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Pairing: Criminal Jeon Wonwoo x Runaway F. Reader
WC: 14.6+K of ????
Rating: E 18+ MDNI
Genre: Non-Idol AU, Dystopian AU, Established relationship
Summary: Skyfall Industries is taking over the city, where the rich will benefit while the poor will suffer. With body modifications, sex, drugs, and alcohol there to help numb people from reality of it all. Your world is small, and is just getting smaller. So, when Skyfall Inds is finally at your door and threatening your home, you and Wonwoo will have a choice to make.
Warnings for part one: Violence, corruption/corporate control, explict smut, cybernetic body modifications, fake identify, cussing, blackmail, drug use, addiction (sorry soonyoung), drinking, smoking, crime, lying, wonwoo has a fake eye, possessiveness, wonwoo has a quick temper, pet names. please let me know if I forgot anything.
More tags will be added for part 2
A/N: This is part of Cyberpunk: Reload Collab by @studiosvt. Thank you so much for giving me the chance to take part in this collab. Thank you @aeristudios for helping me out with this and betareading, I did rewrite the end a bit after so that part is not 100% beta'ed. Oh and remember folks, I block ageless blogs.
A/N: I currently have it only at two parts but this may change depending on how much I yap.
Seventeen Masterlist
âHey baby, you looking for a good time?â A sleazy voice called out when you walked past; the heavy unpleasant smell of booze, piss, old oil, and cigarette smoke heavily coming from that direction. It made your lips curl in disgust when the mixture met your nose and kept your eyes forward.
Pulling the large thick trench coat tighter around your body, you hoped that it would hide away the little outfit you wore to work and took the chance to inhale the comforting scent of your boyfriend that lingered on the fabric. Keeping you grounded and giving you the strength to bite your tongue.
You ignored the man and his friend yelling insults at your back as you continued your journey through the near empty streets of the Shadow District, back home. With one hand gripping the knife under the thick sleeves, one that Wonwoo had insisted you carry for protection. Luckily, you were able to go another day without having to use it, with the most those men could do was yell out names at your back as you disappear in the crowd.
Even with how early it was, or late depending on the person, the streets were still filled with people. Stores opening their doors to sell synthetically processed foods and supplements to help curve your hunger or thirst, groups of people still enjoying the night life despite the sky glowing grey with smog and sunrise, or those hiding in the shadows, waiting for someone to approach them for the drugs they had in their pockets.
Eagerly waiting for the next victim to get hooked and keep coming back for more.
That was life here in Huimang, named with the intentions of being a City of Hope, but hope was not even a luxury that many people could have. You being one of them, but this was still your home.
The apartment was quiet when you got in, with the grey morning light peeking through the blinds and violet lights that Wonwoo left for you. He was long asleep in your bedroom, greeted by golden eyes and soft meows from your shared cat instead. Her soft dark fur feeling comforting against your leg, and you were quick to shed the coat to pick her up.
âHello to you too, Doodle Bug.â You cooed at the small feline, scratching the side of her head as you made your way into the small kitchen. Wiggling free, Doodle jumped from your arms to the floor, only to look back at you to meow and it brought a smile to your face, âDidnât your dad feed you before he went to bed?â
This earned another meow from her, and you chuckled. âAlright, alright. You win. Early breakfast it is.â
After feeding the cat a can of her favorite food, you made sure her water bowl was full before making your way to the bathroom to clean up. The boots you switched to after work kicked off to a random corner of the small living room, the revealing top thrown over the back of the sofa, and your shorts that felt more like underwear left on the ground by the bathroom. You didnât care that you would need to pick up everything later.
The shower felt amazing on your skin, the hot water washing away everything that had clung to you from working that nightâsweat, spilled booze, tobacco smoke, the disgusting things that had been said to you, and the ghost of hands that tried to touch you as you tried to serve drinks.
It left the stripped away version of you. The real version of you, or what was left of it from years of running and trying to survive.
When you emerged from the steamy shower, the cold air of the apartment bit at your damp skin and a shiver ran through you. You were ready to slip into the warmth of your bed, into the warmth of Wonwoo. The shower may have washed everything away, but it also made you aware of how sore your muscles were, and how tired you were. Each day growing heavier on you, no matter how many hot showers you took.
You didnât bother putting on any pajamas, just slipping onto the old worn bed, with your boyfriend sleeping on his side. His back faces you as you settled under the bedding and moved to mold your body against it, pressing your lips against his bare shoulder.
âHow was work?â His voice was deeper than usual, rough with sleep, taking one of your hands that rested against his stomach. The sound and gesture making your lips upturn against his skin.
âThe usual. Rich, drunk and high assholes that donât know how to or even capable of keeping their hands too themselves. Thinking that flaunting their wealth, and expensive body mods will impress anyone enough to sleep with them.â You let out a soft sigh, eyes closed while you welcome the warmth of your boyfriend, feeling his thumb run over the back of your hand.
Wonwoo stopped before he shifted himself to sit up, causing you to lift your head in confusion. There was some dried drool at the corner of his mouth, his black hair a tangled mess from sleep, and a frown on his lips. He had taken his left eye out to sleep, so only his right one was opened and trained on you with concern.
Just looking at him made your heart flutter still after years together, still the most beautiful person you ever laid eyes on. You couldnât stop from thinking of how lucky you were to have him love you and be in your corner. Your missing piece.
âThey touched you?â He asked calmly, that sleepy rasp was now gone and something dangerous took center stage. âAnd Seungcheol did nothing about this?â
âSeungcheol wasnât there tonight. You know if he was, or any of us said something, they would be out on their asses. Their credits arenât any good there if they fuck with the servers, no matter how rich they claim to be.â You answer, rolling onto your back, trying to not giggle when his eye dropped to your bare breasts when they moved. You reached out to run your hand over his arm, giving him a reassuring smile. âItâs not anything I canât handle, baby. They eventually get bored when they realized that I wouldnât let them fuck me in the bathroom.â
âI should kill them for touching you.â His words sounded more like a growl while he leaned over you. His gaze slid over your frame before it returned to your face. âOnly I can touch you.â
âAs lovely as that sounds, I rather keep you next to me and not behind a glass window.â The hand that had been resting on his arm moved up to his neck so you could pull him into a kiss.
Wonwoo didnât resist your pull, leaning down to find your lips, tasting the minty flavor of the teeth cleaning tablet still fresh on your tongue. The kiss was brief, but it still ignited a fire in you, your body warming, and it seeped to your core. You found yourself chasing his lips when he pulled back, the soft whine that left you earned a smirk from your boyfriend.
âOnly Iâm allowed to touch you.â He repeated, his mouth brushing against yours, slipping on top of you and his hips pushing your thighs open without any resistance from you. He didnât wear clothes to bed, so when he pressed down, there was no barriers against his hardening cock and your own bare heat. Another moan escaped you, as your hips instinctually moved as if you would be able to catch the tip of his thick length just the right way. âOnly I can fuck you in those bathrooms.â
âIs that so?â You teased, trying to not let your lashes flutter at the way Wonwooâs strong hand grabbed your hips, holding it there with more pressure than needed, but you didnât mind his possessiveness over you. He pulled his face back to give you a look, knowing that bratty but aroused smirk all too well, and had to hold back a very vocal groan feeling your cunt getting slicker against the underneath of his cock.
âLast I checked, I am in charge of who touches me, and where I get fucked.â
Wonwooâs mouth latched onto yours, this time his kiss hungry to taste you again, relishing that you returned that same hunger. You were tired, your body desperate for sleep, but you could never pass up a moment like this; especially when you know letting him fuck you would help you sleep better.
His hands moved down your body, caressing your breasts and teased your hardened peaks, while his tongue took claim of yours. Teasing and sucking on it, each of you swallowing moans his hips moving against yours, his cock sliding through your slit teasingly. Letting himself be coated by your arousal, teasing you.
âYou want to play a little, or just want me to fuck you?â Wonwoo asked, pulling from the kiss, his eye looking over your face, a lazy smirk playing over his lips. The question made you laugh because it didnât sound the least bit romantic or intimate, but at the same time, neither of you were aiming for that. Except you werenât going to miss a chance to pick on him. âWhat?â
âYou sure know how to romance aâŠoooh.â The words were lost when he shifted his hips back so that he could slip a hand between your legs, slender fingertips slipping between your folds and found your clit with practiced ease. âFuck⊠WonwooâŠâ
âIf you want me to be romanticâŠâ His voice was soft, his touch matched it in movement. Slow, gentle circles around your sensitive bud, teasing and earned whimpers from you. He was doing this on purpose. His lips barely brushed against your as he spoke again. âThen youâre out of luck.â You went to roll your eyes, but instead they rolled back when two fingers pushed into you, a little gasp leaving you while a groan left him. âAlways so wet for me. This is why only I can fuck you.â
âThen do it, you dick.â You snapped, though there was no punch behind it, only to earn a chuckle from him. His fingers were going at a slow agonizing pace, like he hadnât just woken from a deep sleep, and you didnât just spend all night working. Taking his time like it wasnât early hours in the morning.
âYouâre demanding.â
âBut you love me and will listen anyways.â And he did listen, withdrawing his fingers so he could line himself up; the thick tip barely pressed into you making you groan in a mix of frustration and anticipation. He may have listened, but he sure as hell was going to torture you a bit and pulled back when you would try to roll your hips. âWonwoo!â
He did this to you a few more times before finally sinking into you, earning a moan of pleasure and relief as he took a quick inhale of breath. Your inner walls squeezed and molding to him in such a delicious way that he had to clear his head or he was going to cum right then.
âFuck babyâŠâ He groaned, stilling after he filled you completely, his forehead pressed against yours and both eyes squeezed shut this time. Your own body was shaking, relishing in the feel of him on top of you and inside you, fitting together like missing pieces.
When he finally started to move, Wonwoo created a tantalizing pace with his thrusts, making sure not only you felt every inch of his length but for his own enjoyment as well. He wasnât in a rush, but neither of you were going to last long.
âI love you.â You moaned out, clinging to him in need to feel him over every inch of your skin. You needed to feel the weight of him on you, to be grounded, to know heâs still real, that you were still alive. Wonwooâs mouth was hot on your collarbone, one hand holding onto your hip using his strength to keep you where he wanted you while the other massaged one of your breasts, leaving marks where it would be hard to hide.
âI love you too, fuck. I love you so fucking much,â His words came out labored, the deep vibrations of his voice sending waves over you with his words, his thrusts started to get sloppy quickly. Too lost in the feeling of you and exhaustion that still clung to him.
He was getting close to his release; except he refused to let go first. He had to make you come undone around him before he could. Wonwoo was a lot of things in life, but he was never a selfish lover; at least he never was one with you.
The hand that was massaging the fatty flesh of your breast slipped between you to give you a bit of help to get to your release. He smirked against your skin, gently pressing his lips to a fresh mark, when you let out a small cry when he started to tease your clit. Your nails raked down his back and left red scratch marks down his back.
You werenât sure if you were just sensitive from the hot shower, and exhaustion but the mixture of his cock plunging into your warmth and his quick finger movements was just enough to push you over the edge. Your body shaking as your release washed over you, any moans and gasps leaving you were now swallowed up by Wonwoo. His mouth was hot against your lips, tongue eagerly licking the inside of your mouth; his moans turning into soft whines.
You were already snug around him, but when you came it was like you were squeezing the life from him. Wonwoo tried to hold out a little longer, until your hands moved down his body to grab his ass, pushing his hips into you to grind and that was it for him. Letting himself go inside you, filling you until he couldnât give any more.
Neither of you moved for a moment, his kiss now slowing to a gentle make out and a hand cupping your cheek. The room dim and quiet, letting you both forget that there was a dark world out the confides of your little apartment. When that moment passed, Wonwoo pulled himself out with a sensitive wince and rolled himself off you with a groan.
âYou are going to be the death of me.â He muttered, now on his back and pulling you to his side. Giving you enough time to move so you were facing him before you were pressed against his slick skin.
âYouâre the one who started it.â You mumbled, still attempting to catch your breath as your eyes closed. Your body is completely relaxed, and exhaustion had finally taken you under.
Barely awake, you said in a sleepy tone, âWe need to clean up.â
âNo we donât.â Wonwoo grumbled, sleep taking back over him, turning his head to press a kiss to your hairline. âWe need to sleep.â
The excessive knocking started to turn into pounding and finally ripped you from your deep sleep. An annoyed groan left your lips as you rolled onto Wonwooâs side of the bed, empty and feeling cool against your skin. Showing he had been up and gone for a while.
âFuck offâŠâ You mumbled, but whoever was at your door was persistent, and you couldnât ignore it any longer. Getting up, you stumbled through the room to find clothes since you werenât going to answer naked. Luckily, you found a pair of shorts and a shirt of Wonwooâs, and whoever it was now full on pounding at the door. Causing you to exhaustedly yell, âFucking stop it! Iâm coming!â
Padding through the small apartment, you were tempted to grab a knife from the kitchen once you realized who it was. Especially when the pounding turned into some kind of beat since this asshole thought he was clever.
Ripping the door open, you were met with the bane of your existence leaning against the door frame; acting like he didnât just use your door as his personal beat box. His attention on his cybernetic hand that he currently had out as a claw. To the Shadow District, he was Hoshi, but to you and a small group of people, he was Kwon Soonyoung. Your best friend by force more times than choice at this point.
âFinally. Thought I was going to have to claw this door down.â He mused, turning his sharp eyes on you with his tongue pushed against the inside of his cheek.
âAnd if I donât kill you for it, Wonwoo definitely will.â You snapped, turning from open door to walk to the kitchen. Pushing off the frame, Soonyoung grabbed a plastic bag that was resting at his feet before sauntering into the apartment and closed the door behind him. âItâs too early for this.â
âItâs almost two in the afternoon.â He pointed out, and you shot him a dirty look over your shoulder.
âI worked late last night, you idiot.â You grumbled, and this made him chuckle, retracting his tiger claws so it was normal metal hand. âWhat are you doing here anyways? Besides pissing me off while the sun is still out.â
âWas able to get my hands one some fresh fruits, like fresh from a farm type. Wanted to share them with one of my bestest friends.â Soonyoung watched as you froze, turning toward him slowly with interest. Your eyes dropped to the plastic bag in his hand filled with strawberries, oranges, and peaches dangling from his normal hand, only for you to look back up at his face. Seeing right through him, and from the look on his face, he knew it too. âAaaannnddd maybe some credits.â
âAre you fucking kidding me?â You no longer felt sleepy or even tired anymore, instead you felt a rush of anger through you. You knew that he was using the fruit to attempt to butter you up. âWhy didnât you use the credits you used on the fruit?â
âDidnât pay for these. I actually called in a favor from a friend. Figured bring an offering to sweeten the passing of credits.â
You groaned in frustration as you snatched the bag from him. He didnât put up a fight, instead diverting toward the sofa while you moved to the small kitchen to clean and have some of the fruit for breakfast. Frustrated that heâd known you would take the fruit, but he didnât know you werenât going to give him a single credit.
âGo away, Soonyoung. Come back around when youâre not wanting something from us.â You told him, waving your hand dismissively in the air. âI told you before, I am not supporting your addiction anymore. Me and Wonwoo are barely making ends meet as it is.â
The blond tsked before he said your name in a slow and condescending tone, one that made your stomach turn uncomfortably, his sharp eyes looking in your direction. Taking in that your hair was still sleep ridden, Wonwooâs shirt was actually inside out, and your shorts peeking from under just enough to show you rushed to get dressed. Analyzing you and your blatant lie.
âSee⊠you and I both know that is a lie.â He went to say more, but Doodle had distracted him by jumping onto the sofa, meowing, knowing perfectly well that Soonyoung would give her the attention that she was âdesperateâ for. Reaching out to pet the feline, he finally continued. âIf Iâm not mistaken, but isnât your mother still sending you your monthly allowance? With an extra two thousand credits to convince you to leave Wonwoo and come home.â
âI donât know what you are talking about.â You huffed out, knowing that the only reason your friend was bringing that up was because he was fiending; needing another hit to numb himself like everyone else in this city.
Tears started to sting your eyes, because you hated this side of him. The Soonyoung you once knew wouldnât do this to you, he would never resort to blackmail, but the fiend version of him would and does with no remorse.
âOh, we both know you do.â He responded in a calm voice, a wide smile on Soonyoungâs face as he played with Doodle. âWhat better way to say, âfuck you Momâ than letting me use the credits to buy drugs and you can continue to live with Wonwoo and he can stay blissfully unaware of that little account.â
âFuck you, Soonyoung.â There was a silence between you, a tense one with the only sound was Doodleâs little chirps. âGet out.â
âI guess, youâre right.â He leaned forward to peck the top of your catâs head, with her meeting his lips with a soft headbutt. Standing, Soonyoung adjusted his ridiculously baggy pants and his compression shirt. âWonwoo should be at the docks, right? Him and Gyu doing some recon by helping unload some freight? Maybe I should pay him a bit of a visit, see how him and that deliciously muscular man are doing.â He started toward the door, stopping as he reached for the handle, âWould be such a shame if I happen to let it slip that youâve been hiding who you were before coming to the Shadow District⊠or well⊠ran away to it. I am pretty sure he wouldnât like knowing the person he loves and trusts isnât who he thought she was and is hiding a dark secret.â
âYouâre a real piece of fucking work, you know that right?â
âI know, one of a kind. No one else like me. So a thousand credits sound good?â Soonyoung then turned around, crossing his arms and leaned against the door. The triumphant smile that graced his lips made your nose scrunch in disgust.
âNot a chance.â You shook your head and the smirk he was wearing started to twitch. âI can give you fifty credits.â
âNow, that isnât going to work, but Iâll bump it down.â Soonyoung scratched his chin like he was thinking of a new total, before snapping his fingers. âSeven hundred.â
âNo. Fifty credits.â
âListen, I brought you fresh fruit!â He dropped his arms to his sides and stomped his feet childishly, but you didnât miss the way his cybernetic fingers started to lengthen in claws. âThis shit is hard to get.â
âHard to get fresh fruit, that you didnât pay for.â You could see the way his eyes were darkening dangerously, but you couldnât give him the amount he wanted. You didnât have it, and that account he referenced was one you refused to touch or even acknowledge. âI can do seventy five right now if you leave my fucking apartment.â
âYou know you drive a hard bargain.â That smirk was back, and he took a few steps toward you, flexing the now clawed adorned hand. âIâll take that seventy five, and then I am going to stroll down to those docks.â He held it up when you went to speak, and you closed your mouth. âNow, if you donât want that, then I will gladly take two hundred credits now and your secret stays safe with me.â
âYouâre an asshole.â You answered in defeat, turning away from him to wipe away a stray tear from your cheek and went to find your phone to send the credits. You didnât want him to see you cry, knowing that this Soonyoung wouldnât feel an ounce of guilt for it, nor did you want to see the way he bounced excitedly. âDonât come back around after this, because Iâm not giving you another fucking thing. Just take the credits and leave me alone.â
âYeah, sure.â He didnât believe you when you said this, he never did. Hell, you didnât even believe the words that came out of your mouth. âYou and I both know that you canât live without your best friend.â
âYouâre not my best friend.â You told him, your stomach sick as you sent the credits through the thin device. Taking a deep breath, you closed your eyes to push back any more tears and attempted to calm yourself before you threw a knife at his head. With a slow breath out, you turned to look at the stranger where Soonyoung once stood. âMy best friend died the moment he got hooked on that shit. Youâre just the scum that came out of the ashes.â
âAh, havenât been referred to as a Phoenix before. I think I prefer tigers still.â He was able to hear the hurt in your voice, he was able to see the pain in your eyes, but he didnât care. He was too excited that he was able to get high on your credits. âPleasure doing business with you. Let me know how Wonwoo likes the strawberries. Made sure to grab those for him.â
âJust leave.â You looked away from him, your words felt more like a plea then a demand, one that he actually listened to. But only cause he had what he wanted.
You heard the door open, and his heavy boots walk through the threshold, but you didnât hear the door close.
âOh, I forgot to mention.â He spoke slowly, his voice still smug, but there was something softer to it. Like for a moment, your best friend was trying to push past the fiend. âSeokmin saw notices on Holiday. Eviction notices.â Your back stiffened at those words, that sick feeling in your stomach turned into acid in your throat, but you didnât look back at him. Holiday was a street right before the Shadow District. âI think you and I both know what that means.â
You knew perfectly well what that meant.
âGuess you canât run from your mom or Skyfall forever.â And with that, Soonyoung closed the door behind him. Leaving you to stand there, next to the counter filled with the fruits he brought.
Tainted with blackmail and betrayal, but that was nothing compared to the anger and fear that you were feeling by his parting words. You felt like you were thrown off kilter, your body no longer felt like yours but the intense emotions that coursed through you.
After all these years that you lied to yourself that the Shadow District wouldnât be touched by the filthy hands of those rich bastards. Convincing yourself that the home you found here with Wonwoo, with your friends, didnât always have a looming threat at your door. That you could go a lifetime without seeing her.
It had been years since you ran, but it was still not enough time. It was never enough time to stay away.
The frustrated scream that left you didnât sound like you, it was raw and from somewhere deep inside you, as you angrily swiped the fruit off the counter and onto the ground. Forgetting that you had pulled out a knife to cut them up and sliced your hand.
âFuck!â You grasped your wrist, blood starting to come out of the cut, more tears breaking through. Sinking to the ground, you let out a wail as your cried. You were in pain, you were hurting deeper than pain, you were scared.
You were naĂŻve to think that anywhere was safe. Safe from her, safe from Skyfall Industries, safe from the suffocating feeling of greed that came to be a constant in this greedy city.
You lied to Wonwoo when he came home that day, told him that you cut yourself slicing up the fruit Soonyoung had dropped off. Worked it in a way that you wanted him to believe that you had bought them from him, refused to say what happened during your former best friendâs visit, but adamant that the cut happened after he left.
You tried not to look at him when his left eye lens flickered as he scanned your body but failed. Allowing him to read your vitals, take any changes in them, but he didnât question you further despite of what heâd seen. He didnât even need to scan you though, unable to hide your distress. That something had happened with Soonyoung, and something deadly started to stir.
He couldâve easily leave, find Soonyoung and put a knife to his throat for upsetting you, for making you feel like you needed to lie to him, but he didnât. Wonwoo was the quick tempered type, and he had no problem punching or stabbing someone instead of talking it out or walk away, especially when it came to you. But Wonwoo also knew that there was some things that he couldnât resolve with violence.
Soonyoung, unfortunately, was one of those some things. You were too protective over him, no matter how much the fiend hurt you, but he knew that there was more to it. And whatever that fiend had over you, it kept you from cutting him off. It kept you from telling him.
âEarth to Wonwoo,â Vernon spoke up, pulling the older man from his thoughts and turned his attention back to the conversation at hand. The younger man was sitting on a filing cabinet that was in the corner of Jihoonâs office, one arm resting on his knee while his head leaned back against the wall. âI know it sucks down here, but we are talking business.â
âSorry.â Wonwoo answered with a sigh, his eyes moved toward the other two men in the room. Jihoon was sitting at his desk chair, his attention on the tablet in his hands and not on the rest on the room. Mingyu was leaning against the wall next to the door, and his attention on his best friend, sensing something was up the moment he saw him. âWhat was the question again?â
âWhat did you see in the boxes from the dock yesterday?â Jihoon repeated, and a scoff left Vernon when he did. âMingyu said you saw something in some of the boxes.â
âIt wasnât what I saw, it was what I didnât see.â Wonwoo could hear Mingyu murmuring an apology for getting it wrong and leaned forward to rest his chin on his hand. This made Jihoon finally look at him. âThat and where they were going.â
âWhat you mean you couldnât see?â It was Vernon who spoke, another scoff leaving him as he looked for a pack of cigarettes in the pockets of his jumpsuit, not caring that he received a dark look. âThought that hacked ass eye of yours could see through shit. You know through thermal scans or some shit.â
âI am not above putting a knife through your own fucking eye. Make you just like me.â Wonwoo warned, which only earned another cocky laugh. The cybernetic-free punk ass knew that he wasnât joking or bluffing, but they just didnât give a shit, making his hand twitch toward the knife that he kept hidden away.
âJust get to it.â Jihoon snapped, shooting his own dark look toward both of them. âWhy couldnât you see?â
âMost the boxes, easy to scan and act like I am verifying cargo, but there was about three or four large ones. Couldnât get a reading at all.â Adjusting in his seat, Wonwoo continued to speak. âBoxes came up empty, but they were definitely not.â
âTook ten of us just to move one onto the truck.â Mingyu grumbled, sounding annoyed that he had to be reminded of the labor he had to do. âNo way we were going to be able to move those with the forklift.â
âWell, where are they taking them?â Vernon asked, while Jihoon looked between the two men before them.
âThe Factory.â Mingyu answered. The Factory was a warehouse on the dock, typically a storage unit for parts until they are shipped to facilities to build or specialize in installing them on people. Â
âWhy is that so weird? Everything goes there.â Jihoon sat the tablet down onto his desk to stand, a low grimace sketched over his face, his hand reaching down to massage his leg only to be met with metal. The rest of the group watched in silence as Jihoon schooled his expression and cautiously took steps away from his desk.
âThatâs their first stop. The next stop is an address on Holiday. Skyfall Cybernetics Shop, but the address is a set of apartments right now.â This brought an uncomfortable silence over them, one that even Vernon was part of. This was too close to home, and none of them wanted to actually say what it could mean. After a heartbeat of silence, Wonwoo was the one to say it, âThis is becoming more than stealing parts.â
âYouâre right.â Jihoon nodded, not looking toward anyone as he tried to pace but only manage an awkward limp. Without thinking, Wonwooâs left eye flickered behind his glasses, scanning his friend and boss to analyze him. Checked for anything different in his vitals.
Jihoon may have been good at keeping himself levelheaded in front of his crew, he never liked showing his worry nor when he was in pain, but he couldnât hide it away from Wonwoo. And it wasnât like it was something he typically did, he wouldnât just scan his friends unless he felt like he needed to, but something told him to do it, and he was right to. Not only was his friend in pain, but he could tell by the increased vitals that there was more than that.
This was more than a simple heist job, this was more than stealing a few parts for a few thousand credits to split. They could easily still go on with the job, focus on the parts on the list and ignore the large boxes since they werenât what they were looking for. But if Skyfall Industries took the steps to make it where not even scanners could penetrate the boxes, then that possibly meant more security so their usual ways werenât going to cut it.
It caused the unspoken question hang heavy among the four of them. Was taking this job a good idea after all?
A familiar rhythmic knock broke through the silence that had followed Jihoonâs words, causing the four of them to look toward the opening door. It was Soonyoung, practically skipping into the room with wide eyes, pupils completely blown out, and his skin had a glow to it. His blond hair spiked up, and it was a surprise that the corner of his lips werenât splitting from the size of his shit eating grin he wore.
The fucking fiend was on a high, and it was obvious to the rest of the people in the room. No scan was needed for this.
âWhy hello there gentlemen. Lovely day isnât it?â He said with a chirpy voice, shooting a smug look toward Wonwoo as he went to close the door. Like he was rubbing something into his face without saying what it was, and that deadly feeling started to stir inside again.
His thoughts went back to when he had come home to you, your hand wrapped in gauze and a few droplets of blood that you missed on the floor. He thought back to how you wouldnât look at him when you told him that you did it while cutting fruit, the fruit that you âboughtâ off Soonyoung, and the way your voice was raspy but still full of tears. You made him promise to not go and off the fiend, that he had nothing to do with your hand or your state.
And Wonwoo tried to keep his promise to you, even though he didnât believe you, because you were so protective over Soonyoung. But that smug look on that mother fuckerâs face, while your teary and sad look was burned into his brain, snapped something in him. He was out of his seat before he could stop himself.
A hiss of pain left Soonyoung when Wonwoo slammed him against the door, the doorknob jabbing into his back while a knife was pressed to his throat. Pinning him to the office door and made the three other men yell in surprise.
âYou got some fucking nerve showing your face around me right now.â Wonwoo hissed, pressing his sharp knife to Soonyoungâs jugular, more than willing to slice his neck open. âNot after how you left my girl yesterday.â
âOh thatâŠâ Soonyoung sighed dramatically, his cybernetic hand resting on Wonwooâs arm with the tips of the metal fingers lengthened to sharp claws. A warning from the fiend, but Wonwoo didnât care. He was seeing so much red that it triggered his fake eye to turn the bright color behind his glasses, and Soonyoungâs smug look turned sadistic. Wonwoo wanted to end him right then and there, ready to watch him bleed out on Jihoonâs office floor. âYouâre being so dramatic, all I did was sell her some fruit.â
âYou drugged up mother fucker.â The words came out like venom which switched something in Soonyoung, because his blown out eyes flashed and the claws of his hand started to rip the sleeves of his coat. His unserious warning now turning deadly in its own right. Either of them could kill the other right then and there easily.
Neither man would do it though. Wonwoo wouldnât because he would lose you for good if he did, while there was still shards of the old Soonyoung inside the fiend somewhere that stopped him. Except it didnât stop them from wanting to, and that was enough to have the other men on them quickly.
Mingyuâs tight grip on Soonyoungâs metal wrist, attempting to loosen his hold on him while Vernon and Jihoon attempted to pull Wonwoo away. Especially the hand that held the knife to the fiendâs throat.
âLet go of him.â Jihoon commanded, while the three men struggled to pull them apart. âDo you think she would be happy with you if you killed him?â
âYeah, Wonwoo baby.â That smug look was back, but this time there was something sinister and wild to it. He was getting off on this, and it only made Wonwooâs grip tighten on his knife. âBe a good boy and listen to Jihoonie. Donât want your princess unhappy with you, do you?â
âSoonyoung shut up, or we will let him kill you and help him lie about what happened to you.â Jihoon scowled, then leaned closer toward Wonwoo. His voice softer in hopes that will help defuse the situation. âCome on, heâs trying to get you to do something stupid. Heâs not worth it.â
âWonwooâŠâ Mingyu also tried to reason with him, his dark eyes on the older man and were filled with concern.
After a moment, Wonwoo finally pulled the knife away and stepping back while Soonyoung released his grip. The metal claws retracting back to fingers, while his human hand went to his neck to run over the skin where the knife was pressed into him, checking to see if blood was drawn. Only to be disappointed to find that Wonwoo didnât leave any nicks on him, unable to find a reason to villainize him.
âYou should thank her.â Wonwoo told the fiend flatly, more distance created as the two youngest of the group stepped between them. Vernonâs eyes on Soonyoung and Mingyuâs on Wonwoo, both wearing unsure looks on their faces. Neither trusted the fiend or Wonwoo to go back after each other. âIf it wasnât for her, I would have killed you long ago.â
âHow generous of you.â Soonyoung was dry with his words, smoothing out the wrinkles of his shirt. The claws were completely put away, but his sharp eyes were still wild and shining with dare. Daring Wonwoo to come at him again.
âEnough.â Jihoon demanded, a hiss of pain followed when he took unsteady steps back from the situation. With a hand planted on the desk, the shorter man shifted on his feet to take pressure of his cybernetic leg. âWhat are you doing here, Soonyoung? Weâre not interested in your bullshit today.â
âJihoonie. My baby, the love of my life, the sparkle to my eyeâŠâ
âI am none of those things to you.â Jihoon sneered while Soonyoung clutched his chest as he changed the sweet talk to hurt.
ââŠYou wound my heart. You wound my soul.â Soonyoung let out an over exaggerated wail, and the rest of the men in the room rolled their eyes. When he wasnât going to get any other reaction out of them, Soonyoung just sighed and crossed his arms. âI came by just to see my favorite boytoyâŠâ
âNot your boytoy.â
ââŠBut I couldnât help but overhear when opening the door that you guys were talking about Holiday.â The way the fiendâs lip twitched into a smirk, and it was clear that he found a way to take advantage for his own gain. âI think I may have some information that may benefit you.â
âIâm not paying you shit for whatever you have.â Jihoon saw right through him, just like the rest did. Wonwoo found his place back in his chair, more slouched as he glared at the fiend while the two younger went back to their places in the office. Though Mingyu was standing closer toward Soonyoung, ready to grab him if needed. âI donât have some promise to not kill you going, so you can either tell me, or Iâll shoot you in the shin.â
âThatâs one way to get me on my knees for you baby, but for a few credits, Iâll do it without the bullet.â He went to take a step further into the office, but with a sharp nod from Jihoon, he was stopped by Mingyu. Keeping him by the door and acted as the line in the sand.
âJust get with it.â It was Vernon who spoke, perched back on the filing cabinet, and sounding just as fed up the rest of them. âYouâre not going to extort us like you do others. With us, aside from wiped boy over here,â He smirked when he earned a dirty look and a finger from Wonwoo, âyouâll either tell us, you keep your mouth shut, or the next parts you get will not be cosmetic.â
âWhatever you say, pretty boy.â Soonyoung scoffed, crossing his arms and rolled his eyes. âFineâŠIâll tell youâŠâ
Growing up, youâd always heard about the Shadow District from the people around you. To the adults in your life, it was seen as a cesspool of filth and crime. They viewed the people who resided there as criminals and low life individuals with no hope or place in their future society. The area was supposedly so bad that not even your mother or the rest of the elites at Skyfall wanted to set foot in or even want to touch.
They viewed it as a lost cause and ordered others around your age to stay away.
To your peers, they had shared the same view as the adults, that only criminals and low lives lived there but that didnât stop many of them from venturing over. Mostly to buy the drugs that were offer, addicting and fun party favors to take to the parties they would throw in their empty penthouse apartments, try to sneak into the roughest bars and clubs, or whatever else teens did to cause problems. They saw going into the district as a challenge, when really all it was were cries of attention that their parents would never give.
To Soonyoung, the boy whose mom raised you more than your own mother did, it was home. He was the only person you knew that would talk about the Shadow District in a positive light, making sure you knew that was still beauty beyond the stories that others would tell you. That deep past the crime and poverty, it had a community stronger than anywhere else in the city.
People werenât fake as the ones in West Hills Parkway where you grew up, or any other rich area in Huimang. Good but guarded people, even if many lost their way in their fight to survive because of the elites running the rest of the city. They were all more than just stolen cybernetics, drugs that would numb them enough to live another day or had to break laws to make ends meet.
He would always talk about taking you there, so he could show you that beauty behind the ugly. Even joking that he was sure you would find a sense of belonging there instead of the world you grew up in and was expected to assimilate to what everyone else expected you to be.
Because in the Shadow District, no one expected you to behave a certain way, no one expected you to be perfect there. No one cared enough, because they all had their own shit to worry about. There you could be anyone you wanted, disappear and become a completely different person than who you were. It was a reality you dreamt to be in, no matter how dark it was, and at one point those jokes stopped being just jokes.
So, the first time Soonyoung took you there, you had finally ran away from your old life and a version of you that wasnât real. You ran away from the expectations that were laid before you, the evils that were behind the closed doors of Skyfall, left behind a last name that never felt was yours, and changing yourself to someone different.
You became someone else, just another soul trying to survive like everyone else around you.
It hadnât been easy by any means. You werenât proud of some of the things that you did along the way, having to adapt and change to survive, but you were happier. Eventually you met Wonwoo, someone who wasnât meant to be anything more than a dick to ride and a bed to sleep in for the night and fell in love. It was still hard, but together you made it work with him giving you love and shelter while you returned that love and made that shelter a place you both could call home.
You lost a lot over the years for your choices, family and friends, but you also gained just as many. You were free to be who you were and free from your motherâs control, her demands. You were struggling, but you were happy.
But that all came crashing down after Soonyoungâs recent visit, pulling out that flicker of fear you hid away by everything else. The fear that Skyfall would decide that the Shadow District and its real estate was worth their attention. Now, you had to face the reality.
The reality that your past is catching up to you, the reality that Wonwoo will learn of the who you used to be and ran from. Find out that youâve lied to him for so long. It distracted you, it clouded your thoughts, made you keep looking over your shoulder as you walked to work and was late. The night didnât get any better either.
Chan snapped his fingers to bring you out of your thoughts, bringing back to Cherriesâ busy bar and the full tray of drinks waiting for one of your tables. He raised his brow to you, silently questioning where your head was that night, and all you could do was force a smile at him. It was meant to be your way of telling him you were fine, but your lips felt tight over your teeth. You could only hope that he bought it or didnât care enough to believe it.
The only response you got from Chan was a shrug, moving away from you to tend to the other customers and servers waiting for their drinks. You picked up the full tray of drinks and carefully balanced them as you made your way through the crowded club. Easily maneuvering through the groups of people standing together, too focused on not bumping into anyone and get to the table with their order, so you werenât paying attention to the faces of the people around you.
So when a hand reached out and caught you by the hip, it startled you and nearly caused you to drop the tray. Rebalancing yourself, you twisted your head where the hand that held onto you came from, a frown playing over your features. The owner was a smug business type at one of the booths, sleek expensive clothes, hair styled back that people like to see as âprofessionalâ, and the cybernetics werenât for because he needed it. They purely for aesthetic and status purposes.
Especially with the type of metal that was used, the highest of qualities that was buffed to shine. It would have looked nice with the flashing lights hitting it, had it been on anyone else and they didnât touch you like you were a toy to grab. With a jerk of your hips, you pulled yourself away from his touch as a sickening feeling crept up you from where his hand was. Like you just touched poison.
âI will be right back with you.â You yelled over the music, taking a step away from the table to your destination when they spoke your name. You froze on the spot.
It wasnât because he called you by your first name, most of the patrons here knew it. It was the last name. Your old last name. Your motherâs last name.
âItâs you isnât it?â He had stood from his seat, you felt him take a step toward you and reach for you again.
âNo.â You responded, shooting him a dirty look and pushed forward through the crowd. Blood rushed through your ears, not liking that he still had that smug look on his face, a mixture of anger and panic coursing through you.
You donât recognize him, it had been so long since youâd seen anyone from your past that they all became nothing but blur of faces and metals, so you couldnât think of his name or what family he was from. Except he recognized you. You were cybernetic free and looked nearly the same as you did when you ran, just older, more mature, and signs of you learning to survive. He recognized you and called you out by your old name.
As you got closer to the table you were serving, you decided that you were going to circle back to the bar from the other side of the club and get one of the other girls to help him and his table. Maybe even avoid this side for the rest of the night.
It all happened quickly after that. You were so lost in your plans that you missed a girl taking a step back, and you collided right into her. The tray full of drinks flew through the air, splashing the people sitting at the table and everyone standing around them while you landed on the ground with a thud.
The girl who had tripped you was quick to help you up, apologizing to you as you apologized profusely to the people at the table. Your hands moved quickly to grab all the spilled glasses and rush to the bar to get towels from Chan; who was already had a stack of small of them on the bar to help clean up. His expression unreadable, with a new set of glasses already out so he could remake their drinks.
You cleaned up the mess the best you could and was able to get the new drinks to them, while Seungkwan, your manager, tried to placate one of the girls in the group. She was the only one who didnât get hit with alcohol, but she made a fuss and complained to him about you. Not giving a single damn if she was being truthful or that you were still standing there.
âGo get some air,â Seungkwan spoke to you at one point, cutting off the girl to do so and she looked like she was ready to explode. âI will talk to you when I am done here.â
With a solemn nod, you turned to head to the back of the club. With a glance toward the bar, you saw Chan give you a sympathetic look but was quick to return back to his job, so he wasnât joining you in getting yelled at. You couldnât blame him for that, because you didnât want to be in this position either.
The back of the club was a private alley, one that was fenced off by Cherriesâ owner Seungcheol so that not only was there no issues with inventory deliveries, but so his staff had somewhere to hide away. It stopped them from being harassed when they would go smoke or be able to take a breather away from a busy night. It was the only club in the area that did this, and you were grateful that you worked there and not anywhere else.
The cool night air felt like a relief to your hot and sweat covered skin, instantly relaxing you as you breathed in the smell of rain and a permanent smell of oil. It grounded you, giving you the chance to center yourself and remind yourself that you were better than this.
The sound of the back door opening caused you to twist around as Seungkwan walked out with a cigarette in his hand. Leaning against the wall, he took his time lighting the wrapped tobacco and let the heavy door shut before speaking.
âYou going to tell me what happened in there?â He asked, blowing a cloud of smoke in the air before his tongue pressed against his cheek, and the brief respite you had was taken away. âI had to comp two rounds of drinks just now, and not to mention, Chan has been saying you been acting strange all night.â He took another drag of his cigarette, his eyes narrowed. âAre you on something?â
âWhat? No, of course not.â You answered tensely, not liking that he accused you of that. âI just have a lot on my mind. I wasnât paying attention as well as I should have.â Looking down at your hands, purposely leaving out your encounter with the nameless guy. No one here knew you by that name, and you couldnât afford it getting out. âIâm sorry. I will do better.â
There was a beat of silence, and you cast your gaze nervously up toward Seungkwan, only to see his eyes were on his cigarette and not you, his expression hard to read. Which made your stomach churn uncomfortably since your manager was an expressive man, always wearing his heart on his sleeve. He made sure that he said what was on his mind, even if it got him in trouble or hurt someoneâs feelings.
âListenâŠâ He finally spoke as he blew out another cloud of smoke then licked his lips. âThe first rule at Cherries is plain and simple, whatever shit you have going on in your life is left at the door. Youâre here to work, not fucking worry about shit that has nothing to do with this place.â
âI know, Kwan. I amâŠâ
âSorry. Yeah, I know. You guys always are.â A scoff left him as he said this, taking a final drag of his cigarette then dropped it into a small rain puddle next to him. âYouâre paying for all the drinks I had to comp tonight, Chan's tallying it all up now and will be taking it from your tips and earnings tonight.â
Hearing these words made you feel sick, that churning turned sour and felt like bile was already creeping up. After Soonyoungâs blackmail, you couldnât have this happen since those credits you just lost was needed to recover that loss and for rent. You couldnât afford to lose another credit, not when you werenât sure what the payoff was for the job Jihoon had Wonwoo doing.
And you refused to touch that account your mother had for you.
âUnderstood.â You told him after a long moment of silence on your part, forced to accept this fate of yours. There was no point in arguing with Seungkwan without giving too much away, without giving yourself away. You were in a lose/lose situation here.
âI know that it seems unfair, but you got lucky here since we have fired others for less.â Seungkwan went to grab the door handle to go back inside, before stopping and looking at you with a resigned expression. âGuess is pays that Cheol has a soft spot for Wonwoo, or you wouldnât just be paying for those drinks, youâd be looking for another job. Take a few minutes to get your head right and then get back in here. We need you tonight, or I wouldâve sent your ass home.â
With that, he disappeared through the large metal door. His words echoed through your brain, the contempt he had when he mentioned your boyfriendâs name and his pull with the Cherriesâ owner. And by proxy you as well.
You took that few minutes before returning to your job and managed to finish the night with no further mistakes, but you were not able to push your thoughts away. After what happened that night, that nameless guy who knew you by your old name, and Skyfall Industries finally deciding that the Shadow District was worthy for their development, you couldnât ignore the crushing realization that the two worlds you knew were colliding.
It was early in the morning when you got home and was surprised to see Wonwoo already up and in the kitchen making coffee. With his hair sticking up in different directions, one eye barely open while the other stayed shut, his face still had the indents of his pillow, and sleep still heavy on him. He wasn't in anything more than a pair of dark grey boxers, giving you a perfect view of the rest of his body.
A lean muscular frame with naturally broad shoulders, long legs, and strong arms that was normally hidden away by dark heavy clothes due to the scars that littered on different places on his body. Old wounds from fights he got into over the years, from the accident that caused him to lose his left eye, and from other stupid shit he did. You were seeing one of the barest version of him, a version that only you see, and it was your favorite.
When he looked at you, it made your heart squeeze when a sleepy smile broke across his lips, and a hand reach out to you. One that you reached for without hesitation, your body moving without needing to think too much about it, just ready to be in his presence.
"Hey baby." His voice was rough, his fingers interlocking with yours to pull you into him, before his lips found the top of your head. Pressing them against your hair, before breathing you in. "You smell good."
"I smell gross." You giggle softly, tilting your head so that his lips could find yours. The soft press of his lips helped loosen some of the tension that was clinging to you, but not enough to help you forget. You still had to tell him about that you lose money instead of bringing any home.
"I don't think so." He shook his head, before pressed another kiss to your lips. When he pulled away, his brows then furrowed when he saw your face. "What's wrong? Did something happen at work?"
"Just had a shitty night. Spilled a tray of alcohol all over a table full of people, and Seungkwan was not happy because he had to comp two rounds of drinks." You answered with a small voice and attempted to turn away from him but one of his hands grasped your face to stop you. It hurt to see that smile gone, and concern shine through his eye. "I ended up having to pay for the drinks that we lost today and was told I am lucky that I wasnât fired." You let out a shaky sigh, "We needed those credits."
You earned silence from your boyfriend, the frown deepened and his eye stayed on you. The sleep that was still clinging to him when you walked in gone, with only the physical signs left. The arm that was wrapped possessively around your waist had tightened, pressing you more against his near bare frame, while the hand on your face held you there. His expression was dark, and it made you slightly nervous.
"I'm sorryâŠ" Your voice sounded small, and this earned a dark laugh from Wonwoo, his thumb brushing against your cheek affectionately. "I'll talk to Seungcheol when he's in next and see if I can get an extra shift to make up for what I lost today."
"Don't worry about it. Shit happens." Wonwoo shook his head, though his expression didnât changed and his tone was sharper. You knew that he was pissed with you, it wasn't hard to read him when he was like this, but he was holding himself back.
A fight wasnât something either of you needed, and it left a heavy tension between you both. You avoided his gaze that was searching your face, threatening to pull your secrets that now lingered under the surface than buried deep without the help of his eye. With one look, he would know everything you hid from him, and you would lose everything. You couldnât have that.
âI love you.â You finally said after a long beat of silence, your fingers brushing against the back of the hand that held your face as you pressed yourself against him. Your eyes flicked up toward his, wanting to be sure that he saw the tip of your tongue run over your bottom lip before you leaned forward to kiss the curve of his collarbone.
âI love you too, but whatâs going on? You havenâtâfuck.â A soft groan left him when your mouth moved to his neck, kissing the kiss as your free hand moved down between you. Your hand slid over the fabric of his underwear, cupping his hardened cock through the thin material.
You weren't proud of what you were doing, but it was the only way to distract him. You weren't ready for it all to come out. You weren't ready for him to walk away and hate you.
"Everything is fine, donât worry." You lied, grateful that he didn't have his left eye in, or he wouldâve seen right through you, and used it to your advantage, pulling from his hold to move your mouth over his chest. You earned a moan from him when your teeth grazed his skin, massaging the twitching bulge with your hand, and gave the thick member a gentle squeeze.
"Don't⊠ah⊠think I don't know what you're doing." Wonwoo managed to get out with effort, his right eye watching as you slipped down onto your knees. Not caring that you were still in the deep red dress that you had worn that night for work, because you were on a mission. You left a reminder of yourself on his hip, fingers hooking the band of his underwear to pull down. Freeing his cock from its confides.
You chose to not respond, your thighs pressed together at the sight of him, so easily ready for you. His fingers brushed against your hairline, and you looked up to him while your own wrapped around his length, catching the way his face contorted in pleasure when you tentatively stroked him. Mouth slightly opened, with breathy moans escaped while he tried to keep his one eye open to take in the way you looked for him.
Wonwoo went to speak you name in a stern voice, but it was lost when your mouth brushed the tip of his cock before planting an open mouth kiss on it. Pulling back, you gathered some spit in your mouth to dribble it onto his length, coating it with your hand so it easier to stroke what you couldn't fit into your mouth.
The hand that had been brushing your hairline now was going to grip at your hair when you finally took him between your lips, taking nearly half of him in one go and ignored the need to gag when it hit the back of your throat. Wonwoo's head dropped back, no longer concerned over anything exchanged between the two of you, already lost in you. Too lost in the wet heat of your mouth and your tongue pressed against his underneath.
Your hand moved in sync of your mouth, at a pace that he liked, and took him as far down your throat as you could go. It left your boyfriend a mess before you, his grip on your hair tightened but wouldn't take control. The sight of him from this angle made you clench around nothing, your already wet underwear stick to your cunt uncomfortably. To relief the feeling, you slipped a free hand between your thighs.
The feeling of your touch over the covered heat caused you do a quick inhale through your nose that was followed by a whimper. The sound made Wonwoo's head to snap forward, prying open his eye to take in the sight of you. Your mouth stretched over his cock, lips red, and eyes glossed over. Your red dress pushed up your hips and giving him view of one of your hands between your legs, touching yourself while you pleasured him.
The sight made him twitch in your mouth, and found himself quickly near the edge, but Wonwoo was a greedy man. He wanted his as well as yours and watching as you touched yourself as you worked to give him his own was not enough. He needed to feel it himself, he felt like a fiend needing their fix.
With a firm tug of your hair, Wonwoo pulled you off his cock, a groan left his lips when he saw a string of spit trail from your mouth to his cock.
"Get up." He commanded, releasing your hair to help you stand. His own hands rough as he moved you how he wanted you, and you let him. Loving the way he would handle you and took control.
The smell of coffee and sex filled the small apartment as you rested your arms onto the kitchen counter while Wonwoo took his place behind you. He pushed the dress up so that it was now at your waist, and your ruined underwear pulled down. The cook air of the apartment had sent shivers through you when it meat your wet head, leaving you to be the one whimpering.
"WonwooâŠ" You weren't sure what you were going to say after this, his name felt right on your tongue in that moment. Especially when you felt the thick head of his cock tease your wet slit, catching your opening just right and you attempted to push your hips back. "Please."
"You know, I have to leave soonâŠ" The words were slightly muffled, Wonwoo's mouth pressed against your shoulder. He continued to tease you, knowing that it would make you lose your mind. "I am supposed to meet Vernon out on the dock today." You found it funny that he said this while he took his time, wording it like it's your fault. It was, but you only intended to suck him off. "Good thing that fucking prick is always late."
You went to respond, only for your mouth to drop when he sunk his teeth into your shoulder and filled you completely in one thrust. It made your eyes roll, the stretch was enough to numb your own mind of everything that was playing in it. This may have started to distract him, but the way he filled you and the way his body enveloped you, maybe you needed this yourself.
Wonwoo didn't stay still too long, pulling back until he was only half out, before snapping his hips forward. The force of the thrust jerked you into the counter, causing your grip to tighten on the counterâs edge to steady yourself. A soft cry left you as you attempted to meet his thrusts but his grip on your hips stopped you. It left you to take what he gave you.
His breath hot against your shoulder as he fucked you in the middle of your shared kitchen, each thrust felt rougher than the last. Filling the apartment with the sounds of skin slapping, the moans that left you both, and the slick sounds of his cock plunging into your cunt. Every time you squeezed around him a string of curses left him, loosening his grip on your hips enough to adjust and pulled you to an upright position.
Your back pressed against his chest, while his mouth was on your neck, running his tongue over the sweat that was starting to collect from your activities. His hands roamed your body as one of your own reached back to grab his hair, trying to find an anchor at the new angle of his thrusts. No longer was he the only mess in this, you were too.
"Wonwoo." You whimpered out his name, with tears pricking at your eyes at the feeling your release almost within reach. Slipping a hand between your legs, you started to desperately rubbing your clit to help him push you over.
Your release hit you harder than you expected, your knees nearly buckled and was more than grateful that you were being held up in that moment. Wonwoo's release quickly followed with a low groan in your ear, and kept you anchored against him. Your breathing labored as you came down from your highs.
Dropping your head back against his shoulder, your boyfriend pressed a kiss to your temple.
"Don't worry too much about the money right now," He murmured against your skin, pulling out of you after a few moments and turned you to face him. Skin flushed, sweat falling from his brow, breathing came out in slight pants, as he looked at you with one eye. "This job that Jihoon is having us do will bring in a decent amount of credits each and bring more parts to the district." He smiled softly. "It'll be enough to keep us comfortable for a while, and maybe even enough to get you, me, and Doodle out of the city. Start over somewhere new."
It was something he always said when Jihoon had him do a job, it was a promise that he kept trying to speak into fruition. It would bring you hope every time he would say it, but this time, it only brought back that uncomfortable twist in your stomach.
âI donât see why weâre still trying to do this job.â Vernon muttered, blowing smoke from his cigarette, and looked like he wanted to be anywhere but at the dock with Wonwoo. The two had been tasked to stake out the Factory and report back to Jihoon, âLook at the fucking place. Covered in guards that look more like cyborgs than human. What the fuck do they have that needs that much security?â
âWhatever was in those boxes.â Wonwoo answered, declining the pack of cigarettes the younger had offered him. He was tempted, but he didnât want to pull his mask down as his eyes stayed trained on the building. His eye flickered every so often as he took photos of the large warehouse and the guards that patrolled it, while making sure to notes any patterns he caught. âJihoon wants us to get photos and videos of everything.â
âBetter be so that he can demand more credits if they really want us to do this.â Vernon scoffed as a set of cars pulled up to the Factoryâs entrance. Sleek vehicles that screamed status and money. âHazard pay or whatever the fuck itâs called.â
âThat and heâs brought the Angel in to help. If these guards are more parts than human, then weâll need his help and insight on this.â
âWeâre definitely fucked if he had to bring that asshole in.â Vernon grumbled as he pulled his beanie further onto his head and Wonwoo let out a huff of a laugh. They watched one of the car doors open so a woman could get out.
She was older, dark red suit, hair perfectly styled, and a heavy aura of power that clung to her like a second skin. It was clear she was someone important as she was greeted by one of the guards, something that he made sure to note. Then she briefly looked in their direction, and Wonwoo felt a sudden familiarity to her.
The woman was then joined by two more men from the other car, all talking with the guard before making their way into the building. Not before Wonwooâs eye was able to zoom in and get some photos of all of them. Included in them was a good shot of the womanâs face, and it was then he started to realize that she looked like you, but an older version. There was subtle differences, but it was like he was seeing you over twenty years in the future.
âThat woman looks like Y/N.â Vernon pointed out, not looking in Wonwooâs direction to see that he was having a moment himself. âBut like older, richer, and probably a bigger bitch.â The older man shot him a look that Vernon caught. âWhat? I ainât saying sheâs a bitch all the time, but the girl bites.â
âDonât I know it.â Wonwoo answered, the photo of the woman still on the screen of his eye. Analyzing her features and matching them to you with something unsettling in his stomach. He had known you werenât a native to the Shadow District when he met you, but he remembered you telling him that you had no family and the closest to family you had was Soonyoung.
He didnât have a reason to not believe you, it was just sex. It wasnât important at the time, and the subject of your family had been a sore spot for you. Now looking at this woman, her likeness to you, it made him wonder if you had lied to him.
âHow much longer do we have to be here?â Vernonâs bored tone tore Wonwoo from his thoughts, as well as his attention from the building to look in his direction to see he had lit another cigarette.
âIâm sorry, but do you have some other plans that you need to get to?â The words came out harsher than he intended, which earned a sneer from Vernon. âYou havenât shut the fuck up since we got here.â
âWell seeing as this shit keeps getting more complicated, not to mention the looming reality that Skyfall is kicking people out of their homes for whatever âredevelopmentâ bullshit they have going on. I would say that my bitching and lack of wanting to be on a fucking suicide mission is reasonable.â Vernon waved his hand toward Wonwoo. âI honestly donât see what this is supposed to accomplish having us fucking sit here? This place fucking stinks of fish and oil, and all thatâs going on is youâre taking pictures with that fuck ass eye of yours.â The laugh that left him was bitter. âThis surveillance we are doing isnât going to do shit for us when those fucking things are guarding this shit.â
âJihoon isnât holding a gun to your head to do this, you know that right? You donât have to be part of this.â
âNah, I rather get the credits.â This answer made Wonwoo roll his eyes, before shaking his head. âI am going to take off though. This shit doesnât need both of us.â Vernon then pushed off the set of boxes theyâd been perched on since early that morning and gave him a nod. âIâd say it was a pleasure, but you annoy the shit out of me, so bye.â
âYeah, go fuck yourself.â Despite the harsh words, the two did a weird handshake before Vernon was gone. Leaving Wonwoo to finish getting a few more shots and videos, and when he looked back to the building, he caught the woman had excited to go back to her car. As if she was able to feel his eyes on her, she looked in his direction and made eye contact with him.
Wonwoo had his face hidden pretty well, with a mask covering most of his face and his glasses covering the other half. His beanie and thick hood covered his hair, so she had no idea what he looked like, but it didnât feel that way with the way she looked at him. Like she knew exactly who he was.
He didnât look away either, taking several more photos of her with his eyes; ones of her head on. No longer caring what he was there for as the realization that she was someone to you, and from the similarities, family, hit him hard.
She then smirked at him before she slipped into the back of the car, letting the driver close the door behind her. Wonwoo didnât move, catching images of the plates of as the vehicle left the docks.
 Several blocks from the docks, you couldnât sleep no matter how hard you tried. After sex with Wonwoo didnât work, you tried to take a hot shower, drank some tea that you were saving, read, laid in silence, laid with a window open so you could hear the street below, but sleep still didnât happen. You ended up giving up and found yourself on the sofa, wrapped up in your boyfriendâs clothes that smelled like him, and Doodle laid on your lap purring softly.
The comforting feeling of his Wonwooâs clothes, his smell, and the soft purrs of your pet grounded you, but it didnât settle anything. You werenât sure if you wanted to scream and cry in despair and worry or throw and punch things in anger and rage. Nor were you sure where to direct it all.
At life. At your mother and Skyfall Industries. Or at yourself for making this worse by keeping this secret from Wonwoo as long as you did.
The knock at the door and Doodle rushing off the sofa in a panic startled you. The feline stopped once one the floor to look at the door, her eyes wide and pupils dilated in fear before disappearing when another knock came. Her reaction was unusual and didnât sit right with you as you slipped off the sofa.
When you reached the door, you cautiously looked through the peephole to see who was there, and your mouth went dry. Standing there was a woman with an annoyed and mildly disgusted look on her face and looked like she would rather be anywhere else. The sight of her stirred emotions that you remembered feeling every day growing up.
âI would recommend opening up.â She sighed as she adjusted her expensive designer bag onto her other arm. âI know you are there, and this is no way to treat your mother after all these years.â You didnât move, or say anything in response, that earned another sigh from her as she spoke your name. âI think it would be wise to open this door, or I will have my men pick up that boyfriend of yours for sniffing around the Factory.â
She knew that would get what she wanted when you ripped open the door with a snarl to your lips.
âYou touch him, and I will kill you without a second though.â You seethed to your uncaring mother, who just laughed and shook her head. âWhat do you want?â
âI wasnât going to be in the area and pass up a chance to see my daughter.â She pushed past you, her shoulder bumping against yours while she took in the sight of the small apartment. Her eyes moved from the old furniture to the run down cat tree in one corner of the living room, then to the small kitchen that had a few dishes in the sink before they landed on you. The look on her face the same judgmental one that you knew all too well. âI can see that you are putting your monthly allowance to good use.â
âWe both know I donât touch those credits. I donât need them.â
âOh, I am aware and sure you donât.â She waved you off, stopping herself from setting her bag down at the sight of Doodleâs cat hair. âThis place screams it.â
âYouâre not welcomed here.â You crossed your arms as you said this to her, trying to not visibly flinch when her sharp gaze turned on you. A look that reduced you back to that child she never thought was good enough. âNot in the Shadow District, and sure as hell not in my apartment.â
âSkyfall Industries owns the entire city, foolish girl. And as a member of the board of directors, I am welcome wherever I so please. And that includesâŠâ Your mother then gestured toward the apartment, gold cybernetic metal shining in the low light of your apartment. ââŠyour apartment.â
âGet the fuck out.â You snapped right before her hand connected with your cheek and your head jerked to the side. The metal on her hand sliced your cheek deep, drawing blood and a bruise was quick to follow.
âDonât you dare talk to me like that.â The older woman hissed, her anger turning palatable when you didnât move for a moment. Your eyes closed as you slowly breathed through your nose, trying to control the familiar shake that would come with this. That anger and fear toward this woman mixing inside you.
Fear tried to reduce you back to that girl that she once controlled near perfectly, and the anger reminded you of the person you had to become because of that control.
âWhy are you even here?â You asked coldly. The question was simple as you turned to look at her again, your hand slow to pull the hair that was stuck to the blood on your face. âThought no one wanted to touch the Shadow District. It didnât fit your project model for a perfect city. Needing a place to house the lower classes that would bring you your precious cybernetics.â
âYou are such a stupid child.â She didnât seem to care that your expression was dark and cold, or that you refused to wipe away the blood from your cut cheek. A dark bruise quickly formed around it from the force of the slap. Your fists clenched, with your anger started to take over and you had to fight to contain it. âIt was always in the plan, it was always going to be redeveloped, but considering that Iâm a generous motherâŠâ
âTo who?â You asked, your words venom, but she ignored you.
âI managed to keep the project at bay so you could have your little rebellious phase, let you playhouse with this one eye criminal before you finally came home and this place is bulldozed to the ground.â It was then that she reached out and cupped the cheek that she didnât strike, a soft smile playing over her lips. It was meant to be loving, and if you were still that little girl, youâd be tricked by it like always. âI held it off as long as I could but not only is this disgusting stain on the city getting the makeover it desperately needs. I finally can bring you back home.â
âHad it ever occurred to you that I donât want to go back? That my real phase was trying to be that perfect model child for you all those years, willing to do anything to earn your love, or your approval.â Your words caused that fake smile to crack, her hand dropping when you recoiled from her touch. âI am home, mom. This is my home, and that one eyed criminal is my family and have been for years. We actually love each other.â
âHe loves the lie that you fed him.â She responded, making you look at her in shock and confusion. âYou think I donât know? You donât think that I donât know that you been lying to him about who you are and where you came from? Buried me with your father.â
âDonât you dare bring Dad into this.â
âYou donât get to talk to me like that, or act like this life is so much better when itâs built on a lie.â Your mother smile then turned dangerous, and that left you rooted to the spot. âI thought I taught you better than this and actually feel bad for the pathetic fool.â
You watched as she opened a purse and pulled out an envelope. You knew what was inside it, an eviction notice.
âItâs time to end this foolishness and come back home. Your position is still waiting for you at Skyfall, and I have a lovely gentleman who is willing to look passed the⊠things you did while out here.â Her voice was smug as you took the envelope from her and she gestured to the apartment then to your appearance. Wonwooâs clothes, hair a mess, dark circles under your eyes, and the bruise she gave you. Your hand was still wrapped from when you cut it and trembled holding the envelope. âI mean, itâll be the only place you will have to go in thirty days. Which is more than what the rest of these people are being given.â
âYouâre not getting the Shadow District.â You told her with confidence. The laugh that left her would have left you terrified years ago, but now it only fueled the anger inside you. âWe wonât let you.â
âWho is this we? You? Your boyfriend and that little gang heâs part of? That fiend that fed your head with all that nonsense?â Smoothing out her suit, your mother regarded you. âYou donât have a choice in this matter. Itâs time to wake up and face reality, stupid girl. Your time for fun is up.â
âWe arenât going down without a fight.â
âOf course you will.â Her shoulder hit yours as she passed and made her way toward the apartment door. âItâs evitable. Just like your place at Skyfall with me.â
âI rather die than go back to any kind of life with you.â You yelled as your turned toward her and the door, only for your whole body to freeze. Because standing at the doorway was Wonwoo. His face was still covered so you could not see his expression, but by his posture, he had heard it all.
âLooks like I should be expecting you back sooner.â Her satisfactory tone in her voice made you feel sick and that anger building turned to deep rage.
You lunged toward her, a high pitch angry cry ripping through you, but Wonwoo was already there to pull you back. Holding you to him as you thrashed in his arms, wanting to wrap your hands around your motherâs throat.
With a final look of satisfaction, your mother clothes the door behind her. Leaving you to continue to struggle to free yourself from your boyfriendâs arms, the tears that had been burning behind your eyes finally broke through.
Your mother was sorely mistaken if she thought she could snap her fingers and you would fall in line easily. You werenât the same person as you were all those years ago, and you werenât going to leave Wonwoo or the life you had.
And you sure as hell wonât let them take the Shadow District.
hellloooo~ its been a while𫣠im going to let you in on a secret... this has been in my drafts since last yearđ it was suppposed to be the bday special last year but i ended up writing another one, then i thought why not post it now. just full of cuteness and fluffs, hope you like it!
to my luckiest charm, my buldak loving, my jeon wonwoo, i hope all good things come to you. be happy always, happy birthday unođ€
A space filled with glowing monitors, neatly arranged figurines, and the soft hum of his gaming setup. Youâve always loved how focused he looks when heâs streaming, the way his glasses slightly slide down his nose as he leans toward the screen, completely engrossed in the game.
Heâs live right now, his calm voice carrying through the slightly ajar door, chatting with his viewers. You tiptoe inside, careful not to disrupt his flow, a small tray of snacks in your hands. His viewers know about you but have never seen you. heâs protective that way. But you love these little interruptions, these secret moments that are yours alone to witness.
You place the tray quietly on his desk, just out of view of the camera. Wonwoo notices immediately, his lips twitching into a subtle smile as he mutes his mic for a moment. âThanks, love,â he murmurs, his tone so soft it makes your heart flutter.
Before he can unmute, you lean down, pressing a quick kiss to his cheek. His ears turn red instantly, but he plays it off like a pro, his fingers never leaving the keyboard
The chat, though, picks up on everything
âDid he just smile?!â
âThe girlfriend energy is real.â
âHeâs blushing. We saw that.â
You giggle silently, watching as Wonwoo clears his throat and tries to focus. But youâre not done yet. Looping your arms around his shoulders, you press a feather-light kiss to the corner of his lips this time.
He freezes for half a second, his character taking a hit in the game, and you stifle a laugh
âY/NâŠâ he whispers, a mix of exasperation and affection in his voice
You just grin, slipping out of the room before he can say more.
Curiosity gets the best of you as you cozy up on the couch with your phone. Wonwooâs stream is still going, but youâve tuned in now not for the gameplay, but for the aftermath of your little interruption.
The chat is in full-blown chaos
âHeâs so soft when he talks about her. Weâre all just third-wheeling.â
âSHE BROUGHT HIM SNACKS?? Marriage material. Period.â
âDid anyone else see him freeze for like half a second? That kiss hit DIFFERENT.â
âWONWOO BLUSHING IS MY NEW FAVORITE THING.â
You canât help but laugh softly, biting your lip as you scroll through. Wonwooâs viewers are sharpâthey donât miss a single detail. Some are spamming heart emojis, while others are typing theories about how you mustâve kissed him again since he looked extra flustered for a few moments.
You spot one comment that makes you snort
âLegend says sheâs the reason he canât aim today.â
Wonwooâs voice cuts through the stream, his tone steady but tinged with a softness only you can detect. âYou guys are imagining things,â he says, adjusting his glasses like itâll somehow hide the faint blush still dusting his cheeks.
The chat erupts:
âWE SAW IT, WONWOO. DONâT LIE.â
âManâs trying to act cool, but we all know heâs whipped.â
âCan you blame him? She seems perfect.â
You feel your heart swell at the kindness of his community. Theyâve always been so respectful, never prying too much, but itâs clear they adore seeing this softer side of him.
Still smiling, you type a quick comment from your anonymous account:
âHeâs lucky to have her, but I bet she feels just as lucky.â
The chat agrees instantly, flooding the stream with affirmations. Wonwoo chuckles, as if heâs seen your comment and knows itâs you. âYeah,â he murmurs, almost too quietly for the mic to pick up, âI really am lucky.â
And just like that, youâre blushing too.
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GAMEBOI EP.18
You didnât realize Wonwoo was streaming when you wandered into his gaming room. Heâd been spending more time at his desk lately, and you missed having him to yourself. So, without much thought, you pushed open the door, spotting him seated comfortably in his chair, headset on, fingers flying across the keyboard.
He looked so effortlessly handsome that you couldnât resist. You padded over quietly, and before he could react, you slid onto his lap, straddling him, your arms draping around his shoulders. His hands faltered on the keyboard for half a second before they steadied again.
âHey,â you murmured, pressing a quick kiss to his cheek, not noticing the faint red light of his camera indicating he was live
Wonwooâs lips quirked into a small smile, his gaze darting between you and his monitor. He moved his mic slightly to the side, speaking low enough so only you could hear.
âIâm streaming right now.â
Your eyes widened in surprise, but before you could scramble off, he rested a hand lightly on your waist, holding you in place
âItâs fine,â he murmured, his voice calm and reassuring
The chat, of course, noticed immediately
âDid someone just sit on his lap?!â
âWonwoo is too calm for this. Iâd be losing my mind.â
You buried your face in his shoulder, embarrassed, as he adjusted his glasses and continued playing
âJust my girlfriend,â he said smoothly, his tone as casual as if he were discussing the weather âSheâs comfy, so sheâs staying.â
The chat exploded
âJust his girlfriend??? SIR??â
âWeâre all just gonna pretend that didnât happen???â
âHE REALLY SAID SHEâS STAYING. DEAD.â
You peeked over your shoulder at the chat, your back still to the camera, and stifled a laugh. Wonwoo caught the sound and smiled, one hand subtly rubbing soothing circles against your side.
âWhat? Sheâs cute,â he added, his voice nonchalant but laced with affection âCanât exactly say no.â
The chat was a mix of chaos and adoration
âTheyâre too cute. Iâm crying.â
âWonwooâs girlfriend is living the dream.â
âHeâs too calm for this. WHIPPED.â
You whispered against his neck âYouâre gonna regret letting me stay here.â
Wonwoo tilted his head slightly to look at you, his expression soft
âNever,â he murmured, loud enough for only you to hear
And so, you stayed, perfectly content in his lap, while his chat buzzed with endless speculation and envy over how effortlessly lucky the two of you seemed.
As you stay nestled comfortably on Wonwooâs lap, his calm demeanor makes you almost forget that heâs still live. That is, until his eyes flicker to the chat, and a faint smirk begins to tug at his lips.
âTheyâre having a field day,â he murmurs, his voice low and amused as he scrolls through the comments
You lean slightly to the side to sneak a glance at the chat, still careful to keep your back to the camera. What you see makes you stifle a laugh.
âHeâs literally the calmest man alive. HOW??â
âWonwooâs girlfriend is living rent-free in my dreams right now.â
âSheâs not even on camera, and theyâre this cute. I canât take it.â
âSir, please blink twice if youâre okay.â
âBlink twice, huh?â Wonwoo says, reading that one out loud with a small chuckle. He glances at the camera and, for dramatic effect, blinks twice. âThere. Satisfied?â
The chat goes wild.
You press your forehead against his shoulder, laughing quietly. âTheyâre obsessed,â you whisper, teasing him.
âYou think?â he replies, his hand resting lightly on your waist as he continues to read âTheyâve got good taste.â
You swat at his chest playfully, but he doesnât miss a beat âSomeone said youâre living rent-free in their dreams,â he says, his tone laced with humor. âShould I be jealous?â
âOh, absolutely,â you quip back, matching his energy
He smirks, glancing down at you briefly âIâll allow itâfor now.â
The chat catches on immediately
âWHY IS HE SO SMUG?!â
âWonwoo, donât act like youâre not living the dream too.â
âThis is relationship goals to the max.â
Wonwoo leans closer to the mic, his tone teasing as he addresses his audience âYou guys really want hints, huh? Well, hereâs one: sheâs cuter than all of you combined.â
Your jaw drops at his boldness, and you lightly smack his shoulder, your cheeks burning. The chat explodes.
âSTOP, I CANâT HANDLE THIS.â
âHEâS SO WHIPPED. I LOVE THIS FOR HIM.â
âWonwoo, PLEASE teach me your ways.â
You laugh against his shoulder, shaking your head at how effortlessly he handles everything. âYouâre impossible,â you whisper, but thereâs no real bite to your words
âAnd youâre stuck with me,â he murmurs back, his voice warm and steady, as the chat continues its collective meltdown.
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GAMEBOI EP.19
Wonwoo leans back in his chair, adjusting his headset as he addresses the chat. âAlright, weâre doing a short Q&A today,â he announces, his calm voice carrying a faint hint of amusement
âBut judging by the chat already, I think I know where this is going.â
The messages flooding in confirm his suspicion
âTELL US ABOUT HER!â
âWhatâs your favorite thing about your girlfriend?â
âHow did you meet her?â
âWhen is she making her debut?â
Wonwoo chuckles, pushing his glasses up
âYou guys are really persistent, huh? Fine, Iâll answer a few questions about her but donât expect too much. Gotta keep some things private.â
The chat erupts with excitement.
The first question he picks catches him off guard
âHow did we meet?â he reads aloud. He smiles softly, clearly fond of the memory
âWe met through mutual friends. She wasnât really into gaming at the time, but somehow, we ended up talking about it anyway. I think I managed to convince her I was interesting.â
Youâre watching the stream from the other room, smiling to yourself as you hear his calm and collected tone.
Another question pops up, and Wonwoo reads it with a faint blush. ââWhatâs your favorite thing about her?ââ He hesitates for a moment, his gaze dropping to his desk before he smiles. âThatâs hard to answer because thereâs too much to choose from. But if I had to pick one⊠itâs probably how she makes everything feel easy. Like, no matter how stressful the day is, she has this way of making me feel calm.â
The chat immediately floods with heart emojis
âOMG STOP, THATâS SO SWEET.â
âWonwoo is too soft for this world.â
âTheyâre definitely soulmates. Iâm crying.â
He clears his throat, clearly a little shy from how emotional heâs getting
âNext question.â
ââWill she ever show up on stream?ââ He smirks at this one
âProbably not. She likes keeping things private, and I respect that. But who knows? Maybe youâll get another random cameo like last time.â
The final question he picks makes him laugh outright ââDoes she game with you?ââ
He shakes his head âNot really. She says Iâm too competitive, but sheâll sit next to me and give commentary. Itâs entertaining, even if she doesnât realize it.â
The chat loves it.
âSheâs a queen, clearly.â
âThe way he talks about her is so soft.â
âWe need her commentary one day, please.â
Wonwoo glances at the camera, his expression warm âAlright, thatâs enough about her for now. Sheâll get a big head if she knows how much I talk about her.â
You roll your eyes, watching as the chat explodes in protests. He ends the Q&A with a knowing smile, saying, âThanks for indulging me, though. Iâm glad you guys like her as much as I do.â
And just like that, the chat turns into a mix of swooning and playful jealousy, but all you can do is grin, feeling incredibly lucky to have someone who loves you so openly, even if itâs mostly behind the scenes.
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GAMEBOI EP. 20
The idea caught you off guard when Wonwoo asked, âWanna play with me on stream?â His tone was casual, but you could see the glimmer of hope in his eyes.
You hesitated for a moment before agreeing, on one condition: you wouldnât be on camera
âDeal,â he said, a soft smile tugging at his lips âBut you better carry the team.â
You laughed at that âYou know Iâm terrible at this game, right?â
Now, sitting beside him in his gaming room, you had a controller in hand, your nerves barely contained as his stream began. Wonwoo was in his usual calm, composed mode, greeting his viewers like he always did.
âAlright, weâre doing something different today,â he announced, his voice steady âIâve got a special guest playing with me.â
The chat immediately picked up on it
âWait, is it HER???â
âOMG, SHEâS PLAYING?â
âWeâve been blessed. The queen has arrived.â
You could feel your face heating up, even though no one could see you. âDo they always hype things up this much?â you whispered
Wonwoo chuckled, muting his mic for a second to glance at you. âGet used to it. Theyâre like this every time I mention you.â
Once the game started, you tried your best to keep up, but your clumsy movements and inability to aim properly became painfully obvious. It didnât help that the chat was fully invested in your gameplay.
âSheâs adorable, I just know it.â
âIs she new to the game? Wonwoo, help her out!â
âTHIS IS THE CUTEST STREAM EVER.â
Wonwoo was the perfect balance of supportive and teasing. âYouâve got this,â he said whenever you struggled. And when you accidentally ran straight into an enemy, he couldnât help but laugh softly âWell, thatâs⊠one strategy, I guess.â
âHey!â you protested, pouting as you respawned. âIâm trying!â
Eventually, you managed to get a single kill, and Wonwoo clapped softly, genuinely impressed. âLook at you,â he teased. âA natural-born gamer.â
You rolled your eyes. âI think I just got lucky.â
âYou mean we got lucky,â he said smoothly, glancing at the chat as it collectively melted
By the end of the stream, you were exhausted but couldnât stop smiling.
As Wonwoo wrapped up, he leaned into the mic âThanks for being nice to her, guys. She did great, didnât she?â
The chat agreed wholeheartedly
âSheâs amazing! Bring her back!â
âStream of the year. We need more.â
âWonwoo and his girlfriend are goals.â
He muted the mic for a moment, turning to you with a proud smile âTold you theyâd love you.â
You grinned, leaning your head against his shoulder âI guess Iâll play with you again sometime⊠but donât expect miracles.â
âDonât worry,â he said softly, his voice just for you. âYouâre my favorite teammate, no matter what.â
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GAMEBOI EP. 21
It started as a simple taskâhelping Wonwoo reorganize his game room. The two of you spent hours sorting through cables, lining up monitors, and adjusting shelves. It was fun in its own way, especially since heâd sneak in a kiss or two every time you passed by him.
While rummaging through a box of his old gear, you pulled out a sleek mechanical keyboard. The pastel-colored keycaps immediately caught your eye, but what hooked you was the sound. As soon as you pressed one of the keys, a soft, melodic âclickâ echoed, and your face lit up.
âThis is so cute!â you exclaimed, pressing a few more keys just to hear the satisfying sound
Wonwoo looked up from where he was sorting controllers, a small smile playing on his lips âYou like that one?â
âI love it,â you said, grinning as you continued typing nonsense, the sounds filling the room âItâs so fun to press.â
He chuckled, walking over to take a closer look âThat oneâs been sitting in storage for a while. I didnât know youâd like it so much.â
You pouted at him playfully âWhy donât you use it anymore?â
âIt doesnât match my current setup,â he explained, but his expression softened as he watched you happily tapping away âYou can use it if you want, though.â
You waved him off âItâs fine! I donât need a keyboardâI donât even have a setup to use it with. But this oneâs adorable.â
Wonwoo didnât say much after that, just smiled knowingly and went back to organizing.
A few days later, he called you into the gaming room. You stepped inside to find a brand-new keyboard sitting on the desk, nearly identical to the one youâd fallen in love with, but customized just for you. The keycaps were a mix of soft pastel shades, and the switches made that same delightful click you adored.
Your jaw dropped âBaby, did youâŠ?â
âI figured you should have your own,â he said casually, leaning against the desk with his arms crossed but the slight blush on his cheeks betrayed his nonchalant tone
âYou kept talking about how cute it was, so⊠here.â
You rushed over, wrapping your arms around him tightly âThis is the sweetest thing ever. Thank you!â
He laughed, returning your embrace âYouâre welcome. Now you can pretend to game with me whenever you want.â
You pulled back, grinning âWho says Iâm pretending? This keyboardâs going to make me a pro.â
The chat during his next stream couldnât stop talking about the faint sound of your keyboard clicks in the background, further solidifying your place as their favorite off-camera addition to Wonwooâs world.
Wonwoo was in the middle of one of his usual chill streams, chatting with his viewers while casually clicking through his gameâs menus.
You were sitting beside him, happily typing away on your new pastel mechanical keyboard. Every now and then, heâd glance at you, a small smile tugging at his lips whenever he heard the familiar clicks.
At some point, you nudged him gently, grinning
âHey,â you whispered, leaning closer âCan I show them my new keyboard?â
He raised an eyebrow, amused âYou want to?â
You nodded enthusiastically, and he chuckled, turning back to his mic âAlright, so⊠she wants to show you something.â
The chat immediately erupted
âWAIT, SHEâS HERE??â
âSHOW US, QUEEN!â
âWE FINALLY GET TO HEAR HER???â
Wonwoo muted his mic for a second and turned to you, his expression soft âYou can stay off camera. Just hold it up in front of mine, okay?â
âGot it,â you said, your voice full of excitement
He unmuted, and you carefully leaned over, holding your new keyboard up so it appeared on his screen, just above his handcam. The pastel colors gleamed under the soft lighting, and your fingers tapped a few keys, letting the viewers hear the satisfying clicks.
âOMG ITâS SO CUTE!!!â
âSHE HAS THE SAME VIBES AS HIM, I SWEAR.â
âTHOSE CLICKS. I NEED THAT KEYBOARD.â
Wonwoo smirked, clearly enjoying the reaction âYeah, I got that for her. Sheâs been obsessed with it ever since.â
You laughed softly, your voice reaching his mic âHow could I not? Itâs perfect!â
Your hands lingered in the frame for a moment longer before you pulled the keyboard back to your lap, laughing as the comments kept flooding in. âTheyâre so dramatic,â you whispered to Wonwoo.
âThey always are,â he replied, his tone fond. Turning back to the stream, he added âAlright, thatâs all you get. Sheâs shy.â
You rolled your eyes, nudging him playfully, but the warmth in his tone made your heart swell.
As he continued chatting with his viewers, you stayed by his side, quietly typing away, your keyboardâs clicks filling the background. And if he occasionally glanced at you with the softest smile? Well, that was just for you.
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GAMEBOI EP.22
The moment you walked into the computer parts store with Wonwoo, your eyes lit up at the sheer number of shiny, colorful gadgets around you. It was like stepping into a candy store but for tech you didnât understand.
Wonwoo had come prepared with a list and a clear purpose, but it was quickly derailed the moment you started wandering off âOoh, look at this!â you exclaimed, holding up a pastel pink mouse from one of the shelves.
He glanced at you, amused âThatâs a gaming mouse. Do you even know what DPI is?â
âNot a clue,â you said proudly, âbut itâs cute, right?â
He laughed, shaking his head âYeah, itâs cute.â
You put the mouse in the cart with zero hesitation, earning another chuckle from him âYou know weâre here to buy parts for my setup, not to make yours prettier, right?â
âBut whatâs the point of a setup if itâs not cute?â you countered, already wandering off to another aisle
Every few minutes, youâd come back to him holding something pastel or RGB-lit âBabe, look at this fan! It lights up!â you said, spinning the blades
âThatâs an RGB fan,â he explained patiently, trying not to laugh at how excited you looked
âDo you need it?â
âI already have better ones,â he said, gently taking it from your hands. But youâre adorable for trying.â
Not long after, you found a pastel purple keyboard and rushed over to him âThis matches my mouse! Can Iââ
âYes,â he said before you could even finish, grinning âJust put it in the cart.â
You blinked âYouâre not even going to argue?â
âWhy would I? Youâre clearly having the time of your life.â
The rest of the trip continued in the same way, with you picking up random items like cute cable organizers, a pastel monitor stand, and even a mousepad with tiny hearts on it. Wonwoo didnât complain once, just followed you around with the cart, his smile growing wider every time you lit up at something new.
By the time you reached the checkout, the cart was a mix of his practical parts and your colorful additions
âYouâre really letting me get all this?â you asked, slightly guilty but mostly excited
He shrugged, his tone casual but affectionate
âItâs worth it to see you this happy.â
As you leaned up to kiss his cheek, Wonwoo couldnât help but think how easy it was to spoil you. Sure, his gaming setup wasnât going to match with all the pastel youâd picked out, but he didnât care. Seeing you this excited? That was worth more than any high-tech upgrade.
Wonwooâs next stream started like any otherhis calm voice greeting the chat as he settled into his chair, adjusting his headset. Except this time, you were sitting beside him, just out of the cameraâs view, quietly unboxing all the cute, pastel-colored items youâd convinced him to buy during your trip to the computer store.
About fifteen minutes in, the chat picked up on something.
He glanced at you, smirking âTheyâre already asking about you,â he said softly, leaning closer to his mic âWanna show them what you bought?â
You hesitated for a second before grinning âOnly if you introduce it properly,â you teased, nudging his arm
Wonwoo chuckled, shaking his head âAlright, guys. She went on a pastel shopping spree, and sheâs way too excited to show it off. But sheâs staying off-camera, so donât get your hopes up.â
Sliding into the frame, you held up the pastel pink mouse first âTa-da! Isnât it cute?â you said, your voice light with excitement as you turned it so the camera caught all the angles
Next, you grabbed the pastel purple keyboard and tapped a few keys, letting the soft, satisfying clicks echo through his mic
âThis is my favorite,â you said proudly âIt matches the mouse!â
The chat was eating it up.
âTHE KEYBOARD IS PERFECT.â
âShe really went full pastel gamer, huh?â
âWonwoo, youâre gonna have to build her a whole setup now.â
One by one, you showed off the rest of your haul: the pastel monitor stand, the tiny heart-patterned mousepad, and even the cute cable organizers. Every time you held something up, the chat flooded with compliments and playful comments.
At one point, someone asked: âWonwoo, how much of this trip was her idea?â
âAll of it,â he replied immediately, smiling as he glanced at you âBut I didnât mind. She was like a kid in a candy store. How could I say no?â
You playfully elbowed him, making him laugh even harder âYouâre making me sound so dramatic!â
âBecause you were,â he teased. âBut it was adorable.â
By the time you finished showing off everything, the chat was begging for more appearances from you. You shook your head, laughing
âThis is Wonwooâs stream, not mine!â
He leaned into his mic, his tone soft but playful
âMaybe for now. But if she keeps this up, sheâs gonna have a better setup than me.â
The chat exploded with laughter and agreement, and as you sat back beside him, quietly typing on your new keyboard, Wonwoo couldnât stop smiling. It was a simple, silly moment, but to himâand his viewersâit was perfect.
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GAMEBOI EP. 23
During one of Wonwooâs chill streams, he suddenly leaned back in his chair, a teasing smirk tugging at his lips. âSo, I found something funny the other day,â he began, glancing at the chat
âDo you guys want to see a video of my girlfriend struggling to help me set up this chair?â
âYESSS PLEASE!â
âWe love her content already.â
âWonwoo, donât expose her like this!â
He chuckled, reaching for his mouse âDonât worry, her face isnât in itâjust her voice. But trust me, itâs worth it.â
As he clicked play, the video popped up on stream. The camera was propped up on a desk, capturing the scene of a partially assembled gaming chair and your hands fumbling with a screwdriver.
In the clip, your voice rang out, frustrated but determined
âWait, waitâwhat do I do with this screw? It doesnât fit! Are you sure this is the right one?â
Wonwooâs voice came from behind the camera, calm and amused âYes, itâs the right one. You just need to turn it the other way.â
âI am turning it the other way!â you huffed, the sound of the screwdriver slipping making him laugh behind the camera
âYouâre turning it the same way,â he corrected, his tone dripping with laughter
âWonwoo, I swear, if youâre filming this right nowââ
The clip ended with you groaning dramatically while he laughed, and the chat absolutely exploded
âSHEâS SO CUTE OMG.â
âThe frustration in her voice is sending me LOL.â
âWonwoo, youâre a menace for recording this.â
Wonwoo leaned back, grinning as he read the comments
âYeah, she was so mad when she realized I filmed it,â he admitted, his voice fond âBut she eventually got the screw in. She just⊠needed a little extra guidance.â
You yelled from the other room, loud enough for the mic to pick up: âI got it in all by myself, thank you very much!â
Wonwoo laughed, turning his head slightly toward where you were sitting off-camera âDo you want to defend yourself, or are you going to let me keep telling my version of the story?â
âI donât need to defend myself,â you called back âThe chairâs standing, isnât it?â
He turned back to the camera, shaking his head but smiling warmly
âSheâs not wrong. The chairâs perfect. But man, that setup process was something else.â
The chat kept teasing both of you for the rest of the stream, and Wonwoo couldnât stop grinning. He didnât even care if they joked at his expense. it was worth it, just to share a little piece of your chaotic, everyday moments with his viewers.
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GAMEBOI EP.24
Wonwoo was mid-stream, fully immersed in his game, when the chat suddenly noticed something. His posture stiffened slightly, and a small smile tugged at the corner of his lipsâa telltale sign that something was happening off-camera.
The viewers were quick to pick up on it.
âSHEâS THERE AGAIN, ISNâT SHE?â
âItâs koala time, guys.â
âWonwoo looks like heâs bracing for something LOL.â
And sure enough, a moment later, you appeared in the frame, just slightly out of view, your arms looping around his shoulders as you leaned into him
âBabyâ you murmured, your voice soft and sleepy
He glanced at you briefly before returning his focus to the screen âYou okay?â he asked, though his tone was already filled with fondness
âMhm. Just wanted cuddles,â you mumbled, wrapping yourself around him like a koala. Your legs dangled over the side of his chair as you clung to him, your face buried in the crook of his neck.
Wonwoo smiled slightly, his free arm instinctively wrapping around your waist to steady you. âYouâre gonna make me lose this match,â he teased, though there was no real complaint in his voice
âI donât mind,â you replied, your voice muffled against his shoulder
He let out a soft laugh, shaking his head. âChat, this is my life now. Iâm trying to carry a team, and sheâs over here trying to turn me into a human pillow.â
âPillow privileges only for her!â
âSheâs living the dream.â
âWonwooâs so whipped, itâs adorable.â
Eventually, the game ended, and he leaned back slightly, giving you a chance to reposition. âYou good now?â he asked, looking at you with a playful smile
You shook your head, clinging tighter âNope. Still need more cuddles.â
He sighed dramatically, though the grin on his face gave him away. âGuess Iâm not going anywhere then,â he said, turning back to the chat
âSorry, guys, looks like Iâm stuck here.â
The chat erupted with laughter and affection, fully entertained by your antics. And as Wonwoo continued his stream, your arms stayed securely around him, your presence as comforting to him as it was chaotic.
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GAMEBOI EP.25
Wonwoo decided to do something special for his birthday streamâa long, cozy session until midnight. His viewers were thrilled, and the chat was buzzing with excitement, sending him birthday wishes and teasing him about how he was spending his special day with them instead of celebrating offline.
As the clock ticked closer to midnight, Wonwoo glanced at the time with a subtle smile, clearly anticipating something. "Alright, guys," he said, leaning back in his chair
"I think it's about time to wrap things up soon. But before we go, I have a little surprise for you."
The chat erupted.
âWHAT SURPRISE???â
âDonât play with us, Wonwoo!â
âYouâre really gonna make this stream legendary, arenât you?â
Just as the clock struck 12, you appeared from behind him, holding a small cupcake with a single candle lit.
"Happy birthday, Wonwoo!" you said softly, your voice warm and full of love.
Wonwoo turned his chair slightly, giving the viewers a brief glimpse of you as you leaned down to give him a quick kiss. The moment was fleetingâyour smile, the cupcake, and your kissâbut it was enough to send the chat into a frenzy
âSHEâS REAL OMG.â
âThe mystery girlfriend REVEALED!â
âHappy birthday, Wonwoo, but also WE LOVE HER!â
You set the cupcake down on his desk, grinning as you stepped back out of frame. "Alright, Iâm out of hereâdonât let them roast me too much," you joked, your voice teasing
Wonwoo chuckled, his ears turning pink as he adjusted his headset
"Thanks, love," he said softly, his tone full of affection. Turning back to his stream, he faced the camera with a shy but happy smile
"So⊠thatâs my girlfriend. She wanted to wish me happy birthday."
âWeâre simping for both of you now.â
âWonwoo blushing is everything.â
âThat was the CUTEST moment ever.â
He spent the next few minutes reading the flood of comments, thanking everyone for their birthday wishes, and promising not to turn his stream into a full-on romantic comedy.
But the way his smile lingered even after you left the room made it clear just how much that little moment meant to him and to everyone watching.
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GAMEBOI EP. 26
Wonwoo decided to dedicate a stream to reading fan letters from his email, something he hadn't done in a while. You sat beside him, off-camera as always, but he had asked you to join in. "Itâs more fun reading these with you," he had said earlier, convincing you.
As the stream began, he adjusted his mic and addressed his viewers
âSo, todayâs stream is a little different. Iâm going to be reading some of the fan letters you guys sent to my email. And, uh⊠sheâs here to help me.â He motioned toward you off-frame
âSHEâS BACK???â
âCOUPLE STREAM PART 2 LETâS GO!â
âRead her the cute ones, Wonwoo!â
You laughed softly âHi, everyone. Thanks for letting me crash your stream again.â
Wonwoo opened the first email, smiling as he scanned the words
âOkay, this oneâs sweet. They said they started watching me during a tough time, and my streams helped them feel less alone.â He paused, his voice warm âThatâs⊠really nice to hear.â
You leaned closer to read over his shoulder. âAww, thatâs so touching. Whoever wrote this, youâre amazing for sharing that,â you said sincerely
As the stream went on, Wonwoo read a mix of funny and heartfelt letters.
One fan shared how they accidentally spilled coffee on their keyboard while watching his gameplay, prompting you to laugh.
âSee? Thatâs why I donât keep drinks near my setup"
He shot you a playful look âThatâs because you spill everything.â
âHey!â you protested, lightly nudging him, which only made the chat explode
Finally, Wonwoo opened an email that made both of you pause. The fan had written a long message thanking him for being so genuine and mentioning how they admired the love and support they could sense between the two of you.
He glanced at you, a soft smile on his face âThatâs⊠really sweet.â
You nodded, your voice gentle âItâs nice knowing people notice the little things. Whoever wrote this, thank you.â
âTHEYâRE SO IN LOVE HELP.â
âThis stream is making me believe in love again.â
âWe need more streams like this!â
As the stream wrapped up, Wonwoo thanked his viewers, his voice filled with gratitude
âThanks for all your letters and for always supporting me. And thanks to her for joining me. You make this even better.â
You smiled, nudging him again playfully. âAlright, donât get too mushy on stream.â
As Wonwoo wrapped up the main part of reading fan letters, you couldnât help but notice a recurring theme in the chat. Fans were flooding the comments with questions about your relationship. You glanced at him, raising a brow. âYou seeing these?â
He laughed, scratching the back of his neck. âYeah, I see them. Do you want to answer a few?â
âYES PLEASE!â
âTell us the love story!â
âThis is what weâve been waiting for!â
You hesitated for a moment before shrugging
âOkay, just a few. Keep it simple, though.â
Wonwoo smirked, scrolling through the chat âAlright, hereâs a classic one: âHow did you two meet?ââ
You chuckled "We met through mutual friends at a small get-together. I didnât even know who he was at first.just thought he was the quiet guy sitting in the corner with a really nice smile.â
He grinned, glancing at you âAnd I thought she was the most interesting person in the room. She kept asking me random questions, and I couldnât stop talking to her.â
Wonwoo picked another question. âOkay, next: âWhere was your first date?ââ
Wonwoo chuckled âYeah, we didnât even notice the time. I remember she was so excited about the book sections, and she kept showing me things like, âLook at this! Isnât it cool?ââ
âI want a bookstore date nowâŠâ
âWonwoo, youâre setting unrealistic standards!â
âDid you buy her a book that day?â
Wonwoo smirked at the last comment âActually, I did. I still remember the title"
You laughed âAnd I still have it, thank you very much.â
He scanned the chat again âLast one: âWhatâs your favorite thing to do together?ââ
You thought for a moment before answering
âHonestly? Just spending time together doing random thingsâlike this. Whether itâs customizing keyboards, trying out games, or just sitting around talking, itâs always fun.â
Wonwoo nodded in agreement âYeah, same. I donât think it matters what weâre doing as long as itâs with her.â
The chat erupted with heart emojis and comments
âGet you a love like this.â
âThe way they talk about each other is everything.â
âThis is why we stan Wonwoo AND his girlfriend.â
After answering a few more light questions, you decided to let Wonwoo take over again. âOkay, thatâs enough about us. Back to your regularly scheduled programming,â you joked, waving off-camera
Wonwoo smiled at the camera. âThanks for letting her join in, guys. I think she liked it more than sheâll admit.â
You playfully swatted his arm as the chat filled with laughter and love for both of you.
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GAMEBOI EP.27
The stream starts with a soft, familiar hum of music and the sound of Wonwoo adjusting his mic. The chat immediately lights up with excitement as he finally appears on screen, his signature calm smile gracing his face.
âHEâS BACK!!â
âWonwoo we missed you so much!!â
âITâS BEEN TOO LONG!!â
Wonwoo waves at the camera, his voice warm but slightly shy
âHey, everyone. Itâs been a while, huh? I missed you all too.â
He leans back in his chair, taking a deep breath. âFirst of all, thank you for being so patient. A lot happened over the past couple of months, and I wanted to take some time to just focus on life⊠and on someone really specialâ
His smile grows, and his eyes flicker off-camera for a second, as if acknowledging your presence.
âIS SHE THERE?!â
âOMG ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT HER??â
âLIFE UPDATE PLEASE.â
Wonwoo chuckles softly, rubbing the back of his neck.
