my sexual fantasy? find a job or meet someone who will give me a job

this is going to sound like such a little sibling ass take but i genuinely believe that being a little bit annoying is actually a greater sign of maturity and self awareness than being universally likeable and on good terms with everyone

if some people find me annoying and can't stand me because of how i think and act then that means i'm a fully realized human being with my own personality and opinions and free will and not just a reflective surface for other people's desires, which is in fact a good thing despite what people who want you to just be a reflection of their own opinions and desires will tell you, and why being considered "cringe" or whatever doesn't bother me at all

also it's really funny when you're confident enough in yourself to know that people not liking you isn't always a sign that you're the problem. like there's something undeniably hilarious about being aware your mere existence has the power to piss someone off and ruin their day and i recommend embracing it.

Oh fucking thissss

i am completely drained. I have zero energy to do anything. It's all just too much. I'm done. I am so done with all of this.

I know I'm responsible for my own mental health but it's so heavy and I'm so tired

So tired of being me

knowing i wasn’t born this way and i could have been okay is what kills me the most

So exhausted and burnt out from this thing called life

I feel like everything is falling apart quicker than I can pick up the pieces and put them back together.