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Yes i saw Jacks apology, for now I wont say anything to it bc I genuinely feel like if I'm actually being honest and sincere for what I think of it, he will genuinely just get angry at me again and turn back to his old ways into insulting me, insulting other people who left the drama long ago and more and more. So for now, I will keep everything quiet because it's for the best. I already overanalyzed the apology w ppl who were affected n mentioned in it n well, it was something.

All I will say is, if Jackoticon actually keeps his promise and shut the fuck up then I will do the same n won't mention him or post about him >for now< but something will still come soon even if he apologized, I'll never forget what he put my through, I know I sound weak I don't care, I won't forget when I was fearing for everything when I felt watched everyway, how I'm skeptical of everyone who sees my accs or talks to me, when I was scared something worse n worse might happen soon, I still feel it and/or even if he goes to my friends, I was scared n felt for everyone whom he has hurt in ways, I tried to not feel even just a bit of sympathy for him, I told him way before that I actually felt pity for him but it was for nothing so I just forced myself to not say anything about it. I will only leave him alone if he actually follows with his own promise and leaves me alone, if he wants to not be enemies fine, we aren't but it doesn't mean you have my mercy nor pity or especially that we are friends, I just want to be someone else, I want to be my own person, I wanted to be a Lapfox artist and not "the person Jackøticon harassed till almost the brink of suicide n quitting drawing" I'm not scared anymore, all I am is tired n drained for how long has this been going, I wanna go back to just being a normal Lapfox artist but whatever.

My response to his apology will be for now hidden away but its not good n I'm honestly scared to be the person who will put Jackøticon back in his ways just because I was honest n point out flaws with his response, along with what I'm planning on. The idea is quitting Lapfox n just all together is still in my head, I won't comment much of it for now until I see the aftermath

Forgive me, that's all i ask for.

I can't stand being looked at wrong and then pretending im much superior and i dont really care. I have a really soft heart and i try to hide it a lot by using characters or whatever my greed likes to use to control me. I have to admit that i can't stand and i dont want the people against me to win, neither they want me to win……. What if we could just agree on apologizing? Just, please, let me be free.

I am… Really sorry embletcon. I have to confess that i love your artstyle and the way you drew jackal (not emoticon) in a dark-cute way, which also made me jealous seeing you not interact with me but still post stuff like that. I was wrong getting on your space and forcing you to be a mutual of mine, i know you wont accept this apology too quick but, i need you to understand that i dont want to continue hating on you and i dont want you to continue making fun of me, i just want to interact with you nicely. I't was a choice made in anger and frustration stealing your art and insulting your mental problems, i have mental problems too, maybe im more sick than you, and i may be right. Please embletcon leave me alone and forgive me, i really want to stop seeing you as a enemy in my life. Will you forgive me?

I never meant to make fun of your family member who passed away, splen. I was never serious and it was made for fun and to joke, but since i have a soft heart i really can't make fun of someone's dead relative even if i hate them. Something i want to add is that i believe it's wrong to leak our DMs, which i never did, i treated you nicely, we did drawings to eachother, i never tried to be rude and you still stopped being my mutual friend? I cant really complain, i was VERY wrong for being racist and rude towards others in the same fandom. Forgive me, i dont want you to look at me wrong.

I cannot believe im saying this but i really think i was wrong for trying to make the owners of the telegram channel lapfox confessions apologize for a small joke they made. I really shouldn't have took it too seriously that night, i shouldn't have. All i've done against you was in anger and frustration and i really never meant to do it seriously. I'm really sorry, really. I seek forgiveness from all of the members from the channel.

sshlushpup, i shouldn't have used your voice and made fun of your re-designs, it was also in anger and frustration.. You are now thinking that i hate you because you side with them and made two videos warning people about me, but i never really hated you, i just wanted you to delete the videos and leave me alone. Forgive me, please, just forgive me and leave me alone. Keep redesigning characters.

Arddennut, sorry if i misspelled your name. Your art or artstyle isn't bad and i was wrong for relating it to fetish art. I have to admit that skinny characters drawn fat are sometimes signs of kink or fetish art, but maybe you draw tqbf fat because he looks cute like that… And i must admit too, he looks cute, i wouldn't want to hug him tho, i dont want to get papercuts. I am sorry, keep drawing just like you do, forgive me.

Mayhem rants, you should… pretty much be the one apologizing but since i am more hated than you i should apologize. Using kettu in a rant account isn't a bad idea, but, after the incident of slimetok picture, i really dont want lapfox's reputation on tik tok be fucked up again, specially with kettu. Please, you shouldn't have also made fun of me and attempt to enrage me more, everyone knows im sensitive with emoticon. Im really sorry and i seek your forgiveness… Keep making rant posts.

I really not in a good mood to continue this, so i'll just leash out what i really think i was wrong for.

I was racist, but im not anymore. Why? I used to consume content on my daily fyp on twitter and tik tok, where dark-skinned people were the ones mostly seen doing crimes and illegal stuff, but light skinned people do too, right? I really thought it was unfair for dark-skinned people to be able to hurt innocent bystanders and breaking stuff while then calling anyone racist who tried to call them out, nobody should be racist but you should also understand that depending on your views, you may be looking at people in different ways like i did. I may continue reposting content of actual news, but it's to spread awareness, not to hate. I am not racist and i am okay if you're dark-skinned or mixed and want to be my friend.

To all the people i've harassed, i am really sorry and i am under your forgiveness. All of the hate i've spitted to everyone was under anger, frustration, hatred and in attempts to finally put an end to this. I am sorry for calling anyone the hard r, i am sorry for calling you faggots, i am sorry for making fun of anything you have in your life, i am just sorry for everything. Please forgive me, please… Just, please, i can only beg, please forgive me.

So… I am very shy talking about this but, about my sexual interests… Everyone has a secret desire, you know?

As i said many times, i ONLY like incest on furry characters, only and always on furry characters. I feel discomfort and disgust at seeing human characters be related to incest and i have even more disgust and discomfort at real life cases. Everyone has a sexual desire, maybe you do, em (creator of lapfox) has several ones and you still support their content. How can i prove this? In their furaffinity, they favorited a post of two deer-furries, both were related, incest. I have a lot of sexual desires, and they are all common and i ONLY prefer it on furries.

brad: hey hon, whats for dinner

susan: vegetable soup

brad: 

susan: what

brad: its just that I had a really long day at work and I was hoping for a little more than….vegetable soup

おかさん　らんちは　ほっとけぇきでちか！？

Mom, are you going to have a pancake for your lunch!?

びよーーーんでち！

こふにも！けぇき！