âOkay, okay, so⊠some of you mightâve guessed, but yes, sheâs been a big part of whatâs been happening. We went on a little vacation recently,a much-needed one. And, wellâŠâ He pauses, then you suddenly popped up from the side, well... your hand did to show the faintest glint of a ring
âWAIT WHAT?!â
âOMG OMG OMG!!!â
âARE YOU SAYING WHAT I THINK YOUâRE SAYING?!â
He laughs, his cheeks slightly pink âYeah, I proposed. And she said yes.â
Even though you're off-camera, the faint sound of your laugh can be heard, and it makes the chat lose their minds even more
âCONGRATS OMG!!!â
âWE KNEW IT!!â
âThis is the best comeback ever.â
Wonwoo looks genuinely touched by the overwhelming support.
âThank you, really. I wanted to make sure everything was perfect before I came back. The past few months have been some of the happiest of my life, and Iâm really grateful I got to spend that time with her.â
He glances off-camera again, this time with a small smirk
âSheâs here, by the way. But donât worry, sheâs staying off-camera today⊠unless she wants to say hi?â
You laugh softly before leaning closer to the mic
"Hi, everyone. Thanks for being so sweet to him and to us. And yes, the ring is very pretty.â
âSHEâS HERE!!!â
âWE NEED A RING CAM!â
âWonwoo youâre one lucky guy.â
Wonwoo chuckles, shaking his head
âAlright, enough about me. Letâs get back to what weâre here for: gaming. But seriously, thank you all for your supportâit means a lot to both of us.â
As the stream goes on, the mood stays light and happy, with occasional comments from you off-camera and the chat constantly celebrating your engagement. Itâs the perfect comeback, full of love, laughter, and warmth.
As Wonwoo continues chatting with his viewers, you canât resist chiming in from the background. Your voice rings out in a playful, teasing tone
âI finally said yes, guys. Took him long enough.â
Wonwoo lets out an exaggerated sigh, rolling his eyes
âSheâs not gonna let me live this down, huh?â
The chat explodes with laughter
âSHEâS SO FUNNY.â
âI CANâT BELIEVE SHE SAID YES TO HIM AFTER ALL THAT TIME.â
âHonestly, I wouldâve made him work harder for it.â
You lean in a little closer to the mic, just loud enough for everyone to hear. âOh, donât get me wrong, he had to earn it. I mean, the ringâs nice, but the real question is...did he pass the âHow to Survive My Cookingâ test?â
Wonwoo laughs, holding up his hands in mock defense âAlright, Iâm just gonna pretend I didnât hear that.â
âHer cooking is that bad?â
âThe real test of love.â
âWonwoo deserves an award for surviving that.â
You smirk from off-camera âIâm just saying, if he survived the spicy noodle incident, he deserves a medal.â
Wonwoo shakes his head, smiling fondly at the camera. âOkay, okay, thatâs enough teasing for one stream. Weâve got a game to play, but Iâm just really happy to be back with you all. And to be with her⊠even if she makes fun of me all the time.â
You canât help but laugh softly in the background
âWhat can I say? Iâm the best part of this comeback.â
The chat is in full celebration mode now, with messages of congratulations mixed with requests for more jokes and stories from you
âI love their dynamic so much!â
âTheyâre a power couple. Period.â
âPlease never stop teasing each other.â
Wonwoo glances at you again with a soft smile âI wouldnât dream of it.â
Summary: In the opulent kingdom of Hesperos, Jeon Wonwoo, the humble baker's son, is pulled into a life of service when the unconventional Princess Y/N arranges for him to become a Page at age eight. Bound by duty, Wonwoo works his way up through the ranks, his childhood promise evolving into the fierce, silent protection of a knight. As adults, their inseparable closeness deepens into a fierce, unspoken love. However, the political demands of the crown intervene when Y/N is forced to accept an arranged marriage, leaving Knight Wonwoo torn between his sacred vow of Honor to the kingdom and his desperate, hidden devotion to the Princess he swore to protect.
A/N: not BETAD. So any mistakes are my fault đđ«Ą
The Realm of Celestra in the Kingdom of Hesperos. 1532.
Jeon Wonwoo had always been a caring person.
Especially when it came to people he loved. Everyone around the village knew him as the baker's boy. The one who would hand out stale bread at the end of the day, the one who tried to treat everyone around him with kindness, but the thing that people really talked about was his relationship with the princess of Hesperos.Â
She would come down to the bakery everyday at dawn and buy two loaves of bread from them. It was on Wonwooâs eighth birthday that they met for the first time. His mother and father were preparing a particularly large order from the princess the day before, leaving Wonwoo to tend to the counter.Â
âWho are you?â She asked Wonwoo. He slightly blushed at her question but knew that it was rude to not answer the princess.Â
âIâm Jeon Wonwoo, your highness. Iâm the baker's son.âÂ
The princess nodded as she watched him look towards the kitchen where his parents hadn't emerged yet.Â
âYour order is almost ready, but itâll be twelve dollars,â he informed as the princess nodded and handed him a pouch of coins. He opened the pouch and started to count the coins when the princess interrupted him.Â
âYou can have all the money.âÂ
âWhat?â Wonwoo asked, his eyebrows shooting up in surprise.Â
âYou can have all the money. I sure donât need it,â she said again, smiling watching Wonwoo struggle to say anything back to her.Â
âWell⊠umm.. Thank you, your highness,â he said, bowing his head as his parents came out of the kitchen with the bread in a basket.Â
âPrincess!â His mother exclaimed, a big smile coming across her face, âhereâs the bread you ordered.âÂ
âThank you Mrs. Jeon.â
âWhat are you doing with all the bread?â Wonwooâs father asked, watching the princess struggle to carry the basket.Â
âItâs for my brother, he asked for some more so that we can have some for lunch,â she huffed trying to look around the basket.Â
âWonwoo, why donât you help the princess and carry the basket for her?â His father asked. Wonwoo nodded and gently took the basket from the princessâ hands as she sighed.Â
âThank you,â she smiled, âdo you mind coming to the castle?â Wonwoo looked at his parents who smiled and nodded. âIâll have the coach-man escort you back home.âÂ
Wonoo nodded and followed the princess out to the carriage. His parents waved from the carriage as it took off leaving him and the princess in silence for a majority of the ride to the palace.Â
âItâs my birthday today,â Wonwoo stated.Â
âWait, what?â Y/N gasped, turning around quickly to face him, her braid nearly hitting her cheek, âhow old are you turning?"Â
âEight,â he smiled.Â
âWell happy birthday Wonwoo!â Y/N smiled back at him, as the carriage glided up to the castle.Â
âFollow me!â she said excitedly, tugging open the door and hopping out. Wonwoo remained seated for a beat, letting the sudden silence wash over him, a warmth blooming in his chest that settled into a gentle smile.
The kitchen was at the back of the castle, which meant Wonwoo got to walk around a bit before he left. Y/N led Wonwoo through a magnificent archway, stopping where a handsome older boy, Prince Jeonghan, was waiting.Â
âBrother!â Y/N announced, catching the attention of the young prince, âthe bread is here!âÂ
Jeonghan glanced at the basket, then his attention settled on Wonwoo, âand you are the one who bore this weight. You must be the baker's son.âÂ
Wonwoo immediately lowered his gaze and bowed his head low. âYour Highness, Jeon Wonoo, at your service. It is my honor to deliver the order.âÂ
Jeonghan raised an eyebrow, noting Wonwooâs polite deference and the ease with which he held the basked, which was clearly far heavier than the boy his age should carry without strain.Â
âAn honor, you say?â Jeonghan mused, circling Wonwoo slowly. âMost children who visit the bakery simply take the coin. You seem quite humble to volunteer for the delivery.âÂ
âI didnât volunteer your highness,â Wonwoo admitted, âmy father asked me to deliver the bread.âÂ
Jeonghan waved a dismissive hand, âregardless. You show good strength for your age, better manners than most squires we currently employ, and you were honest with me instead of taking the credit for yourself.â
He paused, looking Wonwoo up and down. âI imagine the palace life is a world away from the village bakery. Tell me, Wonwoo, are you fond of horses?âÂ
Wonwoo, still holding the basket in the middle of the hallway, looked up, surprised by the sudden shift in topic.Â
âIâI have only seen the royal horses from the edges of the stable yard, Your HIghness,â Wonwoo admitted, his voice soft. âBut they are magnificent. My father always said a healthy horse is the kingdom's true wealth.âÂ
Jeonghan gave a rare, sharp smile, âa practical outlook. Good. Our stable master is short on reliable hands, and a boy with strong arms and good manners is a valuable commodity. Tell me Wonwoo, how would you like to see that wealth up close? We are in need of bright, strong, lads for our stable service.â He gestured to the castle towering above them. âThe opportunity is there. We would offer you a place as a Page, you would care for the royal mounts and run errands throughout the palace. It is hard work, but it offers a proper education and a future far greater than flour dust.âÂ
Y/Nâs eyes lit up with excitement, âsay yes, Wonwoo! You can stay!âÂ
Wonwoo looked from the Prince to the Princess, his head spinning with the weight of the proposal. He knew this was a monumental chance for his family. He bowed again, the bread basket dipping slightly, âif my parents agree, Your Highness, I would be honored to accept that position and serve.âÂ
Prince Jeonghan was satisfied enough with the answer and nodded. He reached out, gently rubbing the tops of his sisters head, messing up her hair, and gave a brief, sharp smile before turning away and leaving the hallway, his footsteps echoing as he walked away.
Y/N immediately smoothed her hair down, ignoring her brother and turned to Wonwoo with a wide smile, âthey will agree! This is wonderful, Wonwoo! Weâll see each other everyday!âÂ
Wonwoo nodded, but didnât say anything else. He knew that it would be hard for his parents to lose him at the bakery and wasnât sure if theyâd agree. He just let Y/N lead him to the kitchen and placed the bread basket on the table, looking around the room at all the food that was being prepared for the day.Â
âWould you like to stay for breakfast?â Y/N asked Wonwoo, noticing the hungry look in his eyes as he stared at the spread, but he shook his head and politely bowed.Â
âThank you for the offer Your Highness, but I must get back to the bakery. Not only do I have a big decision to make, but I have some bread to prove.âÂ
Y/N nodded her head in understanding, before smiling wide. âIâll see you tomorrow. I canât wait to hear your decision!âÂ
Wonwoo offered her one final, quick bow before she led him back through the sprawling hallways and out to the front courtyard where the couch-man was waiting. He climbed into the carriage, the warmth of her smile still blooming in her chest. Knowing that tonight, his simple life as the bakers son was about to change forever.Â
As soon as the carriage pulled up to the bakery, his parents were waiting for him. He thanked the couch-man who had opened the door for him and slowly approached his parents, who had big smiles on their faces.Â
âSo? How was the castle?â His father asked, as his mother reached out to hold his hand.Â
âIt was nice,â he quietly responded, avoiding their eyes.Â
His mother squeezed his hand, sensing his sudden reserve, âonly nice? You were gone for a while. Did something happen at the castle?â
Wonwoo took a deep breath, trying to be brave. He pulled his parents towards the front door, âcould we go inside? I have to tell you something big,â he said, âwhile I was at the castle I ran into the prince.âÂ
His fatherâs expression sharpened instantly at the mention of the prince, âthe prince?â His father pressed, âWhat did he say? Did he have a message about the order?âÂ
âHe offered me a job,â Wonwoo explained, sitting down between them. âHe said I could be a Page at the castle. I would help with the horses and run messages and they would teach me things.â He looked earnestly at his mother, âhe said it was a chance to have a great future.âÂ
Both his parents exchanged a shocked look, their faces betraying their astonishment. They had not expected such high regard to be shown toward their son.Â
âHe was impressed that I could carry the bread basket at my age and said that I had good manners.âÂ
His mother smiled warmly at the mention of her sonâs kind heart. She sighed, and tenderly brushed some of his messy hair away from his eyes, taking a close, worried look at him. She knew that her son had a kind spirit and a loving heart. She was scared that the politics of the royal family would ruin him.Â
âWhat do you think about the offer, son?â His father asked, sitting down next to his mother and taking Wonwooâs other hand, so they were connected in a tight circle.Â
Wonwoo sighed. He knew that his parents would miss him, but he really wanted to study and live in the castle.More than anything, he wanted to get to know the kind and lively spirit that was the princess. He looked up towards his mother and squeezed her hand.Â
âI want to go,â he stated, his voice quiet but a little firm.Â
His mother inhaled sharply, a single tear sliding down her cheek, but nodded in understanding. âOh, my dear boy,â she murmured, squeezing his hand tightly. âWe know you do. Itâs a chance for you to see the world beyond our bakery door.âÂ
His father squeezed his hand as well, his eyes fixed on the future. âIt is an immense opportunity, Son. A gift the Jeon family could never buy,â he looked at his wife. âIf we agree, we must set rules. He is only eight. We will insist on weekly visits, and we will insist they treat him fairly.âÂ
âI wonât be alone,â Wonwoo said, looking up at them both, his eyes earnest. âThe princess said she would see me everyday. Sheâll look out for me.âÂ
His parents looked at each other, the name of the Princess, cutting through their fear and striking at the core of the offer. They knew that the unlikely spark between the princess and their son was the very thing that made this impossible dream possible.Â
His mother sighed once more, before wiping the tears rolling down her eyes, before looking at her husband who nodded.Â
âAlright son,â his father said, his voice thick with pride and gravity. âYou can be a Page in the castle.âÂ
Wonwoo knew the castle was big from the distant view he had everyday, but he didnât think it would be this big on the inside. The halls went up so high they almost touched the sky. The vast space gleamed with gold and marble, and every chamber felt like walking into a cold, beautiful treasure chest.
It felt like the opposite of the warm, cozy bakery he grew up in.Â
He was led up into one of the servants quarters in the east hall. His room was at the top of the tower, which meant he had to climb a lot of stairs every morning. But when he looked out, the view across the kingdom was truly beautiful.Â
He was given the morning to unpack his things and change into his new uniform. The simple, slightly rough fabric felt stiff and heavy compared to his soft cotton clothes from the bakery. When the time came, another Page, older and silent, led Wonwoo through the echoing stone corridors, down into the lower grounds and toward the immense Royal Stables. The air changed instantly, replacing the cold marble scent with the rich, earthy smells of hay, leather, and horses.
The Stable Master, a large, weathered named Lord, Baek, stood in the central yard, directing a flurry of activity. He did not look up when Wonwoo approached.Â
âLord Baek, the new Page, Jeon Wonwoo,â the older Page stated curtly.Â
Lord Beak finally looked down, his gaze sharp and assessing. He didnât smile, but he didnât scowl.Â
âYou are small,â Lord Beak said simply, his voice a low rumble. âAnd you are new. That means you listen, you do not talk, and you work twice as hard as everyone else. The palace does not pay us to make friends, boy.â He pointed to a large pile of intricate leather bridles piled in the corner. âYour first task: those bridles need cleaning and polishing until they shine like the Princessâs jewels. Then you will sort that pile of curry combs. I want the bronze separate from the steel. Go.âÂ
Wonwoo immediately lowered his head. He knew this was not a place for smiles or softness.Â
âYes, sir,â he replied quietly, already moving toward the dirty pile of bridles. He spent the whole rest of the day, even missing supper to finish the work Lord Baek had given him. Only eating when it was almost all the rest of the servants had gone to bed.Â
He hadnât even seen the princess his first day, like the thought he would.Â
The next day was different, he learnt quickly that during the week he would attend school and then help in the stables after school and work purely in the stables during the weekend, leaving almost no time for leisure.Â
He would attend classes quickly, change and then work until he went to bed. It was the same thing everyday. It wasnât until almost a month into living in the castle did he see the Princess.Â
He was making his way to the stables with a couple of horses when he heard her voice. It was bright and clear, cutting through the usual drone of the courtyard like a silver bell. He recognized the sound immediately.Â
"There you are, Wonwoo! I've been looking everywhere!"
He froze mid-step, causing the horses behind him to shuffle restlessly. He looked up, and there she was, walking towards him, in a fancy gown and flowers all throughout her hair, a clear sign that she had been in the garden. Her face lit up with a usual lively smile at the sight of him.Â
He immediately dropped his gaze and tried to bow as best as he could while still holding the reins.Â
âYour highness,â he said, âI apologize. I am still on duty.â
Y/N simply walked right up to him, entirely ignoring the horses and his formal bow.Â
âDuty? You look like you havenât slept in a week! Donât worry, I told Lord Beak I needed help finding the best apples for my pony, Cloud. Come on, Iâm rescuing you.â She reached out a hand to take one of his reins, ready to pull him along.Â
Wonwoo smiled, thankful that he didnât have to do chores right away. He sighed, and handed her one of the reins. The tension in his shoulders seemed to lift immediately.Â
Y/N beamed, now walking side-by-side with him, leading the horses away from the crowded stable yard and toward a sunny, secluded path near the royal orchards.Â
âWhat were you supposed to be doing right now?â Wonwoo asked softly, unable to help the smile in his voice.Â
She leaned toward him, lowering her voice so no adults could hear her. âEtiquette lessons with Madame Balm. She always makes me walk lines and corrects my posture even though my posture is perfect!âÂ
Wonwoo chuckled, the sound slightly rusty from a month of hard work and silence. The idea of Y/N forced into rigid formality was both ridiculous yet familiar.Â
âWalking straight lines sounds terribly difficult,â he murmured, shaking his head.Â
She tightened her grip on the reins. âItâs a nightmare. But anyway, I haven't seen you around at all! Why did it take you so long to come find me? Did Lord Baek put you in the deepest part of the stables?âÂ
Wonwoo sighed, he also was disappointed that he hadnât had free time to do simple things like explore the castle or spend time with the princess.Â
âIâve been busy from the moment I wake up until the moment I go to sleep,â he explained, pulling the horses to a gentle stop near a large apple tree. âThere is school, and then the stables. Everyday Lord Beak doesn't let us stop,â he looked at her then the smile gone, âI thought I would see you sooner.â
Y/Nâs bright smile softened into an expression of immediate sympathy. She dropped the reins letting the horses graze freely, and turned fully toward himÂ
âOh Wonwoo,â she said gently, reaching out a hand to touch his sleeve, âI missed you too. I told you I would see you everyday, and I promise Iâll come to the barn to see you after you're done with school.âÂ
The simple assurance was like warm balm after a month of cold stone and hard labor.Â
âYou will?â he asked, the hole in his voice undeniable.Â
âY/N nodded firmly, âevery weekday. We can talk while you polish tack or muck stalls. We have to be quick, but weâll be together. You need a friend here, and so do I.â She gave his sleeve a final squeeze before handing him a basket and turning toward the orchard. âNow, letâs go find those apples. Cloud will be crossed if he misses his snack.â
The simple, quiet ritual established from there became the fixed point in their lives. The early years were defined by shared secrets and easy comfort. Wonwoo polished the tack while Y/N read him chapters from grand adventure novels she was supposed to be studying.Â
Everyone in the castle found their relationship quite sweet, quite wholesome, seeing it as a lovely display of the Princessâs kind heart and the Pageâs steadfast loyalty.
As they started to grow out of their childish features and into their blossoming young teenage years, the comfortable ease began to break down, replaced by a strange, charged awareness. The first big shift between them was when Wonwoo, now transitioning from Page to Squire, had a sudden growth spurt. He was no longer the small baker boy. His shoulders had broadened, and his hands, once small enough to fit inside hers, were now rough and large from endless drills with practice of swords and dealing with hard leather. Their interactions were less about childish games and more about unspoken emotions and feelings of discovery.Â
There was less time for them to work with horses and run around the gardens, and Princess Y/N could keenly feel the change between them. Instead of watching him clean the stables and helping with the horses, she would now watch him from the palace balcony. Below, he was training, his form becoming sharper, and she watched him make friendships with the older boys and men among him, who were quickly becoming his peers. The stables were no longer their private sanctuary; they were a training ground preparing him for a world she couldn't fully reach.Â
He had just finished a brutal evening training session and was scarfing down his supper in a quiet corner of the Squire's mess hall when she appeared.
âAre you having fun at least?â She asked Wonwoo, watching him chew quickly.Â
Wonwoo paused, holding a piece of bread mid-air. His face was smudged with dirt and sweat. He was exhausted, but he shook his head slightly.Â
âFun isnât what itâs for Your HIghness,â he replied, swallowing hard. âIt is an honor. I need to be ready to protect your brother, and you, when the time comes.â
Y/N sighed, leaning her elbow on the table. She looked at his tired eyes and the determination etched onto his face. The playful boy she had rescued was now a soldier in training.Â
âI know itâs necessary, but you used to laugh more,â she murmured, placing a hand on his shoulder. âDonât forget the simple things Wonwoo.âÂ
Wonwoo quickly looked away from her, his gaze locking onto the rough wooden table. He was painfully aware of how close she was, how sweet the scent of her perfume was compared to the stink of sweat and steel clinging to him.Â
âI donât forget anything your highness,â he said, his voice a little bit more playful. Trying to reassure her that the boy she once knew was still in there. âBut the simple things donât keep the castle safe. Duty comes first. Always.âÂ
He deliberately avoided looking at her again, using his rigorous schedule as a shield to hide the truth. Every moment spent training, every drop of sweat, was purely for her sake. The duty was the only thing he was allowed to love.Â
Y/N huffed and stood up from the table, clearly frustrated at the sudden, cold distance he created. She didnât want to cause an argument with her best friend. She leaned down quickly and pressed a sharp, quick kiss to his grimy cheek before turning and leaving the dining hall.Â
Wonwoo froze entirely, his fork clattering against the plate. The immediate shock was overwhelming. He looked up, but she was already gone, leaving him alone, heart hammering against his ribs, his duty almost completely forgotten in the face of her reckless affection.
Wonwooâs sixteenth birthday was quiet, marked by the heavy anticipation of his final years as a Squire. By royal decree, he received a small ceremony in the yard where Prince Jeonghan presented him with a beautifully weighted, custom-fitted-sword, his first piece of truly good steel, a visible sign of his imminent knighthood. While the court cheered his merit, Y/N found him later that night in the armory, the heavy scent of metal and oil surrounding them.Â
She gave him no gift, but instead, she reached out and traced the sharp line of th new sword resting on his hip. Her touch, far more intimate than any metal, made him hold his breath. He knew his sixteenth year meant the line between them was hardening, he was closer than ever to become her official protector, a position that demanded he be nothing more, and everything less, than the boy she loved.Â
âHave you given it a name?â She asked, as Wonwooran his thumb lightly along the spine of the blade, careful to avoid the edge.Â
âNo, Your Highness,â he replied. âItâs not mine yet. Not truly. Not until Iâm sworn in.âÂ
âBut it will be yours,â Y/N insisted, his eyes fixed on the reflective metal. âAnd it will be the thing that keeps us safe. It deserves a name.âÂ
He looked from the sword to her, and the protective, desperate love he felt for her was momentarily reflected in the cold steel.
âCelestra's Mark.â He said, after a few moments of thinking.
Y/N smiled, a quiet, knowing smile. âIt suits you, Wonoo. It suits the shield you are becoming.â She reached out and ran a fingertip over the steel, a daring, silent acknowledgement of the sacrifice he was making for her home.Â
He quickly re-sheather the blade, the sound a sharp, final click in the quiet armory, marking the end of their sixteenth birthday moment and signaling the return to the strict boundaries they both observed.Â
He quickly re-sheathed the blade, the sound a sharp, final click in the quiet armory, marking the end of their sixteenth birthday moment and signaling the return to the strict boundaries they both observed.
âHowâs Wonwooâs training going?â Prince Jeonghan asked.
Y/N jumped, a small cry catching in her throat, at the sudden presence of her older brother. Her entire body recoiled, and her hand flew instantly to cover the sudden, frantic pounding of her heart beneath her gown. She took a sharp, necessary breath to regain control.Â
âBrother! You startled me,â she managed, turning to face him from her balcony she was watching Wonwoo from. âI didnât hear you come in. Why are you sneaking around?âÂ
Jeonghan raised a skeptical eyebrow at her obvious shock.Â
âI wasnât sneaking, Y/N. You were simply daydreaming. You shouldnât look so guilty when asked about my top Squire,â he jested, his gaze lingering on her flushed cheeks. He walked to the railing and followed her gaze down to the training yard. âDonât tell me youâre getting sentimental about the bakerâs boy?â                               Â
Y/N whipped her head around to scowl at her brother before smacking him lightly on the shoulder.Â
âDonât call him that, Jeonghan. You know heâs going to be Knight Wonwoo soon,â she retorted, though her cheeks remained pink. She adjusted the fabric of her sleeve, gathering her composure. âHis training is excellent, he is ready for his oath next month, isnât he? Even Lord Baek admitted heâs the sharpest theyâve had.âÂ
Jeonghan smiled, pleased by the quick defense and the confirmation of Wonwooâs skill.Â
âHeâs the sharpest, which is why Iâm making sure he protects what matters most. Once heâs knighted, he wonât be mine. Iâve assigned him to you, Y/N. KNight Wonwoo will be your personal guard. Which, speaking of the future, is why I came looking for you.â He turned, the playful smile fading, signaling the shift to official business.Â
He leaned against the cold stone railing, his eyes fixed on the distant peaks of the kingdom.
âThe political envoys arrived late this morning from the Northern March.â Jeonghan took a long, heavy breath. âThe alliance is confirmed, Y/N. You are formally engaged to Prince Mingyu. The betrothal will be announced next month, and the wedding will take place when you both come of age.âÂ
âNo,â she whispered, the denial a desperate, raw sound. âNo, you canât - I wonâtâÂ
Her composure was utterly fractured. She let out a frustrated, wounded cry, a loud, immature sound completely inappropriate for a Princess, and shoved past Jeonghan, he silks catching on the railing. She didnât bother with the proper entrance, instead hiking up her skirts and bolting from the balcony entrance, her footsteps echoing loudly down the stone corridor in a frantic dash to escape.
Down below, in the middle of a perfect disarming drill, Wonwoo stopped. The jarring sound of the Princess's unmistakable cry and the panicked rush of her footsteps had cut through the focused chaos of the training yard. He looked up instantly, following the sound to the East Hall balcony. He didn't see the reason, but he clearly saw Prince Jeonghan standing alone at the rail, looking grieved and defeated, and he saw a flash of the Princess's distinctive blue skirt disappearing rapidly into the castle interior. Something was terribly wrong.
Y/N ran without caring who saw her or how undignified she looked. Tears steamed down her face, blurring the marble halls as she raced toward the seclusion of her private chambers. The words formally engaged to Prince Mingyu run in her ears and slammed into her mind, suffocating her. This wasnât a choice, it was a decree. The cold duty she had always feared had finally snatched her future. She only wanted the comfort of her home, the one she had found in the stables with Wonwoo, but now that home felt impossible far away.Â
Hours later, long after the curfew bells had sounded and the last of the squires were asleep, Wonwoo crept out of his quarters. He ignored the aching fatigue from his training and followed a familiar, shadowed route through the silent castle grounds. His destination was the stables, the only place he could think she might retreat when the palace felt too large and cold.Â
He found her exactly where he expected: huddled on a bale of hay in front of her horse Cloudâs stall, the smell of the clean straw a stark contrast of the despair across her face. She was not crying, but her shoulders we slumped and her face was drawnb, illuminated only by the faint silver light spilling in from the high stable windows.Â
Wonwoo didnât speak a formal greeting. He simply sat down beside her, the movement quiet and deliberate. The cold hilt of Celestraâs Mark pressed against his hip, a silent reminder of the position that now separated him from her pain.Â
âYour Highness,â he said softly, his voice barely a murmur, and turned his head to look at her. âWhat happened this afternoon? What made you run?âÂ
Y/N didnât lift her head. She picked nervously at a loose piece of straw.Â
âIt doesnât matter, Wonwoo. Itâs palace business,â she mumbled, attempting to push him away from the formal tern.Â
âIt matters to me,â he insisted, his tone gentle but firm. âI saw you run. And I know the difference between palace business and when my Princess is truly hurting.â He waited, allowing the quiet space to fill with the steady breathing of the horses and placed his hand on top of hers a gesture that shattered the distance between them.Â
Y/N finally lifted her head, her eyes wide and red-rimmed. She didnât pull her hand away.Â
âThey did it, Wonwoo,â she whispered, her voice cracking, the grip on his hand tightening. âThe alliance is confirmed. I am formally betrothed to Prince Mingyu.They said the wedding will be when we come of age. They just sentenced me to years of waiting for a life I donât want.âÂ
The words Prince Mingyu hit Wonwoo with the force of a solid steel blow. His meticulously constructed inner world, the one built on the fragile hope that his silent dedication would somehow earn him a future near her, shattered instantly.
His breath stopped in his chest. His training, honed over a decade, forced him to remain physically still, but internally, panic seized him. Betrothed. He, her assigned personal guard, had just been sentenced to stand beside her, day in and day out, while she belonged to another man. Celestra's Mark, the sword of his honor, felt suddenly heavy and cold, a permanent weight of irony pressing against his side. The irony was a cruel joke: he had worked tirelessly to earn the right to protect her, only to find that his first and most sacred duty was to escort her to the man she was forced to marry. His grip on her hand tightened involuntarily, not in comfort, but in a momentary, silent plea.
His breath stopped in his chest, but his training forced him to remain physically still. His grip on her hand tightened involuntarily, a momentary, silent plea before he forced his features into the neutral mask of the Squire. He released her hand slowly, pulling back only inches, but the distance felt like miles.
âThis is why I must be knighted next month, Your Highness,â he said, his voice low and utterly devoid of emotion, though his heart was hammering a furious rhythm against his ribs. He deliberately focuses on the duty, the only thing he was allowed to acknowledge. âIt is necessary for the stability of the crown. It is necessary for the safety of Hesperos.âÂ
He lifted his hand, not to reach for her, but to gently touch the hilt of his sword.Â
âBut I swear to you this,â he continued, his eyes finally meeting hers, intense and burning with a controlled fire. âUntil the day they bind you to him, and for every moment after, you will never be alone. I am your shield. I will guard your happiness even if it means sacrificing mine.âÂ
The sheer weight of the unofficial oath hung heavy in the stable air. Y/N watched his face, searching for any flicker of the boy who used to share her forbidden sweets, but saw only the frigid determination of the future knight.Â
âWonwoo..â she began, her voice ran, reaching out to him again, perhaps intending to ask the question of their shared past that they both had always avoided.Â
But Wonwoo didnât let her finish. He knew that one more word, one more touch, would shatter his discipline he had spent years on, that he needed to survive the years ahead. He quickly stood up, his movements stiff and practiced.Â
âI must go, Your Highness,â he said, the formality of the title now sounding like a deliberate, painful barrier. âI have an early morning training session, and I cannot be found here.âÂ
He gave her a quick, deep, formal bow. The bow of a future guard, not a friend, and without another word, he turned and melted back into the shadows. He did not look back, even as his heart screamed in protest. He left her sitting alone on the hay bale, holding the cold, empty space where his hand had been, acutely aware that the silence he left behind was the sound of their fate sealing shut.Â
Two years passed in an agonizing, slow motion defined by duty and proximity. Wonwoo, now eighteen, was no longer a youth. He was a disciplined warrior, lean and stoic, prepared for the oath that would officially bind him to the crown.Â
Bind him to her.Â
For the past two years, his life had been a singular exercise in control. The memory of Y/Nâs tearful face and the unspoken desperation of their final meeting in the stables fueled his training.
 He had mastered the Knightâs Oath and the use of Celestraâs Mark, going over every rule of honor and servitude until his emotions were buried beneath the hard, cold surface of military perfection. He had to be perfect because he was now bound to the Princess in a daily, professional capacity, forced to witness the life he couldnât have.
Meanwhile, Prince Mingyu had become a fixture at the court. He was everything a future King Consort should be: handsome, genuinely kind, and popular within the court and the people. Crucially he was good with Y/N.Â
Y/N and Mingyuâs betrothal was treated as a gentle, long-term courtship. They spent time together formally. Attending state dinners, riding, and sharing lessons. Mingyu was attentive and funny, clearly enjoying her company.
Y/N was unfailing courteous to Mingyu, fulfilling her duty, but her heart had not shifted. She still sought out the quiet comfort of Wonwooâs presence whenever their duties overlapped, replying to his silent understanding, but it killed Wonwoo.Â
He was always there. Standing two steps behind her as she laughed at Mingyuâs jokes, watching her hand brush Mingyuâs arm, and witnessing the natural ease of a relationship that was publicly accepted. He had to suppress every jealous instinct and every desperate desire, knowing that his primary duty was to ensure the safety and happiness of the man who would take his princess.
âWhat do you mean you donât want me there at your knighting ceremony?â She had quietly pleaded, trying not to cause any attention between them in the halls of the servants quarters.Â
It was almost midnight and if they were seen together, punishment would be brutal. So being quiet was crucial.Â
âI mean that you have previous commitments to the prince at the time of my ceremony,â Wonwoo sighed, hating the tears slowly falling down her cheeks. âI will ask sir Baek to attend with you in my absence.âÂ
âBut I donât want Sir Baek.âÂ
âI cannot miss my own knighting ceremony,â Wonwoo scoffed.Â
âThen I will miss the tea ceremony,â Y/N pushed back, trying to step closer to the almost knight. Wonwoo shook his head and held out an arm to push her back slightly.Â
âWe both know you cannot. Your parents would be furious.âÂ
âThey should be. They knew your ceremony was tomorrow, why did they have to schedule it on the same day?âÂ
Wonwoo sighed, and allowed himself to have one selfish act of affection towards you. He raised his hand and gently cupped her cheek, wiping the tears falling down her cheeks.Â
âI know. Iâm sorry,â he whispered. âBut you cannot miss the tea ceremony.âÂ
Y/N wheeped, but didnât try to argue more. Instead she leaned into his touch a little bit, allowing him to cup her other cheek. âPromise me that youâll re-inact the entire thing once I get back?â
Wonwoo chuckled at the request. Only she would ask him such things, but reluctantly agreed by shaking his head. âIâll skip the nonsense and just show you the badge.âÂ
Y/N gasped and pulled away from him, watching him laugh some more. âYou will do no such thing Wonwoo!âÂ
Wonwoo just smiled and watched as she wiped away a few of her own tears before trying her best to put on a smile for him.Â
The smile that could make twelve hours of training worth it.Â
The smile that he would kill for.Â
The smile that saved him from a life of bread and baking.Â
The smile he loved.Â
He still thought about how weird it was being in front of the whole royal family and not having her present.Â
It was ironic. The person he was swearing to protect wasnât even here.Â
Prince Jeonghan was the one knighting him, he was the one he was giving his oath to when it should have been the princess.Â
His princess.Â
His parents were at the ceremony. It had been almost a month since he had last seen them, and the prince was kind enough to allow them to spend the rest of the day together after the ceremony.Â
His mother was crying the whole entire ceremony and his father had been standing beside her with a proud look on his face.Â
The day of the knighting ceremony arrived. The cathedral was packed, the air thick with incense and the sound of solemn music. Wonwoo knelt before Prince Jeonghan, the active royal authority for the ceremony, wearing the heavy formal armor, the weight of the steel a physical manifestation of his sacrifice.Â
He still thought about how strange it was being here in front of the whole royal court without the Princess present in the royal box.Â
It was bitterly ironic.Â
The entire reason he had pushed himself, the person he was truly swearing to protect, wasnât here at this pivotal moment. Prince Jeonghan was the one administering the oath, the one he was dedicating himself to, when in his heart, that commitment belonged to his Princess.Â
He found solace only in the sight of his own family. His parents were seated near the front, guests of the royal family for the day. His mother was quietly crying the whole entire ceremony, utterly overwhelmed with pride, while his father stood beside her, his face set in a proud, unwavering expression. It had been almost a month since he had last seen them, and Prince Jeonghan had been kind enough to allow them to spend the rest of the day together after the ceremony.Â
Prince Jeonghanâs voice boomed as he placed the blunt side of a ceremonial sword, the King's own great sword, on Wonwooâs shoulder.
âDo you swear loyalty to the Crown of Celestra, upholding its laws, its alliances, and its sovereign lines, with Honor as your sole guide?âÂ
Wonwoo met Prince Jeonghanâs eyes, his resolve absolute.
âI swear,â Wonwoo affirmed, his voice ringing clearly through the cathedral.Â
The final pronouncement was made, the assembly cheered, and the heavy ceremonial robes were swiftly replaced with his new, bespoke knight's uniform. Celestra's Mark, his sword of honor, felt balanced and light on his hip, despite the immense weight of the oath he had just taken.
As the cathedral began to empty, Prince Jeonghan gave him a respectful nod, releasing him. Wonwoo moved immediately toward the section where his family waited.
His mother, dressed in her best Sunday clothes, rushed forward. She didn't bow or curtsy; she simply enveloped him in a fierce, tearful hug, pressing her cheek against the cold steel of his shoulder plate.
âOh, my beautiful, clever boy,â she wept quietly into his uniform. âYou did it. You are a Knight.â
Wonwoo hugged her back fiercely, inhaling the comforting scent of baked dough and lavender that always clung to her. For a moment, he wasn't Knight Wonwoo, sworn protector of the Princess; he was just her son.
His father approached, a man of quiet strength whose own rough hands had shaped hundreds of loaves of bread. He didn't embrace Wonwoo, but instead placed a large, calloused hand on his newly armored shoulder, right where the King's sword had touched him.
âHonor,â his father said, his voice thick with pride. âThat is the only thing we ever asked you to carry, son. Carry it well.â
Wonwoo nodded, swallowing the sudden lump in his throat.
âI will, Father,â he promised, his voice regaining the steady confidence of his rank. âAlways.â
He pulled back, smiling at them both, knowing that their pride was the one shield he was truly glad to carry.
Wonwoo pulled back, smiling at them both, knowing that their pride was the one shield he was truly glad to carry.Â
They settled at a small, reserved table in a quiet corner of the outer hall, where the noise of the main celebration couldnât reach them. His mother fussed over his untouched plate of food, while his father sipped water, still watching him with that look of intense pride.Â
âAnd the Princess, Wonwoo?â his mother asked softly, resting a hand on his forearm. âIs she well? We heard she has been... very busy with state duties this past year. You two still spend time together, yes?â
The question was innocent, delivered with the easy familiarity of someone asking after a well-loved niece. Wonwoo felt a sharp, internal twist.
âThe Princess is excellent, Mother,â he replied, his tone immediately defaulting to the cool, formal respect required of his rank. âAs her personal guard, my duty is now to ensure her safety at all times. I am constantly near her, though our interactions are strictly professional.â
His father frowned slightly at the formality. âProfessional? What happened to the young lady who used to quiz you on your lessons? I trust the steel hasn't made you forget your manners, son.â
âNo, Father,â Wonwoo murmured, avoiding their eyes and focusing on slicing his food with precise, stiff movements. âHer Highness is betrothed to Prince Mingyu now, and my position requires absolute discretion and honor. She is the future of Celestra. I am simply her shield.â
Both of his parents gave each other a knowing look, a silent agreement passing between them not to push any further to upset him. They sensed the rigid, painful distance he had put up around himself. They understood duty, but they didnât understand the price he was paying for it.Â
Prince Mingyu was always kind towards Y/N. He never treated her like a possession or a political prize, but rather as a friend he genuinely respected. In the long two years since their formal betrothal, he had come to understand the sad truth of their union.
He knew that she wasnât in love with him.Â
This awareness didnât make him cruel or resentful. Instead, it lent his patience and courtesy a layer of profound maturity. He valued her well-being above their alliance, a face that only deepened the quiet agony for both Y/N and the knight sworn to protect them.Â
Which is precisely how Mingyu knew that something was wrong with Y/N quickly into the tea ceremony.Â
She was performing her required courtesies flawlessly, speaking the correct diplomatic language, offering measured smiles, and accepting the exquisite gifts from the Northern March delegation with grace. Yet, Mingyu noticed the minute details.Â
The way her gaze drifting past the delegates to fix on the reflection of the silver tray before quickly snapping back. She was present, but her mind was clearly elsewhere.Â
He waited until there was a lull in the ceremony before saying anything.Â
âAre you alright?â He asked, making sure that the other occupants of the ceremony were busy and not interacting with them.Â
âPardon?â Y/N asked, her gaze unfocused for a beat too long.Â
Mingyu leaned closer, his expression earnest.Â
âYour hands are shaking,â he whispered, eyes quickly darting down to her shaking hands. âIf you need air, I can excuse us. Tell me whatâs wrong.âÂ
Y/N felt a fresh wave of despair. It wasnât the political pressure, it was the unbearable weight of not being there for her best friend. She looked at Mingyuâs kind, concerned face, the man who was trying so hard, and the guilt that she had forced Wonwoo into this impossible, painful position crushed her. She had to deny her reality to the one man who sincerely wished her well.Â
âItâs nothing, Prince Mingyu,â she replied, forcing a brief, brittle smile. âJust the tediousness of the negotiations. I assure you, I am perfectly well.âÂ
Mingyu sighed, a soft and heavy sound that seemed to carry the wright of both their roles, and nodded his head slowly. In that single gesture, he acknowledge the unspoken truth of her heart without judgement or resentment. He wasnât just a prince at that moment, he was a man who saw the bars or the cafe they were both trapped in.Â
With a determined look in his eyes, he began trying to plan an escape for them both, his mind already working though ways to slip away from the prying eyes of the delegates and the stifling atmosphere of the embassy. He knew they couldnât run forever, but for her, and for his own peace, he was willing to find a way to claim even just a few hours of freedom from the suffocating demands of the crown.Â
Mingyu moved with a calculated grace, guiding Y/N back toward the interior of the hallway rather than the main ballroom. He knew the embassy's layout well enough to know that the servantsâ corridors and the garden exits were currently unguarded, as all security was focused on the front gates and the main reception hall. With a quick, conspiratorial wink, he draped his heavy traveling cloak over her shoulders, effectively hiding her shimmering dress and the royal crest of Celestra. As they reached the heavy wooden door, Mingyu paused, his hand on the iron latch. He looked back at Y/N, the moonlight catching the determined set of his jaw. He wasn't just giving her a few hours of peace; he was risking a minor diplomatic scandal to ensure she didn't break under the weight of her own crown.
Y/N felt a surge of genuine gratitude. For the first time in years, the crushing pressure in her chest eased. She reached out and took his hand, not out of duty, but out of a shared need for air. As the door creaked open, they stepped out into the night, leaving the world of politics and silent knights behind them, if only for a moment.
Once they were alone, Mingyu didn't push or accuse. He simply leaned against the cool stone railing, respecting the space between them.
âI know it wasnât the tediousness of the negotiations,â he said softly, turning to face her. âYou are far too composed for that. Please, Y/N. Tell me what is weighing so heavily on your heart.â
Y/N wrapped her arms around herself, watching the frost gleam on the sculpted bushes below. The air was crisp and clean, offering a small reprieve from the stifling political atmosphere.
âYou are too kind, Mingyu,â she murmured, the sincerity in her voice making her throat tight. âThat kindness is why this is so difficult.â
She didnât dare speak Wonwooâs name, but the heavy implication hung between them. Mingyu already understood.
âIs it still difficult because of the distance?â he asked, his voice low and sympathetic. âBecause of what you had to leave behind in Celestra? I never asked you to forget your past, only to share the future with me.â
Y/N finally met his eyes, her own filled with guilt and sorrow.
âI am fighting every day to be the Princess Celestra needs,â she confessed, her voice barely a breath. âBut I cannot help but feel like I am giving up some part of myself to do so. Prince MingyuâŠ. You deserve someone who doesnât feel like they are breaking just to stand beside you.âÂ
She saw the hurt and confusion in his eyes, but she couldnât bring herself to explain the true source of her fractured heart. Instead, she quickly recovered, forcing a brief, brittle smile.Â
Mingyu nodded slowly, his gaze lingering on her for a moment longer than protocol allowed. He was trying to understand, searching her expression for the piece of the puzzle she was clearly withholding. He wasn't a fool; he could hear the finality in her tone, the way she spoke of their union as if it were a sentence rather than a beginning.
"I understand duty," he said softly, his hand retreating from the railing but his presence remaining heavy beside her. "But I do not wish to be another burden you have to carry, Y/N. If standing beside me feels like breaking, then we are starting on a very fragile foundation."
The Northern March delegates laughed at a joke across the table, the sound jarringly loud against the quiet tension between the Prince and Princess. Y/N kept her eyes fixed on the snow falling, terrified that if she looked up, he would see the truth, not just that she didn't want him, but that her heart had already been given to someone else.
Mingyu straightened his posture, shifting back into his role as the perfect diplomat as the delegates turned their attention back toward them. He didn't push her further, but the concern hadn't left his eyes.
"The Court Dance begins shortly," he murmured, his voice returning to a formal, neutral tone for the benefit of their audience. "Perhaps the movement will help settle your nerves. I would be honored if you would grant me the first set."
The following days were not filled with the frantic energy of the ceremony, leaving a hollow silence in the private royal gardens. Y/N walked the stone path alone, her fingers trailing over the dew-covered hedges. The heavy silks of the ceremony had been traded for a simpler gown, but the weight of her check remained unchanged. She stopped at the edge of the fountain, watching her own distorted image in the water.
The conversation with Mingyu still echoed in her mind. She had seen the way he looked at her, not with cold calculation of the Council, but with a genuine desire to be the partner she needed. It made the lie heel even more jagged. Every step toward the wedding felt like a step further away from herself, a slow erasure of the woman she used to be before the needs of the kingdom became a cage.Â
A soft rustle of gravel nearby signaled that her solitude was coming to an end. She turned, her shoulders instinctively tensing for another diplomatic confrontation, but the air in her lungs finally felt light again when she saw Wonwoo.
He was standing a respectful distance away, his expression calm and his posture as steady as the ancient stone walls of the palace. He didn't offer a platitude or a royal greeting; he simply stood there, a quiet anchor in the midst of her internal chaos. Seeing him, the one person who knew the woman behind the title, the suffocating weight of the crown seemed to lift just enough for her to breathe. The brittle, defensive mask she had been wearing since the night before finally softened, and for a fleeting moment, she didn't feel like a Princess fighting for Celestra. She just felt like herself.
âHow did you find me?â She asked, looking back to the fountain, not wanting him to see the slight flush on her cheeks.Â
âYou forget my lady, that it is my job to know where you are at all times of the day,â Wonwoo replied, his voice carrying a rare, light trace of amusement. There was a faint, teasing ghost of a smile on his lips that she usually only saw when the palace was fast asleep. It was a subtle, joking tone. One that reminded her he wasnât just a shield in polished armor, but the person who knew her better than anyone else.Â
The small smile on his lips didnât last long; as he stepped closer, his keen eyes swept over her, noting the tension in her shoulders that even the morning air couldn't melt away. The joking tone vanished, replaced by the quiet, intense focus he reserved only for her.
âThe levity doesnât suit the look in your eyes, my lady,â he said softly, his voice dropping to a more private register. He moved to stand near the edge of the fountain, his gaze following hers to the dancing water. âSomething happened during the ceremony. Your composure was... different. What is bothering you?â
Y/N felt the familiar urge to deflect, to give him the same brittle smile she had given Mingyu. But with Wonwoo, the lie always felt heavier. He didn't just see the Princess; he saw the girl who was terrified of losing herself.
"Mingyu noticed," she admitted, her voice so low it was almost lost to the splashing water. "He saw my hands shaking. He offered me a way out, and it only made the guilt worse. Heâs a good man, Wonwoo. Thatâs whatâs bothering me. He is a good man, and I am standing there lying to him with every breath I take."
Wonwooâs expression shifted, a shadow of pain crossing his features at the mention of Mingyuâs kindness. For a long moment, the only sound was the rhythmic splashing of the fountain. Then, defying every rule etched into his training since the day he was knighted, he took a step forward, closing the gap that protocol demanded he maintain.
He didnât just stand behind her as a shadow. Instead, he reached out, his hand hesitating for a fraction of a second before his fingers brushed against hers. He gently took her hand, the one that had been trembling during the ceremony, and folded his palm over it. The leather of his glove was cool, but the pressure was firm and grounding.
âThen stop looking at him as the Prince of a rival house, and stop looking at yourself as a piece of a treaty,â he whispered, his voice thick with a sudden, raw honesty. He didn't pull his hand away, even though a single wandering eye from the palace windows could cost him his position. âYou are not a lie, Y/N. You are a woman being asked to carry the weight of an entire world on your back. If you cannot be honest with him, at least be honest with me. You don't have to be the Princess of Celestra within these four walls.â
The touch was a silent rebellion, a brief erasure of the line between a knight and his sovereign. For that heartbeat, they weren't a political tragedy in the making; they were simply two people holding onto each other in the quiet of a fading dawn.
Y/N didn't pull her hand away. Instead, she turned her palm upward, lacing her fingers with his as if anchoring herself to the only real thing left in her life. The cool morning air bit at her skin, but where their hands met, there was a heat that made the rest of the world feel distant and blurred.
She looked up at him, her eyes searching his for a sign of the same fracture she felt in herself. âAnd what if being honest with you is the most dangerous thing of all?â she whispered. âEvery time I look at you, I remember exactly who I am, and exactly what I have to give up to keep this kingdom whole.â
Wonwoo didnât flinch. His grip tightened almost imperceptibly, his thumb brushing over the back of her hand in a slow, rhythmic motion that felt like a silent vow. The distance between them had vanished, and in the stillness of the garden, she could see the golden flecks in his eyes and the way his jaw was set in a hard line of restrained emotion.
âThen let it be dangerous,â he murmured, his voice strained. âLet the world fall apart outside this garden. For once, just once, donât worry about the Council or the Prince or the peace. Just stay here. Just breathe.â
For a long, suspended moment, the political machinery of Celestra ceased to exist. There were no impending weddings, no trade routes, and no heavy crowns. There was only the sound of their shared breath and the terrifying, beautiful realization that the person she was supposedly "giving up" was most alive when she was standing right here, in the shadow of the man who was never supposed to touch her hand.
The air between them seemed to vanish as the silence grew heavy, charged with years of unspoken words and shared glances. Y/N looked up at him, her heart hammering against her ribs, not with the cold anxiety of the palace halls, but with a desperate, frantic longing.
Wonwooâs gaze dropped to her lips, his breath hitching. The logic of the knight, the duty to the crown, and the fear of the Council all seemed to dissolve in the pale morning light. He moved slowly, giving her every chance to pull away, to remember her station, to be the Princess again. But she didn't move
She leaned in, closing the final inch of the distance that had felt like a chasm for far too long. When his lips finally met hers, it wasn't the polished, formal grace of a royal courtship. It was a collision of relief and suppressed grief. It was the taste of a secret they had both been dying to tell, a soft and tentative touch that quickly deepened into something more certain. His free hand came up to rest against the side of her neck, his thumb grazing her jawline, holding her as if she were the only thing keeping him grounded.
For that one moment, the wedding to Mingyu felt like a ghost story from a distant land. There was no Celestra, no Northern March, and no duty. There was only the warmth of him, the scent of the garden, and the terrifyingly beautiful reality of a love that could never be spoken of in the light of day.
Wonwoo let out a sharp, ragged breath against her skin, the instinct of a soldier suddenly warring with the hunger of a man. The reality of their situation seemed to crash back into him, and he began to pull away, his hands sliding from her waist to her shoulders to create distance. He was the protector, the one meant to keep her safe from the very scandal they were currently creating.
But Y/N wasnât ready to let the world back in.
As he retreated, she stepped forward, her hands tangling in the heavy fabric of his tunic to pull him back. She chased his lips, refusing to let the warmth vanish, her movements desperate and unyielding. She didn't want the safety he offered; she wanted the fire that only he could provide.
A low, pained sound caught in Wonwooâs throat as he felt her persistence. His resolve, built over years of rigid discipline, crumbled in the face of her touch. His hands moved from her shoulders to her face, his fingers threading through her hair as he stopped retreating and met her with an intensity that matched her own.
For a few breathless seconds, he stopped being her guard and simply became hers. He kissed her with a ferocity that spoke of every time he had been forced to stand three paces behind her, every time he had watched her smile at Mingyu, and every night he had spent patrolling her door knowing he could never enter.
It was a beautiful moment, fueled by the knowledge that every second they spent like this was a betrayal of the crown she wore, and the life they were both expected to lead.
Finally, it was Y/N who pulled back, though only by an inch. Her breath came in short, jagged hitches, the heat of the kiss still burning on her lips. She didn't let him go completely; her hands remained anchored to his chest, feeling the frantic, heavy thud of his heart beneath the heavy fabric of his uniform.
Wonwoo stood perfectly still, his eyes dark and clouded with a mixture of adoration and agony. He didn't try to step back again, nor did he reach for her. He simply waited, his head bowed slightly, yielding entirely to her. In this quiet corner of the garden, the power dynamic of the court had inverted. He wasn't the guard commanding her safety, and he wasn't the soldier following a vow; he was a man placing his entire existence in her hands, waiting for her to decide what happened next.
He was giving her the control, the one thing she never had in the council rooms or at the tea ceremonies. If she told him to leave, he would disappear into the shadows. If she told him to stay, he would burn the world down to keep her.
Y/N looked up at him, her fingers curling into the embroidery of his tunic. For the first time, the silence between them didn't feel like a burden. It felt like a choice. She could see the vulnerability in the set of his shoulders, the way he was breathing only when she did, completely attuned to her next move.
"You're not going to stop me?" she whispered, her voice trembling with the weight of the moment.
"I am yours to command, my lady," Wonwoo murmured, his voice rough and low. "In this, and in everything else. If this is what you want... I have no will to fight you."
Y/N blushed, but before she could say anything the heavy, metallic thud of the Great Terrace doors echoing across the stone gallery acted like a bucket of ice water. The spell shattered instantly.
Wonwoo was the first to react, his soldierâs instincts overriding his heartbeat. He stepped back with a sharp, fluid movement, putting the required three paces of distance between them before Y/N had even fully processed the sound. By the time the heavy doors creaked open and the rhythmic click of heels on marble grew louder, he had already straightened his tunic and clasped his hands behind his back, his expression smoothing into a mask of professional indifference.
Y/N turned toward the fountain, her heart still racing so violently she was sure the approaching attendants would hear it. She frantically smoothed her skirts and tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, her lips still tingling from the pressure of his.
âPrincess? Your father is requesting your presence in the solar for the finalization of the wedding guest list.â
The voice of a young page reached them, followed shortly by the boy himself as he rounded the hedge. He stopped and bowed low, oblivious to the fact that he had walked into the aftermath of a quiet revolution.
âI am coming,â Y/N managed to say, her voice steadier than she expected, though she didn't dare look back at Wonwoo yet.
As she began to walk toward the terrace, she passed Wonwoo. For a split second, their eyes met, a flash of raw, shared memory that burned through their masks. He bowed his head as she passed, the perfect picture of a loyal, stoic guard, but the slight tension in his jaw told her everything she needed to know.Â
The three years leading up to Y/Nâs wedding changed everything, even if they never spoke about it. That morning in the garden was still there, hanging between them like a secret they both remembered but never dared to bring up. To talk about the kiss would mean admitting they had broken the rules, so they just lived with the memory of it, letting it sit in the silence of every room they shared.
In those three years, Wonwoo grew into a man who didn't need words to understand her. He became a master of noticing the small things that everyone else missed. He knew that when she was stressed about the wedding, she would twist the ring on her finger until her skin was red, and heâd quietly step into her line of sight to catch her eye and keep her grounded. He noticed that she hated the heavy, suffocating scent of the lilies the Queen favored, so he would make sure the windows in her sitting room were cracked open just enough to let in the fresh air before she arrived.
For Y/N, Wonwoo was the only person who actually saw her. She noticed how he always seemed to know when she had a headache, standing in a way that blocked the harsh glare of the sun from her desk. She watched him change, too, his shoulders got broader, his face more serious, and his protective streak grew even stronger. He didn't have to say anything for her to know he was looking out for her. Every time he handed her a cloak before she felt a chill, or stepped closer when a stranger got too near, it was his way of staying close to her without breaking the silence they had maintained since they were fifteen.
Despite the fact that her wedding to Mingyu was now only weeks away, they continued their quiet routine. They were experts at pretending they were just a Princess and her guard, but the way Wonwoo noticed every small change in her mood said otherwise. He was still the person who knew her best, even if they had to act like that kiss in the garden had never happened.
The training grounds were thick with the scent of kicked-up dust and oiled leather as Wonwoo and Mingyu circled each other. Now at twenty one, both men had grown into their frames; Mingyu with the broad-shouldered, effortless grace of a future king, and Wonwoo with the lean, lethal efficiency of a high-tier guard. The clash of their practice swords echoed against the stone walls, a rhythmic, violent dance that usually ended in a draw.
"You're distracted," Wonwoo remarked, his voice steady even as he parried a heavy blow from Mingyuâs blade. He didn't wait for a response before stepping into Mingyuâs space, forcing him to adjust. "Your footwork is sloppy on the left. Youâre overextending because youâre tired."
Mingyu laughed, a short, breathless sound as he wiped sweat from his brow. "Maybe. The wedding preparations are exhausting. My father has me reviewing trade routes until dawn." He lunged again, but Wonwoo deflected the strike with a flick of his wrist. "But how would you know? I thought I was hiding the fatigue well enough."
"You are," Wonwoo said, his eyes focused and sharp. "But youâre moving the same way the Princess does when sheâs had a long night of council meetings. You both get a slight tension in your shoulder, the right one. It makes your strikes heavy but slow."
Mingyu stopped mid-swing, his sword dropping an inch. He tilted his head, looking at Wonwoo with a sudden, piercing curiosity. The silence on the field stretched out, suddenly heavy.
"The right shoulder?" Mingyu repeated, his tone thoughtful. "I've known her since we were children, and I never noticed that. I didn't even know she had a tell when she was tired. She usually just hides behind that perfect, icy smile."
"It is my job to notice," Wonwoo said, though the words felt hollow in his own ears. "A guard who doesn't recognize when his charge is fatigued is a guard who misses a threat. She hides it well from the court, but she can't hide it from the person standing three paces behind her for twelve hours a day."
Mingyu didn't go back to the sparring stance. He sheathed his practice blade and stepped closer, his gaze searching Wonwooâs face. "You notice a lot, Wonwoo. You knew her favorite tea yesterday before she even asked for it. You moved her chair away from the draft in the solar without her saying a word. You seem to know her better than I do, and Iâm the one sheâs supposed to marry."
Mingyu didn't reach for his sword again. Instead, he leaned against a wooden training post, watching Wonwoo with a look that was more analytical than angry. There was no heat in his eyes, but there was a new, sharp focus, the kind a hunter uses when he realizes heâs been looking at a map upside down.
"Itâs more than just the shoulder, isn't it?" Mingyu asked, his voice dropping to a conversational level that felt far too intimate for the middle of a training field. "Yesterday, at the banquet, she started to reach for the wine, but you swapped her glass for water before her fingers even touched the stem. You knew she had a headache before sheâd even admitted it to herself."
Wonwoo felt a cold pull of dread in his stomach, but he kept his posture rigid. "The Princess is prone to migraines when the hall is too crowded, Prince Mingyu. I was simply anticipating a need to keep her present for the toast."
"And the way you stand?" Mingyu continued, ignoring the excuse. He stepped toward Wonwoo, circling him slowly, much like they had been doing during the spar. "You don't just stand behind her. You stand for her. You adjust your position based on the sun to keep her in the shade. You move when she breathes. Itâs almost like youâre wired to her."
Mingyu stopped in front of him, looking Wonwoo straight in the eye. There was no malice in his expression, Mingyu wasn't a cruel man, but there was a dawning realization that he was stepping into a space that was already occupied by someone else.
"Iâve spent three years trying to learn her favorite colors and her favorite poets," Mingyu said with a faint, almost sad smile. "And here you are, knowing the rhythm of her breath. It makes me wonder, Wonwoo... is that level of devotion something they teach in the Guard, or is it something you taught yourself?"
The silence that followed was deafening. Wonwoo knew that any answer he gave now would be a confession. He could see Mingyu waiting, not for a lie about protocol, but for the truth about why a common guard looked at the future Queen as if she were the only fixed point in a turning world.
Wonwoo didnât blink. He kept his gaze level, matching Mingyuâs stare with a calm that he didn't actually feel. He knew he was standing on a thin ledge. One wrong word could end his career or, worse, put Y/N in a position she couldn't explain.
"Every person has a rhythm, My Lord," Wonwoo said. His voice was low and steady, lacking any of the nervous energy that might give him away. "When you spend every waking hour ensuring someone stays alive, you stop seeing them as a person and start seeing them as a series of patterns. I know when she is tired because a tired Princess is a vulnerable one. I know when she has a headache because a distracted Princess doesn't see a threat coming."
Mingyu hummed, a small sound of acknowledgement, but he didn't look convinced. He picked up a cloth to wipe the sweat from his neck, his eyes still fixed on Wonwoo.
"Patterns," Mingyu repeated. He sounded like he was testing the word out to see if it rang true. "Thatâs a very clinical way to describe it. But Iâve watched you when she isn't looking. You don't look like a man watching for assassins. You look like a man who is afraid the world is going to break her."
Wonwoo tightened his jaw. He could feel the heat of the afternoon sun on his neck, but he felt cold. Mingyu wasn't being aggressive, which made it harder to deflect. He was being observant, and that was far more dangerous.
"She is the future of this kingdom," Wonwoo replied. He chose his words with extreme care. "It would be a failure on my part if she were to break under the weight of it. If I know her better than most, it is only because I am the only one allowed to see her when the mask slips. That is the burden of the guard, not a choice of the man."
Mingyu stayed quiet for a moment, tossing the cloth aside. He looked out toward the palace balcony where Y/N often sat.
"I hope you're right, Wonwoo," Mingyu said. He didn't sound angry. He sounded almost worried. "Because if I am going to be her husband, I would like to think I could eventually understand her the way you do. But standing here, I feel like a stranger trying to read a book in a language I haven't mastered yet."
He turned back to Wonwoo, his eyes searching. "It makes me uneasy. I do not want to lose her before our life together even begins simply because I am too blind to see what she needs. You have had three years to learn every breath she takes, and I am starting to realize that if I do not catch up, I will never truly have her."
Wonwoo felt a sharp pang of guilt mixed with a dark, possessive spark he tried to shove down. He realized that Mingyu wasn't just suspicious; he was afraid. He was afraid that no matter how many titles he held or how many provinces he brought to the marriage, he would always be the second person in the room when it came to Y/Nâs heart.
"You have time, My Lord," Wonwoo said, though the words felt like a lie on his tongue.
"Do I?" Mingyu asked with a small, hollow laugh. "The wedding is in a month, Wonwoo. You have a three-year head start. I just hope that by the time I learn her patterns, she hasn't already decided that you are the only one who truly knows her."
Mingyu offered a final, lingering look at the palace before turning away without another word. The sound of his boots retreating across the gravel felt like a countdown, each step emphasizing the month remaining before the wedding. Wonwoo remained exactly where he was, his hand still gripped tightly around the hilt of his practice sword. The silence of the training grounds rushed back in, but it offered no comfort. He realized then that Mingyuâs lack of anger was actually more dangerous than a confrontation. A jealous man could be handled with protocol, but a man who recognized the truth was a man who might eventually demand it.
Wonwoo looked down at his calloused hands, the same hands that had caught Y/Nâs tears and adjusted her cloaks for years, and felt the crushing weight of his position. He was the keeper of her secrets, but as Mingyu had pointed out, he was also the one standing in the way of her future. He stood alone in the settling dust, realizing that his devotion was no longer just a shield for the Princess, but a growing threat to the very peace he was sworn to protect. The map of her heart that he had spent three years drawing was no longer his alone to keep. Mingyu was looking for it now, and Wonwoo knew he couldn't hide the trail forever.
Later that evening, the palace had fallen into the hushed, rhythmic stillness of the night watch. Wonwoo stood outside Y/N's chambers, his back to the door, but his mind was still on the training grounds. He waited until the final patrol of the hour passed before he risked a soft, rhythmic knock on the wood behind him. It was a signal they had used a handful of times over the years, one that bypassed the formal "My Lady" and spoke directly to the girl he had once kissed in the garden.
The door opened just a crack, and the warm glow of candlelight spilled into the dark hallway. Y/N looked up at him, her hair down and her face tired, her eyes immediately searching his for the reason behind the late-night interruption. She noticed the tension in his jaw before he even spoke.
"We need to be more careful," Wonwoo whispered, his voice barely audible. "Mingyu is not as blind as we thought. He is starting to see the patterns."
Y/N stood up from her desk by the window. The moonlight lit up her face just enough that Wonwoo could see the worried expression she was wearing. âSee the patterns? What do you mean?â she asked, reaching out. Wonwoo sighed and took her hands, his rough palms a stark contrast to her soft skin.
âWe were training together today and I was foolish enough to share an observation about you with him,â Wonwoo admitted. He looked down at their joined hands, realizing how easily this simple gesture would confirm every suspicion Mingyu held. âHe noticed how I look after you. He mentioned the way I know your favorite tea or how I move to block the draft before you even feel the cold. He told me he feels like a stranger reading a book in a language he hasn't mastered yet.â
Wonwoo squeezed her fingers gently, his voice dropping an octave. âHe isn't angry, Y/N. That is the problem. He is observant, and he is starting to realize that I have a three-year head start on knowing your heart. He told me heâs afraid he will never truly have you because I am already standing in the space he is supposed to occupy.â
Y/N felt a chill that had nothing to do with the night air. The three years of silence they had maintained suddenly felt fragile, like a glass bridge beginning to crack under the weight of Mingyu's gaze. They had spent so much time perfecting their masks in public that they had forgotten that a man who loved her would be looking for the person behind the mask.
âIf he knows,â Y/N whispered, her eyes searching Wonwooâs, âthen he knows that my marriage to him will be a lie. What do we do, Wonwoo? If he tells my father, or if he decides he cannot marry a woman who is already spoken for in every way that matters, what happens to you?â
Wonwoo pulled her closer, his hands moving from hers to cup her face. The professional distance he had maintained for years finally snapped. He looked at her with a raw intensity that made her breath hitch, the mask of the stoic guard completely gone.
"He won't tell your father," Wonwoo said, his voice low and urgent. "Mingyu is a good man, but he is a man who wants to be loved. He will keep watching us, and eventually, the truth will destroy all three of us. I cannot stand by and watch you walk down that aisle knowing I am the reason your heart is breaking."
As he spoke, a single tear escaped and traced a slow, shimmering path down her cheek. Wonwoo didn't hesitate. He reached out and caught the drop with the pad of his thumb, wiping it away with a tenderness that felt more intimate than any word he had ever spoken. He let his hand linger there, his thumb resting against the corner of her mouth.
"I have spent the last three years watching you prepare for a life that is going to suffocate you," he continued, his voice softening. "I have made arrangements. I have a way out of the city, and I have friends across the border who do not care about alliances or crowns. I am not telling you that we have to go tonight, but I am telling you that the door is open."
He stepped back just an inch, giving her space to breathe, though he didn't let go of her hands. "You have two weeks before the final ceremonies begin. Use them. Look at the life they have built for you, and then look at me. If you decide that you cannot go through with it, tell me. We will leave everything behind, and I will spend the rest of my life making sure you never regret it. But if you choose the crown, I will stay. I will be your guard, and I will never speak of this again."
The silence in the room was heavy with the weight of the choice he had just laid at her feet. For three years, they had been trapped by fate, but now, Wonwoo had given her the one thing she thought she had lost forever: a way out. He was offering her a life of anonymity and struggle, but one where he could finally love her in the light.
"Think about it, Y/N," he whispered, his eyes lingering on hers. "Don't answer me now. Just know that you don't have to be the person they are forcing you to be. You just have to decide if the woman you are is enough for the life I can give you."
The days that followed were a slow torture of divided loyalties. Every time Y/N looked at Mingyu, she saw a man who was genuinely trying to bridge the gap between them. He brought her books he thought she might like and made self-deprecating jokes during formal luncheons to try and coax a real smile from her. At twenty one, Mingyu was everything a princess should want, kind, handsome, and earnest. Yet, every time he reached for her hand or asked her a question about her childhood, Y/N felt a wave of guilt so cold it made her fingers go numb. She was watching a good man fall in love with a ghost, while the man who actually held her soul stood three paces behind her, a silent shadow in silver armor.
Her internal struggle became a physical weight as the wedding preparations reached a fever pitch. She spent her afternoons in fittings for a gown that felt more like a shroud, surrounded by seamstresses who praised her beauty while she felt like she was disappearing. During these moments, her eyes would instinctively find Wonwooâs reflection in the tall pier glasses. He remained the perfect picture of professional indifference, but she could see the slight, familiar tension in his jaw that Mingyu had pointed out. She realized then that Wonwoo wasn't just waiting for her answer; he was suffering through every second of the countdown alongside her.
The contrast between her two lives grew sharper with every passing hour. With Mingyu, there was the promise of a stable, powerful future, a crown, a duty fulfilled, and the safety of her kingdom. With Wonwoo, there was only the unknown. She thought about the horses at the south postern and the gold he had saved, and she wondered if she was brave enough to be the woman he believed she was. She was terrified of the war her departure might spark, but she was even more terrified of the person she would become if she stayed. Every time Mingyu laughed or tried to "learn her patterns," it only served to remind her that those patterns had been woven by Wonwooâs hands.
By the end of the week, the pressure had become nearly unbearable. Y/N found herself standing on her balcony late at night, looking out toward the dark horizon where the border lay. She thought about the life Wonwoo had offered her, a life without titles, where they could finally speak about that morning in the garden without fear. The choice was no longer just between two men; it was between the Princess of Hesperos and the woman who had once been kissed behind a hedge. As the moon climbed higher, she realized that the more Mingyu tried to know her, the more she realized that only one person truly did.
âYouâre doing it again,â Mingyu said quietly, setting his wine glass down with a definitive click.
Y/N looked up, her fork pausing halfway to her plate. âDoing what?â
âYouâre here, but youâre not,â Mingyu replied, his voice devoid of anger but heavy with profound sadness. He leaned forward, the light catching the gold embroidery of his tunic. âI have spent the last hour trying to talk to you about the music for the ceremony, about the flowers, about our future home in the North. And every time I speak, you look right through me as if I am a ghost.â
Y/N felt a lump form in her throat. âI am just tired, Mingyu. The preparations are a lot for anyone.â
âItâs not just the fatigue,â Mingyu countered, his gaze shifting briefly to the shadow by the door before returning to her. âIâve tried to learn your patterns, Y/N. Iâve tried to be the man who knows when youâre stressed or when you need a moment of quiet. But every time I think Iâve found a way in, I realize that the door is already locked from the inside. There is a wall around you that I canât climb, and I think we both know who holds the key.â
The air in the room became suffocating. Y/N glanced toward Wonwoo, but he remained perfectly still, his eyes fixed on the far wall, though she knew he was hanging on every word.
âI want to love you,â Mingyu said, his voice cracking slightly. âI want to be the person you turn to. But how can I marry a woman who looks at her guard with more recognition than she looks at her husband? How can I build a kingdom with someone who treats my presence like a sentence she has to serve?â He reached across the table, his hand hovering near hers but not quite touching. âTell me the truth, Y/N. If I walked out of this room right now and called off the wedding, would you be heartbroken, or would you finally be able to breathe?â
The silence following Mingyuâs question was so heavy that the crackle of the fireplace sounded like a thunderclap. Y/N looked down at his hovering hand, then slowly shifted her gaze to the doors where Wonwoo stood. For three years, she had carried the weight of the crown and the secret of the garden like a leaden cloak, but looking at Mingyuâs pained, honest face, she realized she couldn't let him shoulder the burden of a lie any longer.
âI would breathe,â she whispered, the words coming out as a shaky, jagged confession.
She looked up, her eyes swimming with unshed tears. âI would breathe, Mingyu, and that is the most terrible thing I have ever had to admit. You are a good man. You have been nothing but kind, and patient, and everything a Queen could ever ask for. But my heart was never part of the alliance. It was never mine to give to you in the first place.â
Mingyuâs hand dropped to the table, his fingers curling into a fist. He didn't look surprised; he looked like a man watching a storm he had seen on the horizon finally make landfall. He followed her gaze to Wonwoo, who had finally broken his stance. Wonwooâs hand was resting on the hilt of his sword, his expression a mix of terrifying protectiveness and profound grief.
âItâs him, then,â Mingyu said, his voice a hollow echo. âItâs been him since the beginning. Every time you tripped, every time you sighed, every time you looked for a reason to leave a room, it was always toward him.â He let out a sharp, bitter breath that wasn't quite a laugh. âAll this time, I thought I was failing to win you over. I didn't realize I was trying to win a battle that had already been lost years ago.â
Y/N stood up, her chair scraping harshly against the marble floor. âIt wasn't a choice I made to hurt you, or the kingdom. It just... it happened. And we spent three years pretending it didn't. We tried to be what everyone needed us to be, Mingyu. But I can't do it anymore. I canât walk down that aisle and promise to spend my life with you when every piece of me belongs to the man standing three paces behind me.â
Mingyu sat in silence for a long time, his eyes fixed on the flickering candle flames. The betrayal clearly hurt, but his anger seemed to be eclipsed by a weary sense of clarity. He looked at Y/N, then shifted his gaze to Wonwoo, really looking at him for the first time not as a shadow, but as a rival who had already won.
"I will not be the one to go to your father," Mingyu said, his voice sandpaper-dry. "I have no desire to be the reason a man is executed for the crime of being loved by a Princess. And I have too much pride to drag a woman to the altar who is mourning someone else while she holds my hand."
He stood up, his movements stiff and formal. He walked toward the door, stopping just a few feet from where Wonwoo stood. The height difference between the two men was negligible, but the tension was immense.
"I will tell the Council and the King that I am the one who wishes to call off the wedding," Mingyu stated, looking Wonwoo directly in the eye. "I will tell them that I have realized our temperaments are not a match, and that the alliance would be better served through trade agreements rather than a hollow marriage. I will take the blame, and I will return to my own lands."
He turned back to Y/N, a shadow of a smile touching his lips, one that didn't reach his eyes. "But understand this: my protection ends the moment I leave. The King will be furious. He will look for someone to blame for my departure, and he will look at your guard with fresh eyes once I am no longer here to distract him. You have the freedom you wanted, but it is a fragile thing."
Mingyu reached for the door handle, pausing one last time. "I won't tell your secret, but I won't help you keep it either. If you are going to run, you should do it while the court is still reeling from my announcement. Because once I am gone, you will be the only target left for his rage."
With a final, sharp nod, Mingyu exited the hall, leaving the heavy doors to swing shut behind him.
The silence following Mingyuâs departure was thick and suffocating. Wonwoo didn't wait more than a heartbeat before he was across the room, his hands finding Y/Nâs shoulders. The professional mask had completely shattered, replaced by an urgency that bordered on desperation. He knew the clock was ticking; once Mingyu delivered his news to the King, the palace would transform into a cage of suspicion.
"We leave tonight," Wonwoo insisted, his voice a low, frantic rasp. "Do not pack a trunk. Do not look for jewelry. We take only what we can carry on a horse. Mingyu has given us a window, but it is closing with every step he takes toward your fatherâs study. Once the King realizes the alliance is dead, he will look for a reason, and he will look at me first."
Y/N nodded, her heart hammering against her ribs like a trapped bird. They moved through the servant passages, ghosts in the corridors they had walked for years. Wonwoo led the way, his hand never leaving hers, his eyes scanning every shadow. They reached the heavy iron gate of the south postern, the air smelling of damp earth and freedom. Wonwoo pulled the heavy bolt back, the metal screeching just slightly, and for a moment, the open woods lay before them, dark and inviting.
"Just a few more steps," Wonwoo whispered, stepping out into the cool night air and reaching back to pull her through.
"Is that as far as you thought you would get?"
The voice was like a blade of ice cutting through the dark. Torches flared to life all at once, illuminating the stone archway and the line of royal guards standing with crossbows leveled. Standing in the center of the light was Y/Nâs father, the King. He looked older in the torchlight, his face twisted in a mask of cold, controlled fury. He didn't look at his daughter; his eyes were fixed entirely on Wonwooâs hand, which was still gripped tightly around Y/Nâs.
"I trusted you with her life," the King said, his voice dangerously quiet. "I gave you the honor of standing in her shadow for years, and you used that proximity to rot the very foundation of my kingdom. Did you truly believe I wouldn't notice the way you looked at her? Or did you think my daughterâs duty was so cheap it could be stolen by a common soldier in a garden?"
Wonwoo didn't let go of her hand. Instead, he stepped in front of her, shielding her body with his own as the guards moved in to circle them. The freedom of the woods was only ten feet away, but it might as well have been on another continent.
The King took a step forward, the orange light of the torches dancing in his eyes. He ignored the crossbows and the tension in the air, focusing entirely on the man who had dared to touch the crownâs most precious asset. He didn't order an execution, not yet. Instead, he looked at Wonwoo with a terrifying, quiet curiosity.
"You have thrown away your life, your honor, and the safety of your family for this," the King said, gesturing vaguely to the dark woods behind them. "A common guard, raised in the barracks, believing he could steal a Princess. Tell me, soldier, before I have you stripped of your rank and thrown into the black cells: why? What could you possibly see in my daughter that was worth the certain death you are facing now?"
Wonwoo didn't flinch. Even with the tips of the crossbow bolts glinting in the light around him, he stood tall. He felt Y/Nâs fingers tremble in his, and he squeezed them once, firmly, before finally speaking.
"It wasn't a choice, Your Majesty," Wonwoo began, his voice surprisingly steady. "I didn't look at her and see a Princess or a political alliance. I saw a girl who was forced to grow up in rooms full of people who only wanted something from her. I love her because I am the only one who knows what her silence sounds like. I love her because I have seen the weight she carries every single day, and I wanted to be the one person she didn't have to be strong for."
He took a small breath, his eyes meeting the Kingâs without a shred of apology. "I love her because I noticed the things no one else cared to look for. I know how she breathes when sheâs afraid, and I know exactly how much she has sacrificed for a crown that only feels like a cage. You see a legacy, My Lord. I see a person. And if loving her as a person instead of a puppet is a crime, then I am guilty a thousand times over."
The Kingâs expression didn't soften; if anything, his jaw tightened at the raw honesty in Wonwoo's voice. He looked at his daughter, seeing the way she was looking at Wonwoo, not with the practiced grace of a royal, but with a desperate, heartbreaking devotion.
Y/N stepped forward, her movement so sudden and determined that the guards with the crossbows shifted their weight. She did not let go of Wonwooâs hand; instead, she used it to pull herself level with him, standing shoulder-to-shoulder against the light of the torches.
"He is right, Father," she said, her voice ringing out with a clarity she had never possessed in the Council chambers. "You ask why he loves me as if it is a mystery, but the real question is why you never bothered to know me well enough to ask that yourself. For years, I have been a piece on your board. I have smiled when told, spoken when prompted, and agreed to a marriage that would have withered my soul just to keep your peace."
She looked at her father, seeing the king first and the parent second, and for the first time in twenty one years, she didn't look away.
"You see his devotion as a betrayal of his rank, but it is the only honest thing in this entire palace," she continued, a single tear silvering her cheek but her gaze remaining steady. "Wonwoo didn't steal me. He saved me. He saw the girl you forgot existed beneath the silk and the titles. If you punish him for loving me, then you are punishing the only person in this kingdom who actually knows who your daughter is. You can throw him in the cells, or you can take his life, but you cannot undo the fact that he has already given me more freedom in his silence than you ever gave me in your halls."
She took a shaky breath, her grip on Wonwooâs hand tightening until her knuckles were white. "If he is a criminal for seeing me as a person, then so am I. If he goes to the dungeons, I will follow him. If he is exiled, I will walk beside him. You taught me that my life belongs to the crown, but tonight I am telling you that my heart belongs to him. You can keep the Princess, Father, but you will never truly have me back."
The King stood motionless, the flicker of the torches casting deep, unreadable shadows across his face.Â
The King stood motionless, the flicker of the torches casting deep shadows across his weathered face. He looked at his daughter, really looked at her, and saw not a political pawn, but a woman whose spirit he had nearly extinguished. He saw her hand gripped tightly in Wonwooâs and realized that the "loyalty" he had demanded from his guard was nothing compared to the devotion Wonwoo had actually given her. The silence stretched, the guards waiting for a command to strike, but it never came.
"I have spent my life building walls to protect this kingdom," the King finally said, his voice losing its iron edge and sounding, for the first time, like that of a tired father. "I thought that by securing your future through alliances, I was protecting you as well. But standing here, seeing the way you look at him... I realize I have only succeeded in building a prison for my own child." He let out a long, heavy breath, his shoulders sagging slightly. "If I force this, I lose my daughter. And if I lose you, what was the point of the kingdom?"
He signaled to the archers, and with a collective rustle of leather and wood, they lowered their crossbows. The King stepped forward, stopping just a few feet away. He looked Wonwoo in the eye, not with fury, but with a searching, heavy solemnity. "You say you know what her silence sounds like. You say you know the person beneath the crown. That is a burden heavier than any sword, soldier. If I allow this, you are no longer just a guard. You are the guardian of her happiness. If you fail her, there is no corner of this world where you can hide from me."
He turned back to Y/N, reaching out a hesitant hand to brush a stray hair from her forehead. "The alliance with the North will be difficult to mend, and the Council will scream for blood. There will be no secret flight into the woods tonight. If you want this man, you will have him, but you will do it properly. We will find a way to make him more than a soldier in the eyes of the court. It will take time, and it will be a scandal that tests us all, but I will not be the man who broke my daughterâs heart to save a border."
He looked at their joined hands and gave a small, weary nod. "Go back inside. Both of you. We have a great deal of work to do to explain why the Princess is marrying her shield instead of a Prince."
The transition from being hunted fugitives to an officially recognized couple happened with a dizzying speed that left the palace reeling. After the Kingâs public dismissal of the guards, the heavy atmosphere of the courtyard evaporated, replaced by the hushed whispers of the court. But for Y/N and Wonwoo, the noise of the world didn't matter. They were led not to a cell or a hidden path, but back to the private solar overlooking the moonlit gardens, the very place where their secret had lived in the shadows for so long.
As the heavy oak doors clicked shut behind them, the silence was no longer a weapon used against them; it was a sanctuary. For a long moment, they simply stood in the center of the room, the space between them finally free of the "three-pace rule." The torchlight from the hallway was gone, replaced by the soft, silver glow of the moon spilling across the floorboards. Wonwoo was the first to move. He unbuckled the heavy leather vambraces from his forearms, the metal clattering onto a side table, a sound of a soldier finally laying down his arms.
"It doesn't feel real," he whispered, his voice thick with a vulnerability he had never been allowed to show.
Y/N crossed the room, her silk skirts rustling like a long-held breath finally released. When she reached him, she didn't just take his hand; she leaned her forehead against his chest, listening to the steady, rhythmic thrum of his heart. It was beating fast, matching her own. Wonwoo wrapped his arms around her, pulling her so close that the cold metal of his remaining armor was the only thing between them. He rested his chin on the top of her head, his eyes closing as he inhaled the scent of jasmine in her hair, a scent he had inhaled from a distance for years, but could finally claim as his own.
The relief was a physical wave, washing away the exhaustion of the last few days. Wonwoo pulled back just enough to look at her, his hands sliding up to cradle her face. There was no urgency now, no four-minute timer, no shadow guards lingering in the doorway. He traced the line of her jaw with a slow, reverent thumb, his gaze lingering on her eyes as if confirming she was truly there. "For three years, I thought the only way I could love you was in the dark," he said, his voice dropping to a low, intimate rasp. "I thought I would spend my whole life being the man who stood behind you, never the man who stood beside you."
Y/N reached up, her fingers tangling in the hair at the nape of his neck, pulling him down until their lips were inches apart. "You were always beside me, Wonwoo. Even when you were standing at the door."
When they finally kissed, it was slow and deep, a silent vow exchanged in the moonlight. It wasn't the frantic, desperate kiss of a doomed couple; it was the quiet, steady beginning of a life lived in the light. They had a long road ahead, angry councilmen, broken treaties, and a court that would never truly forget, but as Wonwoo pulled her back into the safety of his embrace, Y/N knew that for the first time in her life, she wasn't just a Princess. She was home.
The walk to the royal chambers felt entirely different than it had for the last three years. Usually, Wonwoo followed several paces behind, his eyes scanning the corridors for threats, his presence a comfort but a distant one. Tonight, as they climbed the grand spiral staircase, his hand remained firmly in hers. There were still guards posted at the turns of the halls, but as the couple passed, the men didn't move to intervene; they simply lowered their heads in a new, uncertain kind of respect.
When they reached the heavy, gold-inlaid doors of her bedroom, Wonwoo paused. It was the threshold he had stood outside of for a thousand nights, guarding her sleep while he sat in the cold silence of the hallway. He looked at the handle, then back at Y/N, a trace of his old professional hesitation flickering in his eyes. Y/N smiled and tugged on their interlaced hands, an invitation to further break the boundary that the crown had set.Â
"I have spent three years imagining what it would be like to walk through this door with you," he whispered, his voice low and private. "And now that itâs open... I find Iâm almost afraid to step inside. As if the dream might break."
Y/N didn't say a word. She simply squeezed his hand and pushed the door open.
The room was bathed in the warm, amber glow of a dying fire in the hearth. The scent of cedar and dried lavender hung in the air. As the door clicked shut behind them, the finality of the sound felt like a seal on their old lives. The palace, the King, and the looming scandal were all on the other side of that wood. Inside, there was only the soft crackle of the embers and the two of them.
Wonwoo turned to her, the firelight catching the sharp planes of his face and softening the intensity in his dark eyes. He reached out, his fingers slowly unlacing the heavy cloak from her shoulders, letting the fabric fall to the floor in a pool of silk. He moved with a reverence that made her heart ache, his touch light as if he were handling something incredibly fragile.
"No more doors between us," he murmured, stepping into her space until their shadows merged against the far wall. He tucked a lock of hair behind her ear, his hand lingering there, his thumb brushing against her temple.
For the first time, he wasn't looking for assassins or listening for footsteps in the hall. He was only looking at her. He leaned down, his lips ghosting against her forehead before he pulled her into a slow, deep embrace. In the quiet of the room, far above the rest of the world, they finally let the weight of the crown and the sword fall away, ready to face the first night of a future they had finally earned.
In the quiet of her chambers, the adrenaline of the confrontation finally broke, and the reality of their survival crashed over her. Y/N looked up at Wonwoo, her eyes shimmering in the dying firelight, and a single, heavy tear escaped, tracing a slow path down her cheek. It wasn't a tear of sadness, but of a profound, overwhelming relief that had been three years in the making.
Wonwooâs expression softened instantly, his heart aching at the sight. He reached out with a hand that had spent years gripped around the hilt of a sword, but now moved with the most delicate tenderness. Using the pad of his thumb, he caught the tear before it could reach her jaw, wiping it away with a lingering touch. He didn't pull his hand back; instead, he let his palm cradle her face, his thumb brushing over her skin as if to ensure she was truly real and truly safe.
"No more tears, Y/N," he whispered, his own voice thick with emotion. "The fighting is over. We don't have to hide anymore."
He leaned down, his eyes searching hers for a brief second before he closed the distance. The kiss was slow and deep, a quiet anchor in the middle of their changing world. It tasted of salt and the lingering heat of the hearth, a soft promise that he was no longer just her guard, but her partner. As he pulled her closer, his arms wrapping around her waist to pull her flush against him, the last of the tension left her body. In the safety of her room, with the world outside finally silenced, they stayed like that for a long time, two people who had finally found their way home.
Y/N wrapped her arms around Wonwooâs neck to also pull him closer, before slightly pushing him towards her bed.Â
âYour Highness,â Wonwoo breathed against her lips, the habit of three years of service flickering in his voice even now.
But Y/N didn't let him finish. She pressed her fingers gently to his lips, shaking her head as a fresh tear of relief welled in her eyes.
âNo titles,â she whispered, her voice a soft command that had nothing to do with royalty and everything to do with the woman she had finally become. âJust Y/N. From tonight on, itâs just Y/N and Wonwoo.â
Wonwoo let out a shaky breath, his forehead resting against hers. A small, genuine smile finally broke through his stoic mask, the kind of smile he had only ever saved for her in the shadows of the garden. He reached up, his thumb catching the tear on her cheek and wiping it away with a lingering, tender touch.
âY/N,â he repeated, the name sounding like a prayer in the quiet room.
He leaned down again, his lips meeting hers in a kiss that was no longer a secret, but a beginning. There were no ranks between them now, no barriers of stone or silk; there was only the steady heat of the fire and the two of them, finally whole.Â
When Y/N started fiddling with the latchings on his armor, his heart stuttered, âare you sure?â He asked, looking down at her with nothing but love in his eyes.Â
âIâve been in love with you the moment you offered to carry that huge bread basket for me when we were children,â Y/N confessed in between pressing kisses all over his face. âI donât want to wait any longer.âÂ
Wonwoo chuckled at the confession and nodded before undoing the latches on his chestplate. Y/N watched him undo his left shoulder and when he was finished, undid the right for him. Letting the metal arm pieces fall to the ground. They worked together to take the rest of his armor off, from the chestplate to the leg pieces until there was just Wonwoo in the simple shirt and pants.Â
âThereâs the boy I fell in love with,â Y/N sighed, before wrapping her arms around his neck and pulling him into a kiss.Â
Wonwo quickly moved his hands from cupping her jaw to the lace of her dress, trying his hardest to undo the laces without looking and not accidently knotting them.Â
Y/N chuckled and reached behind her own back to remove Wonwooâs hands to undo the laces herself. Wonwooâs cheeks flushed in embarrassment but went back to cupping her cheeks as she quickly undid the laces of her dress and then pushed the heavy fabric off her shoulders when it was loose enough, leaving her in a light frock.Â
He cupped her ass and slightly nudged her with his legs causing Y/N to lift both of her legs and let Wonwoo carry her while making his way toward the bed. Once he felt his legs hit the edge of the bed, he gently lowered her onto the bed.Â
Y/N gasped when he disconnected their lips and slowly started kissing all over her face. Her nose, her eyes, her forehead, then started moving down towards her jaw and neck. She sighed, reveling in his attention and moved her hands from around his neck to in his hair.Â
Wonwoo groaned, when she started pulling on his hair when he started pressing kisses to her collarbone and started pushing the straps of her frock off her shoulders and slowly pulling it down to reveal her chest.Â
âYouâve always been beautiful,â Wonwoo confessed, his voice dropping to a low, rough velvet that made her heart skip. He pulled back just enough to look at her, his dark eyes tracing every curve of her face in the firelight as if he were seeing her clearly for the very first time. âBut tonight, here with the truth between us... youâve never looked more like yourself. And that is what Iâve always been in love with.â
Y/N felt a fresh wave of warmth spread through her chest, her fingers tightening in his hair as he peppered kisses along her chest and stomach.Â
Wonwoo looked up in between kisses to her nipples to watch her glistening face melt at the pleasure he was giving her, before giving a particular harder suck to her left nipple. She let out a moan and tightened her grip on his hair.Â
âWonwoo,â she panted as his hand went to spread her legs and started moving his kisses lower. She finally let go of his hair so he could move further down her body, grasping the bed sheets feeling him settle between her legs.Â
âI donât exactly know what Iâm doing here,â Wonwoo said, pressing kisses against her hip bones. âIf anything doesnât feel right, tell me.âÂ
Y/N nodded, and reached down to lace her hand with his, âYou werenât out bedding every maiden that looked your way?âÂ
Wonwoo scoffed and squeezed her hand, âI was sworn to celibacy when I became your knight, lest you forget.âÂ
Y/N chuckled, and squeezed his hand back, âI trust you Wonwoo.âÂ
Wonwoo smiled up at her before moving his other hand to her hip to keep her in place and lowering his lips to her core.
He wasnât quite sure what he was doing, but the other knights had shared stories about pleasuring women. They talked about tasting women and the sounds that they made, so he knew that the moans Y/N was making when he was kissing her earlier was what should happen as well.Â
He started licking through her folds, tasting the arousal that was nestled between her legs, and noticed that the spot at the top of her mound made her moan the most. He moved his attention towards the top of her cunt and started rubbing his tongue in circles feeling her whimper and buck her hips gently.Â
âDoes this feel good love?â He asked, the vibration of his low voice causing waves of arousal shoot through her body, causing her to wrap her legs around his shoulders, locking him in place.Â
He switched between rubbing her sex and sucking the pebble before she squeezed their interlocked hands again.Â
âIt feels good Wonwoo,â she trembled, hips stuttering before releasing all over his face. Wonwoo continued licking her through her release, eager to taste every last drop of her.Â
âYou taste devine,â he praised, running his tongue all around her, triggering another build up. âCan you do it again for me? Please?âÂ
Y/N whined, tightening her legs around his head, the overstimulation on her clit turning from discomfort to pleasure again. After a few more hard sucks to her mound she fell apart on his tongue again, back arching this time and moved her free hand to try and pry his head away from her in case he wanted another orgasm.Â
Wonwoo licked his lips, not wanting to waste a single drop of her arousal before slowly kissing his way back up her body. A kiss to her kip, below her belly button, her rib, below her breasts, her nipple, her sternum, her jaw, and then finally her lips.Â
She moaned into his mouth, not used to the sweet taste of what she could only assume was herself, before tugging his shirt off him.Â
Wonwooâs training had done him well. He was no longer the skinny baker's boy she had known in their youth; he had grown into all his features quite well. His chest was broad, a testament to the grueling years spent on the training grounds and the heavy toll of his duties, his shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of her safety for years, and the solid muscle of his arms provided a sense of security that no stone wall ever could. The lean, awkward teenager had been replaced by a man of formidable presence, forged by the discipline of the guard and the silent fire of his devotion to her.
She ran her hands across his chiseled chest, before tugging on his pants. He chuckled, and nodded sitting back to take them off.Â
As she watched him remove his pants and reveal his cock. Y/Nâs cheeks flushed at the size of him, as Wonwoo's breath also hitched at the cool air flooding the room from the open window. He leaned back down over her, interlacing one of their hands together and pinning them by her head. His other hand went back between her legs to make sure she was wet enough to take him without any pain.Â
When his hand came in contact with her wetness he lined himself up with her before looking back up into her eyes.Â
âI love you,â he softly smiled, connecting their lips before slowly pushing himself into her.Â
âI love you too,â she sighed, trying to adjust to his size. Wonwoo winced, as Y/N tried to adjust to his size, clenching his cock a few times, panting heavily, rubbing her hard nipples against his own, and holding onto his bicep.
Once Wonwoo was all the way in her, Y/N moaned, and squeezed his bicep harder. Wonwoo groaned at how tight she was, before pushing his hips back, taking a second to catch his breath and rocking his hips back into hers.Â
Y/N threw her head back into the pillows as Wonwoo continued to move, the pleasure building up in her stomach before she gently put her hands onto his chest, asking him to stop.Â
âWhat? Whatâs wrong?â He asked, a concerned look spreading across his face.Â
Y/N batted her eye lashes up at him before turning onto her stomach and propping herself up on her elbows and knees, the sheets catching under her. Wonwoo groaned before leaning over her and interlocking their hands again before sliding back into her. This time thrusting into her harsher.Â
âIâm close,â Y/N panted against the pillows. Wonwoo would have almost missed it, if he wasnât so focused on the noises she was making. He smiled and squeezed their interlocked hands before moving to cup her breast and squeezing her nipple.Â
The stimulation was enough to cause Y/N to climax, her walls fluttering around his cock, causing Wonwoo to also climax, emptying himself into her. As Wonwooâs climax finished, he smiled and slowly pulled out of her, pressing kisses along her spine as she stayed propped up on her elbows and knees to catch her breath.
Once he finally noticed that her breath was evening out, he laid down beside her, arms under his head to look up at her glowing face. Her eyes were closed, but she was smiling. He chuckled and reached out to tuck a piece of hair behind her ear.Â
âWhere did you learn all of that Sir Wonwoo?â She panted, finally opening up her eyes and slowly moved her legs so that she was laying on her stomach. She turned her head toward him to see him reaching towards the floor to grab something off the ground before coming up with a rag to wipe her down.Â
âI have only heard stories from the other knights I trained with. Although they never told me how the deed is done, they did tell me what their lovers enjoyed,â he smirked.
Y/N smiled, rolling on to her back so he could clean between her legs, before spreading them. âDonât get me wrong, I wasnât complaining. More so in awe of how good it felt for our first times.â
Wonwoo carefully opened her legs and gently pressed the rag between her legs, dabbing the remaining release from between them and pressing a kiss to her clit.Â
Y/N gasped, at the contact before nudging him with her foot. âGive me some time to recover.âÂ
Wonwoo chuckled, âsorry. I couldnât help it.âÂ
He moved back up to lay beside her, the mattress sinking slightly under his weight. With a gentle, inviting smile, he patted his broad chest, signaling for her to lay on top of him. Y/N didnât hesitate; she shifted closer, resting her head against the steady thrum of his heart and draping her arm across his torso, finally feeling the warmth she had only been allowed to imagine for years.
