.

Takano looks carefully at Ritsus face. “Yeah…… Wanna come over later?” Takano couldn’t stop the question from leaving his lips.

Ritsu blushes deeper and walks past Takano, out of the stall. “I-I’m going to have to pass.” Ritsu miraculously denies.

Takano sighs, and walks out too. “Fine.” Takano says, voice showing tiredness and impatience.

He let out a breathy sigh. How long were they going to continue in this game?

’…well it is kinda my fault..’ Emerald eyes widen at the sudden thought, then close tiredly with the realization.

It was a productive day. At the end of the day, they were the only two in the room.

@ritsuluvstakano

Ritsu was uncounsiously getting paler.

Ritsu looks at KISA. His eyes were glassy- more than usual by the end of the cycle.

He had an overwhelming urge to cry, and he didn’t even know why. Well there were many reasons, but he couldn’t pinpoint any of them.

Ritsu nods his head, waving a hand through thin air to prove his point. “Yes! Of course! Just drained is all..”

“Onodera.” Takano called, loud enough for Ritsu to hear, voice showing his concern.

“Kisa! Come here!!”

The loud call of his name startled him from his position, chair unbalancing itself in odd spins as he tried to sit back up. “Okay..” he replied quietly, not really wanting to face the wrath of his evil boss. He stood from his seat, heading towards the ravens desk. “Wassup boss..?”

Ritsu ran to the bathroom, and locks himself in one of the stalls. Ritsu hugs himself, and tried to fight the urge to cry and listen to the voices.

“What…. Is happening to me?” Ritsu mumbles to himself.

Ritsu tears up and then squeezed his eyes shut, tears running down his face.

He blinks the obvious tears from his eyes, taking a big gulp and swallow his pride.

More and more frequently he wonders the same thing: ‘why am i still here?’ It is no suicidal ideation, but it is no feeling to be misunderstood as anything insignificant. And it is this fact that keeps him awake at night and shifts his awakening during the day. “….” Thoughts somehow trace back to a certain man who seemingly begins to consume his thoughts more and more each passing day. Surely, but uncertainly, he knows that his facade of ‘jaded’ has began to finally wear off. After a decade of the same routine of attempted lies and fleeing from emotion, the past has began to latch onto his tail-taking strong hold and slowly gaining more access past his barriers and into his soul.

Emerald eyes clench shut, small nibbles on the lips help distract him from whatever it is that is twisting him uneasily alone.

“Hatori, you’re in charge until I get back.” Takano says before walking out, looking for Onodera.

“Onodera?” Takano called out, right by the bathroom.

“Onodera..?” he calls out, not exactly loud, but still, not quiet enough to be dismissed. With this call, the said man forces a palm over his mouth, muffling any small cries that could slip from his dried throat.

Takano glances between both ends of the room, stepping inside to gain more access of the sight. Ritsu listens to the small sounds from the older man’s shoes, breathing as quietly as he can until the other leaves.

Takano lets the bathroom door close itself, knowing that possibly the ‘missing’ brunette was possibly in there. He lets out a deep sigh.

Stressed wasn’t particularly the word he used to describe how he felt in moments as these. Perhaps the situation could be described as an unexplainable wave of emotion he couldn’t tame.

He leans his back upon the cool marble counter where the freshly cleaned sinks lay, and folding his arms. “Onodera.. I know youre in here. Whats wrong with you?”

Unfortunately, ritsu does not wish to be discovered in the least-in addition to this fact, it is the formation of the question and tone his boss used that pisses him off to an extend where the tears turn to angry ones.

No matter, he does not wish to be seen. And he does not wish to be heard. He is not ashamed of his current condition-oh no.

Takano walks up to the stall and leans against it. “Onodera, please let me in.” Takano says, his voice sounding tired and stressed, a subtle double meaning to the statement. Let him in to the stall, and his heart.

Ritsu lets out a small gasp, catching the double meaning, and covers his mouth tighter, tearing up again.

