share n care

Lost in the abyss I sit here. A never ending futile effort to try and slow this entropy. I try but fail and try but fail. A need to not just try but succeed and overcome these demons. I have become a professional procrastinator.

List upon list, plan upon plan of tasks to accomplish. But a lack of effort and execution prove to be my downfall.

I don’t ask for much in life when taken into consideration how blessed I am to begin my journey in the few lands of “Freedom and Opportunity” this present world has to offer. Yet I am far from what I ask for I still long for more. More than a simple existence of peace to live my remaining ears.

I picture myself there. *And I know I will get there. That is the only manner which I allow myself to think.*

But the feeling of unfulfillment remains. I could’ve and should’ve done more with my mortal self. Knowing mortality is far from understanding it. 

It is all about perception and the experiences related seems to be the only way to get the right perception.