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I feel like I hardly use tumblr for what’s it intended for but mainly for sad journal entries , since I don’t feel comfortable exposing the darkest parts of my mind to my friends even family... Lately I’ve found it hard to find things worth living for, even for myself isn’t enough of a reason. I moved to Cali to be in love , to work on myself and pursue my dreams . But the reality has just been shattered dreams, broken heart , and obstacle after obstacle and hardship after hardship Not even my love life is nice anymore , I don’t feel like I can trust my bf anymore He cheated on me with only a few months of being here Promises to never do it again, but now what basis do I have to go on when there’s no trust? None . Before I swore he was the one, the one to wipe my tears away , that I was his one and only , but when I saw I wasn’t my perfect thoughts of him diminished leaving an empty shell behind, with low self esteem. Now past a year later , I’ve learned to be stronger , to trust , and to be myself again, but the background thoughts still linger Will he do it again ? Will I be blind again ? Will my heart shatter again ? He’s not the one to wipe my tears away, he only causes them Now I’m realizing that, hopefully I’ll get stronger because honestly I need to, I’m hanging on my last thread here I’ve given it all for this, I can’t give no more One things forsure, I don’t let myself get beat down for too long, eventually I rise up and walk away.