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being disordered and painfully feminist at the same time feels like being a fraud. I want the best for all women and will fight all beauty standards and gender norms but i dont apply it to myself.

googling how to kill the part of myself that feels everything deeply without killing myself

does anyone remember that "androphobia" is a real word that means being genuinely Afraid of men. and it's mostly used to describe women who are intensely scared of men following abuse/assault. and this is a whole thing where you can have a service dog that keeps men away. because i remember that, having known several women both cis and trans who were like this, and it really is odd to see the term misused as another word for misandry lol that is not what it means

I don't want a cast of healthy characters I want them all to be varying degrees of suicidal