Unhealthy Thoughts

How could you do this to me again

Im not ever going to get out of this because im never gonna be able to take myself out of this. Im not smart or good. Im genuinely just an ugly stupid girl. An unwanted one at that. How could i ever provide a life out ofnthe one im in. Quit dreaming.

I hope one day I’ll be delivered from this life i dont know how much longer i can do this

I want to not wake up

Why would i ever want to talk to you about this you’re not even capable of listening to me well enough to understand what the fuck im talking abt and why so why would i do that. You dont ever get to see that part of me again. I see what you are. Liar thief cheat. I’m a fucking idiot for even thinking about doing that. I was better off before i ever brought it up. I wish i never told you never never never

I really am not interesting or pretty or good enough at anything to be worth anything so idk why I’m here going throufh this idk why i keep telling myself i belong in that world im not one of you

I really am not interesting or pretty enough to be worth anything

I’m so tired of being lied to

I’m not supposed to be here i need to get out someone get me out of here please

You make me feel so unsafe you make me so angry i cant stand you

When you do it its fine when i do it its different okay well you started it fuck your fuck you I’ll never talk to you about this again

I dont think I’ll ever get rid of that feeling of being unloved

How could you do this to me how do you sleep at night how does cognitive dissonance taste in your dirty mouth

You made me feel so disgusting and so unwanted and so superficially supported fuck you

Its fucking fabulous that you dont care about the money well someone has to

I wanna go to sleep and not wake up