1981–2021

𝐌𝐘 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐈𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋.

this  is  a  private      &      selective 𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐰𝐬 blog from the series yellowjackets. this is a heavily headcanon based portrayal , slightly canon skeptical. studying  themes  such  as:   human  nature  ,  undying  devotion  ,  nature  versus  nurture  ,  found  family  , childhood trauma ,  girlhood to godhood  ,  survivor’s  guilt  ,  the scapegoat  , abandonment ,   &   lord of the flies.

please note: this blog is an unreliable narrator , & will be written in first person , from lottie's perspective , with a heavy focus on the pre - rescue timeline. this blog will also cover triggering topics , such as trauma , sex , violence , death , ritualistic murder , instances of cannibalism , etc , but all of which will be tagged properly.

YELLOWJACKETS

through the chill of the morning air, natalie felt his gaze before she turned from the underbrush; felt the flyaway hair at the back of her neck bristle.

though she'd handed the rifle off, her turn over for the time being, the sense memory of it in her hands held fast, like a vision of blood staining her shoes, her porch steps — an ever - imposing reminder of its power. she hadn't let her attention slip when she'd held it, locked and loaded, awaiting some sign of animal life to cross its sights. but it'd been clear, after the first wild hare that'd crossed her path, that there was nothing else. that the crack of desiccated tree roots and gnarled branches beneath her boots had been enough to scare the squirrels and roaming deer away. maybe travis would have better luck.

oh, he's catching something alright. her playful smile is a new, welcome sight, and it's almost as fulfilling as fresh game. he can't remember the last time he was alone with a girl for so long. back home, his schoolyard nickname stopped every conversation before it began ( and his hostile, defensive attitude prevented him from overcoming it ). these hunting trips with natalie are exciting — she's exciting, with her uncompromising grit and unexpected compassion.

don't say a word .

don't leave me here .

meet me at our spot tonight .

follow me and stay close .

don't beg , it's pathetic .

can you ( tie / zip ) this for me ?

stop lying to me . tell me what you did .

put that down , you don't know what it ( is / does ) .

get out of my sight .

stop pretending you know what's going on .

find a first-aid kit . quickly !

don't get yourself killed .

leave them to me , just go .

just admit that you love me .

just admit that you hate me .

come here , let me look at you .

( name ) , don't make me do this .

drop your ( weapon ) .

stay here and wait for my signal .

don't just sit there , move .

take this and run , don't let anyone have it .

pretend you're my ( partner / girlfriend / boyfriend ) .

don't look , you'll give us away .

don't say another word .

stop pretending like you care .

go make sure the coast is clear .

take this with you . it's a good luck charm .

don't tell anyone about this .

if anybody asks about today , lie .

stop looking at me like that .

tell me you love me .

just kiss me , already .

keep your eyes on the road .

stop crying and calm down .

come with me . there's so much we could do .

wear the ( dress / tie / item ) i gave you tonight .

show me how you like to be touched .

hold my hand .

kiss me , make it look real .

look at me . how many fingers am i holding up ?

will you marry me ?

just slow down for a minute . what's going on ?

take a deep breath , you need to calm down .

get out of here , ( name ) !

draw your weapon .

go rest . i'm not asking .

take a step back .

give me a straight answer .

be polite to our guests .

look me in the eye and say that again .

put your feelings aside for a moment .

keep close to me .

here , let me see that .

look up at the sky .

get out of here , i don't want to see you right now .

stand up , this isn't over yet .

close your eyes and count to ten .

smile for the camera !

keep your head down .

( name ) , let me past .

listen carefully to what i'm about to say .

don't just stare , come in .

stop laughing , this isn't funny .

take this and hide it .

don't make a sound .

put your hands up .

quit causing problems everywhere you go .

just admit that you don't know what you're doing .

stop right there , i mean it .

don't say that name aloud .

just trust me , okay ?

stop acting so childish .

call the police . now .

tell me you love me , even if it's not real .

take a good hard look .

stop the car , ( name ) .

don't make eye contact .

stay out of trouble .

just do it already , we've waited long enough .

hold me tight , and never let me go .

finish what you started .

tell me what you know .

just stay away from me .

turn around . slowly .

don't be scared .

put it down before somebody gets hurt .

stop pretending , i'm tired of the pretending .

grab me my ( item ) , will you ?

don't make assumptions .

put this over it to stop the bleeding .

get to safety !

wipe that look off your face .

secure the area .

keep an eye on them .

look at yourself in the mirror .

run . run and don't stop .

"When I first read the first couple of scenes I had to do for the audition, I was happy he's going to get put in his place time and time again, and that's great. But then, once we got into the show itself, it was important to me that I championed and justified every decision that Travis made. I spent five months loving this character in many ways, being empathetic with this character, finding new reasonings for what he was. His un-education in certain aspects, making sure that I took into consideration that 1996 is a different time period than now and he's not going to know how to react in those situations. And even now at the age of 17, 16, the reactions that people have when they're uneducated in those scenarios in terms of how you treat people." "And so I spent a big chunk of time championing him as best as I could, and then, it all flipped again when the show came out, and I watched it, and screamed at Travis, being like 'You, just talk to people. Care about people. Be there. Express yourself. Stop holding things in, and stop treating people so terribly.' But at the same time, I applaud Ashley and Bart for writing this character because I believe that people who don't act accordingly in situations, there is reason for that, and I think we try really hard to make it clear that there are reasons for why he is the way that he is." — Kevin Alves