âI canât believe that we get to be together,â she whispered, her voice muffled against the soft fabric of his tunic. The words felt fragile, as if saying them too loudly might wake her from a dream. âFor so long, I thought the only way I could keep you safe was to keep you away. I thought our lives would always be lived in glances and whispers.â
Wonwooâs hand found her hair, his fingers stroking the tresses with a slow, rhythmic grace that acted as a balm to her nerves. âThe wait is over, Y/N,â he murmured, his chest vibrating beneath her cheek as he spoke. âNo more hallways between us. No more watching you walk away into rooms I wasnât allowed to enter.â
He tilted his head down, resting his chin atop her hair, his other arm wrapping securely around her waist to hold her flush against him. In the quiet of the room, the only sound was the crackle of the fire and their synchronized breathing. The bakerâs boy who had become a soldier, and the Princess who had become a woman, were finally just two souls sharing a bed and a future.
âWe have the rest of our lives for it to feel real,â Wonwoo promised, his voice a low, steady anchor in the dark. âAnd Iâm not going anywhere.â
The palace was no longer a labyrinth of secrets, but a home filled with the sound of celebration. The scent of orange blossoms and expensive wine lingered in the air, drifting up from the courtyard where the kingdom was still toasted to the health of the newly titled Consort and his Princess. But inside the royal chambers, the heavy oak doors had been shut against the world, finally granting the couple the one thing they had fought the hardest for: a moment of absolute peace.
The transition from a disgraced guard to the Grand Commander of the Royal Guard was a transformation that changed the very foundation of the kingdom. The King, recognizing that no man was more capable of defending the crown than the one who loved its heir, officially placed the silver seal of the Knights into Wonwooâs hand. He was no longer the skinny bakerâs boy or the silent shadow; he had become the kingdomâs most formidable pillar. His broad chest now filled out the midnight-blue velvet and silver-plated armor of his station, a physique forged by years of discipline and the heavy weight of a responsibility he took with absolute gravity.
Under Wonwooâs leadership, the atmosphere of the palace shifted. He replaced the atmosphere of surveillance with one of brotherhood, training a new generation of knights who looked at him with the same reverence the common people did. In the war room, he sat at the Kingâs right hand, his directness as a soldier cutting through the political noise of the Council. He had become a man of such presence that the Northern factions no longer dared to test the borders; they knew the Princess was guarded by a man who had already proven he would face death for her.
The ceremony had been a masterclass in royal spectacle, yet for Wonwoo, it felt like a dream occurring in slow motion. As he stood at the altar in his formal whites, the sunlight filtering through the stained glass caught the sharp, handsome lines of his face. When Y/N walked down the long stone aisle, the room fell into a hush that wasn't born of protocol, but of genuine awe. She wasn't just a Princess being wed; she was a woman reclaiming her life. When they finally stood face-to-face, Wonwoo didn't wait for the priest's prompting. He reached out and took her hands, his large, calloused fingers enveloping hers with a grounding strength that said, I have you.
The reception had followed with endless toasts and the clinking of crystal, but the true wedding happened in the small, stolen glances they shared across the high table. Every time a lord addressed him as "Lord Consort" or "Commander," Wonwoo would feel a phantom weight of his old armor, but then he would feel Y/Nâs knee brush against his under the table, anchoring him. They danced onceâa slow, sweeping waltz that cleared the floor. In that moment, with his hand on the small of her back and her hand on his broad shoulder, the "patterns" of their love were on display for the whole kingdom to see. They moved as one, a seamless harmony that proved their souls had been married long before the rings were ever exchanged.
Now, hours later, the echoes of the cheers had finally faded, replaced by the crackle of the fire in their private suite. Wonwoo finished unbuckling the last of his formal gear, the heavy silver-trimmed cloak hitting the chair with a dull thud. He stood in his simple linen undershirt, his chest broad and rising steadily with his breath as he looked at Y/N by the hearth. The transition from the public hero to the private husband was visible in the way his shoulders finally dropped, the tension of the day melting away.
He moved toward her, his bare feet silent on the rugs. He didn't say a word as he reached her; he simply wrapped his arms around her waist from behind, pulling her back against the solid warmth of his chest. He buried his face in the crook of her neck, inhaling the lingering scent of her wedding perfume and the familiar, sweet warmth of her skin. "I thought the day would never end," he murmured, his voice a low, vibrating rumble against her back. "I spent the whole night wanting to spirit you away from the crowds and bring you back here, where itâs just us. I think,â Wonwoo began, his voice raspy from a day of formal vows and political pleasantries, âthat if I had to shake one more Dukeâs hand or hear one more toast about 'border stability,' I might have actually seized the crown and run for the hills.â
Y/N laughed, the sound bright and clear in the quiet room. She stepped toward him, reaching up to help him with the stubborn silver fastenings at his throat. âAnd here I thought the Grand Commander was supposed to have infinite patience. You looked so stoic at the altar, Wonwoo. Like a statue carved from marble.â
âI wasn't being stoic,â he admitted, his hands coming up to rest on her waist, pulling her flush against his broad chest. âI was terrified that if I moved too quickly or breathed too loud, the illusion would shatter. I kept waiting for a guard to tap me on the shoulder and tell me to get back to my post at the door.â
He leaned down, resting his forehead against hers, his eyes closing for a moment as he breathed her in. âBut then you took my hand, and your skin was so warm. That was when I knew it was real.â
Y/N leaned back just enough to look at him, her fingers tracing the sharp, familiar line of his jaw. âNo more posts at the door, Wonwoo. From now on, youâre the one inside the room. With me.â
âItâs a strange promotion,â he murmured with a small, lopsided smirk, the one he only ever showed her. âI went from guarding your life to being your life. I think I prefer the new title.â
âAnd what title is that?â she teased, her heart thudding against her ribs as his grip on her waist tightened.
Wonwoo didn't answer with words at first. He swept her up into his arms, his strength effortless as he carried her toward the bed. He laid her down against the silk pillows before settling beside her, patting his chest in that silent, sacred invitation. Once she was tucked against him, her head rising and falling with his breath, he whispered into her hair.
âJust Wonwoo,â he said softly. âYour Wonwoo.â
âThatâs the only one I ever wanted,â she replied, closing her eyes as the peace of their new life finally settled over them both
âą đ đđ§đ«đ(đŹ): smut with a little plot, romance?
âą đđź(đŹ): nonidol
âą đ°đšđ«đ đđšđźđ§đ: 3.5k
âą đđ«đąđ đ đđ« đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: cussing, drinking (wonwoo refused to touch mc with alcohol involved), talks about online sex work
âą đŹđŠđźđ đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: dom wonwoo, bratty/sub reader, big dick wonwoo, size kink, use of sex toys, unprotected sex, creampie, cumplay, rougher sex, the reader is handcuffed, edging, overstimulation, begging, dirty talk, choking, body worship, wonwoo can be a little mean, crying from pleasure, mc is a little worried Mingyu can hear them, nicknames: baby, good girl, brat, princess (hers) nonu, baby, sir (his)
âą đ«đđđąđ§đ : 18+ nsfw
âą đđ§: this one is for Wonwooâs birthday. Thank you @aeristudios for listening to me ramble about this one. Thank you @svtts for beta reading. divider by @/saradika-graphics.
đ§: if youâre too shy - the 1975 | cherry thrill - movements | worthy- the home team | 34 + 35 - ariana grande
When it comes to you and Wonwoo you both have some similarities, but are also quite different. You both have jobs online. Wonwoo is a successful streamer, and you're known for your spicy paid subscription website. You've been on online fans, and working as a cam girl for a few years now. You've managed to absolutely make bank, and have built quite the online following even away from your site.
You and Wonwoo have quite a few mutual friends. It turns out he's had a crush on you for a while. Once Seungcheol found out, he decided to introduce you two.
The first time you crossed patches was at Seungcheol's birthday party. You're not dumb, you're well aware of who Wonwoo is. There is something about a cute nerdy gamer with glasses, who clearly has the body of a Greek god, that does something to you.
Youâve found yourself being a silent viewer in a few of his streams.
At Seungcheolâs party, you learned Wonwoo was interested in you, but you aren't in a place with your career where you could try and navigate having a boyfriend.
The entire night Wonwoo flirted and eventually you exchanged numbers. You let him know then that you weren't looking for any type of connection with anyone.
It's been six months since you met, and it turns out you couldn't push Wonwoo away. Heâs turned into someone you texted often, and even flirt with all the time.
It turns out when you only have sex with yourself and toys, you start to get pent up.
THE GIRL ON THE SCREEN
Wonwoo is hosting a game night at his, and his best friend Mingyuâs apartment. You picked out your outfit with the intention of possibly trying to get laid. You've been debating on crossing the line with Wonwoo for a while. Tonight finally feels like the night.
The boys live in a pretty big three bedroom apartment. It seems their entire friend group plus some of the boys significant others are here.
The first person you see is Seungcheol. He leads you into the kitchen where Wonwoo is talking to Seokmin. The moment Wonwoo's eyes lock on yours you have his full, undivided attention.
What was supposed to be a game night quickly turns into a night of drinking games. The more you drink the drunker you get. The more alcohol that floats through your veins, the more you flirt with Wonwoo.
The whole time he's talking to you, your eyes just focus on his pretty lips, and how he's nervously pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose. You want Wonwoo so bad, you could scream.
-
The light peaking through the curtain slowly wakes you up. Your eyes flutter open and you're hit with the realization you're not in your room. Lifting the covers you see that you're fully naked.
The clicking sounds of the keyboard catch your attention. Looking over into the corner, you see Wonwoo on his computer. The scrambled memories of last night start flooding back to you.
Wonwoo turns in his chair removing his headphones. He tilts his head looking at you. "Good morning, sunshine."
Slowly you sit up in his bed, holding the covers up. "Did we have sex?"
"No, you were drunk and I refused to even kiss you while you were intoxicated." He says firmly.
"Why am I naked?" He turns his chair around so he's fully facing you.
"Because after you tried to kiss me, you thought if you got fully naked, I would fuck you."
The memories of what happened between you are sparse, but you remember some of it. Awkwardly, you look around the room. Wonwoo's room looks exactly how you thought it would. Seungcheol always jokes and calls him a neat freak, and it looks like nothing is out of place in his room. It even looks like he's folded your clothes and placed them on his dresser.
You look at the other side of where Wonwoo's phone is sitting on the nightstand. "I slept in the living room on the couch."
"Oh." Turns out Wonwoo is a gentleman and respectful.
"I came in here so we could talk once youâd woke up."
Holding the blanket close to your chest, you get a little more comfortable. You know there is no way you can get out of talking after you clearly threw yourself at him last night.
"What did you want to talk about?" You try to play innocent.
He rolls his eyes. "I don't know, maybe the fact you threw yourself at me last night."
"I thought you liked me?" Wonwoo's made it very clear in the past he's interested in you.
He pushes himself up from the chair. Without thinking your eyes travel up and down his body. He's dressed in a pair of God forsaken grey sweatpants and a tight tank top that shows off his glorious shoulders.
"See, here's the thingâI like you, a lot actually." He pauses, stopping at the foot of the bed. You know there is a but coming. There is no way he'll leave it just at that. "But I only mess around with girls who behave."
Your brows knit together, processing his change in tone. You've never heard him sound so stern. "Am I not a good girl?"
"No."
"I literally put myself on a silver platter for you."
He cocks his head to the side. "A good girl wouldn't have pouted and called me a virgin, because I wouldn't fuck her while she was drunk." You most definitely don't remember saying that to him. A hot wave of blush crawls up your neck.
"I'm sorry."
"I thought you were a good girl until last night." He reaches out, grabbing your chin. "I know that you play with yourself online before I met you, I'd seen some of your videos. None of your them ever made me think that you would be a brat." His words are firm. Your eyes go wide, taking in each and every word he says.
"I didn't think you were some hard dom." You retort.
He narrows his eyes, as a smirk tugs at his lips. "I'm not normally a hard dom. I like control in the bedroom, but if you behave I won't have to be hard on you."
He turns on his heels walking to his dresser. You watch carefully as he pulls out a box. He grabs what looks to be a vibrator wand, handcuffs and a bottle of lube.
"Are you going to fuck me?" You let the blanket fall, leaving your chest fully exposed.
He glances over his shoulder. "Do you still want me to fuck you?"
"Please." If Wonwoo only fucks girls he considers to be "good girls" you must be on your best behavior for him.
"Say it." He turns around, holding the handcuffs.
"Say what?"
"Ask me, tell me you want this." He raises his brows.
Without saying anything you push the covers off, leaving your naked body fully on display. "Wonwoo, I want you to fuck me. I'll be so good for you. Just please fuck me." You've never been one to beg, but right now, you'll do anything he asks of you.
He moves toward the bed without saying another word. "We'll use the traffic light system. At any point if something is too much, you need to tell me. I'm not sure what you're used to, but I'm in control."
Silently you nod.
"Use your words."
"I understand, sir." His eyes light up at the use of sir.
"You're a quick learner, princess. I need to know, what are your boundaries."
"I like choking, but don't be super rough with it. You can slap my ass, but not my face." You pause, suddenly feeling embarrassment crawl up your throat.
"Keep going."
"You can be rougher with how you fuck me. No gross stuff please. Oh and don't call me mean names. Like I don't want be fully degraded."
"Are you okay with princess, good girl, and brat?"
"Yeah, those are fine."
"Can I put you in handcuffs and edge you?"
"Yeah."
Holding the handcuffs out towards you, he nods his head. "Give me your hands." He clicks the cold metal against your skin. They're tight, but not tight enough to hurt. "If they hurt just tell me. Communication is key here."
"Yes, sir."
He goes to take off his glasses. "Please leave them on." You can't escape the thought of him wearing his glasses whilst doing the dirtiest things to you.
"Okay. Lay down, and do not touch me."
Quickly you obey him. Laying on the bed you spread your legs, giving him full access to your needy core. He walks over to the dresser, picking up the vibrator and the bottle of lube before returning and sitting them on the bed next to you.
Your eyes stay focused on him as he pulls off his tank top. Taking his time, he neatly folds it and sets it on top of the dresser, next to your clothes.
Placing his knee on the bed, he crawls towards you slowly. He stops once he's sitting on his knees between your spread legs. His large hand rests on your thigh, rubbing soothing circles into your skin, helping to relax you. You aren't sure why you're so nervous. Maybe itâs because this is the first time you're ever letting a man fully take control.
Picking up the vibrator, he clicks it on. "Color?"
"Green."
He presses the vibrator directly against your clit, earning a moan instantly. He doesn't give you a moment to breathe before he clicks up the speed. Your body tenses immediately.
Your lips part, sinful moans and whimpers filling the room. He unexpectedly drags two fingers through your folds. Closing your eyes, you tilt your head back.
Without thinking your push your hips up towards the vibrator.
"Don't." His words catch you off guard. Your eyes snap open and you see him glaring at you. "Don't try and get yourself off. You'll take what I give you."
"Yes, sir."
Two fingers are suddenly pushed into you, earning a wanton moan. He clicks the vibration speed up another level, as he drags his fingers in a come hither motion, touching that spot inside you that has you seeing stars.
"Let me know when you're close."
"Okay." You whine.
The feeling of his fingers and the vibration is too much, your orgasm is speeding towards you at one hundred miles per hour.
"I'm gonna cum." You cry.
The precipice of your orgasm is rapidly approaching, suddenly everything stops. He rips the vibrator and, fingers away from your needy core. Your orgasm is right there, and he stopped everything.
Your eyes fly open, and you look at him confused. You know he said he would edge you, but you thought he would change his mind.
"Wonwooâ" you cry.
"You're such a good girl, you didn't cum without my permission." He taunts you. Your eyes are wide, you try your hardest to process the situation. "Can you do that again?" You aren't sure if you can, but you'll try anything for him.
He puts the vibrator against your needy clit again. He goes back to his same task of pumping his fingers in and out of you, except this time he's added another fingerâ this orgasm barreling towards you quicker then the last.
Before you can even tell him you're close he stops everything. Every nerve in your body feels like a live wire. Tears brim your eyes. Another orgasm being ripped away from you is devastating.
âFuckââ you cry.
âSuch a filthy mouth.â He says teasing you.
He pushes the vibrator back onto your clit. He has the speed all the way up. This orgasm is going to hit you like a freight train. He pumps three fingers in and out of you at a rapid pace.
All the muscles in your body are tense. Itâs taking everything in you, to not lift your hips, attempting to chase your release.
"Wonwoo, please let me cum. I'll be so fucking good for you if you let me cum." Tears spring from your eyes. You pull your hands up towards you. If you keep your hands anywhere near him, you know you'll try to grab him.
He rips the vibrator away from your clit and tosses it on the bed. This time he doesn't remove his fingers. He keeps pumping them.
"You can cum princess." He dives in face first into your core. His lips lock around your clit. He's practically making out with your pussy, whilst he pushes you over the edge.
The white hot wave of your orgasm is excruciating. Your walls pulse around his as your head is thrown back moaning his name. He doesn't let up on your clit. He keeps sucking until itâs overstimulated and sore.
"Wonwoo." You cry, squirming underneath him.
He pulls back, sitting back on his knees. Sliding his fingers into his mouth, he licks them clean of your release.
"Pretty baby, can barely handle being edged." He teases.
No words form, silently you blink at him, processing everything that's happening. He turns around stripping away the rest of his clothes.
When he turns around you're greeted to the sight of his massive cock. This is by far the biggest cock you've ever seen with your own eyes.
"Should I grab a condom?"
"I'm clean. I haven't slept with a man in over a year." It's probably dumb to fuck without a condom the first time, but all the logical thoughts left your brain long ago.
"You sure?" He raises his brow.
"Yes, I want you to cum inside me."
He barks out a laugh. Walking closer to the bed, he reaches out and grabs the chain that holds the hand cuffs together. "I'm going to lock your hands above your head. If it's too much, you have to tell me."
"Yes, sir."
He hoist your hands above your head. He hooks the chains into a hook you didn't even realize was built into the headboard.
"You've done this before?" You ask.
"Many times." He smiles.
"Wonwoo?"
"Yes, princess?" He's standing over you.
"You haven't even kissed me." There is something quite humorous about the fact that he's already made you cum and you haven't even kissed.
"Do you want me to kiss you?"
"Please."
Without another word he leans in, pressing his lips to yours for a searing kiss. His hands holds your face as your lips dance together. He kisses you like youâre air in his oxygen-deprived lungs. Pulling back, his teeth tug on your bottom lip.
"Happy?"
"Yes."
He picks up the bottle of lube, clicking it open he coats his entire length. You're going to need all the help you can get, taking someone his size.
He pours some of the cold lube on your core, earning a gasp from you. "Ohâ"
"I'm big, so this might hurt."
"I can take you." Even if it hurts you don't care. You'll make him fit.
"Such an eager girl.â He tosses the lube on the bed next to you. "Keep your legs spread wide."
He pushes in slowly, giving you time to adjust. He goes in inch by inch. The moment you're filled to the brim, it feels like he's splitting you open.
Out of instinct, your hands tug against the handcuffs. "Are you okay?" His voice is soft and gentle.
"Yeah. Justâ" your brain is having a hard forming words. He's managed to leave you cock drunk. "You're so big."
A smile tugs at his lips. "Am I too big for you?" He pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose.
"Noâ" you cry.
"Color."
"Green, green." You stutter out. If he stops now, you'll break down crying.
"Did you want me to move, or do you still need time to adjust?" His hand that rests on your thighstarts rubbing soothing circles again.
"Please move, I'll be so good for you if you move." You can't help but beg.
He gives you a smile before he pulls his hips back and slams back into you roughly, knocking you back. He keeps a quick and brutal pace. With each thrust your breasts bounce.
Grabbing your leg, he hooks it over his arms. He keeps snapping his hips into you, over and over.
There is a weird contrast as he leans down kissing the top of your knee gently.
He's so big, he's touching parts inside of you that you didn't know could be reached. Your hands tighten into a fist as you try not to cum too early.
Out of nowhere he drops your leg. Your eyes fly open, looking at him confused.
"Color?"
"Green."
He stops moving for a moment. He's still sitting on his knee, snug inside you, but he moves so he's hovering over you. He snaps his hips back into you.
"Fuckâ" you can't help but moan.
He takes your breast in his large hand. He gropes the flesh, earning wanton moans from you. This is the best sex you've ever had in your life.
"Wonwooâ" you cry.
"Does Princess want to cum?" He taunts you.
"Please, I'm so close."
"You can cum." He snaps his hips harder.
The cry that leaves your lips is loud. You're hit with the realization that Mingyu might be home. You pray that he left long before you and Wonwoo started fucking.
This orgasm hits harder then anything you've ever experienced before. You see spots as your walls flutter against his cock like a heartbeat.
Tilting your head back, you leave the delicate skin of your neck fully exposed. Without saying a word, his large hand wraps around your throat. He applies just enough pressure to send you futher over the edge.
"Fuckâ fuck." You cry out.
He doesn't stop moving. He keeps thrusting into you, over and over as you ride out your high.
"Where do you want me to cum?" He ask, leaning in even closer to you.
"Inside." You cry.
He releases your neck and drops down to his elbows, so he is plastered against you. He slows down a little, rolling his hips into you as he chases his release.
His lips crash into yours for another heated kiss. Your tongues slide together, muffling your moans.
His thrusts get more sloppy as he gets closer to finding his release. "I'm going to fill you up." He moans against your lips.
True to his word, he fills you like you've never been filled before. He keeps thrusting into you as he paints your walls with his milky release. He came so much, it's starting to leak out around his cock.
It takes a few moments for him to slowly stop moving. He pulls away from you and reaches up for your hands. He releases the chain from the hook and slowly brings your hands towards him. He unlocks the handcuffs and gently rubs your wrist, focusing on the spot where the metal started to bite your skin. He places gentle kisses on both wrists. This is the complete opposite of the man who just fucked you until you cried.
"How are you feeling?" He's still inside you, he hasn't tried to move.
"Like my legs probably don't work." You let out a little laugh. âPlease tell me Mingyu isnât home.â
âHe left hours ago.â
He leans in and presses his lips to yours for another kiss. "You're way nicer now." You say with your lips against his.
"It's because you were a good girl."
"I'll always be your good girl, if you'll fuck me like that." Reaching up, you tangle your fingers in his fluffy hair. It feels nice to actually touch him.
"So was this a one time thing?" He asks as he pulls back from you.
"No."
Slowly he pulls out of you. He sits back on his knees, watching as his release starts slowly sliding out of you. He takes two fingers and scoops it up, pushing it back inside.
"Don't waste it." He says, giving you a wicked smile.
"I need a shower." You sigh.
"Let's shower together, and then I'll take you out for breakfast."He holds his hand out towards you.
"Like a date?" You push yourself up, immediately realizing how sore you are.
"Yeah, if you want me to fuck you again we have to go a date."
You can't help but smile. For someone who just domâed the hell out of you, he's acting pretty cute right now.
"I would like to go out with you."
Things are definitely going to change after this, but you're okay with that. Clearly what you and Wonwoo have is special.
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genre & warnings: fluff! a tiny bit suggestive but mostly just fluff...
desc: on the day you met, you both took a photo of each other â a tradition that still lives on seven years later, even on your wedding day.
wc: 1.7k
note: happy wonwoo day! i miss him so dearly, so here is some horrifically sweet fluff for everyone. this is inspired by a tiktok made by @oklikewhatever ! not beta read so any mistakes are allll me :3
đ: pictures of you by the cure
The sun glittered through the swaying willow tree, the spindly arms arching in gorgeous, bespoke spirals above the head. The scene was picturesque, sprawling green in all directions, blossoming botanicals clustering the field, and a dozen or so rows of perfectly dressed chairs.Â
Familiar faces from all the paths your life had taken looked back, real and genuine smiles beaming towards you, chins held high in appreciation.
At the other end of the grassy aisle, the figure of a suit clad man snapped his head up, his body overwhelmed with adoration as he watched you walk slowly.
With each step, your heart became fuller and fuller, your shy smile evolving into a wide grin as you finally let your eyes meet those soft chocolate orbs that never quite left your mind. Those eyes you see in your dreams and in almost every picture you take, those warm coffee-brown eyes that beheld you like you were an angel on earth, descending upon them like a blessing.Â
It all started the day that you met, seven years ago, on a snowy university quadrangle. The weather had gotten unforgivingly bitter in a matter of days, and it had most students grunting and groaning at the biting, icy wind â Including Wonwoo, who swore the cloudy sky would singlehandedly fail his photography assignment for him.Â
The once vivid green of the colossal oak trees was dimmed under grey skies, the camera capturing sullen shadows and blurry undertones instead of the striking light beams and glowing leaves. Wonwoo let his arms slack beside him as he looked up at the colourless clouds, irritation stiffening him grossly.Â
As if things couldnât worsen, tiny specks of white began to tumble lightly from above, settling graciously between his feet. Great, now itâs snowing.
A loud and excitement-fuelled squeal pulled Wonwoo from his self-induced strop and forced him to snap his head to the source of the heinous invasion of noise in his ears. Between two of the ancient oaks, you were jumping with an untameable smile on your face, eyes glowing in delight as you flapped your arms gleefully in the snow.Â
Wonwoo froze, mouth slacking as he watched you â like a vision of pure euphoria, you squealed in the snow like it was the most mind-blowing thing to ever occur. And for some reason, he was enticed, heart pounding as he watched you closely. Like perfect wingmen, his feet led him to you, stopping a few feet away as you held your arm above your head, letting the cool snowflakes land on your palm.Â
âHi.â Wonwoo said, mentally cringing at his lax greeting.Â
âOh, hey!â You turned your head to face him briefly, unable to keep his eye contact as the flourishes of snow wisped past. âIsnât this amazing!âÂ
Wonwoo laughed lightly, his heart screeching within him as he continued to watch your fascination.Â
âDo you think I can take a photo of you?â He asks gingerly, worry consuming him. âSorry, if that seems creepy, I study here, and Iâm trying to complete a project about natural-occurring beauty.âÂ
Maybe you were playing dumb, but you let him believe you thought he was talking about the snow.
âSure.â You agree, âon one condition.âÂ
Wonwoo furrowed his brows, letting his camera lower as you look at him closely. âOkay.âÂ
âIf you let me take a picture of you too.âÂ
Those first two photos developed in time for your first date. Two snowy pictures of wide smiles and anticipation â anticipation for something unknown, something unawaited and new, something that would unknowingly change both of your lives.Â
It was an icy evening in late November when Wonwoo showed up at your door with hand-wrapped flowers, offering you his arm to take you out on a first date. Between his hands were a bunch of gorgeous lilies, close to blooming, wrapped carefully in newspaper â which were delicately placed in a vase before he whisked you off to dinner.Â
Somehow, heâd located the most perfect and intimate restaurant within walking distance of your dorm. The abode was decorated in dark colours and lit dimly to foster closeness between its customers, tiny candlelights flickering on the varnished wooden tables, illuminating faces with golden warmth.Â
Wonwoo did everything right â took your coat, pulled out your chair, called you beautiful, tucked your hair behind your ear. And your heart felt butterflies were gearing up to flutter it away.Â
You hung your head in confusion as he manoeuvred himself back up. âWhat are you talking about, Wonwoo?â You say with a questioning smile.Â
âCan I take a photo of you?âÂ
He materialises the same camera that captured your blissful snowy moment and places it on the table between you.Â
âWellâŠâ You pretend to think, tapping your chin for exaggeration, Wonwooâs soft laugh ringing from opposite you. âOn one condition.âÂ
âOh really?â He plays into the bit, a smile bit into his cheeks as he pretends. Inside, his heart is practically singing, the sight of your eyes glowing under candlelight enough to almost render him speechless.Â
âIf you let me take a photo of you too.âÂ
The second couple of pictures developed in time for Wonwoo to tack them to his wall. The photos under subdued light radiated warmth, from the shy smiles dancing on both of your faces to the subtle knowing looks you both possessed â this was meant to be.Â
On a grassy spring plain, Wonwoo presented a spread of your favourite foods, a soft plush blanket beneath your legs as you sat peacefully, letting the breeze tickle your cheeks lightly. Wonwoo was beside you, stealing sly glances at your side profile as the early-spring sun made your skin glow.Â
âHey,â He said softly, making you turn and hum in response, leaning onto his shoulder on instinct, the closeness familiar over the months of developing feelings.Â
âWhatâs up?â You say as he wraps an arm around your waist, resting his head on yours comfortably. Throughout the months of dating, small touches had flowered slowly, shy pinky-holding evolving into strong arms wrapped around one another.Â
âWant to be my girlfriend?â Wonwoo asked not-so smoothly, letting the biting anxiety slip through his relaxed facade and muddle the beginning of his sentence.
âWant to be your girlfriend?âYou repeat back to him, with a baited smile, turning to look at him. âJeon Wonwoo, you can do better than that.â
âDo you want to be my girlfriend?â He rolls his eyes playfully and meets your gaze â your eyes are glistening and as soft as ever, love penetrating as you nod bashfully at him.Â
With a light touch, Wonwoo cups your cheek, running the pad of his thumb across your smooth skin as he drinks your pretty face in. Slowly, his plush lips meet yours, electricity jolting through you as they mould together like two pieces of the same heart. Heat rises through your body as he pecks your lips lovingly, continuing to memorise the texture of your skin beneath his fingertips.Â
âSorry to ruin the moment but,â Wonwoo speaks, his breath still mingling with yours. âCan I take a photo of you?âÂ
With a flushed complexion, you lean your forehead on his shoulder in embarrassment. âYou know my condition, boyfriend.âÂ
Over the years, Wonwoo had collected hundreds of these photos. Each in neat pairs, bright expressions of delight dancing on your faces, backgrounds differing from rural beauty to urban simplicity, some taken in extravagant cities across continents and some in your and Wonwooâs bed, white covers concealing your naked figures.Â
The photographs were famous in your close circle, many of the most important people in your lives witnessing the innocent flash of the camera and the small giggle as you passed it between each other.
Photos from family holidays and photos from mundane work-from-home afternoons, photos from the day Wonwoo got down on one knee and photos from dates gone wrong. Every photo holding a precious memory that you both held close to your hearts.
As you behold the film camera between you both, the audience watching knowingly as Wonwoo leans down, just like he did on your first date, to pick it up, a small joyful tear slips down your cheek.
âYou already know what Iâm going to ask.â He says quietly, the rows of friends in front of you silently listening along.Â
Without a word you nod, a grateful smile on your features as he lifts his hand you wipe the tear from your cheek.Â
âCan I take a picture of you?â This time Wonwooâs eyes are beginning to get glassy, the audience swooning calming as they watched.Â
âOf course you can,â you answer with a sniffle, âon one condition.âÂ
He nods, just as he has many times in the past, your hand meeting his on your cheek to intertwine your fingers.Â
after going on a blind date with false pretenses with the ceo of your company, things take a turn when he asks you to marry him to keep himself from ending up in an arranged marriage.
âą đđ«đąđ đ đđ« đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: cussing, lying, drinking, lots of office gossip, Cheol has daddy issues, people think mc is a gold digger, insecurities and body issues.
âą đŹđŠđźđ đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: unprotected sex, they both are needy, lots of making out, big dick Seungcheol, oral (fem rec), size kink, creampie, cum eating, multiple orgasms, fingering, hair pulling body worship, multiple positions, multiple orgasms, Seungcheol talks mc through it. nicknames: darling, baby, good girl (hers) baby, cheol (his)
âą đ«đđđąđ§đ : 18+ minors do not interact
âą đđ§: This fic is for the SVTFLIX collab hosted by @100vern . Itâs loosely based on the k-drama business proposal. Thank you @aeristudios for listening to me ramble about this story and thank you @jakedustry for beta reading.
đ§: snooze | sza | lightening - charli xcx | into you - ariana grande | bmf - sza
Choi Seungcheol prodigal son in the heir to the Choi Corporation. Being the only child of an extremely wealthy and successful businessman has left Seungcheol with immense pressure. His whole life has been laid out for him. The moment he graduated high school, he was sent to a prestige college with the intention of immediately stepping into the family business. The day after graduation, he started working for his familyâs company and never looked back.
One thing about being the heir to the company is that his parents are obsessed with the idea of him settling down and giving them at least one grandchild. Seungcheol is so wrapped up in work, he can't even imagine dating. Let alone getting married and staring a family.
These days his weeks consist of going on dates with socialites and heiress that his mother believes would make a great wife.
Tonight is no different. He finds himself in an expensive restaurant with a pretty woman sitting across from him. Except this time, the woman across from him isn't someone who comes from a rich family, it's you. You don't come from money, nor do you have much to be honest. You work for Seungcheol's company as Jeonghan's assistant. The funny things is Seungcheol knows your name, and definitely knows you're not Angel, the girl he's supposed to be on a date with.
THE PRINCE AND THE LIAR
You've been friends with Angel since you were teenagers. Growing up, your family made enough to be considered middle class. As a teen you were so smart you were able to get a full ride scholarship to a fancy private school. While in school, you became best friends with Angel, the heirest to a luxary cosmetics company. Angel has always been an incredible friend to you. She's always been someone who pushes you to get out of your comfort zone and to try new things.
You were surprised when you were hanging out in her fancy high rise apartment and she mentioned going on a date with the CEO of Choi Corporation. You weren't sure why her mother and his mother were trying to set her up with your boss.
"You're going on a date with my boss?" You ask, sitting on the plush chair that sits in the middle of her large closet.
"I don't want to go on a date with your hot boss. I was planning to go out with Soonyoung tonight."
"Your mom still doesn't know about Soonyoung?" Even if Angel doesn't want to admit it, her and Soonyoung have something going on that's more then just sex. Soonyoung works at a dance studio, and doesn't live up to Angel's mother's high expectations.
"Why don't you cancel on Seungcheol?"
"My mother would kill me if I did."
"I see."
Angel holds us a beautiful pink silk dress. She keeps glancing at the dress, and back at you. "This would look good on you."
"Yeah it's also not in my tax bracket." You've been shopping with Angel enough to know you couldn't afford anything in this closet.
"I have an idea!" She shouts.
"What?"
Her eyes go wide, and she gives you the biggest smile. "You're going to go on the date with Seungcheol." That's not what you thought she was going to say.
"What?"
"He's expecting you."
"He's never met me and doesn't know how I look. Just pretend to be me."
"I work for him."
"Like you said before. He doesn't know you exist. You work on a different floor for Jeonghan."
"Angel, this isn't a good idea."
"Come on, it's one blind date. You don't have to go on another one. Just go out with him once and pretend to be me."
"Angelâ"
"Babe, just put the pretty pink dress on and go."
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The moment you sat down, Seungcheol recognized you. He knew immediately you weren't Angel. He's well aware you're Jeonghan's pretty assistant. Instead of telling you he knows who you are, he decides to let this play out. It's not like he actually wanted to go on a date with Angel.
From the beginning he can tell that you're shy. He makes small talk with you, and actively goes out of his way to avoid talking about anything related to the real Angel.
He does want to tease you a little and see if you will own up to the lie. "Angel is a pretty name." He says before taking a sip of his wine.
"Thank you."
"How did your parents pick that name?"
"Grandmother named me." That isn't a lie. Angel was actually named by her grandmother.
The dinner is nice, an even though you're pretending to be someone else, Seungcheol can't help but find you interesting. He wishes he could ask you out again instead of the woman you're pretending to be.
The night ends with Seungcheol walking you to the car Angel ordered for you. He takes your hand and places a gentle kiss on top.
"It was nice getting to meet you." He says.
"This was nice. I feel like I haven't gone out on a date this night in a really long time." You haven't gone on a date in years, and even though this is under false pretenses, this was nice.
"Maybe we could do this again."
He fishes his phone out of the pocket of his dress pants. "Could I have your number please?"
Taking his phone, you hesitantly put in your contact info. You hate that you have to write your name as Angel, but you have no choice.
The whole car ride back to Angel's place you can't help but feel guilty that you enjoyed your night out with him. You feel bad you had to lie to him. Seungcheol seems like a great guy, and doesnât deserve that.
AN UNEXPECTED CONTRACT
Since your blind date that took place three months ago, you've actively gone out of your way to avoid Seungcheol at work. That's been a little difficult occasionally due to the fact that your boss Jeonghan is best friends with the CEO of the company. Whenever you knew Seungcheol was on the floor looking for Jeonghan, you've made yourself scarce.
You don't know that the CEO is a smart man and is well aware you're avoiding him. He's wanted to text you too many times to count, but he can tell by the way you're avoiding him that you won't respond.
Seungcheol day started with his father meeting him in his office. His father is sitting in his chair at his desk.
"Good morning father." Seungcheol says before sitting his bag down on his desk.
"Son, I have important things to discuss with you."
Seungcheol lets out a heavy sigh before sitting down across from him. He just wants this conversation over with quickly.
"Your mother and I have been discussing things and it's clear you have no intention of settling down. We've decided to set you up in an arranged marriage." The room suddenly feels suffocatingly small. The word 'arranged marriage' keeps playing in mind on repeat.
"What?"
"Your mother has a perfect woman to be your wife. Lena comes from the Park family that owns the Park Finacal Banks." Seungcheol knows exactly who he is talking about. The idea of being thrown into an arranged marriage with a stuck up narcissistic heiress makes him want to throw up.
All of Seungcheol's logical thoughts are slipping out of his brain at a rapid pace. "I'm seeing someone!" He shouts.
"You are?"
"Yes. We were keeping things private."
"Who is she?"
"She works for our company. She's Jeonghan assistant."
"She's poor?" His father sounds extremely confused.
"What she makes doesn't matter to me. The only thing that matters is the fact we're in love."
His father leans forward, resting his elbows on the desk. "How long have you been seeing her?"
"Three months."
"You either marry her, or the Park's daughter."
"It's too soon for us to get married."
"If she rejects your proposal, you'll marry Lena." His father stands up.
Seungcheol feels stuck in his place. His father walks out of his office as Seungcheol tries to wrap his brain around what just happened.
The door slams shut and Seungcheol instantly snaps out of it. He stands up quickly and rushes out of his office. His assistant Seungkwan stands up.
"Seungcheol, is everything okay?"
"I got to go. Move my meeting to tomorrow. Tell them I'm dealing with an emergency."
Seungcheol walks to the elevator in a rush. The doors open and quickly walks in. His office is on the seventeenth floor. He presses the sixteenth floor the one you and Jeonghan work on. He needs to get to you before you can hide from him. The doors open and he rushes to your desk, outside of Jeonghan office.
Your eyes go wide at the sight of him rushing to you. "I need to talk to you, please don't run and hide."
"Okay." You say softly.
He barges into Jeonghan's office. Jeonghan looks up from his computer very confused. "I'm taking your assistant for the day. Tell Joshua to find someone to fill in for her."
"What the fuck is happening?" Jeonghan is extremely confused.
"I'm going to propose to your assistant and hope that she says yes."
"That doesn't explain anything, Cheol. I've never seen you speak to her."
Seungcheol let's out a heavy sigh. "Come to my house after eight and I'll explain everything. Just ask Joshua to get you a second assistant."
Seungcheol walks out of Jeonghan office and sees you still sitting at your desk, looking extremely nervous.
"You're not fired or anything, so don't worry about that. Just grab your purse and anything you bring with you everyday. We're not coming back to office today."
Silently you stand up and grab your purse. "Um, sir, I can't really afford to miss work."
"You'll be paid for today, don't worry."
With your purse in hand you follow Seungcheol to the elevator. Silently, you stand there waiting for the doors to open. The elevator dings and you both step inside.
Seungcheol his the underground level for the parking garage. You stand there not sure what you should say to him.
"I'm aware you're not Angel, just so you know."
Your heart instantly drops. "I'm sorry."
"It's fine. I'm not mad about it."
"Angel is seeing someone else her parents don't know about. Did you know all along I wasn't Angel?"
"Yeah, I have a good memory, and recognized you immediately."
The elevator dings and the doors open. You both step out into the parking garage.
"Did you drive here?" He asks.
"No, I took the train. I don't own a car."
"Okay, follow me to my car." He starts walking toward his CEO parking spot.
"Sir, where are we going?"
"To lunch and to discuss a contract."
You follow him to his expense all black Maserati. He stands on the passenger side and opens the door. Sliding into a sport car that looks too expensive to touch, you're extremely confused by everything that's happening.
Seungcheol gets into the drivers seat silently as he starts the car. He turns on the radio to help cut the awkward silence. The drive to the restaurant isn't too long. He pulls up to an expensive looking hotel. He hands the keys to the valet before he walks around and quickly opens your door.
"Come on." He says.
You follow behind him with your heels clacking against the expensive marble flooring.
Workers bow their heads at Seungcheol as he heads towards the elevator. He presses the button and the doors slide open. Silently, you stand next to him. You have zero clue why he dragged you out of work and brought you here.
He presses the button to the seventeenth floor. He checks his watch and glances over at you. The silence between you is deafening.
The doors slide open and he hold his hand out, guesturing for you to go first.
He walks up an expensive looking restaurant. The host immediately lights up. "Mr. Choi." The host bows his head.
"Two please."
Immediately you're led off through the expensive restaurant. You've seen lunches here booked on Jeonghan schedule. You're led over to a plush booth that overlooks the city.
The waitress immediately comes over and places two glasses of wine in front of you. You can't even pick up the menu, you just stare at Seungcheol.
"I'm aware your name isn't Angel."
"I'm sorry."
"It's fine. I recognized you the moment you sat down."
He doesn't say anything else. He just opens the menu. "Do you know what you would like to eat?"
"I'm not hungry." You appetite disappeared as you were pulled away from work.
"Please, order something." He folds the menu placing it down in front of him.
The waitress comes back for the order and Seungcheol orders himself the salmon. The waitress turns to you, and you just blankly stare at the man across from you.
"My date will take the lemon chicken." He says, handing over the menu.
The silence between you is incredibly loud. Seungcheol's eyes are fixated on you. Grabbing the glass of wine he takes a big gulp. He doesn't even bother slowly sipping on it.
"Mr. Choi, what is this about?" You finally break the silence.
"You didn't call me Mr. Choi on our date. Please call me Seungcheol or Cheol." He raises his brow before taking another drink of wine.
"That date was a mistake on my part." If you could go back in time you would never let Angel convince you to go out.
His brows furrow together. "A mistake?"
"Yes, a mistake. I lied to you, and that's not fair to you."
"I don't care that you lied to me."
It's your turn to now furrow your brows. "You don't?"
"No I don't care."
"Oh." You thought for sure he was mad about your lies.
"I'm here because I have a business proposal for you." He takes a deep breath. "My father informed me today, that he plans on setting me up into an arranged marriage."
"What does that have to do with me?"
"Well you see, I told him I can't marry someone else, because I'm seeing someone and I'm very serious about them." You have no clue who he could possibly be talking about.
"Yeah?" You ask.
"I told him I'm dating you, Jeonghan's assistant." His words if you like an ice cold bucket of water. Your stomach drops and you're rendered speechless. "I know it's crazy. See, here's the thing, my father says I either propose to you, and marry you or I'm marrying Lena from the Park Bank family." You know exactly who he's talking about, Angel has mentioned her on multiple occasions. According to your best friend Lena is a narcissistic, social climber.
You open your mouth to speak but nothing comes out. Seungcheol leans back in his chair, and lets out a sigh.
"What are you asking of me?" You finally find the right words to say.
Reaching out, you grab your glass of wine, and without another thought, start chugging the rich liquid.
"I know this is crazy."
You set the empty glass on the table. "Am I being punished for lying to you?"
"No, not at all. I just thought this could be beneficial to both of us." He shakes his head.
"Beneficial?"
"Yes, you'll move into my penthouse, and I'll take care of you."
"To sleep with you? I know I lied, but I'm not sleeping with you and playing house with you."
He puts his hands up. "Woo, I'm not asking you to have sex with me. I'll set up the guest room just for you. You'll have your own space, and we can be roommates basically."
"What about my job?" You're pretty sure being engaged to the ceo is against hr policies.
The waitress comes over intrupting this absolutely insane conversation. She pours more wine into each of your glasses. You both go quiet for a moment.
"If I agree to this, what are the rules?" You've struggled to get by off and on through our your life. You realize that this business proposal could be a blessing, you can live comfortably and not worry about money.
"I haven't thought that far ahead. I think the one thing that needs to be clear is, we can't see other people. And when we're in public, we have to act like we're a couple. The only person who can know we're not together is Jeonghan."
"I need to have someone I can talk to about this. I need to tell Angel. She won't tell anyone. She has her own secrets she keeps hid away, and won't share ours." Seungcheol wants to laugh at the fact that of all people you bring up the girl that started this whole mess for you.
"Okay. I'll get you a proper engagement ring today. I want to have you moved in by the end of the week."
The waitress walks over and sets your food down in front of you.
"By the way, you're going to have to be comfortable sharing kisses and holding my hand in public." The idea of sharing public affection with Seungcheol doesn't sound terrible.
He reaches out, holding his hand over the table. "Darling, do we have a deal?" Reaching out your grab his hand and shake it.
"I accept your business proposal."
THE HOTTEST NEW COUPLE
Everything has felt like a whirlwind. Seungcheol was true to his word, he got you a beautiful engagement ring, and three days after your agreement, you had moved out of your studio apartment into his huge penthouse.
With the help of Seungkwan, he made sure your bedroom was perfect. The guestroom that is now your room is absolutely beautiful, and it even has its own ensuite bathroom with a beautiful claw foot tub, and a shower that can comfortably have four people in it. Seungcheol stocked it, with all the products you use. He wasn't lying when he said he would take care of you. He brought over all your clothes, and even bought you a ton of new stuff to wear.
You get to work two days before it's all over the news that you and Seungcheol are engaged. As soon as everyone knows, things instantly change.
Walking into work with Seungcheol, you can feel everyone's eyes trained on you. The two front desk girls who are the biggest gossips intentally watch. Seungcheol shoots them both a smile before lacing his fingers with yours.
The two girls immediately leans in and clearly start whispering to each other.
Looking down while you walk, you try your hardest to ignore all the staring.
The doors to the elevator slide open, and Seungcheol leads you inside. He doesn't release your hand as he presses the button to the floor you work on.
There is a long beat of silence. "The people are going to talk about our relationship, but I just need you to ignore it."
"Okay." You aren't exactly sure how you can just ignore people whispering about you.
"It should calm down shortly."
The elevator stops on your floor and Seungcheol instantly can tell you're stressed. He releases your hand. "Hey, everything will be okay."
"Okay." You don't know if your saying that for him, or yourself.
The doors open and you step out. Seungcheol stays back and gives you a smile before the doors close.
Walking through the office, you can feel too many eyes on you. You head straight for Jeonghanâs office. You give his closed door a knock before stepping inside. You've never been happier that Jeonghan gets to work early.
Jeonghan is sitting at his desk leaning back sipping a coffee. "You know Joshua got me a second assistant, you don't have to rush in here bright and early now."
"I'm kinda freaking out and need a moment away from all of the gossips that work for this company." Jeonghan may be your boss, but you have grown to consider him your friend.
"Oh, I see news of your engagement hit the media."
You sit down in the chair in front of his desk. "I'm not used to this. Seungcheol is used to this, the media has always loved him. Before all of this no one knew who I was."
"The media circus will calm down soon. You guys will be the hot gossip for maybe a week."
You hate being the center of attention and this is making you feel uncomfortable. "I don't like that I know that everyone in the this office is talking about me."
"Don't let them bother you." Jeonghan sits his iced latte on the table.
"It's hard not to."
"Mina is working at her desk outside. Why don't your grab your laptop and work in my office for now?" Mina is Jeonghan second assistant Seungcheol requested he got.
"Don't you need privacy?"
"No."
"What about meetings?"
"There is a conference room on this floor and the big one on floor ten." Jeonghan has clearly thought about this.
"Okay."
Things from this day shifted. Everyone officially knows about your engagement. Jeonghan has gone out of his way to protect you from people talking about. He may be your boss, but through this he's become one of your closest friends.
Living in Seungcheol's penthouse feels strange. His large penthouse doesn't feel like home. You just feel like a guest, living here for now.
It's been a long day at work, since Seungcheol has to stay over for a meeting Jeonghan offers to drop you off.
Arriving at your new home, you slip off your heels and head towards your room. Looking through your drawers, you find some lounge wear to change into. After a long day at work, a scorching hot shower sounds amazing.
Walking into the bathroom you strip away your clothes. Stepping into the shower, you try to turn your brain off. This whole engagement with Seungcheol is still a lot to process.
Standing under the hot water, you try your hardest to turn off your brain, but you can't. You just keep thinking about the way everyone now looks at you.
There is this little voice inside your head that says people probably just think you're a gold digger.
Shaking your head, you try and push away the nasty thoughts. Grabbing your favorite shampoo, you start washing your hair.
Getting out of the shower you get dressed in the comfy clothes you picked out. Your bare feed pad across the hardwood floor as you make your way to the kitchen. Opening the fridge, you look for the ingredients to make something to eat. Cooking has always been one thing you like to do to relax.
Opening the drawer you find two steaks. You hestiate to pick them up. It feels weird to use things without asking for permission, but Seungcheol has told you a few time, that anything in the house is yours.
Pulling the steaks from the fridge you look for some veggies that would go good with them.
Grabbing your phone, you turn on some music. You sing along to each song as you prep your dinner. Maybe if Seungcheol doesn't get home super late, he can enjoy a warm meal for dinner.
You get lost in the music, and cooking. You plate the steak giving it time to rest. Walking over to the wine friend in the counter, you find a bottle of wine. You stare a the label for a moment, hoping and praying you didn't pick an insanely expensive bottle. Reaching into the cupboard you grab a glass.
You pour the deep cherry colored wine into the glass. The merlot tastes devine.
Sitting at the table by yourself you enjoy your second glass of wine. You're taking your time eating, hoping Seungcheol will be home soon. You know you can just ask him when he'll be home, but for some reason that feels inappropriate to you.
Scrolling through your phone as you slowly eat, you can't help but smile as the front door opens. A very exhausted looking Seungcheol walks in.
He looks up at the table and finds you giving him a gentle smile.
"Hi." He awkwardly waves.
"I made dinner for you."
You stand up quickly, and rush towards the kitchen. Seungcheol takes his time taking off his bag, and walks towards the dining area. Walking back into the dining area you place down the plate and bring another glass for wine.
"This looks amazing." Seungcheol is learning that you love cooking.
"Thank you. Sorry if you were saving these steaks."
He takes a seat across from where you were sitting. "Anything is this house is yours." He's told you this so many times. It's just extremely hard to wrap your mind around that.
Reaching out he grabs the bottle of wine, and pours himself a glass. Having dinner with him like this feels very domestic. It feels almost a little too real.
You eat in silence for a few minutes before he speaks again. "Sorry I had to stay so late at work. I'm trying really hard not to be as much of a workaholic." Anyone who knows him knows what a hard worker he is. He's always been known for speanding countless late night hours at the office. You've been there a handful of times with Jeonghan working late with him.
"My father called."
"What did he say?" You know that Seungcheol and his father's relationship can't be kind of difficult at times.
"He saw the news of our engagement, and has requested for us to join them for dinner one night." The idea of having dinner with Seungcheol's family is quite terrifying. You're sure they're nice people but they're extremely rich and live an very different life style then the one you're used to.
You knit your brows together, unsure of how to respond.
"I told them it can't be anytime soon, that we're very busy."
"Oh."
"We can avoid that dinner for a while. I have to travel quite a bit for work soon, and you won't be meeting them without me."
"Okay." Grabbing the glass of wine, you take another big drink.
"Hey." He reaches out, taking your hand. "I know this isn't a normal engagement, but just know that we're a team. I have your back, when you agreed to help me that meant we became partners." You still barely know him, but you can't help but feel as if you're catching feelings for him. Seungcheol is truly the ultimate man. It would be nearly impossible not to have a crush on him.
OH HES A GENTLEMAN
The media is having a hay day with the fact one of the cities most eligible bachelors is now taken. Everyone one online is talking about your "secret relationship." Too many threads online are speculating about how long you have been together.
Everyday you go into work holding Seungcheol's hand, and every afternoon you sit in his office eating lunch. Sometimes it's just the two of you, and occasionally Jeonghan will join.
He finds it quite humorous, watching the two of you play the role of the happily engaged couple.
You've be technically engaged for three weeks, and outside of work you haven't done anything together other then relax at home. You've had a handful of movie night, the select times Seungcheol is working from home on something.
Today, he came home from a meeting out of the office after eight. It's one of those night you didn't feel like cooking, so you settled for ordering yourself takeout from your favorite Thai food place, and made yourself comfortable on the couch, reading a book. Seungcheol barges in holding a shopping bag from Prada.
"Hi, darling." Ever since he proposed he started calling your this nickname. You won't complain though, you find it charming. You've never had anyone call you a sweet pet name.
"Hi, Cheol."
Pulling the blanket off your lap, you place your book down and walk over towards Seungcheol. "Did you go shopping?" You realized immediately that Seungcheol has a love for luxury designer items. All his suits he wears to the office are designer. Your favorite ones, being his Prada ones.
"I got you something." He holds the bag out towards you.
"Why?" You're very much not used to him buying you things, let alone expensive luxury items.
Sitting the bag on the table, you pull out the tissue and find a black box with a bow on it. Your heart drops already knowing what's inside. One day while you were leaving work together you saw a woman with this bag and you told him how that was your dream bag. Your first mistake was letting him know you had a desire to own something expensive like this.
Opening the box, you want to cry at the sight, of the beautiful black leather bag, you've always dreamed of owning. To be quite honest, you're a little caught off guard by how much he's spoiling you. You have to remind yourself that this is a business transaction. That there are no romantic intentions behind his purchase. You need to tell yourself this a gift from a "friend."
"Seungcheol, this is beautiful." He gives you a crooked smile.
"I'm glad you like it." The second he knew you wanted this bag, he fully planned on buying it for you.
Your eyes start to water, you reach up pushing away your tears before they can fall. You can't help but feel embarrassed for crying in front of him. "I was thinking, even though this is a business transaction, that maybe we could still go on dates." You've been thinking about brining this up for the last few days. Angel had put the idea into your brain. Your best friend loves the idea that you and Seungcheol are living together. According to her, Seungcheol will treat you right and take care of you. She not wrong, you haven't been together that long and Seungcheol is actively going out of his way to be an amazing partner to you.
He nods and smiles. "I would love to take you out on dates." He steps toward you and leans in and presses his lips to your cheek for a gentle kiss. "How about we go out tomorrow night?"
"I would love that."
"What are you reading?"
"Just some romance novel Angel has been talking about nonstop." Your best friend has always loved a spicy romance novel, she's even roped you into reading them with her.
"What did you do for dinner?" Seungcheol asks as he removes his suit jacket.
"I ordered Thai food."
"Is there any left?"
"Yeah, I ordered enough for both of us."
You lead him into the kitchen and help dish him a plate. Sitting at the kitchen table, you silently read your book as he eats dinner.
-
Seungcheol made a big deal to both Seungkwan and Jeonghan that he need to be off on time today. He's gone out of his way to plan a romantic date night for you both.
Sitting at Jeonghan's desk, you're working on organizing his meetings for the next few days.
"You now for this just being a business transaction, he's putting in a lot of effort to woo you." You thought when Seungcheol made this proposition, that this would simply be a business transaction, but things from the very beginning have felt a little too real.
The moment you clock out of work, Seungcheol is already at Jeonghan's office, ready to pick you up.
He's dressed in your favorite navy Prada suit he owns. In his hand he's holding a beautiful bouquet of red roses.
Jeonghan leans back in his desk chair, holding back a laugh. He's eating up the fact that Seungcheol is putting in a real effort.
"Are you ready to go?" Seungcheol asks, holding the bouquet out.
"Yes." Thank god you wore your favorite dress to work today, and decided to actually wear a pair of heels.
"Did you send Seungkwan off to pick those up?" Jeonghan chimes in.
"No." Seungcheol responds before grabbing your hand.
The second you step out of Jeonghan's office, hand in hand with the ceo of the company, all eyes are on you. Blush creeps up on your neck, realizing everyone in eye shot is staring at you.
Seungcheol squeezes your hand, snapping you out of your thoughts. He stops at the elevator. Leaning down his lips brush your ear. "Darling, ignore all of them."
Reaching, he presses the button. Silently you glance up at him. "You look beautiful." If only he knows that you wore a sexy red matching lingerie set he probably won't see.
The doors slide open and he leads you inside. As more people join you in the elevator, you end up practically pressed against him.
Walking outside you find Seungcheolâs expensive red Ferrari waiting for you. He wastes no time taking the flowers and holding the door open for you.
He jumps in the drive seat and puts the flowers back in your lap.
The drive to the restaurant is filled with a comfortable silence, as Seungcheol hums along to the radio.
You've learned since living with him, he loves singing along the radio lightly, and singing when he's in the shower.
He pulls the car up to the valet and you immediately recognize this restaurant. You've booked a few very important meetings for Jeonghan here. This place is crazy expensive.
The passenger door opens and Seungcheol is holding his hand out for you. "Come on, darling."
Your heels click against the marble floor. Hand in hand he leads you to host. "Two for Choi." He says holding up two fingers.
The hostess leads you over to a booth tucked away in the corner. Sliding into the booth, he sits down across from you. The hostess sits down a simple paper menu down in front of you. This place is known for the Omakase style. The sushi chef here is world renowned.
The waitress comes back over, and Seungcheol orders a nice bottle of sake.
Dinner is absolutely incredible. You've never had sushi this delicious before. The whole time you're eating and talking you can't help but notice how Seungcheol lights up as he talks to you. If you didn't know any better you might be think has feelings for you.
"Thank you for taking me out." You say before taking a sip of your sake.
"This is nice. We should try and go on a date once, or twice a week." When he talks to you like this, it's hard to tell yourself that this isn't real.
"I would like that."
The bill arrives and before the waitress can even put it down, Seungcheol is holding up his black card. You don't even want to know how expensive this date was.
Leaving the restaurant, Seungcheol immediately laces his fingers with yours. "Do you have room for dessert?" He ask before walking up to the valet.
"Yes."
"How do you feel about vanilla soft serve?"
"It sounds delicious."
Tugging on your hand, he leads you down the street to a little ice cream shop next door. He holds the door open, stepping inside you're reminded how overdressed you are. Your heels click against the tile. Seungcheol never releases your hand as he walks up and orders to cones.
The lady working the counter hands your a tall vanilla ice cream cone. Seungcheol leads your over to a little table by the window. He releases your hand as he helps you sit down. He takes his place across from you.
You slide your tongue through the creamy and sweet vanilla soft serve. Seungcheol's eyes stay on you, watching you enjoy your sweet treat.
"Have you been here before?" You ask before taking another lick.
"I like to come here after meetings. If it's a bad meeting it's a little pick me up, and if it's a good meeting, it's a celebration."
"What would you call this?"
"A celebration, after a nice date."
After ice cream you finally head back home. The whole ride you can't stop thinking about the way Seungcheol was looking at you. Recently, he's been flirting quite a bit, and things are just starting to feel too real. You realize maybe you really want things to be real.
THE TALK OF THE TOWN
Something about today feels off. Your morning started by spilling your coffee, and by the time you arrived to work with Seungcheol you're fed up with the constant stares from everyone at work.
Standing in the copy room, you're atempting to scan some items in peace. The door opens and you glance over to find two girls who work in accounting whispering and softly giggling. Taking a deep breath, you try and push away the negative thoughts floating around in your brain.
You know Seungcheol is used to being the talk around town, and having everyone stare at him, but you aren't used to this. You feel like a circus act.
Grabbing your papers, you quickly exit the room. You can feel both their eyes burning into you. Walking through office you can feel everyone continue to watch you.
Busting into Jeonghan office, you desperately need to escape everyone's prying eyes.
He looks up from his computer and knits his brows together. You must look absolutely frazzled.
"Are you okay?"
Closing your eyes you take another deep breath trying to gather yourself. "Yes." Lying feels like the best option at the moment.
"Sit down and stop lying to me."
Placing the papers down on the desk you sit across from him.
"What is going on?" He reaches for his coffee that's sitting next to him.
"I'm tired of everyone staring at me, and everyone talking about me when I enter a room here." You say quickly.
"Don't let them get to you, they're just jealous."
"Jeonghan, it's not that easy." You sigh.
"I know. But just know that Seungcheol and I will always have your back."
Jeonghan leads you out of the office. You aren't sure what he has planned, but you follow him to the little cafe on the corner. The holds up two fingers and waiteess immediately leads you to the table by the window.
You sit down across from Jeonghan, picking up the menu. You realize you've had food delivered from this restaurant before for him.
"This is the place with your favorite chicken pesto sandwich."
"I was gonna order us lunch from here, but you clearly need an hour away from the office." Jeonghan sets his menu down. "I'm going to recommend my favorite, the chicken pesto. I would also suggest getting the lychee lemonade."
"How about you order for me," you give him a smile.
The waitress comes back and Jeonghan does order for you. This place is cute. Looking around, you wonder if Seungcheol would have lunch with you here one day.
The waitress comes back over and sets down a glass of ice cold lemonade in front of you, and a latte in front of Jeonghan.
"So, how is life being engaged?" He asked as he sticks his straw in his latte.
"Socially not the best, at home with Seungcheolâ" At home things are feeling too real, and you cant help but constantly be confused.
Jeonghan raises his brow, before taking a sip of coffee. "Something tells me you're enjoying the aspect of sharing a home with him."
A heavy sigh passes your lips. "I can't talk about this with you. You're his best friend."
He shrugs. "Anything you say to me, won't be repeated. He may be my best friend, but I'm also friends with you."
"Things just feel a little too real right now."
Jeonghan nods before taking a drink of the cold beverage in front of him. "You know, Seungcheol seems happier since you both started the arrangement."
He's not wrong, before all of this started, whenever you would see Seungcheol around the office he was always sporting a frown. These days it's rare you don't see him smiling. The only time he doesn't seem happy, is when his father is in the office.
"He's not the only one that seems happier." You glances at you, raising his brow. "I don't think I have ever seen you this consistently happy." Before Seungcheol, you were a lot more stressed. Your job pays you well, but worrying about paying rent and all your expenses was too stressful at points. It's nice knowing, no matter what Seungcheol will take care of you.
"I feel happier. I spending time with him, and he's great to live with."
"I think you two would make a fantastic couple."
The waitress comes over and sets down both your meals. Jeonghan thanks her, and gives her a gentle smile.
"Aren't we already a couple?"
"I'm saying, if you start acting like this is fully real, you'll be even happier." Jeonghan's words play in your head on repeat. Over the last week or so you've wondered what it would like for your relationship with Seungcheol to be real. Sure, he takes you out and will hold your hand, but you want to know what it's like to kiss him and to be with him fully.
Arriving back at the office, you find Seungcheol by the elevator, with his phone pressed to his ear. The moment he see you and Jeonghan, he gives you a big smile.
Jeonghan nudges you and gently pushes you towards Seungcheol. Glancing over, you see the girls at the front desk clearly watching you, and whispering to each other.
Jeonghan immediately looks over at the girls. The startled look on their faces as he walks towards them says it all. The immediately stand up and bow their heads at him, clearly apologizing.
Seungcheol glances over there as he pockets his phone. He takes a couple steps towards you before pulling you into his chest for a hug.
He kisses the top of your head before you leading you towards the elevator.
-
CRAVING SOMETHING MORE
Sitting in Angel's favorite restaurant downtown, you're sipping on a latte listening to her talk about the crazy things Soonyoung has done to her in bed recently. It's been so long since you've been intimate with anyone, that hearing about her sex life is reminding you how much you miss sex.
"You look like you're zoning out." Angel says before taking a sip of her own latte.
"I'm listening." You raise your brow, leaning back.
"What's going through your mind?"
"Nothing." You don't want to have this conversation, let alone have it in the middle of a cafe.
"I don't believe you." She pouts. "Just tell me what's going on."
Reaching for your coffee, you take another sip of your ice latte. "Fine. I'm just thinking about the fact I miss being intimate with someone."
Angel dramatically rolls her eyes. "Um, last time I checked random men don't buy just any girl a Prada bag she's always dreamed of."
"He did that just to be nice." You look at said bag sitting on the table next to you.
"Girl, if you're missing sex and being intimate with someone, ride your sexy fake fiance." Angel has never been one to mend her words.
You're in the middle of a crowded cafe. The last thing you need is to have people hearing about your so called relationship with with Seungcheol. "Angel." You look around hoping no one is paying attention.
"What? You're the one who clearly seems to be pent up. Sometning tells me, your fiance would be down."
"Keep it down. I don't need the whole cafe in my business."
Angel smirks before taking a sip of her drink. "Are you bringing Seungcheol to my birthday tonight?"
"Yes." When you invited Seungcheol, you weren't sure if he would agree. It's been a few months since you've been faking your relationship, but you haven't attempted a social outing like this.
"Make a move on him tonight. Have yourself a little cocktail and loosen up and tell him you want to ride him into the sun." You can't even respond you just stare at her absolutely embarrassed. "Wear that skin tight lace dress I bought you. I promise you, Seungcheol won't be able to keep his hands to himself."
-
Arriving at Angel's luxury penthouse, you're dressed in the skimpiest dress you own. Standing outside the door, you keep attempting to smooth out the front of your dress. Seungcheol is standing next to you in a pair of black jeans, a white shirt that hugs his large frame, and a leather jacket. Looking down at your feet, you realize these high heels might have been a mistake.
"You look gorgeous by the way."
"Huh?" You look up at him, knitting your brows together.
"You keep messing with your dress, and I just want to let you know, you look incredible." He reaches out, taking your hand away from your stomach.
"I feel like the dress is too tight and makes my stomach stand out." You've always been a little bit self conscious about your body, and this dress isn't helping that.
"I promise you, you look sexy as hell."
Your ears burn with embarrassment. "Thank you."
The door swing opens and you find Angel standing there. "Come inside now." She grabs your free hand, pulling you and Seungcheol inside.
Her place is filled to the brim with too many people to count. Looking around, you see some familiar faces, and too people you have never seen before. She leads you off to her room where Soonyoung is sitting on her bed.
"Hi." He awkwardly waves to you and Seungcheol.
Angel releases your hand and walks over to Soonyoung. You immediately notice how he lights up instantly.
"I have the good alcohol tucked away in here. The last thing I need is people getting into my thousand dollar scotch." She walks over and grabs the expensive bottle of the dresser.
"How about we takes shots to celebrate my birthday?" She smiles.
"Sure." Seungcheol responds.
Soonyoung hops off the bed and goes over to the bar cart by her huge walk in closet. He comes back holding four crystal glass shot glasses.
Angel runs off to her closet while Soonyoung pours the dark liquor. She comes back dressed in a completely different dress. She wearing a vintage dress that looks incredible on her.
Soonyoung passes around the shots. Seungcheol raises his and says, "to the birthday girl."
Everyone takes their shots. The dark liquor burns as it slides down your throat. Your eyes stay trained on Seungcheol, watching as he's absolutely unfazed by the strong liquor.
Everyone puts there shot glasses back. Standing close to Seungcheol, he throws his arm over your shoulder, holding you close to him.
"My room is off limits to anyone who isn't in here now. If you guys need some privacy feel free to come in here." She raises her eyes brows at both of you suggestively.
Glancing up at Seungcheol you see him biting back a smile.
Reaching over, she grabs Soonyoung's hand and leads him out of her room. You're left standing their was Seungcheol.
"Should we go be social?" He asks.
"Probably."
Heading out of her room, you head off toward the kitchen. The kitchen is filled with people. Seungcheol makes his way to the fridge. He pulls out a bottle of beer and cracks it open.
"What would you like to drink?" He asks loud enough for you to hear over the booming music.
"I'll take a beer." He hands you the one he already opened and grabs another one.
You excuse yourself, needing a moment to think. Walking through the crowded penthouse, you make your way to Angel's room. Heading to the ensuite bathroom you take your time using the restroom, before touching up your lip oil. You stare into the mirror, and start soothing out your dress.
A knock on the door startles you. You open door and aren't surprised to see Seungcheol standing there. His jacket is off, and your eyes instantly travel across his broad chest. This man looks mouth watering in absolutely anything he wears.
"I shouldn't have followed you, clearly you want space." He mumbles.
You shake your head. "I just needed a moment. I'm glad you followed me."
Without saying another word he steps towards you. He stands so close to you, there is barely any distance between you. Looking up at him you stand a slow breath. His large hand rest on rests on your cheek. Parting your lips slightly. He drags his thumb across your bottom lip.
A smile tugs at his lips. "I would never do that."
The moment his lips touch you, the oxygen as been sucked out of the room. One hand holds your face, while the other rests on your side, holding you close to him. One of your hand clutches his shirt.
Your lips move together as if your need each other to breathe. He pulls back slightly and gives you a smile. He turns your body so you're pressed against the wall. Your dress rises up your thighs. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you pull him down towards you.
Kissing him is intoxicating. Any liquor you had during the party is long gone from your veins. Now you're drunk on Seungcheol. His hands rest on your hips, holding your close to him. You don't know how long you've been kissing for. His lips muffle your moans.
Pulling back, his lips are smeared with your lip oil. You both look slightly disheveled. You should be enjoying the fact that you finally kissed, but right now the only thing you can think about is what this means.
The car ride back to the house, feels different. Seungcheol hand is resting on your thigh. You catch him occasionally glancing over at you.
The moment you're inside, Seungcheol says goodnight before quickly kissing your forehead and disappearing off into his room.
After finally stripping away your tight lace dress that's left you feeling uncomfortable all night, you finally step into a hot shower.
The hot water helps strip away the tension. No matter how hard you try, you can't get the feeling of Seungcheol's lips on yours out of your mind.
NOTHING MORE THAN A GOLD DIGGER
It's been a week since your kiss you shared, and absolutely nothing has changed. There are still the lingering touches from him and longing looks from you, but nothing more has happened.
It's been clear since this morning that Seungcheol isn't having a good day. It's a Saturday and normally neither of you work on the weekends. Today is different though, Seungcheol has spent all morning locked away in his office.
You spend the morning out with Angel getting lunch and you thought maybe by the time you returned home Seungcheol would be done working.
Sitting on the couch, you're mindlessly scrolling through your phone. Seungcheol's office door opens. He closes the door and pauses, taking a deep breath. He walks out into the living room and finds you sitting on the couch.
"Are you okay?" You close your phone, and sit it down on the couch next to you.
"I'm sorry to do this, but we have to go to my parents house for dinner tonight." The frustrated look on his face lets you know everything you need to know. He moves and sits down on the couch next you. He leans back, letting out a heavy sigh.
"I don't mind going." It's not exactly a lie. You will absolutely go to stand by Seungcheol side, but you're quite scared to meet his parents. Specifically his father.
He pushes himself up, resting his elbows on his knees. "I'm not saying this because you don't always look nice, but I need you to look extra nice tonight. My parents are judgy." You know what he means, you don't take offense to what he says.
"What should I wear?"
"Why don't you wear that Chanel dress I bought you, and pair of heels?" You know the exact dress he's talking about. He randomly gave it to you last week, and you told yourself you were going to save it for a special occasion. You didn't expect that special occasion to be meeting his parents.
"Okay. What time are we going?"
"Can you be ready by five?" That's two hours away, it won't take you that long to get ready.
"Yeah."
You both go your separate ways, Seungcheol heads off to his room, and you head off to your bathroom.
Turning the shower on, you let the water warm up. Stripping away your clothes you step into the warm water. Tonight calls for an everything shower. You wash your hair, scrub your body with you warm vanilla scented sugar scrub, before you take your time shaving.
After the shower you take your time, applying your fancy body oils, and lotions. Your goal is to feel as nice as possible tonight.
Heading off to the closet you find the exact dress Seungcheol gave you. The dress fits perfectly. The only problem is, you can't reach the back zipper. Picking up your heels you walk out into the living room. You glance into the kitchen to find Seungcheol standing there drinking what looks to be a glass of whiskey.
You drop your heels on the floor and walk towards. One of your hands is across your chest, holding up your dress.
"Can you help me with the zipper?"
He nods and walks up towards. Turning around you make sure your hair is out of the way. Slowly he slides the zipper up.
"There you go."
You turn back around to face him. His eyes slowly travel up and down your body, clearly checking you out.
"You look beautiful."
"Hopefully your parents like me." It shouldn't matter if they do, this whole relationship is fake, but you desperately want them to like you.
He stares at you trying to figure out what to say. He wants his parents to like you, but he knows how his father is.
"My dad is tough, but my mother is kind." He walks over and picks up the glass of whiskey. He chugs the rest of the liquid and doesn't even flinch.
"We should go." You say.
Arrive at Seungcheol's family home, you can't help but be in awe at how beautiful their home is.
Seungcheol parks his car in the driveway. The moment he's parked he hops out to open your door. He's clearly a mixture of nervous and frustrated.
Hand in hand he leads you to the front door. "No matter what, I have you back." Is the last thing he says before the door is opened.
Walking in you're immediately greeted by his mother. She's excited to see you both. She pulls Seungcheol in for a hug.
"Mother, this is my fiance." He does even get to say your name before his mother is pulling you in.
"Seungcheol said you're pretty, and he's not wrong, you're beautiful." Blush creeps across your cheeks. She releases you and leads you both towards the kitchen.
"Let's have a glass of wine."
Looking around the expensive hi-tech kitchen, you're truly reminded how different both your tax brackets are.
"Seungcheol, go get your father and tell him it's dinner time."
Seungcheol hand lingers on your lower back for a moment. He knits his brows together and opens his mouth, wanting to tell his mother no.
"I'll be okay." You mouth to him quietly.
Hesitantly, Seungcheol leaves you alone.
You glance over at Mrs. Choi, she gives you a gentle smile, one that reminds you of your own mother. She picks up a glass from the counter, and pours you a glass of white wine.
Taking the glass you stare at it for a moment before taking a sip.
"Seungcheol is a good man." His mother says.
"I know."
"My husband is a tough man, but he's tough because he's trying to protect the things he loves." This is her way of defending him. Seungcheol rarely speaks of his father, it's clear to you that they have quite a few issues.
"I would never do anything to hurt Seungcheol." You've fallen in love with her son, the last thing you want to do is hurt him.
"I can tell by the way that you both look at each other that you're in love." You stomach drops. Your feelings you have for Seungcheol don't feel like they're being reciprocated.
"He's a great man."
"I asked Seungcheol if you had any food allergies. I asked our chef to make something special for dinner tonight." She gives you another smile before taking a drink of her wine.
Seungcheol comes back alone. He can't hide the irritated look on his face. "He'll join us in a little while. Let's start dinner." He grabs your hand leading you towards the dining room.
Walking into the dining room, you're greeted by a long marble table. Four places are already set. Seungcheol shows you to your place and sits down next to you. His mother sits down across from you.
Silently, you sit there listening to Seungcheol and his mother talk. Its clear he's quite distant recently. She's a sweet lady, and it's clear she cares about her son.
The chef comes out and places down plates in front of you. The food looks absolutely delicious. Quitely you eat, listening to Mrs. Choi talk about a charity dinner she's hosting.
The moment Mr. Choi walks in the room the mood shifts. Mrs. Choi stands up to greet him. The feeling of Seungcheol large hand resting on your thigh instantly catches your attention.
"Nice to meet you." Your voice is meek. You feel like you don't belong here.
"Don't speak to her like that." Seungcheol immediately responds.
His father barks out a laugh, sitting down at the table, across from him. A screaming silence takes over the room. The tension is so thick you can cut it with a knife. His father doesn't say anything else as another round of food is brought out.
His mother goes back to talking about her charity event. You silently sit there eating. You can feel Mr. Choi's eyes burning into you.
"So, how did you manage to seduce my son?" He gives you a pointed look.
Glancing at Seungcheol, he grinds his teeth. His hand squeezes your thigh.
"I didn't persue your son."
"That's funny." Mr. Choi barks out another laugh.
"I asked her out. She wouldn't give me the time of day for month. I persued her." Seungcheol responds.
"Seungcheol, you're the cities most eligible bachelor and you picked a gold digger." His venomous works sting. Wincing, You avert your eyes.
His father leans back in his chair with his eye burning into you.
"Mother, I'm sorry. I'm not going to sit here and let him speak to her like that."
"Baby, let's go home." He's never called you that before. You can see the desperation behind his eyes.
Standing, you let him lead you out of house. The moment you're outside, he lets out a heavy sigh.
"I'm sorry." Is all he can say.
"It's okay." You're hurt, but that's not his fault.
The car ride home is filled with silence. It's clear Seungcheol is extremely upset. Walking into the house, he pauses and stares at you.
"I'm sorry," he repeats again.
"I'm okay."
Walking over to you, he rests his hand on your cheek. You think for a moment he might kiss you. He leans in and gently kisses your cheek before heading off to his bedroom.
-
No matter how hard you try, you can't sleep. Lying in bed staring at the ceiling, your mind wonders to Seungcheol. Pulling yourself out of bed you glance at yourself in the full length mirror. You're dressed in panties that barely cover your butt and a baggy shirt that hits mid thigh. You should find a robe or something but right now, you just need to to get out of this room. Maybe a glass of water or something will help you relax.
Your sock covered feet pad against the hard wood floor. Walking through the living room, you glance over and see Seungcheol office door is cracked open, light is flickering out into the dark living room.
No thoughts are in your head as you walk towards his office. Not bothering to knock you peak your head in. You find his laptop in front of him. He's dressed in just a pair of cotton gray lounge pants. His beautiful bare torso is on display.
The sound of the door creeking closed catches his attention. Raising his head, his eyes catch yours.
"What are you doing up?" He pushes his chair back a little.
"I couldn't sleep."
"Why?"
"I was worried about you."
He pushes his fingers through his dark hair, and lets out a sigh. "You shouldn't have to worry about me."
You take a step towards his desk. His eyes travel up and down your very exposed legs. Thinking maybe you should have found something else to wear.
"Dinner upset you." You place your hand on the expense marble top desk.
"I was upset, because he was rude to you." He lets out a sigh. "I don't ever want to see you upset, and knowing that my father was intentionally rude to youâ" he blinks and looks away. "I just don't like that he treated you that way, and he thought he could say those cruel things to you."
"I don't care what he thinks about me. I just care about what you think." You walk around the desk. He rolls his chair back, giving you room to stand in front of him.
He looks up at you with sad eyes. Reaching our you rest your hand on his cheek. "I don't like seeing you upset."
"I'm not upset anymore."
Pulling back, you rest your butt against his desk. You stare at him, studying him carefully. Ever since that kiss you shared, you've desperately wanted to do it again.
Reaching out he silently mess with the hem of your baggy shirt. "I like your pajamas."
Blush flushes your cheeks. "I should have put a robe on."
He shakes his head, standing quickly. "No, you shouldn't have." He takes a step towards you, caging you in against his desk. The tension in the room is thick. Leaning in he brushes his nose against yours.
"Cheolâ"
"Yes, darling?" He pulls back slightly.
"Why haven't you kissed me again since the party?" That kiss you shared has been living in your mind on repeat.
His hand rests on your cheek. Slowly he drags his thumb across your bottom lip. "I was afraid you didn't want me to kiss you again. I feel like I keep messing things up with you."
"I want you to kiss me again." You muster up every single ounce of confidence you have.
He leans in slowly, leaving you desperate for what's to come. First touch of his lips is intoxicating. One hand rest on your hip, while the other holds your face. This kiss feels different, feels desperate and lust filled.
He pulls back and looks are you with lust blown eyes. Both your lips are swollen from the intense kiss.
"More." You whisper.
Without another word, he grabs your hips lifting your on to his desk. The marble is cold against the bare skin of butt and thighs. A shiver runs down your spine. Seungcheol stands between your spread legs, crashing his lips into yours. His lips are air and your oxygen deprived lungs. Wrapping your arms around his neck you hold him close. His hands run up and down your shirt cover sides.
He pulls back just a little to judge your reaction. "More." You repeat as you chase his lips.
Pushing his hand up under your baggy shirt, you feel his calloused hand run along your side. Pushing yourself towards him, you're desperate for more.
One of his hands moves to your butt, groping the flesh through your panties. Absentmindedly, a moan leaves your lips.
"You sound so pretty," he practically moans as his lips make a trail from your jaw down to the most sensitive part of your neck.
"Cheol." You moan his name like a sinful prayer.
He slips his hand under your panties. Grabbing your cheek, and pulling you towards the edge of the desk. It desperate moan leaves your lips, feeling Seungcheol hardened erection pressing against your panty covered core.
"Fuck me." You aren't quite sure where that came from, but you want him so badly it hurts.
"Baby, we shouldn't have our first time on my desk while I'm upset." He pulls back with wide eyes. He's trying his hardest to think logically.
"Okay." You pull back from him. The instant feeling of rejection is almost too hard to bare.
He leans in and presses his lips to yours for a soft kiss, the complete opposite of what you just experienced. "Hey, don't do that. I want you so fucking bad, but I don't want our first time to be like this. You deserve romance, and something sweet. This feels rushed and horny." You definitely weren't expecting him to say that.
"Horny?" You can't help but smile.
"Yes, this feels like we're a couple of horny teens."
"Okay."
"We should go to bed."
He helps you get off the desk. He doesn't move though, he stands right in front of you. Placing his hand on your cheek, he leans down to give you another kiss.
Taking your hand, he leads you out of his office. You wish he would take you to his room, but it's clear he's trying to be a gentleman.
-
Falling asleep was nearly impossible after kissing Seungcheol again. You fell asleep dreaming of him.
By the time the morning light was peaking through your curtains, your eyes flutter open.
After last night, you've grown tired of playing cat and mouse with Seungcheol. You're tired of pretending, you want to be with him fully. You're sick of this just being pretend.
Crawling out of bed, you head to the bathroom to quickly brush your teeth. You're hoping you can catch Seungcheol before he goes to the gym for his morning work out.
Your sock covered feet pad across the hardwood floor. Walking up to Seungcheol room, you see the light peaking out from below the door.
Taking a deep breath you knock on the door. You hear his foot steps and the door opens. He knits his brows and stares at you, looking confused. He's dressing in his gym clothes, you must have caught him before he was heading out.
"We need to talk." You say.
"Sure."
"Do you want me?" You're being brave. If you want this game of cat and mouse to end, this is the only way.
"Yeah, my god I want you so bad."
Nothing else is said. Throwing yourself forward you wrap your arms around his neck. Your lips crash together for a searing kiss. Grabbing your hips, he walks you back into his room, your lips never parting as he kisses you, as if he needs you to breathe.
"You're killing me with your pajamas."
Pulling away he reaches for your shirt. He rips it off you quickly, leaving you standing there in just your panties and socks.
His eyes are lust blown. Crashing his lips back into yours, he kissed his way from your lips, down your neck. Biting your bottom lip, you try and hold back a moan.
His fingers hook into your panties, pulling them down your thighs, slowly. Mindlessly he kisses the top of your mound while looking up at you through his lashes.
"Cheolâ" his name is nothing more then a desperate moan.
He pulls back with his lips slightly swollen. "Let me take care of you."
"Okay."
"Get on the bed, baby." There he goes calling you baby again. If you aren't already wet, you would be now.
Sitting on his knees between your spread legs, his large hand gently rubs your thigh. "You're stunning, and seeing you spread out like this for me is driving me crazy."
"Cheolâ"
"Seeing you last night in nothing but your panties and that shirt, practically drove me insane. It took everything in me not to give in, and fuck you, just like you asked." His words leave you even more turned on.
"Seungcheolâ"
"Yes, darling?" He gives you a wicked grin.
"Please touch me." You've never been one to beg, but right now you'll do anything to be with him.
He moves so he's hovering over you. Tangling your fingers in his hair, you pull him closer to you. He pulls back with the same grin.
"I want to taste you."
Silently, you nod, desperate for more.
He leaves a wet trail of kisses from your jaw down. He drags his tongue between the valley of your breast. He takes his time groping each of your breast. While one hand plays with one breast, the other sucks and toys with your nipple, earning a whining moan from you.
Closing your eyes you toss your head back. "Cheolâ"
"Such an impatient girl." He teases.
He goes back to dragging his tongue down the valley of your breast. He spots at the top of your mound.
He moves so he's laying on his stomach with needy core in front of him. You look down at him, and find him staring at you with his lust filled eyes.
"You're already so wet." He drags his fingers through your wet folds. "Did you get wet just from making out?" He takes his finger into his mouth, tasting your slick. "You taste just as sweet as I thought you would."
He takes his time kissing the inside of your thigh couple times, helping to relax you. "Baby, I want you taste you."
He dives into your pussy, like a man starved. He takes his time sucking on your clit while he toys with your entrance.
One of his fingers slide into you with ease. His eyes never leave yours as he toys with you. Then licks fat strips across your clit. He adds another finger, helping to stretch you out. You haven't seen him fully naked, but you know that he's massive. Just based on his built, and how he looks walking around in sweatpants. You know he's packing.
Without thing you tangle your fingers in his dark hair. Pushing your hips up, you desperately try to to bring yourself closer to that edge.
"Baby, you're so needy." He laughs pulling his lips away from your core. He never stops thrusting his finger in and out of you. "I know you can come. Be a good girl and come for me."
Breathlessly, you nod. Sinking into the overly expensive cotton sheets, your orgasm hits you hard and fast. Your fingers tug in his hair for a moment before all the muscles in your body relax. Your walls flutter around his fingers, as he massages your gummy walls helping you ride out your high.
He pulls back and slips his wet fingers back into his mouth.
"Darling, how do you like it?" You definitely weren't expecting him to ask that. You don't think you've ever had a man ask you that before.
"I don't know."
He cocks his head to the side. "Baby, what do you mean you don't know?"
"I just want you, and I'll take anything you'll give me." You hold your hand out towards him.
"Grab a pillow, and put it under your hips." Without thinking you follow his instruction. He hops off the bed and goes over to the nightstand. Pulling out a box of unopened condoms, and a bottle of lube.
Your eyes watch him carefully as he strips away his clothes. It's a mouth watering sight, watching his massive erection smack against his stomach.
He grabs the box and before he can even open it, you mutter out his name.
"Yeah?"
"We can go bare. I'm on birth control and I'm clean."
He tilts his and asks. "Are you sure?"
"Yeah."
Picking up the bottle of lube, he clicks it open and pours some across his length. He slowly pumps it with his eyes trained on you.
Crawling back onto the bed, he picks the lube back up. "This might be a little cold." Slowly, he pour the cool liquid onto your needy core. He takes his time massaging your opening with the lube.
"I'm big, so this might hurt." By the looks of his massive cock, you feel like that's an understatement.
He moves so he's sitting on his knees between your spread legs. He takes his length in his hand, he run the rosy tip through your folds a few times. Intentionally making sure he bumps your sensitive clit.
"I'll go slow, and if you get uncomfortable we can stop." He insane if he thinks you'll stop him. You aren't sure you have ever wanted a man more then you want him. Even if sex with him is a little painful, you'll take anything he can possibly give you.
The first inch is quite uncomfortable. The way you gasped silently is enough to make his brain short circuit. He watches you carefully, making sure you aren't in too much pain.
You reach for his hand. You want to touch him desperately. He moves his body so he's closer to you as he slowly slides in inch by inch. He doesn't move for a moment, he stay still, filling you to the brim.
Leaning down his rest his nose against yours. "You feel so good." He whispers.
"You're really big," you let out the softest laugh.
"You're just really tight." He pushes himself back a little. He's resting on his elbow, practically plastered against you.
"I might be tight, but anyone would be when you have a massive cock."
He can't help but smile at your statement. You don't understand how cute he thinks you are. He reaches out, brushing your hair away from your face.
"You can move." He leans down, pressing his lips to yours for a sweet kiss.
Your first time together isn't some rough passion filled night. Seungcheol wants your first time together to be passionate, but romantic. He keeps a slowly and deep pace. With pull of his hips, he leaves just the tip inside of you. Driving his hips back in at a firm pace, he practically kisses your cervix with his length.
Lifting your leg you rest your foot on his back. He sets a slow but deep pace. Your fingers are tangled in his hair, holding him close to you.
"You feel so good." You moan.
"You were made for me." He moans against your neck. "You're such a good girl for me."
You stay like this forever with him. With each thrust he touches that spot deep inside you, that has you seeing stars.
Closing your eyes you tilt your head back. All the nerves in your body feel alive. Your second orgasm is rapidly approaching. Biting your bottom lip, you try to stay quiet.
"I wanna hear you." He moans.
"Fuckâ" All logical words have left your brain.
One of your hands grip the sheets below you. He picks up his pace, your grip on his cock, letting him know you're close.
"Baby just let go." His sweet sinful words push you over the edge. For a moment it feels as if every muscle in your body is tense. White hot wave washes over you like you've never quite experienced before. Suddenly you feel more relax than you ever have. Your walls flutter around his lenght like a heartbeat.
He never stops thrusting, he helps you ride out your high. He pulls back, earning a whimper from you. He pulls out of you and sits in his knees his still hard cock, is covered in your release.
"Come here, baby."
Using every ounce of strength you have, you crawl to him. While he's sitting on his knees, you straddle his thighs. Reaching between you, you line yourself up with he length. Ever so slowly you sink back down.
He lets you set the pace. Instead of bouncing up and down, you rolls your hips into his. His lips are all over your throat, definitely leaving marks in his wake.
You can tell he's getting close by the moans falling from his lips. His hands grip your hips, helping to guide you up and down his length at a quicker pace.
Your third orgasm comes out of nowhere. Throwing your head back you moan his name. Leaning forward your rest your head on his shoulder.
Your walls contracting around him, push him over the edge. He holds you flush against his thighs, as he paints your walls with his milky release.
Pulling your head back you look at him with a lazy smile.
Slowly, you pull yourself off him and lay down on the bed. He hops off and heads to the bathroom. The site of his naked butt jogging away is something you're never forget.
He comes back holding a warm wash cloth. He takes his time gently cleaning up the mess he's made of you.
After disposing of the towel he crawls into bed with you. Laying on your side you're staring at him. He's lying next to you laying on his side. Reaching out he grabs your hand.
"I love you." He says those three words you have been dying to hear.
"I love you too." Even if you were too scared to admit it, you've been in love with him for a while. "I don't want this to be fake anymore."
"It hasn't been fake for a while. In my eyes, you've been mine." He says with the sweetest smile.
"You're mine too."
He closes the distance and kisses you. Pulling back he says "We can make this real. Screw dating, I want to actually marry you."
"I would like that, but maybe we should properly date and stuff."
If you would've known going on that date and pretending to be Angel would lead you here, you would have never tried to get out of going on that date with Seungcheol. You never expected to date him, let alone fall in love with him and end up engaged for real.
"I love you, baby." He leans in for another kiss.
"I love you too."
an: this might get a part 2 for their wedding or it might make a sequel with Angel and Soonyoung that has these two love birds wedding. If anyone would be interested in reading that pls let me know.
after going on a blind date with false pretenses with the ceo of your company, things take a turn when he asks you to marry him to keep himself from ending up in an arranged marriage.
âą đđ«đąđ đ đđ« đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: cussing, lying, drinking, lots of office gossip, Cheol has daddy issues, people think mc is a gold digger, insecurities and body issues.
âą đŹđŠđźđ đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: unprotected sex, they both are needy, lots of making out, big dick Seungcheol, oral (fem rec), size kink, creampie, cum eating, multiple orgasms, fingering, hair pulling body worship, multiple positions, multiple orgasms, Seungcheol talks mc through it. nicknames: darling, baby, good girl (hers) baby, cheol (his)
âą đ«đđđąđ§đ : 18+ minors do not interact
âą đđ§: This fic is for the SVTFLIX collab hosted by @100vern . Itâs loosely based on the k-drama business proposal. Thank you @aeristudios for listening to me ramble about this story and thank you @jakedustry for beta reading.
đ§: snooze | sza | lightening - charli xcx | into you - ariana grande | bmf - sza
Choi Seungcheol prodigal son in the heir to the Choi Corporation. Being the only child of an extremely wealthy and successful businessman has left Seungcheol with immense pressure. His whole life has been laid out for him. The moment he graduated high school, he was sent to a prestige college with the intention of immediately stepping into the family business. The day after graduation, he started working for his familyâs company and never looked back.
One thing about being the heir to the company is that his parents are obsessed with the idea of him settling down and giving them at least one grandchild. Seungcheol is so wrapped up in work, he can't even imagine dating. Let alone getting married and staring a family.
These days his weeks consist of going on dates with socialites and heiress that his mother believes would make a great wife.
Tonight is no different. He finds himself in an expensive restaurant with a pretty woman sitting across from him. Except this time, the woman across from him isn't someone who comes from a rich family, it's you. You don't come from money, nor do you have much to be honest. You work for Seungcheol's company as Jeonghan's assistant. The funny things is Seungcheol knows your name, and definitely knows you're not Angel, the girl he's supposed to be on a date with.
THE PRINCE AND THE LIAR
You've been friends with Angel since you were teenagers. Growing up, your family made enough to be considered middle class. As a teen you were so smart you were able to get a full ride scholarship to a fancy private school. While in school, you became best friends with Angel, the heirest to a luxary cosmetics company. Angel has always been an incredible friend to you. She's always been someone who pushes you to get out of your comfort zone and to try new things.
You were surprised when you were hanging out in her fancy high rise apartment and she mentioned going on a date with the CEO of Choi Corporation. You weren't sure why her mother and his mother were trying to set her up with your boss.
"You're going on a date with my boss?" You ask, sitting on the plush chair that sits in the middle of her large closet.
"I don't want to go on a date with your hot boss. I was planning to go out with Soonyoung tonight."
"Your mom still doesn't know about Soonyoung?" Even if Angel doesn't want to admit it, her and Soonyoung have something going on that's more then just sex. Soonyoung works at a dance studio, and doesn't live up to Angel's mother's high expectations.
"Why don't you cancel on Seungcheol?"
"My mother would kill me if I did."
"I see."
Angel holds us a beautiful pink silk dress. She keeps glancing at the dress, and back at you. "This would look good on you."
"Yeah it's also not in my tax bracket." You've been shopping with Angel enough to know you couldn't afford anything in this closet.
"I have an idea!" She shouts.
"What?"
Her eyes go wide, and she gives you the biggest smile. "You're going to go on the date with Seungcheol." That's not what you thought she was going to say.
"What?"
"He's expecting you."
"He's never met me and doesn't know how I look. Just pretend to be me."
"I work for him."
"Like you said before. He doesn't know you exist. You work on a different floor for Jeonghan."
"Angel, this isn't a good idea."
"Come on, it's one blind date. You don't have to go on another one. Just go out with him once and pretend to be me."
"Angelâ"
"Babe, just put the pretty pink dress on and go."
-
The moment you sat down, Seungcheol recognized you. He knew immediately you weren't Angel. He's well aware you're Jeonghan's pretty assistant. Instead of telling you he knows who you are, he decides to let this play out. It's not like he actually wanted to go on a date with Angel.
From the beginning he can tell that you're shy. He makes small talk with you, and actively goes out of his way to avoid talking about anything related to the real Angel.
He does want to tease you a little and see if you will own up to the lie. "Angel is a pretty name." He says before taking a sip of his wine.
"Thank you."
"How did your parents pick that name?"
"Grandmother named me." That isn't a lie. Angel was actually named by her grandmother.
The dinner is nice, an even though you're pretending to be someone else, Seungcheol can't help but find you interesting. He wishes he could ask you out again instead of the woman you're pretending to be.
The night ends with Seungcheol walking you to the car Angel ordered for you. He takes your hand and places a gentle kiss on top.
"It was nice getting to meet you." He says.
"This was nice. I feel like I haven't gone out on a date this night in a really long time." You haven't gone on a date in years, and even though this is under false pretenses, this was nice.
"Maybe we could do this again."
He fishes his phone out of the pocket of his dress pants. "Could I have your number please?"
Taking his phone, you hesitantly put in your contact info. You hate that you have to write your name as Angel, but you have no choice.
The whole car ride back to Angel's place you can't help but feel guilty that you enjoyed your night out with him. You feel bad you had to lie to him. Seungcheol seems like a great guy, and doesnât deserve that.
AN UNEXPECTED CONTRACT
Since your blind date that took place three months ago, you've actively gone out of your way to avoid Seungcheol at work. That's been a little difficult occasionally due to the fact that your boss Jeonghan is best friends with the CEO of the company. Whenever you knew Seungcheol was on the floor looking for Jeonghan, you've made yourself scarce.
You don't know that the CEO is a smart man and is well aware you're avoiding him. He's wanted to text you too many times to count, but he can tell by the way you're avoiding him that you won't respond.
Seungcheol day started with his father meeting him in his office. His father is sitting in his chair at his desk.
"Good morning father." Seungcheol says before sitting his bag down on his desk.
"Son, I have important things to discuss with you."
Seungcheol lets out a heavy sigh before sitting down across from him. He just wants this conversation over with quickly.
"Your mother and I have been discussing things and it's clear you have no intention of settling down. We've decided to set you up in an arranged marriage." The room suddenly feels suffocatingly small. The word 'arranged marriage' keeps playing in mind on repeat.
"What?"