“On– RITSU. Please. I’m begging you here. I need to know if I even have a chance with you. If you would allow me to make everything right. To have a second chance. To love you again.” Takano says, his voice full of emotion.

Ritsu sniffles and starts crying again. Ritsu knew Takano heard, and cursed himself mentally.

The words echo through his mind. Faintly and pleadingly they repeat their notion for mental embrace.

When the crack of the ravens voices bounces off the bathroom walls, ritsu begins to wonder again, ‘what comes after happily ever after..’

Ritsu tenses up slightly before slowly hugs back.

“What’s wrong?” Takano asked gently.

Ritsu shook his head before hiding his face in Takanos shoulder. Takano rubs Ritsus back and hugs him tighter.

“Shh… I’m right here.” Takano says.

“S-sorry…” Ritsu apologizes, his voice cracking from crying.

Ritsu looks away slightly, unable to keep the eye contact. “Just…. I don’t even know. Nothing?…. Everything?” Ritsu says, the last word a whisper.

Ritsu knows it’s a stupid explanation, but he seriously doesn’t know the specific reason his heart hurts.

Work. Sleep. Work. Avoid. Work. Deny. Work. Run. Work. Energy drinks. Work. Work. Work.

It is a cycle of the same old, same old. And perhaps, its this very reason that he has this sudden damage inside. It is nothing that anyone hasn’t dwelled upon at least once in their life, and still, he cannot help but feel eager for something so much more.

“….” He knows what it means to live. It means to work to survive and perhaps become someone great. But if you do not do so, then you are ridiculed as nothing-a failure. And you stay that failure until you rise to the top. But he knows he is nothing close to special.

He carries the name of people who have done great things and continuously hold up to those standards. And then comes he, slythering behind great shadows because he is fearful of those high expecatations. He dreams to small for someone so big.

But maybe, there is more to this scene. Looking up, he notices bronze orbs, caredully studying his trembling and weak form. Here he stands, strongly embraced inside a man’s arms he’d promise he’d never be entangled in again. But still, he is weak.. Too weak for his own good. Buckling knees and knotted stomach, he knows this man has complete control over him. Hell, he knows the man knows the fact.

“….” Here he stands, embraced in this man’s arms. A man he SHOULDN’T love. A man he CANNOT love. But still, he daren’t push the other away. He NEEDS him at a distance… But he WANTS him at arms reach.

Small, shaky hands clutch almost desperately onto the other’s shirt, in silence, he shakes his head, another thought passing its way through.

’..whats my purpose..?’

He doesnt realize his current question has escaped his lips in sound, catching the raven by surprise. Bronze eyes widen momentarily, before saddening into a sigh.

“….” neither exchange any words. Takano cannot begim to fill the void with false answers. He has none. Who is he to know what the other’s purpose is? But is it right to remain silent when the man he loves is indeed needing an answer?

Ritsu lets his fingers unhold their grip on the other’s shirt, letting his hands fall at his sides bwfore taking a small step back. He is not weak.

..He will not be weak..

“..im going to go back to work. Thanks anyways.” Ritsu gives a forced smile, noticing Takano frowning with his change in deamenor.

“..Oi.” the older speaks, sliding his hands in the pockets of his blue jeans. “For what its worth.. You are very important in this world.”

Thudump. Thudump.

“..h-huh..?.” A blush invades his cheeks, emeralds wide with questions.

“Well i mean, everyones got a reason to be here. I mean, why be here if youre just going to be useless..?”

Thudump. Thudump.

Ritsu turns his head, a small blush forming on his cheeks.

“Thanks-” Ritsu said, but Takano continued over him.

“I don’t know what goes on in your head… Hell, I wish I did sometimes, but anyways… Everybody has those days where they question themselves. A ‘why am I here?’ kinda thought. So… You’re not alone.” Takano says, which makes Ritsu gasp slightly and looks at him again.

“H-have you?” Ritsu couldn’t but ask.

