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It's ok even if the story sounds like a dream

you’ll struggle to understand her. to understand what’s going on inside of her head. the night terrors that can’t be interrupted. to fight to hold her in your arms, to tell her it’s okay. to calm down. the kicking. the screaming. the anxiety of being harmed. the panic attacks, mood swings, confusion, disorganization. and all that rage, not just at you, but at herself. and the tough part is… you’ll feel as helpless to help her as she does herself. but if you remain calm and patient, if you listen closely, you’ll begin to understand her more. the counting, the repetition, the need for symmetry. that if you kiss her left cheek before bed, you have to kiss her right cheek. and her forehead. then her chin. that it’s about balance, stability. the need to organize her feelings and thoughts, so she can breathe easier. and there will be moments of relief… in her and in you.