soul in isolation

I can't. Nor watch a movie because my head hurts so bad cause fever. The only thing I can do is thinking until I faint and it's some kind of prison not being able to stop thinking.

I think about this movie. In how when I was a child I was convinced electroshocks were done with peoble being conscious.

I think of my co-worker and how overnight he became paranoid and started thinking the government was after him. The fear that this will happen to me or someone I know. The possibility of everything you loved or believed could be unreal should be worst than hell.

I think on this day, that my dog ​​turned six months old, and I also think that my real mom died exactly fifteen years ago. And that I no longer remember his voice, only seeing myself reflected in his glasses. Before the pandemic, I was still going to the cemetery. Moved that place into my mind.

I think about how safe I feel holding my friend's hand, even though we both fall apart.

I think that it rained just enough to take care of the plants that I couldn't take care of.

I think.