Toby

A boyfriend who can pick me up and wrap his arms around me with ease.

A boyfriend who can touch his fingers when grabbing my thigh.

A boyfriend who can overpower me if that's what we wanted.

I want to lay on his chest and listen to his heartbeat, or sit on his lap while we play video games together or while he works without worrying about being too heavy.

I want a boyfriend, and I want to be his small and fragile darling that needs protecting.

But that's not easy while I'm so fat, that's why I need to keep going and keep losing weight. That's why I refuse to give up.