All You Ever Knew

“You insist that you’re too messed up to love, so that you have an excuse to push people away and blame it on yourself because it’s too painful to admit that it could have been.”

Please be honest with me and tell me the truth. Tell me that you don’t enjoy being around me anymore. Tell me that you don’t look forward to our 8pm cuddles anymore. Tell me that when I wrap my hands around yours you feel like we’re a broken lightbulb. Tell me that my kisses now kill all the butterflies that I once put inside your stomach. Tell me you don’t feel the same way anymore. Please tell me the truth even though your words are going to damage my mind with a deep case of sadness.

“Burying memories and feelings doesn’t drive them away. Pretending you never cared only plants them somewhere deep in your soul and they’ll grow until you find them ripping through you to gasp for air at 3am. It’ll be an endless cycle of stitching new patches onto yourself to fix the gaping holes until you can’t recognize yourself in the mirror and you see broken pieces of your former self lying on the ground.”

You tell me to just stop being so sad, but you don't understand what it's like, feeling like something is constantly crushing your chest

“Learning to ignore things is one of the great paths to inner peace.”

“Once you realize you deserve a bright future, letting go of your dark past is the best choice you will ever make.”

“I withdraw from people and places from time to time. I need space from a world that is filled with millions of mouths that talk too much but never have anything to say.”

Our bond will break because we can't relate to anyone, anything at all . You brought your worst and I'm right here I've seen it all and it's never been so clear. Your not the person that I knew back then - adtr throwback to my favorite jams and selfies❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

“Tore myself up hoping you would notice, hoping anyone would notice at all. Everyone kept telling me I was doing so great when I could hardly bring myself to get out of bed, and I thought something must be terribly wrong for them to think that this is the best I ever have been.”

“Sometimes I wish you could feel the pain I’m feeling so that maybe you would understand why I’m going out of my mind. But I also simultaneously know I would never wish this pain on anyone, let alone you.”

“I trusted you with my heart. I gave it to you willingly. Why did you break it?”

“No matter how much or how often people hurt each other, loving someone is never wasted.”