Takano watches as Ritsus tensed shoulders untensed. A small smile formed on Takanos lips.

"I-I... We should go back to work." Ritsu says, a small blush forming.

Ritsu was slightly mad that he had to be helped to feel better by Takano, of all people.

Takano looks carefully at Ritsus face. "Yeah...... Wanna come over later?" Takano couldn't stop the question from leaving his lips.

Ritsu blushes deeper and walks past Takano, out of the stall. "I-I'm going to have to pass." Ritsu miraculously denies.

Takano sighs, and walks out too. "Fine." Takano says, voice showing tiredness and impatience.

@ritsuluvstakano

Ritsu was uncounsiously getting paler.

Ritsu looks at KISA. His eyes were glassy- more than usual by the end of the cycle.

He had an overwhelming urge to cry, and he didn’t even know why. Well there were many reasons, but he couldn’t pinpoint any of them.

Ritsu nods his head, waving a hand through thin air to prove his point. “Yes! Of course! Just drained is all..”

“Onodera.” Takano called, loud enough for Ritsu to hear, voice showing his concern.

“Kisa! Come here!!”

The loud call of his name startled him from his position, chair unbalancing itself in odd spins as he tried to sit back up. “Okay..” he replied quietly, not really wanting to face the wrath of his evil boss. He stood from his seat, heading towards the ravens desk. “Wassup boss..?”

Ritsu ran to the bathroom, and locks himself in one of the stalls. Ritsu hugs himself, and tried to fight the urge to cry and listen to the voices.

“What…. Is happening to me?” Ritsu mumbles to himself.

Ritsu tears up and then squeezed his eyes shut, tears running down his face.

He blinks the obvious tears from his eyes, taking a big gulp and swallow his pride.

More and more frequently he wonders the same thing: ‘why am i still here?’ It is no suicidal ideation, but it is no feeling to be misunderstood as anything insignificant. And it is this fact that keeps him awake at night and shifts his awakening during the day. “….” Thoughts somehow trace back to a certain man who seemingly begins to consume his thoughts more and more each passing day. Surely, but uncertainly, he knows that his facade of ‘jaded’ has began to finally wear off. After a decade of the same routine of attempted lies and fleeing from emotion, the past has began to latch onto his tail-taking strong hold and slowly gaining more access past his barriers and into his soul.

Emerald eyes clench shut, small nibbles on the lips help distract him from whatever it is that is twisting him uneasily alone.

“Hatori, you’re in charge until I get back.” Takano says before walking out, looking for Onodera.

“Onodera?” Takano called out, right by the bathroom.

“Onodera..?” he calls out, not exactly loud, but still, not quiet enough to be dismissed. With this call, the said man forces a palm over his mouth, muffling any small cries that could slip from his dried throat.

Takano glances between both ends of the room, stepping inside to gain more access of the sight. Ritsu listens to the small sounds from the older man’s shoes, breathing as quietly as he can until the other leaves.

Takano lets the bathroom door close itself, knowing that possibly the ‘missing’ brunette was possibly in there. He lets out a deep sigh.

Stressed wasn’t particularly the word he used to describe how he felt in moments as these. Perhaps the situation could be described as an unexplainable wave of emotion he couldn’t tame.

He leans his back upon the cool marble counter where the freshly cleaned sinks lay, and folding his arms. “Onodera.. I know youre in here. Whats wrong with you?”

Unfortunately, ritsu does not wish to be discovered in the least-in addition to this fact, it is the formation of the question and tone his boss used that pisses him off to an extend where the tears turn to angry ones.

No matter, he does not wish to be seen. And he does not wish to be heard. He is not ashamed of his current condition-oh no.

Takano walks up to the stall and leans against it. “Onodera, please let me in.” Takano says, his voice sounding tired and stressed, a subtle double meaning to the statement. Let him in to the stall, and his heart.

Ritsu lets out a small gasp, catching the double meaning, and covers his mouth tighter, tearing up again.

