“If we don’t try, then we’ll never know… right? (The Beach, 2000)

this is going to sound so simple but honestly once you kinda understand that mean, manipulative or rude people are just blatantly unhappy people. i just feel bad for them because in a lot of ways i’ve been them & i know that shit sucks. & most might not even know how unhappy they really are. but just feel an underlying motive to treat people like shit

their happiness comes from putting people down, out of insecurity & a genuine hole inside their lives. it’s one thing for me or someone to tell you that they’re just unhappy & you should ignore the hate you get. & another to truly understand & conceptualize that that’s why they’re actually acting that way. because once you do, & it really clicks in your head, you just start sympathizing with everyone. even the asshole on the subway or the mean teacher. you just feel bad because happy people bottom line aren’t mean. they aren’t. in a lot of ways it’s a tell tale sign of how to find someone unhappy in their lives

have you ever sat down someone who’s been mean to you or mean to others & they kinda break down& tell you why they act the way they do? like “i do this because of this going on in my life.” everyone has their own shit & some project their stuff onto others. it’s sad & its so common.

happiness is a choice & there’s gonna be assholes & people like this around you your whole life. you will never be able to change that. but you can change the way you look at them. & instead of frustration, just pity them. i do. i feel bad for them because they feel some sort of way to act like that. & that’s sad. it truly is. & i have a soft spot for them & try my best to get through to them if they’re not too scary haha. but don’t let assholes take away from you being happy. either look at it the way i do or you can look at it from the perspective that if they ruin your day, they win & got what they want. either way just don’t let people affect you. it’s a skill i’ve had to train over the years

assuming someones closest super market sells tofu. food deserts exist. and if you happen to live in one, that’s a 30 minute bus/train/car ride to the closest whole foods/health food store. gas & transportation money! then you have to buy food that can be cooked with the tofu because who want plain tofu? am i gonna waste $4 on a single block of fucking tofu when i have 3, 4, 5, 6 mouths to feed? then you have to actually learn how to properly prep/cook/store the tofu.

“I need you to love me.”

- “We’ll love each other later. Now it’s the revolution.”

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