Clumsy prose

as I never did for the other dudes

the eloquence I pride myself in fails

left to my own devices 

this is the best expression

in our own privacy

I would shake my ass for you

for however crude that may sound

so you can check how effective the gym rounds

Squats and sets 

again and again

I would shake my ass for you

as much as it was about me,and you

I was, still am a hypocrite

To ask of you to stay when I shudder 

because you said I made you shudder

in fear of the future 

about us, I’m sorry

for incongruities and of truths i kept within

 I should have been honest when I told you to be

I would never be on the road you walk on

Full of contempt I am

of these little useless fantasies you harbored as i harbored my own

I still despise the smooth road you chose to take;

the leaves cleared, 

the tar mixed and dried

smooth

while I 

knee deep in mud

Roads and thoughts disparate

Tonight I bid us goodbye