Facilitator

2/7/17

Hey

Steady

I can't just let myself totally fall.

I remember telling people it's not easy for me to wait. But, I live in the moment, and when it's there, we go for it.

Time. Time will fade this. Time will let it drift away.

When I want something so bad I go for it. I do something to get it. It is not that I think you don't want me that bad. I know you're taking your time. This is your pace. I heard the history, so I'll let you be.

But again, time. I can stay. I can stay. But I am not sure how long.

That's okay that you don't promise anything. You just asked me we take it slow. It's why I don't let myself fall, why I don't save photos, why I don't remember the dates, why I don't save numbers, why I don't want to remember every detail, why I don't think so much about every word. No matter how much I want to search for meanings and reasons. I don't.

You mean something to me. But I can never put a label on what it is.

Take your time. It's just that I have a reputation for turning back anytime.

It sounds like I want it too much, and you got to rush, or else it's done. But I don't know if it came to you that there are things I can't keep on doing again and again if there's no deeper why's. I can't just do it for fun, can I? Do you want that? That's just too much, and when I can't take it any longer, I'll lose myself again.