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I think the thing about being trans for me isn’t that I wish I was born a girl

I couldn’t have been point none

So there’s no use in wishing for something that would have resulted in my death. Besides the obvious.

Maybe ostensibly I just wanted to be pretty and treated like a girl. But the farther I delve in the less I relate to that because no girl I know even acts or lives like that.

Maybe it’s a product of living in the middle of nowhere but women are badass. There the ones out here doing the shit and kicking the ass, softness isn’t a trait that a lot of ppl like around here.

My friend’s complaining that her bf is trying to feminize her and we keep joking that if he wants to forcefem somebody im right here.

Nah but what I’ve realized is that no matter who I am I’m still gonna be the same hardass that grew up and trained to be a brick.

Is it normal to be disphroic about wanting to be a termite queen?

25 years of egg laying and fucking?

Maybe I’ll finally be able to look in the mirror and now want to smash it

Maybe by the time all this is over I’ll finally be somebody I love

If nothing else.

I don’t sin

I embody the sins of humans I am permitted to feel these ways!