I've been trying to figure out a way to word this without trying to sound overly mushy. This is all very sudden and out of the blue. Much like Tom himself, I guess. I feel like at this point, it's been obvious that he hasn't been around on here. I took a hiatus with the blink stuff going on, and to be honest, it killed my muse for Tom. I love him, and everything he does, but at the moment, the magic for me is gone. blink has been a huge part of my life for so long. The first hiatus was hard, and I came to terms with it, just for them to get back together. With the uncertainty of the future of the band, and the rude comments towards Tom, I haven't been able to handle thinking about the role. All three of these men played a huge part in my future plans. Together or not, it hurts to see a predicament as they are in. They gave me a lot of hope for the future. At this point in time, I think it's only for the best to be fair to someone who might still have it in their heart to play him properly. This hasn't harmed my love for Mark, Tom, or Travis. Simply put, it hurts every fiber of my being to watch their friendship become poisoned and toxic, and the fans (while most of them are amazing) can be just as toxic towards them. I don't quite know why I'm writing this. Maybe it's releasing the stress I've felt with every post. I love you all very much, and you've been a big part of my life for so long. It hurts to have to do this in this manner. But without a muse, there is no character. Without the spark and stupidity, I can't find it in myself to play Tom when scrolling through tags, it's nothing but rude comments. It's difficult to log in and stress about my character with so much negativity. I'm afraid to get a message from someone that thinks I'm actually Tom. I'd like to thank everyone- mods included, for working so hard to make this game great. Especially the mods. They've bent over backwards to work with my hectic work schedule so I could keep him around. I feel like I'm losing a part of me by leaving. I've never felt more accepted, or at home with 'strangers' who feel similar about their own artists and bands. Please understand, this isn't goodbye forever. Maybe when things start looking up, be it the negativity leaving the tags, or when and if blink sorts their shit out so the fans get more closure than what they have, I'll come back. I've made some amazing friends here, and I'll miss you all dearly. I want to apologize to those who have plotted with me, especially Indy/Pippin. I haven't spoken to anyone about dropping. I don't want to be swayed (even by accident) to keep Tom when I can't do it right now. I'll keep Tom's AIM up, for whoever may want to still speak to me. It hurts to do this. I've said that so many times. It makes me sad. There isn't a character I've played and stuck with for so long that I've developed such a love for playing. Best of luck in your future RP endeavors. I hope to see some of you around in the future. Xxx Em
