An incredibly vulnerable video from teenager Trevor Moran, talking about the pressure he’s felt and received from his audience to transition to a woman as a gnc feminine gay boy.
Upon wearing ‘feminine’ clothing and wearing make-up and realizing he enjoyed those things, and seeing Caitlyn Jenner in the media, he began to wonder “what if that’s what’s going on with me?” and ultimately came to the conclusion that he was indeed transgender also.
This was further validated by the comments he was inundated with on his instagram when he’d post photos of himself in make-up or wearing fishnet stockings, “I get tons of comments, and they’re just like “YAAAS oh my god you look so great as a girl, oh my god transition transition transition! oh my god, go transgender! you’d fucking kill it as a girl!” as if it’s a fucking sport???”
He scheduled appointments to freeze his sperm, to begin HRT…
“I was so lost. I just… like now, I can’t imagine myself… with… just.. like if I actually ended up getting surgeries and stuff, just because I was lost. Those effects are irreversible on your body. And if you’re not sure, that’s okay. There’s always time in the future to do those things. But I was rushing into it just because I was so lonely, and very confused. I’m just letting you know right now, if you’re unsure about who are you are, that’s completely okay.”
“Now I’m so happy to just sit here and accept myself for being Trevor”.
“I can also get my hair and make-up done and put on whatever shoes I wanna put on, and those days I wanna be extra, you know, that’s just Trevor, and it doesn’t mean I was transgender, I just thought that’s what it was. But during those few months I was slowly starting to like, get myself mentally aligned again. And… just from receiving acceptance from somebody that I really cared about made me just realize like ‘hey, maybe I am enough the way I am right now. I don’t need to get estrogen or, you know, tits, and stuff’, personally for me that’s… I was just confused. I was getting myself back together and I was like, you know what? It’s so weird, I can just finally look in the mirror now and point at that motherfuckin’ reflection and just say ‘goddammit i love you’. I’ve never felt that in my entire life, I was just so lost as a kid, and I just finally feel like I’m figuring out who I am.”
