sophie

When your girlfriend gets pregnant, and you’re not ready to become a father, and you’re forced into a position that cripples you emotionally, financially and irreversibly, remember: you did this.

When your sister’s pregnancy turns out to be ectopic, and she can’t get the life-saving medical care she needs and dies a completely pointless, preventable death, remember: you did this.

When your 12-year-old daughter is raped by her soccer coach — after he’s legally allowed to strip off her pants and peep at her genitals, because the existence of trans kids terrifies you — and she steals your shotgun and kills herself in your garage, remember, first and foremost: you did this.

Hundreds of thousands of people are going to die because of the decision you made today.

trying to explain just how incredible i could be for you despite what i can’t be. is it enough? is what i can do enough for you even if i can’t give you peace?

i would do everything! i’d give you my wild, i’d give you a child! i’d give you the silence that only comes when two people understand each other! i just can’t give you peace. is that okay? is that enough?

i definitely have had moments in my life where i’ve felt like i needed to explain myself and what i have to offer when i’m wondering why i don’t feel like i’m enough for someone. it’s so hard to be in that moment and simultaneously ground yourself in the understanding of how worthy you are despite someone’s inability to see your greatness.