iuno.

i’m exhausted and have worked my ass off. how do you still manage to make me feel like i’ve done nothing.

there’s a certain kind of feeling going on. one that says “you jumped in too fast” but the other saying “you barely hopped at all”. part of it’s saying “you have the heart to love it all” yet “you’re not happy”. and as you sit across from me, i wonder. was i just excited to share my affection with someone? is all the work i’ve been putting up with affecting this feeling? is it the timing im not currently favoring or is it us. i can’t help but feel like you’ve found someone else. or that you should. or that you make me feel happy but you make me feel stupid and useless and a mess. but who knows. maybe i am just being stupid. 

Please remember that showing appreciation is so so so important

God only knows where I’d be without everyone around me at this moment. Even a simple hello carries such weight with me. I appreciate everything and everyone. 

She's falling but she doesn't think you'll catch her

You've done nothing but anger and disappoint me. So I've made you an example of who I don't want to be and why I should push so hard.