Try Me

You would move back home. We could maybe go out on a date or few. See how it feels and how it all plays out. Hopefully that works out and we could keep casually dating with a couple sleep overs here and there. We could make it exclusive whenever we wanted but what’s the rush? Let’s take our time and enjoy the beauty of casual relationship. But even then, let’s just date for a few years.

We have so much to relearn about each other. I think our biggest issues were money, space, and moving too fast. I want to try again and I wish you’d come here bc I’m already changing in certain ways.

I wish you could see how much more masculine I am. The facial has grown in nice; and you were right, my hair does look better long. I wonder what your opinion is of my new look. I wonder if your look or style has change at all.

I just want to try again. I wish I didn’t let myself sink into a black hole so deep. I wish I stood up for myself more and communicated honestly more. Idk why I’m thriving here and actually doing things and getting shit done but it’s working 🤷🏻‍♂️

I thought this is what I wanted. I thought we weren’t meant to be, but now I’m here wasting my time thinking about you and how bad I ruined it.

It’s only a waste of time bc I know you celebrated the day I left. I don’t believe you give a damn about how fucked up you left me and how my only way out of all this is is taking my own life.