"Your mother has a perfect woman to be your wife. Lena comes from the Park family that owns the Park Finacal Banks." Seungcheol knows exactly who he is talking about. The idea of being thrown into an arranged marriage with a stuck up narcissistic heiress makes him want to throw up.
All of Seungcheol's logical thoughts are slipping out of his brain at a rapid pace. "I'm seeing someone!" He shouts.
"You are?"
"Yes. We were keeping things private."
"Who is she?"
"She works for our company. She's Jeonghan assistant."
"She's poor?" His father sounds extremely confused.
"What she makes doesn't matter to me. The only thing that matters is the fact we're in love."
His father leans forward, resting his elbows on the desk. "How long have you been seeing her?"
"Three months."
"You either marry her, or the Park's daughter."
"It's too soon for us to get married."
"If she rejects your proposal, you'll marry Lena." His father stands up.
Seungcheol feels stuck in his place. His father walks out of his office as Seungcheol tries to wrap his brain around what just happened.
The door slams shut and Seungcheol instantly snaps out of it. He stands up quickly and rushes out of his office. His assistant Seungkwan stands up.
"Seungcheol, is everything okay?"
"I got to go. Move my meeting to tomorrow. Tell them I'm dealing with an emergency."
Seungcheol walks to the elevator in a rush. The doors open and quickly walks in. His office is on the seventeenth floor. He presses the sixteenth floor the one you and Jeonghan work on. He needs to get to you before you can hide from him. The doors open and he rushes to your desk, outside of Jeonghan office.
Your eyes go wide at the sight of him rushing to you. "I need to talk to you, please don't run and hide."
"Okay." You say softly.
He barges into Jeonghan's office. Jeonghan looks up from his computer very confused. "I'm taking your assistant for the day. Tell Joshua to find someone to fill in for her."
"What the fuck is happening?" Jeonghan is extremely confused.
"I'm going to propose to your assistant and hope that she says yes."
"That doesn't explain anything, Cheol. I've never seen you speak to her."
Seungcheol let's out a heavy sigh. "Come to my house after eight and I'll explain everything. Just ask Joshua to get you a second assistant."
Seungcheol walks out of Jeonghan office and sees you still sitting at your desk, looking extremely nervous.
"You're not fired or anything, so don't worry about that. Just grab your purse and anything you bring with you everyday. We're not coming back to office today."
Silently you stand up and grab your purse. "Um, sir, I can't really afford to miss work."
"You'll be paid for today, don't worry."
With your purse in hand you follow Seungcheol to the elevator. Silently, you stand there waiting for the doors to open. The elevator dings and you both step inside.
Seungcheol his the underground level for the parking garage. You stand there not sure what you should say to him.
"I'm aware you're not Angel, just so you know."
Your heart instantly drops. "I'm sorry."
"It's fine. I'm not mad about it."
"Angel is seeing someone else her parents don't know about. Did you know all along I wasn't Angel?"
"Yeah, I have a good memory, and recognized you immediately."
The elevator dings and the doors open. You both step out into the parking garage.
"Did you drive here?" He asks.
"No, I took the train. I don't own a car."
"Okay, follow me to my car." He starts walking toward his CEO parking spot.
"Sir, where are we going?"
"To lunch and to discuss a contract."
You follow him to his expense all black Maserati. He stands on the passenger side and opens the door. Sliding into a sport car that looks too expensive to touch, you're extremely confused by everything that's happening.
Seungcheol gets into the drivers seat silently as he starts the car. He turns on the radio to help cut the awkward silence. The drive to the restaurant isn't too long. He pulls up to an expensive looking hotel. He hands the keys to the valet before he walks around and quickly opens your door.
"Come on." He says.
You follow behind him with your heels clacking against the expensive marble flooring.
Workers bow their heads at Seungcheol as he heads towards the elevator. He presses the button and the doors slide open. Silently, you stand next to him. You have zero clue why he dragged you out of work and brought you here.
He presses the button to the seventeenth floor. He checks his watch and glances over at you. The silence between you is deafening.
The doors slide open and he hold his hand out, guesturing for you to go first.
He walks up an expensive looking restaurant. The host immediately lights up. "Mr. Choi." The host bows his head.
"Two please."
Immediately you're led off through the expensive restaurant. You've seen lunches here booked on Jeonghan schedule. You're led over to a plush booth that overlooks the city.
The waitress immediately comes over and places two glasses of wine in front of you. You can't even pick up the menu, you just stare at Seungcheol.
"I'm aware your name isn't Angel."
"I'm sorry."
"It's fine. I recognized you the moment you sat down."
He doesn't say anything else. He just opens the menu. "Do you know what you would like to eat?"
"I'm not hungry." You appetite disappeared as you were pulled away from work.
"Please, order something." He folds the menu placing it down in front of him.
The waitress comes back for the order and Seungcheol orders himself the salmon. The waitress turns to you, and you just blankly stare at the man across from you.
"My date will take the lemon chicken." He says, handing over the menu.
The silence between you is incredibly loud. Seungcheol's eyes are fixated on you. Grabbing the glass of wine he takes a big gulp. He doesn't even bother slowly sipping on it.
"Mr. Choi, what is this about?" You finally break the silence.
"You didn't call me Mr. Choi on our date. Please call me Seungcheol or Cheol." He raises his brow before taking another drink of wine.
"That date was a mistake on my part." If you could go back in time you would never let Angel convince you to go out.
His brows furrow together. "A mistake?"
"Yes, a mistake. I lied to you, and that's not fair to you."
"I don't care that you lied to me."
It's your turn to now furrow your brows. "You don't?"
"No I don't care."
"Oh." You thought for sure he was mad about your lies.
"I'm here because I have a business proposal for you." He takes a deep breath. "My father informed me today, that he plans on setting me up into an arranged marriage."
"What does that have to do with me?"
"Well you see, I told him I can't marry someone else, because I'm seeing someone and I'm very serious about them." You have no clue who he could possibly be talking about.
"Yeah?" You ask.
"I told him I'm dating you, Jeonghan's assistant." His words if you like an ice cold bucket of water. Your stomach drops and you're rendered speechless. "I know it's crazy. See, here's the thing, my father says I either propose to you, and marry you or I'm marrying Lena from the Park Bank family." You know exactly who he's talking about, Angel has mentioned her on multiple occasions. According to your best friend Lena is a narcissistic, social climber.
You open your mouth to speak but nothing comes out. Seungcheol leans back in his chair, and lets out a sigh.
"What are you asking of me?" You finally find the right words to say.
Reaching out, you grab your glass of wine, and without another thought, start chugging the rich liquid.
"I know this is crazy."
You set the empty glass on the table. "Am I being punished for lying to you?"
"No, not at all. I just thought this could be beneficial to both of us." He shakes his head.
"Beneficial?"
"Yes, you'll move into my penthouse, and I'll take care of you."
"To sleep with you? I know I lied, but I'm not sleeping with you and playing house with you."
He puts his hands up. "Woo, I'm not asking you to have sex with me. I'll set up the guest room just for you. You'll have your own space, and we can be roommates basically."
"What about my job?" You're pretty sure being engaged to the ceo is against hr policies.
The waitress comes over intrupting this absolutely insane conversation. She pours more wine into each of your glasses. You both go quiet for a moment.
"If I agree to this, what are the rules?" You've struggled to get by off and on through our your life. You realize that this business proposal could be a blessing, you can live comfortably and not worry about money.
"I haven't thought that far ahead. I think the one thing that needs to be clear is, we can't see other people. And when we're in public, we have to act like we're a couple. The only person who can know we're not together is Jeonghan."
"I need to have someone I can talk to about this. I need to tell Angel. She won't tell anyone. She has her own secrets she keeps hid away, and won't share ours." Seungcheol wants to laugh at the fact that of all people you bring up the girl that started this whole mess for you.
"Okay. I'll get you a proper engagement ring today. I want to have you moved in by the end of the week."
The waitress walks over and sets your food down in front of you.
"By the way, you're going to have to be comfortable sharing kisses and holding my hand in public." The idea of sharing public affection with Seungcheol doesn't sound terrible.
He reaches out, holding his hand over the table. "Darling, do we have a deal?" Reaching out your grab his hand and shake it.
"I accept your business proposal."
THE HOTTEST NEW COUPLE
Everything has felt like a whirlwind. Seungcheol was true to his word, he got you a beautiful engagement ring, and three days after your agreement, you had moved out of your studio apartment into his huge penthouse.
With the help of Seungkwan, he made sure your bedroom was perfect. The guestroom that is now your room is absolutely beautiful, and it even has its own ensuite bathroom with a beautiful claw foot tub, and a shower that can comfortably have four people in it. Seungcheol stocked it, with all the products you use. He wasn't lying when he said he would take care of you. He brought over all your clothes, and even bought you a ton of new stuff to wear.
You get to work two days before it's all over the news that you and Seungcheol are engaged. As soon as everyone knows, things instantly change.
Walking into work with Seungcheol, you can feel everyone's eyes trained on you. The two front desk girls who are the biggest gossips intentally watch. Seungcheol shoots them both a smile before lacing his fingers with yours.
The two girls immediately leans in and clearly start whispering to each other.
Looking down while you walk, you try your hardest to ignore all the staring.
The doors to the elevator slide open, and Seungcheol leads you inside. He doesn't release your hand as he presses the button to the floor you work on.
There is a long beat of silence. "The people are going to talk about our relationship, but I just need you to ignore it."
"Okay." You aren't exactly sure how you can just ignore people whispering about you.
"It should calm down shortly."
The elevator stops on your floor and Seungcheol instantly can tell you're stressed. He releases your hand. "Hey, everything will be okay."
"Okay." You don't know if your saying that for him, or yourself.
The doors open and you step out. Seungcheol stays back and gives you a smile before the doors close.
Walking through the office, you can feel too many eyes on you. You head straight for Jeonghanâs office. You give his closed door a knock before stepping inside. You've never been happier that Jeonghan gets to work early.
Jeonghan is sitting at his desk leaning back sipping a coffee. "You know Joshua got me a second assistant, you don't have to rush in here bright and early now."
"I'm kinda freaking out and need a moment away from all of the gossips that work for this company." Jeonghan may be your boss, but you have grown to consider him your friend.
"Oh, I see news of your engagement hit the media."
You sit down in the chair in front of his desk. "I'm not used to this. Seungcheol is used to this, the media has always loved him. Before all of this no one knew who I was."
"The media circus will calm down soon. You guys will be the hot gossip for maybe a week."
You hate being the center of attention and this is making you feel uncomfortable. "I don't like that I know that everyone in the this office is talking about me."
"Don't let them bother you." Jeonghan sits his iced latte on the table.
"It's hard not to."
"Mina is working at her desk outside. Why don't your grab your laptop and work in my office for now?" Mina is Jeonghan second assistant Seungcheol requested he got.
"Don't you need privacy?"
"No."
"What about meetings?"
"There is a conference room on this floor and the big one on floor ten." Jeonghan has clearly thought about this.
"Okay."
Things from this day shifted. Everyone officially knows about your engagement. Jeonghan has gone out of his way to protect you from people talking about. He may be your boss, but through this he's become one of your closest friends.
Living in Seungcheol's penthouse feels strange. His large penthouse doesn't feel like home. You just feel like a guest, living here for now.
It's been a long day at work, since Seungcheol has to stay over for a meeting Jeonghan offers to drop you off.
Arriving at your new home, you slip off your heels and head towards your room. Looking through your drawers, you find some lounge wear to change into. After a long day at work, a scorching hot shower sounds amazing.
Walking into the bathroom you strip away your clothes. Stepping into the shower, you try to turn your brain off. This whole engagement with Seungcheol is still a lot to process.
Standing under the hot water, you try your hardest to turn off your brain, but you can't. You just keep thinking about the way everyone now looks at you.
There is this little voice inside your head that says people probably just think you're a gold digger.
Shaking your head, you try and push away the nasty thoughts. Grabbing your favorite shampoo, you start washing your hair.
Getting out of the shower you get dressed in the comfy clothes you picked out. Your bare feed pad across the hardwood floor as you make your way to the kitchen. Opening the fridge, you look for the ingredients to make something to eat. Cooking has always been one thing you like to do to relax.
Opening the drawer you find two steaks. You hestiate to pick them up. It feels weird to use things without asking for permission, but Seungcheol has told you a few time, that anything in the house is yours.
Pulling the steaks from the fridge you look for some veggies that would go good with them.
Grabbing your phone, you turn on some music. You sing along to each song as you prep your dinner. Maybe if Seungcheol doesn't get home super late, he can enjoy a warm meal for dinner.
You get lost in the music, and cooking. You plate the steak giving it time to rest. Walking over to the wine friend in the counter, you find a bottle of wine. You stare a the label for a moment, hoping and praying you didn't pick an insanely expensive bottle. Reaching into the cupboard you grab a glass.
You pour the deep cherry colored wine into the glass. The merlot tastes devine.
Sitting at the table by yourself you enjoy your second glass of wine. You're taking your time eating, hoping Seungcheol will be home soon. You know you can just ask him when he'll be home, but for some reason that feels inappropriate to you.
Scrolling through your phone as you slowly eat, you can't help but smile as the front door opens. A very exhausted looking Seungcheol walks in.
He looks up at the table and finds you giving him a gentle smile.
"Hi." He awkwardly waves.
"I made dinner for you."
You stand up quickly, and rush towards the kitchen. Seungcheol takes his time taking off his bag, and walks towards the dining area. Walking back into the dining area you place down the plate and bring another glass for wine.
"This looks amazing." Seungcheol is learning that you love cooking.
"Thank you. Sorry if you were saving these steaks."
He takes a seat across from where you were sitting. "Anything is this house is yours." He's told you this so many times. It's just extremely hard to wrap your mind around that.
Reaching out he grabs the bottle of wine, and pours himself a glass. Having dinner with him like this feels very domestic. It feels almost a little too real.
You eat in silence for a few minutes before he speaks again. "Sorry I had to stay so late at work. I'm trying really hard not to be as much of a workaholic." Anyone who knows him knows what a hard worker he is. He's always been known for speanding countless late night hours at the office. You've been there a handful of times with Jeonghan working late with him.
"My father called."
"What did he say?" You know that Seungcheol and his father's relationship can't be kind of difficult at times.
"He saw the news of our engagement, and has requested for us to join them for dinner one night." The idea of having dinner with Seungcheol's family is quite terrifying. You're sure they're nice people but they're extremely rich and live an very different life style then the one you're used to.
You knit your brows together, unsure of how to respond.
"I told them it can't be anytime soon, that we're very busy."
"Oh."
"We can avoid that dinner for a while. I have to travel quite a bit for work soon, and you won't be meeting them without me."
"Okay." Grabbing the glass of wine, you take another big drink.
"Hey." He reaches out, taking your hand. "I know this isn't a normal engagement, but just know that we're a team. I have your back, when you agreed to help me that meant we became partners." You still barely know him, but you can't help but feel as if you're catching feelings for him. Seungcheol is truly the ultimate man. It would be nearly impossible not to have a crush on him.
OH HES A GENTLEMAN
The media is having a hay day with the fact one of the cities most eligible bachelors is now taken. Everyone one online is talking about your "secret relationship." Too many threads online are speculating about how long you have been together.
Everyday you go into work holding Seungcheol's hand, and every afternoon you sit in his office eating lunch. Sometimes it's just the two of you, and occasionally Jeonghan will join.
He finds it quite humorous, watching the two of you play the role of the happily engaged couple.
You've be technically engaged for three weeks, and outside of work you haven't done anything together other then relax at home. You've had a handful of movie night, the select times Seungcheol is working from home on something.
Today, he came home from a meeting out of the office after eight. It's one of those night you didn't feel like cooking, so you settled for ordering yourself takeout from your favorite Thai food place, and made yourself comfortable on the couch, reading a book. Seungcheol barges in holding a shopping bag from Prada.
"Hi, darling." Ever since he proposed he started calling your this nickname. You won't complain though, you find it charming. You've never had anyone call you a sweet pet name.
"Hi, Cheol."
Pulling the blanket off your lap, you place your book down and walk over towards Seungcheol. "Did you go shopping?" You realized immediately that Seungcheol has a love for luxury designer items. All his suits he wears to the office are designer. Your favorite ones, being his Prada ones.
"I got you something." He holds the bag out towards you.
"Why?" You're very much not used to him buying you things, let alone expensive luxury items.
Sitting the bag on the table, you pull out the tissue and find a black box with a bow on it. Your heart drops already knowing what's inside. One day while you were leaving work together you saw a woman with this bag and you told him how that was your dream bag. Your first mistake was letting him know you had a desire to own something expensive like this.
Opening the box, you want to cry at the sight, of the beautiful black leather bag, you've always dreamed of owning. To be quite honest, you're a little caught off guard by how much he's spoiling you. You have to remind yourself that this is a business transaction. That there are no romantic intentions behind his purchase. You need to tell yourself this a gift from a "friend."
"Seungcheol, this is beautiful." He gives you a crooked smile.
"I'm glad you like it." The second he knew you wanted this bag, he fully planned on buying it for you.
Your eyes start to water, you reach up pushing away your tears before they can fall. You can't help but feel embarrassed for crying in front of him. "I was thinking, even though this is a business transaction, that maybe we could still go on dates." You've been thinking about brining this up for the last few days. Angel had put the idea into your brain. Your best friend loves the idea that you and Seungcheol are living together. According to her, Seungcheol will treat you right and take care of you. She not wrong, you haven't been together that long and Seungcheol is actively going out of his way to be an amazing partner to you.
He nods and smiles. "I would love to take you out on dates." He steps toward you and leans in and presses his lips to your cheek for a gentle kiss. "How about we go out tomorrow night?"
"I would love that."
"What are you reading?"
"Just some romance novel Angel has been talking about nonstop." Your best friend has always loved a spicy romance novel, she's even roped you into reading them with her.
"What did you do for dinner?" Seungcheol asks as he removes his suit jacket.
"I ordered Thai food."
"Is there any left?"
"Yeah, I ordered enough for both of us."
You lead him into the kitchen and help dish him a plate. Sitting at the kitchen table, you silently read your book as he eats dinner.
-
Seungcheol made a big deal to both Seungkwan and Jeonghan that he need to be off on time today. He's gone out of his way to plan a romantic date night for you both.
Sitting at Jeonghan's desk, you're working on organizing his meetings for the next few days.
"You now for this just being a business transaction, he's putting in a lot of effort to woo you." You thought when Seungcheol made this proposition, that this would simply be a business transaction, but things from the very beginning have felt a little too real.
The moment you clock out of work, Seungcheol is already at Jeonghan's office, ready to pick you up.
He's dressed in your favorite navy Prada suit he owns. In his hand he's holding a beautiful bouquet of red roses.
Jeonghan leans back in his desk chair, holding back a laugh. He's eating up the fact that Seungcheol is putting in a real effort.
"Are you ready to go?" Seungcheol asks, holding the bouquet out.
"Yes." Thank god you wore your favorite dress to work today, and decided to actually wear a pair of heels.
"Did you send Seungkwan off to pick those up?" Jeonghan chimes in.
"No." Seungcheol responds before grabbing your hand.
The second you step out of Jeonghan's office, hand in hand with the ceo of the company, all eyes are on you. Blush creeps up on your neck, realizing everyone in eye shot is staring at you.
Seungcheol squeezes your hand, snapping you out of your thoughts. He stops at the elevator. Leaning down his lips brush your ear. "Darling, ignore all of them."
Reaching, he presses the button. Silently you glance up at him. "You look beautiful." If only he knows that you wore a sexy red matching lingerie set he probably won't see.
The doors slide open and he leads you inside. As more people join you in the elevator, you end up practically pressed against him.
Walking outside you find Seungcheolâs expensive red Ferrari waiting for you. He wastes no time taking the flowers and holding the door open for you.
He jumps in the drive seat and puts the flowers back in your lap.
The drive to the restaurant is filled with a comfortable silence, as Seungcheol hums along to the radio.
You've learned since living with him, he loves singing along the radio lightly, and singing when he's in the shower.
He pulls the car up to the valet and you immediately recognize this restaurant. You've booked a few very important meetings for Jeonghan here. This place is crazy expensive.
The passenger door opens and Seungcheol is holding his hand out for you. "Come on, darling."
Your heels click against the marble floor. Hand in hand he leads you to host. "Two for Choi." He says holding up two fingers.
The hostess leads you over to a booth tucked away in the corner. Sliding into the booth, he sits down across from you. The hostess sits down a simple paper menu down in front of you. This place is known for the Omakase style. The sushi chef here is world renowned.
The waitress comes back over, and Seungcheol orders a nice bottle of sake.
Dinner is absolutely incredible. You've never had sushi this delicious before. The whole time you're eating and talking you can't help but notice how Seungcheol lights up as he talks to you. If you didn't know any better you might be think has feelings for you.
"Thank you for taking me out." You say before taking a sip of your sake.
"This is nice. We should try and go on a date once, or twice a week." When he talks to you like this, it's hard to tell yourself that this isn't real.
"I would like that."
The bill arrives and before the waitress can even put it down, Seungcheol is holding up his black card. You don't even want to know how expensive this date was.
Leaving the restaurant, Seungcheol immediately laces his fingers with yours. "Do you have room for dessert?" He ask before walking up to the valet.
"Yes."
"How do you feel about vanilla soft serve?"
"It sounds delicious."
Tugging on your hand, he leads you down the street to a little ice cream shop next door. He holds the door open, stepping inside you're reminded how overdressed you are. Your heels click against the tile. Seungcheol never releases your hand as he walks up and orders to cones.
The lady working the counter hands your a tall vanilla ice cream cone. Seungcheol leads your over to a little table by the window. He releases your hand as he helps you sit down. He takes his place across from you.
You slide your tongue through the creamy and sweet vanilla soft serve. Seungcheol's eyes stay on you, watching you enjoy your sweet treat.
"Have you been here before?" You ask before taking another lick.
"I like to come here after meetings. If it's a bad meeting it's a little pick me up, and if it's a good meeting, it's a celebration."
"What would you call this?"
"A celebration, after a nice date."
After ice cream you finally head back home. The whole ride you can't stop thinking about the way Seungcheol was looking at you. Recently, he's been flirting quite a bit, and things are just starting to feel too real. You realize maybe you really want things to be real.
THE TALK OF THE TOWN
Something about today feels off. Your morning started by spilling your coffee, and by the time you arrived to work with Seungcheol you're fed up with the constant stares from everyone at work.
Standing in the copy room, you're atempting to scan some items in peace. The door opens and you glance over to find two girls who work in accounting whispering and softly giggling. Taking a deep breath, you try and push away the negative thoughts floating around in your brain.
You know Seungcheol is used to being the talk around town, and having everyone stare at him, but you aren't used to this. You feel like a circus act.
Grabbing your papers, you quickly exit the room. You can feel both their eyes burning into you. Walking through office you can feel everyone continue to watch you.
Busting into Jeonghan office, you desperately need to escape everyone's prying eyes.
He looks up from his computer and knits his brows together. You must look absolutely frazzled.
"Are you okay?"
Closing your eyes you take another deep breath trying to gather yourself. "Yes." Lying feels like the best option at the moment.
"Sit down and stop lying to me."
Placing the papers down on the desk you sit across from him.
"What is going on?" He reaches for his coffee that's sitting next to him.
"I'm tired of everyone staring at me, and everyone talking about me when I enter a room here." You say quickly.
"Don't let them get to you, they're just jealous."
"Jeonghan, it's not that easy." You sigh.
"I know. But just know that Seungcheol and I will always have your back."
Jeonghan leads you out of the office. You aren't sure what he has planned, but you follow him to the little cafe on the corner. The holds up two fingers and waiteess immediately leads you to the table by the window.
You sit down across from Jeonghan, picking up the menu. You realize you've had food delivered from this restaurant before for him.
"This is the place with your favorite chicken pesto sandwich."
"I was gonna order us lunch from here, but you clearly need an hour away from the office." Jeonghan sets his menu down. "I'm going to recommend my favorite, the chicken pesto. I would also suggest getting the lychee lemonade."
"How about you order for me," you give him a smile.
The waitress comes back and Jeonghan does order for you. This place is cute. Looking around, you wonder if Seungcheol would have lunch with you here one day.
The waitress comes back over and sets down a glass of ice cold lemonade in front of you, and a latte in front of Jeonghan.
"So, how is life being engaged?" He asked as he sticks his straw in his latte.
"Socially not the best, at home with Seungcheolâ" At home things are feeling too real, and you cant help but constantly be confused.
Jeonghan raises his brow, before taking a sip of coffee. "Something tells me you're enjoying the aspect of sharing a home with him."
A heavy sigh passes your lips. "I can't talk about this with you. You're his best friend."
He shrugs. "Anything you say to me, won't be repeated. He may be my best friend, but I'm also friends with you."
"Things just feel a little too real right now."
Jeonghan nods before taking a drink of the cold beverage in front of him. "You know, Seungcheol seems happier since you both started the arrangement."
He's not wrong, before all of this started, whenever you would see Seungcheol around the office he was always sporting a frown. These days it's rare you don't see him smiling. The only time he doesn't seem happy, is when his father is in the office.
"He's not the only one that seems happier." You glances at you, raising his brow. "I don't think I have ever seen you this consistently happy." Before Seungcheol, you were a lot more stressed. Your job pays you well, but worrying about paying rent and all your expenses was too stressful at points. It's nice knowing, no matter what Seungcheol will take care of you.
"I feel happier. I spending time with him, and he's great to live with."
"I think you two would make a fantastic couple."
The waitress comes over and sets down both your meals. Jeonghan thanks her, and gives her a gentle smile.
"Aren't we already a couple?"
"I'm saying, if you start acting like this is fully real, you'll be even happier." Jeonghan's words play in your head on repeat. Over the last week or so you've wondered what it would like for your relationship with Seungcheol to be real. Sure, he takes you out and will hold your hand, but you want to know what it's like to kiss him and to be with him fully.
Arriving back at the office, you find Seungcheol by the elevator, with his phone pressed to his ear. The moment he see you and Jeonghan, he gives you a big smile.
Jeonghan nudges you and gently pushes you towards Seungcheol. Glancing over, you see the girls at the front desk clearly watching you, and whispering to each other.
Jeonghan immediately looks over at the girls. The startled look on their faces as he walks towards them says it all. The immediately stand up and bow their heads at him, clearly apologizing.
Seungcheol glances over there as he pockets his phone. He takes a couple steps towards you before pulling you into his chest for a hug.
He kisses the top of your head before you leading you towards the elevator.
-
CRAVING SOMETHING MORE
Sitting in Angel's favorite restaurant downtown, you're sipping on a latte listening to her talk about the crazy things Soonyoung has done to her in bed recently. It's been so long since you've been intimate with anyone, that hearing about her sex life is reminding you how much you miss sex.
"You look like you're zoning out." Angel says before taking a sip of her own latte.
"I'm listening." You raise your brow, leaning back.
"What's going through your mind?"
"Nothing." You don't want to have this conversation, let alone have it in the middle of a cafe.
"I don't believe you." She pouts. "Just tell me what's going on."
Reaching for your coffee, you take another sip of your ice latte. "Fine. I'm just thinking about the fact I miss being intimate with someone."
Angel dramatically rolls her eyes. "Um, last time I checked random men don't buy just any girl a Prada bag she's always dreamed of."
"He did that just to be nice." You look at said bag sitting on the table next to you.
"Girl, if you're missing sex and being intimate with someone, ride your sexy fake fiance." Angel has never been one to mend her words.
You're in the middle of a crowded cafe. The last thing you need is to have people hearing about your so called relationship with with Seungcheol. "Angel." You look around hoping no one is paying attention.
"What? You're the one who clearly seems to be pent up. Sometning tells me, your fiance would be down."
"Keep it down. I don't need the whole cafe in my business."
Angel smirks before taking a sip of her drink. "Are you bringing Seungcheol to my birthday tonight?"
"Yes." When you invited Seungcheol, you weren't sure if he would agree. It's been a few months since you've been faking your relationship, but you haven't attempted a social outing like this.
"Make a move on him tonight. Have yourself a little cocktail and loosen up and tell him you want to ride him into the sun." You can't even respond you just stare at her absolutely embarrassed. "Wear that skin tight lace dress I bought you. I promise you, Seungcheol won't be able to keep his hands to himself."
-
Arriving at Angel's luxury penthouse, you're dressed in the skimpiest dress you own. Standing outside the door, you keep attempting to smooth out the front of your dress. Seungcheol is standing next to you in a pair of black jeans, a white shirt that hugs his large frame, and a leather jacket. Looking down at your feet, you realize these high heels might have been a mistake.
"You look gorgeous by the way."
"Huh?" You look up at him, knitting your brows together.
"You keep messing with your dress, and I just want to let you know, you look incredible." He reaches out, taking your hand away from your stomach.
"I feel like the dress is too tight and makes my stomach stand out." You've always been a little bit self conscious about your body, and this dress isn't helping that.
"I promise you, you look sexy as hell."
Your ears burn with embarrassment. "Thank you."
The door swing opens and you find Angel standing there. "Come inside now." She grabs your free hand, pulling you and Seungcheol inside.
Her place is filled to the brim with too many people to count. Looking around, you see some familiar faces, and too people you have never seen before. She leads you off to her room where Soonyoung is sitting on her bed.
"Hi." He awkwardly waves to you and Seungcheol.
Angel releases your hand and walks over to Soonyoung. You immediately notice how he lights up instantly.
"I have the good alcohol tucked away in here. The last thing I need is people getting into my thousand dollar scotch." She walks over and grabs the expensive bottle of the dresser.
"How about we takes shots to celebrate my birthday?" She smiles.
"Sure." Seungcheol responds.
Soonyoung hops off the bed and goes over to the bar cart by her huge walk in closet. He comes back holding four crystal glass shot glasses.
Angel runs off to her closet while Soonyoung pours the dark liquor. She comes back dressed in a completely different dress. She wearing a vintage dress that looks incredible on her.
Soonyoung passes around the shots. Seungcheol raises his and says, "to the birthday girl."
Everyone takes their shots. The dark liquor burns as it slides down your throat. Your eyes stay trained on Seungcheol, watching as he's absolutely unfazed by the strong liquor.
Everyone puts there shot glasses back. Standing close to Seungcheol, he throws his arm over your shoulder, holding you close to him.
"My room is off limits to anyone who isn't in here now. If you guys need some privacy feel free to come in here." She raises her eyes brows at both of you suggestively.
Glancing up at Seungcheol you see him biting back a smile.
Reaching over, she grabs Soonyoung's hand and leads him out of her room. You're left standing their was Seungcheol.
"Should we go be social?" He asks.
"Probably."
Heading out of her room, you head off toward the kitchen. The kitchen is filled with people. Seungcheol makes his way to the fridge. He pulls out a bottle of beer and cracks it open.
"What would you like to drink?" He asks loud enough for you to hear over the booming music.
"I'll take a beer." He hands you the one he already opened and grabs another one.
You excuse yourself, needing a moment to think. Walking through the crowded penthouse, you make your way to Angel's room. Heading to the ensuite bathroom you take your time using the restroom, before touching up your lip oil. You stare into the mirror, and start soothing out your dress.
A knock on the door startles you. You open door and aren't surprised to see Seungcheol standing there. His jacket is off, and your eyes instantly travel across his broad chest. This man looks mouth watering in absolutely anything he wears.
"I shouldn't have followed you, clearly you want space." He mumbles.
You shake your head. "I just needed a moment. I'm glad you followed me."
Without saying another word he steps towards you. He stands so close to you, there is barely any distance between you. Looking up at him you stand a slow breath. His large hand rest on rests on your cheek. Parting your lips slightly. He drags his thumb across your bottom lip.
A smile tugs at his lips. "I would never do that."
The moment his lips touch you, the oxygen as been sucked out of the room. One hand holds your face, while the other rests on your side, holding you close to him. One of your hand clutches his shirt.
Your lips move together as if your need each other to breathe. He pulls back slightly and gives you a smile. He turns your body so you're pressed against the wall. Your dress rises up your thighs. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you pull him down towards you.
Kissing him is intoxicating. Any liquor you had during the party is long gone from your veins. Now you're drunk on Seungcheol. His hands rest on your hips, holding your close to him. You don't know how long you've been kissing for. His lips muffle your moans.
Pulling back, his lips are smeared with your lip oil. You both look slightly disheveled. You should be enjoying the fact that you finally kissed, but right now the only thing you can think about is what this means.
The car ride back to the house, feels different. Seungcheol hand is resting on your thigh. You catch him occasionally glancing over at you.
The moment you're inside, Seungcheol says goodnight before quickly kissing your forehead and disappearing off into his room.
After finally stripping away your tight lace dress that's left you feeling uncomfortable all night, you finally step into a hot shower.
The hot water helps strip away the tension. No matter how hard you try, you can't get the feeling of Seungcheol's lips on yours out of your mind.
NOTHING MORE THAN A GOLD DIGGER
It's been a week since your kiss you shared, and absolutely nothing has changed. There are still the lingering touches from him and longing looks from you, but nothing more has happened.
It's been clear since this morning that Seungcheol isn't having a good day. It's a Saturday and normally neither of you work on the weekends. Today is different though, Seungcheol has spent all morning locked away in his office.
You spend the morning out with Angel getting lunch and you thought maybe by the time you returned home Seungcheol would be done working.
Sitting on the couch, you're mindlessly scrolling through your phone. Seungcheol's office door opens. He closes the door and pauses, taking a deep breath. He walks out into the living room and finds you sitting on the couch.
"Are you okay?" You close your phone, and sit it down on the couch next to you.
"I'm sorry to do this, but we have to go to my parents house for dinner tonight." The frustrated look on his face lets you know everything you need to know. He moves and sits down on the couch next you. He leans back, letting out a heavy sigh.
"I don't mind going." It's not exactly a lie. You will absolutely go to stand by Seungcheol side, but you're quite scared to meet his parents. Specifically his father.
He pushes himself up, resting his elbows on his knees. "I'm not saying this because you don't always look nice, but I need you to look extra nice tonight. My parents are judgy." You know what he means, you don't take offense to what he says.
"What should I wear?"
"Why don't you wear that Chanel dress I bought you, and pair of heels?" You know the exact dress he's talking about. He randomly gave it to you last week, and you told yourself you were going to save it for a special occasion. You didn't expect that special occasion to be meeting his parents.
"Okay. What time are we going?"
"Can you be ready by five?" That's two hours away, it won't take you that long to get ready.
"Yeah."
You both go your separate ways, Seungcheol heads off to his room, and you head off to your bathroom.
Turning the shower on, you let the water warm up. Stripping away your clothes you step into the warm water. Tonight calls for an everything shower. You wash your hair, scrub your body with you warm vanilla scented sugar scrub, before you take your time shaving.
After the shower you take your time, applying your fancy body oils, and lotions. Your goal is to feel as nice as possible tonight.
Heading off to the closet you find the exact dress Seungcheol gave you. The dress fits perfectly. The only problem is, you can't reach the back zipper. Picking up your heels you walk out into the living room. You glance into the kitchen to find Seungcheol standing there drinking what looks to be a glass of whiskey.
You drop your heels on the floor and walk towards. One of your hands is across your chest, holding up your dress.
"Can you help me with the zipper?"
He nods and walks up towards. Turning around you make sure your hair is out of the way. Slowly he slides the zipper up.
"There you go."
You turn back around to face him. His eyes slowly travel up and down your body, clearly checking you out.
"You look beautiful."
"Hopefully your parents like me." It shouldn't matter if they do, this whole relationship is fake, but you desperately want them to like you.
He stares at you trying to figure out what to say. He wants his parents to like you, but he knows how his father is.
"My dad is tough, but my mother is kind." He walks over and picks up the glass of whiskey. He chugs the rest of the liquid and doesn't even flinch.
"We should go." You say.
Arrive at Seungcheol's family home, you can't help but be in awe at how beautiful their home is.
Seungcheol parks his car in the driveway. The moment he's parked he hops out to open your door. He's clearly a mixture of nervous and frustrated.
Hand in hand he leads you to the front door. "No matter what, I have you back." Is the last thing he says before the door is opened.
Walking in you're immediately greeted by his mother. She's excited to see you both. She pulls Seungcheol in for a hug.
"Mother, this is my fiance." He does even get to say your name before his mother is pulling you in.
"Seungcheol said you're pretty, and he's not wrong, you're beautiful." Blush creeps across your cheeks. She releases you and leads you both towards the kitchen.
"Let's have a glass of wine."
Looking around the expensive hi-tech kitchen, you're truly reminded how different both your tax brackets are.
"Seungcheol, go get your father and tell him it's dinner time."
Seungcheol hand lingers on your lower back for a moment. He knits his brows together and opens his mouth, wanting to tell his mother no.
"I'll be okay." You mouth to him quietly.
Hesitantly, Seungcheol leaves you alone.
You glance over at Mrs. Choi, she gives you a gentle smile, one that reminds you of your own mother. She picks up a glass from the counter, and pours you a glass of white wine.
Taking the glass you stare at it for a moment before taking a sip.
"Seungcheol is a good man." His mother says.
"I know."
"My husband is a tough man, but he's tough because he's trying to protect the things he loves." This is her way of defending him. Seungcheol rarely speaks of his father, it's clear to you that they have quite a few issues.
"I would never do anything to hurt Seungcheol." You've fallen in love with her son, the last thing you want to do is hurt him.
"I can tell by the way that you both look at each other that you're in love." You stomach drops. Your feelings you have for Seungcheol don't feel like they're being reciprocated.
"He's a great man."
"I asked Seungcheol if you had any food allergies. I asked our chef to make something special for dinner tonight." She gives you another smile before taking a drink of her wine.
Seungcheol comes back alone. He can't hide the irritated look on his face. "He'll join us in a little while. Let's start dinner." He grabs your hand leading you towards the dining room.
Walking into the dining room, you're greeted by a long marble table. Four places are already set. Seungcheol shows you to your place and sits down next to you. His mother sits down across from you.
Silently, you sit there listening to Seungcheol and his mother talk. Its clear he's quite distant recently. She's a sweet lady, and it's clear she cares about her son.
The chef comes out and places down plates in front of you. The food looks absolutely delicious. Quitely you eat, listening to Mrs. Choi talk about a charity dinner she's hosting.
The moment Mr. Choi walks in the room the mood shifts. Mrs. Choi stands up to greet him. The feeling of Seungcheol large hand resting on your thigh instantly catches your attention.
"Nice to meet you." Your voice is meek. You feel like you don't belong here.
"Don't speak to her like that." Seungcheol immediately responds.
His father barks out a laugh, sitting down at the table, across from him. A screaming silence takes over the room. The tension is so thick you can cut it with a knife. His father doesn't say anything else as another round of food is brought out.
His mother goes back to talking about her charity event. You silently sit there eating. You can feel Mr. Choi's eyes burning into you.
"So, how did you manage to seduce my son?" He gives you a pointed look.
Glancing at Seungcheol, he grinds his teeth. His hand squeezes your thigh.
"I didn't persue your son."
"That's funny." Mr. Choi barks out another laugh.
"I asked her out. She wouldn't give me the time of day for month. I persued her." Seungcheol responds.
"Seungcheol, you're the cities most eligible bachelor and you picked a gold digger." His venomous works sting. Wincing, You avert your eyes.
His father leans back in his chair with his eye burning into you.
"Mother, I'm sorry. I'm not going to sit here and let him speak to her like that."
"Baby, let's go home." He's never called you that before. You can see the desperation behind his eyes.
Standing, you let him lead you out of house. The moment you're outside, he lets out a heavy sigh.
"I'm sorry." Is all he can say.
"It's okay." You're hurt, but that's not his fault.
The car ride home is filled with silence. It's clear Seungcheol is extremely upset. Walking into the house, he pauses and stares at you.
"I'm sorry," he repeats again.
"I'm okay."
Walking over to you, he rests his hand on your cheek. You think for a moment he might kiss you. He leans in and gently kisses your cheek before heading off to his bedroom.
-
No matter how hard you try, you can't sleep. Lying in bed staring at the ceiling, your mind wonders to Seungcheol. Pulling yourself out of bed you glance at yourself in the full length mirror. You're dressed in panties that barely cover your butt and a baggy shirt that hits mid thigh. You should find a robe or something but right now, you just need to to get out of this room. Maybe a glass of water or something will help you relax.
Your sock covered feet pad against the hard wood floor. Walking through the living room, you glance over and see Seungcheol office door is cracked open, light is flickering out into the dark living room.
No thoughts are in your head as you walk towards his office. Not bothering to knock you peak your head in. You find his laptop in front of him. He's dressed in just a pair of cotton gray lounge pants. His beautiful bare torso is on display.
The sound of the door creeking closed catches his attention. Raising his head, his eyes catch yours.
"What are you doing up?" He pushes his chair back a little.
"I couldn't sleep."
"Why?"
"I was worried about you."
He pushes his fingers through his dark hair, and lets out a sigh. "You shouldn't have to worry about me."
You take a step towards his desk. His eyes travel up and down your very exposed legs. Thinking maybe you should have found something else to wear.
"Dinner upset you." You place your hand on the expense marble top desk.
"I was upset, because he was rude to you." He lets out a sigh. "I don't ever want to see you upset, and knowing that my father was intentionally rude to youâ" he blinks and looks away. "I just don't like that he treated you that way, and he thought he could say those cruel things to you."
"I don't care what he thinks about me. I just care about what you think." You walk around the desk. He rolls his chair back, giving you room to stand in front of him.
He looks up at you with sad eyes. Reaching our you rest your hand on his cheek. "I don't like seeing you upset."
"I'm not upset anymore."
Pulling back, you rest your butt against his desk. You stare at him, studying him carefully. Ever since that kiss you shared, you've desperately wanted to do it again.
Reaching out he silently mess with the hem of your baggy shirt. "I like your pajamas."
Blush flushes your cheeks. "I should have put a robe on."
He shakes his head, standing quickly. "No, you shouldn't have." He takes a step towards you, caging you in against his desk. The tension in the room is thick. Leaning in he brushes his nose against yours.
"Cheolâ"
"Yes, darling?" He pulls back slightly.
"Why haven't you kissed me again since the party?" That kiss you shared has been living in your mind on repeat.
His hand rests on your cheek. Slowly he drags his thumb across your bottom lip. "I was afraid you didn't want me to kiss you again. I feel like I keep messing things up with you."
"I want you to kiss me again." You muster up every single ounce of confidence you have.
He leans in slowly, leaving you desperate for what's to come. First touch of his lips is intoxicating. One hand rest on your hip, while the other holds your face. This kiss feels different, feels desperate and lust filled.
He pulls back and looks are you with lust blown eyes. Both your lips are swollen from the intense kiss.
"More." You whisper.
Without another word, he grabs your hips lifting your on to his desk. The marble is cold against the bare skin of butt and thighs. A shiver runs down your spine. Seungcheol stands between your spread legs, crashing his lips into yours. His lips are air and your oxygen deprived lungs. Wrapping your arms around his neck you hold him close. His hands run up and down your shirt cover sides.
He pulls back just a little to judge your reaction. "More." You repeat as you chase his lips.
Pushing his hand up under your baggy shirt, you feel his calloused hand run along your side. Pushing yourself towards him, you're desperate for more.
One of his hands moves to your butt, groping the flesh through your panties. Absentmindedly, a moan leaves your lips.
"You sound so pretty," he practically moans as his lips make a trail from your jaw down to the most sensitive part of your neck.
"Cheol." You moan his name like a sinful prayer.
He slips his hand under your panties. Grabbing your cheek, and pulling you towards the edge of the desk. It desperate moan leaves your lips, feeling Seungcheol hardened erection pressing against your panty covered core.
"Fuck me." You aren't quite sure where that came from, but you want him so badly it hurts.
"Baby, we shouldn't have our first time on my desk while I'm upset." He pulls back with wide eyes. He's trying his hardest to think logically.
"Okay." You pull back from him. The instant feeling of rejection is almost too hard to bare.
He leans in and presses his lips to yours for a soft kiss, the complete opposite of what you just experienced. "Hey, don't do that. I want you so fucking bad, but I don't want our first time to be like this. You deserve romance, and something sweet. This feels rushed and horny." You definitely weren't expecting him to say that.
"Horny?" You can't help but smile.
"Yes, this feels like we're a couple of horny teens."
"Okay."
"We should go to bed."
He helps you get off the desk. He doesn't move though, he stands right in front of you. Placing his hand on your cheek, he leans down to give you another kiss.
Taking your hand, he leads you out of his office. You wish he would take you to his room, but it's clear he's trying to be a gentleman.
-
Falling asleep was nearly impossible after kissing Seungcheol again. You fell asleep dreaming of him.
By the time the morning light was peaking through your curtains, your eyes flutter open.
After last night, you've grown tired of playing cat and mouse with Seungcheol. You're tired of pretending, you want to be with him fully. You're sick of this just being pretend.
Crawling out of bed, you head to the bathroom to quickly brush your teeth. You're hoping you can catch Seungcheol before he goes to the gym for his morning work out.
Your sock covered feet pad across the hardwood floor. Walking up to Seungcheol room, you see the light peaking out from below the door.
Taking a deep breath you knock on the door. You hear his foot steps and the door opens. He knits his brows and stares at you, looking confused. He's dressing in his gym clothes, you must have caught him before he was heading out.
"We need to talk." You say.
"Sure."
"Do you want me?" You're being brave. If you want this game of cat and mouse to end, this is the only way.
"Yeah, my god I want you so bad."
Nothing else is said. Throwing yourself forward you wrap your arms around his neck. Your lips crash together for a searing kiss. Grabbing your hips, he walks you back into his room, your lips never parting as he kisses you, as if he needs you to breathe.
"You're killing me with your pajamas."
Pulling away he reaches for your shirt. He rips it off you quickly, leaving you standing there in just your panties and socks.
His eyes are lust blown. Crashing his lips back into yours, he kissed his way from your lips, down your neck. Biting your bottom lip, you try and hold back a moan.
His fingers hook into your panties, pulling them down your thighs, slowly. Mindlessly he kisses the top of your mound while looking up at you through his lashes.
"Cheolâ" his name is nothing more then a desperate moan.
He pulls back with his lips slightly swollen. "Let me take care of you."
"Okay."
"Get on the bed, baby." There he goes calling you baby again. If you aren't already wet, you would be now.
Sitting on his knees between your spread legs, his large hand gently rubs your thigh. "You're stunning, and seeing you spread out like this for me is driving me crazy."
"Cheolâ"
"Seeing you last night in nothing but your panties and that shirt, practically drove me insane. It took everything in me not to give in, and fuck you, just like you asked." His words leave you even more turned on.
"Seungcheolâ"
"Yes, darling?" He gives you a wicked grin.
"Please touch me." You've never been one to beg, but right now you'll do anything to be with him.
He moves so he's hovering over you. Tangling your fingers in his hair, you pull him closer to you. He pulls back with the same grin.
"I want to taste you."
Silently, you nod, desperate for more.
He leaves a wet trail of kisses from your jaw down. He drags his tongue between the valley of your breast. He takes his time groping each of your breast. While one hand plays with one breast, the other sucks and toys with your nipple, earning a whining moan from you.
Closing your eyes you toss your head back. "Cheolâ"
"Such an impatient girl." He teases.
He goes back to dragging his tongue down the valley of your breast. He spots at the top of your mound.
He moves so he's laying on his stomach with needy core in front of him. You look down at him, and find him staring at you with his lust filled eyes.
"You're already so wet." He drags his fingers through your wet folds. "Did you get wet just from making out?" He takes his finger into his mouth, tasting your slick. "You taste just as sweet as I thought you would."
He takes his time kissing the inside of your thigh couple times, helping to relax you. "Baby, I want you taste you."
He dives into your pussy, like a man starved. He takes his time sucking on your clit while he toys with your entrance.
One of his fingers slide into you with ease. His eyes never leave yours as he toys with you. Then licks fat strips across your clit. He adds another finger, helping to stretch you out. You haven't seen him fully naked, but you know that he's massive. Just based on his built, and how he looks walking around in sweatpants. You know he's packing.
Without thing you tangle your fingers in his dark hair. Pushing your hips up, you desperately try to to bring yourself closer to that edge.
"Baby, you're so needy." He laughs pulling his lips away from your core. He never stops thrusting his finger in and out of you. "I know you can come. Be a good girl and come for me."
Breathlessly, you nod. Sinking into the overly expensive cotton sheets, your orgasm hits you hard and fast. Your fingers tug in his hair for a moment before all the muscles in your body relax. Your walls flutter around his fingers, as he massages your gummy walls helping you ride out your high.
He pulls back and slips his wet fingers back into his mouth.
"Darling, how do you like it?" You definitely weren't expecting him to ask that. You don't think you've ever had a man ask you that before.
"I don't know."
He cocks his head to the side. "Baby, what do you mean you don't know?"
"I just want you, and I'll take anything you'll give me." You hold your hand out towards him.
"Grab a pillow, and put it under your hips." Without thinking you follow his instruction. He hops off the bed and goes over to the nightstand. Pulling out a box of unopened condoms, and a bottle of lube.
Your eyes watch him carefully as he strips away his clothes. It's a mouth watering sight, watching his massive erection smack against his stomach.
He grabs the box and before he can even open it, you mutter out his name.
"Yeah?"
"We can go bare. I'm on birth control and I'm clean."
He tilts his and asks. "Are you sure?"
"Yeah."
Picking up the bottle of lube, he clicks it open and pours some across his length. He slowly pumps it with his eyes trained on you.
Crawling back onto the bed, he picks the lube back up. "This might be a little cold." Slowly, he pour the cool liquid onto your needy core. He takes his time massaging your opening with the lube.
"I'm big, so this might hurt." By the looks of his massive cock, you feel like that's an understatement.
He moves so he's sitting on his knees between your spread legs. He takes his length in his hand, he run the rosy tip through your folds a few times. Intentionally making sure he bumps your sensitive clit.
"I'll go slow, and if you get uncomfortable we can stop." He insane if he thinks you'll stop him. You aren't sure you have ever wanted a man more then you want him. Even if sex with him is a little painful, you'll take anything he can possibly give you.
The first inch is quite uncomfortable. The way you gasped silently is enough to make his brain short circuit. He watches you carefully, making sure you aren't in too much pain.
You reach for his hand. You want to touch him desperately. He moves his body so he's closer to you as he slowly slides in inch by inch. He doesn't move for a moment, he stay still, filling you to the brim.
Leaning down his rest his nose against yours. "You feel so good." He whispers.
"You're really big," you let out the softest laugh.
"You're just really tight." He pushes himself back a little. He's resting on his elbow, practically plastered against you.
"I might be tight, but anyone would be when you have a massive cock."
He can't help but smile at your statement. You don't understand how cute he thinks you are. He reaches out, brushing your hair away from your face.
"You can move." He leans down, pressing his lips to yours for a sweet kiss.
Your first time together isn't some rough passion filled night. Seungcheol wants your first time together to be passionate, but romantic. He keeps a slowly and deep pace. With pull of his hips, he leaves just the tip inside of you. Driving his hips back in at a firm pace, he practically kisses your cervix with his length.
Lifting your leg you rest your foot on his back. He sets a slow but deep pace. Your fingers are tangled in his hair, holding him close to you.
"You feel so good." You moan.
"You were made for me." He moans against your neck. "You're such a good girl for me."
You stay like this forever with him. With each thrust he touches that spot deep inside you, that has you seeing stars.
Closing your eyes you tilt your head back. All the nerves in your body feel alive. Your second orgasm is rapidly approaching. Biting your bottom lip, you try to stay quiet.
"I wanna hear you." He moans.
"Fuckâ" All logical words have left your brain.
One of your hands grip the sheets below you. He picks up his pace, your grip on his cock, letting him know you're close.
"Baby just let go." His sweet sinful words push you over the edge. For a moment it feels as if every muscle in your body is tense. White hot wave washes over you like you've never quite experienced before. Suddenly you feel more relax than you ever have. Your walls flutter around his lenght like a heartbeat.
He never stops thrusting, he helps you ride out your high. He pulls back, earning a whimper from you. He pulls out of you and sits in his knees his still hard cock, is covered in your release.
"Come here, baby."
Using every ounce of strength you have, you crawl to him. While he's sitting on his knees, you straddle his thighs. Reaching between you, you line yourself up with he length. Ever so slowly you sink back down.
He lets you set the pace. Instead of bouncing up and down, you rolls your hips into his. His lips are all over your throat, definitely leaving marks in his wake.
You can tell he's getting close by the moans falling from his lips. His hands grip your hips, helping to guide you up and down his length at a quicker pace.
Your third orgasm comes out of nowhere. Throwing your head back you moan his name. Leaning forward your rest your head on his shoulder.
Your walls contracting around him, push him over the edge. He holds you flush against his thighs, as he paints your walls with his milky release.
Pulling your head back you look at him with a lazy smile.
Slowly, you pull yourself off him and lay down on the bed. He hops off and heads to the bathroom. The site of his naked butt jogging away is something you're never forget.
He comes back holding a warm wash cloth. He takes his time gently cleaning up the mess he's made of you.
After disposing of the towel he crawls into bed with you. Laying on your side you're staring at him. He's lying next to you laying on his side. Reaching out he grabs your hand.
"I love you." He says those three words you have been dying to hear.
"I love you too." Even if you were too scared to admit it, you've been in love with him for a while. "I don't want this to be fake anymore."
"It hasn't been fake for a while. In my eyes, you've been mine." He says with the sweetest smile.
"You're mine too."
He closes the distance and kisses you. Pulling back he says "We can make this real. Screw dating, I want to actually marry you."
"I would like that, but maybe we should properly date and stuff."
If you would've known going on that date and pretending to be Angel would lead you here, you would have never tried to get out of going on that date with Seungcheol. You never expected to date him, let alone fall in love with him and end up engaged for real.
"I love you, baby." He leans in for another kiss.
"I love you too."
an: this might get a part 2 for their wedding or it might make a sequel with Angel and Soonyoung that has these two love birds wedding. If anyone would be interested in reading that pls let me know.
ANAMNESIS. (cyborg!choi seungcheol x human!reader)
synopsis: five years ago, your company became a big enough threat to the existing tech ecosystem to cause an attack on your life. five years ago, said attack killed your husband. after spending so long picking up the pieces, you are quickly racing to the top again, which means your life is threatened once more. but the assassin sent your way is a little too familiar, even if heâs not exactly the same as the day he got âkilledâ.
warnings: mentions of death and violence, assassination and murder, corrupt business practices, amnesia, brainwashing and manipulation, mentions of mental health, suicidal ideation, sexually explicit content
smut warnings: 18+, multiple orgasms, choking, praise kink, use of petnames, they almost cry (lol), mentions of body modifications (in case of cyborg!seungcheol).
word count: 17.2k
a/n: this is part of the Cyberpunk: Reload Collab hosted by @studiosvt . Thank you to the organisers and everyone involved in the collab, this has been such a unique and stimulating writing experience for me, especially for a concept Iâve never done before. Seungcheol in this is loosely based off the winter soldier, I hope you all enjoy!
Inside the sleek but small building wedged between two skyscrapers, a single light illuminates a window on the second floor. Around it is nothing but darkness, and the streets are strangely quiet for a Friday night. Inside the office, the golden light falls over a keyboard, the clack, clack, clack of the keys rhythmic and continuous. Fingers move deftly over it, and the artificial glow of the monitor adds to the lamp in an unpleasant way. You donât seem to mind.
A knock on the door does nothing to break your concentration. Your fingers donât so much as falter. Joshua pokes his head in through a crack in the doorframe, frowns when he sees you, and finally speaks up.
âAny chance you will be wrapping this up soon?â
You donât look up, but you hum in acknowledgment. âJust a little bit more. Iâm just finishing up onâŠ.â
Your voice trails off. You donât attempt to finish the sentence. Joshua sighs.
âItâs Friday night.â He reminds you, gently, still lingering in the doorway. âHow about you and I get some dinner? You can sleep in tomorrow.â
He knows his suggestions will fall on deaf ears, but he tries nonetheless. He is hyperaware of his boss at this point. Thereâs no convincing you to slow down, to take a breather. You wonât allow yourself to. Slowing down means letting your mind wander. And you havenât let that happen in five years, lest you are reminded of what you have lost.
âItâs okay for you to head home, Josh.â You break him from his thoughts. âI promise, Iâm almost done. Maybe an hour more.â
Thereâs no point in arguing. Joshua sighs and steps out again. He reminds himself to call you an hour later to make sure you have, in fact, left the office. His satchel is already packed, so he just pulls on his coat and steps out.
You know Joshua worries. Heâs the only person on staff who can see your struggle. You pride yourself on being composed and shut off from the people around you. If youâre drowning, no one really sees it. Except Joshua, of course. He has been there since the very beginning, so he knows. The rest of the staff though, you did a complete turnover half a decade ago. They donât know what actually went down or what youâve been through.
True to your word, youâre wrapping up forty five minutes later. Itâs well past midnight, and you know Joshua wonât take kindly to you still working when he inevitably calls in fifteen minutes. There have been occasions where he has dragged you out of the building himself, when he is particularly frustrated. He keeps speaking about âwork-life balanceâ, reprimanding you for not having it. You always bite your tongue instead of telling him that you have no âlifeâ to go back to. The only person you ever loved is gone, so your work is all you have.
The drive back is inconsequential. The roads are empty by this point, despite the weekend. Your apartment building is silent and looming as always. You donât really like your neighborhood, but you had moved here after everything happened for a fresh start, and at the time, you werenât in any headspace to pick out a nice place. Joshua often complained about how drab and uninspiring your apartment is. You pay him no mind. He has always been all about flowers and rainbows. His desk at the office is so colorful it makes your eyes hurt sometimes.
You leave the light on in the kitchen landing so you donât have to stumble through the dark to get to the switchboard. Again, you can hear Joshua complaining in your head about how you can easily afford an AI home system, considering how well the company has been doing. You are least interested though. You donât want to put anything in this apartment that can mean you are planning to live here long term. You donât even know why youâre still here. Most days, you have no clue where your life is heading anyway.
You toe off your shoes and plop your heavy trenchcoat over the back of the couch. You wonder what you can make yourself for dinner. Something minimal straight out of the packet, probably. Youâve got dozens of those prepackaged meals in your pantry. You beeline for the sink, washing your hands and wondering bleakly what you are in the mood for stomaching. Through the window over the counter, you can see the cityâs skyline. Thousands of tiny, yellow dots from peopleâs windows, the backdrop formed by the sleek, poised buildings of the business sector looming beyond. Straight edges and smooth lines. But one building, not even two blocks away, shows an irregularity.
You squint for a second, hands held under the sink still. It looks like a person. Tall, but very broad. You half think youâre imagining it, but then the silhouette moves, and your eye catches on a gleam of silver over the shoulder.
The water is still running. You shut it off, looking back up. Heâs gone.
You blink a few times. Then you glance at the clock. Itâs nearly three in the morning. You huff and step away from the sink, shaking off your hands. Itâs too late at night for your brain to be functioning properly. You need sustenance. And then you need to sleep.
Itâs easy enough to pop your chicken dinner into a dish and slide it into the oven. You set fifteen minutes on the digital counter, and then busy yourself with hopping into the shower for a quick wash. Fifteen minutes on the dot, youâre back in the kitchen, peering into the oven with dripping wet hair and a bathrobe covering your drenched body. Everything around you is silent, so deafeningly still that you immediately hear the click and whir of metal. Right behind you. Too close.
The hair on the back of your neck stands. You whirl around.
Something smashes, hard, against your nose. Pain explodes and you gasp, stumbling back into the counter. Your eyes water, something warm and liquid drips over your lips and down your chin. Youâre dizzy, you canât see properly. You can barely breathe through the excruciating hurt. But alarm bells are ringing in your head, and fight or flight takes over. Backed against the counter for support, you kick your legs out hard. Your feet make contact with something sturdy. Thereâs a grunt, and the man stumbles backward, his back hitting the refrigerator with what sounds like a deafening crash. Youâre already scrambling to run from the kitchen.
You can barely see, but you know the map of this house like the back of your hand. Your ears are ringing, youâre gasping for breath, but panic is fueling you. Youâve had this feeling before, your life has been threatened once, a long time ago, and somehow, the second time around is giving you more clarity.
It also means that you are better prepared this time around.
You can hear the thuds and bangs behind you. Your attacker will be right on your heels soon. You barely manage to wretch your door closed, locking it, before a startling bang shakes it at its very hinges. Your yelp is involuntary. You know you have only bought yourself mere seconds.
Inside your drawer you find what youâre looking for, a tiny, unassuming device, shiny and silver, resembling a lighter. It comes with two silicone ear buds that you shove into your ears. Then, your hand on the solitary button on the device, you turn around.
The door comes down after just two bangs, splintering the doorframe completely. Sawdust rises, clouding the air. You donât wait to see your attacker, pressing the button immediately.
You canât hear it, owing to the buds in your ears, but you know a high pitched screeching has filled the air, nearly unbearable because of how high the frequency is. But it does its job. The man howls in pain, dropping what looks like a gun on the ground and using both hands to cover his ears. His knees buckle and he falls on them. You can see, even from a few feet away, the veins in his neck bulge hard, disappearing behind the black mask on his face. He crumples on the floor, clutching the sides of his head. You snatch your phone from where you had thrown it on your bed, frantically dialling three digits.
The man is still writhing, his body, clad in black and silver, contracting and arching painfully as he tries in vain to keep the sound out. As he moves, metal thuds against the ground. There is more clicking and whirring, like machinery buzzing with life. You realise heâs not entirely human. His shoulders tighten as you step closer, trying to make out who it is.
â911, what is your emergency?â
A single brown eye pops open on the stranger's mask-covered face. The other half, you realise, is covered in silver metal. But you donât care about that, because your blood is running cold.
You would recognise that eye anywhere.
Your grip falters. The device in your hand gets silenced. The man on the ground relaxes, his hands falling down as he quickly tries to scramble to his feet. He is still swaying, his short cropped blond hair matted to his sweaty forehead, the after effects of the sonic attack making him stumble, but for the first time, you register his stature. His height, the breadth of his shoulders. And his one, visible eye.
âHello? Is anyone there?â
The woman on your phone seems to break your trance. Before you know it, the man is rushing out over the broken wreckage of your door. Your hand shakes, your eyes are still watering from the blow you took. Both your phone and your device fall from your hand. You scramble after him.
âWait-â
But heâs gone. Out of your living room window, which you didnât notice was wide open when you first walked into the apartment. You canât see him on the street below, which is glaringly empty. Itâs like he was a ghost, vanishing before you can blink. You are left staring at nothing, blood dripping steadily down your chin now, staining your bathrobe, your hair still damp from the shower, sticking to your face and neck. You canât even register the pain anymore, canât think of anything else except the cold depth of his one brown eye.
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âThatâs impossible.â
âIt was him.â
âAnd Iâm telling you, thatâs not possible.â
âI know what I saw, Josh.â
âY/N, heâs dead. We had a funeral. We buried him.â
âOnly parts.â But your voice cracks. You donât like remembering that day. âWe had an arm and a leg. Some teeth. And this manâŠ. half of him was metal. Heâs been modified.â
Joshua doesnât reply, staring at the TV playing across the room on low volume. You follow his lead, gaze blank. You donât really register much of anything since the pain in your face is too overwhelming to take in much else.
When you woke up this morning, you almost forgot what happened in your apartment mere hours ago. One look at the broken mess of your door, the twinge in your face that made your eyes water, and all the events came rushing back. The punch you took, running to your room, your door broken down, driving your attacker away.
Clear, brown, almond shaped eye. Just one eye, while the other half of the face was covered in what looked like a metal plate, and a mechanical, white circle where the other eye should have been.
âThe Secretary of Defence has a bionic arm.â You add, absentmindedly.
âJust one arm.â Joshua counters. âNot half the entire body.â
âIt wasnât the entire body. I could make out the arm and leg. Some part of the face-â
âMy point is,â Your friend cuts you off, âwhy would it be Seungcheol? And if by some miracle it was him, why would he attack you?â
You donât answer, because you donât know. Youâve been mulling over the same questions for hours, long before you finally called Joshua to come over. You know bionic prostheses are very much an emerging field in biotech circles. Everyone is racing towards this kind of technology because of how much revenue there is in the medical applications. The other, more sinister angle is weaponry, and you know that a lot of your fellow developers and companies want to tap into that potential. There have been rumors for months, covert projects underway by both government and private agencies to develop this exact kind of thing.
Maybe what you saw last night was an application of that weapon.
It still doesnât explain why he would attack you. Doesnât explain why the person who would never so much as raise his voice at you could hurt you so severely that Joshua balked at the sight of your purple and blue face, nose swollen and bruised in ugly colors that told you that you would have to work from home for the foreseeable future.
The Seungcheol you knew had been so gentle. Thatâs how you met him, actually, so many years ago that you donât even recognise that time.
âI spilled it on you.â He argued. âWhat kind of man would I be if I let you pay for it?â
His lips, full and pink in a way that you immediately wondered about the feel of them, ticked up, and a little dimple dented his right cheek. You felt the squeeze of your heart, fluttering wildly in your chest, a feeling that was replicated every day after that, for Seungcheol never left your side since then. Until the day he died. Or did he?
Joshua is watching the screen more intently now, eyebrows furrowing.
âYoon Tech is doing a demonstration at the New York Expo? I had no idea.â
You blink to focus on the screen. Sure enough, Yoon Techâs CEO, Yoon Jeonghan, is speaking to the audience and cameras with that sly, charming smile on his face, talking about unveiling a project that can revolutionise the field of war weaponry and put their military supremely on top of their competition around the world. You know Yoon Tech is the militaryâs primary contractor, and their focus is weaponry. You know this because before Yoon Tech, your company was approached for a military contract, one that you turned down because your prime focus was not weapons. Joshua still thinks you should have said yes, but you donât want to take the company in that direction. Besides, things get messy if you have the government as your big boss.
âYou know Jeonghan doesnât say anything about projects until the day he unveils them.â You mumble, only half focusing. âHeâs secretive that way-â
âWait, shut up.â Joshua sits up abruptly, scrambling for the remote to turn the volume up. Behind Jeonghan, several people are stepping onto the stage. Heâs introducing them one by one as military veterans, and your eyes catch their forms immediately, breath stilling. Protheses, lots of them.
A man with a bionic arm, quite like the one the Secretary of Defence has. A woman with a below knee prosthetic leg. Thereâs more, attached limbs and shoulders, half a pelvic girdle, part of a jaw. Jeonghan is still talking, gesturing to the people now lining up behind him. The silver gleams, just like it gleamed on Seungcheolâs body last night. The only difference is the Yoon Tech and Military logos stamped on the ones on your screen. Jeonghan announces a demonstration, steps off the stage, and you watch, completely silent, as all of them demonstrate feats of extraordinary strength, aided by their metal attachments, some even showing installed weaponry between the plates of their limbs.
âA formation of advanced humans,â Jeonghan is saying somewhere off screen. âMan and machine combined, that will allow these soldiers to serve their country in ways they did not even possess before their unfortunate injuries.â
âJoshâŠâ Your voice trails off.
Joshua looks pale, confused, and a little frightened when his eyes meet your beaten and bruised face. It looks like he dared not believe, but you know he has reached the same conclusion as you.
âJeonghan sent Seungcheol to kill you?â
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The only sound in the large, swanky office is the tea as it pours slowly into a cup on Jeonghanâs desk. It steams, and the scent of chamomile hits his nose. He watches it absentmindedly, and then waves his hand to dismiss his secretary. She places the tea kettle down gently and leaves without a word, and the room falls into silence. There is only him, and the man sitting opposite to him across his large, mahogany desk. Half his face is shrouded by darkness, the other half reflects the light as it hits the cold, unforgiving metal.
Jeonghan tuts.
âWell, this is definitely a setback.â He hums, picking up the cup so he can take a small sip. It warms his throat, perfect for the cold weather. But his mind remains distracted. âAfter the demonstration at the Expo yesterday, she will definitely know it was me who ordered the hit. After all, who else is making bionic weaponry?â
The man across from him doesnât respond. He rarely talks unless directly spoken to, one eye blank and unseeing. Jeonghan doesnât claim to know much about how the human brain works, but he supposes extensive memory modification can do that to a person.
âYou always used to have something witty or crass to say, Seungcheol.â Jeonghan sighs. âOh well. It was either that, or your willingness to kill her. I will take what I can get.â
Again, no reply. Jeonghan focuses on drinking his tea, thinking. His eyes are trained on his former business rival, the presumed dead husband of his current business rival. The soothing chamomile does nothing to take the bitter taste out of his mouth. He still feels the resentment, the bruise on his ego. For your company to be pursued as a first choice in a military partnership, when his own efforts are much grander, much more advanced, for you to turn that opportunity down (youâre a dumbass, he thinks), for him to be second choice, despite where he stands in tech circlesâŠ
A company that was a mere baby not even a full decade ago to beat something it took his family generations to build. It irks him. It burns him.
So he will burn you.
He did it once, in the explosion that took away what you loved the most. It shouldâve been enough to deter you, but it clearly wasnât. No matter, he plans to destroy you directly this time.
âYou know what you need to do.â He says, mutely. The man before him stirs, nods. Jeonghan scowls at him.
âMake sure you finish the job this time.â
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Seungcheol had always been a mega-nerd about tech. And his dream was to own his own company.
He would tell you about it, both of you sprawled on the uncomfortable rooftop of his college dorm building, staring at the sky. Heâd talk and talk about his plans after graduation, about how he wanted to build something from the ground up, something he was proud of. You would listen, not just because the sound of his voice always made you so happy, but because you were genuinely interested in it. You had a business major, and while Seungcheol didnât know how to run things, you did. Even then, it felt like a match made in heaven to you. Seungcheol knew the substance of the company, you knew how to run it. It almost felt like a no-brainer that eventually you would do this together.
Back in his dorm, you would plop yourself into his lap and look over the little gadgets he had designed, the many, many files in his computer of inventions you didnât even know could exist. You would tease him, calling him a glorified mechanic.
âEngineer.â He would pout. You would kiss it off him through a million giggles. His laptop would be pushed off the bed, forgotten, as you sunk into each otherâs arms.
The company was his baby, truly. While you were CEO because you ran day to day operations and focused on logistics, any product you pushed out was crafted carefully in Seungcheolâs hands. He would bring every prototype to you, you would run it by focus groups and tweak it, and eventually, it would hit the market with great success. Seungcheol always thought it was because of you.
âYou run your magic over it, and it becomes a hit.â He would say, kissing your cheek over and over. You would just grin and take it, never ever pushing him away.
It was all Seungcheol, everyone knew this. But when he looked at you so softly, that glint of awe in his beautiful eyes, you would just indulge whatever he had to say.
âYou wouldnât know what to do without me, mister.â You would tease. He would squeeze you so tightly.
âYouâre right. I wouldnât.â
All those memories are ghosts now. The truth is, you donât know what to do without him either. He was part of you, intertwined with your soul, and he was painfully ripped away after so many glorious years together. Sometimes, you think you imagined that time in your life. It feels so far away. But then you walk into your office, you look at the logo he designed, the furniture you picked out, the many, many unfinished files in your server that you are still working on, his creations, and you would be reminded that he was real. All that time, all that delirious bliss, was completely real.
Jeon Wonwoo is the current head of your Product Development branch, Seungcheolâs previous post. You had brought him in after the tragedy that killed your husband. Well, not you, but Joshua, who suggested overhauling the entire team after the attack. He is brilliant, quiet and a little reclusive, but whip-smart. He became intimately familiar with Seungcheolâs work when you brought him in, and he respected the integrity of it, which made you respect him even more. Heâs no Seungcheol, but heâs the closest thing, and you think he might be the only one you can trust to answer the questions in your head.
âBionic weaponry isnât exactly novel.â He murmurs. âWe know it exists. Not openly yet, but itâs being manufactured in a lot of places. Companies we know as well as around the world. Yoon Tech is just the first one to unveil it publicly.â
Joshua is pacing your living room floor, and watching him makes you feel dizzy, so you close your eyes instead. Your face is still tingling with pain, and youâre so tired that you just want to sleep. But you also need some form of explanation.
âSo itâs possible? Modifying Seungcheolâs body like that?â Joshua asks.
Wonwoo hesitates, holding his chin and staring at the far wall. âTheoretically, yes. Practically, I havenât seen or heard of it yet. Not to the extent you describe. Establishing neural connections in that many body parts and making sure they work in perfect coordination is a huge undertaking.â
Joshua looks at you pointedly, as if to say âI told you soâ.
âBut,â Wonwoo clears his throat, âif anyone can accomplish it, it would be Yoon Tech. Their R&D team is the best in the game.â
You return Joshuaâs look the best that you can through your marred face. He huffs.
âWhat about the fact that he attacked her? Why would he do that?â He asks.
Wonwoo blinks. âOh, thatâs easy. Memory modification. Brainwashing. CIA has been doing it for years. A lot of assassins operate under that frame of mind. Itâs easier to control them that way.â
A small silence stretches over the room. Joshua is chewing on the inside of his cheek.
âSo he doesnât know who I am.â You mumble. âIâm justâŠ.. what, a target?â
Wonwoo nods. âLikely, yes. And you know Jeonghan way better than me, maâam. Itâs very like him to toy with you by using Seungcheol specifically.â
You canât argue with him on that. You know how ruthless Jeonghan is about his company, about his standing in tech circles. Youâre catching up, dangerously close, and some would say youâve even surpassed him. You won't put it past him to knock out competition under the table.
You never did find out who ordered the hit on Seungcheol five years ago. But now, you think you know.
âCan we undo it?â You ask. âThe memory change, or whatever?â
Joshua stares at you. âWhat do you mean?â
Wonwoo answers you, though.
âI think so, yes. Itâs not my area of expertise, but I know people who can tell us more about it. The memory isnât the problem, though. Heâs basically a walking weapon. Subduing him long enough to do anything about his brain is going to be an issue.â
âWhoa, hold on.â Joshua steps closer to you, cutting off your reply to Wonwoo, holding a hand up. Both of you look at him as he stares at you in bewilderment.
âWhat the hell are you planning? Are you insane? He almost killed you!â
âWhat do you want me to do then?â You grit your teeth. âNothing? Should I just lay down and let him kill me?â
âWe need to call the police-â
You laugh dryly. Your face twinges with pain.
âI have no proof. You think any agency in this city is going to mess with Yoon Tech? And by some miracle if they do believe me, do you think any of them are going to spare Seungcheol long enough to save him?â
Joshuaâs mouth opens and closes, like he wants to protest, but no words leave him. He huffs and shakes his head, running a frustrated hand through his hair. You turn your attention back to Wonwoo.
âI know youâre not a biotech expert, but youâre the best IT guy I know. Any ideas on how to hack into Yoon Techâs mainframe?â
Wonwoo looks a little taken aback. âThatâsâŠ.. illegal.â
You roll your eyes, ignoring the pain that comes with it. âIâm pretty sure trying to get your business competitor killed is illegal too. Jeonghan seems comfortable attempting it twice.â
He nods slowly, still slightly hesitant. âI will need helpâŠâ
You stand up, essentially declaring the meeting over. Youâre tired, as you often are these days. Your injury might look like it affects your face only, but you feel the exhaustion bone deep in every part of you. You want a soothing cup of tea and then a million blankets to lie down in. That's it.
âCall in anyone you need.â
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You know he will come again. The only question is when.
The bruises around your nose and under your eyes take a long time to fade. The slow move from a deep purple, to blue, to a sickly green and then yellow surprises you every day. Youâre breathing easy now, only a week later, but you know going to the office looking like this will raise serious questions. You canât risk any eyes on this right now, since getting Seungcheol back needs to be as discrete as possible.
Thatâs what you plan to do. Get him back.
Itâs idealistic, almost. Maybe something out of a movie. He has been altered, mind and body, for years. You donât even want to imagine how much he was been put through. How convoluted must his mind be now? How dangerous would tinkering with his body be?
Every few minutes, your hand reaches into the pocket of your jeans, toying with the small, rectangular chip that Wonwoo had given you a couple of days ago.
âYou need to get close enough to him to get this on any bionic part of him.â He told you. âArm, leg, doesnât matter. We canât hack into Yoon Techâs mainframe, itâs too secure. But we can isolate him from it. This chip can do that. Once thatâs done, we can figure out a way to rewire his mechanics.â
Itâs easier said than done, of course. For one, Seungcheol is nearly twice your size. Heâs always been massive, but he seems even more so now. You wonder if he has worked covertly for Yoon Tech to do other dirty work. How long has he been their weapon? How much training does he have? Can you, a novice civilian, even get close enough to him to do any lasting damage?
âYou managed it once, didnât you?â Joshua replied to your mindâs worries. âYou got out of that alive, somehow. Iâm willing to bet you can do it again.â
âHeâll be more careful this time.â Wonwoo mumbled. âFor one, he wonât try again until youâre completely alone. For another, he will make sure you are isolated from any weapon you might be able to access.â
So now here you are, meandering in your kitchen, watching your television blankly, staring unseeing at your laptop. Anything and everything to make yourself look as unassuming as possible. Heâs watching, you know he is, and every fiber of your body is silently asking him to come to you. You wait, and wait, because you would wait endlessly for him. Somehow, youâre not afraid. In your head, this ends in one of two ways. Either you get the love of your life back, or you die trying. Youâre good with both options.
Itâs Tuesday by the time he finally shows up.
You think you sense him, because the hair on your body stands. You feel the chill, and then, that very soft whirring sound that comes when he moves his limbs.
You stare at the contents inside your refrigerator. You donât turn around. And yet, he doesnât shoot. He doesnât swing.
âI was expecting you sooner.â You finally say.
When you turn to look at him, your eyes catch his visible brown one. Your breath hitches. He has ditched the mask, and you can see his face. Well, whatâs left of it.
Metal pieces are carved into the shape of his right ear, curling forward to form a cheekbone, encroaching all the way over his eye and stopping right before his nose. It covers the ridge of his right eyebrow as well, but spares his forehead. A white, flat circle is fitted where his eye should be, and now that you look closely at it, it swirls and moves, no doubt mapping your every move.
The rest of his face is gloriously, warmly human. Itâs him, itâs his left eye, his thick, furrowed eyebrow, the strong bridge of his nose, his lips, set in a hard line on his face. His hair has been cropped right to his skull, dyed a dirty blond with brown roots already growing out, slightly spiked and dishevelled around his head. Finally, your eyes dart down to the pistol in his hand, pointing directly at your chest.
You clench your teeth.
âShoot me.â
He doesnât reply, but his mouth tightens. From your chest, the gun rises to your head. The shifting of his aim is your window. Your hand shoots back, grabs and throws the first thing you can find at him. Itâs a glass. His metal arm comes up, makes contact, and the glass shatters. His stance does not falter for even a second, but he flinches at the shards of glass, and before it even makes contact, you are sprinting forward, hand curled tight around the chip, and with one leap, you collide into him. Hard.
Your momentum is enough, and you both fall in a mess of limbs. You scramble, finding the edge of the plate in his shoulder, but before you can wedge the chip in it, his human hand reaches up and smashes hard against your jaw. You cry out, the sharp sting blooming, the taste of blood already in your mouth. But your hands are still moving, and before you know it, the chip hits hard against his bicep, immediately lighting up a pale yellow, the tiny spikes on its edges sinking into the metal.
Seungcheol shouts and roughly pushes you off. You fall limply on your side, trying to see through how dizzy you are. Everything hurts, your face is on fire, but your eyes are focused on the pale yellow streaks spreading over Seungcheolâs arm, glowing between the plates making up his leg, part of his face. His arm and leg jerk hard, seemingly out of his control. He shouts again, trying to stand up, but it looks like his limbs arenât cooperating with him anymore.
The human part is still his though.
You force yourself, despite the excruciating pain and the blood now sliding down your throat, and you rush into the living room. Under your couch, youâve stored what you need. Electromagnetic cuffs, both for his wrists and ankles, shiny grey steel with a light that blinks on when you press the buttons on them. You can hear Seungcheol stumble onto his feet in the kitchen, and youâre already rushing back before he can stand properly. The cuffs hum, slam hard around his human wrist and the light on them turns red. The arm goes limp on his side immediately. He canât react, not with his only remaining limb, and you are able to secure the other cuff around his ankle as well.
With that, your husband crumples to your kitchen floor.
Heâs motionless from the neck down, but he strains hard. You can see the muscles in his neck bulge. He is flushed with the exertion of it, grunting and snarling. His glare is venomous as you back into the kitchen island, trying not to choke on the blood dripping down your throat as you breathe hard.
You drape yourself over the sink, trying not to throw up, spitting blood into it so you can breathe. Behind you, Seungcheol is still groaning and straining, to no avail. You stay leaning over until the wave of nausea passes, and the bleeding slows. Finally, you grab a bunch of paper towels, wiping your mouth and chin. The metallic taste still lingers.
Your hands leave some streaks of blood on your phone as you dial Wonwooâs number. He picks up on the first ring, and when he speaks, you realise he was anticipating your call.
âThe chip just connected to my server! Iâm working on decrypting and isolating him from Yoon Techâs servers right now.â
âHow long is it going to take?â You ask, not recognising your own, broken voice. Your jaw is sore. Youâre in so much pain.
âI donât know yetâŠ.â Wonwooâs voice is more subdued. âAre you okay? Do you need help?â
You shake your head before you realise he canât see you.
âIâm fine. Itâs just a scratch.â Big underreport. âWhat do I do while you work on this?â
Wonwoo doesnât immediately answer, but you can hear shuffling in the background.
âWhat Iâm doing only changes the physical.â His voice sounds apologetic. âThe mental barrier, his lack of memory, I canât fix that.â
You know what he is implying. You turn your head to look at Seungcheol, still on your kitchen floor, heaving but no longer futilely straining.
âThanks, Wonwoo. I can handle that part.â
The truth is, you donât know if you can. You donât know what was done to him. You donât even know if your husband still exists somewhere inside him, or if he was wiped out completely. Are you even cut out for this? With your modest business degree and a company that is successful only because of Seungcheolâs genius, where do you stand in this situation?
As you walk back into the kitchen, watching the man writhing on the floor does nothing to soothe your confidence. Suddenly, all your clarity is gone.
You donât know what to do.
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Seungcheol was a very clingy man.
You always liked that about him. To you, he was like an overgrown bear, curling around you tightly while you chopped vegetables until you complained that you still needed your mobility in order to cook dinner.
âYouâre too heavy, Cheolie!â You would whine, but his grip on you would only tighten, pressing your back harder into his front.
âFive more minutes.â He would mumble into your hair. You would laugh incredulously.
Youâre reminded of that moment as you drag this immobilised, half human, half robot man into your living room, using every bit of your strength to plop him onto the armchair next to the couch. Youâre heaving, your head pounding so severely that it makes you dizzy. Thereâs no fight in him anymore, and he stares blankly at you as you cough a little, still feeling drops of blood hit your palm as you do so. You huff and go to the bathroom to clean up, rummaging in your medicine cabinet for anything that could ease your pain. You leave him on the chair, knowing heâs incapable of escaping anyway.
Fifteen minutes later, youâre sitting on the couch with a cup of tea, your legs curled under you, a blanket draped over your lap. You stare with bleary vision at the dark, steaming liquid. Seungcheol stares at the ceiling, head thrown back. Neither of you says a word.
âDo you speak?â You muse out loud, not looking at him. âI havenât heard you talk yet, so it makes me wonder.â
No reply.
âJasmine tea was your favorite, you know?â You mumble on, not even fully aware of what you are saying. âYou were always a coffee person, but when you had tea with me sometimes, it would be jasmine. Itâs the only one you could stomach, actually.â
A mirthless laugh leaves you. He still stares at the ceiling. You watch him, the stiff cut of his jaw, the streaks of yellow glowing under the plates of his bionic attachments. There is a distinct, soft hum coming from them, but both of you elect to ignore it.
âSeungcheol.â You whisper. He doesnât react beyond a small flick of his eyelid.
Youâre so tired. You can feel it tug on your limbs, like invisible weights making it difficult to even move. With every ounce of strength in you, you stand up, walking to the closet in your hallway. You return with a pale blue blanket, the one Seungcheol got for himself years ago and never let go, claiming it was a comfort for him. Now, his eye trains on you as you shake it out and drape it over his torso and legs. You donât look at him, just loosely tucking him in before walking back to the couch, pulling your own blanket around yourself and sinking into the uncomfortable cushion.
You donât notice his eye on you. You donât notice anything else as you welcome the pitch black of dreamless sleep. You send out a little prayer that by morning, somehow all of this will be over and you will wake up in bed, wrapped up in your husbandâs warm arms.
Youâre wrong, sadly. There is nothing but cold.
Heâs exactly where you left him before drifting off. He stares into the distance, looking disconnected until you shift and his eye catches the movement. You wince at the crick in your neck, somehow even more tired than you were before sleeping. You sigh and rub your eyes.
âDid you sleep?â You ask.
No response.
You leave him on the couch, opting to putter to the kitchen to make yourself a cup of tea. You eye the cabinet against the far wall, staring at the bottles inside and the amber liquid that gleams in them. A glance at the clock tells you itâs barely noon.
Fuck this.
Seungcheol doesnât react in any way when you walk into the living room with a bottle of whiskey and a glass thatâs too big for a drink like that. He just watches you from the corner of his eye as you sit back on the couch and pour yourself a concerning amount, wincing when your throat protests against the first sip.
âYou would not approve of this at all.â You chuckle humorlessly. âYouâd be appalled, I think. Drinking this early? Whiskey of all things? That was never my drink. I didnât have the tolerance for it. Youâre the whiskey guy.â
He doesnât interrupt. You take another sip and stare at the glass. Already, on an empty stomach, you can feel your senses dimming.
âSometimes I think,â you whisper, âyou would really hate the person Iâve become.â
His head lolls in your direction, the only part of his body he can control. His eye meets yours and you feel your heart squeeze.
âI donât know you.â
His voice is hoarse, a little crack in it from disuse. But itâs his voice, the voice youâve yearned to hear for so long. You remember laying in your bed at night, wishing you could hear him whisper one last time, maybe even just the sound of your name from his lips, just once more, to hold you over. Your breath hitches, and you can feel your vision blur under newly formed tears.
âIâm your wife.â
âYouâre my target.â
You stand abruptly, walking closer to where he sits, or rather, lays sprawled out under the blanket you draped over him. You tug it aside, eye the yellow lines of light that pass over his bionic limbs. You reach down to run a finger over the chip you attached to his bicep.
âIf I pull this off you right now,â you stare directly into his eye. âWould you kill me?â
A small silence. Then he nods.
You let out a shaky breath, standing back up. The air is tense, and by now, youâre sick of it. You need to get away from him for a bit, no matter how badly that very thought pains you. Whiskey ignored on the coffee table, you walk to the door to tug your shoes on. You eye the back of his blond head with your hand on the doorknob, feeling a certain sense of defeat.
âIronic, isnât it?â You mumble, but he hears you. âYouâre the one who created that chip.â
The door closes softly behind you.
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There is a mess in his head. A tangled web of wires. He doesnât know how to begin unraveling it. He canât even find a single free end to tug on.
In the quiet of the room he is sitting in, he can hear warped voices from inside his own thoughts. He canât make out any words, only tones, soft and loud both, some conversational, some that sound like laughter. He knows the voice, can recognise it. Itâs the woman whose armchair he is sitting on.
Something presses on his temple, like a weighted force, insistent, as if urging him to listen more closely. But he canât, because it makes pain bloom between his eyebrows, pain so severe it makes his eye water.
Every now and then, he feels intense heat, a kind thatâs less uncomfortable and more painful. As suddenly as it comes, it goes away, and the blanket draped over him does nothing but elevate the sensation of it. He sits in the quiet, with the floating voices, the laughter, the weight on his head, the pain between his eyebrows, and the bursts of painful heat that bloom on his skin.
His ears perk when he hears the front door clink open after what seems like hours. He canât turn himself around to look, so he just listens to the stumbling and mumbled cursing, shuffling and then a soft thud of cloth hitting the ground. Bare footsteps, a quiet sound, and then the woman from before enters his line of sight.
Youâre clearly inebriated. He has stalked enough victims before ending their lives to know what alcohol intoxication looks like. He eyes you carefully as you putter around the living room, not doing anything in particular. Then, you look straight at him.
âI donât know what to do.â You finally speak, and the words are less slurred than he expected them to be. âI donât know what to do with you.â
He doesnât reply. You move closer to him, and his face, the only thing he can move, tenses when you pull the blanket back and sink onto the chair by his side. He can feel the press of you against his skin, even if he canât move. Your shoulder fits under his arm, you head on his collarbone. You drape the blanket over your joined bodies.
âLetâs just pretend everything is okay.â You whisper, your voice cracking slightly. Your arm drapes over his torso. âJust for right now. Just one night.â
He stares at the wall, his side warming quickly under the added weight. Itâs different from the heat he felt before, stinging and sudden, disconcerting. Itâs different from anything he has felt in a long time. No one touches him. No one has been near him for years, except the people he has taken the lives of, or the scientists that fitted his limbs. This heat right now, it is dull but constant, like how the sun feels on your skin. He hears laughter again, but this time itâs clearer, and it sounds familiar, like something he has heard before. In another life.
He stares at the far wall as your breathing evens out. Your weight doesnât feel very uncomfortable anymore as time passes. The clock ticks softly, and the rise and fall of your chest is rhythmic. He can feel your heartbeat against his ribcage. There is a whisper in his head. A name. His own. In a voice that is quickly becoming familiar.
Heâs tired, but he doesnât sleep. He canât remember the last time he slept.
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Going into work becomes out of the question immediately, since you canât leave a brainwashed assassin on your couch unattended for a whole day. Joshua pays you a visit with some stuff that needs taking a look, but otherwise, you sit on the couch, your laptop in front of you, and get through meetings and daily logistics that way. As you work, you think out loud, talking to Seungcheol about random tasks that come up, some hiccup at work youâre fretting over, and how your head of accounting keeps pissing you off. Itâs mundane stuff, but it is exactly the things that you used to talk about on the daily. You loved debriefing with your husband, especially because he worked in the same place as you, so he knew all these people just as well, and knew what you were talking about.
Now, he doesnât respond much. But youâre okay with that. Youâre just glad he is here, and not dead like you had assumed for the last five years.
After your moment of inebriated weakness, spending the night curled up in his warmth, you suddenly feel some semblance of hope again. You had heard his heart beat, had felt the twitch and shift of his skin under your touch. He is still your Seungcheol, even if half of him is cold and unfamiliar, you are certain that he is somewhere in there, deep inside. And youâre convinced that if he didnât remember at all, he wouldnât have let you sleep on him the way that he did.
(Granted, he had no choice since he was paralysed. But you choose to ignore that reality.)
Joshua has been very wary of this quiet, motionless version of Seungcheol. He steers clear when he visits, not engaging in any way and just choosing to finish up on work with you and leaving. One night, you ask him to stay for dinner, and for the first time, he hesitates. You see his eyes flick to where Seungcheol is sitting, and you sigh in irritation.
âHeâs not a piece of furniture, Josh.â You mutter. âHeâs still my husband.â
âIs he?â He counters, dryly. âBecause itâs been weeks and thereâs been nothing. I assumed if he was really in there, we wouldâve seen something by-â
âHeâs there.â You hiss, cutting him off. Joshua blinks at your harsh tone. âIâve been here with him every second of every day. I see it in his eyes. He isnât gone yet-â
The crack in your voice cuts you off. You take a deep breath, blinking vigorously to keep your tears at bay. Joshua has fallen silent, eyeing you with a forlorn expression. After a few seconds, when he realises you wonât continue, he simply nods.
That night, after Joshua has gone, you still have his uncertainty on your mind. You eye the back of Seungcheolâs head, and remember the last few weeks. A seed has been planted in your head, plaguing your brain with doubt and pain. And once again, you feel that bone deep exhaustion that comes and goes frequently these days.
You make up your mind quickly, and your body follows in resignation.
Slowly, you walk back to the living room where Seungcheol sits. You walk closer to him, reaching for his flesh arm, the thick, metal cuff on his wrist. It sizzles a bit, recognises your thumbprint, and clicks, loosening. You donât look at Seungcheol, despite the fact that he is eyeing you in surprise. You simply kneel down to quickly do the same to the cuff around his ankle before standing up again.
He moves with a little hesitation, stretching his leg and flexing his arm, his fingers. The limbs are stiff, and youâre sure weeks of no activity have left them sore. His bionic arm, and his pants clad leg, both still glow with pale, yellow light, the symbol of your and Wonwooâs control of them. You reach forward, and yank the chip on his arm hard, disconnecting it. The yellow vanishes, leaving only gleaming, silver metal.
The chip is warm inside your palm. You step back, blinking away tears of what feels like a chapter closing.
âYou can leave if you want.â You mumble. âOr kill me, since thatâs your mission.â
Slowly, Seungcheol stands. His metal attachments click and whir, buzzing with life again as he twists and moves them, feeling them out. You take a deep breath and realise you canât stand to look at him anymore. So you head to the kitchen.
You shuffle around mindlessly, just waiting to hear the front door open and close, or maybe you wait for searing pain from wherever he chooses to attack you. You canât predict what he will do anymore. There was once a time you knew him so well, you could even count his breaths in your head, could mimic the rise and fall of his chest under your palm. Now, you feel like you are lost at sea and heâs nowhere to be found.
Thereâs shuffling behind you, but you donât turn around.
âI donât know you.â He says, and the words hurt just as much as they did when he first spoke them weeks ago. You grit your teeth hard.
âBut,â he continues. Hesitates, âI did know you. In another time.â
You feel yourself stiffen, turning just enough to look at him. He fills the doorway, but his figure is hunched, uncertain. You wonder if he is just as tired as you. If he can feel it tug on his limbs like you do, like itâs anchoring him to the floor. How has he felt, watching you for weeks and weeks, nowhere to go but to sit and listen to any word that falls out of your mouth?
âI want to know.â He continues. âI want to remember.â
You stare at him for a long time before you finally move to where he stands. He doesnât step back, doesnât react at all, even when you stop just inches from his face. His human eye, brown like the earth, flicks with something you canât place, and the metal that covers the other half, plain grey, cold and distant. Just where the metal meets his face, the skin is raw and red. Up close, you can see how angry it looks, and you wonder how careless the person was who put him together.
Your heart aches.
âOkay.â You say simply. No promises, no guarantees. Only a commitment, and a hope to see it succeed.
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Itâs a little strange to settle into a routine with this new version of Seungcheol.
For one, he doesnât do most things humans would. He eats very little, maybe one meal a day, and sleeps even less. He spends a lot of time to himself, mostly silent rumination, something that wasnât part of his personality at all before. Heâs always been loud and jovial, so this change takes some adjusting. You suspect there is a lot about him, maybe all of it, that isnât the same anymore. The thought hurts you, so you try not to dwell.
You open your spare bedroom for him, since lounging in your living room day and night canât really be comfortable. You still have his old clothes, whatever you managed to salvage after the explosion in your shared home. He is deeply intrigued by them, and asks, in a low voice, what other belongings of his you held on to.
The answer is: everything.
You make a trip to the storage unit you bought before you moved to your new, drab apartment. You lug back boxes of Seungcheolâs incomplete inventions, designs he was working on at the time, little contraptions that were half functioning, his diaries, his notes. You even bring back his absurdly large collection of watches, every brand and every new, cool tech that existed in the market.
âThey were your one vice.â You smile at the memory as he opens the gigantic box. âYou actually designed a few yourself too. This one-â
You point to a shiny, square shaped one in the corner. Seungcheol eyes it closely.
âThis one was connected to me. You installed something in it that links to the one I wear, and it clicks at the same rhythm as my heartbeat. So itâs not really for telling time.â You shrug.
âI made this?â He asks, lifting the watch from its snug case. Itâs not functional anymore, probably out of battery after so many years. Itâs strange, because it has no hands and no numbers. There is an engraving of your initials just under the glass, over a black background.
You nod. âYou said it made you feel like I was by your side all the time.â
Your voice is low. It almost cracks. He doesnât say anything more.
You stick to working from home for a prolonged amount of time now, which isnât difficult, since youâre mostly confined to your office when you go into work anyway. A week or so after Seungcheol asked you if he could stay, youâre due for a site visit. And you offer for him to come with you.
He hesitates.
âNo one is going to recognise you.â You reassure him. âFor one, itâs an all new staff. And for another, youâre blond now. And short haired.â
He subconsciously runs a hand over his head, his lips pulling together in what can only be a ghost of one of his infamous pouts.
âIt doesnât look bad.â He mumbles.
âI never said it does.â You reply, holding back a smile as you put a plate of eggs and toast in front of him. You tilt your head as you appraise his hair. Heâs trying to flatten it down on his head.
âNo, donât do that.â You swat away his hand, running your fingers through the short but soft locks and lifting them up a bit. You mess around with it, distressing it a bit more. You know heâs watching you. It makes your cheeks heat a bit. You try to ignore the feeling.
