Just a 50yo NW Mo guy enjoying ALL sex..

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I was reading an intelligent blog into fetish play and the Mistress advised writing a blog to create insight into one’s thoughts and as a powerful aid for your significant other to use. Something she can access in order to create a larger division of power.

When I look at a porn blog it’s easy to get aroused by some of the images. However, and this is far from original, I am interested in the process of arriving at the images. For example, when a man has pink panties and a collar on while being overlooked by a dominant woman I think: how did he get to that position. Unless you hook up with a call girl this is not something that just happens.

In our case, it has taken years. We married youngish, have been married 15 years and have slowly worked up to power playing. Last night my partner was giving me bounds and heaps of pleasure and toying with my cock. It was wonderful. However, after 30 mins, frustratingly I still did not release. My partner did something she had never done before. She stopped. I was burning all night. BURNING. As I write I am consumed by the thought of her touch and a release.

My woman has Russian ancestry. Luckily for me, they say Russian woman make the best bed partners. When we play, she is the mistress I just want to please. I meanwhile, am her pussyboy.

i do not know if this is for me. For example, not being made access to my woman’s pussy and not allowed freedom to ravish her is so difficult. Sometimes it feels pathetic (and yes I know that can sometimes be the point) and weak. However, this could simply be just generations of conditioning at work.

However,

The flip side is it is such a turn on. Just letting go. Being used. Being told. And the orgasms are so intense. When we play she turns from wife to Goddess or Russian mistress. She becomes my heroine who I want to please. I am desperate to listen to her. It reaches the point I now find touching her ITB band a thrill. When I get to her breast therefore the thrill is beyond a thrill. It becomes a Xmas treat. I find her ridiculously sexy and I imagine you will not want to hear every detail, but this is true: I get so hard for her and from this kinky play. From a relationship of 15 years point of view, feeling this way, towards someone, has to be a good thing.

In my work life at the moment I just want to go for broke. Either for riches or debt. No in between.This feeling is going hand in hand in how I feel about our sexual relationship. Experimenting harder. Find out if it really is our thing. Find out if she is born to be a dom and me a sub. After all nothing is fixed.

So for the time being I want to be humiliated. When she calls me pussyboy I want to be her pussyboy. I will do her nails, run her baths, chores. Cuckoldry sure. Servitude. Absolutely. On my knees for her. Yes. Body shaving. Chastity: yes. massages and female domination and cunnilingus. Basically whatever she desires. I may even ask Her to write the odd post. I will not top from the bottom. Instead I will write this blog adding quotes or stories from others who play, advice from other real mistresses and books. Things I come across that I find exciting or interesting but others may not. In the way I hope my Russian mistress looks at the psychology of being a dominant, I will look at the pleasurable psychology of being a sub.