hello. i’m Scared and don’t know what to do nice to meet you 😊

mesajlarınıza dönmediysem üzgünüm, kendimi inanılmaz izole edilmiş hissediyorum ve insanlarla konuşmak kafamda bir fanusla çığlık atmaya çalışıyormuşum gibi hissettiriyor :(

müdavimi olan kafede yeni çalışan olmanın ızdırabını sikeyim ya

i’ve got a summer job in a pastry (i’ll leave by august though). normally just the manager stays around and owner visits just on sundays. but for some reason he’s at the shop today and he’s such a pain in the ass

i grew up with a mother who constantly told me that i was a “total waste of space” and my then-best-friend “deserved the world” and i “didn’t deserve to be the same class as her” and she “wouldn’t have me if she knew i would turn out this way” and how she “wished to have then-best-friend as her daughter instead of me” and “how lucky her mother is” and i know, for a fact that she’d still be saying these if we were on speaking terms bc that’s what she kept telling til i left the house :/ (and, as a matter of fact, she kept telling these after i left the house. via text msgs) (i blocked her)

when will i overcome this dire need of a family, a wiser parental figure to take care of me? to look out for me?

I JUST GRADUATED

i accidentally bought multiple subscriptions to balance the meditio.b app fuck my stupid chungus life