âThere.â You withdraw your hands. âIt looks so nice now.â
When your eyes meet his, you realise his ears are tinged pink, and so is the back of his neck. You try to ignore the racing of your heart.
Wonwoo meets you on site, and heâs a little taken aback by Seungcheol being there. His face is covered with a mask, but the metal eye gives it away. After some stumbling, Wonwoo elects to ignore Seungcheolâs presence in favor of just getting work done, and you become immersed in it as well.
âThis is where the problem is.â Wonwoo points, handing you the tablet. âThere is definitely something wrong, but I canât tell if itâs because I messed up the configuration or not. Iâve been trying a few different options but they all havenât worked so far.â
Just over your shoulder, you feel Seungcheol lean in to look at the screen in your hand. You try not to think about him being so close.
âMaybe request a consultation.â You respond. âThere is a reason we have engineers on call-â
âThe configuration isnât the problem.â A voice speaks from behind you. âYour base algorithm is wrong.â
You blink and turn your head, eyeing Seungcheolâs human eye, which is right beside you. Wonwoo frowns and steps closer, looking down at the tablet.
âHow so?â
You tune it out, only registering his voice and not his words, watching as he points and explains where to make the change. Youâre reminded of a time where Seungcheol would do this every day, and you would step back to let him do his thing. You can feel him now, right at your shoulder, his warmth so close you can almost perceive it. As you eye the side of his face, you fight the urge to kiss him. Or hug him. Anything. Your fingers twitch with it. Your heart yearns for it.
Itâs over too quickly. And then he steps back.
Wonwoo is already taking the tablet from you, making adjustments as he thanks Seungcheol. You send him a little smile as he walks away, turning to look at the man on your side.
âThat was very nice of you.â You say. He just nods a little sheepishly.
âIt was an obvious solution.â
You shake your head, patting his arm as you move to walk past him. The metal is rigid and unforgiving under your fingers.
âDonât be so modest. You were born for this.â
Seungcheol seems to be in a particularly good mood after that.
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Things get smoother as time goes by.
Something about going into work with you that one time clicks with Seungcheol. With all the material from your storage room, he starts tinkering with his old things again. Thereâs so many notes and designs, complete and incomplete blueprints keeping him occupied. He does it mostly in the living room, which you donât mind. Youâre glad he isnât confined to his room. You like seeing him putter around the house or sit crosslegged on the floor, his metal arm whirring and clicking with every turn and movement. Sometimes, he sits out on the balcony when the weather is nice, and you join him with some tea or coffee. You donât understand most of what he does, you never have, but you listen to him anyway. You bask in the way it lightens his voice, injects life into it. Sometimes, when he has come up with a new idea, he almost sounds exactly like he did before.
Your hope is increasing, tightening around your chest in a way that warms you up but traps you as well. Fear lingers, that this will all go away, that youâre balancing on a poorly strung tightrope and soon enough, you will fall.
And then that moment comes, the inevitable snap.
Itâs a bright day, and youâre out for some groceries because you didnât anticipate living with another person again, and your pantry is getting dangerously empty. Youâre actually considering fresh produce instead of all the prepackaged crap youâve been eating for so long. Seungcheol barely eats one meal a day, so it seems unfair if that one meal comes out of a box.
Youâre considering which veggies to buy, lightly squeezing a tomato in your hand, when you feel something at your shoulder. It almost makes you jump, because it feels ominous, and your intuition is correct when you turn your head and come face to face with Yoon Jeonghan.
Heâs in a black trenchcoat that nearly swallows his frame, a black cap on his head with dark strands poking out from under it. He looks particularly unassuming, just a casual shopper alongside you. His eyes are not on you, his lips pursed in what looks like consideration as he picks up another tomato, turns it around in his hand.
âThis one is firmer.â He finally says, and his voice sounds jovial, casual, like it always does. âIt will rot slower. You should get this.â
âWhat the hell are you doing here?â You grit out, your voice low to make sure no one hears you. One look around the aisle tells you that itâs empty. Itâs just him and you. Your nerves are on high alert.
Jeonghan tuts, finally looking at you from the corner of his eye. âIs that any way to talk to a peer? Youâve become so rude, Y/N.â
âOh, Iâm sorry.â Sarcasm drips from your voice. âI didnât realise I still had to extend common courtesy to you after youâve tried to kill me. Twice.â
Jeonghan winces, then chuckles. âYeah, that was my bad.â
You blink, waiting for him to continue. He doesnât. He drops the tomato in his hand, picking up and inspecting another.
âThatâs it?â You scoff. ââMy badâ? You try to get me killed by turning my husband into a half human killing machine and your response is âmy badâ?â
âWell, you got him back, no?â He responds. âI would say thatâs a huge improvement on whatever sad, bachelorette life youâve been living all this time.â
You scoff, incredulous. âYouâre soâŠ. youâre-â
No words come. You just shake your head. Jeonghan looks at you again, this time, a sly smile crosses his face.
âHow about a truce? I donât try to kill you again, and I donât demand my asset back from you. Consider it an apology for the attempts on your life.â
You glare at him, feeling anger bubble in you again. âAsset?â
He blinks, like heâs surprised. âWell, yes. Do you know how much Yoon Tech invested in developing him? It wasnât easy. But itâs fine. Iâve made a lot of progress on bionic weaponry since then. So you can keep him.â
Your rage is boiling over at the way he is speaking of Seungcheol, but you know thereâs a reason Jeonghan decided to ârun intoâ you at a public place. You canât react the way you want to, which is the intense need to strangle him where he stands.
You know thereâs nothing you can do about anything Jeonghan has attempted. His company is a mammoth, that and his military contract make him basically untouchable. The only proof you have of his doing is Seungcheolâs own person, and you donât want to drag him into the legal mess that would ensue. Here Jeonghan stands, offering you a truce because he thinks he has won already, which is new bionic weapons branch going over so well and elevating him to a status no one else would dare to achieve. To him, you are not a threat anymore, and so he is discarding you just like he does with everyone else.
Considering all your options, you think being discarded by him might be the best case scenario here.
âFine.â You finally relent, watching him smile and step back, almost in finality.
âGreat. See you around, Y/N. You should attend next yearâs New York expo. Iâve got great things lined up, you know? Maybe it will inspire something in you too.â
He winks and walks a few steps backward, that characteristic smirk on his face still, before turning around and sauntering away, the basket in his head still empty. You watch his back as he leaves, feeling some sense of resolution, no matter how bittersweet it may be.
People like Jeonghan never get justice, because they are too valuable to lose. He has made himself indispensable, which means he will continue to achieve new heights despite whatever operations he conducts in the dark. Thatâs the reality you live in.
The only saving grace here is that itâs not Seungcheol who will have to do his dirty work going forward.
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Youâre not really here, Seungcheol can tell.
Thereâs a distant look in your eyes, like youâre lost deep in thought, as you stir the pot sizzling on the stove. Youâve been like this since you got back with groceries, not greeting him with that usual sweet tone you always use. Itâs a little detached, even though he can see that you're clearly attempting to appear normal. He offers to help make dinner, and you take him up on it, so he is quick to begin chopping vegetables as you prepare the rice. You work quietly, which is unlike you. Usually, you donât stop talking, something heâs grown quite fond of.
The truth is, Seungcheol remembers you, in bits and pieces.
Voices and pictures pass through his brain, like flash cards being held up in front of him. Thereâs no rhyme and reason to them, no chronological order, like a CD stopping and starting at random intervals. Youâre there in so many of them, right by his side, watching him, talking to him, touching him in places he wouldnât dare let anyone touch. His fingers twitch when he feels it, like a ghost caressing his skin. Sometimes, he thinks he can feel you in his bones, coursing through his veins, and he wonders if he is connected to you in some way.
It scares him.
Thereâs nothing tangible there, no memory he can reach for and grab. As soon as he tries, it scatters like whisps. He knows he has lived a life, but he has no idea how that life went beyond rusty recollections that come and go. It sets him on edge, and so he never brings them up. He canât, not when he knows for certain that you will cling onto them with unyielding hope. And he canât have that burden on him when he already feels like heâs a shell of what he once was.
The only thing solid is you. But today, youâre far away as well.
âSomething is bothering you.â He finally says when youâre eating at the kitchen island an hour later. There are dirty pots and pans in the sink. You will clean up after dinner. Right now, you move your food around absentmindedly, and Seungcheol doesnât like this distance.
You blink and look at him, giving him a small smile that barely reaches your eyes. âSorry, Iâm just thinking about some stuff. Donât worry about it.â
But he worries. He always worries, because you are all he has. So he pushes.
âMaybe I can help.â
You look a little surprised, and very touched, so your smile this time is more genuine.
âThank you, Seungcheol, but really, Iâm fine. The situation has resolved itself, Iâm just going over it. Thereâs nothing to do.â
Seungcheol hesitates, but his intuition urges him to speak. âIs it Yoon Jeonghan?â
Your shocked expression tells him that he hit the nail on the head.
âHow did you know?â
Seungcheol shrugs. He didnât know, not for certain, but he had a feeling that Jeonghan wouldnât just give up without one final attack, be it physical or psychological. It appears it was the latter.
âIâve spent a long time with him.â He replies, pointedly ignoring your stare. âHeâs- thereâs a lot to him. Most of it isnât good. I assumed he wouldnât just leave this alone.â
Your chest rises and falls with a deep breath. âThatâs just it, actually. He kind of has.â
Seungcheolâs eyebrows furrow. He listens intently as you finally open up, telling him about the encounter you had with the man at the grocery store. He lets the story linger for a bit after youâre done, absorbing the words.
âSo, thatâs it.â He finally says, but thereâs uncertainty in his voice. He knows you hear it too. You sigh.
âI think, in his head, heâs still won because youâre not who you once were.â You add, turning back to your plate to push your food around. You donât meet his eye. âHe doesnât think youâre a threat to him anymore because you have no memory. So by extension, Iâm not a threat anymore either. Iâm sure that to him, youâre-â
You pause, avoiding his stare. âYouâre more like something heâs dumped on me. Because youâre not who you once were.â
You immediately look up as you say it, your eyes harder now, more resolute. âWhich is not true. Youâre still Seungcheol, even if you donât remember. And Iâm so happy youâre here with me, because I thought I would never see you again. Even with half of you still gone, youâre worth ten of him.â
Seungcheolâs heart squeezes, a feeling that is foreign to him, as he takes in the heated determination in your eyes. He realises that his fear, the sense of self he lacks, is not something that is well founded. You wouldnât care that he remembers just snippets. Youâre willing to accept him even as an empty husk.
He makes up his mind.
âYou used to pour water into your half full shampoo bottle.â His throat tightens as he speaks. You blink, taken aback. âWhen we were in college. Because you had to make it last until your next paycheque.â
âAnd you liked those animal print socks. The pink panther ones. They were so warm. I was pretty annoyed that they wouldnât fit me. So you got me black panther ones my size so we could match. I loved those so much. Every winter, I had to be careful how often I wore them because I didnât want them to fray.â
Youâre watching him speak, a thin layer of tears is shining in your eyes, and Seungcheol tries to soldier on.
âYou got a bird clock for our first apartment that chirped every hour. God, I hated that thing. But you loved it so I never said anything.â
âI knew.â You speak, finally, your voice higher and breaking at the end. âYou always got the most annoyed look on your face when it chirped. I thought it was funny to see how long you could take it.â
You let out a wet laugh. Seungcheol gives you a bitter smile.
âItâs only bits and pieces.â He explains, trying not to let guilt overwhelm him. âI donât remember a lot. Itâs just the little things that come to me.â
âItâs enough.â Tears make tracks down your cheeks. You reach forward, and Seungcheol feels the warmth of your hand as it curls around his human one. The contact makes something sizzle. Itâs familiar. He remembers this clear as crystal. âItâs more than enough.â
He doesnât let go. You donât pull away.
âŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠ.
Things feel different. They are different now. The hope that felt like a noose around your neck, ready to tighten and kill you, is a much warmer feeling, blooming in your chest and transforming into a joy you havenât felt in a really long time. You think Seungcheol has noticed. He notices more than you were previously giving him credit for. And it looks like he welcomes the change too.
Despite not eating much, Seungcheol busies himself with making you breakfast every morning. You tell him he doesnât have to, but he shoots it down.
âIâm not sleeping anyway.â He retorts. âBesides, I used to do this before, didnât I?â
You nod, smiling as you watch him scramble eggs in a pan. It was always this way back then. He would take care of breakfast, you would have lunch at the office, and then you would do dinner and he would clean up after. The domesticity of it, the harmony, is returning. Sometimes, when youâre getting ready to go into work in the morning and you can hear him hum in the kitchen, itâs almost like nothing has changed. Then, you take in the massive metal arm under his sleeveless tank top, and youâre reminded of what he has been through, and what you two have lost.
Sometimes late at night, you wonder what he would feel like. You wonder if he would let you touch him.
Itâs hard being so close to Seungcheol but not being able to physically be too near him. Casual intimacy was always a part of your relationship, and you arenât used to a version of Seungcheol you have to hold back from. When he often picks up on your moods, like being tired after work or being frustrated when something isnât going right, you wonder if he can pick up on this, the intense yearning need you have to just feel his cheek on the crown of your head, or his hand curling over your hip like it used to all the time. Or his lips, always so soft and inviting, pressing delicately to yours.
You wonder if he knows. You wonder if he remembers, because he seems to remember so much these days.
A few days later, you ask Seungcheol if he feels at all ready to come back to work. The suggestion catches him off guard.
âAre you sure?â
You nod, shovelling large helpings of chicken into your mouth. Youâre usually ravenously hungry by dinner time, and Seungcheol is always amused by it.
âEverything youâre doing at home, working on projects, improving on previous work, you used to do the same things at work. Project Development is all you, and after you helped Wonwoo work out that little algorithm problem, heâs been wanting to work with you more.â
You give him a smile, and itâs more teasing this time. âI donât know if you remember this, but you were kind of a legend in tech circles before.â
Seungcheol huffs out a laugh and shakes his head. âI donât remember, but that thought makes me feel a little nauseous.â
You laugh, nudging his shin under the table. Seungcheol has always been shy about attention, but you know he secretly loves being recognised. Heâs ambitious, even though he worries often, and acknowledgement from peers and juniors always affirms to him that heâs on the right path.
The next day, heâs getting ready to go into work as well.
Heâs nervous, more so about his appearance than anything else. Bionic prostheses arenât exactly common yet, even if they are getting more talked about recently. You know heâs conscious about the stares he will get, you can see the troubled expression on his face from a mile away.
âWe donât have to tell them youâre my husband. We can tell them youâre an employee.â You offer on the drive there. âFrom overseas. Weâll make up a story or something.â
His lip quirks up in a half smile.
âYou think that's why I'm nervous?â He asks. You shrug.
âThatâs the one thing I was never worried about.â He supplies.
Your heart flutters. You try to calm it down. It doesnât mean anything, you try to tell yourself. But every word from him, every action, weighs so heavy with you. It always has. Heâs the most important person in your life.
Seungcheol is relieved when the first person he sees at work is Wonwoo, the one face that is familiar to him. You know he is nervous, but he doesnât show it a lot. Thatâs always been him, confident in stature, sure in his stance. All his little worries and doubts would only be reserved for you, and some part of you is elated that you still hold that position.
Unfortunately, you have to leave him for the day when Joshua finally catches up to you with the daily agenda. Youâre swept up in work, but heâs always on the back of your mind. Youâre just considering making a trip down to PD when a knock sounds on your door. A head of spiky blond hair pops in, and Seungcheol looks a little sheepish as he speaks.
âLunch?â
For a second, you canât breathe, swept up in memory after memory of him doing this exact thing since the day you started your company, when it was nothing but two rooms and a dinky office space. Itâs so mundane, almost a negligible occurrence, but it was always the highlight of your work day. For five years, you would eat cold lunch at your desk on Joshuaâs insistence, or you wouldnât eat at all, because you no longer had someone to share that precious hour with. But heâs here now, part of his face reconstructed, but heâs here, and it feels like every second of your grief is washed away with one little word he says.
âHey.â His soft voice breaks you from your thoughts. You blink, realising that your face feels wet. He has stepped inside the room, his face more cautious now.
âSorry.â He sounds somber. âDid I do something wrong?â
You immediately shake your head, wiping your face hastily. âNot at all.â
Your voice wobbles. You elect to ignore it, standing up and quickly straightening yourself before walking to him. âCome on, letâs go eat.â
Seungcheolâs hand on your arm stops you from walking past him. He holds it softly, pulling you back so you can face him. Youâre embarrassed at losing your composure like this. You donât want to freak him out, or make him worry. You realise that in your happiness of having him back, you havenât processed at all how overwhelming it is to have the love of your life come back from the dead, half of what he used to be.
It seems that he understands that as well.
Slowly, at an almost glacial pace, Seungcheolâs hand loosens its grip, but it doesnât move away. Instead, he wraps it around you. His other arm follows, and while the juxtaposition of his arms is noticeable, one warm and forgiving, the other cold and stiff, you barely register it, because you can feel his heartbeat against where your ear presses to his chest. You feel yourself giving into his embrace. Youâre starved for anything that is Seungcheol, youâve been without him for too long. Your face crumples, and the tears come again.
You donât stop them this time.
âŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠ..
âIt doesnât look right.â
âIt looks exactly like it should.â
âNo, it doesnât. Look again, I think you went wrong somewhere-â
âIf youâre not going to be supportive, get the hell out. I donât need this energy.â
âIâm just saying, if you had just gone to the store-â
âAnd I told you, she likes it better this way.â
âRight. And weâre supposed to trust your half-fried brain.â
âMan, fuck you.â
You try to tamp down the laugh bubbling in your throat, but itâs hard to do that when the bickering coming from your kitchen is so amusing. You resolutely keep your eyes on your laptop screen, because you promised not to intervene. But Seungcheol and Joshua keep getting louder the longer they work on baking this cake, and by the sound of it, Joshua is not impressed.
âYouâre seriously going to serve this turd-pile to your wife? On her birthday?â
âItâs a turd-pile made with love.â
You know why Joshua keeps nagging Seungcheol. This is an age-old tradition. Seungcheol is not much of a baker, but youâre decent at it. You make all his birthday cakes because you know what flavors and icings he likes. And because you love doing it. Seungcheol always wants to return the favor, no matter how bad he is at it, and it always ends with a spectacularly dense or horrendous looking cake. The difference this time is Joshua dropping in to wish you a happy birthday and give you your present. Unfortunately, that was the exact moment Seungcheol started icing the cake, hence the racket in your kitchen.
But you donât mind. In fact, you love it. You love that he keeps trying, every single year, and that he blocks off so many hours just to do it. When he had suggested it this time, you were taken aback. While you and Seungcheol had made steady progress in your relationship so far, you didnât anticipate that he would remember this little tradition of yours. He holds your hand sometimes, he hugs you when he can. You both talk and talk, about previous memories, and about making new ones. You tell him often that you missed him badly, that you love him so much, and that youâre okay with him not saying it back, but you need to tell him because you always felt like you should have said it more before he was gone. Seungcheol is soft with you, careful, letting you explore your emotions as you let him explore his. Now that heâs with you again, you often feel like you have all the time in the world to just be in his presence.
Is it enough for you? Not by a long shot. Do you want to kiss him senseless? Every second of every day. But you will get there eventually. You have faith.
Joshua stays for the cake reveal, and when you gush over it, he merely lets out a pained sigh. You know itâs all an act. He is unbelievably happy for you, but you like it when he teases Seungcheol, baits him enough to irritate, even anger him. He excuses himself pretty quickly afterward, even when you offer for him to stay and have a slice.
âNo offense, but I would rather chop off two limbs and let myself get brainwashed than taste whatever this is.â
âThat was really offensive, actually.â Seungcheol replies dryly. You laugh, dipping your finger in the frosting to taste it. Coffee. Your favorite.
The cake is dense, almost inedible, but you love it regardless. You eat two whole slices, even though Seungcheol himself can stomach only one. He gives you a pained look.
âWell, youâre always going on about how you love the things about me that are the same as before. Are you glad Iâm still a shit baker?â
You giggle and stand up, carrying your dirty plate to the sink. Then you walk over to him and give him a hug, wrapping your arms around his torso. He immediately returns it, and you can physically feel yourself relax.
âI love it even more.â You reply. You can feel his chest shake with a tiny laugh, and you feel his lips on the crown of your head.
âHappy birthday, baby.â He whispers. Your breath hitches at the petname, your old favorite, and you look up at him, your chin on his chest. Heâs watching you, eye like a warm pool, soft and inviting. His human hand reaches up, caressing your cheek. You wish, for a split second, that he would just lean down andâŠ..
He does.
When his lips meet yours, theyâre hesitant. Itâs barely there, like a ghost of a sensation, but you melt into it, pushing up on your toes a little so you can feel him more as you kiss him back. He melts into it, sighing into your mouth, his grip around your waist tightening when he registers your enthusiasm. The metal of his left arm feels solid, and it almost leaves you immobile, but you love it, because it presses every line of your body to every plane of his. Your hands find his neck, his jaw, slipping back to run over the tiny strands over the back of his head. It makes him shiver. You feel it. Your lower stomach stirs.
The kiss gets firmer, hotter. Seungcheol tilts his head, slots his lips deeper into yours. You feel his tongue against the cushion of your bottom lip, and your mouth opens almost out of instinct. You let out your first moan when his tongue slides hot and wet against yours.
âWe should-â His voice cracks. Your head spins. âWe should slow down.â
He kisses you again, fiercely. Your thighs are already crushing together for relief.
âYeah.â You agree, pulling him down more by the shoulders, wanting him to curl and wrap around you. He complies immediately, hands sliding lower until heâs tugging on the backs of your thighs and lifting you up onto the kitchen island. Youâre level with his face now, not willing to stop kissing him, not willing to take even a breath that doesnât come straight from his mouth. You tug hard on the hair at the top of his head, the ones long enough to grip. He groans, and the sound makes your hips jerk hard into his.
âFuck, donât do that.â He rasps.
You do it again, grinding slower this time, your legs around his waist keeping him in place. He hisses. You can feel the bulge in his jeans, and you clench around nothing, registering how hard he already is. You need him so badly that it makes you dizzy. If he stops now, you think you might cry.
âCheol-â You gasp, your hands digging into his shirt and tugging hard. You need it off, you need to feel all of him, properly, and it feels like heâs on the same page, because heâs reaching back, pulling the shirt off his shoulders until itâs gone. His hands are quick, sliding under your blouse until itâs bunching up, making you raise your arms. He pulls it off.
Finally, you see him.
Seungcheol was always well built. Broad in all the right places, thick neck, wide shoulders, the large expanse of his chest, his abs. Now, heâs even more cut, and you wonder if it has to do with the life he was living for the last five years. Your eye catches his bionic arm, right at the junction where it meets his skin. Your hands, idly running over his bare skin, follow your gaze, stop just where the skin looks more pink.
âDoes it hurt?â You ask, voice low. Seungcheol shakes his head, watching you intently.
âIt used to, when it was new. But itâs more numb now than anything.â He mutters. He flexes the arm, the plates click and whir, a low, metallic sound that echoes in the silence of the kitchen. You let your thumb run over the skin, right at the edge. Seungcheol doesnât react as he watches your fingers except with a tiny laugh.
âI guess if they were more careful, it might have looked a little better.â He mumbles, eyes still on your movements. His own run absentmindedly over your bare waist. You shrug.
âI donât know, itâs pretty hot.â
He looks up at you, his single eyebrow shooting up in surprise. He barks out a laugh, shaking his head.
âFreak.â
You hum and tighten your legs around his waist again, pulling him closer. âYou used to love it.â
Something in his eye gleams, a mischievous little twinkle. The white, flat circle on the other side seems to turn and shift, almost like itâs gleaming too. You wonder what he sees through it. His lip ticks up in a tiny smirk. âOh, I know.â
He leans down, running his lips over the side of your neck. His hands are more purposeful now, sliding up to fiddle with the buckle of your bra. He unhooks it smoothly, letting his touch float up your arms so he can pull the straps down. You sigh when his tongue runs over your skin, nipping just under your ear, the spot that has always made you shiver.
âI remember a lot of things.â He rasps. âMore and more as the days go by. And I like to go over them sometimes, when I lay in bed at night, or when you walk around in just that large shirt of mine you wear when you sleep. You think I donât know what youâre doing, baby? Goading me, baiting me, testing me.â
âIâm- Iâm not-â But your brain is melting at the moment his teeth dig a little harder into your skin. Heâs going to leave a mark, not that you give a fuck, and all itâs doing is making you even more lightheaded.
He hums. You know he doesnât believe you. His hands are already circling around, kneading softly on your breasts, making you sigh. He thumbs over your nipples, nipping at your neck a little harder when they peak under his touch. His touch sends shivers down your spine, one hand soft and warm, the other hard and cold. Youâre not used to the contrast, but it feels wonderful. You wonder how it will feel in all the other places you want him to touch, and your impatience grows.
âCheol, take me inside.â You whimper, clenching around nothing again and feeling your desperation grow. He doesnât respond verbally, but his hands find your hips, gripping tightly to lift you up. You wrap yourself around him, using that moment to tongue at his neck as he walks you both down the hall to your bedroom. He has been inside only a handful of times, since he still sleeps on his own, but you know thatâs about to change today. Youâre never letting him leave again.
He doesnât separate from you for even a second, laying you down on the mattress and joining you on it at the same moment, his lips meeting yours in a kiss that is even more heated, but not any less exploratory. His weight on you feels familiar, glorious, and you bask in the feeling of being pressed down. His tongue runs over any crevice of your mouth it can reach, saliva mixing with his in a way that makes you shiver all over. When you run your hands over his back and feel the familiar muscle shift and tense under your touch, you remember how much you missed this, and it makes your breath hitch.
You want him completely naked against you, and the need feels as urgent as air entering your lungs.
Your shirt and bra are already gone, but his clothes and the rest of yours now quickly follow. He kisses any part of you he can in between every article that gets tugged off by you or by him. Your right calf presses against the cold metal of his leg, and it shocks you back into reality a little bit. Youâre aware that while youâve done this countless times with him, itâs different now. You slow down the kisses, nibbling more indulgently at the plush on his bottom lip.
âAre you okay with this?â You whisper. âI know this is a lot-â
âI was going to ask you that.â He chuckles into your mouth. His eye flutters open, and it has softened, shining with reverence. Your lips twitch up into a smile.
âIâve wanted this for so long.â You reach up, running a gentle hand through his hair. His metal ear feels rigid and cool. âIâve missed you more than I can say. I didnât-â
Your voice catches. Seungcheol waits with all the patience in the world.
âI didnât think I could ever have this again.â
His forehead rests gently against yours, and your eyes flutter when you feel your breaths mix where your lips touch.
âI know Iâm not all the way there.â He whispers. âI know thereâs so much missing. And some days, itâs so difficult to reconcile the older version of me with this new reality. But Iâm getting better every day. And IâŠ. I miss you too. I miss what we had and who I used to be.â
Your eyes cloud. Seungcheol carefully thumbs under them, not letting the tears spill. When he kisses you again, it feels far more meaningful, like parts of you and him are coming to an understanding together. Itâs easy to build up the heat again, and thereâs an underlying layer of need in it now that has you writhing and moaning under him in no time.
âEasy, princess.â He hums, carefully running his hands up your thighs before fitting his hips between them. âIâve got you.â
Princess. You whine. Thatâs an old favorite bedroom nickname of his. Seungcheol loved to spoil you. Heâs a giver at heart, so the name is apt, and one he used to shower you with frequently. He grinds on your core, and you can feel the slide of his hard shaft through your wet folds. It makes you gasp, the slow drag making you feel each and every ridge of him. Your opening clenches hard, you arch into him, and your nails dig into the skin of his back.
âDonât-â Your chest rattles with your inhale. âDonât tease me. Please, Iâve waited so long, Cheolie. Donât make me wait even more-â
When his head catches against your opening on the next grind, you moan low, eyelids fluttering. His nose brushes yours, you know heâs watching, and you bask in the feeling of his gaze on you. He pushes a little more, breaching you, and takes his glorious time sliding in at a snailâs pace. Your walls struggle with his girth, not used to being penetrated, left empty for too long, but you think at this point, Seungcheol is embedded in your DNA. Your body knows him, recognises him, like itâs an old, dormant instinct. You open up for him like heâs meant for you, and when he groans in shaky approval, you know he feels it too.
âMade for me, arenât you?â He whispers into your mouth, taking advantage of your moaning to lick over your lips, nipping and sucking at them. âTaking me like youâre meant for me. Havenât fucked you in years, but your little pussy still knows me, right?â
God, he needs to stop talking like that. So vulgar, coming from his mouth, but so sexy that it makes you dizzy. The ceiling is spinning, half from the feel of him, and half from the words he is whispering right past your lips. He bottoms out finally, and stills, throbbing and twitching inside you. You can feel it, it tugs on your walls, sending little sparks shooting through your core.
âLove how tight you are, baby.â He continues, pulling away from you to sit back a bit. You almost whine in protest, but then his thumb finds your clit and rubs tight little circles over it. You sigh, toes curling. âBut I need you to loosen up a little bit, okay? Need to fuck you properly and I canât do that when youâre gripping me like this.â
Itâs a combination of his words and the waves of pleasure traveling up from your clit, but he finally feels enough give to rock back and forth, his back undulating with every stroke. He starts off slow, both of you just enjoying the delicious drag of him in and out. Every movement makes him brush up teasingly against your sweet spot, makes stars burst in your vision. You feel like youâre already on the brink, and he has barely started.
âFuck.â He chokes, and you can see his throat bob as he swallows. A thin layer of sweat coats his porcelain skin, making the light of your bedside lamp shift over him. His hair, not almost fully brown with just the tips of the blond remaining, is matted on his forehead. His eye is closed, eyelid fluttering, mouth slightly parted as his breath rattles in and out. He grunts quietly every few strokes, his abs clenching, his neck and chest flushed a pretty pink.
You could come just looking at him like this.
He picks up the pace finally, and you gasp at the change, arching into him a little. Heâs watching you now, but youâre too busy registering how good he feels, the perfect, tight drag of him, now more forceful, hitting every spot that sends pleasurable shocks up your spine. The bed groans, his thrusts get harder. On either side of your head, his fingers fist the bedsheet. Beneath the moans and sighs, you can hear the very low but distinct whir of metal emanating from his moving limbs.
Your brain stutters, and your hands move before you can think about it too much. They find his metal wrist, circling around it slowly and lifting it to place it right at the base of your throat. Seungcheolâs eye widens.
âYouâre sure?â He asks. You nod.
âPlease.â
Your skin is so heated that the cool contrast of his hand feels relieving and glorious. Something in his wrist clicks, and then his hold on your throat tightens just a bit. Your eyes flutter, mouth dropping open. You whine.
Seungcheol groans and his thrusts get harder, hips now slamming into yours over and over, the tip just gently kissing the cervix in the way that lights your lower stomach on fire. His grip is unrelenting, just tight enough to make you a little light headed and every movement feel even more intense than it usually does. You canât speak, canât warn him as your orgasm comes barrelling into you at full speed. You can only clench hard and cry out as it washes over you. Seungcheol doesnât slow, but watches you with something akin to awe and unbridled lust in his eyes. His hand loosens only as you come down, letting you take in a long gulp of air.
âThat was so sexy, baby, fuck.â He sounds as wrecked as you feel. Heâs grinding into your pussy, pushed all the way in to the base, letting you feel every inch of him. âCanât believe I didnât do this sooner. Couldâve had you under me every night looking like that.â
You find the sides of his neck, tugging him down to kiss him fiercely. âGet your fill now, Cheolie. Make up for lost time.â
Your words spur him on. He pulls out abruptly, but he doesnât let you miss him for too long, tugging your leg to maneuver you so youâre on your stomach, arms folded under your head, and his body draped over your back, warming your sweat-cooling skin. His knees frame your thighs. He nudges your legs apart just enough to slide inside, and the shift in angle has your jaw going slack. You feel his grip on your hips, one soft, one hard, holding you in place as he immediately sets a brutal pace. You donât mind, youâve always loved it when Seungcheol uses all that impressive muscle he has built to manhandle and use you like this. Itâs unbelievably hot to you. This position feels even more intense, leaves you even more boneless, and your previous high has left you so sensitive that this one builds up in no time.
His thrusts are getting sloppy, less precise and more like he just wants to plop you into the mattress. His moans are more uninhibited now, his grip tighter to the point you know he will leave bruises that you will wear proudly. His breath hits the back of your neck. He reaches down, biting into your shoulder at the exact moment he groans loud and empties himself in you. The warmth of him, the grind of his head into your walls, is what sends you over the edge for a second time. Both your bodies writhe on the mattress, him pressing you into it until you feel like you are melting into him. He curses low in your ear as his body relaxes, and the sound makes you shiver.
You lay like that for what feels like an eternity, letting the rise and fall of his chest guide your own breathing. When he finally moves, detaching himself, you grumble in protest.
âI was warm.â You complain. You can hear him laugh a little.
âIâll warm you up again, baby, donât worry. Come on.â
Your interest is piqued, and you turn your head to the side to peer at him. His whole face seems to have smoothed, soft and glowing in a way you havenât seen him in a while. It makes a smile tug on your lips, and you turn over slowly to face him. He doesnât waste any time in lifting you up, another sensation that will take some getting used to. His human arm is warm on your back, but his metal one digs just under your knees. You donât mind, not at all, itâs part of him, something he got involuntarily but made his own. He has used it to inflict pain in the past, but from now on, he will do nothing but good with it.
You watch him with heavy eyes as he places you on the bathroom vanity and gets to running a warm bath. You admire his back, soft and pale, smattered with little freckles, and slightly pink at the edges where skin meets metal. The plates dig into the skin, and you know he said it doesnât feel like anything now, but you wonder if it hurts even just a little.
The slightest hint of his pain, even a negligible smidge of it, is unacceptable to you. You make a mental note to ask Wonwoo if he can look into bionic prostheses. Not weapons, like Jeonghan has developed. You have no interest in that. He can have his military contracts and his glory. Thereâs nothing in it for you.
Everything you want is in this tiny bathroom, dipping his metal fingers into the water to check the temperature, only to realise he canât feel with that limb. You collapse into giggles and he smiles sheepishly, ears turning red, using his other hand as a toothy grin takes over his face.
on the ground, the poor starve. in the sky, the rich live like gods. six months of playing the clumsy, star struck girl from the slums boils down to a single night in a luxury penthouse. to avenge and save her father from their misery, she has to trap the eliteâs most untouchable corporate heir, hoshi, in a game of her own makingâ and then betray him.
corporate heir!hoshi Ă fem!reader â 7,921 words
đ GENRE. non-idol au, cyberpunk, suspense
đ CONTENTS. class disparity, fake identity, fade to black but thereâs still a bit of making out happening but cuts away before explicit smut. use of codes but not actual code (obv), reader has a fake name that was addressed to her a few times heh but itâs for uh fake identity sake. readerâs dad uses nicknames for her. and feat wonu and cheol
â ïž WARNINGS. MDNI! while this doesnât contain explicit smut, it is strictly for adult audiences due to the mature nature of the content. some profanity, power imbalance, corporate corruption, makingout, mention of neurological deterioration, betrayal, manipulation, lies as a plot device, espionage, open ending. lmk if i missed anythingÂ
đ A/N. im not doing very well, ill be honest. i had a pretty critical wisdom tooth surgery and ive been in constant pain. the wound isnât healing as fast as it should and i still have an infection, so god knows how long this is gonna last. anyway, this is a very raw unedited fic. all the errors, typos, and everything else are mine, but i still hope its readable even though i havent reread or edited it myself. thanks to @studiosvt for yet another collab! edit [brain short circuiting]: and once again thanks to @nothoughtsjustfic for brainstorming with me and @joshujin for that uh overlays to add on that screen [idk what to call it??], love yuh!
âž PART OF @studiosvt : Cyberpunk: Reload, COLLABORATION
đ i hope you'll love all the fics in this collab!
Glad to have been of help, says the megaphone after turning the power on for the next 45 minutes.
The ground is now a decaying wasteland where electricity only exists in a few public zones. Private homes rely only on temporary rationed power, and entire districts go dark for hours. You happen to live in one of these lower districts.
Your father worked for a megacorporation maintaining data routing systems between the ground and the lifted city above.
Class disparity is so bad that the wealthy refuse to live alongside the poor. They refer to your home simply as âThe Ground,â because, to them, the ground itself is beneath them both literally and socially. Above you, the elite live in a vast elevated city suspended high in the atmosphere made up of towering skyscrapers, in levelling aerial infrastructure, and monorail systems that weave between cities like veins of light that you dream to see. Itâs kept clean free from pollution, and advanced beyond anything seen below. The higher one goes, the wealthier and more important they are considered, which is funny because theyâre already so far up their own asses they think rules of reality stop at their floor.
Below, The Ground is populated and neglected with outdated technology and infrastructure except in the main districts filled with corporate advertisements and exploitative job offers, and giant displays of eliteâs assets. Some robotic assistants still operate in some areas, but they are obsolete, glitch prone, and poorly maintained. Dirt poor is literal here. Those at the top have never seen the literal ground because theyâre so up in the sky, and many have no interest in acknowledging its existence at all, living so out of touch with it that even the concept feels abstract to them.
But of course, anyone on the ground who managed to dig a little deep when playing in the net den (internet cafe), knew the megacorporations were fully aware of its existence. Their clean paradise above only stayed standing because millions of people below kept choking on the dirt for it.Â
So, anyway, your father was suddenly fired after being linked to a âsystem irregularity and fraud,â which immediately blacklists him from medical care and employment.Â
You walk through the dim corridors of your home as the damp wooden floor makes sound under your foot. The light from the rationed power barely holds back the dark thatâs in every corner of the room. Your thoughts keep circling the same point, unable to think of anything else.Â
You look at him where he sits, the look of him is less lively than the man you remember, his smile taken away feels so wrong even when you try to accept it. âYou should have told me earlier,â you say.
His voice comes after a delay with the exhaustion that does not seem to leave him anymore, âI didnât want you to be worried,â he replies. âYou werenât supposed to know.â
You sigh as you look around with a pathetic scoff before returning to him. Your fingers curl at your side, âit already reached me, dadâ you reply. âNothing stays a secret in this place anymore.â
He looks down, sad, as the silence that follows stretches. âI thought⊠I could do something about it before they made any final decision,â he replies eventually. âI thought I had time, sweetie.â
Your glassy eyes of unshed tears contradicts the rigid set of your jaw. Forcing your face into empty blankness again as you swallow the stingy lump in your throat, you keep your voice entirely level, âthereâs no time there⊠for people like us.â
He looks at you and for a short moment, the past of what he used to be and what he is now becomes even more impossible to ignore to both you and him. His shoulders slump. Seeing him broken, stripped of his strength, and drowning in his own disappointment, hurts you harder than any blow from the elite above ever could.
The composure you fought so hard to maintain instantly breaks. Your breath gets stuck painfully in your throat as the reality of his defeat crashes over you. For all your hardening against the cruelties of âThe Ground,â seeing your father completely lose faith in himself is the one thing you cannot withstand. Heâs getting sick⊠The tears you tried so desperately to hide finally well up, blurring your vision as your entire defense system collapses from the inside out.
âItâs okay, d-dad, weâll be okay,â you step into his space and pull him into a tight hug, âI got a small job above, hm?â
His body goes rigid in your arms at first. His voice comes out strained with disbelief and worry, âabove?â the weary, defeated look from moments before vanishes, replaced by a wide eyed fear that forces him awake, âyou mean⊠up there? With them?â You donât answer but instead, you tighten your grip around his shoulder to reassure him. But he pulls back further to look at your face. âYou shouldnât be there⊠Youâ you donât belong in that system. They donât let people like us just⊠walk in and out easily.â
You wipe at your face quickly with the back of your hand even though more tears keep coming anyway. Your breath stutters, but your voice forces itself to sound coherent. âItâs temporary,â you offer a brave smile, âitâs just work, I can handle it.â
His fingers dig in your shoulders, trying to convince you this time instead of the other way around, ânothing up there is just anything,â he says with worried eyes, âthey donât do âtemporaryâ with people from The Ground. You donât know them.â
You shake your head, fighting back the wave of intimidation his fear is drumming up in your own chest, âwe need it, itâs okay,â you force yourself to look him dead in the eye as you lock your expression down, tightening your jaw so he canât read the anxiety swirling beneath your surface.
The wall you put up makes him go quiet again and the worry freezes into a sickening dread. His eyes drop to the floor, his throat bobbing as he swallows something bitter and suffocating, âno, I canât let you pay for their decision with your own future.â
Taking a deep breath, you refuse to let the argument slip away. Moving closer, you slide your hands down his arms until your fingers are woven into his calloused weak hands, squeezing tightly. âDad, listen to me,â you sound insistent. âIâm already in it. I already said yes, itâs done.â
The ambient warmth in his eyes vanishes, replaced by a flash of alarm that turns his entire expression strict again and terrifyingly alert, âyou said yes? Already?â he asks strictly without any bluff, âto who? Okay tell me what kind of job is it?â
You were expecting at least this much from him but seeing the level of the fear in his eyes catches you off guard even though you shouldâve also expected this. For a split second, your mind goes entirely blank as the cover story evaporates from your tongue.
His expression comes back to normal by just a fraction when he senses your hesitation, but the urgency pulsing through him is deafening. He squeezes your hands back, pleading, âsweetie, tell me,â he calms but no less urgent. âTell me exactly what you agreed to.â
You force yourself to recover before he becomes suspicious. Your fingers tighten around his hands before the panic on your face can sabotage you completely, âuh so like I said, itâs a small job, so itâs not a big position or mainstream or anything,â you explain. âThere was a contract block running on one of the main district billboards for low tier maintenance staff. They needed people willing to work long shifts above and I just... applied.â You shrug one shoulder, trying to make it sound less important than it is, âI didnât even think a Sky corp would take a Ground ID.â
âMaintenance staff? Doing what exactly?â
âI donât know all the details yet. They kept talking about confidentiality policies and restricted access levels.â You scoff, âyou already know how corporations are. They act stupidly serious and mysterious about everything.â
The tension in his face doesnât disappear immediately, though his grip loosens from your hands only slightly while he studies every inch of your expression, trying to decide whether to trust your words or the fear he still feels crawling under his skin. The room falls quiet even though you can still very clearly hear the dying power supply overhead and the noise bleeding in from the streets below.
You hate doing this. Itâs in your chest while you hold his eyes and force yourself not to look away first. Everything inside you screams to tell him what you want and let him stop you before things go too far, but the image of the medical notices sitting untouched on the table flashes through your mind. You think about the empty kitchen cabinets, empty fridge, the unpaid bills, barely any drinkable water, and the faded smile of your dad. You cannot let him deal another thing.
âItâs just cleaning systems and fixing old wiring,â you continue for more reassurance. âNothing important. Honestly, they probably just wanted cheap workers from here again.â
Your fatherâs expression twists at that. Pain flashes across his face before exhaustion overcomes him again, âI still donât like it,â He lifts one hand and drags it tiredly over his mouth while his eyes lower to the floor, âpeople above donât look at us and see human beings. To them weâre replaceable before we even arrive.â
âI know,â you hold his hand.
His shoulders sag again and for the first time since the conversation started, some of the panic leaves his face⊠even though not fully, but enough for the fear in his eyes to stop cutting through you so crazy. He squeezes your hands once more before letting go. âJust... be careful, okay? Donât trust them too quickly. If something feels wrong, you leave immediately. I donât care about the money.â
Your throat tightens and you nod before he can notice the guilt rising all over your face again, âI will,â you promise, âIâll be safe.â
He reaches up and brushes his hand against the side of your head gently, his hands feel weak on your head but familiar enough to nearly break you all over again, âyouâre still my little girl,â he whispers lovingly, âno job up there changes that.â
The tears threaten to return instantly and you force yourself to smile anyway, leaning down just a bit to press your forehead briefly against his shoulder while trying to ignore the sick feeling twisting deeper inside your chest.
â
A few months back,
Outside, the 45 minutes public power ration was already ticking away, but inside this suffocating basement, the alert of stolen corporate bandwidth was deafening.
Your fingers flew across the mechanical keys in a frantic race against the automated trace programs of the Sky Grid.
On the screen, your real biometric profileâ linked to your fatherâs blacklisted corporate IDâ glowed an angry definitive red.Â
result:
{
  "status": "TERMINATED",
  "access": "DENIED",
  "reason": "BLACKLIST",
  "flag": "PERMANENT_BLACKLIST",
  "source": "CORP_GLOBAL_REGISTRY"
}
You canât even try to apply under your own name as the security grid flags you before you even enter your hobbies. Why would you even want to add your real identity to the fucked up system and get into trouble? Itâs not your plan. You just wanted to see what shows up on your screen, and youâve seen it now.
You took a breath as you pulled a black data shard from your pocket and jammed it into the consoleâs rusted drive. A new screen initialized, blooming into a vivid glowing magenta overlay. Lines of raw code began overriding the corporate restriction blocks. You werenât just faking a resume; you were reconstructing your entire existence.Â
SYS_OVERRIDE_INITOVERRIDE: #D60076
MODE: IDENTITY_REWRITE
[BIOHASH]
status: OVERRIDE... COMPLETE
[HISTORY_RECORDS]
status: ERASING... COMPLETE
You watched as your digital fingerprints were pixelated and rewoven into an entirely untraceable ghost profile. The system needed a clean history who had never choked on the dirt of your district. Basically someone the automated hiring algorithms would pull without a second thought. It was a complete identity erase. If you failed, the trace would loop straight back to this basement and lock you in a corporate detention block. If you succeeded, you would be stepping directly into the lionâs denâ the exact same megacorporation that had done your father wrong and cost him everything including his health and sanity.
The progress bar hit 100% and the terminal chimed.
new_identity:
{
  "name": "SILV",
  "origin": "UNREGISTERED",
  "clearance": "LEVEL_GRAY",
  "biometric_state": "UNLINKED"
}
route: SEC_17_MAINTENANCE_DIVISION
location: ATMOSPHERE_LEVEL_13
status: QUEUED
applicant_id: NULL
tracking: DISABLED
You ripped the data shard out, plunging the screen back into darkness just as the illegal power splice sputtered and died. You sat in the pitch black and waited for your racing heart to catch up to the reality of what you had just done.
A buzz from your cracked wrist comm goes off at ass oâclock (04:15).
You kill the alarm instantly as the glow of the screen fades back into the pitch black of your room. The public power isnât due to turn on for another hour, leaving the apartment freezing and suffocatingly quiet. You donât turn on a flashlight. You know the layout of the warped, damp wooden floors by heart and step over the boards you know would groan under your weight.Â
You creep toward your fatherâs room, pushing the rusted metal door frame open a little bit to just go through.
The sound of his breathing immediately made your chest ache. It was shallow and broken; broken by a wet, rattling wheeze that seemed to take every ounce of his remaining strength. In the faint gray light filtering through the grime of the window, he looks terrifyingly fragile to the point that his shoulders are hunched even in sleep. He is slipping away, and the bitter reality of it presses down on you like an actual physical weight. Thereâs no time left.
Heading into the tiny kitchen corner, you get to work. You fire up the portable burner, making the blue flame hiss as you throw together whatever rations you had leftâ a simple, warm broth and some stale bread. By the time the water was boiling, you heard a cough from the doorway.
Your dad was leaning his weak shoulder heavily against the frame, eyes blinking tiresomely against the faint light of the stove. âYouâre up too early,â his voice hoarse like gravel.
âLook whoâs talking,â you counter smoothly, forcing your voice into a lighthearted nag as you pour the broth into a chipped ceramic bowl. You didnât let your hands shake, âsit down. Youâre supposed to be resting, why are you awake so early?â
He let out a weak huff that was supposed to be a laugh, guiding himself slowly into the rickety chair, âI wanted to see you off little bird⊠and spend as much time as I possibly canâ with you.â
âYouâre seeing me off by sitting right there and eating every drop of this,â you set the bowl down in front of him along with three small, faded pills you have carefully counted out from their near empty blister packs. âThe rest of the meds are on the top shelf behind the synthetic tea. I set a reminder on the wall clock to alert you when itâs time for the afternoon dose. Donât ignore it because youâre distracted playing with those dead circuit boards, okay? And donât try to ration them. Iâll send credits down the moment my first shift clearance processes.â
He looked at the pills with a suffocating guilt clouding his eyes, âsweetie, youââ
âEat, dad,â you interrupt gently, leaning down to press a kiss against his temple. His skin felt warm; a fever threatening to take hold. You squeeze his shoulder and prepare yourself to the warmth of him one last time. âI have to catch the early transit before the crowds build up. Iâll comm you when I reach the worker bunks.â
He caught your hand with his weak but desperate calloused fingers, âbe careful up there. Remember what I told you. They donât see us as human.â
âI know,â you offer a reassuring smile, slowly pulling your hand away before the lump in your throat swallows your voice entirely. âI love you, dad.â
âLove you too, little bird.â
And just like that, you didnât look back as you grabbed your heavy tool belt and stepped out into the damp, freezing corridor, locking the door behind you. There was only one way forward.
â
The air outside was choking with the sulfurous smog over the lower districts. As you walked, the silence of your alleyways bled into a vibrating roar. The Atmospheric Transit Hub was an absolute mess.
Even at this hour, thousands of Ground workers were jammed into the concrete plaza with their rusted toolboxes. Above them, the massive steel pillars of the structural supports stretched up into the smog as it disappeared entirely into the clouds. Somewhere way up there, hidden by the pollution, was The Sky gleaming and completely oblivious to the misery keeping it afloat.
You joined the slow moving line leading to the high velocity elevators. Up ahead, massive corporate security checkpoints going through the crowd. Enormous holographic displays pulsed with advertisements, casting a harsh blinding magenta glow over the exhausted faces of the workers. What a show off.
The line crawls forward toward the bright neon teeth of the checkpoint.
Your heart drums against your ribs as you finally step into the scanning pod. A halo of cold white lasers drops from the ceiling, washing over your face, your hands, your clothes. Your breath catches. For a very long second, youâre certain the alarms are going to scream and that the ghost profile you coded in that dark basement is going to shatter.
Instead, a synthesized chime echoes through the pod.
And a metal gate slides open. You swallow the lump of anxiety in your throat and step through, blending into the crowd shoved into the high velocity elevator. When the doors seal, the ascent begins. It doesnât feel like a normal elevator; it feels like being shot into the stratosphere. The gravity pulls heavily at your boots and your ears pop, and through the glass flooring you watch, The Ground shrink into a dark sprawling smudge beneath a blanket of toxic clouds.
And then, the smog clears, and The Sky hits you.
Wow.
It is blinding. Towering skyscrapers wrapped in rivers of moving light and monorails like veins. Itâs exactly what you dreamed to see but the obnoxious wealth of it makes your stomach turn.
The elevator doors hiss open at Atmosphere Level 13, and the corporate chill hits your skin.
Standing at the terminal dock is a man who looks like he was carved out of the elite infrastructure itself. He wears a stark, pristine navy suit, a silver security badge gleaming on his lapel. Officer S.Coups.
His eyes sweep over the line of arriving Ground workers, his posture showing an absolute authority that makes everyone automatically look down. He doesnât look at any of you like youâre human when checking credentials and othersâ just assets to be sorted. When his gaze lands on you, your jaw locks to maintain that empty oblivious blankness.
He checks his digital ledger and a machine youâve never seen before, before his deep voice comes through. You werenât expecting his voice to sound this⊠anyway. âSilv,â he reads, âSector 17. Move to the main grid corridor. Your shift starts immediately, no delays.â
You give a stiff nod and keep your head down as youâre guided past him and routed deep into the metallic underbelly of the maintenance deck.
The work area is a massive chamber of exposed conduits and filtration systems. Itâs crowded with other Ground workers, all clad in the same gray jumpsuits and silently scrubbing panels and rewiring auxiliary grids. You slide into a station and immediately blend into the momentum of the team, working obliviously as if youâve done this a thousand times before. Passing by a heavy surveillance camera blinking its red optical lens at you, you low key tilt your head to the opposite side and block your face from the lensâs line of sight. Hidden in the blind spot, you flash a wink at the tall figure standing across the room before dropping your eyes back to the wires. But all the system sees is a perfect, harmless employee.
An hour drags by before the overhead chime signals a brief, ten minute rotation break.
You step away from your station and wipe oil from your hands, and head toward the hydration units. A tall figure steps up to the dispenser next to you. Sharp, cat-like eyes blink behind a pair of standard issue safety glasses.
Wonwoo.
A wave of relief rushes through you when heâs finally near you but you donât let a single ripple of it show on your face. In a place like this, the higher ups are always listening; every vent and terminal has an ear.
âSo what do you think?â
You turn to him, keeping your posture entirely natural as you take the hand he extended, âgood to have a functional grid here,â you do a perfectly mundane, non suspicious small talk.
Wonwoo takes your hand in his reassuring grip. His thumb presses into your palmâ a silent, private acknowledgment that canât be read by anyone but you. He smiled just a bit with hints of warmth in his eyes that matched yours. Even though you took all the risks, faked the credentials, and hacked the system yourself, Wonwoo was the one who risked himself and had mapped out the Skyâs blind spots for you from the inside, giving you the blueprint you needed to survive up here and hack the system.
âThe atmospheric pressure takes some getting used to though since youâre new,â Wonwoo replies casually, his deep voice completely level for the hidden microphones. âJust follow the standard protocols and youâll run smooth.â
âGood to know,â you offer a smile as you pull your hand back. You glance toward the structural windows when your thoughts instantly drift past the monorails, straight down through the heavy clouds to your place in The Ground.
Your hand slips toward your wrist-comm. You need to keep your promise⊠so finish your shift as soon as possible. âUh, Iâm Silv, it was nice meeting you but I think Iâll have to go now,â you try to end the conversation here.
âYou too, Silv. Iâm Wonwoo by the way.â
âSee you later!â you wave bye as you walk away.
âSee you.â
You spend the next twelve hours losing yourself in the grind of the maintenance deck. You purge atmospheric filters, solder fried power lines and motors and keep your head down, executing the potential of Silv flawlessly. By the time the shift supervisor dismisses your sector, every muscle in your back is already aching.
Youâre routed along with the rest of the Ground crew down into the worker bunks. Itâs exactly the kind of crowded hive you expectedâ rows of metal capsule pods stacked top to bottom.
You crawl into your assigned pod and slide the metal door shut with a pressurized hiss that locks out the chitchat of the barracks. The space is tiny and barely wide enough to turn over, illuminated only by an indicator light on the ceiling.
You pull the blanket all the way up over your head, plunging yourself into absolute darkness.
Inside your makeshift tent, you wait a few long minutes and listen to the sound of the ventilation, ensuring no automated audio sweep is flagging your pod. Slowly, you bring your wrist-comm close to your face. The screen boots up, casting a reflection across your eyes.
You navigate past the monitored system logs to the encrypted partition you built back in the basement.
You tap the interface and release the untraceable, pre-coded data ping you promised your father. It bypasses the Skyâs outgoing walls and drops right into the rusted wall clock of your place on The Ground. Iâm in, Dad. Iâm safe.
You kill the screen and let the dark swallow you whole as you finally let out the breath youâve been holding since ass oâclock this morning. Phase one is completed.
The metal housing of the auxiliary coolant valve is freezing against your calloused fingers. Underneath your gray maintenance jumpsuit, your shirt is plastered to your spine with greasy sweat. Above you, thirty feet up in the shadows of the vaulted ceiling, the optical lens of an automated Sec-Eye sweeps the corridor. A mechanical click-click-click traces its movement. You have exactly four seconds between its rotations where the blind spot sags over your station.
Your fingers slip into your tool belt around the micro spanner Wonwoo passed you during yesterdayâs break. The automated logistics algorithm doesnât look at human performance reports, his deep calm voice echoes in your memory as a ghost from the brief ten minute window by the water dispensers. It tracks fluid dynamics. If a deckâs pressure drops by 0.4 percent three weeks in a row, it flags the assigned personnel as a logistical drag. It moves them out to balance the line.
Click. The camera turns away. Your jaw locks and you jam the spanner into the valveâs regulator nut and twist. The metal groans a terrifyingly loud sound in the thrumming silence of the corridor. You strip the thread a little as a nearly invisible hiss of pressurized Freon escapes, biting into the skin of your thumb with a chemical freeze. You yank the tool back and shove it into your pocket just as the red light of the lens sweeps back over your face.
Your heart is hitting your ribs so hard youâre sure the acoustic sensors in the walls will pick it up. You force your features into a dull eyed stare while dragging a dirty rag across the casing of the pipe. Your hands are shaking as the adrenaline turns your blood to ice water. If the grid detects the intentional tool marks on that nut, you arenât getting reassigned. Youâre getting deleted⊠probably from the world as well when they find out more dirt about you.
Survival up here isnât just running; itâs a grueling game of chess against a machine that records everything. You donât just get assigned to an executive penthouse on your second day. An invisible nobody from The Ground doesnât walk onto the top floors without triggering a thousand alarms. You have to let the system itself funnel you there.
By noon, the legal power ration on the Tech Deck is fluctuating, causing the overhead tube-lights to hum a sickening brown-out frequency. Your break chime rings.
You walk toward the hydration units. Every muscle in your shoulders is locked tight while your thumb is still numb from the Freon burn. You press your palm against the dirty dispenser pad and a stream of lukewarm water trickles into your plastic cup, but a shadow falls over the dispenser next to you.
Behind the thick scratched plastic of his safety glasses, Wonwooâs eyes donât look at you yet. You already know that heâs tracking the digital readout on the water machine.
âPressure on Sub-Sector 4 is dropping,â Wonwoo says. His deep voice is perfectly flat, completely conversational and devoid of any inflection that would trigger an AI audio sweep. âLooks like a faulty valve seal. Theyâll probably run an optimization update by Friday.â
You take a swallow of the metallic water, your eyes staring straight ahead at the rust stained wall. âOld pipes,â you casually reply but itâs your voice forcing itself through the lump of nerves in your throat. âEverything up here breaks eventually.â
Beneath the metal counter, out of the line of sight of the camera mounting behind the ventilation shaft, Wonwooâs fingers slide across the cold casing of the housing unit, leaving something flat but small, and warm from his pocket resting right on the side of the metal ledge between your machines. Itâs another micro data chit.
âThe standard protocol for Level 9 Residential says they need replacements with clean bio scents,â Wonwoo continues his, âcan be important to you but also unnecessary for the detectors,â small talk, but you notice the slight tremor in his fingers as he takes his hand back from you. He isnât looking at you but his shoulder is less than an inch from yours. You can feel the heat radiating off him in the freezing room.
He knows what youâre doing. He knows that every step you take up that ladder brings you closer to the executive board and closer to the wolves who tore your father apart. And he knows that once you reach those floors, his technical expertise canât shield you anymore. He is building the ladder for your escape even if it means watching you climb into the fire. âThanks for the tip,â you murmur while your fingers slide over the data chit with your street smart dexterity, tucking it into the secret seam of your cuff. Before you pull away, Wonwooâs hand hesitates on his water cup, and so for a split second, his thumb presses against the back of your knucklesâ a sudden pressure that feels completely different from his usual self. But you track it for what it is; itâs a silent desperate plea. Donât get caught. Donât leave me behind.
You donât⊠you canât squeeze back. The hatred inside your chest is too much as it suffocates black weight that leaves no room for anything else. You will do your best and leave the rest to fate, fate is all you can trust in moments like this. You donât think youâre even qualified for detention but rather just taking your life away. You drop your cup into the recycling chute and walk away without looking back, leaving him standing alone under the flickering brown lights.
â
The notification arrives on your wrist-comm at 04:00, twenty minutes before your alarm is even set to go off.
You sit up in your metal capsule bunk. You did it. The algorithm took the bait. But the triumph in your chest is instantly replaced by dread. Level 9 is where things should be changing.
Three hours later, you emerge from the high velocity transit elevator onto the residential concourse, and the contrast nearly knocks you off your feet. There are no exposed pipes here or rusted grates or flickering brown out lights. The walls are clad in high gloss white composite that reflects the ambient glow of hidden LED tracks.
It feels fake. It feels like a beautiful, expensive coffin.
As you walk down the corridor with your cleaning cart, your gray jumpsuit feels like a brand of filth. The residents pass you byâ elite women dressed in flowing silks or corporate men and women in fitted suits that cost more than your fatherâs entire lifetime medical pension. They donât look at you. Their eyes skip over your form as if you are nothing more than a mobile garbage unit, a temporary blemish on their perfect visual landscape.
The hatred inside you changes. Down on the tech decks, it was a hot, raging fire. Up here, surrounded by their obnoxious luxury, it turns into a cold diamond sharp focus. Every time you scrub a pristine chrome baseboard, you think of the damp, rotting wooden floors of your kitchen below. Every time you empty a disposal unit filled with discarded, half eaten real food, you think of the empty cabinets and the pills you had to count out so carefully for your dad.
They think they are safe up here because they are high. They think the rules of reality donât apply to their floor.Â
It takes another two months of grinding through the residential sectors before you finally see him.
You are cleaning the panoramic viewing deck on Level 11, working a buffer machine over the reinforced glass flooring that looks down into the white sea of clouds. A sudden silence ripples through the corridor. Already here?
You keep your head down and fit your posture into that of the clumsy, easily intimidated Ground girl youâve been practicing in the mirror of your bunk pod.
Through the reflection in the glass, you see him approach. Kwon Soonyoung.
To the rest of the elevated metropolis, he was Hoshi, the untouchable corporate heir linked to the very executive board who signed the permanent blacklist order for your father. But to you, he was the target.
He doesnât walk like the other corporate executives. There is a different energy to his movement⊠a lethal charisma that makes him look like a predator going through a cage. He is wearing a tailored grey coat with his hair stark and perfectly styled against the soft lighting of the deck. Two personal assistants walk three paces behind him, tablets in hand, murmuring something between them that he dismisses with an impatient flick of his fingers.
This is the target. The man whose executive division signed the permanent blacklist order for your father.
Your fingers tighten on the buffer handle but you recover before itâs noticeable on the million hidden and not hidden cameras around you. Your mind is screaming at you to drop the machine and use the steel wrench in your belt to crack that arrogant jaw. The venom in your veins is so potent it makes your vision blur⊠but you force it down. You lock it deep into the dark basement of your mind where you keep your real identity. You, as in, Y/N.
Instead, as his security detail draws level with your station, you intentionally catch the cord of your buffer machine with the toe of your boot. You stumble, letting out a sharp but soft cry of âgenuineâ panic as the machine skitters out of control and clatters loudly against the base of a pillar.
The sound echoes like a gunshot through the quiet deck. âHey! Watch it, Grounder!â one of the assistants snaps as he steps forward with an angry scowl.
You instantly drop to your knees and pull your sleeves over your hands, your shoulders hunched as you mimic a terrified animal.
You donât even know if this pathetic act is gonna work but youâd rather stay delusional and see how it plays out because it always played out perfectly in the fictional books you have read, âI-Iâm sorry! Iâm so sorry, sir!â you stammer as you make your voice tremble perfectly, your eyes wide and glassy as you stare at the floor right in front of Soonyoungâs leather boots. âThe voltage fluctuated, I lost my gripâ I didnât mean toââ
The assistant is about to call security, but Soonyoung raises a single hand and they stop immediately.
Soonyoung lowers his head down as his eyes study your trembling form. To a man surrounded by corporate sharks, elegant elite women who speak in poetic flirty riddles, and bowing subordinates, your unfiltered terror is an anomaly. Even if terror is expected from Ground workers, they usually just shut up and accept their fate instead of blabbering about why the accident/mistake happened.
Itâs a glitch to him⊠and that catches his attention. You arenât a threat; youâre entirely too pathetic, a small, fragile thing from the dirt that has probably accidentally flown into his pristine sky. Because the management wonât send such a fragile worker like you, here.Â
A slight faint smug smirk touches the corner of his lips. The arrogant pity of the elite, you wanna scoff real bad.
âLeave it,â Soonyoung says as it cuts through the tension. âSheâs just a child from belowâ practically shaking out of her skin.â
âThank you, sir... thank you,â you whisper, letting a tear slip down your cheek right on cue, looking up at him with an expression of pure, star struck worship.
He looks at you for one more long secondâ captivated by the novelty of someone who views him like a god, before he turns and continues down the concourse, his detail falling into step behind him.
You stay on your knees until the sound of his footsteps completely fades. Slowly and consciously, you wipe the fake tear from your face with the back of your hand. Your eyes are completely now devoid of the fear you just put on display.
The hook is set. The chess game has officially begun. Phase 2 is completed; now slowly bait him into being soft for you.
Six months. It had taken six grueling months of you scrubbing pristine corridors as a low tier maintenance worker as you kept your head down, and kept playing the part of a star struck, clumsy girl from below before you finally managed to cross paths with him.
By him you mean, Kwon Soonyoung.
âYouâre taking dirt onto the terrace,â his voice cut through the penthouse.
You jump as you drop your cleaning cloth to the floor with intentional clumsiness. You spun around, your eyes wide like a saucer, perfectly mimicking the fragile easily rattled persona you had spent half a year perfecting, âI-Iâm so sorry, sir! The filtration units on the lower terrace were acting up, and I didn't realize my bootsââ
âBreathe,â Soonyoung interrupts. He wasnât looking at you; he was looking past you out the floor-to-ceiling glass where the monorails wove between skyscrapers like veins of pretty light. He looked effortlessly casual but lethal, a product of a world where the rules of reality supposedly stopped at his floor. âIâm not going to have you executed for a bit of dust.â Oh fuck off.
âRight. Of course. Thank you,â you stammer, biting your lip and looking down while letting a flush of faux embarrassment heat your cheeks.
This was the hook. For weeks, you had played the part of the infatuated emotionally fragile and clueless about the horrors of the hierarchy of the rich world, maintenance girl who couldnât keep her eyes off him. You had let yourself be caught staying around outside his private office, sniffing the expensive ambient scents and crying like a pretty doll when a security guard reprimanded you, pretending to be utterly overwhelmed by his mere presence. You still canât believe you werenât kicked out by other people or his several personal âassistants.â
To a man surrounded by corporate sharks and lusty beautiful elite women, a fragile unstable girl from The Ground who looked at him like he was a god was a novelty. An easy distraction; someone entirely too pathetic to be considered a threat.
When he walked closer and tilted your chin up with a gloved finger, you let your breath stutter⊠but it wasnât entirely out of acting but because the proximity of the man who held your fatherâs life in his hands was terrifying.
âYou look at me like youâre terrified Iâll do something to you,â his eyes scan your face to search for a depth you have carefully buried under layers of manufactured vulnerability, âor like you want me to.â
⊠The fuck you mean?
âI justâŠâ you swallowed the blob in your throat while letting your eyes glass over with those well rehearsed tears. âI shouldnât be up here. People like me... we donât belong in a place this bright.âÂ
To this day, youâre scared that one day heâll finally get tired of your bullshit and throw you out for the audacity of standing there with tears in your eyes and talking about things like this as if you deserve sympathy. Because clearly that would be your manipulative master plan.
A faint, amused smile touched his lipsâ the arrogant pity of the elite, âthen let me keep you here where you can see the light.â
Suddenly, his lips meet yours, and you react a second late before you lean into him as you pull him closer by the collar of his shirt. This, this is what you wanted. This is your well planned innocent seduction, but it wasnât a sweeping romance; it was a desperate way of your motives. Itâs messy as neither of you have the patience to be careful. His hand slides to your waist and you step back with him without breaking it while guiding him toward the bedroom without looking like youâre guiding anything at all. You only pretend to give the illusion of letting the man do it.
You wrap your arms around his neck and stay close, letting him think itâs a need. He kisses you harder when you donât pull away, a hoarse sound caught in his throat, and you answer him with the same amount of force to keep him from questioning the heat of it. Your mind remains entirely detached and crystal clear, even as your heart thumps wildly against your ribs as it tracks the room behind him, the distance to his private terminal, and the angle of the security panels along the wall.
Heâs walking you back until the back of your knees hit the edge of the bed. You fall onto it with him leaning over you with one hand already at your jaw, the other braced beside your head. The silk sheets are so soft and nothing like anything youâve ever slept on in your own house, and it makes your skin feel more weird instead of relaxed. But you can't let yourself freeze. Before he can pull back or think, you hook your arms around his shoulders as you drag him down with you when he attempts to straighten.
His breath chokes slightly at the rush of need as his hands move from your jaw to the zipper of your uniform jumpsuit. You decide to use that exact second of that little bit of hesitation to keep him completely focused on you instead of anything else in the room. He slides it down with an impatient tug as the heavy fabric parts and pushes it off your shoulders to expose your skin to the cool air of the room. Now, you donât let your hesitation slow you down.
As his chest presses flush against yours, your hands slide down past his waist while your fingers find the metallic snap of his trousers. You unzip it completely bypassing his defenses while keeping his mouth locked against yours so he doesn't see the cold focus in your eyes. You pull every bit of his attention onto yourself the way you need it to; the rest of the penthouse completely ceases to exist for him. His lips move from yours to your cheek and then your neck, and you let your head tilt back to make it easy for him. Your hands stay on his back as you map the hard muscle beneath his shirt the entire time to never let there be space for his thoughts to wander. When he moves you again, and you go with him immediately to keep his entire world to the limits of the bed and your body until there is nothing else.
The breathing of the both of you keeps getting slower as time passes. His grip on you loosens slightly for comfort. He has stopped thinking about anything beyond the touch of your skin. You stay exactly where you are, still making sure there is no reason for him to look away or stand up or reach for anything else.Â
The penthouse was dead silent except for the breathing of Kwon Soonyoung tangled in the sheets with you.
You slid out from under the heavy comforter entirely devoid of the clumsiness you showed during the day and the past six months. Eyes cold as you scanned the dimly lit room.
Your fingers didnât tremble as you reached for his tailored jacket draped over the chair. Slipping your hand into the interior pocket, your cold fingertips brushed against the gold rimmed biometric passkey. Six months of playing the fool and letting him believe he held all the power, boiled down to this single plastic chip.
Moving like a shadow, you slid the passkey into your maintenance jumpsuit that was on the floor when he took it off you an hour ago. You didnât dare access his terminal hereâ the internal anomalies would flag security immediately. But with this key, the restricted medical robotics archive on the sub level was completely open to you. The neural stabilization formulaâ the proprietary algorithm that could restore your fatherâs deteriorating mind and could 100% ruin their reputation for hiding this from the elites for whatever reasonsâ was within your reach.
You walked toward the door of the penthouse and for a split daunting second, your hand hovered over the release sensor. You looked back at the silhouette of the man on the bed who had given you access to The Sky, and kept you on your toes while still treating you like a human unlike other elites. But no, you didnât feel guilty when you came back to your senses and thought about the damp wooden floors of your home below. You thought about the empty kitchen cabinets with unpaid bills on the broken table and the sad smile of your dad that he hid under his âeverything is okay,â smile.
They donât do âtemporaryâ with people from the Ground, your fatherâs voice echoed in your head. You donât know them.
I know them now, dad, you thought. And Iâm getting back at them. You turned your back on that man and the clean house, stepping through the threshold and into a lit corridor. You didnât look back as you slipped past the final security checkpoint with the stolen passkey burning a hole in your pocket. There was no guarantee the grid wouldnât flag his credentials before you reached the sub levels, and no guarantee youâd ever make it back down to the toxic smog below.
But you still stepped into the elevator terminal and pressed your back again but this time against the cold glass as it prepared for its long, dizzying descent, you locked your expression down. There was only one way forward.
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summary: years after leaving kingâs landing, you return to find aemond upon the iron throne. he is everything the little boy you once loved had hoped to becomeâand nothing you remember
pairing: aemond targaryen x aunt!reader
warnings: mature/explicit, 18+ (minors dni!), no use of y/n, afab reader, canon typical incest, aunt/nephew incest, emotional manipulation, political talks, discussion of war/death, power imbalance, dubcon, possessive aemond, yearning, choking, hand over mouth, piv sex, rough sex, creampie, degradation, dirty talk, angst, let me know if i missed anything!
word count: 9.7k
a/n: proud of myself for actually writing a mean aemond fic where he stays mean will probably never happen again
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The familiar bustle of the city begins to take over as soon as you reach its outskirts: merchants pull their wagons aside at the first sight of Hightower banners cresting the hills, mothers gather their children away from the roadside, and men bow their heads in polite deference as mounted knights pass in orderly columns, white towers embroidered upon deep green snapping lazily in the wind.Â
No one moves to flee or cry out in warningâthe smallfolk have quickly adjusted to the growing tensions of war, have learned to recognize an army as it arrives, even without haste or celebration.Â
You ride near the front beside Daeron, where a prince ought to be seenâsomething heâll grow used to with time, though he has changed considerably from the little boy youâd escorted from Kingâs Landing all those years ago. The softness of childhood has grown into long limbs and broadening shoulders, his face still unmistakably Alicentâs.Â
Oldtown has polished him in quiet ways, youâd made that much certain. He sits his horse as easily as his dragon now and speaks only when he has something worth saying, carrying himself with the effortless courtesy that seems bred into the stones of the great beacon of Oldtown itself.Â
Heâs no longer a child.Â
That realization still catches you off guard, even after all the time youâve spent beside him.Â
Somewhere overhead comes the distant cry of Tessarion, shrill and sharp. You cannot see her yet through the scattered clouds, but every so often sunlight catches the sweep of cobalt wings overhead before she disappears again, circling lazily above the marching host.Â
Daeron follows your gaze for only a moment, smiling to himself before looking to the road again.Â
âSheâs growing impatient.â
âShe has good reason to after so much time spent traveling,â you answer, adjusting your grip on the leather reins in your hand. âI imagine her rider shares the sentiment.â
His laugh is quiet, but itâs answer enough.Â
Thereâs always been some comfort in how easily conversation comes with himâbefore leaving court, youâd almost forgotten that a royal child could laugh without looking over their shoulder first.Â
For a while, the only sounds are hooves striking packed earth, the steady creak of wagons somewhere farther back within Ormundâs column, and the distant calls of outriders moving between ranks. Ahead, the city proper begins to rise from the haze as buildings press more closely together, knitting into winding streets and crowded alleyways.Â
Beyond them, the towers of the Red Keep climb above the landscape like fingers reaching toward the sky.Â
Home, you think automatically, even as your heart aches at the unfamiliarity of it all.Â
The note that Alicentâs raven had brought a few days earlier rests tucked safely inside your saddlebag, though by now youâve memorized every line.Â
Aegon is gone, Larys Strong with him. Aemond rules now in his brotherâs stead.Â
You had read it once in disbelief the moment it had arrived when youâd stopped to make camp, then again by lamplight after supper, again the following morning, and once more before departing. Perhaps a part of you believed that the repetition alone might coax some different meaning from the ink, but it never had.Â
Days spent riding have done little to quiet your imagination. If anything, the silence and the endless beating of hooves have fed it.Â
You find yourself remembering Aemond as the little boy who had once preferred the palace libraries to the training yards whenever he thought no one was watching, who insisted on sitting impossibly straight even while readingâas though slouching might somehow diminish him. He had always been solemn and studious, serious beyond his years, forever trying to convince the world that he needed nothing from anyone.Â
After the harrowing events at Driftmark, you remember how heâd reached for you the first time the maester had come to change his bandages, how youâd smoothed his hair back from his brow. He had gone strangely still beneath the touch and had watched you all the while with his remaining eye. You remember, too, finding him alone a few days later, not quite crying; his jaw had been clenched so tightly that you wondered whether his teeth might crack beneath the strain.Â
âI am fine,â he had insisted before youâd spoken a single word. Hardly ten years old and already, he had mistaken endurance for strength.Â
Beside you, Daeron breaks the silence, making you jolt slightly against the saddle.Â
âDo you think mother has changed much?â You glance toward him but he keeps his attention ahead, though uncertainty lingers in his voice as he continues. âItâs been such a long time, I justâI wonderâŠâ
âI imagine sheâll be quite shocked with how tall youâve grown,â you say, smiling easily at the thought of your beloved sister, at having her close once more.Â
A beat passes between the two of you. A bird calls out, probably a gull from the bay. Your horse snorts.Â
For a fleeting moment, all of this feels impossibly easy.Â
âAnd⊠and Aemond?â he says quietly, giving voice to the question both of you have been circling since Alicentâs letter reached you. âDo you think heâll be glad to see us?â
You hold his gaze only briefly before looking back toward the city, back toward those impossibly high towers as you try to picture him somewhere insideâa man you no longer know.Â
âHeâll be glad of Tessarion,â you say at last, feeling Daeronâs gaze as it lingers on you. He knows well enough not to challenge your answer, and you know heâs smart enough to pick up on everything you choose not to say.Â
Sighing, you shift slightly atop your horse, trying to ignore the way your pulse kicks up as you draw closer to the castle gates. In a bid to keep your thoughts from spiraling further, you attempt to focus on the cityâon crowded market stalls and fishermen unloading the morningâs catch, on the bells of the Sept ringing as they signal the time, on the sails of distant ships bobbing in the Blackwater.Â
Still, you cannot help but notice that there are more Gold Cloaks than you remember, more guards posted atop the battlements, and more eyes lifting instinctively toward the sky as Tessarionâs shadow passes overhead.Â
The gates open, the sound carrying across the yard as heavy timbers groan against ancient hinges.Â
I am home, you think again, though the word fits no better than it did the first time.Â
Stablehands hurry forward to take reins from weary riders, servants weave between carts laden with supplies from Oldtown, and somewhere across the inner courtyard a steward begins directing men toward quarters prepared days before your arrival. The Hightower banners that had fluttered so proudly along the road are lowered one by one, no longer needed now that youâve reached your destination.Â
Youâve scarcely swung yourself down from your horse before familiar voices begin calling Daeronâs name. Guards who had only known him as a small boy bid him welcome with respectful bows, various attendants offer polite curtsies, and it strikes you then just how long heâs been gone.Â
Just then, a movement at the top of the stone steps draws your eyeâAlicent. For one impossible heartbeat, you see her as the dutiful older sister you had left behind years ago, looking as she always had.Â
Then reality catches up.Â
Time has been no kinder to her than it is to anyone else, but it seems to have landed differently upon your sister. She is still beautiful in the same ways she always wasâwide eyes, shining coppery hair, a warm smileâthough grief has carved itself into the corners of her mouth and left shadows beneath her eyes. Green remains her color, as ever, yet even that familiar emerald shade seems muted against the invisible weight she carries.Â
Daeron reaches her first and hardly has time to draw air into his lungs before Alicent gathers him into her arms; he returns the embrace without hesitation, one hand settling securely between her shoulders.Â
âGods, youâre nearly a man grown,â the words leave her in a shuddered exhale, something caught between a laugh and a sob.Â
âMother,â he says so quietly you nearly miss it in all the commotion, as if the word is foreign on his tongue. âI missed you.â
One hand rises to cup his cheek like sheâs reassuring herself heâs truly here, standing before herâthat he is flesh and blood rather than another son slipping beyond her reach. Her thumb brushes once across his skin as she studies his face with an impossibly wide smile, pride clear on her features for the first time in longer than she would care to admit.Â
âYou havenât the faintest idea,â she starts, shaking her head, âhow much Iâve missed you.â
A moment later, their embrace loosens and her shoulders straighten, a quiet propriety settling over her once more as she turns to you.Â
Whatever restraint sheâd attempted to force upon herself dies in an instant.
She crosses the remaining distance between you without ceremony, wrapping both arms around you with a quiet, shaky exhale that she quickly buries against your shoulder. You hold her just as tightly, huffing out a laugh as the familiar scent of her washes over youâsweet and delicate and all her own.Â
For a few seconds, everything seems to fall away. There is no court, no war, no throneâonly the two of you, standing exactly as you had countless times before the world grew so much larger than either of you had ever wished it to be.Â
When she pulls back, her composure has returned, but only just.Â
âI missed you,â she says softly, that familiar wry smile on her lipsâas if sheâd been caught doing something she shouldnât.Â
âAs I have missed you, sister.â
Something fragile flickers across her face before disappearing almost as quickly as it came as she wrings her hands, scanning the courtyard.Â
âWe shouldnât remain here.â
You nod, knowing there will be time later for conversations and niceties and attempts to bridge the years between you.Â
Ladies-in-waiting fall into step behind you as the three of you make your way deeper into the castle. The once-familiar corridors seem narrower than you remember, crowded now with messengers carrying sealed letters, guards changing posts, and whispering maidsâall of whom fall abruptly silent as you pass by.Â
Everything is exactly how youâd left it, truly, and yet it feels as if the stone walls themselves are holding their breath, waiting for the other shoe to fall.Â
âAegon left three days before your arrival,â Alicent says at last, keeping her voice low enough that only you and Daeron can hear. âLarys Strong departed with him. No one knows where.âÂ
You had known as much from her raven but hearing the words spoken aloud somehow makes them feel realâless like a rumor and more like a loss.Â
âAnd Aemond assumed control immediately?â You question, earning a silent nod in reply, her lips pressed tightly together. âSo everyone simplyâŠâ you pause, searching for the right word, â...accepts it?â
âThey accept necessity,â she answers without hesitation, looking over her shoulder before glancing back toward you. âWe do not have the luxury of time.âÂ
She says no more than that, but she doesnât need to. You understand well enough what remains unspokenâKingâs Landing is being held together by routine and the looming uncertainty of Rhaenyraâs inevitable arrival.Â
Silence stretches between you for several paces before you break it, unable to tamp down the cautious curiosity within you.Â
âAnd what of Aemond?â
âYou will see him soon enough.â
Thereâs something in the way she says itâthe quiet resignation of someone who, despite every attempt to the contrary, has found that the only way out is through.Â
The corridors begin to widen as you get closer to the Great Hall, its heavy wooden doors lying ahead, standing open beneath banners bearing the three-headed dragon. Voices drift faintly from within, bleeding through the space in hushed murmurs.Â
âHe should still be here,â Alicent says, stiffly looking between you and Daeron. âCome.â
Your feet move before your mind can protest. Despite all the many hours youâve had to imagine this meeting, now that it has arrived, you discover that you were never truly prepared for it at all.Â
Inside, the throne room is more somber than you remember it being, stripped of the usual pomp and circumstance that comes with a public court. Any petitioners or noblemen that were here have departed, leaving behind only a handful of men gathered near the foot of the Iron Throne; Maester Orwyle stands with several rolled parchments tucked beneath one arm while Lord Wylde speaks in measured tones, giving the last of some report from what you can make out.Â
Contrary to what youâd feared, there are no raised voices; instead, thereâs an eerie calm.Â
You canât seem to decide which is worse.Â
Despite its placidity, thereâs still a carefulness that lingers in the airâa deliberate weighing of every word. These men are long accustomed to kings and councils but even they seem to measure themselves warily.Â
Slowly, your gaze rises to the throne itself, to where Aemond sits bareheaded, absent of the rubied crown that Aegon had worn. It had departed the city with him, leaving behind only the Iron Throne itself and the man who now occupies it. Somehow, the missing symbol of legitimacy fails to diminish him; if anything, it makes him appear sharper.Â
He has no need for the authority of Valyrian steel when he believes he possesses enough of his own.Â
One hand rests lightly against the arm of the throne as he listens to the men before him with a sharp gaze. Your mind whirls as you try to reconcile the image before you with the boy youâd once knownâthere is nothing boyish left in him now. Even from across the hall, he carries himself with an absolute certainty that hadnât been there before.Â
âHow many men remain posted at the River Gate?â
âTwo hundred, Your Grace.â
âAnd how many have seen battle?â
âPerhapsâŠâ Lord Wylde hesitates briefly, âonly half?â
Aemond nods once, head tilting to the side just slightly as he lets out a thoughtful hum.Â
âThen replace the rest.â
âYour Grace,â Wylde begins carefully, âwe are already strapped forââ
âDo you think an army of untested boys capable of defending the city from the threats Rhaenyra brings, my lord?â His tone is soft, though laced with a hardness that makes it clear this is a question he does not want answered. âSee that it is done.âÂ
âAs you command.â
He is good at this, the thought comes to you unbidden, almost painfully. The solemn little boy who had spent entire afternoons with his nose buried in dusty tomes, who had longed to be taken seriouslyâto no longer be a mere second sonâappears to have gotten what he had so desperately wanted.Â
Silence settles again as Lord Wylde turns and takes his leave, pausing only to offer the three of you a polite bow, followed by Maester Orwyle who does the same. Their footsteps echo softly across the cavernous hall until the doors are pulled closed behind them.Â
Itâs only then that Aemondâs gaze lands on you.Â
For a second, hardly a second, something perilously close to relief shifts over his face before vanishing so completely that you wonder if youâre inventing mercies where none exist.Â
You share an impossibly heavy glance with Alicent as he stands from the throne and saunters down the sword-lined steps, his hands clasped behind his back while he makes his way over to the three of you. Heâs grown tall in your absence, formidable with broad shoulders and a restrained strength. Thereâs a surety in him now that had been missing before, the relaxed confidence of a man who knows his capabilities very, very well.Â
âYou have returned,â he murmurs, coming to a stop before you. Thereâs no warmth in his tone, no familiarity. He offers nothing elseânot your name, not aunt, not even a question of your travels or your health.Â
âSo I have,â you say in return, bowing your head politely, if only to give yourself something to do.Â
He studies you for only a second longer before drifting to Daeron at your side. You can see him shift in your periphery, practically thrumming with a confused excitementâwas he missed? Was he not? Where is the ease of family?
âYour dragon will be of good use to us,â Aemond says. âI trust you have been trained well?â
Daeron inclines his head with the same courtesy he has shown every step of the journey from Oldtown, though you donât miss the way he seems to deflate a little as his shoulders lose their sharpness.Â
âYes,â he answers with a nod, looking at Alicent as she places a hand on his shoulder. âI am glad to be of service.â
âMm,â Aemond hums, giving a single nod, no sign that he has spent years apart from the brother standing before him.Â
Despite yourself, you search his face anyway, looking for a trace of the boy who had once followed you through halls asking questions far too large for his age.Â
Yet, you find only the king.Â
Beside you, Alicent exhales softly, smoothing a hand over her skirts.Â
âWe should leave you to your work,â she says to him, each word too tightâtoo formal. âBesides,â she continues, turning her attention to you and her youngest son, âI must show you both to your chambers.âÂ
As you take your leave, following closely behind Daeron as the three of you make your way out of the Great Hall, you can feel his stare on your back.Â
The following day, afternoon sunlight spills so warmly through the Keepâs gardens that itâs easy to momentarily forget how precarious everything is, how the entire realm seems poised on a knifeâs edge.Â
The fountains bubble softly into still pools, birds chirp as they flit from tree to tree, and roses climb sun-warmed stone. You watch as a butterfly dances between flowers, suddenly struck by the fact that it knows nothing of dragons, nor kings, nor the weight of crowns.Â
That is why youâve always tended to seek solace hereânature has always possessed the enviable habit of simply carrying on.Â
For a while, neither you nor your sister says anything as you walk side-by-side, the gravel pathway crunching underfoot. A gentle wind wafts over you, rustling the neatly pruned hedges, and you take a second to glance over at her.Â
Alicentâs hands are folded neatly before her in an attempt to hide her bloodied cuticlesâa nervous habit she never quite outgrew.Â
âIâm sure youâre glad for the breeze the bay brings in,â she says after a time, a faint smile touching the corners of her lips, âgiven how humid Oldtown can be.â
âDefinitely,â you nod, taking a second to look up at the winding branches of a particularly old chestnut tree. âThe air there could be stifling at times.â
Conversation comes easier after that, the two of you quickly filling the silence. You speak of the journey here, of Ormundâs tendency to be a spendthrift, of Daeronâs understated confidence and how naturally he has seemed to grow into himself. Alicent listens more than she speaks, asking after small details that youâd never thought to include in the many letters you had sent her over the years.Â
Does he still forget to eat when heâs learning a new song on his lute?
Does he still insist on rising at dawn?
Does he still not take well to compliments?
Each answer earns a small smile from her or a breathy laugh or quick quip, though none of it quite erases the shadows beneath her eyes. Still, itâs enough to give you a glimpse of the sister youâd known as a child.Â
The longer the two of you walk and talk, the more you find yourself speaking of Oldtown itself. You each share childhood memories of watching merchant ships dock in the harbor and of evenings spent beneath the glow of the great beacon. Both of you seem to long for those quiet days that, at the time, had felt unbearably ordinary, though now they seem more like an untouchable luxury.Â
Still, the longer you talk, the more it feels as if each of you is carefully side-stepping the one glaring thing that weighs most heavily on your mind, as if neither of you wishes to arrive at it and break whatever sweet spell youâre under.Â
Eventually, it becomes unavoidable.Â
âHe will not hear me,â she says at last as she slows beside one of the fountains, watching sunlight scatter across its rippling surface. You donât need to ask who she means, you both know well enough. âI have tried as his counsel, as his mother,â she continues quietly; a faint, humorless smile crosses her lips, ânone of them reached him.â
âWhat is it you wished for him to hear?â
Sighing, she doesnât answer immediately. Her brows furrow as she resumes walking, her skirts whispering softly over the pathway.Â
âIâI want peace,â she says simply before stopping again, so suddenly that you whip around to face her. Sheâs not looking at you, not at first. Instead, sheâs gazing at the ground as if wishing it would swallow her whole, teeth worrying at her bottom lip.
âSister, has somethingââ
âI went to Dragonstone,â she whispers, so faintly that for a moment, youâre sure you must have misheard her. She must see it as a million questions immediately flood your mind, each more incredulous than the last, because she quickly continues. âI didnât go becauseâbecause I believed Rhaenyra would simply forgive me,â the words pour from her, ânor because I imagined she had suddenly forgotten all that has transpired between our families, I justâŠâ
She lowers her eyes, wringing her hands.Â
âI had to know that she might still choose not to burn the realm,â her words are almost sheepish, like a child confessing an inane fear, âthat she too had considered⊠negotiations, a way through this withoutâwithoutââ
She neednât give it voice.Â
For several moments, you say nothing, instead blinking up at the sun overhead, like it may provide you with some great wisdom. Shock flows through you, a steady thrum in your veins, but beneath that an understanding begins to rise. You know your sister and for all her many faults, you have never known her to be rash nor willfully careless.Â
Peace no longer promises triumph, perhaps it never didâyouâd seen your brother-in-law make that mistake many times over the course of his long reign. But it may promise fewer widows, fewer orphans left to the streets, fewer graves dug into damp earth.Â
Of course sheâd had to try, you think, absentmindedly fiddling with a loose thread at the hem of one sleeve, that is still something worth seeking.
âAegon could be⊠managed,â you say quietly. Alicent sighs beside you, her eyes closing as she gives a single nod.Â
âYes.â
âAemond cannot.â
âNo,â she whispers, the word landing heavily between you, âand that is what frightens me.â
Her voice wavers, causing you to instinctively reach toward her. Stepping closer, you wind your hands around hers, jaw set against the sudden tightness at the back of your throat as her gaze finally finds yours. The tiredness there makes your heart ache.Â
âIf Aemond remains in the capital, Rhaenyra will come eventually, sheâll have no choice,â she says lowly, leaning closer to you, âbut Daemon holds Harrenhal, alongside Caraxes, several dragonseeds, and a growing army.â Your pulse grows louder as she speaks, an incessant drum in your ear. âVhagar is mighty, but she is one dragon.â
She pauses, looking toward the Red Keep as it towers above the gardens.Â
âAnd one rider,â she finishes, her eyes flicking to yours.Â
The finality in her gaze, along with the million words she cannot say, make the hairs on the back of your neck stand on end.Â
âIf Aemond were to ride for the RiverlandsâŠâ you start, your eyes remaining fixed on hers, âhe may not return.â
âYes.â
âAndâand if he stays?â
âThen the war will come here,â she nods, tensing for an instant, âand thousands will die.â
Your teeth sink into your bottom lip as the implication of her words hangs over the two of you, heavy with the weight of an impossible choice. You know better than to argue with her, knowing that what she says is true.
âI need you to speak with him.â
âMe?â you balk, jolting a pace back from her as if youâd been burnt.Â
âHe will not hear me.â
âSisterââ
âHe was so fond of you as a child,â she implores, desperation bleeding into the edges of her voice. âYou may still be able toââ
âThe man I saw yesterday,â you cut her off, shaking your head, âdid not look like someone waiting to be persuaded.â
âNoâno, I suppose not.âÂ
The simplicity of her answer causes a frustrated huff to spill from you as you pace about the small alcove the two of you have found yourselves in, the sunlight on your skin suddenly stifling.Â
âHe isnât the boy I left behind,â you manage, the words tight in your throat.Â
âI know,â she says, reaching out to steady you in the same way you had done for her only moments ago, âbut he is still my son.â
The grief in her voice nearly undoes you, like sheâs mourned him before heâs even leftâlike sheâs done it a dozen times before now.Â
You think of the throne room the day before, of the man sitting where Viserys once had, who now seems little more than a stranger to you, and of Daeronâs face after being dismissed as little more than another dragon rider.Â
Most of all, you remember the split-second of relief that had flickered across Aemondâs face before it had vanished.Â
Staring off at a hazy point in the distance, youâre unable to decide which frightens you moreâthat the boy you had loved is truly gone, or that a small part of him still remains beneath everything that time has forced him to become.Â
You draw a slow breath, looking out across the gardens where branches continue to sway in the afternoon breeze, utterly indifferent to the burden resting upon your shoulders. The backs of your eyes sting as you let them flutter shut for a moment, willing your breaths to steady.Â
âIâI will speak with him.â
She nods and squeezes your hand, though neither of you speak again as you make your way back toward the castle. Nothing has changed, not really. Birds still sing and flowers still bloom and butterflies still dance between them, yet everything feels colder than it had only an hour before.Â
The task before you feels impossibleâhow are you supposed to reach someone when youâre no longer certain any part of them still exists?
In the few hours since youâve spoken to your sister, night has settled heavily over the castle. Your steps echo in the quiet corridor as you make your way to Aemond'sâto the kingâsâchambers, alone in hallways that are usually filled with guards, servants, and the occasional messenger. Torchlight pools across the old stones, stretching in long shadows that sway and flicker with every draft that slips in through the narrow slit windows.Â
You approach the chambers that had belonged to Aegon only days ago. One of the guards posted outside nods his head as you come to a stop, announcing your arrival while opening the doors for you.Â
A fire burns in the hearth, throwing amber light across the tapestried walls. According to Alicent, he had altered many things already. She spoke of orders to servants to stock the shelves with various old tomes, to move in his personal belongings, and to rid the place of emptied wine flagons.Â
Even still, the room itself seems to remember Aegon, as if frozen in the transition between owners.
Aemond occupies a chair before the fire, one leg stretched before him as a forgotten book rests atop his other thigh. He looks up as the doors thud closed once more, leaving the two of you alone.Â
âMother sent you,â he murmurs, not bothering to question it.Â
âShe did,â you answer, stepping further into the room. That earns you the faintest tilt of his head as something like interest passes across his face.Â
âMm,â he hums, âat least you do not insult me with denial.â
âI see no purpose in lying to you, Aemond.â
âHow novel,â he says through a dry huff of laughter. His gaze moves over you with a calm precision that makes your spine straighten despite yourself. âThough I suppose you were always cleverer than that.â
His words catch somewhere you didnât expect, the faint familiarity in them making the absence of any tenderness all the more jarring. You remember, absurdly, a solemn little boy leaning over a library table as he asked whether intelligence or courage mattered more.Â
You had told him that you supposed it merely depended on who survived long enough to use either.Â
That same little boy isnât the one looking back at you now.Â
âYou remember enough to flatter me, nephew.â
âI remember a great many things,â he says, calm but pointed.Â
Neither of you speaks as you move to stand more in front of him, your back warmed by the fire as you watch the light of it move over the hard lines of his face, catching in the pale fall of his hair and the sapphire set where his left eye should be. He looks more human here than he had on the throne, away from all those swords and watching eyes.Â
Heâs handsome like this, the thought comes unbidden. Perhaps this would be easier if age had been less kind to him.Â
âYou may sit,â he says at last, gesturing toward a matching chair that sits beside him.Â
âI prefer to stand,â you say, remaining where you are as if rooted to the spot. He studies you for a long while, tracking the slow shift of your hips before returning, almost reluctantly, to your face.
