im such a bitch

i can’t remember the last time i slept through the night :(

i have constant anxiety about having to pee. my sensors go off like crazy if i have even one drop in me. i’ve always been a person who pees more frequently but it has gotten soooo out of hand

i've always said that if i could be built like a barbie with no genitals that id be so much happier. never felt like a woman but i know im not a man. i never knew non-bianary was a thing, it wasnt really widleu talked about and accepted like it is now. then i got nervous because i felt like i was just jumping on the bandwagon of people wanting to fit into queer spaces when they arent just to seem "cool". but ive always felt like this. ive been thinking of easing into it by using they/she pronouns. i also really want to just kill my full birth name and just go by my nickname only. i literally cringe when im called by my full name.