“On– RITSU. Please. I’m begging you here. I need to know if I even have a chance with you. If you would allow me to make everything right. To have a second chance. To love you again.” Takano says, his voice full of emotion.

Ritsu sniffles and starts crying again. Ritsu knew Takano heard, and cursed himself mentally.

The words echo through his mind. Faintly and pleadingly they repeat their notion for mental embrace.

When the crack of the ravens voices bounces off the bathroom walls, ritsu begins to wonder again, ‘what comes after happily ever after..’

Ritsu tenses up slightly before slowly hugs back.

“What’s wrong?” Takano asked gently.

Ritsu shook his head before hiding his face in Takanos shoulder. Takano rubs Ritsus back and hugs him tighter.

“Shh… I’m right here.” Takano says.

“S-sorry…” Ritsu apologizes, his voice cracking from crying.

Ritsu looks away slightly, unable to keep the eye contact. “Just…. I don’t even know. Nothing?…. Everything?” Ritsu says, the last word a whisper.

Ritsu knows it’s a stupid explanation, but he seriously doesn’t know the specific reason his heart hurts.

Work. Sleep. Work. Avoid. Work. Deny. Work. Run. Work. Energy drinks. Work. Work. Work.

It is a cycle of the same old, same old. And perhaps, its this very reason that he has this sudden damage inside. It is nothing that anyone hasn’t dwelled upon at least once in their life, and still, he cannot help but feel eager for something so much more.

“….” He knows what it means to live. It means to work to survive and perhaps become someone great. But if you do not do so, then you are ridiculed as nothing-a failure. And you stay that failure until you rise to the top. But he knows he is nothing close to special.

He carries the name of people who have done great things and continuously hold up to those standards. And then comes he, slythering behind great shadows because he is fearful of those high expecatations. He dreams to small for someone so big.

But maybe, there is more to this scene. Looking up, he notices bronze orbs, caredully studying his trembling and weak form. Here he stands, strongly embraced inside a man’s arms he’d promise he’d never be entangled in again. But still, he is weak.. Too weak for his own good. Buckling knees and knotted stomach, he knows this man has complete control over him. Hell, he knows the man knows the fact.

“….” Here he stands, embraced in this man’s arms. A man he SHOULDN’T love. A man he CANNOT love. But still, he daren’t push the other away. He NEEDS him at a distance… But he WANTS him at arms reach.

Small, shaky hands clutch almost desperately onto the other’s shirt, in silence, he shakes his head, another thought passing its way through.

’..whats my purpose..?’

He doesnt realize his current question has escaped his lips in sound, catching the raven by surprise. Bronze eyes widen momentarily, before saddening into a sigh.

“….” neither exchange any words. Takano cannot begim to fill the void with false answers. He has none. Who is he to know what the other’s purpose is? But is it right to remain silent when the man he loves is indeed needing an answer?

Ritsu lets his fingers unhold their grip on the other’s shirt, letting his hands fall at his sides bwfore taking a small step back. He is not weak.

..He will not be weak..

“..im going to go back to work. Thanks anyways.” Ritsu gives a forced smile, noticing Takano frowning with his change in deamenor.

“..Oi.” the older speaks, sliding his hands in the pockets of his blue jeans. “For what its worth.. You are very important in this world.”

Thudump. Thudump.

“..h-huh..?.” A blush invades his cheeks, emeralds wide with questions.

“Well i mean, everyones got a reason to be here. I mean, why be here if youre just going to be useless..?”

Thudump. Thudump.

Ritsu turns his head, a small blush forming on his cheeks.

"Thanks-" Ritsu said, but Takano continued over him.

"I don't know what goes on in your head... Hell, I wish I did sometimes, but anyways... Everybody has those days where they question themselves. A 'why am I here?' kinda thought. So... You're not alone." Takano says, which makes Ritsu gasp slightly and looks at him again.

"H-have you?" Ritsu couldn't but ask.