âAs you wish.â
The silence that follows is unnervingâhe appears to have no desire to fill it and, as the seconds wear on, you begin to wonder if it is a test of some kind. For what, you cannot yet say. Perhaps heâs waiting to see if youâll begin, if youâll falter when you do, whether you have come as a messenger, an aunt, a spy, or something less easily named.Â
Finally, you can take it no longer.Â
âMy princeââ
His gaze lifts immediately to that, sharp and insistent.Â
âMy king,â you correct, internally berating yourself for giving him any sort of upper hand.Â
Aemond tilts his head slightly, satisfaction kept so tightly leashed that anyone else may not have noticed it at all. âYou found the word eventually.â
âI apologize,â you say, shifting your weight from foot to foot while you inhale shakily. âI amâI am finding many things difficult tonight.â
âI imagine you are,â he answers too quickly, too smoothly, like heâd already anticipated the conversation before you had even entered the room. Youâre reminded of the way heâd simply listened in the throne room the day before: patient and scrutinizing, allowing men space enough to reveal their hand.Â
âThe castle talks,â you try, though he gives you nothing in return.Â
âIt always has.â
âThis is differentââ
âNo,â he replies, leaning back in his chair as if he hasnât a care in the world. âThere are always whispers but it is merely the idle chatter of smallfolk, nothing more.â
âAegon is goneââÂ
âI am aware, yes.â
âThen you must also be aware of what that looks like,â you say, the words coming more sharply than you intend, âof what it implies.â
At that, his expression shifts by a fraction, cooling faintly as if youâd veered off of whatever script he has in his head. âIt looks like the realm is being governed in my brotherâs absence,â he mutters.â
âAemond, it looks like uncertaintyââ
âNecessity.â
âTo those inside these walls, perhaps,â you say, forcing yourself to remain calm despite the way your pulse hums beneath your skin. âBut outside? To the city? To any of Rhaenyraâs supporters waiting for any fracture that they might widen into a wound?â
He watches you for a long moment, the firelight throwing half of his face into shadow.Â
âYou sound like my mother,â he sighs, dismissive.Â
Your throat works as you swallow thickly, your hands tightening into fists at your sides before you catch yourself and will them to relax.Â
âI have spent many years away from this court and even I can still see it plainly,â you start, your voice low enough to draw his attention once more. âLet me speak the words everyone else here is too frightened to say.â
That gives him pause, you see it in the way a muscle jumps in his cheek, in the way his shoulders tense and his fingers tighten around the arm of his chair.Â
âThe servants speak. Soon the city will, then the realm. It will get back to Rhaenyra and she will use it as a weapon in her hand before you ever have the chance to drum up a counterattack,â you say quickly, not wanting to give him a chance to cut you off. âYou are not daft, Aemond. Surely you know this to be true.â
âThe city will believe whatever it is commanded to believe.â
âNo,â you shake your head, brows slightly raised. âIt will believe whatever best explains its fear, which is precisely why you cannot remain here.âÂ
The words hang between you before he gives a dry, humorless laugh. Disappointment flashes across his face, as if heâd hoped you had come for a reason other than to parrot his motherâs words at him.Â
âSo,â he sighs, nodding once to himself, âthis is why you came.â
âDaemon sits at Harrenhal gathering men beneath Rhaenyraâs banners while you remain behind these walls waiting for the war to arrive at your doorstep,â you press on, unwilling to surrender any ground you may have been granted. His eye follows you immediately, dropping only for a heartbeat before lifting again as though nothing had happened. âEvery day heâs left unchallenged, another river lord bends the knee and more men join his host.â
Aemondâs expression betrays nothing as you continue, though you donât miss the way his lips press together in annoyance.Â
âThis war hinges on the Riverlands,â you say, determined to get the words out. âYou know that as well as anyone.â
âAnd so my aunt would have me abandon my capital.â
âI would have you seize this initiative before it is too late.â
âAnd leave the city leaderless while my dearest brother remains missing?â His eye narrows, the corners of his lips twitching into an incredulous smirk.Â
âYou have a council,â you try. âAnd Prince Daeron, and your motherââ
âMy mother is a fool,â he interrupts, âa snake with two tongues, so poisoned by Rhaenyra that she cannot see Harrenhal for what it isâa trap.â
Inhaling a shuddered breath, you bite at your bottom lip, swallowing thickly.Â
âDaemon wants you to hesitate,â you counter, âby remaining here, youâre merely obliging him.â
For the first time since you entered, he doesnât appear to have anything to say in return. His lips tighten as he glances around the dim chambers, blinking while his chest rises and falls unsteadily. You think of Alicent in the gardens, hiding her bloodied cuticles beneath folded hands, of the grief in her voice. You think of Daeron deflating by inches beneath the weight of his brotherâs cool assessment.Â
You think of the boy after Driftmark, choking on the pain he would rather swallow than share.Â
He scoffs, the sound almost like a laugh, if there were any warmth to it. âYou have been in Oldtown too long, aunt,â he says sharply, âsurrounded by maesters that flatter themselves to believe that wars are won upon maps rather than by the men who fight them.â
âAnd you have been here too long if you believe this city would not fall were Rhaenyra forced to challenge you head on.â
He falters once more, glancing about the room for a split second before his expression hardens once more.
âI have Vhagar,â he starts with an easy confidence, shrugging his shoulders just slightly as if any counter to her mere presence means nothing at all, âand Tessarion, the city watch, scores of soldiersââ
âYou hear yourself, donât you?â You murmur before you can stop yourself, mouth shutting tightly as Aemond goes quiet, his stare cutting as he glares at you. Even as your pulse seems to falter in your chest, you cannot help but feel a small thrill shoot down your spine as irritation flashes plainly over his faceâthe first true sign of any weakness he may have left.Â
âYou think me ambitious,â he mutters after a tense moment, his voice slightly softer than it had been before.Â
âI think you are too intelligent not to understand how this ends.â
He huffs, annoyed, and shakes his head incredulously. The harshness youâd managed to strip away before climbs back into his angular features and when he speaks next, itâs with the same condescension one would use to scold a small child.Â
âAegon abandoned the throne, he fled,â he starts, each word slow and measured. âHe was never a man, not as he shouldâve been,â he continues, his voice carrying an edge sharp enough to cut. âHe remained a boy who drank too much and hid behind skirts because no one expected him to become anyone worth following.â
The more he speaks, the clearer you see why your sister fears him soâhis viciousness rarely begins with invention, each word carries a truth to it that heâs learned to observe and sharpen until it becomes useful to him.Â
âAnd you?â you ask, determined not to falter furtherâto see this through. âYouâre sure you want it?â
His eye narrows. âThe throne?â
âThe burden of it,â you murmur, tilting your head just slightly as you regard him. âThe very same that crushed your brother under its weight and led Viserys to become what little he became.â
For an instant, itâs as if the room tightens around the question, tensing like the air itself is waiting for a blow.Â
Aemond rises then, unhurriedly, as if heâs simply grown bored of sitting rather than because youâve struck anything near vulnerable. It strikes you once more how tall heâs become, formidable and fearsome enough to make good on the threats he utters. Whatever softness remained in him from childhood has been cleanly carved away, replaced with discipline and war.Â
âI want victory,â he answers, taking a few measured steps toward you.Â
âThatâs not what I asked.â
âNo,â he concedes, pursing his lips, âbut it is the only answer that matters.â
âOr itâs the answer men give when the truth is less flattering.â
His head tilts at that as he comes to a stop before you, hands clasped behind his back. The firelight dancing over his face makes the sapphire in his eye socket glimmer, beautiful and infinitely dangerous all at once.Â
âAnd what truth do you imagine youâve uncovered, aunt?â
A small voice in the back of your mind bids you to stopâanyone wiser most likely wouldâbut you tamp it down, throat working as you swallow against the nervous tightness at the back of it. Alicent had not sent you here to be wise, not entirely.Â
âYou deal in cruelty,â you start slowly, watching him as closely as he watches you, âbecause you are scaredâterrified of seeming weak.â
The silence that follows is immediate and absolute, like all the air has been pulled from the room.Â
âCareful,â he mutters lowly from between clenched teeth, the word venomous enough to have your hair standing on end.Â
âBut youâre not weak, you never were,â you press on, using the split second of surprise that crosses his face to step forward just enough to rest a hand lightly on his shoulder, ignoring the wanting shiver that moves through you at the contact. âYou have the makings of a great kingâa better king than Aegon couldâve been, you said as much yourself.â
His lips part, but no sound comes out. For a terrifying instant, he seems caught between pulling away entirely and giving in. Then his lilac eye darts to your lips, so quickly you wonder if you imagined it as your heart seizes in your chest.
The gesture strikes something buried deep in your memory of a boy scarcely older than eleven blushing scarlet when one of Aegonâs lordling friends had laughingly declared that he would make some maiden very happy one day. He had looked at you then with exactly the same startled intensity before fleeing from the room altogether.Â
âI know you, Aemond,â you say softly, pressing half a step closer. Your hand shifts, moving from his shoulder to his chest, feeling the steady rise and fall of his breathing beneath your fingertips.
âYou have been away half of my life, you cannotââ
His eye flickers downward, following the movement of your hand where it rests against his chest. Itâs such an ordinary thingâso quiet, so simpleâthat for one instant, you see him as he once was: no taller than your neckline, questioning you about whether it was better to be strong or kind. The illusion is gone almost as quickly as it comes, swallowed beneath the hard line of his jaw as his gaze meets yours once more.Â
âAnd still, I know you,â you murmur, victory within your sights, âI loved youââ
For the briefest of instances, he goes completely still before you. Every part of him seems to lock up, as if the words struck a part of his mind that cannot make sense of them. His lilac eye glistens, and your lungs tighten, andâ
His hand is around your throat, not crushing but firm enough to silence you.
âLoved me?â he echoes, his voice dangerously soft as he leans in close enough that you can feel his breath ghost over your lips. âIs this how you show it? By coming to whisper pretty words? By lecturing me about being some frightened boy?â His fingers tighten just slightly, enough to make your next inhale a struggle.
âTell me,â he growls, âdo I look like a boy to you now?â His thumb presses harder against the hollow of your throat, his eye blazing with something dangerously close to satisfaction as he studies the way your pulse flutters beneath his touch.Â
Your throat works beneath this palm as you eke out a feeble, half-formed whimper, your hands scrambling for purchase against his forearm. Knees weakening, you shake your head as much as his grip will allow, not daring to take your eyes off of his. A strange pins and needles feeling begins to grow beneath your skin as the edges of your vision blur, and then darken.Â
Blessedly, he loosens his grip just enough to allow you to suck in a lungful of airâgasping, heaving, and spluttering.Â
You had been so close only moments ago, you had seen the cracks in him. Perhaps, a small, desperate part of you thinks, if I give him thisâ
âI wasâI was merely trying to counsel youââ
The moment your feeble protests reach his ears, Aemondâs patience shatters. A derisive scoff escapes him as he drags you toward the chair heâd occupied earlier, his grip on your shoulder unrelenting. The chair groans faintly as he shoves you over its arm, your body bent at the waist beneath his hands while your breaths come in ragged, uneven gasps. Your fingers dig into the material of it as you brace yourself, nearly forced onto your tip-toes.Â
His voice, when he speaks, is a blade pressed to youâcold and unyielding.Â
âCounsel?â He sneers, leaning over you, his weight pinning you in place. âYou mistake your place, aunt. You are not my advisor, not my equal.â His hand finds the back of your neck, fingers tightening just enough to have you stilling beneath him. âI will not tolerate deception, no matter how prettily you dress it up.â
You pant, whining as the arm of the chair digs into your waist, though you donât dare move, even as your cheek is pressed against the seat cushion. You nearly jolt as he presses more firmly against you, eyes widening as the hard line of his arousal becomes more and more prominent.Â
âA-Aemond, please, justâjust stop and think,â you try, knowing well that thatâs a bygone notion. His hips move against you and, shamefully, a shiver rolls down your spineâa mixture of anxiety and something far more treacherous. âI wasnâtâwasnât trying toââ
âYou thought yourself clever, didnât you?â he murmurs, his free hand tracing the curve of your hip with mocking gentleness. âComing here to question me, to control me, as though I would simply bow my head and thank you for the wisdom.â His fingers dig more harshly into your skin, hard enough to bruise. âYou were wrong.â
Your cheeks flush somehow further with each word he utters, his touch like fire on your skin. Even as your head spins, you desperately try to think back to your reason for coming to him at allâAlicent, Daeron, the city itself.
âIâI shouldnât have pushed you,â you say, voice trembling. âI have never been yourâyour enemy, Aemond,â you pant, shaking your head as best you can as you attempt to look over your shoulder, to catch his gaze. âI only want whatâs bestââ
He lets out a low, dark chuckle as he presses a hand over your mouth, silencing any protests you have left. His fingers flex slightly, savoring the warmth of your lips beneath his palm, the way your breath hitches in surprise. He leans down, his voice a whisper against your ear, low with intent.Â
âYou still think of me as a child,â he says, his free hand bundling the silk of your gown against your skin as he drags your skirts higher and higher with a deliberate slowness, baring your skin to him. âAs though Iâm little more than some thoughtless brute, such as Aegon.â
Whimpering beneath his palm, it settles over youâfor the first time all eveningâhow woefully unprepared you were to come here, to face him.Â
You squeeze your eyes shut as your skin warms as a traitorous pang of desire rises within you when his palm trails up the back of your thigh, possessive and firm but laced with an impossible reverence that steals what little air remains in your lungs.Â
âThey gave you away to Oldtown,â he mutters so softly you wonder if he realizes heâs spoken at all, âwhen you shouldâve been mine.â
Settling on the curve of your backside, his fingers press against the soft flesh there and a satisfied hum escapes him as firelight catches the arousal between your thighsâproof that your body knows its place even if your tongue struggles to obey.Â
âAll that talk, and yet so quick to yield,â he murmurs, dragging his fingers through the slick heat of you, his voice dripping with cruel amusement. His fingers slide deeper, teasing at your entrance but not yet granting the sweet relief of filling youânot yet. âTell me, which part of you should I believe? Your sweet words, or your traitorous body?â
Your body seems to move of its own accord as you squirm, chasing the press of his fingers as much as your position will allow. A muffled whine spills from you as your walls spasm around nothing, instinct driving you.Â
He withdraws his hand abruptly, leaving you empty and shuddering, before replacing it with the one over your mouth, smearing your own wetness against your lips and cheeks.Â
âYou shame yourself for this, donât you?â he murmurs, shifting just enough to free his cock from his trousers, his length already hard and heavy against your thigh, making your skin prickle with apprehension. He groans as he drags his tip through your slick folds, teasing but not giving in quite yet. âHow long has it been since someoneâs had you properly, sweet aunt? Since youâve been reminded of your place?â
Panting, you press back against him as he taunts you, need threaded through each movement.Â
His palm presses harder against your lips as he pushes inside with a single, brutal thrust, filling you in one smooth motion. A sharp, satisfied exhale escapes him at the feel of youâtight, wet, his. His free hand rests at your hip, gripping tightly as he holds you in place.Â
âMmph!â you mewl, squirming as your feet falter against the stone floor, knees weakening at the stretch of him. Your vision blurs, eyes nearly rolling to the back of your head.Â
âThis is how you should beâhow you shouldâve always been,â he hisses, his voice rough with arousal and something darkerâsomething dangerously possessive. âBy my side, as my queenânot hidden away beneath duty.â He pulls back only to snap his hips forward again, forcing a choked gasp from behind his hand.
Nodding, something youâll tell yourself later was merely a bid to appease him, all you can do is claw at the cushions while he takes.
His pace is unforgiving, each thrust deeper than the last, each one punctuated by the quiet slap of skin against skin. He keeps his hand over your lips, reveling in the sound of your muffled cries, in the way your body clenches around him, in the way you yieldâfinally, finallyâto his will.Â
Aemondâs breath comes harsh and hot against your ear as he fucks into you, slowing his strokes to deliberate rolls of his hips while he savors you. His fingers dig into your hip, nails biting against your skin, marking you as his. The sound of your faint pleas only spurs him on, his voice coming as a dark whisper against your back.Â
âYou thought to counsel meâto command meâwhen all you truly wanted was this,â he growls, dragging his hand between your legs and moving the pad of his thumb over your clit in rough, punishing circles. His thrusts grow sharper, his cock dragging against your walls in a way that makes your thighs tremble. âTo be mine,â he grunts, âjust as you always shouldâve been.â
His free hand remains firm over your mouth, silencing any retort you might haveânot that you could form one, not with the way heâs moving against you, nor with the way pleasure coils tight and desperate in your belly.
âI will win this war for you,â he promises, teeth grazing the curve of your shoulder. âI will mount Daemonâs head on a spike and lay it at your feet, I will throw a feast in your honor, and you will never forget who it was that brought you victory.â His fingers press harder against your clit, his pace unrelenting. âAnd when itâs done, I will have you in the Sept as my bride,â he murmurs through rough pants. âI will right their wrongs, I swear it to you.â
One of your arms comes up and grabs tightly at his forearm, not to pull him away so much as desperately holding to him, trying to anchor yourself as your eyes squeeze shut. You have no doubt he means what he says, that every promise may as well be sealed with blood. That alone is enough to send a horrible thrill through you as you nod, your mewls silenced by his hand.Â
His hips grind against you, causing you to jolt in his hold as pleasure shoots down your spine like lightning. You nearly go limp in his grasp as you hurdle over the edge, sobbing beneath his palm as your release crashes into you like waves against the shore. Your cunt clamps around his length in a harsh rhythm, pulling a deep, satisfied groan from him.Â
He savors the way your body ripples against him, convulsing as he continues tormenting your sensitive bud with slow circles, drawing out your climax ruthlessly until youâre twitching beneath him, oversensitive and trembling.Â
âThere you are,â he pants, voice ragged with barely restrained need as he nips at your shoulder. He growls while he grinds against you, savoring the way your cunt milks him desperately. âYou have fought every battle the same way,â he breathes, thrusts growing erratic as his own release builds, âsurrendering inch byâGodsâby inch.â
Itâs only when he feels his climax cresting that he lifts his hand from your mouth, his fingers smeared with your spit. He pants as he buries himself to the hilt one last time, spilling inside you with a low, possessive snarl.Â
He holds you there for a long moment as he pants, his chest heaving against your back while the world slowly seems to right itself once more.Â
You slump against the chair as he straightens up with a sigh, pulling himself from you with a quiet groan. A shudder goes through you as a thin trickle of his spend slips down your inner thigh, warm against your skin while you try to steady the frantic rhythm of your heart, listening as he tucks himself back into his trousers.Â
Your joints protest as you rise, fingers trembling slightly while you take the time to smooth out the rumpled silk of your gown back into some sort of order. No amount of careful hands will erase the evidence of the night, nor the ache that settles deep within your bones. You can hear him moving about the space behind you, though you donât look toward him, not yet.Â
Instead, you busy yourself with fastening what can be fastened, with straightening out your hair and bodice, grateful for anything that delays whatever words must surely come next.Â
When, at last, you gather the courage to face him, you find him standing with one hand raised and resting lightly on the mantel, his back half turned to you. Firelight throws restless shadows over the sharp planes of his face as he stares into the embers, his expression foreign to you.Â
You open your mouth, though youâre not entirely sure what to say. How are you meant to return to the Riverlands or politics or Alicent or anything at all after that?
âI will go,â his words are so quiet that for one bewildered second, you wonder whether you imagined them. He doesnât turn to face you. âI will ride for Harrenhal.â
You simply stand there, your hand still resting against the fastening of your gown as you search his rigid profile for a clue as to what tipped the scale, only to find none. The silence stretches as you wait for him to speak further, perhaps of triumph or mockery, or another cruel lesson delivered in that same measured tone. You had imagined that, if he yielded at all, it would come only after another battle of words. That he would force you to defend every point, every strategy, every warning you had brought on Alicentâs behalf.Â
Instead, the words come almost carelessly, spoken into the dim quiet of the chambers as though heâd made the decision long before youâd even walked through the door.Â
âWhyââ
âIâll summon the council before dawn,â he continues, glancing toward you just enough for the fire to catch the sapphire in his eye.Â
The distance between the quiet, dutiful boy you had once known and the man standing before you now has never felt wider, nor more perilous.Â
Aemond inclines his head onceâa dismissal.Â
Nodding, you make your way toward the chamber door, unable to shake the cold chill of uncertainty that follows you.Â
You find your sister upon the western battlements just after dawn as the sun begins to rise over the waters of the bay, staining the sky in muted shades of lavender and gold. She hardly acknowledges your presence as you come to stand beside her and for several minutes, neither of you speaks.Â
Her hair drifts lazily about her shoulders with the breeze, while the skirt of your dressing gown stirs about your ankles.Â
âWhat did you say to him?â she asks eventually, her eyes never leaving the broad fields beyond the city walls.Â
You think back to the night before, back to the tense conversation that had transpired between you and your nephewâif you could even call it that. You think of his hands on your skin and of the fire dying low in the hearth, of his hand upon the mantel while he stared into the ashes, as if the answer had been waiting for him there all along.Â
âEnough, I suppose,â you answer quietly, your brows furrowed.Â
Alicent closes her eyes beside you, not bothering to question you further.Â
Movement begins to ripple across a distant field; at first, itâs difficult to distinguish one cluster of men from another. Soldiers scatter outward with practiced haste while dragonkeepers weave between them.Â
Then, she moves.Â
Vhagar rises slowly, so immense that, for one breathless moment, she resembles another hill unfolding itself from the landscape. Bronze scales catch the first rays of the sun, each ancient movement carrying the certainty of something that has outlived kingdom upon kingdom, and may outlive countless more.Â
Even from a distance, you imagine you can feel her weight settling through the ground beneath your feet.Â
Your chest lurches at the knowledge that heâs there, saddled to her great backâthe boy who once wandered after you through shadowy halls, who had once asked whether good men ever made good kings.Â
Vhagar spreads her wings, the first beats of them sending dust spiraling across the fields before she lifts from the earth and climbs steadily to the north, becoming smaller and smaller with each passing second.Â
Beside you, Alicent watches until they have become little more than a dark shape against the morning light. When she speaks, her voice is little more than a mote of dust carried in the wind.Â
âHave we done the right thing?â
The question hangs between you, unanswered, a nearly tangible thing.Â
How could you have done anything otherwise? If he had remained, the city may have burned, thousands may have perished. And, yet, as he goesâŠ
Your gaze follows the shrinking silhouette until even Vhagarâs impossibly large wings disappear into the pale morning haze, the rider on her back no more than a pinprick against the clouds.
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PAIRING:Â Jester!Jeonghan x Princess!Reader
SUMMARY:Â You've spent your entire life hiding behind the mask of a princess, forced to perform perfection at every moment. There is a single person who see's beyond your mask, but you see beyond his too - and you don't think the jester is as harmless as everyone thinks.
WC:Â 6,244
AU:Â Royalty, Implied Magical AU
GENRE: Smut
RATING:Â 18+ Minors are strictly prohibited from engaging in and reading this content. It contains explicit content and any minors discovered reading or engaging with this work will be blocked immediately.
WARNINGS: Mild mentions of what's proper/what's not in a royal society, reader being frustrated and having repressed feelings of desire and arousal, sexually explicit content featuring vaginal fingering, some mild dirty talk, mild biting, mild exhibitionism (hooking up where anyone could find them), the use of pet names (love / good girl), Jeonghan being a bit of a menace, some magical ambiguity at the end re: Jeonghan, he's kinda a weird lil guy in this I don't know how to explain it, he's implied to be dangerous but he doesn't do anything necessarily scary on paper.
A/N:Â This is for my milestone request for @gimmegoodname! And part 8348934 of Hali doesn't know how to keep to a reasonable request word count :) Thank you jesus for landing on Jester and Jeonghan - this actually is not at all what I originally intended to write but fuck it we ball because the other idea would have taken me aprox 40k words lmfao
AN 2: This is not beta read so Iâm sorry - there will definitely be mistakes! I did proof read/spelling and grammar check but I often miss a lot!
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ORANTE PARTIES ARE PERHAPS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE RESPONSIBILITY AS A PRINCESS.
The castle's grand ballroom has been transformed into a glittering display of excess, the crystal chandeliers reflecting torchlight and dappled shadows across polished marble floors, the heavy velvet drapery covering the walls in hues of crimson and midnight blue - all of it tailored to make the inside of the room feel like something from another world.
You hate every inch of it. You hate the weight of your gown and its scratchy material, you hate how you can feel the bone stitching of the corset digging into your ribs, you hate the brittle laughter and the clink of crystal goblets, the venomous whispers behind delicate gossamer fans. Most of all, you hate the way every eye in the room seems to track your every movement, measuring you, judging you, waiting for the perfect princess to make a single mistake so they can talk about it with practiced smiles.
A bard stands at the center of the hall, his fingers dancing over the strings of a lute as he sings a soulful ballad of lovers lost in the heat of one another, of stolen touches and a kind of passion you'll never understand. You wonder what it might be like to experience something like that, to be touched by someone who wants you so badly they risk everything, to have hands on your skin that aren't bound by protocol and propriety. To do something dangerous and sinful, to have someone hold you the way those lovers in the song held each other, with urgency and desire instead of duty.
You'll never be that, of course. You are forever bound to this kingdom where the entire world is your stage, where you must remain untouched and controlled, and you're constantly expected to perform.
You're not the only one performing tonight, of course. You're halfway through a painfully boring conversation with the Lord of Coin regarding taxes when a burst of laughter cuts through the murmur of the party. Your gaze drifts against your will toward the small crowd forming near the arched windows, and though you can't see the man at the center of their attention, you know he's there.
The court jester's voice drifts toward you, mischief wrapped in pretty velvet clothes and a silly hat. You'd seen him earlier tonight, dressed in his best midnight blue velvet doublet and matching pants, little crystals stitchy to the fabric to make it look like he's lost in a midnight sky. His eyes had been filled with particularly vicious mischief when they'd landed on you, but your father had whisked you away to greet the Lady of Harvest before the fiend could slink your way.
Jeonghan is a fiend. You are perhaps the only person at court who thinks behind the practiced smiles, card tricks and juggling that there's something far more dangerous, but you've never been able to convince anyone of it. And why should anyone agree with you? Jeonghan is favored among the court for his wit, rhymes and tricks, thrilling the men and charming the women as he slides through each party like smoke, taking the shape of whatever his audience desires most.
A fresh wave of laughter erupts from his audience, brighter and more genuine than anything else youâve heard tonight. It makes your skin itch and you turn away from the crowd, focusing back on the conversation at hand and determined not to let Jeonghan ruin your night like he does at most parties, determined to vex you and make you feel affronted and flushed and-
No.Â
You shove him from your mind as the conversation drags on while you sip spiced wine from your glass. As the Lord of Coin talks, you wonder what it would be like to leave this room. To go get somewhere lost in the city below. To fall into the bed of someone who would touch you like the lovers in the bardâs song, someone who smells like sandalwood and smoke and whose smile is sharp and familiar.
For now, you stay put and keep your eyes on the lord in front of you, ignoring the growing laughter coming from Jeonghan's corner. You hate that he enthralls them so - hate that even though youâre suspicious of him, he charms you in his own way, worming into your thoughts on lonely days, leading your mind astray to wonder how it is he does those tricks of his.
Your father appears suddenly, the Lord of Coin fumbling over whatever he was saying about inflation as the king puts a hand on your shoulder, grinning jovially. "Lord Hastings, forgive me, but I'm here to steal my daughter and spoil her with the fun part of the night!"
"Of course, Your Majesty!" Lord Hasting bows. "Thank you for the conversation, Your Highness."
"The gratitude is all mine, Lord Hastings," you nod, letting your father spin you away as dread knots in your stomach.
The crowd near the arched windows opens up as you approach, the members of the court bowing as you and your father approach the entertainment. Torchlight flickers on their faces, showing how flushed with delight they are as they watch the spectacle in front of them. Jeonghan stands in the middle of the, his midnight doublet fitting him perfectly as the crystals sparkle with his every movement.
Though the jester hat might look silly on anyone else, Jeonghan makes it look fashionable. His long, dark hair frames his angelic face, all sharp cheekbones and carefully sloped nose. His dark eyes find yours immediately, flashing as he grins. Your heart skips a little but you remain uneffected, staring at him as he juggles three daggers for the crowd as they ooo and ahhh at him.
You watch as the blades flash in the torchlight, each one caught cleanly while people gasp and clap. A lady nearby giggles behind her fan just as Jeonghan makes the daggers disappear into his sleeves with a quick motion. The crowd claps as he grins and bows politely, his dark eyes finding you again.
Irritation simmers, your gaze locking onto his and holding it. While everyone seems impressed, your instincts scream danger, wolf in foolâs clothing. The corner of his mouth tilts upwards as he steps toward you, the smell of his sandalwood and smoke clinging to him.
"Your Highness," he greets smoothly. "You look bored. Let me change that."
You say nothing but your father claps, his laughter booming as Jeonghan starts his performance. Cards fly from his hands in quick patterns and your attention is drawn upward as they flit through the air. He dances away from you and leans toward Lord Jeon, plucking a card from behind his ear before flicking his hand and turning it into a coin. The crowd laughs and claps as you stand there stiffly, watching as he charms his way through the nobles until he comes back toward you.
Jeonghan stops in front of you and holds out his hand, bowing slightly at the waist. The crystals on his double clink together as you stare at him, your stomach twisting when he looks up at you through his dark, silky lashes. To anyone else, the look might be reverent, but you see it for what it is - hunger.Â
"For the best trick tonight, I need a volunteer," he murmurs. The crowd claps excitedly and when you glance at your father, the king urges you forward, excited. âYour Highness, would you do me the honor?â
Swallowing thickly, you place your hand in Jeonghan's. His skin is warm, sending a spark of heat up your arm as he guides you toward the center of the circle where he spins you in a twirl, the skirts of your dress flaring. The lords and ladies clap, delighted and shouting how beautiful you look, how wonderful their princess is. Jeonghanâs touch lingers a moment longer than necessary before he grins and lets go, eyes glued to you as he circles you like a wolf might its prey.
When he stops, he leans close enough that you can see the silver threading in his collar and the way his sleeves are tailored to allow free movement, probably full of pockets for all of his cards and daggers and other baubles he uses for his performances. He's close enough that the sandalwood and spice makes your lashes flutter, making you think of something dark - not at all the cheery jester he claims to be.
"Try not to look so afraid," he murmurs, low enough that only you can hear him. "The court might think you're afraid of a simple card trick."
"I'm not afraid," you snap.
"No? Then why is your pulse racing?"
You grimace. Ever the observationalist, seeing far more than anyone ever dares to give him credit for.
"Do your trick, jester," you growl.
Jeonghan grins as he produces a deck of cards from one of his sleeves, fanning them out again. "Choose any card but don't show me, love."
Ignoring the casual way he uses a pet name entirely unfit for his station, you select a card from the middle of the deck and when you flip it, you see the seven of swords. You angle it away from him, eyes darting between him and the card. His eyes watch you closely, the heat of them making you fight off a shiver.
"Show the crowd, I'll look away. Cross my heart and hope to die."
You roll your eyes when he turns his back to you. The crowd leans in as you flip the card, showcasing the front to them all. They all nod excitedly, tittering behind hands and fans until you flip the card back around, holding it close to your chest and away from Jeonghan.
"Good," he says when he turns back around, tucking the deck away in one of his sleeves. "Put the card against your palm, card face down."
You follow his instructions, holding your palm out with the card face down to conceal the seven of swords. Jeonghan reaches for your hand, his fingers warm as he presses his palm on top of yours, the card firmly kept between both of your hands. You hate the way your skin responds to the contact, the way the sudden awareness of him prickles up your arm.
"Do you trust me?" he murmurs.
"Hardly."
"Clever." He guides your pressed palms upward so that you're both holding the card between you, each of your hands pressing forward with equal force. "Good girl. Keep your hand steady."
A snarl works its way to your lips at the pet name, but before you can snap at him for the impropriety, Jeonghan shuffles closer and the crowd goes quiet. You realize how far away they seem, the sound dull like it's on the other side of a bubble. Jeonghan is close though - so close you have to tilt your chin up to look up at him, his eyes glittering as they watch you.
"You're quite good at playing a dutiful princess," he notes.
"You know nothing about me."
"Don't I?" His eyes search yours, and there's something sharp in his gaze, something that cuts through the fool's mask he wears. "I know you watch everything. I know you see more than you let on. I know you're the only person in this room who looks at me and wonders what I'm really doing here."
Your heart pounds harder, the rhythm so forceful you're certain he can see it in the pulse at your throat. He's far too close and far too observant for a mere jester. The air between your palms feels charged, almost electric, and you're acutely aware of every inch of space he occupies. You want to step back, to put distance between you and whatever game he's playing, but the crowd is watching and so is the king. So you look onward, staring at him as he smirks.
"Breathe," Jeonghan says, softer now, and there's something almost gentle in his tone that makes it worse somehow. "You're holding your breath, love."
âStop calling me that.â
"Nervous?"
You glare. "No."
His grin widens a fraction. "Liar."
The word hangs between you, intimate and dangerous. No one else speaks to you like this. No one else would dare, but Jeonghan isn't like the others at court. He refuses to be cowed by your title and your cold shoulder, protected by the silly little performance he puts on, convincing others that he's a fool. It gives him a freedom that feels threatening, and you're the only one who seems to notice.
The hand that isn't pressed against yours moves, tracing a slow circle in the air around where your palms are joined. The movement is hypnotic, and you find yourself following the movement, watching as he repeats the motion a few times. For a moment, you feel a little hazy, eyes fluttering as your thoughts grow foggy. Then, your mind sharpens again, Jeonghanâs intense gaze coming into focus.Â
"Picture your card," he instructs, loud enough for the crowd to hear. "Imagine exactly what it looks like - the edges, the images. The way it's shaped. The colors used, the details of the card face."
You think of the seven of swords, trying to focus on the image of it, trying to use it as an anchor against the way your pulse races. It's difficult to do so with the warmth radiating from his palm and the way his breath stirs the air between you. He's close enough that you can count every one of his eyelashes and see the way his dark eyes catch the light from the chandeliers overhead.
As you try and picture the curling red numbers on the card and blue paint of the swords, you let your eyes flit over his sleeves. His hands. His pockets. You try to work out what exactly the charade is, ready to catch him in his trickery. You always try, and you always fail, never quite able to pin down the source of the performance.
"You're thinking about the card," he says, dropping his voice again so only you can hear. "But you're also thinking about how I'm doing this. Trying to work it out. Trying to catch me." You don't answer, feeling the heat hit your chest and cheeks as you flush under being caught. Jeonghan smirks, nodding. "You also donât like being caught. Are you afraid of what I'll see when I look at you?"
"You see nothing, jester."
"Untrue." He tilts his head slightly, studying you with an intensity that makes your skin prickle. "I see someone who's hungry to be wanted. Someone who wants to be touched like those lovers in the ballad the bard was singing, with heat and urgency and desperate desire. Someone who wishes there was a person bold enough to touch her the way a princess is never supposed to be touched. To want her not because of the crown but despite it." His eyes glint with something darker. "And I see someone who looks at me and knows exactly what I am. A wolf in foolâs clothing, right?â
You want to deny it, but the words stick in your throat. You hate that Jeonghan is right and that he sees through you as easily as you see through him. There's a part of you that's always craved this kind of understanding, someone who could look past the crown and what lies beneath, but not like this. Not from him.
Being known by Jeonghan feels like standing naked before a predator, and the worst part is that you're not entirely certain you want to cover yourself. Your chest tightens with the contradiction of it, the simultaneous ache to be truly seen and the primal need to hide from his gaze.Â
"Now," Jeonghan says, and his voice drops again, intimate and teasing. "I'm going to find your card without ever touching the deck again. Without you saying a word." He leans in, just slightly, and you can feel the whisper of his breath against your temple, warm and deliberate. Your skin tingles where it touches. "Would you like to know how?"
You can't answer. Your throat has gone tight, and you're frozen there, caught between the urge to pull away and the strange, unwanted pull that keeps you rooted in place.
"I'm going to read your mind," he murmurs, and his lips are so close to your ear now that you feel each word as much as hear it. "I'm going to look into those careful, guarded eyes and see exactly what else you're hiding."
Your hands are shaking now, both of them, and you know he can see it. The crowd can probably see it too, but they likely think it's part of the act, part of the performance. They don't know that your heart is hammering so hard it hurts, that every nerve in your body is screaming at you to move, to step back, to break whatever spell he's weaving.
"It's the seven of swords," Jeonghan says, and his voice is soft enough to raise the hair on your arms.
Your eyes widen before you can stop yourself, before you can school your expression into something more controlled. The reaction is instinctive, damning, and you see the exact moment he registers it. See the satisfaction that flickers across his face.
"There it is," he murmurs, so quietly that you almost don't hear it over the blood rushing in your ears. "That's what I wanted to see."
Suddenly he steps back, and the loss of his proximity should be a relief but instead feels like an absence. His hand that was mirroring yours drops away to reveal that the card that was pressed between your palms is no longer there. You frown, mouth falling open slightly as he reaches toward your face. You go still as his fingers brush the edge of your jaw, feather-light and deliberate. It's barely contact at all, the barest whisper of his fingertips against you, but you feel it everywhere.
When he pulls his hand away, he's holding a card between two fingers, flicking it to show you the seven of swords. The crowd erupts in applause and delighted exclamations, the sound washing over you while you stare at him. You want to know how he did it, to know what you missed. Had his whispers distracted you from when he placed it there? Was it a trick of the light?
"Your Highness," Jeonghan says, and his voice is pitched for the crowd now, all performance and charm. He bows deeply, flourishing the card. "Thank you for your assistance."
When his eyes meet yours again, they tell a different story. They say he knows exactly what effect he's had on you. That he planned it, wanted it, enjoyed watching you unravel. It makes you step back, putting necessary distance between you as your heart hammers, your pulse deceiving you.
You excuse yourself as soon as the opportunity presents itself, your father turning to another lord as he laughs about something and the crowd pressing around Jeonghan, cutting him off from you. No one notices when you slip away from the gathered nobles, picking up the skirts of your dress as you rush for the exit, skin overheating.
Cool night air washes over you as you step into the gardens and away from all the noise and eyes. The sound of the ballroom has long since faded behind you, replaced by the gentle rustle of leaves and the soft trickle of water from the fountain somewhere deeper in the garden. You inhale deeply, letting the scent of roses and night-blooming jasmine fill your lungs, trying to steady the frantic beating of your heart.
The gardens are empty. Everyone is inside, drinking and dancing and watching Jeonghan perform his tricks. Out here, there's only moonlight filtering through the branches overhead, casting everything in silver and shadow. The paths wind between tall hedges and rose bushes, their blooms pale in the darkness. Your footsteps are quiet on the stone walkway as you move deeper into the maze, away from the ballroom, away from the noise and the eyes and the suffocating weight of your crown.
You walk without direction, letting your feet carry you past marble statues and flowering vines that climb the garden walls. The moonlight catches on the petals of white roses, making them glow like ghosts. Everything is still and quiet, peaceful in a way the ballroom could never be.
Out here, you can think. Out here, you can try to make sense of what just happened.
Except you can't make sense of it. Can't explain why Jeonghan's proximity affected you so deeply, why his whispered words felt like they were carving themselves into your skin, why the loss of his touch left you aching in ways you don't want to examine. You barely know him. You don't trust him. And yet-
"Running away, Your Highness?"
You spin around, heart leaping into your throat to see Jeonghan standing in the middle of the path behind you as though he's materialized from the shadows themselves. His little hat is nowhere to be found, dressed only in the velvet outfit with crystals glittering like stars. The moonlight above catches in his dark hair, turning it silver at the edges. His eyes gleam, and you become hyperaware of the unnatural quiet of his presence.
"I needed air," you say, trying to keep your voice steady.
"Mm." Jeonghan takes a step closer, his movements fluid and unhurried. "Or you needed to escape me."
You don't answer - can't answer, because he's right and you both know it. He moves closer still, slow and deliberate, and you suddenly feel like he's a wolf giving the sheep time to run if it wanted to. You don't run, your feet planted to the stone path even as your pulse hammers in your throat, even as every instinct screams that you should walk away.
"You know," Jeonghan says conversationally, stopping just within arm's reach, "most people can't wait to be near me. They laugh at my jokes, beg for my tricks, hang on my every word." His head tilts slightly, studying you. "But you? You look at me like I'm something dangerous."
"You are dangerous," you say before you can stop yourself. âEven if I canât prove it.â
His smile is slow and devastating. "Yes. I am."
The admission should frighten you. Instead, it sends heat curling through your belly, making your breath catch in your chest. He's standing close enough now that you can see the way the moonlight plays across his features. He's beautiful, with a sharp jawline and elegant nose, the curve of his mouth full and dangerous, the kind of beauty that bards say is dangerous, luring people into the spiderâs web.
"But that's not why you ran," Jeonghan continues.
"It's not?"
He shakes his head. "You ran because of what I said in there. Because I saw through you, and you didn't like it."
"You don't know anything about me."
He takes another step, and now he's close enough that you can feel the warmth radiating from him, can see the way his gaze travels deliberately over your face, your throat, the rapid rise and fall of your chest.
"I already proved that isn't true, love."
Your breath catches. Heat floods your cheeks, your chest, spreading through your entire body. "You're far too presumptuous and entirely impromper."
"I'm observant."His eyes meet yours, and there's something raw in them now, something that makes your stomach flip. "And I know you felt it too. In the ballroom, when I was close to you. The way your breath changed. The way you leaned toward me even as you tried to pull away. The way you're looking at me right now, like you can't decide if you want to run or-"
"Or what, jester?" You demand, huffing. "If you know me so well, just say it."
Jeonghan's smile turns predatory. "Or if you want to stay right here and let me show you what you desire, no matter how improper it is."
Your heart is pounding so hard you're certain he can hear it. "You wouldn't dare."
"Wouldn't I?" He takes one more step, closing the distance until you can feel his breath against your lips, until you're backed against the rough bark of a tree you didn't realize was behind you. "I'm not afraid of your crown, love. I'm not afraid of what anyone would say or do. I'm not afraid of you."
The words send a thrill down your spine that you absolutely should not feel. His hand comes up, not touching you but hovering just beside your face, close enough that you can feel the heat of his palm against your cheek. You grit your teeth, refusing to lean into the hand the way you want to, refusing to give him the satisfaction again tonight.
"Why risk it, then?" You ask. "Only a fool would."
"I am a fool," he agrees. "Let me show you how foolish I am. Let me show you what it's like to be touched and desired. Let me show you what I've wanted to do since the moment I've met you and how I want to make you come undone. Let me make you lose all that polished control you loathe so much."
You should say no. Should push him away. Should remember every reason this is a terrible idea. But your body isn't listening to your mind, and you find yourself leaning toward him, drawing by the magnetic pull you've been fighting all evening.
"What do you say," he asks, hand coming to cradle your face and tilt it upward until you're looking at him with half-lidded eyes. "Do you want your desires answered?"
You lick your lips and his eyes track the movement, pupils expanding. Swallowing dryly, you give the shallowest nod, damning yourself to desire, to the feeling of being wanted and seen.
It's all he needs. Jeonghan's eyes darken, and then his mouth is on yours and the world narrows to just the heat of his lips, the press of his body as he crowds you back against the tree, the rough bark catching on the fabric of your gown. He kisses you like he's starving for it, deep and demanding, his tongue sliding against yours in a way that makes your knees weak.
You gasp into his mouth and he swallows the sound, one hand tangling in your hair while the other grips your hip hard enough to bruise. The kiss is nothing like you imagined. It's not gentle or reverent or careful, but instead itâs consuming, devastating, the kind of kiss that you never knew existed.
He tastes like wine and something darker, something that makes you want more even as your lungs burn for air. His teeth catch your lower lip and you whimper, your hands coming up to clutch at his shoulders, feeling the lean muscle beneath the fabric of his costume.
"I've wanted this for so long," Jeonghan murmurs against your mouth, then trails his lips down your jaw to your throat. "Wanted you. Do you know how difficult it was to keep my hands to myself during that trick? To stand so close and not touch you the way I really wanted to?"
His teeth graze your pulse point and you can't stop the sound that escapes you, half gasp, half moan. He makes a satisfied noise low in his throat, then his hand slides from your hip to your thigh, gathering the heavy fabric of your gown and pulling it up as you pant against the tree, your head digging into the bark.
"Tell me to stop," he says, but his fingers are already tracing the inside of your thigh, moving higher. "Tell me you don't want this. Tell me all my chasing and teasing and prodding is for nothing and that I should leave."
âI canât.â
"Fuck," Jeonghan breathes against your throat, and the crude word from his elegant mouth sends another wave of heat through you.
His fingers find the edge of your undergarments and he pulls them aside with deliberate slowness, exposing you to the cool night air. When his fingers press against you directly, finding you already slick, you bite down on your lip to keep from crying out. The gardens are secluded and shadowed, but not so far from the ballroom that sound wouldn't carry.
"Don't," Jeonghan says, his free hand coming up to pull your lip from between your teeth. "I want to hear you. Want to know exactly what I'm doing to you. Want to hear every sound you make when I touch you like this."
His fingers slip between your slick folds and you do cry out then, unable to stop yourself. Your hands tighten on his shoulders, nails digging in through the fabric of his costume, and he groans like your pleasure is his own. You feel a shiver go through him and you realize heâs just as affected by you as you are by him and it makes the heat even worse, the knowledge that he wants you this badly turning your blood to fire.
"So wet," he murmurs, his fingers sliding through your folds, exploring you with maddening slowness. "So perfect. Is this what you were thinking about during the bard's song? Someone touching you like this? Making you fall apart?"
You can't answer. Can't form words. All you can do is gasp as his fingers circle your clit with devastating precision, sending sparks of pleasure shooting through your entire body. Your legs turn molten and Jeonghan pins you against the tree with his hips, sliding one of his knees between your legs to keep you pried open for his hand.Â
"Answer me," Jeonghan demands. "Tell me what you were thinking about."
"Yes," you manage, the word coming out broken. "Yes, I was thinking about being touched."
His fingers press harder, moving in tight circles that make your vision blur. His fingers slide lower, teasing your entrance, and you can feel how wet you are, your entrance clenching around nothing as his fingers trace laze circles where you need him most, your hips twitching.
"I'm going to give you exactly what you want," he promises. "Going to make you come so hard you see stars.
He slides one finger inside you and you cry out, your back arching off the tree. He's watching your face with an intensity that should make you self-conscious, but you're too far gone to care, too lost in the sensation of his finger moving inside you, curling just right, finding spots that make you shake.
It feels so good - better than you imagined, even. Jeonghan is precise, leaning forward to leave bite marks and kitten licks up and down your neck as he works you slowly, finger pressing against your front wall in a way that sends you squirming against him. Your breath comes out in short, quick gasps, sweat gathering at the back of your neck as he fucks you with his finger, the wet press of his hand maddening.
"Look at you," Jeonghan murmurs, his voice rough with desire. "So beautiful like this. So desperate. I want to see you fall apart. Want to see your face when you come."
He adds a second finger and you whimper, your hands sliding from his shoulders to grip his arms, needing something to hold onto. The stretch is perfect, overwhelming, and when he curls his fingers inside you while his thumb finds your clit, you nearly sob, rolling your hips forward into his hand, thighs trembling as you clench down on his fingers.
"You're so tight," Jeonghan continues, his voice a dark purr in your ear. "So perfect around my fingers. I can feel how close you are. Can feel you clenching around me. Do you want to come, love? Do you want me to make you fall apart right here in the garden where anyone could find us?"
The thought should horrify you. Instead, it sends another wave of heat through you, making you clench harder around his fingers. You nod desperately, squeezing your eyes shut as your cunt throbs around his fingers and you writhe against the tree.Â
"You like that," he says, and you can hear the smile in his voice. "Like the danger of it. Like knowing that you're supposed to be in there playing princess while you're out here letting the court jester play with this pretty pussy."
His words are filthy and crude, and they shouldn't affect you the way they do, but combined with the movement of his fingers, the pressure of his thumb on your clit, the heat of his body pressed against yours, you feel overwhelmed and strung out, the feeling low in your stomach coiling and coiling and coiling until you're babbling and squirming and squeezing your eyes shut.
"Please," you gasp, and you're not even sure what you're begging for.
"I know what you need." His fingers move faster, harder, curling inside you with devastating precision. "You need to let go. Need to stop thinking and just feel. Need someone to take control so you don't have to be perfect for once in your life."
His thumb presses harder against your clit, circling in tight, relentless patterns, and you can feel the pleasure building to an impossible peak. Your thighs are shaking, your breath coming in desperate gasps. Jeonghan invades your senses - the smell of him, the heat of him, the way his teeth scrape against your neck, the way his hair tickles against your skin.
"You're mine right now," Jeonghan growls. "Not a princess. Not a performance. Just mine. Say it."
"Yours," you gasp. "I'm yours."
"Good girl. Now come for me. Let me feel it. Let me watch you fall apart."
His fingers curl one more time, hitting that perfect spot inside you while his thumb works your clit, and the orgasm crashes over you like a wave. You cry out, unable to stop yourself, your body convulsing against the tree as pleasure floods through you. You clench around his hand, throbbing as your body shakes until you feel like you can't breathe.
Jeonghan works you through it, his fingers never stopping, drawing out your orgasm until you're boneless and gasping and oversensitive. He's murmuring praise in your ear now - how beautiful you are, how perfect, how he wants to do this again and again until you can't remember your own name - and it makes you dizzy, feeling like you're drunk off of him alone.
Finally, the waves subside and Jeonghan withdraws his hand slowly. You feel the loss of him like an ache, your legs still trembling and barely holding you up. He brings his fingers to his mouth, and you watch through hazy eyes as he licks them clean, tasting you. The sight sends another pulse of heat through you despite your exhaustion.
"Delicious," he murmurs, his eyes dark and satisfied. "Even better than I imagined."
Reality begins to seep back in slowly. The cool night air on your heated skin. The distant sounds of the party still going on inside. The rough bark of the tree against your back. What you've just done, and who you've done it with.
You should feel ashamed. Should feel horrified. Should be scrambling to fix your dress and run back to the safety of the ballroom. You don't. You feel satisfied and boneless and strangely alive all at once, like you've finally done something that feels real instead of the pretty performance.
When you look up at Jeonghan, you see him watching you, his expression unreadable in the shadow of the tree. The breeze makes the leaves dance, kissing your cooling skin as his hand comes up to cup your face, thumb brushing across your cheek with surprising gentleness.
"Regrets?" He asks, voices soft as the smoke that clings to him.
You should say yes and that this was a mistake, that it can never happen again and that you need to return to the ballroom and pretend this never happened. You should remind him that this is improper and unacceptable. Yet instead, you find yourself leaning into his touch, lashes fluttering.
"No," you admit. "No regrets."
Something like satisfaction shifts in his gaze, and he leans in and kisses you again. This time it's different - softer and slower, less consuming and more like he's savoring the taste and feel of your lips against his. You kiss him back, your hands sliding up his chest, feeling the crystals click against your skin as his heart pounds beneath your palms.
When he finally pulls back, you're both breathing hard again, and your mind is spinning with questions you're not sure you want answered.
"How did you do it?" you ask suddenly.
Jeonghan tilts his head, a small smile playing at his lips. "Do what?"
"The card trick. In the ballroom."
His smile widens, and there's something dangerous in it now."I already told you. I read your mind."
You shake your head, confusion and disbelief warring inside you. "That would make you something magical. Not just a jester with clever tricks."
"Yes," Jeonghan agrees, his eyes gleaming in the moonlight. "It would."
The implication of his words hits you like a physical blow. Your breath catches, your mind racing through everything you know about him, everything you've seen, the way he seems to move through the world like something other. Like something more.
He's grinning now, watching the realization dawn across your face, and then he's kissing you again, harder this time, more possessive, like he's claiming you. Like he knows exactly what he's revealed and doesn't care. When he pulls back, his lips are still close enough that you can feel his breath against your mouth.
"You thought it yourself earlier, didnât you?" he murmurs, teeth catching your bottom lip sharply. "I'm a wolf in fools' clothing."
note: didn't realise how v8 crazy i went this month lol anyway, here's what i loooved reading, enjoy! :3 18+ only, mdni!
choi seungcheol
longing, rusted [m] by @hansiris
summary: seungcheol as the winter soilder, returning to the woman he loves after so much time spent under...
read here!
yoon jeonghan
jealous [m] by @milk-moonbunnies
summary: a very jealous and possessive jeonghan reminds you who makes you feel good. (this is an all time favourite and i lost the link a month ago but wooosh itâs back đ§ââïž)
read here!
mirror, mirror [m] by @cheolism-archive
summary: jeonghan asks to roleplay being jealous so he can show you how jealous he can get...
read here!
need you [m] by @1-800-hwahui
summary: dom yjh drabble...just really dirty smut ngl
read here!
red sign [m] by @thedensworld
summary: you need someone to marry you â your livelihood depends on it. but jeonghan can't bare the thought of you being anyone elses.
read here!
room for interpretation by @seungkwansphd
summary: you started as rivals. breathing down each others necks â jeonghan under your skin so badly that you signed a lawfully binding marriage contingency contract. however, time moves on and suddenly your college nemesis is in the office next doorâŠÂ
read here!
ruin my life [m] by @ts19009
summary: enemies to lovers with prince jeonghan, the impulsive and cocky soon-to-be king. (i love this fic so much suuuch game of thrones vibes)
read here!
hong joshua
still warm by @hanniejoo
summary: a busy joshua has to figure his way through upset he causes you. angsty and so mature this fic really pulled on my heart stringsÂ
read here!
royally, screwed [m] by @husbandhoshi
summary: joshua and you are thrusted into an arranged marriage for the sake of your kingdoms...one problem, you can't stand each other...
read here!
wen junhui
deadlock [m] by @sailorsoons
summary: wen junhui, your gorgeous intelligent husband and you have both been living secret lives â spies for agencies that are sworn enemies. however, when heâs sent to assassinate you his love stops him pulling the trigger.Â
read here!
kwon soonyoung
none yet!
jeon wonwoo
none yet!
lee jihoon
patience, love by @forsvtjihoonie
summary: jihoon drabble bc he's so hot with glasses
read here!
xu minghao
diamond life [m] by @haologram
summary: model minghao is throwing the first pitch and you're pitching...if only you were strangers
read here!
kiss from a rose by @orbitondgtl
summary: hurt & comfort about the flower shop minghao regularly visits and how it saved your relationship
read here!
muddled hearts [m] by @haologram
summary: this is a slooooow burn that is just absolutely delicious i was kicking my legs and giggling at minghao. âi donât have a crush on her. im in love with herâ StfuuuuÂ
read here!
rain room [m] by @sailorsoons
summary: during a long hot day at your job in the water park, you stumble into the rain room, ran by a shy and quiet man.
read here!
kim mingyu
don't forget you love me by @orbitondgtl
summary: f1 driver mingyu and you, his long term girlfriend, are drifting apart...and something needs to happen
read here!
hard carry by @studioeisa
summary: soulmate au where mingyu stubbornly helps you out with your degree through your bond...
read here!
the weight of his crown [m] by @ts19009
summary: mingyu, the prince of the north is forced to travel south to compete for you, the princess of hespros' hand. a cold and stoic man, you warm him up from within, even without him realising... one of my favourites so far this year!
read here!
lee seokmin
none yet!
boo seungkwan
none yet!
chwe hansol
bambi eyes [m] by @vernonverse
summary: PLUG HANSOL!!!! SLOW BURN!!!! AHHHHH
read here!
hard times by @hansiris
summary: hansol as spiderman...need i say more??
read here!
spit kink by @extra-gray
summary: yeah...what the title says
read here!
the cat-parent trap by @bluehoodiewoozi
summary: cat dad hansol cant find his cats, but youâve got a new cuddle buddy.
read here!
vice;grip [m] by @daechwitas
summary: you and fuck buddy hansol only exist in the dead of night. for years, you existed in dark spaces, feelings kept in the shadows â but theyâll come spilling out eventuallyâŠanother one of my favs
read here!
you, again by @808luvrr
summary: you and hansol keep bumping into each other in the middle of the night...yet you think of each other all day
SYNOPSIS. In the year 2197, Xu Minghao works as a government shadow operative, hired to hunt down political dissidents. After surviving a catastrophic accident that should have ended his life, his body had been rewired to become nothing more than a living weapon solely engineered for one purpose: obedience. You live a different kind of double life. By day, a reclusive digital artist curating an elite art gallery; by night, a ghost hacker where you siphon power and secrets from the cityâs corrupt core. But when your latest hack uncovers an unsettling truth, a target is painted on your backâand Minghao is assigned to terminate you.
PAIRING. shadow operative!xu minghao x ghost hacker!fem!reader
GENRE. cyberpunk au, futuristic au, angst, smut (minors dni đ), fluff, hurt/comfort, enemies to lovers
WARNINGS (FOR TEASER). violence (murder, blood, gore, etc), minghao killing someone (yummy), body modifications/cybernetic enhancements
WARNINGS (FOR FULL FIC). explicit sexual content, cursing, drinking/drugs, violence (murder, blood, gore, etc), âimpliedâ death, body modifications/cybernetic enhancements, government corruption, morally grey characters, brainwashing/memory manipulation, human experimentation
WORD COUNT (FOR TEASER). 1.3k
WORD COUNT (FOR FULL FIC). tbd, but hopefully 15k+
notes: hello :3 i hope u all enjoy this lil teaser hehe <3 this is for the @studiosvt cyberpunk: reload collab! tbh i have NO idea how long this will be, but this was def a genre i've been excited (and nervous) to dive into and i am honoured i got to write for minghao hehe
SECTOR TWO â THE VEIL DISTRICTS
The rain showering down from the night sky hisses against the alloy skin of the city.Â
Xu Minghao finds himself standing on the narrow maintenance ledge of a building sitting right across from the 47th floor of the Helix Tower, the tips of his combat boots hovering just over the edge as the wind snaps at the tails of his black trench coat. Right below his feet, the neon arteries of the city bleed through the thick layers of dense, permanent fog and rain.Â
Tonightâs target is a man named Arthur Kim. Age forty-three, married, with two daughtersđassigned to be executed under the orders of the Dominion for illegally accessing financial streams and attempting to sell them to some brokers located in the Undercity. A fatal error that costed him his entire life, and Minghao was sent to deliver the act within a termination window of two hours.
Minghao didnât need all that time.Â
In due time, the ocular implant in his eye pings, immediately locking onto the targetâs heat signature through the reinforced glass and walls. Minghao narrows his gaze, heat mapping across his vision, following the manâs dull amber silhouette frantically pacing inside of his dimly lit and expensive apartment, as if already knowing whatâs about to come.
A forty metre gap separates the two buildings. Minghao steps into the void without any hesitation. The wind roars past him as he launches himself off the ledge, his coat flaring out like wings. Twin magnetic grapples fire out from the wrist of his right bionic arm with a sharp hiss, cables flying across the chasm until they latch onto the Helix Towerâs exterior frame.Â
At the apex of the launch, he releases the grapples and twists his body into a controlled dive towards the window. The second he makes contact, reinforced glass explodes inward as his boots smashes cleanly through Arthur Kimâs window, causing shards to rain across the carpet floor like confetti.Â
The man in question spins around too late, eyes blown wide with utter panic, clutching nothing but a half-empty glass of whiskey in his trembling hand and useless revolver in the other that he shakily points directly at Minghao.
âDonât⊠donât come any closer!â he begs, fingers twitching around the trigger. âI have connectionsđI-I have a family, a wife, two little girlsđI can payđâ
Minghao doesnât speak. He never does on missions like this. Words are wasted on the already dead.
Instead, he crosses the room in three, perfect strides, way faster than any modified human should. Arthur attempts to shoot, but the revolver kicks back into his grip and causes the bullet to go wide and harmlessly punch into the wall directly behind Minghao, barely grazing the edge of his temple. The second bullet misses again and punches a smoking hole through a video holographic family portrait that flickers and dies mid-laugh.
When Arthur tries to bolt towards the door, Minghao cuts him off with a firm seize to his throat with his cybernetic hand, lifting the man clean off the floor and knocking the breath out of his lungs with a choked gasp. The synthetic muscles and servos whirr softly under the plating as Arthurâs legs kicked uselessly through the air, causing the whiskey glass and gun to slip free out of his hands.Â
Arthurâs screams are muddled when a sudden boom of thunder vibrates the world outside. Minghao doesnât budge, even as the man claws at his grip with both hands. Forty-three years of soft living against a body rebuilt for warđthere was never a contest.Â
Minghao tightens his hold ever so slightly. Not enough to fully incapacitate yet. He wants the man to feel it, to feel the consequences of his actions with a teasing crush to his windpipe. The ocular implant in his left eye feeds him live data: heart rate 179⊠203⊠oxygen saturation plummeting from 97% to 47%. It isnât long until Arthurâs face bloats and washes into a deep crimson. Veins stand out like ropes along his temples. His eyes bulge, whites shot through with burst capillaries, tears leaking from the corners as his tongue presses thickly against his teeth.
Nothing but a wet, gurgling choke escapes him, barely audible over the storm raging outside and Minghaoâs ironclad grip. âPlease⊠my girlsâŠâ
The man continues to spew out gargled, pathetic wordsđabout his family who he only wanted to provide for, his wife who didnât know anything, his innocent little girlsđand Minghao doesnât feel a single ounce of remorse for it. He was assigned a task to complete. There was nothing programmed in him for mercy or pity.Â
When Minghao squeezes his fingers a fraction tighter, Arthurâs windpipe collapses with a wet, sickening pop. His eyes roll back completely in his head, his face drained of colour, as one final spasm jerks through his body before his arms drop limp to his side. Minghao holds him suspended in the air for a full ten seconds after the heart monitor flatlines before opening his hand.
Arthurâs body falls to the floor with a thud, sprawling among the glass shards and spilled whiskey. A thin stream of blood leaks from the corner of his mouth and pools beside his lifeless eyes. Updated data swarms through Minghaoâs vision.
Target: Arthur Kim â TERMINATED
Elapsed Time: 8 minutes, 53 seconds
Minghao exhales a breath through his nose, rolling his shoulders back. The servos under his bionic arm hum faintly through the movement of his artificial joints, recalibrating itself from the temporary exertion. Eight minutes and fifty-three seconds. Itâs somewhat sloppy by his standards, but the noise of the storm did well to hide most of the struggle. Still, the Dominion would be satisfied with his work as they always are.Â
He crouches beside the corpse, metal fingers brushing against the manâs neck to confirm zero pulse. Rain pours in from the shattered window, mixing in with the whiskey and the small pool of blood at his feet. This was definitely one of his messier missions, but the cleanup crew will do their task when he leaves.
He does a quick scan around the room, cycling through spectral overlaysđmotion, thermal, electromagnetic. No alarms or security drones are detected. Arthur Kim had been arrogant enough to hide behind privacy glass and a single biometric lock on his door. What an amateur.Â
The apartment is dead silent now, except for the storm outside slowly beginning to dull out. But what catches him for a split second is the glitchy sound of laughter. Minghao shoots a glance toward the broken holographic family portrait that Arthur had shot at just moments ago.
His gaze lingers on the screen as it flickers erratically. What remains is a looping fragment: Arthur Kim smiling wide with his arms looped around another woman, and two small girls in front of them, both of them with equally big grins as if the world had never once been cruel. The audio stutters with one of the girls saying, âDaddy, look! I drew you ađâ before restarting the loop again.Â
Minghao forcibly tears his eyes away. He forces out a flat exhale through his nose, turning his back on the portrait entirely. Sentiment was a luxury for the wealthy civilians; for him, it was just irrelevant data. He mindlessly steps over Arthurâs corpse and treads his way toward the shattered window, climbing onto the rain-slicked ledge without looking back.Â
The wind claws onto him immediately, trying to sweep him off the building. He activates the magnetic grapples through his hand and anchors onto the opposite structure. With one powerful pull, heâs airborne again, swinging across the forty-metre gap like a shadow trailing through the void. Then he finds himself running across the rooftop before stopping right at the edge.
Below him, the city continues its restless slumber. Minghao watches it all distantly.
Then he jumps down into the void as the rain washes away the cityâs sins.Â
This time, the fall felt a little longer than it should have.Â
desc: you and minghao were homebodies, in every sense of the word. comfortable meditating together in your garden, content sipping complex red wines under the parasol, happy reading your respective books with interlinked pinkies. however, his new subunit has dragged you and all of your friends to a huge party but god, you look a bit too good for minghao to contain himself...
wc: 7.8k..this was supposed to be a drabble
note: happy (belated) v8 release!! this is my celebratory post so pls enjoy and im sorry for the delay! this is the first piece of smut i've ever written lol so pls don't mind if it's not amazing.. this was supposed to be 2k idk what happened lol. tysm miss @binniebean0 for beta-ing once again, ur the best ma lav <333
đ: silver jubilee by audrey hobert, v8 by the8 & vernon
But alas, work calls â Minghao had been working tirelessly with Vernon for their new subunit. Slipping in the front door early in the morning, cap pulled low as his feet dragged against the polished wooden floors, fatigue radiating off his body when he quietly pulled your body into his and cocooned himself around you.Â
This was no new routine; youâd been with Minghao for years, through comebacks, daesangs, scandals, you name it, you stood by his side, a solid and hushed rock. However, there was once upon a time when you and he enjoyed indulging in the bustling Seoul nightlife, awake until all hours of the night and dancing carelessly under strobe lights. It was an era you both look back at with soppy nostalgia.Â
The bass vibrated through the darkened club, the sound of a hyperpop song penetrating your flesh and transforming into sweet endorphins, a buzz of adrenaline and raw energy surging through you. Beside you, your best friends Jun and Mingyu nodded nonchalantly along to the beat â sunglasses securely over their eyes, making them resemble a pair of handsome bodyguards rather than two idols on their night off.Â
A mix of tequila and soda zipped through your straw as you leaned on the wall between the two, their chatter rapidly adapting to include you. âI mean, I never coined them for the clubbing type,â Jun shrugged, halfway through a conversation with his bandmate, who had his eyes narrowed at his phone in his hand.Â
The three of you had perched on a balcony, watching the dance floor swarm with bodies, arms flailing to the music, heads bobbing to the beat. Dark purple and white lights flashed, illuminating the floor in brief intervals, revealing people intertwined with one another, others busy looking at their keys and some drunken party-goers grinding with lustful gazes.Â
âWell, theyâre on their way.â Mingyu shrugged, pulling your gaze away from your inspection of a particularly messy make-out session in the middle of the crowd â gross.Â
âWho is?â You question, lifting your drink lazily to your lips.Â
âRemember Vernon and Minghao?â Mingyu questioned, slinging his arm around your shoulders, his beer almost spilling onto your heels with his clumsy movement.Â
âI know the names.â You reply, nibbling on your straw and eyeing a broad-shouldered man, leant nonchalantly against the bar.Â
This was your routine: Jun and Mingyu would drag you to the club. Most of the time, the three of you partied yourselves out together, strolling home in fits of drunken giggles, Mingyu slung between you and Jun like a human piñata â letting his slackened body flop onto your sofa whilst you and Jun top-and-tailed. But occasionally, one of you would spot someone, get busy and be whisked away into the night.Â
âTheyâre on their way.â Mingyu finishes, and you shrug, preoccupied by the muscled man downstairs â Tall, dark and handsome.Â
As the music shifted, Jun pulled you eagerly onto the dance floor, ready to rock, twist, point, any drunken dance move that his body could conjure in the moment, a loud laugh escaping your lips when he pokes the person behind him.Â
The music was something booming, high-pitched vocals over a speedy tempo, making your hips sway with easy finesse, Jun matching you with a cheeky pout on his face. At some point, Mingyu had disappeared into the crowd to collect his bandmates, leaving you and Jun to continue letting the beat pump through your bodies.Â
Bodies slick with sweat stuck to yours, the alcohol-induced euphoria swimming through your system and rendering you careless, as all you thought about was feeling the music travel through your bones.Â
Through the crowd, your abnormally tall friend weaselled his way through, two drinks held haphazardly in his hand as he held them above head height, almost spilling the beverages on multiple unassuming party-goers' heads.Â
Behind him, two men materialised, both of whom you recognised from Instagram posts, music videos and whatever else your two best friends were involved in. The shorter of the two had a snapback perched backwards over his hair, and he sported a shy grin as he greeted you with a polite nod, âVernon.âÂ
Next to him, your gaze hovered, the second man making your breath hold tightly in your throat â He was gorgeous. The sort of gorgeous that is plastered on the front of fashion magazines. The sort that almost made drool slide down your chin.Â
Minghao, you can only presume, had a pale face, framed by a sleek black mullet, wisps of hair tickling his sleek cheekbones. The enticing dark chocolate eyes were sharp, and it felt as if Minghaoâs gaze was swallowing you whole. Lazily, he dragged his eyes down your body, a small smirk on his plump pink lips as he consumed you with his look alone.Â
âMinghao.â He leaned forward with subtle ease, his strong hand ghosting your waist as his hot breath tickled your ear.
That was the night that changed your life.Â
Messy makeouts in the bathroom corridor, arms desperately pulling each other close, feeling all of your soft skin and lathering in the rosy scent of your perfume. Tugging his fluffy hair closer, dragging him lustfully to bed, arching your back involuntarily as his hot mouth met you.Â
You and Minghao were like two magnets, snapping together with force as soon as you met. There was no doubt in your mind that he was your person from the moment you set your eyes on him. And he â he was smitten, absolutely enamoured by you; he practically fell to his knees when you stepped out of your front door for the first date.Â
Now, six years later, you were each otherâs forevers. The gorgeous engagement band on your finger confirms that. Minghao hunted far and wide for the ring that felt authentically you and him, searching across countries, visiting jewellery stores for hours at a time, researching different materials and styles.Â
An unexpected hunt on a work trip to Beijing made him stumble across a delicate twist of silver that was bent into two smooth spirals, a discrete diamond framed by the curving silver work. It was so perfect that Minghao didnât hesitate â he signed the papers and strolled out of the store with a bashful grin on his face.Â
Then, on that starry evening when he got down on one knee, you felt your heart explode in your chest. Adoration surging through your body as you looked at your boyfriendâs sincere smile, his warm eyes glazed with anticipation as he bared his heart to you in an engagement box.Â
As the streetlights strobed softly through the private car's window, your ring glistened against your knee. A symbol of unrequited love that decorated your body every single day.Â
Minghao was already at the bar the company had hired out, without a doubt networking, talking to devoted fans and bantering with his sub-unit counterpart.Â
You could already imagine his lean body, glistening in the low lighting, his shoulder-length strawberry blonde hair tickling his cheeks under a nonchalantly placed cap. Ring finger decorated with a shining silver band as he DJâd. God, the vision practically made your panties wet.Â
âNothing,â You reply, perhaps a bit too fast, the flustered expression on your features refusing to be wiped off. Trying to faux calm, you absentmindedly brush invisible dust off your dress.Â
âYouâre disgusting.â Jun replies with a distinct scrunch to the nose.Â
âWhat?â You reply, with widened eyes and a sarcastic look of shock. Jun shakes his head at you, the car slowing as it swerves down a side street in Tokyo, vivid neon lights glowing above your heads.Â
Crowds of people hover by a bar and you can only presume thatâs your destination. There was an atmosphere of anticipation, the beckoning call of music reverberating out onto the slim street, and the car halted, people ecstatically staring through the glass.Â
As soon as the door opened, you smiled and waved with the politeness youâd be forced to adopt the moment the tabloids caught wind of you. Teethy grins, small bows at fans, waves towards the crowd. However, as the audience swarming outside were struck with Jun and Mingyu's presence, you slipped through the entrance, staff easily directing you to the small stage, where the main act was fooling around.Â
The bar was packed from wall to wall, bodies crammed in as fans excitedly screamed, hollered and shouted at their idols. The air was thick with smoke that clouded heavily in the corners and dampened the lights. A loud and bass-heavy hyperpop track shook the room as it bounced with a tinny crunch out of the speakers and flowed through the atmosphere.Â
This environment felt like travelling back in time, the thumping of dance music and the scent of strong alcohol dripping nostalgia through you. The hum of bodies pressed into the space brought you back to those long and late nights of the past, dancing sweatily with strangers, not having a care in the world. As you rolled your shoulders, the muscles loosening instinctively, you felt the weight of adulthood dissolve as the atmosphere swallowed you.
There was a cloudy grey tank top hanging loosely off of his toned chest, his tattooed arms revealed to the world as they flexed when he held his hand up in motion. Minghao looked delectable, his body glistening in all the right ways as you watched with your mouth hanging. Even after six years, he still made you speechless daily.Â
As if your stare burned through him, his head turned straight towards you, his face softening in recognition as he quirked a sweet smile towards you. With a brief lean into Vernon, he stepped down and sauntered over to you, his tongue poking the inside of his cheek as he inspected you.Â
With discretion, he slid his arms around your waist, his smile converting into a smirk as he raked his eyes down your scantily clad body â your dress hugged all the right places, revealing a modest amount of cleavage and displaying your long legs for appreciation.Â
âHao, you look-â There wasnât even a word to describe how godly he looked. âFuck, you look so good.â You let your hand skim his bicep, squeezing the tough muscle lightly as he leaned forward, tilting your jaw to kiss you. His soft, plush lips, which you had the privilege of kissing daily, still sent electricity sparking across your body, the taste of mint gum and Coke infiltrating your mouth with ease. You both knew you could easily be here all night, wrapped up in one another, refusing to falter until you knew exactly how good his mouth tasted.Â
However, the hoards of cameras and fans watching closely ignited a consciousness that forced Minghao to apprehensively pull away, his lip caught between his teeth.Â
âProud of you, baby.â You say wholeheartedly, sending him a sincere smile before pecking him lightly and running the pad of your thumb over his cheek.Â
âI love you,â He says back, his eyes practically oozing adoration. âWouldnât be here without you.âÂ
To this, you smile with unrestrained happiness, letting your hands run lightly down his torso before giving his waist a squeeze and ushering him back to the decks. Throwing a quick wave at Vernon, who insisted on a sweaty congratulatory hug, you joined the rest of your friends whoâd made their way to the viewing area.Â
The crowd was alive, chanting and buzzing at the two boys, who danced and waved happily, both radiating shy nonchalance whilst simultaneously bringing life to the room.Â
Alongside you, Mingyu had arrived with a bottle of tequila, shot glasses lined up with precision. With a huge laugh, Mingyu poured one out, slinging it back before pouring another, then a line, linking his arm with yours to knock it back with the old trick you shared.Â
The sting of the spirit was dulled by the bittersweet flavour of nostalgia it arose on your tongue. It was a twisted sentiment to your early twenties, those party days, the ones that brought you and your friends together â the ones that brought your husband-to-be together, and it bloomed a subtle warmth in your chest.Â
Watching the man you cherished, so in his element, moving seamlessly to his own music, smiling wide enough to blind a nation, brought bliss to your heart and you inhaled deeply as if it could pause the moment.
Mingyu and Jun, dancing with drunken silliness next to you, expressions of happiness playing on their features. Roars boomed as Vernon and Minghao stood on the platform the decks sat on, dancing in sync to the songs theyâd work tirelessly on.Â
And if youâre being honest, you donât really party, you just sit at home, but tonight you were throwing it back to those long euphoric nights, letting your body sway freely and laughing wholeheartedly with your closest friends.Â
âYou were amazing up there,â You breathed, a bashful smile appearing on Minghaoâs face as you complimented him. âIâm so proud of you.âÂ
Thereâs a glaze over his eyes that is somewhere between adoration and gratitude, the mixture making his chocolate eyes shine with unapologetic happiness. Instead of replying, he simply pulled you in once again, savouring the sweet taste of the plush lips you possessed.Â
The whirlwind of friends and colleagues then sweeps him away, people approaching with waves of congratulatory exclamations. You leave him with a tender kiss on the cheek, a reminder of how proud you are, and then disappear off to Alice.Â
With drunken confidence, the two of you dance, shaking your hair, swaying your hips, letting big hearty laughs tumble out of you. As the songs beat on, Jun and Mingyu materialise at your sides, moving exactly how they did all those years ago â Jun producing the strangest moves he could conjure, making you almost wet yourself in fits of giggles.Â
As Mingyu twirls you effortlessly, your sweet-faced soon-to-be-husband arrives, sliding in close to you, his body moving like liquid against you. The sensation of his hard chest pressed against your back made tingles shoot down your spine, the familiar scent of his musky beechwood aftershave wafting over you.
âBack already?â you say with a turned head, only his light curtains visible as he presses tickling kisses along your neck.
âForgot how attractive you are when you dance like this,â He mumbles, nipping on a spot that elicits rather inappropriate sounds from you. The heat of the bar seemed to have settled on your skin as a heavy dew, your pulse racing at a quickened pace.Â
âHao,â You exhale with heft, hoping the release would ease the growing heat between your legs. You lean your head into the crook of his shoulder behind you, his lips forced to disconnect with your neck as he grumbles quietly. âWeâre in public.âÂ
And his lusty gaze made the heat pooling between your legs feel more and more bothersome.Â
âI canât help myself,â He says quietly, âyou look too good, itâs driving me insane.â His arms donât falter from their secure place on your hips, tugging you impossibly closer. It felt like you were younger again, kissing carelessly in the club, letting the music take you both away as you indulged in one another.
âHao,â A shaky breath leaves your lips, âWe canât exactly slip off, this is your party,âÂ
With a sigh of frustration, he lands one more nip to the sweet spot on your neck, âWeâre leaving as soon as itâs socially acceptable.âÂ
It, in fact, was not socially acceptable to leave until three in the morning. In those hours, everyone had gotten impossibly drunker. Beside you, Mingyu, almost asleep, stood up, his speech slurred in that hilariously whiny way that was so reminiscent of dragging his tall frame down the dark Seoul streets.Â
Minghao had hovered around, often being pulled in every direction by various guests, his gaze hot on your figure as you continued to dance or mingle. You could feel eyes burn into your body when you bent over to pick up a spilt beverage, and he used it as a convenient excuse to practically run to your side â skilfully placing himself to conceal your exposed thighs.Â
Like a perfect scapegoat, Mingyu almost toppled over into both of you. The lanky manâs absent gaze was practically begging for bed, and who were you both to make him stay any longer?Â
âWe should take him back to the hotel.â You say with a pout, bidding goodbye to Jun with a tight hug. Minghao had rapidly slipped off to also spout all variations of valedictions to the remaining guests.Â
Three slightly long, awkward hugs, around ten polite bows and countless âgoodbyesâ later, you and Minghao had Mingyu slung over your shoulders, his body borderline slack between you as you both dragged him into the car.Â
As much as you could mentally thank Mingyu for always drinking himself into the perfect escape plan, you didnât want to praise him for the impending spine problems his years of drunken slackness will inevitably cause you.
There were many ways youâd rather be leaving the bar. Through a back door, hands tangled in Minghaoâs mullet, tugging when his lips hit that sensitive spot on your neck. Or in a private car, just the two of you, your hand eagerly stroking torturously slowly up his thigh, skimming his crotch with routine obliviousness.Â
But alas, Mingyu collapsed onto the seat with a thud, babbling incoherently as he lay his head on your lap. Minghao just tutted as he climbed into the passenger seat, turning to see you display a shrug, raising your hands in defeat.Â
Even through Mingyu's meaningless utterances, the sexual tension was rife â Minghao stayed glued to his phone, his hat low as his teeth nibbled on his lip in frustration. He was vying for a distraction, and his Instagram feed had never been so boring.Â
The minutes skidded by almost painfully, Tokyo dragging through your vision with snail-like slowness. Mingyu was fast asleep on your lap, muttering to himself drunkenly â If your head wasnât spinning with visions of the gorgeous man in the front seat, you might find this heartwarming and so reminiscent of times passed. Mingyu follows his usual routine, getting too drunk and having to be hauled home by you or whichever oblivious friend was roped in to take half of his weight. Stumbling into the hotel elevator with someone hot on his trail, apologising profusely to whichever member of the public he may have embarrassed himself in front of. Then, collapsing onto the closest comfiest surface â the hotel bed, and passing out without a word.Â
It made you giggle at how his habits had never changed and how yours remained, too. Popping two painkillers onto his nightstand, filling up a cup with water. All the usual things that came as second nature. Minghao watched you closely with adoration. There wasnât a day that he didnât fall deeper in love with you, and today he really felt it. Even through the chaos, the stress, the pressure, your presence was ever-grounding; even if it made his brain scatter when he saw you.Â
âLet me get out of the door first,â You joke, recognising the lust dripping off of his gaze. Without hesitation, his tongue slipped out of his mouth, licking his lips as if you were his favourite meal.Â
You were.Â
The tether within Minghao had snapped, finally alone after hours of pent-up frustration, and he had you pushed up against the wall with lightning-quick agility. One strong arm wrapped tightly around your waist to pull his hips flush against yours, the other cradling your face with softness, the rough pad of his thumb savouring the feeling of your skin below it.
Without hesitation, he joined his lips to yours with desperation, his body aching to taste the alcohol on you â and now he could taste it, he felt utterly intoxicated. The plush of your lips was so familiar, but it never failed to make him feel like every hair on his body was standing on end.Â
âHao,â You breathed out in a quiet whine, your hands lacing through Minghaoâs soft hair with an instinctive tug as he let his lips begin their assault on your neck. He knew exactly how to make you fawn, his teeth grazing your sensitive spots as he left discrete marks along your exposed shoulder.Â
Your nails clawed harshly at his biceps as the feeling of his lips made heat pool pathetically between your legs, his lusted-over gaze burning through you when he pulled back to examine his art.Â
This was Minghaoâs own personal Picasso. The sight of you, face flushed and screwn in an expression of blissful pleasure, a thin sheen of sweat coating your skin as your head leaned on the dark wall behind you, the expanse of your neck exposed and actively developing little bruises. The dress, which was, quite frankly, a method of torture designed specifically to make Minghao suffer, was bunching up and revealing your hot skin to his eyes.Â
âOh baby,â Minghao sighs, letting his arms pull your body into his. You took advantage of his moment of weakness and began to pepper kisses up the column of his throat, trailing along his jaw and nibbling his ear gently, smirking as the skin under your fingertips rose in goosebumps. Sometimes you forgot how easily you affected him, the hotness of your breath eliciting his body to react rapidly, his eyes fluttering shut tightly as he groaned loudly and unapologetically.Â
âBaby, I need you.â He manages to gasp out, your hand now feeling his toned stomach with daringly slow accuracy whilst your mouth continues to run circles around his brain.Â
âCanât have me in a corridor, Hao.â You state between sloppy kisses, not parting from his skin for longer than a few seconds.Â
He turned his head and emitted a sound resembling a hiss as your mouth was forced to leave his body, âIâll have you right here, sweetheart, donât test me.âÂ
The tone was icy, the dominance in his voice almost making your knees give way. His hand was resting with a strong presence on the back of your neck, his drooped eyelids penetrating you with so much intensity it was overwhelming.Â
Not willing to try your luck with Minghao â Knowing heâd bunch your dress up and tear your underwear off for anyone to see, you take his wrist in your hand, dragging him to the elevator. Thereâs a cocky smirk thatâs landed permanently on his features, his eyes watching the way your ass giggled as you jogged lightly to the end of the hallway, pulling him along.Â
The doors slid shut, but before they could ring out a quiet ding! he has you pinned against the mirrored wall, his body heavy against your back.Â
Itâs embarrassing the way you arch into him, your breath heavy as it already begins to cloud the mirror in small hues. Behind you, he has one of your arms secured to your back, intertwining his fingers with yours in an intimate gesture. Yet, his eyes are darkened as they scan your face in the mirror, the need rife in your hooded gaze as you meet his hungry look.Â
Your entire body is squashed against the mirror, making your cleavage bulge out of your skimpy dress, and Minghao canât help but stare at it as he reattaches his mouth to your neck eagerly. The hardness of his throbbing cock is tough against your ass, and you gasp sharply when he smoothly thrusts himself against you.Â
âLook at you,â He coos with fake sympathy dripping off every word, his mouth ruthlessly working at your exposed skin. âSuch a greedy girl, rubbing yourself against me in public.âÂ
Minghaoâs grip around you was tight, his hand absentmindedly tugging your dress to cover your exposed thighs as he smiled awkwardly and bowed to the stranger, keeping your head tucked safely into the crook of his neck.Â
You knew this was killing Minghao. Even the redness on your face did not compare to the restraint he was exercising with each passing moment.Â
The elevator slowed once again, and Minghao couldnât pull you out of there faster, his cock painfully hard in his trousers; he was already facing your shared room by the time the door to the elevator slid closed.Â
Beep! The hotel door clicks open, and everything becomes a whirlwind. Minghao has you pressed against it with wicked ease, pulling your lips to meet his in a sloppy, needy kiss that radiates heat from him. Your hands are sliding beneath his shirt, letting your nails scratch along the toned muscles as his hand smooths over your ass, grabbing at it harshly as he attempts to pull you closer.Â
Minghaoâs lips are working on the sweet spot below your collarbone, tasting the skin with unfaltering intensity. You let your hands roam, tangling them in his hair, scratching at his back, squeezing at his waist â you feel every inch of him like youâre learning where everything is.Â
With a rough tug, your dress is pooled around your waist, your braless chest bouncing out with the release of the cloth binding it, and Minghao lets out a long groan, his eyes closing as he lets his head slack. He is devilishly handsome, his jaw defined in the low light as it flexes at the sight of you.Â
âSweetheart,â He speaks whilst he inspects every inch of you closely, bringing his hot mouth to your chest once again, his tongue drawing patterns against your skin as he brings one of his hands to toy with your nipple, his long fingers working automatically to pinch and caress you.Â
Loud throaty moans tumble out of you as he fails to neglect your other nipple, letting his mouth trail hot kisses around it before sucking with perfected ease. If Minghaoâs arm wasnât securely around you, the feeling wouldâve made you collapse to the floor â he knew your body like the back of his hand, nipping and sucking on every single sensitive spot, touching every place that set your body on fire. Except where you needed him most.Â
âHao,â You moan, and he just grunts against you, not faltering for a second from his heavy assault on your chest, the sight of him devouring you almost enough to have you cumming. âBaby, I need-âÂ
He pulls off of your nipple with a dirty pop, his pent-up gaze watching as the pleasure drops off your face with the lack of contact. It was filthy, the arousal that pumped through him when he watched you become absolutely desperate for him.Â
âNeed what baby?â He questions, his movements so slow that they almost cease, making your eyebrows furrow and your lip jut out in a pout. Pathetically, you let your slender hand reach for the waistband of his trousers, but heâs like a hawk, pinning both of your wrists above your head.Â
Itâs humiliating how turned on you are â completely under his control willingly. His frame is fully clothed, whilst yours is a mess, dress in a rushed bunch around your waist, panties dripping.Â
âWhat do you need?â He questions, gaze burning into you as he drags his eyes down your curves. âUse your words, baby.âÂ
âNeed you,â You whine, wiggling to attempt to reach for his waistband again, but his grip is steady, keeping you absolutely merciless.Â
âNeed what part of me?â He blinks, big innocent eyes staring at yours like he wasnât already ruining you without even a touch.Â
Your face is utterly flushed as embarrassment and arousal mix into a vicious vision of want, the outline of his hard cock practically pounces at you. Minghao uses this moment to let one of his big hands ghost over your panties, his touch so light that you buck your hips instantly, desperate for him to give your clit any stimulation.Â
A taunting laugh escapes his lips before his ruthless mouth is back on your neck, nipping and sucking as your head falls back in pleasure. The sudden attention forces a moan to escape you, and he stops, the brief contact ripped away so savagely that your brain is fuzzy with frustration.Â
âI asked you a question, sweetheart.â He repeats, letting your restrained hands fall as he tugs you lightly towards the bed, pausing as you near it. Without a word, he slips your bundled dress off of your frame carefully, discarding it as you kiss him, pulling his neck to yours before he even has a chance to appreciate your almost naked body.Â
âNeed your cock baby,â You mumble against his lips, and he groans at your needy answer, his pants feeling uncomfortably tight around him, and you let your nails scrape his lower abdomen in that way that has his body in shivers.Â
Minghao is so enticed by you, the way your lips mingle with his effortlessly, the ways in which you know his body, the ways that can almost make him cum in his pants with just a feather-light touch.Â
Youâve slyly twisted, pushing him to sit on the edge of the bed, your lips not parting as you masterfully manoeuvre yourself between his solid thighs.Â
Like an expert, his belt is unbuckled, and his trousers are tugged down, your light touch carrying the weight of hours of teasing. As you let his cock spring free, he hisses, the scene in front of him so dirty he could cum right now.
Drool pools at the corner of your lips, and without further ado, you stroke your fingertips lightly along his cock, letting your thumb drag over the tip, a string of tangled grunts tumbling out of him as you spread the leaking pre-cum down his shaft.Â
After a few eager strokes, you bring your mouth to him, kitten-licking him with precision, his teeth gritted as he lets out a hiss, your warm mouth sending spikes of pleasure up his body. His cock was more than a mouthful, the salty pre-cum lathering your tongue as you gradually make your way down him, gagging as your nose grazes his stomach.Â
Your engagement band glints as you grip his thigh, beginning to piston your head, throaty moans slipping out of his mouth as you take him so well.Â
âFuck baby,â He groans, and an involuntary sound of pleasure leaves you, your nipples perked in arousal as you speed up. Minghao runs his fingers through your soft hair delicately, the sensation prickling your skin as he gathers your locks and guides your motions with desperation. âYou look so pretty.âÂ
It was so filthy, the squelch of your mouth working against him and his heavy, breathy moans at free flow as the feeling of your tongue around him takes over. Minghao is seeing stars, the sight of you alone pushing him closer, yet alone the stimulation on his cock.
âBaby, baby.â He pants, his breathing climbing rapidly as his release nears, and he pulls your head away from him carefully, refusing to come from just your mouth â he needed to be inside you, watching your eyes roll back as he bottoms out. You pout, looking up at him with red cheeks, your lips glistening with his pre-cum and your spit. âI want to come inside you.âÂ
His words make you ache, your pussy practically begging for something â anything at all.Â
Minghao lifts your jaw up to his, rejoining your lips. The salty taste of himself on you infiltrates his mouth as he pulls you onto his lap, his strong arms reaching to squeeze at the expanse of your ass cheeks as his cock is trapped between you both, nudging at your clit in selfish intervals.Â
âTake this off.â You whisper, hands already pulling at his shirt, and he whips it off, sparing only a second before his tongue is intertwined with yours again, your fingertips feeling his smooth skin and tracing his abs.Â
âOh my poor baby, youâre soaked,â He said, using his middle finger to trace circles over you, the panties ruined and your thighs almost dripping. You couldn't even muster a response, his light teasing pressing all of the right spots, and you drop your head to the crook of his neck as he continues his lazy circles. âDo you want me to stop?âÂ
You knew it was a baited question. Minghao wanted to see you squirm.Â
âNo, please.â You beg, your mouth hot against his sensitive neck as you speak into it, biting at the skin gently.Â
âLook at me.â He says sternly. Pressing one finger into your dripping hole, pushing your panties inside you. It was ludicrous and practically a sin to be so hopelessly at his expense, but you couldn't think past how good it felt.Â
âLook at me.â He repeats with a grit in his teeth, halting his movements to get your full attention. With a rapid snap of the neck up, your faces are inches apart, his hot breath mingling with yours as he scans your gorgeous face, your cheeks reddened, your lips jutted.Â
You were so beautiful.Â
âGood girl.â Before you can even moan, his mouth is back on yours hungrily, his hands gripping your waist tightly as he guides your soaked clit to rub against his painfully hard cock. âStay just like this, baby.â Then, in a subtle movement, he slides out from underneath you and discards the rest of his clothing, kneeling behind you.Â
The heat of his body radiated as he stroked himself whilst inspecting you, wetness dripping down your spread legs, pussy gleaming with arousal. It was one of his favourite sights, and he canât help himself as he runs his hands up and down your plush thighs, squeezing your ass and letting the cool of his metal engagement band send shivers up your spine.Â
âHao, please.â With desperation, you push your hips backwards, his cock brushing you, and you let out a hum of satisfaction.Â
Wordlessly, Minghao begins to guide his cock into your dripping hole, the sensation of you so tight and warm around him making a heavy groan fall from his throat. Similarly, tears begin to cloud your vision as sweet relief washes over you, the feeling of him dragging against your walls combined with his throaty sounds making you dig your nails into the soft white covers.Â
Slowly, he bullies his way into you, his member hitting every single spot that has you clawing desperately at anything you can. As he bottoms out with a hiss, a loud moan leaves your lips, the overwhelming feeling of his tip mingling with your cervix, making you clench around him.Â
It felt insane how well his body slotted into yours. Your pussy was moulded to fit his cock, your walls hugging it in every single place. There was nothing that could compare to the feeling of being conjoined with one another, ecstasy blasting through you both as you thrive in the overwhelming feeling of one another.Â
Unable to restrain himself, Minghao begins to fuck into you with a quickened pace, the room becoming a soundtrack of filthy sounds; his hips slapping your thighs, the squelch of your soaked hole, the mixture of grunts and moans the two of you emit.Â
Minghaoâs eyes stare as your skin jiggles with each thrust, his fingers gripping your hips so tight that bruises will blossom beneath them tomorrow. His breathing is heavy as he relishes the euphoric feeling of you bent over, receiving him so willingly and squeezing him impossibly tighter.Â
âH-Hao,â You moan, gripping the mattress below you as if it could receive some of the immense pleasure rippling through you.Â
âYes, baby?â He pants out, letting one hand rub up your side in a soothing manner, his hips and arms doing completely contrasting things to your body.Â
âIâm close.â You sputter out, lathered in his deep strokes that were practically splitting you in half.Â
âMhm,â He hums, only speeding up impossibly faster as he wraps a strong arm around your waist to pull you into him, not letting his cock disconnect from the comfort of your slick.Â
Your head is slack on Minghaoâs shoulder as he holds your back tightly to his chest, letting his hand ghost over your neck. He nips at your ear as he continues to piston into you ruthlessly, your release within an arm's reach.Â
âYouâre doing so well, baby,â Minghao whispers in your ear, tightening his grip on your neck as he chases your high. âSuch a good girl, my good girl.âÂ
That was all it took before you were tightening around him, high-pitched moans tumbling out of you. The coil within you snaps, sending your vision white, heat flushing out of you as you squeeze your eyes shut tightly.Â
Minghao keeps fucking you ruthlessly, holding the weight of your body as he chases his own release, small whines escaping your mouth as he overstimulates you. The grip of his hands gets tighter and tighter as he grunts in your ear, muttering incoherently as all he thinks about is how good you feel.Â
âFuck ____.â He gasps, his breath taken from him as he spurts inside you, his warm milky release coating your insides, his thrusts becoming sloppy as he slows.Â
The room is swamped in the sound of heavy breathing, Minghao pulling out and helping you lie down gently, kissing your shoulders, all the way down your spine and then returning to kiss the crown of your head.Â
âYouâre so beautiful.â He speaks with delicate sincerity, your sleepy gaze watching his naked figure disappear off to the bathroom.Â
âI love you more, my love.â He replies, Your vision became as your body relaxed into the plush mattress. With a light but solid grip, you tug him onto the bed, his musky scent washing over you once again, and you sigh happily.
âJust cuddle me, baby.â You murmur, tiredness taking over you as he pulls you into his chest, placing the covers over the two of you. Peppering kisses on your head, he watches you gently doze off, and his heart feels like it could burst with how much he adores you.Â
Even submerged in sleep, your hand finds his, engagement rings clicking quietly together, and Minghao closes his eyes in contentment, letting sleep lull him away with you.Â
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itâs not unusual for artificially intelligent robots to blend in seamlessly to society. many years ago you found a robot that was being abused and stole him. you saved him and put him back together, and in the process upgraded his programming to the point both of you often forget heâs not a human. heâs become your companion as you navigate the dark neon city together.Â
âą đ đđ§đ«đ(đŹ): romance, smut, angst, established relationship
âą đđź(đŹ): cyberpunk
âą đ°đšđ«đ đđšđźđ§đ: 18.1k
âą đđ«đąđ đ đđ« đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: loss of parents before the story, cussing, angst, drug use, talks of dealing drugs, stealing, hacking, working basically as gang to take down a company, Joshua has a lot of internal conflict struggling with not being human, talks of prostitution, and sex bots, theyâre both quite codependent on each other.
âą đŹđŠđźđ đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: multiple sex scenes I think there is 4, sex with a robot. Soft dom joshua, sub reader, heâs got super strength and uses that to lift and move the mc easily, Unprotected sex, creampie (he has synthetic cum), cum play, cum eating, overstimulation, fingering, oral (fem rec), big dick Joshua (joshua hung if you will), pussy stretching, body worship, hair pulling, spanking, semi exhibitionism, semi public sex, rougher sex, choking, nipple play, panty kink, things are intense between them nicknames: baby, starlight (hers) shua, baby (his)
âą đ«đđđąđ§đ : 18+
đ§: agora hills - doja cat | bmf - sza | pov - ariana grande | burning blue - mariah the scientist | intro (end of the world) - ariana grande
âą đđ§: this is part of @studiosvtâs cyberpunk: reload collab. Thank you @aeristudios for helping me with this one and @jakedustry for beta reading. Divider by @/saradika-graphics.
You haven't lived your whole life in the city of Chroma Nexus. Your life started out very differently than it is now. Your childhood was the stuff of dreams. You grew up in a luxurious city away from this neon hell city has become. You were raised with a silver spoon in your mouth. Your father worked at a bank that handled money for huge companies like FleXeon. Everything shifted when you were freshly seventeen, after a late night at business dinner you lost both your parents in a tragic car accident.
That night shifted everything for you. The house you had grown up in left you feeling haunted. Selling it was the only way you could escape the ghost of your past.
Taking the bullet train to Chroma Nexion changed your life. You realized with the money from your inheritance and your excellent programming skills, you had the ability to never work a mundane regular job.
Meeting Seungcheol made you realize that you could hack just about anything. He took you under his wing and you joined the team that heâs made. You learned Seungcheol had one goal in life, it was to rob the rich and give to people who truly needed the money.
On one of his missions you snuck into a tech corporation. In the basement you were searching around with Wonwoo. You found an android who looked to be a test robot of some sort. With Wonwoo's help, you brought the android to your home that night.
The side of his neck had "J05HU9" tattooed on his human-like skin. It took you two days to fully reprogram him and get him up and running.
Joshua is probably the greatest thing you've ever programmed. From the moment he rebooted you instantly had a connection with your new android.
CYBER SEX
The neon turquoise glow radiates off his pristine skin. You wish you could thank the engineer who crafted him for making him look this beautiful.
Seungcheol has you out a couple blocks down from the FleXeon lab. You're sitting at a computer in the back of a van that Seungcheol set up and Joshua is playing look out with Wonwoo. You've been looking into the FleXeon server nonstop, trying to find errors in their security programming. Seungcheol's goal is to bring down and expose FleXeon and their CEO for their creation of Lavender Haze, and their legal ways of acquiring money.
Whoever designed their security programming is good. Everything is well protected, and their files are fully encrypted. You lucked out and found a kink in their almost impenetrable armor. You were able to access a pretty high up employeesâ emails. Sorting through them, you found employee identification information and mentions of blue dust and lavender haze. Reaching into your bag you grab the drive Seungcheol gave you.
You start uploading everything as quickly as possible. Being so close to the FleXeon building you know they have a security sweep in about five more minutes.
Tapping your fingers you watch as the data transfers. The moment it's finished, you hit the door of the van twice. The driver side opens and Wonwoo jumps in. The back door slides open and Joshua joins you in the back.
"Did you get it?" Wonwoo asks.
"Yeah."
"Good job, Starry." It's rare these days for anyone to call you by your actual name. You have a birth on your shoulder that looks like a star, which led to mostly everyone calling you Starry. Joshua is different, occasionally he'll call you Starry, but he mostly calls you his starlight.
"I'll drop you guys off at your place, so you can take your more subtle bike to meet Soonyoung and Jeonghan." Wonwoo says.
"Where are they?" Joshua asks.
"Dumb and dumber went to the lights district." Wonwoo says, rolling his eyes.
The lights district is the scummy part of town. The morally gray and corrupt tend to hang out there. The district is filled with clubs, and even more drugs. You already know why they went there. Soonyoung wants to get blue dust, and he knows a guy who sells it there.
Arriving at your place, you and Joshua quickly jump out of the van. Joshua was smart enough to bring both your helmets.
"I wish we could just take this to Minghao ourselves." Joshua hates when you go to the lights district.
"I would love that too, but you know how Cheol works. He said I have to pass it off to these two."
He helps you put on your jacket and fasten your helmet. He starts the bike with you sitting on the back holding on to him.
Joshua pulls out of the garage. You look at the sky to see it's raining just like it always seems to do these days. Luckily, motorcycle gear works for the rain.
The twenty minute drive to the lights district in the rain isn't pleasant. Arriving at the club you know you would find them at, Joshua parks the bike. He locks your helmets on to the bike. He grabs your hand as you walk up to the crowded club. The bass is booming as EDM music rattles the place.
This place is filled to the brim with people either drunk on Pop Rocks, or high on blue dust. Pushing your way through the crowd you find Soonyoung and Jeonghan in the back. Soonyoung has his tongue shoved down the throat of some girl with pink hair, while Jeonghan is sitting on the couch whispering to a girl with icy white hair. You let out a heavy sigh. This day has been too damn long. You spent hours jumping around locations, trying to get into the FleXeon system and now you're dealing with two of Seungcheol's highest ranked men, who thought it was a good idea to get high out of their minds on Blue Dust.
"Stay back here." You tell Joshua. Him and Soonyoung already butt heads. You don't want anything to unfold between them tonight.
"Soonyoung." You yell, leaving Joshua a few feet behind you leaning on the wall.
He smiles, peeling himself away from the pink haired girl. "Starry, you came!" He shouts. By the wild look in his eyes, and with how blown his pupils are you immediately know he's high.
Soonyoung yelling catches Jeonghan's attention. He pulls himself away from his girl and stands up. His eyes are just as blown as Soonyoung's.
"You guys couldn't make this easy on me, could you?" You huff.
"You're being dramatic." Soonyoung laughs.
You knit your brows glaring at them. They could have been somewhere closer. Instead, you and Joshua had to drive all this way in the rain, after working for hours. These two are already giving you a headache and it's only been a few minutes.
"I'm not being dramatic, you're being inconsiderate." You roll your eyes.
"Ouch, Starry is more sensitive than normal." Jeonghan holds his chest like he's wounded.
"You're just being bigger assholes than normal." You can feel Joshua's eyes burning into the back of you.
"You seem more irritated than normal." Soonyoung points out.
Joshua pushes himself away from the wall, he's already irritated with Soonyoung and his nonsense.
Jeonghan barks out a laugh. "Starry, maybe if you got laid you wouldn't want to kill us all the time."
"She's fucking lover bot over there, getting laid isn't her issue." Soonyoung laughs.
Joshua pushes himself off the wall. This is going to escalate quickly if you don't shut down these idiots.
"Maybe she needs some cock from someone who isn't a machine." Soonyoung laughs. He's definitely trying to get punched. If you knew Cheol wouldn't ring your neck, you would break Soonyoung's nose right now.
"Shut the fuck up. You're just jealous you haven't seen any pussy in months." You poke Soonyoung in the chest. "My issue is that I'm trying to drop off something extremely important and you and Hannie are out of your minds on blue dust."
You reach into your pocket grabbing the drive. "Here." You shove the drive into Soonyoungâs jacket pocket.
"Cheol is gonna fucking love the fact that his edgesunner, and right hand man are high off blue dust is scummy club in the lights district."
Soonyoung reaches for your hand. "Starry, don't be like that."
"Don't touch her." Joshua is standing by your side instantly.
Soonyoung holds his hands up and steps back. "Chill, lover boy. I'm not going to do anything to her. You and I both know I tease her but I love her."
Joshua laces his fingers with yours pulling you back from Soonyoung.
"I think we should go. I better not hear that Minghao and Cheol didn't get that drive."
"We'll go now." Jeonghan says.
Tugging on Joshua's hand, you lead him through the cramped club. Stepping outside, you're hit with the cold breeze. It seems the rain stopped. Releasing Joshua's hand, you zip up your motorcycle jacket. He walks over to your bike, grabbing both your helmets. He steps in front of you, helping you put your helmet on. He buckles the bottom strap before kissing the tip of your nose. Reaching up he slides your visor down before putting on his own helmet.
"Are we going home?" He asks, walking towards you. You push your visor back up. His eyes are shifting around. You know him well enough to know he's upset. Silently, you nod.
You follow him to the bike. He stops in front of it and pauses. You don't want him to drive while he's upset. "Shua?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't worry about Soonyoung. I'm not interested in human men."
"Who are you interested in?"
"An android." You reach up, sliding the visor back down.
Joshua gets on the bike, and holds his hand out. You hop onto the back, wrapping your arms around his stomach. He gives your thigh three pats. Even if he won't say it out loud, you know that's his way of saying "I love you."
He revs the engine before he takes off down the dark alley. The asphalt below blows with the neon lights from above. The drive out the lights district takes about twenty minutes before you're back in the hub of the city.
Driving through, you look around at the video boards that line the tall sky scrapers. There's a clip of the president of FleXeon playing on repeat. That man is corrupt and helps run production of the drug known as lavender haze dust. His side company that people donât know about. made an extra synthetic blue dust that's extra potent. Seungcheol is disgusted by drugs and will be pissed if he finds out any of you touched it.
Towards the east side of the hub, the less luxurious side, is where your apartment is located. Pulling into the underground apartment, Joshua parks the bike. You hop off and take off your helmet. Joshua takes off his own, and pulls your bag from the side compartment.
The parking garage has a low turquoise haze to it. The light near the elevator hums as it flickers.
Clicking the button you wait silently next to Joshua. Your neighbor who lives three doors down gets out of her small beat up two door car. She's a sweet older lady who works at the hospital on the edge of the hub.
"Late night out for you two love birds?" She's always in such a good mood. You don't understand it sometimes. She sees so much pain and destruction in that hospital and yet, she still smiles.
"Hello, Mrs. Opal. We wanted to go out for a late night ride." Joshua lifts his helmet to show her.
The elevator dings and the doors slide open. You step back until your back is against the cold metal wall. Joshua presses the thirteenth floor button and stands next to you.
"When are you two kids going to get married and have some beautiful babies?" If only she knew that your lover is an android. Marriage and babies aren't something the two of you can necessarily have.
Joshua is one of the most humanoid androids you have ever encountered. His mannerisms and looks make him seem fully human. His tattoo on the side of his neck could be a give away, but most people don't know that the ink on his skin is a model number. You made the choice immediately not to make it common knowledge that he's an android. The last thing you need is people snooping around or trying to hack his programming. Or worse trying to steal him from you.
"Maybe one day, Mrs. Opal."
She looks at you and gives you a sweet smile. "Darling, you're lucky you found such a great man." If only she knew that you quite literally found him, and fixed him.
"I'm very lucky." You finally speak.
The elevator dings signaling your arrival to your floor. Joshua grabs your hand leading you down the hall towards your apartment.
"Have a good night you two." She says.
"Goodnight, Mrs Opal." He responds.
He stops at the door and types in the pin. Stepping inside, you're greeted by the turquoise neon glow of the city outside. You didn't bother closing the curtains to the floor to ceiling window that looks out into the dark city. You live in a one bedroom apartment. It's spacious enough for the two of you to live comfortably together. The high ceiling with exposed metal venting, makes the space look larger than it is.
Joshua grabs your helmet from you, along with your bag and places it on the table that sits by the door. He drops down to his knees to help you remove your boots.
"I need a shower." You sigh.
"Go shower and I'll make you something to eat." For someone who doesn't need food to survive, he's really good at cooking. He often eats with you even though his body just burns up everything.
Heading off to the bedroom, you grab a pair of panties and baggy shirt. Walking into the bathroom, you take your time stripping away your clothes. Your bathroom isn't huge by any means and your lighting is terrible, but the water pressure in the shower is perfect. Your whole apartment has a radiant haze to it, just like the rest of the city.
Opening the glass door, you crank the water on. It's scorching hot the moment you step in. After missions you always feel gross, maybe that's your self-conscious telling you what you're doing is illegal. Closing your eyes, you tilt your head forward, letting the hot water relax your tensing muscles. You were hoping Joshua would join you, but you know he's more worried about making sure you eat.
You're not sure what your life would be like if you didn't have him. Being with him has made your life worth living again. He's sunshine in this dark city with a fluorescent glow, and you're the midnight rain.
Getting out of the shower, you dry off and put on just a thong and a baggy shirt. Looking in the mirror, you realize how tired you look.
Walking out into the living area, you're greeted by the smell of ramyeon. Joshua is busy dishing two bowls. Your bare feet pad across the cold hardwood floor.
Sitting down at the small table near the kitchen area, you watch as he brings over food. While you were showering, he must have changed. He's now shirtless, wearing just a pair of sweatpants that are sitting low on his hips. It's clear he's not wearing anything underneath them.
He sits down across from you. He raises his brow, watching you pick up your chopsticks.
"Are you going to power down tonight?" This is the same question you ask him every single night.
"No." He picks up his own chopsticks.
You let out a heavy sigh, and rub your eyes with your free hand. This conversation is always so frustrating.
"Josh, you need to power down occasionally."
"Why?" He's annoyed by this conversation just like you.
"Because when you turn back on, it reboots. That will help get out any kinks in your system. I have to do the same thing with my tablet."
He puffs out a disgusted sound. "So I'm just like your tablet."
You set your chopsticks down. "Don't do that. Don't act like I'm calling you a robot or a device."
"But you are." His tone is pointed.
"From the first time I powered you on and fixed your software to give you emotions, I have never treated you like a robot. I have always and will always treat you like a human."
His brows soften, he leans back in his chair. A look of defeat plays across his face. "Powering down reminds me that I'm never going to be a human. I'm just an android."
You can't say anything, you just stare at him. You know how desperately he wishes he was a human.
"I sometimes forget that I'm not real."
"You're very real. You might not be human. But you're real, and you matter to me. So that's all that fucking matters." Your emotions are high after today and you know you should have just left this alone tonight.
"I'll power down tomorrow night. I don't want to do it after we just had a fight." It's probably best he doesn't do it tonight. The last thing you need to do is go to bed upset while he's rebooting.
"Okay."
You both eat in silence. You've both forgiven each other but there isn't much left to say about your fight. The food Joshua made is delicious, just like it always is. You get up to do the dishes, but he doesn't let you. He grabs the dish and heads over to the sink.
Standing at the window that overlooks the city you stand there wondering what the people are up to down below. The city is still pretty lively for it being close to four in the morning.
You hear him walking up behind you, but you don't move. His arms wrap around your stomach, pulling you back against him.
His hand taps your stomach three times. Closing your eyes, you rest your hand on his thigh and give it three taps.
"I'm sorry." He rests his chin on top of your head.
"I'm sorry too."
"It's been a long day." He sighs.
"I want to go to bed, but I just want to be with you." You desperately crave being close to him.
"I'm all yours, baby."
Pulling away from him, you turn around. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you pull him closer to you. You don't want to think anymore. You want him to fuck every logical thought out of your brain.
Leaning up, you press your lips to his for a heated kiss. You don't need to explain to him what you want, he understands you completely. His hand slips under your shirt, running across the bare skin of your back. His hand roams lower down to the fleshy cheek of your ass. Your lips don't stop moving together. He kisses you like he's trying to say he's sorry a million times over.
Pulling away, you tug on his bottom lip. "Please just fuck me."
He backs you up until your back is pressed against the cold glass window. Pulling back a little, he looks down at you. "Do you want me to take you to bed?"
"No. Fuck me here."
He grabs your hips, spinning you back around. Your chest is pressed up against the cold glass window. Your thin shirt does nothing to prevent your nipples from hardening.
Pushing your hips back against his crotch, you can already feel him hardening. Joshuaâs anatomy is very much like human man's. His body reacts the same as anyone else when he's sexually aroused. Technically, his anatomy is different then the average male. Whoever created him, blessed him with a massive cock. You know deep down inside they created him to be a sex bot.
His hand dips down to your core. He pulls your thong to the side. Two of his fingers rub your sensitive clit.
With his lips near your ear, he rasps, "you're already so wet."
He slides his fingers down to your needy core hole. He dips two of them in with ease. You're so desperate for him, you're pretty sure you could take his massive size without any prep.
The palm of his hand ruts against your clit, and he works his two fingers in and out of you. Gasps leave your lips as your head rolls back against his shoulder. One of your hands grip his sweatpants while the other grips the arm that's wrapped around your stomach, holding you against him.
Your high is rapidly approaching. Your body tenses, as you struggle to breathe for a moment.
"So good for me." He moans in your ear.
Your high breaks, and your walls flutter like a heartbeat squeezing his fingers. He rubs your clits, helping you ride out your high.
"Ohâ" you pant.
"You sound so pretty." He whispers against your ear.
"Fuck me."
You push your hips back against the erection that's straining against his sweatpants. He presses you fully against the window. He pulls back just enough to push his sweatpants down below his butt. He pulls out his cock, pumping it slowly a few times. Another blessing from his engineer is that his "precum" works as the perfect lubricant.
"Keep your chest against the window, and push your hips back towards me." He grabs your hip and puts you into position.
With his cock in his hand, he runs it through your folds a few times. Each time he brushes your clit, you can't help but moan.
"Please." You have no problem begging him.
The rosy mushroom tip nudges at your weeping entrance. He pushes an inch in and pulls it out. He does it a few times, teasing you. You push your hips back, causing him to slip in further.
"Naughty girl." He gives your ass a quick swat.
"Please, Shua."
He lets out a little laugh. He grips your hips with both hands. He pushes his hips in slowly. He feels you completely, he's so big you can feel every single ridge of his cock. He starts at a slow but deep pace.
Your cheek rests against the cold glass. You could care less if anyone in the sky scrapers that line the sky can see you. Joshua is fucking you so hard, your brain has stopped working. The only thing you can process is the tip of his cock, kissing your cervix over and over again.
You rock your hips back, helping meet him with each thrust. The groans that leave his lips sound sinful. Leaning forward he starts kissing the side of your neck.
"Are you close?" He rasps.
"Yes." You whine.
Without saying a word, he pulls out of you. You can't even react before heâs flipping you around. He uses his enhanced strength to lift you up, as if you weigh nothing. He pulls your panties to the side before sliding you down his massive length. Closing your eyes, you lean your head back against the window. He's hitting a completely different angle in this position.
He thrust into you at a quick pace. His sweats slip further down his thigh with each thrust. Your back knocks against the glass over and over. His lips are anywhere they can reach. He starts by kissing your jaw and then moves down your neck.
Your fingers tangle in his dark hair. Tugging his head back, you desperately want to look at him. His lips part slightly as quiet moans pass his lips.
"Shuaâ" his name never sounds as sweet as it does falling from your lips in the haze of an orgasm.
His hips don't stop moving. He helps you ride out your high as your walls flutter against his cock.
Your hand talons into his shoulder, lost in a cock drunk haze.
His thrusts get sloppier as he rapidly approaches the edge. He moans your name like a sinful prayer. Similar to humans, he releases a cum like substance when he orgasms. He fills you to the brim, holding you flush against him. Leaning forward, he rests his head against your shoulder.
You're scared if he puts you down, you jelly legs won't work. He leaves a few open mouth kisses against your shoulder before he pulls away.
Slowly he pulls out of you. Gently, he sits your feet on the ground. Your legs feel like they're made of jello. He tugs your thong back over your core that's starting to drip out his release. He leaves you there just long enough for him to pull his pants up and to tuck his softening cock back inside them.
He lifts you up bridal style and carries you to the bathroom. He sits you down on the cold concrete counter. You immediately shiver at the feeling.
"Can you take off your panties?" Your eyes go wide. You aren't sure your abused core can take another orgasm tonight.
"I'm not going to fuck you anymore. I need to clean up my cum."
Lifting your hips you pull off your thong. You hold it out and he grabs it before tossing it in the hamper behind him. He reaches under the cabinet for a cloth.
You take this as your sign to spread your legs. A playful smile tugs at your lips. Dipping your fingers through your sensitive core, you collect some of his release. His cum like substance looks exactly like human cum. Itâs thick and milky, but instead of being salty and sometimes unpleasant, his is sweet. It reminds you almost of a subtle simple syrup. Sticking your fingers in your mouth you taste his sweet cum.
Joshua gives you a smile as he shakes his head at you. He runs the cloth under warm water before stepping between your spread legs. He gently cleans up the mess he's made of you.
Before pulling you off the counter, he stands between your legs and leans of kisses across your face. He has one hand on your butt and the other on your cheek. The hand that's on your cheek, he taps three times before pulling back.
"It's almost five, you need to sleep."
He pulls you off the counter and carries you to your room. He lays you down gently on the bed. Crawling under the covers, you wait for him to join you. He's over by the window that looks out into the city. He pulls back the curtains to block a little of the morning sun that will soon be rising.
He joins you in bed and pulls your body close to his. You're laying on your side with him firmly pressed behind you. You smile at the fact that you're no longer wearing panties and just a shirt.
"Sweet Dreams, Starlight."
GLITCHES AND STATIC
It's a night where you finally don't have to work. You contemplated staying in all night and just spending time with Joshua. Somehow Mingyu and Wonwoo convinced you to go out with them. They seem to be the only two that don't cause problems when they go out. Sitting in a bar near your place, Joshua comes over holding a bottle of beer and a weird lime green looking drink.
He slides in next to you. Wonwoo was telling you about a motorcycle he was looking to get soon. Mingyu slides in next to him, holding the same two drinks as Joshua.
"Why did you bring over battery acid?" Wonwoo asks, picking up and examining the drink.
"It's called luminescent." Mingyu responds.
"Please tell me someone didn't make a new drug." You sigh.
"The bartender said it's like PopRocks but more citrusy." Joshua chimes in.
"PopRocks makes me incredibly drunk after one." You've blacked out too many times because of that potent sparkly pink drink.
"I think Starry should drink the beer." Mingyu says. It's the best idea, Joshua can't actually get drunk. He really only drinks to blend in socially.
"What about us?" Wonwoo looks at the fluorescent green drink.
"I'll drink it, you can drive us home." Luckily Wonwoo and Mingyu are roommates and rode here together.
Joshua goes to move his hand to grab his drink, and you immediately catch his hand twitching and locking up. You definitely haven't seen that happen before. Resting your hand on his thigh, you give it a squeeze. He glances at you, moving his hand to his lap. Taking his wrist in your hand you rub slow circles into the underside where his skin is delicate.
Wonwoo and Mingyu are oblivious to what is happening as Mingyu is talks about some cute bartender he met.
Joshua keeps trying to squeeze his hand. Slowly, the glitch works its way out. He grabs your hand, bringing the top of it to his lips for a gentle kiss.
You give him a knowing smile.
"Shua, you need to try this luminescent drink."
"Alright." With his other hand, he picks up the glass filled with the electric liquid.
Soon a very buzzed Mingyu has convinced Wonwoo that they should play darts. You and Joshua are given a moment alone at the table.
Running your finger along the side of the beer bottle, you're mindlessly playing with the condensation. Joshua is still slowly sipping on the electric drink. He opted not to chug it like Mingyu did.
"Is the glitch with your hand new?"
"Kind of." He sighs, flexing the hand that glitched.
"How long has this been going on?" You hate that he didn't tell you the first time it happened.
"About two weeks ago." He looks down at the table, embarrassed. He absolutely hates anything like this that reminds him he's not human.
"Two weeks and you didn't tell me." You stare at the side of his head.
"Yeah. It's fine. It will work itself out." He looks at you and gives you a smile. As if he's trying to convince both of you that it's fine.
"No, it won't. I need to look at your software and fix it."
Mingyu lets out a cheer, catching both your attention. Joshua grabs his drink, taking a big gulp to help cut the tension.
He sets the glass down on the table. "Can we talk about this later?"
"Sure." This isn't a conversation that you want other people to hear necessarily. You don't want the team finding out about him glitching. Seungcheol might not be happy if one of his enforcers are having processing errors and glitches.
After Mingyu's poor decision to drink a beer after the luminescent drink, Joshua helps move a very drunk Mingyu to Wonwoo's car outside. You stand by the bike, watching everything unfold. Wonwoo reaches into the glove compartment and grabs a packet of jolt. It's a sweet substance that helps sober people up from alcohol and blue dust.
Wonwoo pulls the substance into his best friendâs mouth and slaps his cheek. Mingyu shakes his head and from a distance you can see he's already sobering up.
Joshua closes the car door and walks over to your bike. You hold out his helmet for him.
The ride back to your place doesn't take too long. Arriving back at your home, Joshua immediately heads off to the bathroom. You head off to the bedroom and grab something to change into. Opening the bathroom door, you're instantly greeted by steam and the sound of Joshua humming a song.
Stripping away your clothes, you toss them in the hamper. Opening the glass door, you step inside. Nothing is said as Joshua steps aside, giving you room for the water. You stand there, facing the facet. The hot water feels cleaning.
Joshua presses himself against you, wrapping his arms around your stomach. Neither of you say anything as he holds you.
He pulls away and grabs your strawberry scented body wash. He takes his time washing your body, making sure to massage your tense shoulders.
Getting out of the shower, you both take your time drying yourself off. You don't bother getting dressed.
"Why did you not tell me?" You finally break the screaming silence.
"Because I didn't want you to worry."
"Shua, we don't keep secrets." Since the moment you turned him on, you never hid anything from him. Long before you were romantically involved, he was still your friend and your companion. You promised him from the very beginning you would never keep secrets from him.
"I know and I'm sorry."
"Let me look at your software and upgrade you."
"It's fine? If it gets worse you can." You can tell by the look on his face this is a losing battle tonight.
"Fine." You grab your clothes off the counter. You pull on a baggy thin tshirt, and a lacy pink thong, this is the usual attire you walk around at home and sleep in.
You can feel Joshua's eye burning into you as you walk out of the bathroom. You head off to the kitchen. You need a glass of water. You don't want to go to bed upset and you just need a moment to cool off.
Leaning against the counter, you look out at the bright city. You hear Joshua before you see him. You look up and find him dressed in just his tight boxer-briefs.
"I don't want to go to bed mad." He says, stopping in front of you.
"I'm not mad." You're not lying to him. You aren't mad, you're more stressed than anything. "I'm just worried."
"I know you are, and I'm worried too." You both know deep down inside he should at least shut down for the night so he can reboot slowly.
You sit the water down on the counter. Holding your hand out, you wait for him to come close to you. He grabs your hand, stepping right in front of you. He places your hand on his chest. If he was human, you would be able to feel his heart beating.
You drum your finger three times right above the void of where his heart should be.
"It would beat for you." In a perfect world, Joshua wouldn't struggle with feeling inadequate about not being human. Him being an android changes nothing for you. You don't love him any less because of it.
You tap his chest three times again. "Mine beats only for you."
You lean against the counter. You take a moment focusing on him. Recently, he seems to be more emotional. The only reason that could possibly be is he's worried about something going wrong with his programming.
He places his hands on either side of you, caging you in against the counter.
"I'm sorry."
Things between you haven't always been like this. It wasn't until last year when Joshua started fighting shutting down a few times a week at night. He's been with you for about three years and you have been romantically involved since six months after you found him. Things between you have always been intense, but in the last year and half, you noticed how much Joshua struggles with the idea of not being a human.
"We're okay." You whisper.
Wrapping your arms around his neck, you pull his face closer to yours. Your lips touch, and the only thing your brain can think of is getting as close as possible to him. His hand grabs your hips, pulling you far enough away for him to slide his hand down your back, and to grab you butt.
You moan into his mouth, rolling your body towards him. He pulls away and immediately picks you up sitting you on the edge of the counter.
Instinctively, you spread your legs, and pull your panties to the side. He dips down and starts kissing your knee, making his way across your inner thigh. He kisses the top of your mound as he drags two fingers through your wet folds.
He focuses on licking your clit over and over again. Two of his fingers pump in and out of you, helping to stretch you out.
Your fingers tangle in his dark locks, hold his face close to your core. Looking down, you find him looking up at you through his lashes.
He eats you out like you're water in a blazing hot sun. Pushing your hips towards his face, you're growing desperate for your release. You just want him inside you, but you know he won't until you've came at least once.
He moves his fingers in a come hither motion, touching that spot inside of you that has you seeing stars.
The tidal wave hits you hard. Tugging on his hair, you try to anchor yourself. Your walls tug on his fingers and he keeps brushing your g spot.
"Fuckâ Shuaâ" your words are nothing more than a broken plea.
He pulls back smiling. He dips his two fingers in his mouth, cleaning up your release.
"You sound so pretty when you moan." He steps back and takes off his boxers.
He pumps his massive erection, helping to lube it up before he stretches you out. Your kitchen counters sit at the perfect height for him to be able to fuck you while you sit on them.
He leans in close, giving you a wicked grin before kissing you. You moan into his mouth as he runs the tip of his cock through your folds.
He always likes to tease you with just the tip a few times before he slowly pushes his whole length in.
Your legs wrap around him, pulling him fully inside. His rose tip kisses your cervix as he bottoms out.
Wrapping your arms around his neck, you crash your lips into his. He pushes his hips into yours at a slow and deep pace.
Time doesn't seem to exist when you're with Joshua like this. All that matters is just the two of you.
Leaning back, you look down at where you're connected, watching as he stretches you.
"Baby, take your shirt off." He tugs on the bottom of the thin fabric.
Pulling your shirt off and tossing it on the ground, you're left completely bare except for your panties he has pulled to the side.
Reaching forward, he grabs one of your breasts, groping it before he tweaks your nipple.
"Fuckâ" you moan.
Leaning back on your hands, you push your hips to the furthest edge of the counter. One of Joshua's hands rests on your core. His thumb rubs circles on your clit. He picks up his pace, thrusting into you.
He lifts your leg up over his shoulder. The new position has him hitting different areas then before.
"I'm close." You moan.
Heâs rubbing your clit harder, helping to push you over the edge.
"Oh fuck." Your eyes squeeze shut, and your head rolls back. Your orgasm hits hard. He doesn't stop thrusting or working on your clit. Unfamiliar pressure builds in your core. One specifically hard thrust makes you see stars, and liquid sprays from you, covering his crotch.
He gets a solid two thrust in before he fills you to the brim with his synthetic cum. He stops moving fully. Releasing your leg, he pulls you close to him. Your body is absolutely spent. Your head is resting on his shoulder. His large hand is running up and down your back, helping you soothe you.
"You've never done that before." He finally speaks.
"I don't think my legs can work."
"Let me clean you up and I'll carry you to bed."
Sitting on the counter, Joshua takes his time cleaning up the mess he made between your legs. He lifts you with ease, taking you to the bedroom.
It's not long before you're sound asleep in his arms.
-
It's another late night job. Minghao has a drive for you to look at. There is a meeting on the north side of the hub.
Soonyoung is already with Minghao, and Jeonghan is coming along to make sure no one is following you.
Minghao picked a better meeting place than Soonyoung is known to pick. You're at a little hole in the wall family restaurant. There is a flicking neon open sign at the door.
You're greeted by an older man who just gives you and Minghao a nod. He tends to like to come to this place for meetings. This sweet old lady is used to Minghao and his crew showing up.
Heâs at one of those L shaped booths in the back corner. He's got a sea of plates on the table. Soonyoung is next to him, eating from a plate of noodles.
Minghao is tapping away on his tablet. Jeonghan slides into the booth next to Soonyoung. You follow next to him. Joshua sits on the edge keeping guard.
"Jeonghan, did you come just for the food?" Minghao quips not looking up from the tablet.
"No, Cheol sent me."
"Does Cheol not trust us?" Soonyoung responds.
"Well, he knows we have a taste for blue dust, and he threatened to end all of us if we touch it while working." Jeonghan reached for an empty plate.
"You two idiots are the ones who did dust while you were working." You glare at him.
"How did Cheol find out about that?" Soonyoung asks, glancing up.
"I told him." You don't care that you snitched on them. Them being high is a liability.
"Then why did he send you to babysit, you were also high?" Minghao says glancing up from the tablet.
"Because he knows I'll stop it from happening again. He already threatened to throw me off the FleXeon tower if I fuck up again." The thing about Seungcheol is that he's the ring leader and the man in charge, and all of your group loves and respects him, but you all know he's a very capable man and should be feared.
"Heâs trying to get into Cheol's good graces by babysitting." You respond. You know Seungcheol is tough on Jeonghan but he cares about him the most.
Jeonghan starts dishing a plate of food. Him and Soonyoung start talking about the noodles.
Joshua reaches into his bag and pulls out your tablet. Minghao set down his chopsticks. Reaching into his jacket pocket he pulls out a drive. With a firm push, he slides it across the table.
Picking up the drive, you connect it to your tablet. Opening the files, you see something unexpected. You open a drive called "the wife", your brows knit together as you scroll through evidence of an affair unfolding.
"The CEOâs wife is cheating?"
"He's blackmailing her." Minghao closes his tablet.
"That's illegal." Soonyoung says between bites.
"We can add it to FleXeonâs long list." Jeonghan rolls his eyes.
"There is some code that's blocking some security footage that I canât figure out. I'm pretty sure you can break it."
"Should we be discussing this here?" Joshua finally speaks up.
"There isn't a soul in here and Ms. Rose knows to stay quiet. I make sure she's paid well for the trouble." You glance over to see the neon flickering open sign is turned off and the door is shut.
"I'll work on getting in. When do you want the drive back?"
"After you crack the code. Seungcheol wants a team meeting soon anywhere." Pulling the drive out, you hand it and your tablet back to Joshua. You notice immediately his hand glitches as he tries to grab the tablet. He closes his eyes as if he's trying to focus. His hand finally works and he's able to put your tablet away.
Minghao flags over Ms. Rose and hands her a hefty wad of cash. You and the boys all make your way out the door. Soonyoung and Minghao head off to their care and you follow Jeonghan off towards his. Seungcheol put him in charge of being the driver tonight.
Arriving at the apartment, Joshua is holding your bag and your hand. The elevator ride is quiet except for the hum of the elevator. The doors ding and slide open.
Walking into your apartment, you take off your shoes and immediately get your other tablet out. Moving to the kitchen table, you start sorting through all coding.
Joshua disappears for a while before coming back dressed just in a pair of sweatpants. Glancing over into the living area by the window, you see him messing with his hand. He needs to power down and reboot but you don't want to argue with him tonight.
"Are you hungry?" Joshua asks, walking towards the kitchen area.
"Yeah. I didn't really feel like eating at the meeting." In those kinds of setting, you don't normally have an appetite.
"I can cook you dinner."
"Can you make us ramyeon?"
"Yeah."
He moves around the kitchen quietly while you work on finding the coding Minghao mentioned. This job seems bigger than anything your job has ever done. Seungcheolâs goal is to take down FleXeon and to steal money from them. Once this job is done, and if it goes down correctly, you will have enough money for the rest of your life.
Once this job is done, maybe you and Joshua can find a bigger place or take a trip somewhere. You stop typing and just stare at your tablet. Maybe you and Joshua could live a more comfortable life. A life that doesn't involve you constantly doing something illegal. Honestly you don't really need a bigger space. This loft style apartment is perfect for you both. As long as you're together, you don't feel like you need more.
"Starlight?" Joshua sits down at the table across from you.
"Yeah?"
"You're zoning out."
He puts your bowl down in front of you. You close your and pick up your chopsticks. "I'm just thinking about what we can do after this job."
"What do you want to do?" He picks up his own chopsticks
"I don't know. Maybe we could leave the crew and stop working these jobs."
"We can if you want to."
"I thought about even moving."
Joshua glances around the apartment. "But this is our home."
"I know. I love this apartment and it feels like our home. Maybe we can take a vacation. Get some space from this city."
He reaches across the small table taking your hand in his. "I'll follow you anywhere you want to go." Joshua loves you so much, and it's not because you programmed him to love you. You made sure when you fixed his programming after you found him, you gave him emotions and free will. He fell in love with you because he wanted to.
You aren't sure what you want to do, you just know that whatever happens, you want him by your side.
THE NEON GLOW IN YOUR EYES
The lights district is definitely your least favorite part of the city. You finished working another stake out and a handful of the guys convinced you and Joshua to go out.
Standing by the table, you watch the large tv that hangs in the middle. There is a press conference with FleXeon CEO Kang Dohyun. Your eyes focus trying to read the subtitles as they sprawl across the screen. The company is working on putting out another line of androids similar to Joshua. It doesn't sit right with you that people are making androids to basically be worker and sex bots. Next to you are Chan, Soonyoung and Mingyu. Joshua is at the bar with Wonwoo and Jeonghan.
Glancing over, you see Chan pull out a container of blue dust. At this point, half your crew does it during their off time. You tried it a few times when you first joined the crew. The powder feels like instant adrenaline with heightened emotions that fades into relaxation.
You think the only ones in your crew who donât mess with this stuff are Seungcheol, Joshua, Wonwoo, and you.
Soonyoung nudges your shoulder holding out the vile light blue powder in it. "You want a bump?"
"Soonyoungâ"
"Come on, you're stressed and this will help." He raises his brow.
You glance over at the bar, seeing Joshua talk to the boys. He must feel you looking at him, he turns and gives you a smile, tilting his head.
Maybe Soonyoung is right, maybe this will take the edge off. Grabbing the vile from his hand, you pour a small dab on the back of your hand. You lick it off in one quick swipe or the tongue.
Taking a slow deep breath, the high feels like ice rushing through your veins. Your eyes feel incredibly heavy for a moment. The flutter and you instantly see Joshua's eyes locked on yours.
Joshua hands his drink off to Wonwoo and rushes over to you. Every single nerve in your body feels electric. The moment he's in front of you, he rests his hand on your cheek.
"Starlight, what did you do?" He leans in close so you can hear him over the booming music.
"Dust." Your pupils are blown wide as you share him.
Joshua hits Soonyoung's arm capturing his attention. "How much did she take?!" Joshua shouts over the music.
"A small hit, she's fine. Give her an hour and she'll be relaxed."
"I don't want her on the back of my bike in an hour."
Leaning in close Joshua brushes his nose against yours, helping to center you.
"Baby."
"Yes, Shua?"
Wonwoo and Jeonghan join the rest of the group. Wonwoo instantly can tell by Joshua's uneasiness what has unfolded.
"Did she take a hit?" Jeonghan asks.
"Yeah!" Chan shouts over the music.
"She hasn't done dust in years." Jeonghan says, patting Joshua on the back.
"Do you want me to get the jolt out of my car?" Wonwoo asks Joshua.
Joshua takes your face in both hands. There is a neon glow from the lights above shining in your blown pupils. He's seen you drunk before, but he's never seen you high.
"Do you want Wonwoo to get you a jolt?"
"I don't want to think anymore tonight." Between trying to take down FleXeon and worrying about Joshua and his software glitches, for once, you just want to shut down your brain that won't stop spinning.
"Wonwoo, later can you take the bike home and I'll drive your car?"
"Yeah." Wonwoo is a wise man, and he's well aware that something deeper is unfolding.
The booming music feels like it's rattling your chest. Joshua's hand stays on your waist, holding you close. Your eyes find Soonyoung's blown pupils staring back at you. For a while now, Soonyoung has had a love for the shimmery blue dust. He's the type that will take another hit before the relaxation kicks in.
Soonyoung has his eyes on a pretty blonde girl on the dance floor. He starts whispering something in her ear.
Before you start to dip down, you just want to enjoy this feeling. Reaching out, you grab Joshua's hand.
"I want to dance." You say with your lips against his ear.
He just nods. He takes your hand, leading to the crowded dance floor. Soonyoung is already dancing with the blonde, and Chan has found himself a pretty girl.
The whole time you're dancing with Joshua, every single sensation feels heightened to the max. The feeling of his hands on your body is electric.
Your hands are wrapped around his neck, pulling him down to you. Connecting your lips to the side of his neck, you kiss your way across his synthetic skin. Running your tongue along the "J05HU9" that runs down the side of his neck.
"I want you." You say just loud enough for him to hear.
He pulls away and looks at you with big doe eyes. He looks utterly confused as he just blinks at you. "Not like this."
He doesn't like having sex with you when you're drunk. You know there's no way he'll have sex with you while you're high.
"Oh." You pull back.
Shaking his head, he grabs your hand. "Starlight, not like this."
A slow, steady warmth starts taking over you. Your heightened emotions are making you crash. The feeling of rejection is crushing.
"Baby." He takes your face in both hands. "We're okay."
All you can do is blink at him. "You don't want me?"
"I always want you. I just need to take care of you tonight."
He leans in close, resting his nose against yours. He presses his lips to yours for three quick kisses.
"Should we sit down?" You pull back from him.
Taking your hand, he leads you back toward the table where Wonwoo, Jeonghan and quite high Mingyu are sitting.
If you were sober, you might enjoy the fact that Jeonghan is trying to be on his best behavior since Seungcheol clearly put him in his place.
Joshua helps slide you into the booth. He sits down next to you. His hand laces with yours, holding it in his lap.
Slowly, your heightened emotions are starting to dissipate. A jelly-like feeling is starting to take over. You feel incredibly calm and relaxed.
Closing your eyes you lean against Joshua. "I'm ready for bed." You mumble. It's been over an hour since you took a hit and your body is starting to crash.
"I think it's time Starry goes home." Jeonghan says before taking a sip of his beer.
"Do you want my car?" Wonwoo asks.
"How is Mingyu going to get home if you just have the bike?" Joshua asks.
"We all should head out. I'll take the bike, and you can take my car." Jeonghan says.
"Soonyoung and Chan left with those girls. I'm good riding the bike."
Joshua gets out of the booth and picks you up effortlessly. He holds you close, making his way through the crowded club. Mingyu follows behind Wonwoo closely.
Arriving at Jeonghan's car, Joshua sits you in the passenger seat. Looking over at Wonwoo's car, you see him pouring a jolt into Mingyu's mouth. Joshua works on buckling you up before giving Jeonghan his motorcycle helmet and his jacket.
Joshua hops in the car. "We'll be home soon."
The ride back to your apartment feels like a blur. Joshua parks the car and Jeonghan pulls up behind you on the bike. Jeonghan helps Joshua get you upstairs. Joshua lays you in bed and strips away your clothes, leaving you in just your panties. Going over to the closet, he grabs a baggy shirt and helps you pull it on.
"I need to thank Jeonghan, and then I'll be back." He leans down and kisses your forehead.
Heading out into the living area he finds Jeonghan sipping on a glass of water looking out into the fluorescent cityscape.
"I haven't seen her like that since she found you." Jeonghan says. Joshua doesn't say anything. He's not quite sure how to respond. "I used to think what she has with you isn't healthy for her, but I think it's the opposite. You ground her in a good way. You've become a home for her. She loves you so much, and it's clear you love her."
"Jeonghan, I love her so much."
"Did she program you to love her?" Jeonghan glances over at the android standing next to him.
"No. I have free will, emotions and feelings. The only thing she did was program me to make me have normal emotions humans have." Joshua's eyes bounce around the room. "When I first told her I liked her, she asked me if I made that choice on my own. Or if I felt like I owed her something."
"Do you think you owe her something?" Jeonghan loves you and only wants to protect you.
"No. I just can't help that I fell in love with her."
Jeonghan reaches up, patting Joshua on the back. "I used to worry about her all the time. Cheol found her right after she lost her family. She was so lost and lonely. He took her in and she joined our group. She used to live with me in the beginning. I would find her crying sometime in the middle of the night. Those nights used to rip my heart out. I just wanted to see her happy, and I hoped one day she would find someone who could love and care for her like she deserved." He pauses and looks back at the city. "I didn't think it would be an android she found, but finding you made a light start burning inside of her. Falling in love with you made her so bright."
"Jeonghan."
"You don't have to say anything else. Just do me a favor and always take care of her. Even if she wants to walk away from this crew, I just want to know you'll always be with her."
"I will."
"I should go." Jeonghan pats him on his back one more time before heading out.
Joshua stands there for a moment, locked into place. He knows before him you were a mess, and he doesn't remember his life before you turned him on, but he knows what little life he had before you got together, hollow and empty before you fell in love.
His hand feels weird. He looks down and tries to squeeze his hand. He takes a moment, trying to focus on getting rid of the glitch. He's just glad Jeonghan didn't witness this. It takes minutes before he starts feeling normal.
Walking back into the bedroom, he finds you sound asleep in bed. He strips away his clothes and stays just in his boxes-briefs. Pulling the covers back he curls up next to you.
He pulls your body close to his. He kisses the top of your head and whispers, "I love you."
REBOOT AND RESTART
Stationed outside Quantum Tower where CEO Kang lives, you're in the back of a truck with Jeonghan. Joshua is standing outside acting as a guard. Chan is roaming the area with Vernon.
Sitting in the driverâs seat is Seungcheol. It's quite unusual for him to go out on missions. He's got Jihoon at the base, his third in command, with some of the secondary team at FleXeon tower with Minghao looking into their security coding, while Wonwoo, Mingyu, and Soonyoung are running the perimeter there.
"So, the wife is fucking one of the broad members?" Seungcheol asks, looking into the back of the mirror.
"It seems that way." You're tapping away at your tablet. You're trying to access the wifeâs financial records.
"It looks like she was being blackmailed by someone anonymous that the CEO hired." Jeonghan chimes in.
"Why is he blackmailing her?" Seungcheol asks.
"Because he's afraid she knows too much." You've managed to find her records and discover she's been paying large sums of money to an unknown account.
"Something else is going on with her." You say.
"What?" Jeonghan asks.
"A different account is sending her large payments from her."
There are two taps on the door, before Joshua slides the door open. Chan and Vernon pile in.
"We got to go. Security is doing a perimeter sweep."
You pull the drive from your tablet and hand it to Seungcheol. "Have Minghao look into this. See if he can figure out who owns this account. "
Seungcheol slides it into this jacket pocket. Jeonghan crawls into the front seat next to Seungcheol. Vernon and Chan buckle up.
"Alright let's head out." Seungcheol nods and shifts the car into drive. Joshua moves into the seat next to you.
Looking down at his lap, you see Joshua's hand is fully locked up. Reaching down, you take his wrist in your hand. You slowly start dragging your thumb across the delicate synthetic skin on the inside of his wrist, helping to soothe him.
No matter what happens tonight, you know that Joshua needs to shut down and reboot.
The ride to Seungcheol place is about twenty minutes. He lives in an apartment on the outskirts of the hub.
Seungcheol parks the car and everyone piles out. Entering the elevator, it's quite full. Joshua is pressed against the wall with your back plastered to his front. His arm is wrapped around you, holding you close to him. Glancing up, you find Jeonghan carefully watching you. Closing your eyes, you lean your head back against Joshua's chest.
The doors dig and Seungcheol steps out. The whole crew follows closely behind. Piling into Seungcheol place, you find the girl that lives with him. You don't know much about her. According to Seungcheol she's a childhood friend he looks after. The moment she sees everyone enter, she scurries off towards her bedroom. The door closes and shortly after Jihoon, Soonyoung and Minghao walk in.
Vernon sits down on the couch with Chan. Jeonghan immediately goes off to the kitchen. Seungcheol is standing by the window with Minghao and Soonyoung scrolling through his tablet.
Joshua is standing next to you. His hand keeps glitching. Looking down, you see him trying to get it to stop. Reaching down, you grab his hand. Maybe if you mess with it, it will help distract him.
"Kang is definitely making lavender haze, and his wife is well aware of it. It's clear he's just not making tech for androids like Joshua." Seungcheol walks over. "I think if we shut down his system, we can copy the software coding he used for his androids, wipe his accounts and set him up."
"How would we set him up?" Jeonghan asks, walking back into the living room.
"We're gonna make sure everyone knows FleXeon created lavender haze."
"I think between me and Starry, we could hack the programming and any of the FleXeon androids can be reset to have emotions and memories like Joshua." You knew at some point the software edits you did to fix Joshua would end up being used again. If Seungcheol wants to fix the FleXeon androids, you will. All the androids he has out in the city being workers and sex bots deserve a chance to feel human like Joshua.
You give Joshua's hand a squeeze. "We could do it."
"Hao, I'm going to have you see who is paying the wife." Seungcheol tosses the drive towards him.
Minghao catches it and salutes him. "Next week I want to send Soonyoung and Vernon into the building. Starry, see if you can shut down their security system for a few minutes."
"Okay." You're pretty sure you should be able to do that no problem.
"Alright, you're all free. I should check on Angel." Angel is the girl who lives with him. She's one of the few people who Seungcheol will show his softer side to.
Joshua walks over to the table and grabs both your helmets. You're exhausted, it's almost three in the morning. This mission tonight has lasted longer than planned.
Heading down to the garage, the elevator is filled with most of the group. Jeonghan and Jihoon stayed behind.
The doors open and everyone immediately starts going their separate ways. Wonwoo and Mingyu head off to Wonwoo's car. Vernon and Chan head off to their cars. Soonyoung and Minghao both walk towards their bikes they took here.
Joshua takes his time helping you put on your helmet.
"How is your hand?" You ask, watching him put on his own helmet.
"It's fine." He squeezes his hand to show you it works. You both know it's not truly fine.
He hops on the bike, and holds his hand out. You hop on behind him. Wrapping your arms around his waist, you hold on. Driving out of the garage, you're hit with the sight of the wet asphalt. It must have rained while you were having your meet. The city neon haze leaves the wet roads glimmering in a glow of turquoise.
The ride back home is short. Joshua seems too quiet. You hate this feeling of impending doom.
Entering the home you share, Joshua takes your helmet before he heads off to the bedroom.
Following behind him, you start getting ready for bed. You get dressed in your normal sleeping attire. Joshua leaves after stripping down to a pair of boxers.
Walking into the living area, you find him staring out into the city below.
"Shua." He turns around.
"I won't fight you on shutting down tonight." You both know there is no point in fighting about this anymore.
"You'll only be down for about two hours. I just need to reboot your system."
"Okay." He lets out a sigh.
Walking off to the bedroom, Joshua lays on his side of the bed. Crawling into the bed next to him, you sit on your knees. He leans up, resting his hand on your cheek. He presses his lips to yours for a kiss.
He rests his hand on your thigh and gives it three taps. "I love you too." You respond.
He reaches behind his left ear and holds down a button that is barely visible. His eyes turn a bright blue before they shut. His whole body goes limp as he powers off.
Your eyes instantly well with tears. Reaching out, you rest your hand where his heart would be located. In order for his system to properly reboot he'll need to be shut down for two hours. You have this sudden feeling of loneliness that takes over. Crawling off the bed, you grab the tablet that controls his operating system.
You open it up and a hologram of his system appears. You go into his power settings, and set it for him to reboot back in two hours.
Closing the tablet, you look at him lying there completely lifeless. You know he needs to reboot every so often, and you even fight him about it, but you hate this.
Crawling back into bed, you curl up against him. Resting your head on his chest, you can't help but cry. Your tears continue to fall until you finally fall asleep.
When Joshua finally reboots, he instantly notices your tear stained cheeks. He knows you've cried yourself to sleep.
"Starlight." He whispers.
Your eyes slowly flutter open. "Shua?"
"I'm awake, and I'm okay."
"Can you hold me?" You whisper.
He moves you both so you're lying on your side and he's pressed up against you. He presses a few feather light kisses to the side of your neck.
He taps your stomach gently three times. "Goodnight, Starlight."
-
It's been five days since Joshua rebooted his system, and he may not want to admit it, but it didnât fix his glitch with his hand.
You're in the lights district again. Soonyoung and Jeonghan are yapping about something. Mingyu is flirting with a girl at the bar, you're sitting at the table with Wonwoo, and Joshua.
Soonyoung walks over and pulls out a bag of blue dust. He holds it up towards you and gives you a wicked smile.
"Come on pretty girl, you know you wanna hit this." Soonyoung loves flirting with you. Joshua tries not to be fazed by Soonyoung, but it's hard sometimes.
"Soonyoung." You narrow your eyes at him.
"Last time you did this, I thought you and Joshua were gonna fuck on the dance floor." You instantly cringe at the reminder of what unfolded between you and your partner. His rejection still stings, but you understand why he did it.
"Knock it off." You respond.
"You act like you've never done dust before. My sweet Starry, we all know you're not miss innocent." Jeonghan fully focuses on what's unfolding.
"Soonyoung, knock it off. I don't know why you're flirting or antagonizing Starry, but you need to stop." Jeonghan put his hand on his shoulder.
"No drugs tonight." Joshua chimes in. He rests hand on your thigh, before giving it a squeeze.
"It's time for us to leave." You say.
You and Joshua get up and head out of the crowded club. You lace your fingers with Joshua, weaving your way through the club. Stepping outside, you notice the wet asphalt that has a neon glow reflecting off of it. You must have missed the rain while you were in the club.
Joshua releases your hand and grabs your helmet. "Where do you want to go?"
"I'm hungry."
"Do you want to go to Sarks?" Sarks is a little hole in the wall restaurant near your apartment.
"Yes."
Joshua helps you put on your helmet. Hoping on the bike, you sit behind Joshua with your arms wrapped around him. The ride to the restaurant isn't too long. This place has become a place that you and Joshua started coming to after late nights out. The place is located a couple blocks from your apartment. It's on the corner of a twelve story apartment building.
Walking inside, you're immediately told to pick your own table. This place is filled to the brim with people who work late. A few of the servers here are FleXeon androids, just like Joshua. Ever since you changed Joshua's software, you always wondered if you could change your favorite android Cherry's. She's a sweet girl, who was clearly programmed to act like the sweet girl next door. If Seungcheol's plan goes correctly, you want to give her the life she deserves.
She walks over to your booth and takes both your orders. You hand over the menu and watch as she walks away.
"What are you thinking about?" Joshua asks.
"I just hope if Cheol's plan goes correctly, maybe I can reprogram Cherry like I did you."
"She's sweet." Joshua looks over at your waitress putting your order into the system. "Does she just power down here every night?"
"Probably." It makes you sad to think about the fact that all she knows how to do is work. You aren't sure what Joshua's job was before you found him, but based on his original programming you're pretty sure he was supposed to be a sex bot.
"Cheol's plan will work, and we can save her. Maybe she can move in with some of the boys until we can help set her up." Joshua gives you a sweet smile.
"That's a good idea." You hope to help give other androids a life.
SYNTHETIC TEARS AND HIGH STRUNG EMOTIONS
You've both had the day off and you've spent the day locked away in your apartment.
Standing in the shower together, you watch as Joshua scrubs his shampoo into his hair. He stops moving and just stares at you with a blank stare. Immediately, you know his hand and possibly his arm is frozen. In the last couple days his glitch had gotten worse.
You don't want to fight about upgrading him, but you know thatâs what you have to do.
His eyes start to dodge yours. He turns around so his back is to you. He finally gets his arm to move again. Stepping closer, you wrap your arms around him. Your cheek rests between his shoulder blades against his wet synthetic skin.
"I don't want to talk about it in the shower." He breaks the silence.
"Okay." You run your hand across the wet skin just below his bellybutton.
Getting out of the shower Joshua dries off quickly and pulls on a pair of sweats. By the way he rushes out of the bathroom you would swear he's avoiding you.
You take your time drying yourself off and applying your sweet scented lotions and oils. You get dressed in a pair of panties and baggy shirt.
Walking into the main living space, you find Joshua at the stove. He's making what you assume is ramyeon.
Heading over to the fridge you grab a bottle of juice. You look at Joshua watching as he's focused on cooking.
"I thought we should eat." He doesn't need food to survive. He only eats so he can feel more human.
"I'm hungry."
"Can you set the table?" It's clear he's trying to distract himself from the necessary conversation you need to have.
"Absolutely."
You grab some napkins and two pairs of chopsticks. Joshua dishes two bowls before bringing them over. He places the bowl in front of you. He sits down across from you.
You both eat in silencehe looming, much needed conversation, hanging over both of you like a dark cloud.
You take your first bite of ramyeon. Placing your chopsticks on the table, you give him a sad smile. He looks down at his empty bowl. Neither of you can avoid this any longer.
"Shua."
He closes his eyes and tilts his head back. "I know."
"You have let me upgrade you. If you keep glitching like this, a systematic error could pop up in your software."
He doesn't say anything, he just stands up. He grabs both your dishes and walks over to the sink. He doesn't bother cleaning them. He just rinses them with water.
"Joshua." You stand you. You don't want to play games right now. You just want him to listen to you.
He walks towards the living area. You follow him closely.
"I don't want you to upgrade me. It's a mild glitch, I'm fine." He sits down on the couch with a huff.
"Clearly you're not fine." You love him so damn much, but sometimes he's too stubborn. "Your mild glitch will lead to something worse if you don't let me fix it."
"No." He leans back pinching the bridge of his nose.
"Joshuaâ" He stares at for a long moment before standing back up.
He doesn't respond. He just walks over to the big window that overlooks the city. You stand frozen in place near the couch.
"Joshua, stop being stubborn about this." You hate that he never makes this easy on you. "If I don't fix this, the error could be irreparable. If we're not careful, it could corrupt your software, and I could lose you. I need you to realize I don't think I could live without you."
He turns around and you instantly recognize the sadness in his eyes. "What if something happens when you upgrade me? I'm absolutely terrified I'm going to shut down for an upgrade and I won't remember a thing when I wake up." You have this same fear, but you trust yourself enough to know that won't happen.
"You have to trust me." He walks towards you in two big steps.
"I do trust you. Just like you can't live without me, I donât want to exist if I don't remember everything we have."
He drops to his knees in front of you. He rests his head against your stomach. His arms wrap around you, holding you close. Mindlessly you run your fingers through his hair, helping to soothe him.
"I won't let anything go wrong." You close your eyes as tears slide down your cheek.
"You can do the upgrade." He pulls back, and you see his glossy eyes, slowly leaking tears. Just like humans, androids have the ability to cry. "Should we do it tonight?" He picks himself off the floor.
"Yeah."
He stands in front of you. He leans down pressing his lips to yours. Pulling away slightly his noses rest against yours. "I love you." You both are truly in love, but it's rare you say those three words. Normally, you communicate it by three simple taps on the other person's body.
"I love you too."
He laces his fingers with yours, leading you off to the bedroom. He releases your hand and walks over to the shelf by the window. He grabs your tablet that you use to monitor the software, and the cable that connects behind his ear.
He hands off the equipment and lays down on the bed, in the same spot he sleeps in every night.
He blankly stares at the ceiling. The vice grip on your heart is making you nauseous. This is the last thing you want to do. But you know this needs to be done.
"I'm sorry." You truly are. You wish that you didn't have to do this. Upgrading his system scares you, just as much as it scares him.
"It's okay, Starlight." He reaches out for your hand. He brings it towards his lips and presses three kisses to the top of your delicate skin. "I love you." He releases your hand.
Closing your eyes, you try your hardest not to cry. "I love you too."
Taking the cord, you connect it into the small port hidden behind his ear. Plugging it into your tablet, the hologram of his software pops up. You start taking away the coding of his software.
"The software update should take about four hours."
"Okay. Get some sleep while it updates." He glances over at you.
Crawling across the bed closer to him, you lean down and press your lips to his. You kiss him like this is the last time you might get to kiss him. "I'll be right next to you when you wake." You can't help the salty tears that slide down your cheeks.
He reaches up resting his hand on your cheek. "I'll see you in a little while."
He pulls his hand away. You start the updating process. His eyes turn bright blue before they go completely dark as he shuts down.
For the first hour of his update, you lay in bed next to him, watching the tablet to make sure nothing goes wrong. You stay awake until your eyes have grown too tired to stay open.
You dream of Joshua. You dream of a life away from this neon city. You find yourself laying in the tall grass under the warm sun, curled up in his arms. On your finger is a matching gold band that both you and him wear. There's a warmth that fills your chest, that he's your husband.
You're woken up to the feeling of the bed moving. Your eyes slowly flutter open, and you find Joshua awake, laying next to you.
"Joshua?" Youâre terrified he won't have his memories.
"Hi, Starlight."
"Are you okay?" You push yourself up.
He nods and gives you a smile. "All my memories are still there."
All the worries that have been eating away at you instantly disappear. Your eyes instantly start to water.
"Baby, don't cry." He hates seeing you upset.
"I was so worried." You push the blanket off you. You push yourself up and crawl into his lap. He rests his hand on your cheek, brushing away your salty tears.
"I'm okay. No need to worry anymore."
Wrapping your arms around his neck, you crash your lips into his.
His strong hands roam your back under your shirt. You pull away from the kiss, long enough to pull off your shirt.
Joshua maneuvers both of you so you're on your back and he's hovering over you.
He leans in, pressing multiple kisses on your lips before he starts leaving a trail of kisses across your jaw and down your neck.
Not much is said as he kisses away his across your chest, taking his time to toy with each of you nipples. He tags his tongue across your stomach. He stops at the top of your panties.
You're impatient and just want him to touch you. "Shuaâ" you plead.
Hooking his fingers into the top of your panties, he slides them down your thigh. Lying in the bed, completely bare, you stare at him with a mixture of lust and love in your eyes.
"What do you want, Starlight?" Normally, you would tell him to fuck you, but right now, you don't want that. You want him to be as close as possible as he can be to you.
"I just want you."
A smile tugs at his lips. He hops off the bed and makes quick work of removing his sweatpants.
"I don't need foreplay, I just want you."
He walks over to the dresser and pulls out the little container of lube. Even though his cock is self lubricating, he needs to make sure you're wet enough for him. He crawls on to the bed towards you. Clicking the container open, he pours some of the cool lube onto your core. He takes his time massaging you and helping to prep you for his massive size. He clicks it shut again and starts pumping his length, helping to lube up his cock.
Spreading your legs wide, you welcome him. Sex between you is always passionate, and can sometimes be on the rougher side. Right now you don't want that. You just want things to be nice and slow.
He pushes the tip of his cock in, earning a gasp from you. "You feel so good."
Your hand talons into his shoulder pulling him closer to you. You want him as physically close as he can be. His nose rests against yours as he pushes the rest the way in, the tip of his length is kissing your cervix.
He's resting on his knees, practically plastered against you. Reaching up, you hold his face in your hands. He's not moving, he's giving your body a moment to adjust to his size.
"You're the best thing that's ever happened to me." You say as tears slide down your cheek.
"You're the best thing that could have ever happened to me." He gives you a smile that makes you feel like mush. "I can't imagine a life where I'm not by your side."
He starts moving at a slow but deep pace. The room is filled with echoing sounds of skin hitting skin and your moans and whimpers.
Your hands roam his body, touching anywhere you can possibly reach. His lips are constantly on yours, or kissing the side of your neck. He gently nips at your skin, definitely leaving marks in his wake.
The feeling of his cock stretching you out, with each thrust is intoxicating. Reaching between your bodies, your fingers toy with your clit, helping to push you closer and closer to the edge.
"Baby I can tell you're close." He moans against your neck.
You rub your sensitive clit harder, pushing you closer to the edge. He pulls back so he's sitting on his knees between your spread legs. He lifts one of your legs resting it against his chest. He moves your hand away from your core. He rests his hand on your mound, and with his thumb he starts quickly rubbing your clit. Every muscle in your body tightens. Squeezing your eyes shut, you let out a loud moan. You high hits you like a ton of bricks.
Your orgasm hits hard and fast. Joshua never stops moving. He picks up his pace a little, chasing his own release.
"Please cum." You beg him.
He drops your leg and moves so he's hovering over you again. He crashes his lips into yours as he comes hard. He feels you to the brim with his sweet release.
Slowly, he stops moving, but doesn't pull out. He pulls his face away from yours and gives you the sweetest smile. "I love you."
Gently you tap his lower back three times. "I love you too."
He drags his thumb across your tear stained cheeks.
"I'm sleepy." You sigh.
"Let me clean you up, and then you can sleep."
Joshua slowly removes himself from you, before he takes his time cleaning you up. Neither of you bother getting dressed for bed, you both curl up in bed naked together.
OH THE LAVENDER HAZE
It's three in the morning and everyone is together for the big heist. Everything your crew has been working towards has led up tonight. Standing in Seungcheol's apartment you watch him as he stands in the kitchen area, talking to the girl who lives with him. She looks just as concerned as you would be if Joshua was going on this mission without you. The whole entire crew is here tonight.
Seungcheol walks back in. "Alright, here is the plan."
The plan is to split off into three separate crews. Seungcheol, Jeonghan, Wonwoo, and Joshua will go in Mingyu's car where he'll act as the getaway driver.
Vernon, Chan, Jihoon, are gonna be running security outside the building.
You and Minghao are going to be breaking into the security office with Soonyoung to shut down the whole system and copy all the files.
"Any questions or concerns?" Seungcheol asks.
"Do we have another person with Starry and Hao?" Wonwoo asks. You glance over at Joshua to see he looks anxious. Soonyoung is a very capable person of keeping both of you safe. Soonyoung can be vicious and even deadly if he needs to be. You've seen him get into fights and they're terrifying. Minghao is also extremely capable of protecting both of you. The gun he keeps tucked into his waistband and the knife he keeps concealed is enough to keep you safe. You're pretty confident in your own fighting abilities. When you joined the crew, Soonyoung and Wonwoo taught you to fight to protect yourself.
"We'll be okay." You chime in.
Joshua grabs your hand. He instantly squeezes it and stares at you with the same anxious look.
"Let's go."
"I'm team one, Jihoon you're team two, and Soonyoung you're team three." Seungcheol says.
Everyone starts heading out of the apartment. You and Joshua linger behind for a moment. He takes your face in both hands. He smiles before leaning in for a searing kiss. It definitely feels as if this could be a goodbye kiss and that's scary. Joshua's team is not going to have it easy. They're going to have to take out a lot of guards.
"I love you, be safe." You say with your lips against his.
"I love you too, and you be safe as well. Listen to Hao and Soonyoung. They will both keep you safe."
Following everyone down to the cars, you get in the back seat of the car Soonyoung is driving.
It's pouring outside. The rain leaves the asphalt with a neon turquoise glow.
Reaching into your bag, you pull out Joshua's tablet. You open it up and immediately his hologram pops up. You scroll through his coding, making sure there are absolutely no errors in sight.
Minghao glances into the back seat. "He's going to be fine."
"I know." You close the tablet and stick it back in your bag. "I'm just worried."
"Quit stressing about your robo boy. He's going to be fine." Soonyoung chimes in.
Arriving at the FleXeon building, Minghao already has the cameras up. You're working on shutting down their alarm system. Mingyu's car pulls up behind you. Soonyoung reaches into his bag and pulls out ear pieces for all three of you.
"No matter what happens, you both need to listen to me." He says. You and Soonyoung might butt heads often, but you're well aware he's a good leader. He'll make sure nothing goes wrong. Getting out of the car, the three of you pull up your mask and your hoods. The rain helps your cover.
The alarm system is fully down and Minghao has tricked the system into thinking nothing is wrong. After many nights casing this place, Soonyoung leads you both off to the side door that's near the security office.
He makes quick work, knocking two guards unconscious. The three of you rush down to the hall to the security room. Minghao immediately plugs his device in and works on shutting down the security system.
Soonyoung is standing at the door with his gun drawn. You watch him carefully for a moment before you start sorting through the system coding.
The second you're into the file database you start making copies of everything.
-
The moment Soonyoung gives the signal that everything is clear, Seungcheol leads team one into the building. Seungcheol's goal tonight is to not only steal all the company's data, but to also steal any tech they're storing.
Heading up to the lab is where they encounter their first batches of guards. Seungcheol's original plan was to knock them unconscious, but when one of them sends a bullet slicing through Joshua's synthetic skin, that's when things take a turn. Jeonghan and Wonwoo are both incredibly good shots. The two of them take down most of the guards while Seungcheol and Joshua knock out the others.
Walking up to the lab door, they're relieved to see that the lockâs been shut off. Stepping inside Joshua winces at the sight of different androids like him. Some of them aren't fully built, while others look like they're fully operational.
Joshua walks over towards this. Wonwoo puts his hand on his shoulder. "We'll get them later."
Seungcheol starts searching around. He finds a latch that opens another door. In there they find the machine that makes lavender haze.
"Got âem." Seungcheol starts snapping photos of everything. He grabs his duffle bag and starts filling it with close to a million dollars worth of lavender haze. Jeonghan disappears for a while and comes back holding wads of cash.
"Where is that from?" Joshua asks.
"I found a room with a safe in it."
"How did you get the safe open?" Seungcheol asks.
"I shot it, obviously."
Wonwoo barks out a laugh, and Seungcheol just rolls his eyes.
"Wonwoo, go with Jeonghan and start filling all the bags with the money. Joshua, start taking the androids to the van."
-
Through the security camera's tablet, you watch as Joshua moves through the building quickly. He's carrying as many androids as he can to the van Mingyu is in. Mingyu is helping load them into the back quickly.
Tapping away at your computer, you know you probably have another twenty minutes until you have all the data copied over. Your goal once you're done is to send a virus to FleXeonâs system. You and Minghao worked together to make itto nearly impossible to stop viruses.
"How is team one doing?" Minghao asks Soonyoung.
"Cheol says they need another thirty."
"I can keep the system down." You respond, not bothering to look up from your device.
"I found all the hidden files for the formula for lavender haze." Minghao chimes in.
"Make double copies of that."
These passing twenty minutes are some of the most stressful of your life. The data has finished copying and you're making sure to monitor the cameras. Your eyes go wide when you see more security heading towards the room you're in.
"Soonyoung, code red."
"Fuck." He says. "Code red, code red." He says into his com.
"Minghao, are you good?"
"Yeah. We have everything copied."
"Launch the virus." You respond. You start typing away. You launch the virus into the system.
Seconds later, Soonyoung starts shooting down the hall. You hear Seungcheol yelling over the com to clear out. You and Minghao move quickly to grab all your stuff. Reaching into his waistband, he pulls out a gun, and Minghao holds it out to you. Without even thinking, you grab it. He grabs another gun from his bag.
Soonyoung grabs ammo from his bag, reloading the gun. "Hao, guard Starry and get her out of here."
Minghao turns to you. He takes your face in both his hands. You must look terrified. You've been with this group for a long time, and this is the first time you're worried you might die because of a job. "Starry, I promise you won't get hurt."
"Okay."
"Stay behind me, and keep your gun drawn." He keeps holding your face. "Joshua will kill us all if we let you get hurt."
"Fuck what about Shua?" You realize if you're in a gun fight it might not be clear at the lab.
"He's fine." He releases your face. "Just hold my hand until I let go." He takes your hand in his.
"Okay, go." Soonyoung gives you the signal.
Another set of guards are running up. Minghao leads you out towards the door with his gun drawn. He takes two shots by the two guards blocking the door.
"Run." He shouts. You run next to him with your gun drawn.
You practically throw your body against the doo,r breaking your way outside. Soonyoung follows behind you.
Standing in the pouring rain you look over towards Mingyu's van to see him and Joshua soaking wet, loading a machine into the back. The moment Joshua turns and looks at you, he pushes his wet dark hair away from his face. Instantly, you see the tear in his jacket, and the slice in his arm. You're frozen in place staring at him.
Gun fire rings out, startling you. Minghao grabs your hand dragging you towards the car.
You see Jihoon and his team sprinting towards the van. Soonyoung grabs you from Minghao and practically throws you into the back seat. The car speeds away before you can even react. Looking out the window, you watch as team one breaks out of the building with guards following behind them.
Your eyes water thinking about the danger you're leaving behind. It's the dead of night and the fluorescent city, is a buzz with the sound of blaring sirens. Soonyoung drives like a mad man to get back to Seungcheol's place.
Salty tears slide down your cheek as you think about the chaos that has unfolded. Minghao's phone rings and he's quick to answer. He doesn't say much, you just hear him repeat yes over and over. He hangs up the phone and is instantly calling another person.
Soonyoung glances in the mirror looking back at you. Quickly you avert your eyes, the last thing you need is him teasing you about the fact that you're crying.
"Seokmin." Minghao says. That name immediately catches your attention. You know he's a medic. He's stitched up the boys a few times. Your heart sinks, and nausea hits you quickly. "It's Jeonghan and Wonwoo."
The car is silent for a moment outside the sounds of distant sirens and the rain hitting the car.
"Not fatal. Jeonghan was shot in the shoulder and Wonwoo in the ribs." He pauses again. "Cheol said Wonwoo was grazed pretty deeply."
"Soonyoungâ"
"They're fine." He quickly responds. "Hao said he's not fatal. Seokmin will stitch them up.â
"Just meet us at Cheol's asap." Minghao hangs up.
Soonyoung pulls into the dark parking garage. Getting out of the car, you grab yourself. Soonyoung looks around making sure you're not being watched. You all rush towards the elevator.
Minghao presses the button and instantly the doors slide open. Stepping inside, Soonyoung quickly hits the close button over and over.
The elevator rattles as it heads up to the tenth floor. You blankly stare down at your shoes.
"They're fine." Minghao finally speaks. "They just need stitches."
The doors slide open. You all practically run down the hall to Seungcheol's apartment. Soonyoung punches in the code, and the door slides open. Sitting on the couch near the window, you find the sweet girl who lives with Seungcheol. She jumps at the sudden intrusion.
Soonyoung puts up his hands letting her know we aren't a threat. "It's just us. Seungcheol is on his way home."
"Is he okay?" You've never actually heard her speak before. Her voice is quiet and full of fear.
"Yeah he is." Soonyoung slowly puts his hands down. Silently she gets off the couch and rushes out of the room.
Minghao grabs his bag and walks over to the table. "Can I have the drive with the lavender haze formula?"
You reach into your pocket and grab one of the two drives that hold the information. You toss it over to him. He plugs it into his computer and starts typing away.
"What are you doing?" Soonyoung asks.
"I'm concealing some of the formula and anonymously leaking it."
There is a knock on the door. Soonyoung grabs his gun and walks over. He pulls the door open with his gun drawn. Instantly he puts it down at the sight of Seokmin.
Seokmin comes in and starts getting out all the supplies he'll need.
The door flings open and the rest of the crew follows in. Wonwoo limps in with the help of Joshua and Mingyu. Jeonghan is being helped by Seungcheol. Jihoon, Chan and Vernon follow in behind them.
Joshua stares at you with wide eyes. Everything is so chaotic that neither of you have time to talk.
"Vernon, do you remember how to do stitches?" Seokmin asks.
"Yeah." Vernon walks towards him.
"Okay, I'm going to need you to take Wonwoo to the restroom and full-clean out his wound and then stitch him up." Seokmin reaches into his bag and pulls out everything Vernon will need. "Mingyu and Soonyoung please help Vernon."
Everyone listens to Seokmin and takes Wonwoo off to the bathroom. Seungcheol brings Jeonghan towards Seokmin.
"We need to remove his jacket and I need to see if there is an exit wound." Jihoon and Seungcheol take a very dazed Jeonghan into the kitchen.
Joshua rushes towards you. He pulls you into his chest and kisses the top of your head. "Starlight, I was so worried about you."
"I'm fine, Hao and Soonyoung kept me safe." You pull away and glance at his torn synthetic skin. "I need to fix this later."
"Okay."
You hear Jeonghan scream. You take off towards the kitchen where you see Seungcheol holding him down as Seokmin is digging the bullet out of his shoulder.
You wince when you see a very obviously in pain Jeonghan let out another scream. You walk closer to him. He's turning his head away from his injury, wincing.
Reaching out, you rest your hand on his cheek. "Hannie, it's okay." His eyes go wide looking at you. "It's okay." You wish there was some way you could soothe him.
"Chan, get me a syringe of numbing meds from my bag." Seokmin shouts.
Moments later, Chan comes rushing in. Seokmin gives Jeonghan a full shot of the numbing meds. His eyes droop slightly as they instantly take effect.
Joshua grabs your hand, leading you away from the chaos. Moving into the living room, you sit on the couch feeling dazed. Wonwoo comes out of the bathroom with the help of Mingyu.
They sit next to each other on the other couch. Seokmin shouts for Joshua's help. He leaves you alone for a moment. Seungcheol heads out the kitchen and instantly heads towards the room Angel is in. He must be going to check on her.
Joshua walks out of the kitchen carrying Jeonghan. Jihoon leads them off towards Seungcheol's room. Seokmin walks out of the kitchen with his shirt stained with blood. Soonyoung walks of the bathroom.
"Is Jeonghan okay?" Soonyoung asks.
"Yeah. We knocked him out because he was in pain, but the bullet is out and stitched up. Luckily, it missed all the major arteries." Seokmin says.
Seungcheol heads back in and gives everyone the run down and then gives everyone a bag with money in it.
"This is just cash. I'll have more coming later." He lets out a sigh and pushes his fingers through his hair. "We can have another meeting in a couple days when Jeonghan is feeling better."
"Breaking news." The tv turns on blaring. "FleXeon is being exposed for producing the very illegal drug known as lavender haze. Police arrived on site now at the CEO house. The company is now under investigation."
Soonyoung barks out a laugh. "Looks like we were successful."
"Everyone keep your heads low for a little while." Seungcheol says.
MEET ME IN THE AFTERGLOW
Arriving back at your apartment, you sit down Joshua at the table and work on fixing his arm that's sliced open.
"They missed your wiring." His wiring is essentially his arteries. "If they hit those I might have had to rewire your arm." You know he's listening to you, but he's completely silent as he stares at the floor in front of him. "This is a simple fix."
"Does this feel weird having to fix your robot boyfriend? If I was human you wouldn't have to worry about my wiring." He glances up at you.
"If you were human, you could have been in bad shape like Wonwoo and Jeonghan." At this point you prefer he's a robot. You never have to worry about him getting sick or hurt like that.
"Do you wish I was human?" There's a deep rooted sadness behind his eyes.
"No, not at all. I promise, I've never once wished you were human." You aren't lying. Never once have you had that thought. You finish working on his arm, and move so you're standing in front of him.
"I wish I was human."
Reaching out you take his face in both hands. "I've never wanted you to be anything else." His eyes are wide and glossy. Slowly you drag your thumb across his cheek. "I love you for who you are."
"I love you too." He closes his eyes leaning into your touch. Leaning down you press your lips into his for a sweet kiss.
Stepping back, you walk off into the kitchen to wash your hands. Looking over, you watch as Joshua stands up. He walked over to the big window that looks out into the city. In the distance, the sun is starting to rise. The sky is becoming shades of cotton candy pink and orange.
"When I heard the first gun shot, I was scared they were going to take you from me." Joshua says as he blankly stares towards the windows.
Walking over, you stand in front of him and wrap your arms around his stomach. "I was scared too, but I knew the boys would keep me safe."
"Starlight, look at me please." You step back and look up at him. "Right now, I just want to be with you."
"Okay."
You aren't surprised when he reaches down and picks you up as if you weigh nothing. Crashing your lips into his, you kiss him as if you need him to breathe.
He pulls his lips away long enough to lead you both to the bedroom. In between kisses, you both strip away your clothes.
Laying on the bed with your legs spread wide, he eats you out like a man starved. He plays with you until you fall apart not once but twice. Your fingers tangle in his hair, holding him close to your needy pussy.
Crawling up your body, he crashes his lips into yours. You can taste yourself on his tongue, and it's absolutely intoxicating.
You aren't sure what his plan is, but all you know is you want him in any possible way. He grinds his already hard length against your core over and over, until you're moaning into his mouth. Practically on the brink of falling apart again.
"Shuaâ" you whine as he pulls away.
He moves so he's sitting with his back against the headboard. You waste no time crawling across the bed to get to him.
Sitting on his lap, you card your fingers through his dark hair. Lifting your hips, you reach down, lining his cock up with your needy entrance. Ever so slowly, you sink down on his length, inch by thick inch. He's snug inside you, but neither of you move. He looks up at you with needy eyes.
Neither of you seem to have any desire to move. You could sit on his cock for hours, and he would do anything to stay inside you forever.
"I have never and will never love anyone like I love you." You can't explain the love you feel for him.
"We may not be able to get married, but you're my wife." His sweet words earn a smile from you. He's never called you his wife, but you could get used to him calling you that.
"Are you going to buy me a ring with the money we just got?" You hold up your bare hand. You could actually care less about a ring, you honestly just want to tease him a little.
"I'll buy you anything you could possibly want." Leaning forward, he presses his lips to yours for a searing kiss. "Anything my pretty wife could ever want, I'll give her." He says between kisses.
Lifting your hips, you pull yourself off of him, until only the tip is left inside. You tug his hair back so he's looking up at you. Slowly you drop back down. He's so long he's practically bruising your cervix. Rolling your hips, your clit brushes against his pelvis.
Joshua's hands are anywhere they can touch. He doesn't help guide your movements yet. He'll help you move once he knows you're too tired.
Biting your bottom lip, you try your hardest to hold back your moans. His wet lips start leaving a trail of kisses from your jaw down to your breast. He takes his time teasing each of your pert nipples. He gently bites your nipple earning a moan.
"Joshâ" you cry out.
He pulls away smiling. "Baby you feel so good."
You pick up your pace, desperately chasing your high. Reaching down your fingers quickly start rubbing your clit.
"I love watching you play with yourself." He moans with his lips against your neck.
Your orgasm is like a white hot ecstasy. Throwing your head back you cry out in pleasure. Salty tears slide down your cheeks at the overwhelming feeling. You two have had a lot of sex, but this feels extra intense. Your walls flutter around his cock like an erratic heartbeat. Your lips are parted as mindless moans pass your lips over and over.
Without saying anything, his large hands grip your hips and he helps guide you up and down his massive length. Your high is barely settled and he's pushing you right to the edge all over again.
"Fuckâ" you whine.
"Can you cum again?" He asks.
Wordlessly you nod. He's fucked you to the point you aren't even sure if you can form proper words. Heâs guiding you up and down, practically impaling you on his massive length over and over again.
Your orgasm hits both of you at the same time. He holds you down flush against him as he fills you to the brim with his sweet and sticky release.
Your body goes limp leaning against him. His hand runs up and down your back slowly, helping you relax.
"You did so good." He knows exactly how to praise you. Your mind can't process much other than the two mind numbing orgasms you just had back to back.
"Baby, I need to clean you up."
"Just let me lay here." You sigh.
He lets you stay sitting on his lap for about twenty minutes before he forces you to take a shower with him.
After showering you don't even bother getting dressed for bed after he dries you off. Curled up in bed together, your head is resting on his chest. Mindlessly he's drawing different shapes on your back.
"If you want, we could have a little wedding with our group. It doesn't have to be official, but they'll be there to witness us getting married." You say.
"I would like that. I meant it when I said you're my wife."
"And you're my husband."
What you have may not be conventional by any means. But the love you feel for each other is what people dream about finding. You know there is still a lot to be done by making sure FleXeon doesn't come back, and you and Minghao need to work on reprogramming the FleXeon androids. But for just a little while, you want to have time with Joshua. You don't want to think about an evil corporation. You just want to think about the future you have with Joshua.
AN: I love this universe so much I might write something for a couple of the other boys. Let me know if you would be interested.
You told one tiny lie about being engaged to Vernon. Now youâre spending Christmas with his entire family. Faking it should be a walk in the park, except Vernon is playing the perfect boyfriend a little too well, and itâs throwing you off your game.
Genre: fake dating, smut
Pairing: SEVENTEEN Vernon x afab!reader
Warnings: mature themes, explicit sexual content (18+) MDNI
Notes: 22k words. Loosely based on the movie The Proposal. Happy Holidays everyone! I hope you like this one <3
Disclaimer: I do not know them, nor claim they would ever in real life behave the way they were portrayed in this fic. If you see the same exact fic in a different blog, for ENHYPEN, that is me. I did not plagiarize myself. Otherwise, pls let me know.
You were halfway through a phone call when the elevator doors opened, one hand clutching your handbag as you rattled off reminders about deadlines, inventory counts, and the very real need to restock supplies before the holiday rush.Â
âYes, by next week,â you said, already walking. âNo, I donât care if itâs âusually fine,â I want the warehouse well-stocked and readyââ
You stepped onto the floor and kept moving, heels clicking, bag swinging. You didnât notice the way the floor fell quiet the moment you stepped in. People scrambled back to their desks, suddenly invested in their screens, shuffling papers that did not need shuffling, answering phones that were not ringing. A few heads ducked. A few shoulders squared. No one made eye contact with the icy, headstrong, amazonian boss who had clearly woken up on the wrong side of the bed.
You.
Still mid-call, you marched straight toward your office, listening to your warehouse officer explain that the warehouse was well-stocked and ready for the holiday rush and that everything would be fine. âIâm not asking for some words of affirmation, Joe. Show me that this confidence is not unfounded. I need updated numbers by lunchtime.â
It wasnât until you pushed open the glass door that you finally ended the call, pinching the bridge of your nose for half a second before refocusing.
âMorning!â Becca said brightly, already there, already holding out your iced coffee like an offering.
You took it without slowing down. She fell into step beside you, launching into your schedule like she always didâmeetings, contracts, things that needed signing before lunch, and ones that could wait until after. You dropped into your chair, skimmed the first page of the file she handed you.Â
You were halfway through skimming the file when you noticed something in your periphery. You looked up and saw that there was a man standing just behind Becca. Tall. Good-looking. Broad-shouldered. Hands in his pockets. He was staring around your office like he had time to admire the view, eyes flicking over the shelves, the windows, the framed awards.
For a second, you wondered if youâd forgotten you were supposed to have a meeting with some model for your brandâs campaign.
You frowned. âWhoâs your friend, Becca?â
âOhâright! Sorry. This isââ She paused, then quickly nudged the man with her elbow
âIâm Vernon,â he said, smiling at you before Becca could finish. He gave a lazy little wave. âThe intern.â
You blinked. The intern. He said it like this was a college club meeting. Or orientation. Or literally anywhere but here, where interns usually tried desperately not to be noticed. You stared at him. Then back at Becca. âWhy is the intern in my office?â
Becca cleared her throat. âHeâs the temp I told you about. Heâll be covering for me while Iâm on maternity leave. Assisting you directly.â
You glanced back at him, unimpressed. âIs he ready for that?â you asked Becca.
âYes. I walked him through everything,â she said quickly. âHeâs picked it up really fast.â
 âSo he knows this isnât a light workload? Long hours, hectic schedules, all that?â
Before you could respond, Vernon leaned forward slightly.
âYou can ask me, you know,â he said. âIâm right here.â
The room went very still.
You stared at him, more surprised than offended. Most interns shrank under eye contact. Apologized. Overexplained. This one had the audacity to interrupt you, like he wasnât face-to-face with the person everyone else avoided before coffee. For a second, you couldnât tell if he was clueless or if he just didnât scare easily.
You didnât like either option. âI wonât be needing you yet,â you said flatly. âYou can go.â
Vernon didnât argue. He simply nodded once, hands dropping from his pockets as he turned toward the door. âAlright.â
And then he left. The door clicked shut behind him. You and Becca stared at it for a moment.
You exhaled through your nose and picked up your pen. âWhat kind of temp did you get me?â
âHeâs very competent. Just a little tactless at times. And he was onceâŠâ She hesitated. ââŠreported to HR for insubordination.â
âInsubordination?â
âYeah, he was. But it was all a misunderstanding.â She paused for a second and then added, âApparently, the way he talks pissed some people off. Which was why I thought heâd be perfect for this role.â
You slowly looked up from your paperwork. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?
Becca grimaced, then covered her mouth. âOkay. Thatâyeah. That was supposed to be an inside thought.â
You scoffed, shaking your head as you went back to signing. âYouâve been working for me too long.â
She cleared her throat, tapping her tablet like she needed something to do with her hands. âMr. Zhou just stepped into the lobby. Should we⊠um⊠go wait for him in the conference room?â she asked, already smiling.
âFine,â you said, signing your name a little harder on the last paperwork. âBut weâre unpacking that later.â
You were puzzled to see Vernon waiting by the car as soon as you stepped out of your office at noon. He looked out of place there, standing in a crisp set of suit and coat, looking like he was shooting an ad for Ralph Lauren. You were realizing in real time that he was unnecessarily too good-looking and too well-dressed to be someoneâs errand boy.
He was holding Beccaâs work tablet and the leather briefcase sheâd usually brought to meetings.
âWhereâs Becca?â you asked, not slowing down as you watched him open the car door for you.
âSheâs gone,â he said, watching you settle onto the backseat. âTold me my secretary duties start today.â
âWhat do you mean sheâs gone?â
Vernon blinked, confused. âOh, you didnât know? I thought she discussed this with you beforehand.â
You sighed, waved him off, and leaned back on the seat. As Vernon closed the door and rounded the car, you took your phone out and typed out an urgent message to Becca.
You: Iâm docking your pay.
Vernon took the driverâs seat without ceremony, adjusted the mirror, and pulled into traffic.Â
âRead the documents carefully,â you said without looking up. âAnd pay attention during the meeting.â
âI will,â he said. âTo both.â
The car ride was quiet. You reviewed the agenda on your tablet while the city slid past the windows, aware of him in your peripheryâtoo relaxed, but not sloppy.Â
Your phone rang not even ten minutes into the ride and you sighed when you saw the caller ID. But answered anyway. âHi, Grandma.â
âI just wanna remind you that you have a date this evening,â she said immediately. âYouâre going, arenât you?â
âNo,â you replied. âIâm working.â
âYou said that last week.â
âI was working last week too. Iâm busy, Grandma. Right now, Iâm heading out for a lunch meeting with suppliers.â
She clicked her tongue. âYouâre always working. You canât keep postponing your life like this. Why do you always put that damn company first?â
You pressed your lips together. âGrandma, this was your company. You put me here.â
âExcuses. When will you have a husband?â she shot back. âOr children? Iâm old and dying. Do you think time is gonna wait for me? I just want to see you settle down and be happy. Is that too much to ask?â
You looked out the window. âYouâre healthy. Youâre strong. Youâre not going anywhere.â
You heard her exhale sharply on the other line, clearly annoyed now. âIf you donât come tonight, Iâll erase your name from my will. You wonât get a single penny from me.â
âYouâve been saying that for years,â you said evenly. âNeed I remind you that you only have one living relative and itâs me?â
She huffed. âDonât test me. I might just donate my whole fortune to charity. You must go this time. I swear this one is better than the previous dates. His name is Paââ
âI love you,â you said, cutting her off. âIâll call you later.â
You ended the call before she could respond.
For a moment, the only sound in the car was the hum of the engine and the soft click of the turn signal. You slipped your phone back into your bag and leaned farther into the seat, already compartmentalizing the conversation the way you always did.
You caught movement in the rearview mirror. Vernon was looking at you. âPersistent grandma?â he asked when your gazes met.
You sighed, unimpressed. âEyes on the road.â
âYes, maâam,â he said, tone mild enough to be irritating.
You let the silence stretch after that, your attention returning to the tablet in your hands. You scrolled through the agenda, noting the points you wanted addressed, the concessions you were willing to make, and the ones you absolutely were not. Vernon drove without comment, smooth and calm, like he wasnât ferrying someone who could fire him on a whim.
You glanced up again, studying his reflection this time with intention. The angle of his jaw. The familiarity you hadnât been able to put a finger on ever since you saw his face.
âHave we met before?â you asked.
âYes,â he replied immediately. âWe went to the same university. And met once at a freshman party.â
That checked out. Youâd seen enough of him around campus for his face to register, even now. You hummed, âKnew you looked familiar. You have an unforgettable face.â
That slipped out unintentionally, making you pause. You considered taking it back, but you ultimately just decided to roll with it. You cleared your throat. âI meanâwell⊠Have you seen yourself?â
âSorry, what?â he asked, glancing briefly at you. âI didnât catch that.â
But the slight smirk on his lips told you that was a lie. You rolled your eyes, then watched him for another second. âIf we went to uni at the same time,â you asked, âhow are you still interning? At this age?â
He grinned. âAre you discriminating?"
âIâm just asking.â
âAs my boss or as someone who knew me from college?â
You exhaled through your nose, realizing now that Becca wasnât exaggerating when she said Vernon can be annoying for some. âForget it,â you said.
He just smiled, focusing on driving. But a few moments later, he said, âI just got out of a slave contract with my previous employer.â
You looked up. âI assume thatâs an exaggeration.â
âIt could be,â he replied, shrugging.Â
You didnât comment. Some jobs did feel like that. You knew it, even if youâd never experienced it firsthand. Youâd never been employed under someone, except when you interned for your Grandma, but even that was hardly employment. Youâd always been your own boss.
The car slowed as the restaurant came into view. Vernon found a parking space easily. âWeâre here,â he said as soon as the engine stopped.
You straightened, already stepping out of the vehicle. âTheyâre gonna give us the revised version of the contract from last time. Remember to go over it very, very carefully.â
âGot it,â he replied, gathering his things and fixing his coat as he stepped out of the car.
You paused, looked at him once with furrowed brows, then said, âLose the coat.â
He blinked. âWhat? Why?â
âJust lose it,â you said, waving your hand dismissively. âYouâre gonna make these people think I brought a date to this meeting.â
The realization hit him a second later. âOh.â
His ears turned red almost immediately, the color creeping up fast enough that it caught you off guard. He looked away, cleared his throat, and shrugged out of the coat with noticeably less confidence than heâd had five seconds ago.
âRight,â he said. âOkay.â
You didnât respond. You were already walking.
He followed a step behind. You noticed the way he kept tugging at his sleeves, the way his shoulders squared like he was suddenly conscious about his posture. It didnât slow him down, but it made him seem less casual and more shy.
You filed that thought in the far back of your mind and pushed open the restaurant door.
Vernon settled into his role faster than youâd anticipated. He learned your schedule within days, memorizing the gaps between meetings, the calls you always took walking, the ones you preferred, seated and uninterrupted. By the first week, he stopped asking what you needed and started having it ready before you spoke. Coffee appeared when youâd skipped breakfast. Documents were summarized and tabbedânever highlighted, because you hated highlights.
He remembered dates without reminders. Flagged clauses you wouldâve circled anyway. Anticipated questions before clients finished asking them. He spoke only when necessary in meetings, and when he did, it was concise enough that no one dared interrupt him.Â
âYour two oâclock wanted to move to three,â he said one morning, falling into step beside you as you walked down the hall. âMr. Lee begged. Said something about traffic and divine intervention.â
âWhat did you tell him?â
âThat divine intervention doesnât outrank your calendar.â
You didnât break stride. âGood.â
By the end of the second week, youâand everyone around youâhad realized that you now have a second Becca, a more merciless one at that. People stopped going to you first. They went to Vernon. He filtered what mattered and killed what didnât. When he brought you something, it was because it deserved your time. He filtered your calls ruthlessly. If something reached you, it mattered. If it didnât, it never existed. People learned quickly that arguing with him was pointless; if Vernon said you were unavailable, then you were.
Occasionally, he tested his boundaries. Not in ways that interfered with work, but in tone.
âDo you always look like this when youâre thinking?â he asked once, watching you review a document.
You didnât look up. âLike what.â
âLike youâre about to ruin someoneâs life.â
You slid the folder toward him. âPage twelve.â
He glanced down, eyes scanning. âAh,â he said. âThere it is. I knew something was odd with this.â
In meetings, he was quiet, efficient, present without being intrusive. He passed notes when necessary, caught errors before they reached the table, and never spoke unless spoken to or unless you were about to walk into something avoidable.
âClause eighteen,â he murmured once, sliding you a note.
You corrected the issue mid-sentence and moved on. Afterward, in the elevator, you said, âGood catch.â
His brows lifted in surprise. âWas that praise?â
âDonât get used to it.â
âI wonât,â he said, grinning. âBut I will cherish it.â
By the third week, he stopped flinching when you corrected him. By the fourth, he started correcting other people before you had to. He learned quickly what earned silence versus what earned a look. Silence meant he was safe. The look meant he had exactly one more word before his internship became a cautionary tale.
He respected that. Mostly.
âSo,â he said once, handing you a folder, âdo you want the bad news first or the worse news?â
You took the folder. âIf you ever phrase it like that again, youâre fired.â
âNoted,â he said calmly. âThen Iâll just say this contract is trash.â
You looked up slowly. He met your gaze without flinching. âRespectfully.â
You skimmed the page. Then the next. Then the clause heâd marked with a single tab. It was, in fact, trash.
You closed the folder. âSchedule a call.â
âI already did.â
He had an irritating habit of leaning where he wasnât supposed to. Doorframes. Desks. The back of chairs that did not belong to him. He never slouched in meetings, never interrupted, but outside of them, he carried himself like he wasnât intimidated by anyone in the building.
Including you. Especially you.
âDo you actually read all of these,â he asked once, eyeing the stack of reports on your desk.
âYes.â
âAll of them?â
âYes.â
He paused. âI guess youâre not like those other nepo babies whoâum⊠nevermind.â
You lifted your pen. âFinish that sentence, Secretary Chwe.â
âNope,â he said, chuckling nervously and retreating a step. âIâm quite attached to my paycheck, you see.â
You rolled your eyes, but Vernon kept his grin. âWhen will you call me by my first name?â
Your brows furrowed. âWhy would I do that?â
âWell, thereâs Becca. You address her not only by her first name but by her nickname.â
You tutted, shaking your head and deciding to ignore his question entirely. âGo. I donât need you right now,â you said, waving him away.Â
âYes, maâam,â he chimed, walking away. You returned to your screen. You didnât fire him.By the end of the month, Vernon no longer felt like a temporary replacement to your intuitive and reliable Becca. He felt like his own fixture. An irritating, unnecessarily good-looking, deeply unserious, but very competent fixture.
âIs that Armani?â you asked, just as Vernon turned the engine off.Â
He glanced back at you, then at his coat. âI think so? I got this as a gift for my birthday.â
You chuckled, reaching for the door. âYour clothes are too expensive for an intern.â
You stepped out of the car, eyes blinking at the blinding building right in front of you. Vernon fell into step beside you not 30 seconds later, and you noticed that heâd taken off his coat.
âYou should keep it on,â you said.
He tilted his head. âBut wouldnât it make them think you brought a date to the meeting?â
You shrugged. âMaybe, but these people are worth impressing. Iâm heading inside first. You go get your coat and make yourself look good.â
You were inside the building for less than two minutes when you ran into someone that made your eyes twitch. He called your name from across the lobby, his voice ringing out annoyingly.
âIs that you?â he asked when he approached you. âWell, damn. It is you.â
âCarlo,â you acknowledged, offering a curt smile.
âOh, so you remember me,â he grinned, his eyes roving from your head to your foot, then back up to your face again, not without pausing briefly on your chest. âItâs been a while, huh?â
You nodded once, polite and brief, already angling your body toward the other direction. âIt has. If youâll excuse me, Iâm on my way to a meeting.â
âYeah, yeah, youâre always busy,â he said, waving it off. âBut who isnât?â he added, laughing out loud.
He then launched into a recap of his life since the last time youâd seen himâhis job, his connections, the people he knew, the Dubai prince he was chummy with, the places heâd been. It was all very impressive, apparently. You tried to interject twice. Both attempts failed. He spoke over you like it was muscle memory.
You remembered, dimly, the disastrous blind date your Grandmother had set you up on last year. Apparently Carlo was a friendâs son who was intelligent and sweet. You gave it a chance because youâd run out of excuses to decline. But Carlo was downright obnoxious. He was preposterous, talked only about himself, and after the date, he told every mutual acquaintance you both had that you were the reason why it never worked out after the first dateâas if he didnât blow up your phone asking for another chance after you refused to go on another date with him. Heâd framed your refusal like a misunderstanding, and acted like persistence was a charm.
âSo anyway,â he said, finally pausing just long enough to inhale, âI was thinking maybe we could grab dinner sometime. Catch up properly.â
You spotted Vernon a few steps away. âThere you are, my love,â you called out with an exaggerated sigh of relief.
Vernon looked up at the sound of your voice, just as you crossed the distance and slipped your arm around his without asking, fingers curling into the fabric of his sleeve. For a moment, you thought he might ask what was happening. But he looked at you and at the puzzled Carlo just nearby and seemed to understand the situation right away.
âSorry,â you said, turning back to Carlo with an apologetic smile that didnât quite reach your eyes. âWhat were you saying?â
Carlo took a step back, posture stiffening, his grin faltering as his eyes moved from Vernonâs face to his tailored clothes, then back to you. Whatever confidence heâd walked into the lobby with seemed to deflate all at once.
âOh, by the way,â you began, turning to Vernon. âHave you met Carlo? Heâs in the export business. And the son of Grandmamaâs friend.â
Vernon didnât miss a beat. He offered his hand. âVernon,â he said pleasantly.
Carlo stared, shaking his hand. You smiled and said, âMy fiancee.â
âYes,â you replied simply. You could already imagine how this little lie would spread among your mutual acquaintances and business spaces you shared with Carlo, given how loose-lipped he was. But all you could care about right now was getting him to leave you alone.
âWellâuh,â Carlo said, shaking Vernonâs hand a little too quickly. âNice to meet you. You two look⊠great.â He stepped back, already glancing at his phone. âI should get going. Busy day. You know how it is.â
You watched him retreat without comment, hurrying through the lobby until he disappeared entirely. Only then did you exhale.
You loosened your grip on Vernonâs arm, turning toward him. âThank you,â you began.
You immediately froze, recognizing the timbre, the authority, and the unmistakable tone of your Grandmotherâs voice.Â
You turned slowly and found her standing a few feet away, handbag tucked neatly under her arm, eyes sharp and clearly amused.
âDid I hear that right,â she said, her smile widening as her gaze flicked between you and Vernon, âor am I finally losing my hearing?â
Vernon, to his credit, didnât move. Neither did you. And somewhere between the impulsive little lie and her grin, you realized that things were about to blow out of proportion.
You could have said that and gotten it over with. But you couldnât. The delight on your grandmotherâs face was too precious for you to shatter with the truth. So here you were, sitting across from her for an impromptu family dinner, Vernon holding your hand beside you.Â
You were usually the most intimidating person in any room you walked into. Boardrooms, negotiations, crowded halls full of people waiting for you to speakânone of it ever rattled you. But at that dinner table, you were painfully aware of your posture, your hands, the way your expression changed with every interaction.
Your grandmother had that effect on you. She was the only person who could ever make you nervous, especially when it involved major life decisions like this.
It didnât help that she was beaming like sheâd just won the lottery. Vernon, as it turned out, was the grandson of an old friend of hers.
âWhy didnât you tell me you knew my Grandma?â you had discreetly asked him earlier during the meeting with an investor, while your Grandmother watched from a few tables away.
She had insisted sheâd wait until you finished the business meeting, and that was how you found yourselves trapped in this âfamilyâ dinner.
âSo,â she said, eyes bright as she looked between you and Vernon, âhow did the two of you meet?â
You stiffened slightly, already bracing yourself. Vernon answered easily. âOh, we met in college,â he said, reaching for his water. âWe reconnected only recently when I started working for her.â
Your grandmotherâs eyebrows rose. âOh? And when did you start dating?â
You kept your gaze on your plate, listening. âAbout a month ago,â Vernon replied smoothly.
A month ago. You did the math immediately, your mind racing ahead of your body. That was the exact week heâd started working as your temporary assistant.
âAnd engaged already?â your grandmother said, delighted rather than suspicious.
Vernon nodded. âWe didnât see the point in waiting.â
She laughed, clapping her hands softly. âOh, I love that. Life is too short to hesitate.â She turned to you then, eyes sharp and delighted. âSo you mean to tell me you got engaged without telling me you were dating my best friendâs grandson?â
You opened your mouth, only to just close it again. Vernon cleared his throat. âIt all happened rather quickly.â
âThatâs what I love about it,â she said, waving a hand. âDestiny waits for no one,â she added, laughing.
You laughed tooâawkwardly enough that you were sure youâd given it all away. You stared at the food on the table, suddenly finding your favorite dish from the best chef in the city unappetizing and dry.
âDoes your family know?â she asked Vernon again.
Vernon hesitated, glancing at you for an answer. You had absolutely nothing to offer him. Not even a lie half-formed. So you lifted one shoulder, the smallest shrug you could manage.
He turned back to her and smiled. âNot yet. We wanted to keep it quiet for a while,â he said, shrugging lightly. âIt hasnât been very long. But I guess the secretâs out now that you know.â
Your grandmother looked like she might burst from excitement. âOh, this is wonderful,â she said, already reaching for her phone. âTheyâll be thrilled.â
You sat up straighter. âGrandmaââ
âWait,â Vernon said at the same time.
She waved both of you off, already dialing. âOh, donât worry. Iâll just tell them quickly.â
You watched in horror as she put the phone to her ear. âHello?â she said brightly. âYes, yes, itâs me. Youâll never guess what I just found out.â
You sank back into your chair, heart thudding.
She spoke excitedly, voice warm and loud enough that you caught pieces of the conversationâlaughter, delighted exclaims, repeated congratulations. You could hear someone else speaking on the other end, just as excited.
You didnât catch the names, but you didnât need to. Whoever was on the other end was laughing too. Your grandmother kept nodding along, with soft mm-hmms and delighted sighs.
âI know. I couldnât believe it either.â She glanced at the two of you, eyes shining. âTheyâre here with me right now.â
Vernon didnât move. His hand was still resting near yours on the table, close enough but not quite touching. He looked composed, if a little too still, like heâd decided that reacting would only make things worse.
Your grandmother laughed again. âOh, donât be dramatic. Of course it makes sense. Havenât you always said fate has terrible timing?â
She listened for a moment, then hummed approvingly. âYes. Iâll tell them.â
She ended the call with a satisfied tap of her finger against the screen and set her phone down carefully, as if savoring the moment. âThere,â she said, pleased. âThey are over the moon.â
You exhaled slowly through your nose. âGrandmaââ
âYou never even told them that you were seeing someone, Vernon,â she added. âTheyâre insisting on dinner soon. All of us.â
âThat might be difficult,â he said carefully. âWith work andââ
âOh, nonsense,â she interrupted. âYouâll make time. You always do for family.â
She smiled at you then, softer and fonder. âAnd you,â she said, âIâm gonna excuse the fact that you kept this a secret from me.â
You pressed your lips together, offering something that might have passed for a smile.
Across the table, your grandmother reached for her glass, perfectly satisfied. Beside you, Vernon shifted just enough that his knee brushed yours under the table. Neither of you commented on it. But you both understood the same thing at the exact same time.
This had officially gone too far to undo politely.
By the time you finally parted with your grandmother outside the restaurant, you were exhausted. Not the kind of tired you felt after negotiations or long meetings, but the slow, creeping kind that sank into your bones and stayed there.
You slid into the backseat as soon as Vernon opened the door for you, barely waiting for it to close before sinking back against the leather. The city lights blurred past the windows as the car pulled away from the curb.
âThat,â you said, staring at the ceiling, âwent so wrong so fast.â
Vernon huffed a small laugh from the driverâs seat. âThatâs one way to put it.â
You dragged a hand down your face. âI just wanted Carlo to leave me alone. I didnât plan on my grandmother calling half the city to announce my engagement.â
âShe seemed⊠enthusiastic.â
âOh, trust me. That was her being restrained,â you muttered. You straightened slightly, folding your arms. âYouâve been with me long enough to know how she takes my love life very, very seriously.â
The car stopped at a red light. Vernon glanced at you through the rearview mirror. âYou could let her have it for a few days,â he said casually. âThen tell her it didnât work out. People break up all the time. We havenât been dating long anyway. Itâll be believable.â
You sighed, nodding. âThatâs the plan.â
The light turned green, and he eased back into traffic. You watched the city slide past again, your reflection faint in the glass.
âIâm sorry,â you said after a moment. âFor dragging you into this. For the phone call with your folks. Forââ You waved a hand vaguely. âAll of it.â
Vernon shrugged, eyes on the road. âItâs fine.â
You looked at him. âYou donât have to say that.â
âNo really,â he replied. âI donât mind. Iâll just consider it part of the job.â
You rolled your eyes. âIâd hate the job if I were you.â
He tilted his head, considering. âWell,â he said, âitâs not the strangest thing Iâve been dragged into for work.â
You snorted despite yourself. The car slowed in front of your apartment building. Vernon parked and turned the engine off. You stepped out of the car, the night air cool against your skin. Behind you, Vernon followed, just another assistant at your side.
That was all it was supposed to be.
âSee you in the morning, boss,â he said, handing you your bag as you both stopped in front of the elevator.
You nodded. âSee you in the morning, Secretary Chwe.â
He nodded back, then stepped closerâso suddenly that you barely had time to register it before he was right there, warmth and presence crowding your space.Â
You froze, surprised by the proximity. For a split-second your mind was racing to process so many things at onceâthe closeness, the clean scent of his cologne, his steady breathing, and the way youâd been holding yours without realizing it.
Then his arm lifted past your shoulder. The elevator button clicked softly behind you.
âOh,â you breathed, the sound escaping before you could stop it.
Vernon pulled back, his expression unreadable for a second, before his mouth curved into a smileâone that made you pause. Youâd seen that smile every day for the last few weeks, but this was the first time youâd found yourself completely disarmed by it.
The elevator dinged. The doors slid open, and air rushed back into your lungs like youâd been underwater. You looked away first, stepping inside without a word.Â
Vernon remained outside, one hand lifting in a wave. âGood night,â he said.
The doors closed between you, sealing him out, and the last thing you saw was that damn smile.
The very next morning, you woke up to the sound of your phone ringing on the nightstand. You squinted at the screen. Grandma.
âOh my god, what now?â you grumbled, sitting up before answering. âGood morning,â you croaked, rubbing your eyes.
âPack your bags,â she said immediately, skipping any niceties. âWeâre going away for the holidays.â
âItâs still two weeks before Christmas, Grandmama.â
âOh, honey,â she gushed. âWeâll be spending the holidays with Vernonâs family.â
You straightened up, swiping at the alarm that had somehow joined the chaos. âExcuse me?â
âYes. For a week. Isnât that wonderful?â
âA WEEK?!â you echoed loudly, standing up on your bed now, clutching a fistful of your hair. âGrandma, what do you mean a week? What⊠WhereâWITH WHOM?â
âOkay, young lady. Calm down. I canât understand you when youâre rambling like this.â
âGrandma, I canâtâI have work. Thereâs the holiday promos, the rush, meetings and deals. I literally canât even disappear for a day, let alone a whole week.â
âYou have competent employees for that. Iâm sure they can handle it,â she said casually. âBesides, I checked your calendar and you donât have anything major that requires your immediate attention. Surely you can pause your micromanaging for a few days?â
âExcuse me?â you scoffed, offended. âI donât micromanageâugh. Not the point,â you muttered, more to yourself.
You took a deep breath and sat back on the bed. âListen, Grandma. I havenât met his family yet. I havenât even been introduced as his girlfriend yet. I canât just show up as his fiancee out of nowhere.â
âYes, yes, I know,â she said, waving the thought away like dust. âBut this is exactly the right moment. Itâs the holidays.â
You paused, genuinely bewildered. âHow did this even happen?â
âOh, my dear, this wasnât my idea,â she replied, her voice lighting up. âVernonâs grandmother insisted.â
You let out a long, shaky breath. âGrandmaââ
âPack your bags,â she said cheerfully. âDonât argue with me. Iâve already told them youâre coming and I already took care of everything.â
Now here you were, sitting in your office, heels tapping impatiently on the marble floor, fingers drumming against the wood of your desk. Every five seconds, you checked the clock, willing Vernon to appear.
âSurely your familyâs told you by now that I am to spend the holidays with you?â you snapped, exasperation leaking into your tone.
He shrugged. âIâve been told. But⊠you donât have to. I can get you out of it if you really hate the idea.â
You leaned back in your chair, crossing your arms. âI donât like the idea. But you know as well as I do that dissuading my grandmother is impossible.â
He chuckled lightly. âYouâve never let anyone tell you what to do.â
You snorted, leaning forward. âIâll have you know that my grandmother canâand willâtell me what to do. Ghosting blind dates is a walk in the park, but things like this? Yeah. No way.â
Vernon hummed in acknowledgment. âShe does seem like the formidable type.â
There was a moment of silence between you, one so comical you could hear the crickets in your head. âSo?â you prompted. âWill you do it, or not?â
Vernon just shrugged, eyes still playful. âDo I get a raise?â
You rolled your eyes, exasperated, but also relieved. âIâll even make you a regular while Iâm at it, Intern Chwe.â
Being the meticulous person you were, you drafted a contract days before the trip. Not a legal one, of course, but a set of rules you and Vernon both agreed to follow while pretending to be engaged. You and Vernon made it together and agreed to both of your conditions, especially involving physical intimacy.
You made a point to make sure holding hands and displays of affection were strictly in front of the family only. And of course no hugging unless absolutely necessary. There were clauses about sticking to an agreed context and backstory, and never answering major or intrusive questions without the other.
âHow do you feel about sharing a bedroom?â he asked.
âDo we have to? Canât I get my own guest room?â
Vernon shook his head. âYou clearly donât know my family at all. An engaged couple staying in separate bedrooms? Theyâre gonna be suspicious.â
That made sense. âAlright. But Iâm taking the bed. You can have the couch. Or the floor. Whatever works.â
âCome on,â he said, mock-protesting. âItâs my house. I should get the bed.â
âAnd Iâm your boss,â you countered. âRule number five will be, I always win.â
âNow youâre just power tripping.â
You waved a hand dismissively. âFifth clause. Very important.â
Vernon raised an eyebrow at said clause about âno kissing or huggingâ. âExceptions?â he asked casually. âChristmas games, dances, mistletoe⊠maybe a moment of festive goodwill?â
âAbsolutely not,â you said firmly. âExceptions are only if the world is literally ending. Or someone dies. Orââ You stopped yourself, realizing you were overexplaining. âJust donât ask for exceptions.â
Vernon nodded, taking that in stride. âBut the situation could call for a hug, you know?â
You rolled your eyes. âLetâs just not.â
âFine. But Iâm telling you, my family will notice.â
âJust what kind of family do you have?â
Apparently, the kind who were affectionate and close, and took Christmas very seriously.
Days later, you boarded a plane with your grandmother practically vibrating with excitement beside you. She chatted the entire timeâabout the food, about the weather, about how nice it was that you were finally dating and thinking of marriageâwhile you nodded along, occasionally exchanging looks with Vernon over the divider between your seats. Thankfully, first class gave you just enough privacy that you didnât have to perform more than absolutely necessary.
When you landed, the cold winter air hit you first, stinging your cheek. Youâd barely stepped outside the terminal when a pickup truck rolled to a stop in front of you, horn honking cheerfully.
A jolly older man hopped out, grinning wide. âYou must be exhausted,â he said warmly, eyes immediately landing on your grandmother. âItâs been too long.â
Her face lit up in a way you didnât see very often these days. âLook at you,â she said, holding his arm affectionately. âAll grown up.â
They hugged like no time had passed at all. Behind you, Vernon carefully placed a coat over your shoulder, its warmth engulfing you almost immediately. Then he leaned in slightly, one hand still on your shoulder. âThatâs my uncle.â
Vernon introduced you and you offered a hand for a shake. âLovely to meet you.â
The entire drive into town was filled with laughter and reminiscing, stories bouncing back and forth like theyâd only seen each other yesterday instead of decades ago. Apparently, his uncle had spent a good portion of his childhood around your grandmother, running around while the adults talked business and dreams and things far too big for children to understand.
You watched your grandmother from the backseat, her smile so soft and sweet, and felt something warm settle in your chest.
âJust how long have you known this family?â you asked her, half-teasing.
Vernonâs uncle laughed before she could answer. âOh, longer than me,â he said easily. âHer and my Ma go way back. Back when I wasnât even born yet.â
She nodded fondly. âWe were already friends when we both had nothing,â she said. âWe used to talk about what weâd do one day, when life finally got easier. Now, we have money. But weâre both too busy to see each other.â
You hummed, thoughtful, eyes drifting out the window. A moment later, curiosity got the better of you. You turned slightly toward Vernon. âI donât think youâve told me what your family does?â you asked.
He shrugged. âMerchandising.â
That was vague. You narrowed your eyes at him, but before you could press further, his uncle laughed and pointed ahead, where a tall building rose proudly in the middle of the city square. It stretched for blocks, glass gleaming even under the sky.
âThat,â he said, clearly pleased, âis what my dear motherâVernonâs grandmaâbuilt from the ground up.â
Your breath caught. It was a shopping mall. Not just any mall, either. You recognized the name immediately. Youâd seen more than a few of them back home, even had business with them!
Slowly, you turned to look at Vernon, scanning him from head to toe like you were seeing him for the first time.
He noticed. âWhat?â
âMerchandising?â you said flatly.
He shrugged again, entirely unapologetic. You leaned back in your seat, stunned, eyes flicking back to the building as it disappeared behind you.
Great. Of course youâd accidentally gotten fake-engaged into another powerful family.
When the truck finally came to a stop, you stepped down onto solid ground and immediately turned to Vernon, catching him by the sleeve before he could move too far ahead.
âWait,â you said under your breath. âWhy didnât you tell me you were rich?â
He blinked, genuinely taken aback. âWhat?â
âThat mall,â you said flatly. âThe one your family runs. You donât just forget to mention that, not when you know weâre retail partners with them.â
Vernon huffed a laugh. âYou never asked. And besides, Iâm not rich. My family is.â
You stared at him. âThatâs not an answer.â
âIt is,â he said mildly. âJust not one you like.â
You scoffed, lowering your voice even further. âThen why are you working as an intern? In my company. Forââ you gestured vaguely between the two of you, âminimum pay and maximum suffering?â
His mouth opened, like he was about to say something but his uncleâs voice came booming from a few steps away. âVernon!â
He looked over his shoulder. âComing,â he replied easily, then glanced back at you. âCome on.â
You followed them down the pier, heels clicking against weathered wood as the sea air wrapped around you. Only when you reached the edge did you finally understand why everyone had stopped.
A sailboat waited at the dock, white and pristine, bobbing gently against the water. You slowed to a stop.
âWhy are we getting on a boat?â
Vernon glanced at the sailboat, then back at you, a smirk tugging at his mouth. âMy family thinks weâre better than everyone else,â he said, âso they bought a whole island and decided to live far away from the commoners.â
You stopped walking altogether. âIâm sorryâwhat?â
His uncle let out a bark of laughter, clapping a hand on Vernonâs shoulder. âThatâs not true at all,â he said. âWe didnât move there. Itâs just for family gatherings. Holidays. Reunions. That sort of thing.â
âAnd no, we donât own the whole island,â his uncle added, looking out into the horizon, one hand on his hip. âOnly half of it.â
Like that made it less unreasonable.
Youâd spent years thinking your grandmother was extravagantâbuying properties she rarely stayed in, collecting things simply because she could. But apparently, somewhere two thousand miles away, another woman had been doing the exact same thing.
No wonder theyâre friends.
Vernon hovered beside you now, close enough that you could feel the warmth of his presence without looking at him. âYou okay?â he asked quietly.
You opened your eyes. âIâm fine.â
He smiled at that, then held a hand out toward you. You hesitated for half a second, narrowing your eyes at him, then just as quickly, remembered the whole happily in love act had officially begun. So you took his hand and let him help you aboard the boat.Â
You had a feeling this week is going to be a lot harder than youâd anticipated.
The ride out to the island was mercifully short. The boat cut smoothly across the water, cold wind biting at your cheeks until your eyes watered. You pulled your coat tighter around yourself, breath fogging faintly in front of you.
Someone was already waiting there. A girl stood at the edge of the dock, bundled in a thick coat and scarf, waving with both arms like she didnât feel the cold at all.
âThatâs my sister,â Vernon said beside you. âSofia.â
The moment your feet hit the dock, Sofia made a beeline for him, throwing her arms around his neck without hesitation. âYouâre alive,â she said dramatically. âI was starting to think youâd fallen off the face of the earth.â
Vernon laughed, hugging her back. âYou facetimed me three days ago.â
âThree days is a long time,â she shot back, then said something else under her breath that made him groan and flick her forehead lightly. You didnât catch the words, but the sight of their teasing and laughter made your chest feel oddly warm.
Then Vernon turned slightly and gestured toward you. âThis isââ He paused for half a second, then continued smoothly. âMy girlfriend.â
Sofiaâs eyes snapped to you, sharp and curious, then widened with unmistakable delight. âGirlfriend,â she said slowly, grinning mischievously. âThatâs not what I heard,â she added in a sing-song.
Vernon sighed. âPlease be normal. Donât embarrass me.â
âWelcome,â Sofia said cheerfully, offering a hug which you returned awkwardly. Then she pulled back just enough to study your face. âWow. Youâre very pretty. Why would you wanna marry that guy?â
âAlright,â Vernon interjected, tugging Sofia from behind by her jacket collar. âThatâs enough. Go away.â
âWhat? I think sheâs too good for you.â She turned to you. âYou sure you donât wanna change your mind?â
âStop,â he chided softly, chuckling, âDonât discourage her. She might just change her mind. Nothingâs decided yet.â
âOh, what nonsense.â
The voice came from behind Sofiaâcalm, amused, unmistakably unimpressed. A woman stepped forward, elegant in every sense of the word, eyes narrowing playfully as she looked Vernon over.
You were taken aback, instinctively scooting closer to Vernon after what you heard. In your mind, you were wondering who this was and why she seemed to dislike him.
But beside you, Vernon merely sighed, shook his head in exasperation, and told you, âThis is my mom.â
You blinked, momentarily caught off-guard. Then it immediately clicked that this might be how they normally talked to each other, and all in good fun, you assumed.
His mother didnât give you much time to dwell on it. Her attention shifted to you immediately, her expression softening as she stepped closer and pulled you into a hug before you could react.
âOh,â you exclaimed. Behind her, you mouthed to Vernon, âIs this normal?â
He just shrugged, a smile playing on his lips. âWelcome,â she said warmly. âWeâre so happy youâre here.â
You laughed softly, a little breathless, returning the hug despite the nerves curling in your stomach. And then everything moved at once.
You were ushered forward, names thrown at you faster than you could catch themâaunts, cousins, someoneâs partner, someone elseâs childâsmiles and greetings blurring together as you were guided further into the property. The words âVernonâs fianceeâ kept echoing in your ears, and you felt a little lightheaded as you realized that lie felt bigger by the second, ballooning with every new face and every fond look directed your way.
Warm air hit you the moment you stepped inside the house, carrying the smell of food and something sweet. It was massive, but you barely had time to take it in before you heard someone call out your grandmotherâs nickname.
âOh my goodness,â a voice exclaimed, followed by hurried footsteps.
An elderly woman appeared with her arms already open, and your grandmotherâs face lit up like a sunrise. They met in the middle of the room, hugging tightly, laughing, talking over each other all at once.
You watched them fondly, feeling warm all over and knowing it wasnât because of the central heating. Then the noise swelled again around you, and you were being pulled into a hug by Vernonâs grandmother who had affectionately asked you to call her âNanaâ.
Eventuallyâsomehowâyou and Vernon finally escaped everybodyâs attention and you found yourself trailing behind him aas he led you down a quieter hallway. You passed through wide corridors, went up several flights of staircases, before he finally stopped in front of a wooden door that looked like every other one in the hall.
âCome on in,â he said, pushing the door open and letting you step inside first.
The room was spacious, sunlight spilling through tall windowsr. A queen-sized bed sat at the center, dressed in crisp white linens under fluffy navy blue duvets. A thick rug covered the hardwood floor, and a small writing desk sat neatly in the corner. A fireplace along one wall had a few framed family photos on its mantle. There was also a couch just in front of the fireplace, and you noticed a subtle scent of pine and cinnamon lingering faintly in the room.
âHow big is your family?â you asked, your gaze drifting around, taking in the comfort and scale of the space.
âNot very,â he said, hauling the last of your luggage over to the corner and setting it down with ease. âNana has five kids, all married with kids. And most of my older cousins are married too, so Iâve got eight nieces and nephews.â
âWow. Are there like, thirty of you?â
âAlmost thirty,â he said, shrugging, a small smile tugging at his lips. âIf everyone comes home for the holidays this year, youâre looking at twenty-eight Chwes under one roof.â
âThatâs a lot of people,â you murmured, scanning the room.
âWhat about you?â he asked.
âWell, my dad was an only child who had only one kid,â you replied, leaning slightly against the desk. âSo, no aunts and uncles for me. No horde of cousins either.â
Vernon glanced at you from the doorway, tilting his head slightly. âRight, why didnât your parents come here with you? I assume theyâre thrilled that their only child is engaged.â
You froze, realizing in that moment that youâd never actually told him your parents had passed. Before you could answer, a sharp knock came at the door, swinging open just as quickly without really waiting for anyone to respond.
âHello! I hope Iâm not disturbing anything,â a warm, lively voice called out. Vernonâs mother stepped inside, carrying a tray laden with small snacks and a thermos of tea.
âNo. We were just settling in,â you answered, trying to sound normal.
âI figured youâd be hungry after that long journey,â she said brightly, setting the tray down. She turned her gaze on you, eyes sparkling with curiosity. âHow are you feeling? Youâve traveled so far! Are you comfortable? Did you eat enough on the plane? Oh, do you like sweets?â
You opened your mouth, then closed it again, blinking at the rapid-fire questions, completely overwhelmed.
âOh, and Iâm so sorry about the chaos,â she said, smiling as she poured tea into the teacup. âOur family tends to overreact. Especially with Vernon being the only man in the family who hasnât married yet. Everyoneâs just excited to meet you.â
You felt a genuine warmth spread through your chest. âThank you,â you said softly, taking a small step closer to accept the cup she was offering.
âAnd how is my son? Is he good to you? Does he treat you well?â
âOh, heâs⊠wonderful. He takes care of everything for me,â you replied, and in a way, what you said was true.
âAs he should,â she chimed, looking proud. âHe must have been really good to you for you to decide to get married shortly after dating. OH!â She exclaimed, practically jumping in her seat. âYou havenât shown us your engagement ring yet!â
You froze, eyes flitting to Vernon across the room. He too looked surprised. You were both realizing in real-time that you had forgotten one, if not the most important thing about this whole engagement thing.
The damn ring!
âIs this it?â his mother asked, reaching for your hand where your default favorite ring to wear wrapped daintily on your finger.
You glanced sideways at Vernon, your expression screaming Help me.
âAlright, Mom, weâre tired. We need some rest. Please give us some space,â said Vernon, walking over and gently tugging her mom away from you.
âOh, fine,â she said, still beaming as her son dragged her all the way out of the door. âBut you need to tell me everything later!â
âOkay, bye-bye,â Vernon said before closing the door to her face.
The silence that followed was like a breath of fresh air. You slumped onto the couch, exhaling a long, tired breath. âI canât believe you forgot about the ring.â
âNah, I think thatâs on you,â he said casually, sitting on the edge of the bed. âThis whole thing was your idea. You should have known getting engaged includes getting a ring.â
âAre you saying you didnât know that?â
Vernon paused, head tilting, deep in thought. You sighed and waved a hand dismissively. âForget it. Whereâs the contract? Letâs go over it one more time.â
Vernon laid it out on the desk and went through the rules youâd carefully set upâholding hands only in front of family, no hugging, no kissing, agreed backstory, a clear understanding of what questions could be answered and which ones required a unanimous decision, and most importantly, telling everyone after the holidays that things didnât work out and you had to break up.
You came to the clause about the bed, and after a short discussion, agreed to alternate each night between the bed and the couch.Â
âAlright, get some rest,â he said after, standing up and walking toward the door. âmaybe a shower if youâd like.â
You raised a hand. âWait, where are you going? Youâre not allowed to leave me alone. Itâs in the contract. Rule number eight.â
His brows furrowed. âYou okay about me being in the room while you shower and get dressed?â
Your cheeks heat up instantly. âOkay. You can go,â you said calmly.
He chuckled softly, hands in his pockets, turning to the door again. âIâll just check out the field, see whatâs there to expect. Donât worry. I wonât be long,â he beamed, giving a small wave before closing the door.
By the end of that night, the engagement ring situation had been settled. Youâd stared down at the ring already on your finger and said, âWe can just say this is it.â
Vernon had squinted at it, thoughtful. âIt doesnât look like an engagement ring.â
You lifted your chin. âIt does. The rock is a diamond. Just smaller than what engagement rings usually have. Do you have a better idea?â you shot back.
He didnât. So that was that. The ring was promoted on the spot, its significance upgraded without its consent, and you both agreed never to question it again unless absolutely necessary. Preferably never.
And then the week began and nothing could have prepared you for what the holidays looked like in his family.
It was loud. Doors were always opening, someone was always calling out from another room, laughter echoing down hallways. There were meals that turned into three-hour affairs, dishes clattering, voices overlapping, debates breaking out over the most insignificant things. Someone was always touching someone elseâan arm around a shoulder, fingers laced together, hair ruffled in passing. Affection here wasnât saved for special moments. It was everywhere.
It was nothing like the holidays you knew.
Christmas, to you, had always been quiet. A peaceful dinner with your grandmother. Soft music playing in the background. Catching up, exchanging gifts, sitting side by side on the couch with wine glasses until you both got sleepy and called it a night.
Here, Christmas started days early and showed no signs of slowing down.
You were fed constantly. Asked questions constantly. Complimented, hugged, pulled into conversations you barely understood, handed drinks you didnât ask for. At some point, someone insisted you had to try a dessert because it was âVernonâs favorite growing up,â and suddenly he was there beside you, watching your reaction.
That was another problem entirely. Vernon was a little too good at this.
He held your hand casually, like it was second nature. Thumb brushing over your knuckles without thinking. He leaned in when people spoke to you, an arm slipping around your waist like muscle memory. He remembered to pull out your chair, to pass you food first, to check if you were cold before grabbing you a sweater.
None of it felt forced. If anything, you were the awkward one. âHow are you so good at this?â
He glanced at you, amused. âGood at what?â
âThis,â you said vaguely, gesturing between the two of you. âThe loving boyfriend thing. Itâs weird!â
His mouth twitched. âWould you rather I be awkward and obvious like you?â
You scoffed. âI am not obvious.â
âYou flinch every time I touch you.â
âThatâs because you donât give me a heads up,â you hissed.
He just smiled, infuriatingly smug, and reached for your hand again as someone walked past. âReal couples donât need a heads up for something like this,â he said, lifting your joined hands, then pressing a soft kiss on the back of your hand.
âWhat are you doing?â you deadpanned, but the smile on his lips remained.
âNana and your grandma are looking right at us,â he said.
You turned your head to said direction, and found that they were, in fact, not looking. You scoffed, pulled your hand back and glared at him. âIâm docking your pay for this month.â
âYou really think I need it?â he asked smugly, spreading his arms in a grand gesture.
You grimaced, taken aback by an arrogance youâd never seen in him before. âStop. Itâs your familyâs, not yours.â
âWell, Iâm part of this family, soâŠâ he replied, shrugging arrogantly. You snorted, rolling your eyes but not denying your laugh.
Vernon has always been popular in your company. You noticed that much after weeks of having him beside you everyday. People were always ogling him, heads turned whenever he passed by, followed by giggles and dreamy sighs. It was different from when it was just you. Most of the time, people tried to avoid eye contact with you and turned the other way when they saw you coming.
Of course you knew why he was popularâit has all to do with his good-looks. You tried, but you could never deny that his appearance was, in fact, out of this world. Not to mention heâs tall, has good genes, and is intelligent. But other than that, there wasnât much you could say about him as a person. You didnât really know what he was like outside of work, after all. You never paid him that much attention unless he was giving you a rundown of the dayâs agenda.
He was warm here. Soft and gentle in a way youâd never seen at work. And he was always close to you. His hand would find the small of your back in crowded rooms. Heâd tuck you in beside him on couches, offer you food before himself, glance at you like he was checking if you were still okay. Sometimes you caught him watching you when he thought you werenât looking, his eyes gentle and unreadable.
You told yourself it was part of the act. But as the days passed, surrounded by noise and laughter and far too much affection, you started feeling like you were the one pretending the hardest.
âYou ready?â he asked on the morning of the 23rd.
Youâd just finished touching up your makeup. âYes.â
You hesitated, retracting your hand when he reached for it. Vernon looked at you like he was over it. âWell? Come on then.â
âItâs justâŠâ you huffed, gesturing vaguely. âItâs a family pictorial. Iâm not exactly⊠family.â
Vernon chuckled, reaching for your hand again. âWeâve talked about this. Itâs not that deep.â
Except it was. You couldnât fathom how Vernon could be so calm about this whole thing. Not just the family pictorial, but the whole sham of an engagement you two were in.Â
âI can hear you thinking. Stop that,â he prompted, tugging you by the hand, all the way out of the bedroom.
The house was full. Not metaphoricallyâliterally full. Every bedroom was occupied, couches were claimed, extra chairs pulled out from storage, voices overlapping in every corner of the house. The entire family had arrived, cousins and partners and children. Youâd naturally been absorbed into it, everyoneâs basically been treating you like family.
They had a tradition, apparently. A family photo every Christmas. Same spot, same arrangement, different years. It was said to always happen every morning of the 23rd, two days before Christmas. And everyone took it seriously, dressing up with intent and looking their best.
âYou canât not join,â Vernon reminded you, steering you toward the center of the room. âThatâd be weird. Am I supposed to tell everyone, âthis is a fake engagement so sheâs skipping outâ?â
You lowered your voice as people shuffled around you, calling names, arguing about height order. âThatâs the thing. This is fake and temporary, but the photo weâre taking is gonna live forever in your family albums. Immortalized and revisited every year.â
He laughed softly, like it hadnât even occurred to him that this could be a problem. âIf you really feel that bad about it,â he said, shrugging, âyou could always marry me for real. Clear your conscience.â
You gave him a deadpan look. He simply grinned, completely unrepentant, then gently nudged you forward as someone called his name again.Â
By then, it was too late to back out. You let yourself be placed beside him, his arm slipping easily around your back like it belonged there.
You thought that would be the end of it. But later, after breakfast, when the living room had devolved into noise and laughter and people sprawled across every available surface, Sofia pulled out a Polaroid camera.
âOh, weâre doing couples,â she announced. âThis is non-negotiable.â
Groans followed, and some cheers. You felt Vernonâs hand find yours before youâd even fully processed what was happening, his fingers lacing with yours like muscle memory.
âYou werenât kidding,â you muttered under your breath. âYour family really does love each other.â
âYou love us too,â he murmured back, grinning.
âIâve known you people for a week,â you retorted, scoffing. But then, looking around, you added, âBut yeah. You guys are cool.â
You were herded onto the couch together, shoulders pressed close. Sofia crouched in front of you, aiming the camera. She looked into the camera, then at the two of you, brows furrowed.
âAre you guys really dating?â she asked, and you felt your heart drop to the floor. For a second, you wondered if you got caught, but then she added, âScoot closer. This isnât the 1800s.â
You chuckled and it came out strained. Vernonâs arm snaked around your waist, making you stiffen and glance at him. He gave it a gentle squeeze, urging you to relax. So you tried.
âKiss!â someone shouted from behind, followed by a chorus of hoots and whistles.
âThatâs enough,â Vernon said lightly, but firmly. âYouâre not getting a show.â
There were groans. Booing. Someone yelled that he was no fun. He just shrugged like none of it bothered him.
âSmile!â Sofia prompted.
You smiled without thinking. Then the camera clicked, and the photo slid out with a soft whirr.
Vernon didnât move right away. Neither did you. When you glanced at him, he was already looking at you. You blinked. âWhat?â
âNothing,â he replied, eyes gleaming, a smile playing on his lips. You stared back, brows furrowing, confused at the attention he was giving you.
You waited a second. Then another. The smile on his lips didnât change, it just stayed there, sweet and knowing, like he was in on something you werenât.
Heat crept up your neck. You shifted slightly on the couch, suddenly very aware of how close you were sitting, of his arm still resting behind you. âWhy are you staring at me?â
He hummed softly, like he was thinking about it. But he still didnât answer. So you stopped looking away. If he was going to stare, then fine. You could stare too.
But that was a bad idea. The noise around you slowly faded while you held his gaze, your heart thudding louder and louder with every passing second. His expression changed then, and you couldnât tell what it meant. It was something between amusement and surprise.
Click!
You both broke at the sound, turning toward his sister.
âOh,â Sofia said, already sprinting toward the tree just across the room. âThis oneâs going on the tree!â
Everyone eventually drifted off to do their own thing. The kids bundled themselves up and tore out into the snow, their shrieks of laughter muffled by scarves and knit hats. You stayed inside, lounging on one of the couches near the wide living room windows, a warm mug cradled between your palms as you watched them tumble and recover and tumble again.
Nana sat beside you with a knitted blanket over her lap, while your grandma sat across from you, glasses perched low on her nose.
âThey used to do that too,â your grandma said fondly, nodding toward the window. âRun around like little monsters until we had to drag them back inside.â
You smiled. âWho?â
âYour father,â Nana replied with a smile. âAnd my kids. Every summer, without fail. Theyâd come stay here for weeks. This place was a rental at the time. We didnât have enough money yet to purchase it.â
Your attention sharpened. You hadnât heard much about that timeâjust fragments, half-remembered anecdotes your grandmother would mention in passing.
âOh yes,â your grandmother chimed in. âWe saved up a few months of salary just to rent this out for summer,â she added, laughing heartily.
Nana nodded, looking outside. âThey were inseparable. Always muddy, always hungry. Your father was so polite, though. Even as a boy.â
Grandma chuckled. âPolite until he got comfortable.â
You laughed softly, the sound surprising you. âThat sounds like him.â
âThey were happy summers,â Nana continued, her voice warm with memory. âThose were good days. This place witnessed those kids grow up. Your mom and dad got engaged here.â
The room fell into a gentle hush, that subtle heaviness creeping in. You knew it all too well. It always happened whenever your parents were brought into the conversation. Nana reached out and patted your knee, her touch gentle and affectionate.
âYou must miss them very much,â she said softly.
You swallowed, then nodded. âI do. But itâs okay. Really.â You managed a small smile. âI was young. I barely remember some things.â
That wasnât entirely trueâbut it was the version youâd learned to give people, the one that made them stop looking at you like you might shatter.
Nana studied you for a moment, eyes kind but knowing. âStill,â she said, âweâre glad youâre here. Youâre family too, you know.â
You blinked, throat tightening unexpectedly. âThank you,â you said, meaning it more than you could explain.
Then, as if sensing the mood had sunk too low, your grandma straightened a little and clapped her hands together lightly. âWell! Speaking of family,â she said brightly, âhave you two thought about where youâll get married?â
âIâwhat?â you blurted before you could stop yourself.
âOh, donât look so shocked,â your grandma laughed. âThis is not an unexpected subject.â
You chuckled awkwardly. âNo. No, itâs not. I justâwe⊠Vernon and I havenât discussed it yet.â
âBut youâre gonna get married anyway, arenât you?â Nana asked, placing a hand on your arm. âWhy wait? You could do it here. After Christmas. The snow would be beautiful.â
âOh, I love winter weddings,â your grandma gushed.
âI do too!â Nana agreed, also gushing. âMy youngest had one and it was majestic!â
Your mind scrambled, panic blooming fast. After Christmas? Here? You could practically feel the lie ballooning again, threatening to burst.
âI think that might be a littleââ you started, glancing desperately around the room, looking for Vernon.
âOh, of course weâll leave that up to you two,â said Nana, giggling. âBut think about it and let us know. I know a good organizer who can give us an amazing event in short notice.â
Right on cue, the front door opened. Cold air rushed in along with laughter, Vernonâs uncle stomping snow off his boots as Vernon followed behind him, cheeks flushed from the cold.
âPerfect conditions out there,â his uncle announced cheerfully. âSnow uphill is just right. We can go sledding today!â
The kids immediately erupted, cheers echoing through the house. Vernonâs gaze flicked to you, taking you inâyour posture, your pallid face and horrified expressionâand quickly understood that you needed him.
âHello, ladies,â he greeted, kissing his Nana on the cheek and your grandma too. âI hope youâre not bullying my fiancee.â
They both chuckled, waving their hands. âOh, weâre just talking,â Nana said, smiling.Â
Vernon turned to you. âWanna go sledding?â
âYes,â you exclaimed with enthusiasm, not because you wanted to go but because you couldnât wait to get out of there. âI love sledding.â
âThen we should go before they destroy the hill,â he smiled, offering a hand.
Nana laughed, waving a hand. âGo on, go. Weâll talk weddings later.â
You nearly tripped over your own feet standing up. Vernon fell into step beside you as you walked toward the main door, leaning in just enough to murmur, âYou okay?â
âPretty sure I was this close to spontaneously combusting,â you whispered back. âBut yeah. Iâm okay.â
Outside, the cold bit through your coat immediately. The sky was pale and endless, the snow untouched and glittering. Laughter was echoing from the hill as kids dragged sleds uphill.
Vernon handed you a pair of gloves without comment. You took them automatically, slipping them on. âOur grandmas suggested we get married here, just after Christmas. Apparently they both love winter weddings.â
âOh, wow. What did you say to that?â he asked, walking over to fix your bonnet.
You scoffed, then rolled your eyes, letting him tie the laces of your bonnet under your chin. âWhat do you think? Couldnât even get a word in. They were taking a mile a minute.â
He chuckled softly, patting your head after he was done with the laces. âDonât mind them. Ultimately, the decision would be up to us. They canât force us to do anything.â
You hummed to that, agreeing. Then you looked up at his hand, still sitting on your head. âYouâre getting comfortable, Secretary Chwe.â
He grinned, defiant, not moving his hand away as he leaned down to say, âExcept Iâm not Secretary Chwe right now. Iâm your baby.â
You grimaced, swatting his hand away. âEw. As if.â
âAh, it wasnât âbabyâ. What was it, again?â he teased, walking backward. âMy love, was it?â
You scowled, running after him to hit him. But he dodged easily. âYouâre so annoying. Iâm firing you first thing when we get back.â
âNo, you wonât,â he grinned, holding out a hand. âYouâre not gonna find a secretary who can do better than me.â
You scoffed, but you knew he was right. âOnly for now,â you retorted. âAs soon as Beccaâs back, youâre out,â you added, then took his hand and followed him into the snow.
Sledding, apparently, was a two-person activity. You found that out only after everyone had already scattered across the hill, pairs forming naturally.
âOh, Iâm good,â you said quickly, hanging back near the fence. âIâll just⊠watch.â
Vernon turned toward you, breath fogging in the cold. âYou donât wanna try?â
âIâm perfectly content being moral support,â you replied, hands tucked into your coat sleeves. âVery enthusiastic moral support.â
âCome on. Itâs fun. Youâre gonna love it,â he offered, smiling. Then he held a hand out to you, palm up.
âCâmon,â he said again. âOne ride.â
You hesitated. You really did. You even glanced back toward the house, like the contract might physically manifest and slap his hand away for you. But then he tilted his head slightly, arm still extended, that stupid smile on his lips, and you sighed.
âFine,â you muttered, stepping forward. âBut hands around me is against the rules.â
He lifted a brow. âWeâre sledding. I have to hold you.â
You considered that for a second, then nodded. âAlright. Compromise.â
You followed him, letting him guide you toward one of the sleds waiting at the top of the hill. The snow was packed down from use. You sat down first, legs tucked in, bracing yourself.
Vernon climbed on behind you and you stiffened immediately as his knees bracketed your hips, your back pressing flush against his chest through layers of winter coats.
âRelax,â he murmured, his voice too close to your ear that it made the hair on your neck rise.
âI am relaxed,â you blurted, which was a blatant lie.
His hands hovered for a second, like he was giving you time to object. When you didnât, he placed them carefully at your sides instead of fully around you, fingers gripping the edge of the sled.
âSee?â he whispered in your ear, and you felt that in the way your heart started racing. âNo rules broken.â
Your heart was already pounding like you were halfway down the hill. âJust⊠donât move them,â you warned.
âI wonât.â
The sled jerked forward. Snow rushed past in a blur as gravity took over, the world tilting, the cold air biting at your cheeks. You gasped, half-laughing, half-panicking as the speed picked up.
Behind you, Vernon laughed too, his breath warm where it brushed your ear. The sled hit a small bump, and you jolted back instinctively. His arm tightened at your sideânot wrapping, but close enough that you felt it anyway.
âYou okay?â he asked.
You nodded, even though he couldnât see it. âYeah!â you replied, grinning so hard as the wind whipped against your face.
When the sled finally slowed at the bottom of the hill, snow spraying up around you, you were both still laughing, breathless, a little unsteady.
Then the laughter faded. You looked up at him at the same time he looked down at you, and suddenly the space between your faces felt too small. Small enough that you could feel his warm breath against your cheek.
You blinked a few times, surprised and frozen in place. Vernonâs gaze dropped to your mouth, just for a second. When it lifted again, he swallowed, adamâs apple bobbing once. Seeing that and the intent in his eyes made your heart kick painfully against your ribs, like it was trying to escape.
Laughter and cheering exploded behind you as another sled barreled to a stop nearby.
You moved instantly, standing too fast, stepping away before your body could do something stupid. Cold air rushed back in like a shock as you brushed snow from your coat, cheeks burning despite the winter air.
Vernon cleared his throat. âThat was fun,â he said, smiling like nothing happened.
You swallowed, looking away. âYeah.â
Behind you, you could feel his gaze linger. You told yourself it was just adrenaline. Still, when he reached for the sled again and asked, âOne more?â you didnât say no.
The rest of the day passed in a blur. You drifted between rooms, between conversationsâhelping in the kitchen, sitting in on half-finished card games, watching kids chase each other until someone inevitably cried over a stolen candy cane.Â
Somewhere in the middle of it all, you realized youâd stopped keeping track of where Vernon was at all times. Not because you didnât care, but because you didnât need to.
He was there when you glanced up from a conversation, leaning against a doorway, already looking at you. He was there beside you when someone handed out mugs of something warm, your shoulders brushing as you accepted yours. There were looks shared across the room, quick whispered comments that made you laugh under your breath, inside jokes forming without effort.
For once since you got here, there was no pressure to perform. No constant mental checklist. No fear that youâd look too distant for two people who were supposedly engaged. You were just genuinely enjoying yourself.
By nightfall, after a movie that half the room slept through, you found yourself walking back down the hall beside him, the house was quieter now, voices fading behind closed doors.
You were still laughing about a scene from the movie neither of you could take seriously. Your steps slowed naturally as you reached the door to the bedroom.
Vernon lingered in the hallway, hands in his pockets, watching you with a thoughtful expression. âYou know,â he said casually, âyouâre a really good person.â
You snorted, already turning toward the door. âOkay.â
âIâm serious.â
That made you pause. You glanced back at him, brows lifting. âRight. Sure you are.â
He rolled his eyes. âNo, really. People at work call you Medusa, but I think theyâre wrong about you.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âOh, I donât call you that,â he added quickly. âItâs just them.âÂ
You stared at him, genuinely caught off guard. âMedusa?â
âLike I said, theyâre wrong. Please forgive them,â he said, smiling. âItâs just that theyâve never met someone so hardworking and intelligent. So sharp. So⊠wonderful. I think they figured thereâs no way a real person could be that amazing, so they called you Medusa.â
Your stomach fluttered, completely against your will. But then you scoffed lightly, shaking your head. âOr,â you said, recovering, âitâs because people freeze when they see me. Like Medusa turns them into stone.â
He laughed. âThat too.â
You laughed too, the sound echoing softly down the quiet hallway. And then for a moment, neither of you said anything. You were just staring at each other. When he leaned on the wall adjacent to the door, you mirrored him by leaning on his bedroom door.
Crossing your arms, you said, âItâs my turn on the bed tonight.â
Vernon chuckled softly, eyes glimmering, shaking his head. âNo, itâs not.â
âItâs not?â you asked, feigning ignorance.
He opened his mouthâprobably to argue, like alwaysâthen stopped. His gaze was still on you, that soft glow in his eyes was still there.
ââŠFine,â he sighed, pushing himself away from the wall and walking toward you. He stopped just a breath away. âYou can have it.â
You frowned, caught off guard. âThat was too easy.â
He shrugged, reaching for the door knob behind you, leaning in so close. âDonât get used to it,â he murmured, still not moving away even after he had pushed the door open.
You smiled, shaking your head lightly, and walked in. You took your cardigan off, reached the bed, arranged the blanketâyou counted the steps in your head, not because you needed to, but because your chest was doing this ridiculous fluttering thing.
Vernon followed quietly, the ghost of a smile still lingering on his lips, and you watched as he picked up his blanket and headed to the couch. Then he gave you a small wave before disappearing behind the backrest.Â
You lay down, smiling to yourself, staring up at the ceiling, heart doing something inconvenient in your chest.
This is bad, you whispered in your thoughts. This is so bad. You were smiling like an idiot. Because of Vernon Chwe!Â
You exhaled through your nose. Okay. So maybe you were enjoying this holiday. A little too much. And yes. Fine. Vernon likes you. You werenât imagining that. Youâd spent your entire career reading people; you werenât about to pretend you couldnât read this.
But the more troubling realization was: you might be starting to like him back.
And that was bad because you had no idea how to tread this territory. This wasnât in the agreement. There was no clause for catching feelings, no protocol for what to do if that ever happened.
âHey,â Vernonâs voice carried from across the room, making your head snap that way, quieting your thoughts.
âHeyâŠâ you murmured back.
âGoodnight,â he said softly.
You didnât answer right away. You let yourself breathe. Then you exhaled softly, trying to get some control back, and making a decision right then and there. âGoodnight, Secretary Chwe,â you murmured.
You knew what it meant to call him that, knew how that sounded. But the words werenât exactly for him. Not really. They were for youâa reminder to draw a line, to keep your head straight and not get distracted.
Because it turns out that the most dangerous thing about fake dating is not getting caught; itâs when things start to feel real.
The house was already awake when you stirred the next morning. You could tell before you even opened the doorâvoices overlapping downstairs, footsteps on the stairs, laughter that was louder than usual. Vernon noticed it too the second he stepped out of the bathroom, hair still damp, sleeves rolled as he buttoned his shirt.
âIs it just me or is the house noisier than usual?â he asked, voice light.
You huffed a laugh. âMaybe your family multiplied in their sleep.â
You didnât get far down the stairs before his mother intercepted the both of you, beaming, hands clasped together like sheâd been waiting all morning for this exact moment.
âSurprise!â she said brightly.
Behind her, the living room was packed. Not just relativesânew faces. Older couples you didnât recognize, younger people clustered near the windows, a few men Vernon vaguely waved at in recognition. Someone had already put music on. Someone else had brought food. There were flowers on the table that definitely hadnât been there yesterday.
Vernon blinked once. âMom, whatâs going on?â
His mother laughed, waving him off. âOh, we thought it would be nice to surprise you with an engagement party and invite our family friends, and your friends of course.â
âYour friends?â you asked, looking at Vernon.
âYes, dear,â his mom answered. âKids he grew up with and went to school with.â
She looped an arm through yours before you could take a step back. âI know itâs a lot, and you two have a penchant for keeping things lowkey. But donât worry, this is just a small function. We wonât put you in too much spotlight, so no pressure.â
âHah,â you exclaimed, then chuckled awkwardly. âOf course. No pressure,â you echoed, glancing sideways at Vernon.
âMom,â he said, âyou really didnât have toââ
âOh hush,â she said, already steering you further into the hall. âEveryoneâs been dying to meet you properly.â
And just like that, the lie wasnât a snowball anymore. Itâs an avalanche.
You endured. That was the only way to describe it. Endurance. You smiled when people congratulated you. You nodded when they said you were beautiful together. You accepted hugs from women who smelled like perfume and winter coats and cinnamon.
Someone pressed a drink into your hand. Someone else asked how you met. You answered automatically, muscle memory carrying you through a story youâd told often enough that it no longer snagged.
Vernon stayed close. A hand at your back, a glance across the room when the noise spiked. Every so often, heâd hold your hand and give it a light squeeze, as if he was apologizing and asking you to power through.
His friends were easier than you expected. They were polite, warm, and a little teasing, the kind that only comes from a long shared history.
One of them clapped Vernon on the shoulder. âGood for you man. Moving away, starting over, meeting someone you wanted to marry.â
âJealous, Gyu?â another guy scoffed. âMaybe if you stopped sleeping around like a menaceââ
âOh, shut up, Seungcheol,â Mingyu shot back. âYouâre the one flirting with sad married women.â
âFor the last time,â Seungcheol sighed, rubbing the back of his neck like this argument had worn him thin, âsheâs not married. Sheâs divorced.â
You watched Vernon through it allârelaxed, carefree, amused, completely at ease in the presence of friends who knew him best.
âSo,â Wonwoo cut in, eyes flicking between the two of you. âWhat are you doing these days, Vernon?â
âYeah,â someone else added. âWhat happened after you left the company?â
That caught your attention. You glanced at Vernon. âThe slave contract you were talking about,â you said slowly, âthat was with your family?â
He grinned, entirely unapologetic. You scowled. âThe hell? So you were a nepo baby too. How dare you call me one.â
Vernon laughed, head lolling back. You just stared at him, unimpressed. His friends too, apparently. They were just staring like they had no idea what was so funny.Â
Vernon eventually noticed it, so he stopped, cleared his throat, and straightened up. âIâm working as a secretary,â he said, and then, with visible pride, slid an arm around your shoulder. âIn her cosmetics company.â
The pause was immediate. ââŠWait,â Seungcheol said. âYou work for her?â
âSheâs the CEO?â Mingyu asked, and Vernon nodded again.
âSo youâreââ Wonwoo pointed at you, then back at Vernon. ââhis boss?â
âYeah,â Vernon said proudly. âSheâs very cool.â
There was a second where you braced yourself, afraid they might judge him for it. But then Mingyu barked out a laugh. Then suddenly, everyone else was laughing.
âNo way,â Seungcheol said, shaking his head. âYou? Taking orders?â
Mingyu followed, grinning wide. âDo you have any idea how insane that is? This man has never worked under anyone.â
âEver,â Wonwoo added. âHe used to boss entire departments around like it was a sport.â
Vernon rolled his eyes. âThatâs not true.â
âThatâs extremely true,â Mingyu shot back. He turned to you, âHeâs so annoying. And he doesnât even realize it. He once made a manager wait because he âwasnât done talking.ââ
You blinked, surprised, then laughed before you could stop yourself. Nodding, you said, âHe is kinda annoying. And tactless sometimes.â
Seungcheol pointed at you, delighted. âSee? Imagine that kind of guy working under someone?â
Mingyu asked you, âBet youâre always on the verge of firing him every day, huh?â
You shrugged. âNot really. He is annoying but I can keep him in line. And heâs pretty good at his job. There are only two people who can keep up with me, and heâs one of them.â
âFigures,â Wonwoo said, nodding like it all made sense now. âLeaves the family business, ends up working for someone smarter than him.â
Vernon didnât deny it. If anything, he looked pleased, standing there beside you like this arrangement wasnât something to be embarrassed about, but something heâd chosen.
You felt something warm settle in your chest at that.Â
âSo,â Mingyu said, dragging a chair closer and plopping down like he was settling in for a story. âI gotta ask. How did this happen?â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âYou two,â Mingyu clarified, gesturing between you. âFrom boss and secretary to engaged and getting married soon.â
Seungcheol leaned forward, eyes bright. âYeah. Did he seduce you with his wiles while pretending to work as your secretary?â
Vernon scoffed. âI did not seduce her.â
âYou absolutely did,â Mingyu said. âLook at him. Thatâs a man who knows how to weaponize his good looks.â
You snorted. âThatâs slander.â
âOh, come on,â Seungcheol said. âYouâre telling me he didnât pull the whole competent, always-there, remembers-your-coffee-order routine?â
Vernon opened his mouth to protest again, but you beat him to it. âItâs not hard to fall for Vernon,â you said.
The table went quiet. You hadnât planned to say that. It just slipped out.
You cleared your throat, suddenly aware of the way Vernon had turned fully toward you. âI meanâhe is,â you continued. âHeâs thoughtful. He pays attention. He notices things most people donât bother with. He anticipates what needs to be done without making a show of it.â
Vernon didnât interrupt. He just watched you, expression unreadable, eyes steady.
âHeâs⊠considerate. And patient. And surprisingly kind. Of course, heâs sarcastic and all but even that is excusable because those little arguments are fun and makes every day less dull,â you added, smiling absently. âAnd heâs the sweetest. Which is annoying, actually, because it makes it hard to stay mad at him.â
You finally looked at Vernon.
He was smilingâbut not the smug one, not the teasing one. This was softer, the same smile he had been giving you these last few days. The kind that looked like he was grateful for the existence of you. He looked like he hadnât expected to hear all that, but he was holding it carefully now that it existed.
You gave him the same smile. Or as best as you could reflect it, hoping, and knowing, that he knew exactly what it meant. And you realized now that you had just crossed a line.Â
Straight up just stepped over it without hesitation, after telling yourself very clearly the night before where it was.
Mingyu stood abruptly. âOkay. Nope. Iâm too single for this.â He waved a hand between the two of you. âYouâre both being disgustingly in love. Kissing in front of me wouldâve been less damaging.â
Wonwoo laughed. âAgreed. Letâs move on before I start believing in love again.â
You huffed a laugh, but it came out weaker than you meant it to. Your chest was heavy with warmth and feelings and⊠and love.
But you had no time to dwell on it. Someone suggested games. Someone else brought snacks. Chairs were pulled, conversations restarted, the day rolling forward like nothing had almost happened.
But when Vernon held your hand under the table later, not for show because no one wouldâve seen it, you didnât move away. And for the rest of the day, you didnât bring up the line youâd drawn. You just quietly stood on the other side of it.
The engagement party thing was over by noon. Guests left one by one, and the family resumed preparations for Christmas Eve dinner. You were gathered in the kitchen with the adults, helping out with the cookies.
Vernon was sitting in a chair beside you, casually chatting with you and his mom about holiday traditions.
âYour parents actually used to host the winter bonfires,â said Vernonâs mom, smiling fondly at you.Â
âThey did?â you asked, delighted to hear another anecdote about your parents.
She nodded. âYes. Every year. And then your mom got pregnant with you, so they skipped a year. After that, the whole tradition just stopped,â she added, sighing. âTheyâd always made it so magical. We simply could not recreate it.â
Vernon leaned forward, gesturing with his mug. âI remember when I met her parents. Incredible people. And her momâs so beautiful.â
The room froze. Adults exchanged sharp glances, eyebrows raised. His mom looked at him, brows furrowed. âYou met her parents?â
âYeah. Iââ You nudged Vernonâs leg under the table, stopping him.
âBut thatâs impossible, dear,â Nana said, her voice laced with sympathy, âyou couldnât have. Her parents passed away a long time ago.â
You felt Vernon freeze beside you. Quick on your feet, you leaned slightly toward him, your tone casual as if nothing unusual had happened, as if your heart didnât just sink to your stomach.Â
âOh, I took him to their graves,â you said smoothly. âHe met them there.â
Vernon blinked at you, clearly realizing heâd made a mistake.
âI wanted to introduce him to them first,â you added, smiling, channeling your best acting yet. âI didnât know our connection yet at the time, but they were probably thrilled to know Iâm marrying their close friendâs son.â
âAw,â Vernonâs mom sighed. âThatâs very thoughtful of you, isnât it?â
The tension in the room melted almost instantly, replaced by murmurs and soft chuckles from the other adults. Conversation resumed around you, with only a few glances exchangedâreminders of the near slip, and of just how good you were at thinking on your feet.
Vernon reached for your hand, so you glanced at him. He looked apologetic, and you could tell it wasnât because he nearly revealed that you werenât in a real relationship. You smiled at him, patting his hand and mouthing, âItâs okay.â
By the time dinner preparations were done, you were exhausted. Exhausted from the engagement party, from socializing with people who were basically strangers to you, and exhausted from helping out in the kitchen.
âThis is nice and all, but I think I prefer our boring Christmas dinners, Grandma,â you told your Grandma while getting dressed for dinner.
She chuckled heartily, sitting in front of her vanity and trying on a different shade of lipstick. âBeing surrounded by people you love on Christmas is how itâs supposed to be, my dear. Itâs a shame I couldnât give you this kind of warmth growing up.â
âHey,â you chided, walking toward her and wrapping your arms around her shoulder. âI have no complaints, so you shouldnât talk like that. You raised me as best as you can and taught me everything I know.â
Your Grandma melted in your embrace, sighing as she put the lipstick down. âYeah, youâre a wonderful kid, alright. I just wished you were a little sweeter.â
âPlease,â you chuckled, pulling away. âMy lack of sweetness and my attitude in general is thanks to you, as well.â
âI know that, but couldnât you be more affectionate? Or expressive?â she sighed, gaze following you across the room. âLearn a thing or two about expressing yourself from Vernon.â
âToo late for that,â you quipped, checking your reflection in the mirror once more.
Your Grandma sighed in defeat. âI guess I should be glad youâre marrying him then. He can express affection for both of you.â
Then came a series of knocks on the door. You quickly walked toward it, yanking it open knowing Vernon would be on the other side.Â
âHi,â he beamed, taking you in with his eyes. âYou look amazing.â
You shrugged. âYou donât look so bad yourself, my love,â you replied, using your endearment, not because your grandma was there, but because⊠just because.
âShall we?â
The dining room was warm, the scent of roasted meat and cinnamon filling the air. Dinner was loud like always in this houseâchairs scraping, someone always talking over someone else, Nana shushing nobody in particular.
You ended up seated beside Vernon, mostly because every time you tried to move, someone asked you to stay. He passed you food without asking. You corrected his grip on the serving spoon once. He fixed it without comment.
At some point, his Nana leaned over. âIs now the best time to talk weddings?â
Vernon chuckled lightly. âNana, itâs Christmas eve. Weâll have time for that later.â
Nana tried to insist, but eventually gave up when you both refused adamantly. Later, when some cousins got up to chase the kids outside for an impromptu snowball fight, Vernon leaned closer.Â
After dishes were cleared and the family settled around the living room for a low-volume carol playlist, you both slipped out to the balcony, leaving the laughter and chatter behind. The night was cold, and snowflakes drifted lazily downward, coating the garden below in soft white. Vernon wrapped a blanket around himself, then stood behind you.
âIs this okay?â he asked, wrapping his arms and the blanket around you.
You chuckled, feeling the warmth seep in immediately. âAre people watching?â
âYeah. About a dozen of them,â he replied briskly. âI think I need to hold you closer. Make it more believable, you know?â he added, already tightening his arms around you.
You could tell he was lying, but you didnât bother confirming. âYou should, or weâd get caught,â you said, leaning your head against his chest.
âYour family has a lot of stamina,â you said after a pause. âI wouldâve tapped out after day one.â
âYou did better than I expected,â he replied, chuckling. âEveryone likes you. Nana adores you.â
âThatâs terrifying,â you said, looking up at him. âSheâs very perceptive.â
Vernon smiled, shifting a little and pressing his chin on top of your head. âTomorrowâs Christmas Day.â
âI know. One more day and this is all over,â you replied, taking a long relieved breath. âWe can finally go back to how things were.â
You felt him stiffen behind you, recovering almost as quickly. He laughed slowly. âI was actually thinking the same thing. When this is over, we could go back to our hectic, caffeinated daily routine, closing deals like champs, terrorizing the marketing head, pressuring manufacturers, calling the lab day in and day out for new and improved formulas.â
âYouâre making us sound like bad capitalists,â you quipped, grinning. âI mean weâre capitalists but we're not that bad.â
Vernon chuckled, his chest vibrating against your back. âAnd I was also thinkingâŠâ he paused, loosened his arms, and turned you around so you could face him fully.
He braced his hands on the railing, caging you in as he stared into your eyes. You held your breath and looked away, unable to meet his eyes.
âI was thinking maybe we could go out on nice dinners sometimes. After work,â he continued. âGo on a road trip on weekends. Maybe catch a movie if youâre into that.â
âLike bosses and secretaries do?â
He huffed a laugh. âIâm pretty sure they donât do that.â
You shrugged, still looking anywhere but his eyes. âThey might. If theyâre⊠dating.â
The word lingered between you, more meaningful than you meant it to be. Vernon stayed quiet for a few moments, then, softly, carefully, he said your name, the word rolling beautifully on his tongue.
You looked up, finally meeting his gaze. âYes? Vernon?â
Something changed in his expression. Like youâd tapped something only he could feel. âThatâs three times,â he said softly.
âWhat?â
âThree times youâve called me by my name since we met.â
You blinked, surprised heâd even noticed. âYouâre counting?â
He shrugged. âIf youâre Secretary Chwe every minute of the day, you just canât help but keep count.â
Neither of you moved. He didnât step closer, diidnât touch you, he just stayed there, giving you space and somehow still holding you in place.
âCan I kiss you?â he asked softly, almost in a whisper.
âThat would be breaking the rules,â you said, automatically. Not because you actually cared about the rules, but because you were too nervous. Your heart was kicking hard against your ribs. Your breathing was getting unsteady. And your skin was pricking not from the cold, but from anticipation.
âI knew youâd say that,â he chuckled, already leaning in.
You met him halfway. In a kiss that was soft and careful, growing firmer with every breath. His hand found your waist, warm through the layers, steadying you as your lips pressed back with more certainty.
For a moment, you couldnât hear or see anything. You could only feel. Feel his hand around you, his lips against yours, his warmth, your warmth, his heartbeat against your own. Snow fell. Laughter drifted faintly from inside. The world continued on, unaware. Or maybe they were aware. You didnât care. Right now, nothing else mattered but this moment right here.
Even after you pulled away, you stayed close, foreheads touching, breaths fogging, cheeks flushed, and grinning. Vernonâs hands lingered at your waist, firm but gentle, the warmth through the layers of your coats seeping into you like it was meant to.
âGod, itâs freezing out here,â he murmured, voice low.
âYou donât say,â you whispered back, and the words were a laugh and a shiver at the same time.
He tilted his head slightly, nudging yours so your noses brushed. âIââ He stopped, exhaling sharply.
You tilted your chin up, meeting his eyes. âI know,â you said softly.
He let out a small laugh, almost a sigh, pressing a little closer. âI donât want to stop.â
âNeither do I,â you admitted, and it came out softer than you expected, a confession you hadnât planned to give aloud.
There was a pause, long enough that you could feel your heart hammering against your ribs, long enough that the wind seemed to hush around you. Your hands found his neck, and he leaned into your touch, eyes closing for just a fraction of a second before reopening, searching yours.
âI canât pretend anymore.â
âThen letâs not,â you replied softly, and before you knew it, Vernon was scooping you up again for another kiss.
You were used to being in control.
Boardrooms fell silent whenever you walked in. People listened when you spoke. Decisions were set the moment you made them. Even now, in Vernonâs bedroom with the door closed and the city humming somewhere across the sea, you expected that familiar balance to tilt in your favor.
But it didnât.
âWhat are you doing?â you asked, eyes wide and brows furrowed at Vernon who just stopped kissing you out of nowhere.
He shrugged, infuriatingly nonchalant and relaxed. âWe need to slow down.â
âWhat?â you demanded, thoroughly confused. âWhat do you mean? This was your idea.â
âIt is, but I need to know weâre on the same page here,â he said, smiling casually, but the firm grip of his hands on your hips told you he was restraining himself hard.
âI thought we made that clear?â
âNo. What we did was stare into each otherâs eyes and use vague words,â he said, gesturing vaguely.
You rolled your eyes, frustration bubbling over. âVernon Chwe, I swear to God if you donât kiss me right noââ
He crashed his lips into yours, shutting you up completely. Your body reacted immediately, heat and need shooting up through your core. Vernonâs long fingers tangled into your hair, tugging firmly until a moan escaped from your lips. He took this chance to shove his tongue into your open mouth. You pulled him even closer, breasts pressing against his broad chest.
His kisses trailed to your jaw, one hand slipping under your shirt to touch the skin of your waist. You gasped when his mouth latched to your neck, sucking and nipping.
âVernon,â you said, tapping his shoulders. âTake me to the bed.â
Vernon pulled away just enough to press his forehead against you, smirking. âIs that an order?â he rasped, his hand underneath your shirt now moving to slip past your bra.
âNo?â you breathed, holding back a moan when he gave your nipple a gentle squeeze. âIs it?â
âIt better not be,â he whispered into your ear, lips brushing the sensitive skin. He took your wrists âIâll allow that at work, but donât think for one second that Iâm gonna let you tell me what to do in my roomâŠâ
He kissed your neck, making your skin shiver in the best way. âOr on my bed,â he added, licking your throat.
You moaned out his name, but he was quick to press a finger on your lips. âShush, love. This may be a big house, but the walls here are thin.â
âVernonâŠâ you purred, and he cupped your cheek gently, then pressed a long, lingering kiss to your forehead.
âBe quiet, alright?â he said, smiling before disappearing from your line of sight.
You were confused for a fraction of a second. Then you felt your skirt being lifted, followed by something pressing on your clothed cunt without warning.
You gasped, realizing belatedly that it was Vernonâs nose. You felt him take a long sniff, hand wrapping around your thigh. You grabbed a fistful of his hair and he let out a growl the likes of which youâd never heard before.
A second later, he was devouring you, relentless and insatiable, leaving you trembling under his touch. Your grip on his hair tightened, your knees were threatening to give out with every lick. If it wasnât for his tight hold around your legs, you would have collapsed on the floor already.
Vernon slipped a finger into you, without warning, making you gasp. He rose to his feet, finger still inside you, his other hand pushing loose hair behind your ear as he shushed you gently.Â
âThe entire house is gonna hear you, and theyâre gonna know exactly whatâs going on in here,â he said, as if it wasnât his fingering that was making you make all these noises.
But you listened anyway, biting down your lower lip, tears pricking at your eyelids when he pushed a second finger in. You buried your face on his chest, fingers digging into his shoulders as he pushed you closer to the edge
Vernon pressed his lips on the side of your head, shushing you gently while still brutally ramming his fingers in and out of your sex.
Then you felt that familiar knot twisting low in your belly, threatening to come undone. Your breathing turned erratic, breasts falling and rising rapidly as you braced for an orgasm. Vernon saw that, kissed your cheek, and moved harder amd faster.Â
His fingers were cramping, but the delightful look on your face was spurring him on. He couldnât wait to see the beautiful face youâd make when itâs finally him drilling into your sweet cunt. Just thinking about it was making his cock throbâhard and hot, still trapped in his pants.
âVernon, Iâmââ you cut yourself off, gasping, body jerking, hands on his shoulders gripping tighter as a wave of orgasmm surged through you.
Then you fell limp against Vernon, who held you steadily. He kissed you again because⊠well because he just couldnât stop himself from kissing you, could he? His head was clouded, and all he could think of was how much he wanted to fuck your brains out.
So he lifted your thighs, wrapped your legs around his legs and carried you over to the bed.
You fell on the mattress with a bounce, still out of breath from the aftershocks of your orgasm. Vernon crawled over you, smirk tugging at his lips.
âStill wanna tell me what to do?â he asked, mouth hovering just above yours.
You hesitated. That hesitation made him smile. âThatâs what I thought,â he murmured, kissing you again.Â
His hand pinned your wrist above your head, the other tracing down your side like he was rewriting the rules you lived by. He gathered the hem of your sweater, yanking it up and over your head, before crashing his lips back to yours.
Your skirt and stockings followed immediately after, his hands settling on your thighs, spreading them wide enough for him to marvel at the sight of your wet pussy.
âLike what youâre seeing?â you asked, confidence spiking because Vernon was looking at you like you were the eighth wonder of the world.
He huffed an amused laugh, hand tracing your thigh. âOh, I love it. You have no idea.â
When was the last time you felt this kind of intense desire and uninhibited pleasure? You couldnât even remember. Not that it mattered. Vernon was here to rock your entire world tonight, with that rock-hard, standing tall, deliciously girthy manhood that had just sprang free from the confines of his boxers.
You held your breath when he positioned himself between your legs, licking a stripe on his hands and coating his cock with the slick. Your fingers curled into the sheets as he pressed into you slowly, the earlier orgasm making him slide smoothly, but the stretch made you whimper.
âDonât make me cover that mouth myself,â he warned, grinning so sweetly, unaware of the surge of pleasure that just shot through you when he said those words.
He bottomed out with a groan, his body settling over yours as he collected himself. His hair brushed your face as he moaned against your chest, muttering curses under his breath.
Meanwhile, you were catching your breath, chest rising and falling rapidly. âVernon, I need you to move. Please. Please. Please,â youâd basically pleaded.
Vernon exhaled sharply, lifting his head to meet your gaze and plant a quick kiss to your lips. âIâll allow it because you asked nicely,â he quipped, pulling out for a second just before thrusting into you.
Your chest rose and fell against his, nerves dancing in sensations his every move was sending through your body. Your fingers tangled, your breaths mingled, heat lingered in every glance, and every brush of skin. You clung to him, losing track of everything except his touch and the way he held you close.
The world had narrowed to the feeling of him against you, the pull and the pushâespecially the push. Your lower lip stung from biting too hard to keep yourself quiet. Your heart was beating wildly in your chest, echoing in his.
He brushed a strand of hair from your face, lips grazing your temple, and the shiver that ran down your spine was delightful and hot.Â
âYou are most beautiful,â he whispered, eyes locked with yours, filled with sincerity and something tender⊠something that looked a lot like love.
Snow kept falling outside, and somewhere between the haze of lust and warmth, you were sure that whatever came next would leave both of you ruined in the best possible way. But at the same time, you realized you wouldnât have wanted to stop even if you could.
You woke up to Vernonâs arms wrapped around you, his warmth seeping through the blankets, his scent lingering in your hair and on your clothes. He was awake, head propped on one hand, watching you with that half-smile that made your chest tighten.
âWhat are you doing?â you mumbled, embarrassed, burying your face against his shoulder.
âKeeping my eyes on you in case this turns out to be a dream and you disappear,â he said in one breath, brushing loose strands of hair behind your ear.
You grinned, snuggling closer. âThatâs so corny.â
You stayed like that for a few more minutes, savoring the warmth and the way his hand traced idle patterns along your side. But the inevitability of the morning eventually caught up with you. Itâs Christmas Day. By now, the rest of the family would be gathered downstairs, waiting to open gifts and celebrate some more.
âCome on. You should see what I got you,â he said, sitting up. âItâs in a red box with a shiny green ribbon on it.â
âYou got me something?â you asked, genuinely surprised.
Vernon looked at you like the answer should have been obvious. âOf course, I got you something. Itâs Christmas. Youâre supposed toâ waitâŠâ he paused, narrowing his eyes at you. âYou didnât get me anything, did you?â
You smiled sheepishly, and Vernonâs jaw dropped. But then he shrugged, reached to cup your face, and grinned.
âItâs okay. I think I received my best Christmas gift yet,â he chimed, leaning in to kiss you.
You ended up cuddling in bed again. Vernon was relentless, kissing the back of your neck, tugging your hands, soft murmurs of promises that made your heart flutter and your cheeks burn. Getting up after that was slow. Clothes, brushing teeth, and somehow, through a haze of laughter, stolen kisses, and whispers, you managed to get ready.
âYouâre so pretty,â he said, standing behind you in front of the mirror and wrapping his arms around.
âThanks. I figured I should try harder if Iâm gonna date someone so handsome,â you replied, turning to face him, arms finding their way around his neck.
Vernon grinned, clearly pleased with what he just heard. âYou donât need to. Youâre already too beautiful for someone like me.â
You rolled your eyes, not buying it. âYou clearly donât understand just how beautiful you are, Vernon Chwe.â
He kissed you again, and you had to squirm out of his hold and walk out of the room first or youâd spend the whole morning locked in the bedroom with him.
The first thing you noticed when you reached the bottom of the stairs was the silence. The usual mayhem of children squealing and zooming around, adults chattering, holiday music in the backgroundâit was all gone. Only the adults were there, standing rigidly, staring at the two of you.
Your stomach dropped. Something was wrong, you could feel it in your bones.
Vernon stepped closer, taking your hand in his. âWhatâs going on?â
No one answered. Then his mom stepped forward, her smile tight, eyes not quite meeting his. She shoved a piece of paper into his hands, and you immediately recognized your carefully constructed contract even before reading the words.
âWhat is the meaning of that?â his mom asked, her voice small and hesitant. âVernon, tell us right now. Why is there a document like that in your bedroom?â
The words didnât register at first. The paper in his hands felt heavy, like it had gravity all its own. You tried to breathe but your chest felt hollow.
Vernon opened his mouth, searching for the right words, and your heart hammered in sympathy and panic. âWe⊠I can explainâŠâ
Voices erupted around you, overlapping, frantic and sharp. Someone asked why he did this. Another said this was unnecessary and that he didnât have to deceive everyone. One voice asked if he had any motive. Another asked if he thought of this family as a joke.
You barely made sense of it, caught between the tidal wave of accusations, most of them being directed at Vernon. He kept his hand around yours, holding you tight and shielding you with his body as his family demanded answers from him. The rest of the room seemed to tilt and spin. You barely heard him try to speak again; his words were drowned out by questions, accusations, demandsâall of it directed at him.
Finally, you found your voice, loud and firm, âItâs my fault.â
All eyes turned toward you, stunned at your words. You took in their confused faces, then exhaled sharply.Â
âI made him do this,â you added, tugging your hand away from Vernonâs grasp. âThere was a⊠a situation,â you began to explain, choosing your words carefully.Â
âA supposedly one-off situation that unexpectedly spiraled out of control. And I know, we could have avoided this by being honest from the get-go butâŠâ Your gaze swept the room and settled on your grandma in the corner. You thought sheâd look angry, but all you could see on her face was sympathy. âBut we didnât. We couldnât.â
You flattened your lips into a smile, still directed at your grandmother. âNot when it was the first time in a long time that I saw someone smile as brightly as she did when she heard I had a fiancee.â
Your Grandmaâs hand flew to her mouth, his brows furrowing, and she looked away. You turned to the rest of Vernonâs family. To his Nana, to his parents, his aunts and unclesâthe very people who welcomed you warmly into their home.
âIâm sorry. I really am. I have my reasons, but theyâre all just excuses. Selfish excuses. I shouldnât have dragged your entire family into this. I wouldnât have,â you paused, taking a deep breath and turning to Vernon. âI wouldnât have if I had known just how much you loved Vernon.â
You turned to everyone again. Nanaâs hand was on her chest, Vernonâs mom was covering her mouth in shock.
âSo donât blame him. Itâs not his fault. Heâs a really good man,â you added, smiling bitterly. âHe just couldnât say no to his Medusa of a boss who promised him a raise and regularization if he agreed to do this.âÂ
âStop,â Vernon said, taking your hand. âI didnât agree to this because of thatââ
âItâs okay, Secretary Chwe,â you interrupted, forcing a smile. âIâm sorry for ruining your Christmas. Iâll leave,â you said, voice steady despite the tremor in your chest. You glanced at Nana, and the words escaped almost like a prayer: âYou have a wonderful family. Iâm sorry. I wish we didnât have to meet like this.â
And with that, you walked out, leaving Vernon rooted in place, the paper still in his hand, the room swirling with stunned silence.
Before you knew it, you were sinking into your seat on the plane, the engines vibrating softly beneath you. Beside you, your grandma was perfectly composed, her hands folded neatly in her lap as she stared out the window at the receding tarmac.
Vernonâs family had tried to make you stay. Gentle pleas, promises to table the matter of your deceit and unpack it properly. But you knew they were only being polite. That was just the kind of family they were, too nice for their own good.
You stared at the screen in front of you, counting the buttons, the logos stamped into the leather, your thoughts spinning in circles. Finally, you broke the quiet.
âGrandmaâŠâ Your voice was small, tentative. âWhy arenât you mad?â
Her calm eyes met yours. âWhy would I be mad?â she asked, tilting her head slightly, a faint smirk tugging at her lips. âI knew everything from the beginning.â
Your chest tightened. âYou did?â
She nodded serenely. âOf course. You thought you were so clever, but you forgot that I taught you how to use that intelligent brain of yours.â
You blinked. âWait⊠what? How?â
Grandma leaned back, unbothered by your wide-eyed stare. âMy dear, with whom do you think I set you up with on that last blind date I begged you to go to?â
Your stomach dropped. âThat⊠that was⊠No way.â You chuckled, in denial. âIt canât have been Vernon.â
âOh, but it was,â she said, as if it were the simplest, most obvious thing in the world. âI kept telling you I knew his family. But you wouldnât even give a second to hear me out. Imagine my surprise when I saw you in that hotel lobby, calling Vernon Chwe your fiancee.â
At this point, your heart beat has turned erratic. âIf you knew, why didnât you say anything?â
âI was trying to see how far you were willing to take this charade. I canât say Iâm not disappointed, but Vernon asked me to play along, so I did,â she explained.
You turned sharply to face her, incredulous. âVernon knew that you knew?â
âYes. He was confident he could make you fall in love and turn this pseudorelationship into a real thing. Sunhee and I had so much fun watching you struggle to maintain a face all week.â
Your jaw dropped. âWho else knows?â
âNo one else, as far as I know.â Her hand rested gently over yours. âMy dear, youâre clearly overwhelmed right now. Letâs talk about this later.â
You slumped back in your seat, staring out the window at the clouds streaked with gold from the rising sun, your mind buzzing. She knew. Nana knew. Vernon knew they knew. And somehow, that knowledge made the entire avalanche of the past twenty-four hours feel both heavier and⊠a little lighter.
Vernon first met you when he was ten.
It was summer, hot and loud and bright in the way summers only feel when youâre a kid. His kite had gotten stuck in a tree at the park, and heâd decided that climbing it himself was a good idea.Â
But he was wrong. He slipped on the way down, scraped his knee, and sat there sniffing quietly, holding back his tears, more embarrassed than hurt.
Then you appeared out of nowhere, crouched in front of him, asked if he could stand, and when he said no, you sighed like an adult whoâd already dealt with worse problems than a bleeding knee.Â
After covering his knee with a cartoon Band Aid from your purse, you climbed the tree yourself and brought the kite down like it was nothing.
You were taller than him back then. Probably smarter, and more mature. And when you handed the kite to him and smiled, all he could think was that you were pretty. Like an angel.
He never saw you again after that day. Life moved on, as it does. He went to school, made friends, and had growth spurts. The memory of you drifted to the back of his mind, filed away with other half-remembered moments from childhood.
Until college.
He didnât recognize you at first. Years had a way of blurring faces, and he almost walked past you at the freshman welcome party until you laughed. Suddenly he was ten again, at the park with a scraped knee and a kite in his hands.
Youâd grown prettier, smarter, and more graceful. He was much much taller than you now, but the difference in height only made Vernon think you were cute.
He hadnât even wanted to attend this party. Heâd only gone because his cousin promised to cover his chores for a month if he showed up. Vernon wasnât naĂŻveâhe knew his cousin wanted him there as decoration. Heâd grown into his looks by then, and he was âhandsomeâ, something people never let him forget, even when he wished they would.
But that night, for the first time in his life, he thought maybe he could use his looks for something other than being stared at. Maybe he could use it to charm his way into your contacts.
He planned to talk to you. Just to say âhiâ. Maybe ask if you remembered him from all those summers ago. Or maybe he didnât need to bring up the past at all. He could just talk to you. Say something normal. Ask for your number.
He stood near the drinks table, psyching himself up. But when the moment came, his nerves got the better of him. So he took a shot of soju.
Liquid courage, he told himself.
Then another. Then a third, because his heart was still beating too fast and you were laughing again and seeing that was making it hard for him to breathe.
By the fourth, his cousin was asking if he was okay. âYeah, Iâm fine,â he said, eyes locked on you a few tables away.Â
His cousin poured a shot for himself, and Vernon snatched it away, downing it straight just to see if it would make him less nervous.
Before he knew it, he was already wasted, slumped over a table, cheek pressed to cold plastic. Someone had drawn something obscene on his hand. The party was over, and you were gone. He lay there for a long moment, staring at a bottle, wondering how heâd managed to mess it up without ever actually trying.
After that, he saw you everywhere. The library, the quad, the cafeteria line. Sometimes alone, sometimes surrounded by people. You never noticed him, and he never pushed himself into your space.
Then one afternoon, he saw you holding hands with someone. Apparently, youâd started seeing this guy from the Liberal Arts department. That night, he went back to his dorm, shut the door, lay on his bed, and stared at the ceiling.
His cousin glanced over. âWhatâs up with you? You look like you just got dumpedâ
âI might as well have been,â Vernon said, voice flat. He turned his face into his pillow and let himself feel stupid for exactly five minutes.
Then he moved on because that was just life. He was happy that you were happy.
He dipped his own toes in the dating pool. Dated seriously, even. He laughed, fell in and out of love, learned what he liked and didnât. You became a fond thought in the back of his head, not a fixation. And also something his friends teased him about every now and then.
Then senior year came. He heard youâd broken up, and realized he still liked you. So he thought about trying again.
He did the same thing without realizing: took shots for liquid courage. One too many shots, obviously. And passed out on a couch before he could say your name, obviously.
Senior year came and went. Graduation followed. He figured that was that. Some people were just meant to be memories.
And his life after college had already been mapped out for him. Vernon worked long hours in his familyâs corporation. He learned how to sit through meetings without showing boredom, how to be sharp without being cruel. He dated when he had time, stopped when he didnât. He built a reputation he hadnât asked for but carried well enough.
Every once in a while, your name surfaced not from memory, but from screens. LinkedIn updates. A promotion. An article shared by someone else. Your companyâs name appeared frequently in industry chatter. You werenât loud online. You had Instagram but didnât post much.
He nodded at those updates like they were news about someone he once knew well.
Years later, when he heard about a potential partnership with your company, he volunteered to handle it without hesitation. It wasnât even his division, but he argued his case until he won.Â
He told everyone else that it was professional curiosity. Strategic interest. Nothing else. In reality, he thought maybe this would finally put him in the same room as you again.
But it didnât. Nana collapsed. That family emergency pulled him away the day of the meeting, and the opportunity slipped through his fingers. Life, once again, had other plans. He never made it to the meeting. Someone else took over. The partnership went through anyway, handled efficiently, just not by him.
You stayed untouchable and unseen. And of course, he moved on again.
Years passed. Nana recovered and became sharper than ever. She mentioned your name casually over tea.
âHer grandmaâs worried,â she said. âShe thinks that brilliant granddaughter of hers works too much. She called, asking if I knew someone suitable.â
âSomeone suitable? A husband?â Vernonâs mom asked.
He froze in his seat, hand hovering as he reached for his teacup.
âYes,â Nana continued, watching him carefully over the rim of her cup. âI told her I might know someone, but I donât approve of arranged marriages.â
Vernonâs mom glanced at him too, the only man in the family who hasnât married yet. âIt would be nice. I heard sheâs very intelligent and pretty. But Iâm a fan of true love too, mama. These days they call it âorganic encounterâ.â
That night, Vernon stared at his ceiling for a long time and made a decision.
He left his job, much to his familyâs dismay. They managed to reel him in with his contract, but as soon as that was over, Vernon was out. He moved cities. Applied to your company hoping heâd get closer to you through work. But te only position open was an internship. He took it anyway.
It was a humbling position. Educational. Occasionally ridiculous, and nowhere near you. Apparently interns didnât meet CEOs on the reg.
So for months, you were just a name, a presence on another floor. Interns and other employees often talked about youâbrilliant, dedicated, but formidable and terrifying. Medusa, they called you.Â
Vernon would find himself standing up for you against men in his department who uttered inappropriate comments. Especially those who questioned your right to sit in the CEOâs office.
And then one Tuesday morning, Vernon was at the reception desk, sorting documents he wasnât technically supposed to touch yet, when the elevators chimed.
He didnât look up. He didnât really need to. But then he heard a familiar voice calling him by name.
âVernon Chwe?â the voice repeated, making him look up and freeze.
Your grandmother stood at the front desk, elegant as always. She looked exactly the way Vernon remembered her from childhood. She leaned on her cane more out of habit than necessity, eyes sharp as they swept his face. âIs that you, dear boy?â
Vernon straightened instinctively, unsure why his heart had started beating faster. He swallowed. âYes, maâam.â
A pleased smile spread across her face. âWell,â she said lightly, tapping her cane against the floor once. âI thought so. My, how much youâre grown.â
His mouth went dry. âYou remember me?â
She laughed softly. âOf course I do. What are you doing here? Last I heard you were Executive Director at your familyâs company.â
Vernon hesitated. Then he sighed, knowing full well how hard it was gonna be to lie to your grandma. âI think weâre gonna need to sit down if Iâm to answer that question.â
Your Grandma seemed to understand something. âCome to tea this Sunday. Letâs unpack whatever that is.â
And Vernon did meet with your grandma that Sunday. And he confessed that he was there because of you. After hours of talking about you, your grandma decided to set him up on a blind date with you.
To say he was thrilled was an understatement. Vernon was over the moon. He couldnât wait for the day to come. Though Grandma did warn him that she had a habit of not showing up to these dates. He was still looking forward to it, hoping your grandma stayed true to her words when she said she would try to convince you.
Then Becca came by the intern lounge, asking if anyone wanted to be your temporary secretary while she was on maternity leave.
âFor Medusa?â someone murmured quietly.
Silence followed, and interns exchanged nervous glances. Vernon was the only one who raised his hand.
Becca stared at him. âI need to know if youâre serious about this.â
âYes.â
âYouâre gonna be paid a regularâs rate, but itâs not gonna be an easy task.â
âI know. I can handle it.â
She sighed. âFine. No backing out at the last minute, alright?â she said, pointing her pen at him. âFollow me. Training starts now.â
Vernon trained for a week, learning schedules and systems, familiarizing himself with important names and contacts, copying the cadence of your emails. All this while stealing glances into your office, or staring a little too long whenever you passed by. Â
He reminded himself to be normal. To not let the pastâor the crushâcolor the present. Even though it had clearly already taken over his entire world.
And then came the day Vernon was finally getting introduced to you. Becca had given him the headâs up the day before, and he took an extra hour getting ready the next day.
He stood with Becca in your office, patiently waiting for you to walk into those heavy glass doors. When you did, Vernon straightened up. Luckily that time, he didnât get drunk or pass out anymore. Everything after that was an experience Vernon would never forget.
And now, over a month later, there he was, standing just inside your office, asking you to take him back.
It was the 29th. Just two days before New Yearâs Day and four days since the whole fiasco at the Chwe Estate. Grandma and Nana had invited you out on a brunch where you apologizedâmore than once. For the lies. For leaving. For ruining Christmas.Â
Nana waved it all off with a soft laugh, insisting none of it mattered as much as you thought it did. âWeâve seen worse.â
She said the family wasnât really angry, just shocked. Said that if youâd stayed, things wou;dâve been resolved over breakfast and hot cocoa, the way they always did.
âWhatâs done is done,â your grandma had said simply, stirring her coffee. âAt least you learned a lesson from this experience.â
You didnât bring up Vernon. You couldnât, not after how vague things were left between you. The grandmas seemed to understand that the subject was touchy and decided not to bring it up either.
After brunch, you told them you had something for Nanaâand for everyone back home. It had arrived at the office that morning, and that was how the three of you ended up there instead of going straight home.You drove back to the office with the city humming around you, hands steady on the wheel despite everything sitting heavy in your chest.
They followed you into the building where employees greeted your grandma at every turn, surprised to see THE big boss parading the halls. You heard Nana quip about your grandma building an empire through inflicting fear upon her people, and laughed along when they did.
But that laughter died down the moment you stepped out of the elevator and found Vernon Chwe standing near reception, hands clasped loosely in front of him, jacket still on like he hadnât been sure whether to stay or leave. He looked up the moment the elevator opened, like heâd been waiting for it.
For a second, no one moved. Your brows furrowed, relief and confusion washing over you. Relief because four days felt too long and youâd missed him the whole time. Confusion because what was he doing there? And why did he wait until now to come see you?
âWhat are you doing here?â you finally asked.
He picked up a clear bag from the floor and lifted it for you to see. âYou didnât get to see what I got you,â he said and your eyes locked on the red giftbox with a green ribbon inside the clear bag.
Your grandma squeezed your arm gently. âWeâll give you two a moment.â
Nana was already nodding, amused. âYes. Letâs let the kids sort it out.â
You didnât protest, letting them walk back into the elevator, muttering and giggling. The office fell quiet. You and Vernon were staring at each other while the rest of the people on that floor held their breath. You could feel their eyes, watching and waiting for whatever was about to go down.
You exhaled and started walking toward your office. Vernon followed silently behind. You didnât say anything until you were inside your office, the door clicking shut behind you. It was quieter here, insulated from the rest of the floor.
You turned to face him. âMy grandma told me something about you,â you said, not elaborating because he probably already knows what you mean. âIs it true?
âIt is,â he answered quickly.
You let out a slow breath. âSo you liked me even before I asked you to be my fake fiancee?â
A small smile tugged at his mouth. âOh, I liked you longer than that.âÂ
Your heart stuttered, just before beating wildly in your chest.
âWhen we were kids, when we were in college⊠I liked you in different ways, at different stages of my life.â He met your eyes fully. âAnd now⊠Now Iâm in love with you.â
You kept your voice steady, hands clenching at your sides as you tried your best not to just go ahead and jump in his arms. âWhy didnât you come see me sooner?â
âI tried, but I didnât really get a chance. You were in a relationship with this dude in collegeââ
âNo, I meant after we left the island on Christmas day,â you interrupted.
Vernon paused, realization dawning on him. âOh. Oh, I wanted to,â he said. âBut no one was allowed to leave the island until the holidays were over. Thatâs not negotiable in my family. And I needed to sort things out. With them. With myself. I didnât want to come to you half-done.â
You laughed under your breath. âDo you always have to do things properly?â
He shrugged. âI wanted to do this one right.â
Silence fell between you. You crossed your arms, still unsure what to do, how to navigate this. âIâm sorry,â you said first, because you had to. He deserved it. âFor leaving like that. For not letting you say anything.â
He shook his head. âI wouldâve followed you anyway.â
âSo?â you asked, heat creeping up your neck. âWhat now?â
Vernon took one tentative step closer. âWell, my new yearâs resolution is to kiss you everyday for the rest of my life.â
You huffed a laugh, caught off guard. âThatâs a⊠very specific commitment.â
âIâm very committed to it.â
You laughed despite yourself, and Vernon watched with a fond smile, just before silence came again. You were both standing at the edge of something you didnât want to rush or ruin.
âWell?â you asked, raising an eyebrow. âAre you just gonna stand there all day or do I have to kiss you myself?â
Vernonâs mouth stretched into the biggest, happiest smile youâd ever seen on a man. He crossed the distance between you in one step, then wrapped his arms around you. You hugged him back just as tightly, instinctively, like it was something your body had been waiting for longer than your mind wanted to admit.
Then he kissed you. A kiss that answered everything, one that didnât ask questions anymore. For a moment, the world narrowed down to just the two of you. But only for a moment because three seconds later, the sound of clapping, cheers, and hooting erupted around the office.
Startled, you pulled back just enough to see past his shoulder and realized that the entire floor had been watching from outside the clear glass walls of your office.
âOh my god,â you exclaimed, looking at Vernon and then laughing. âDo you think they heard you confess your love for me?â you teased.
Vernon glanced around, then back at you, utterly unbothered. âI donât care,â he said, scooping you up and kissing you again.
The office erupted all over again, a whole floor of employees witnessing the day you and Vernon made a scene professing love like you were in cheesy Hallmark Christmas movie.